#I'm gonna have a drink ok

[aklahan]

A Different Kind of Courage

Tauriel stared at the river.

"There would be no going back," she whispered. "Not for me, not ever. But he might live."

Aelon leaned forward, his green eyes glowing with the wild recklessness he was known for. But there was also steel in that gaze, and arrogance and courage, and an unbending loyalty to the old ways of the Nandor. He'd made a deal with Fili, and he'd fucked up, and for some ancient reason that made sense in his head, he was offering her the chance to cash in on that debt.

"Ask, Tauriel Gondgwaloth, daughter of Denwech."

A Different Kind of Courage, Fili/Tauriel rarepair fic freshly updated on AO3, currently at 86k words!

#fili #tauriel #fili x tauriel #filiel #the hobbit #beng's writing #fires in the night #oh god this arc #it's done #I'm gonna have a drink ok

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

not really an ask but MY SIBLING DREW YOUR FAIRY FANART!!!!!!!!!

we both love her

AAAA IT’S FAIRY!!!!!

#mdzs #equineswap au #fanart #fairy #oh my GOD your sibling absolutely nailed the design and took it to a whole new level of princess-cute-core #Please give them a big thank you from me! #I'm especially in love with the shoes. Love the idea of the curved shoes for the Jin Ling and Fairy design. Cannot draw them (yet) #Fairy is the type of girl who walks into starbucks and looks like shes gonna get the pink drink or a very complex order #but she's just there for a puppuccino for her little dog that she delicately carries around everywhere #She loves that little spoiled dog so much <3 Jin Ling is the most pampered creature in this entire AU #They don't have puppuccinos in AU canon but she is definitely only feeding him premium meats. #Oh if horses talk do dogs also talk? I cannot recall if dogs also talk in the MLP Canon... #Ok back from the wiki with some horrific knowledge about the animal sentience situation in Equestria #Dog Lore wise; There is *one* dog in the whole series and its applejack's boarder collie Winona. Spike in EQ girls doesnt count. #Jin Ling cannot talk but he thinks his thoughts very loudly

[itslookingback]

:/

#my experience so far with uni has kind of been: #my mind shouting ''am i doing enough. is this normal. i should be doing more. i should be more extroverted'' #but unfortunately i am not more extroverted #guy who never did anything social on weekends before uni now realising that this might have been a bad idea #i don't want myself to become so isolated from other people #but i genuinely don't know what to do #i don't drink. i don't like going out in the evenings (unless there's a quiz). the other queer people i know are more extroverted than me. #i'm sure they're lovely everything just feels intimidating #it just feels like everything is happening a little bit wrong #did the people who said uni is meant to be the best years consider that i am just a bit too autistic for this statement to be true to me #i'm tired of feeling trapped tbh #it's so stupid. i know that the worst that can happen is having an awkward time #i knew i was going to have a worse time at uni than other people but augh. #i KNOW i'm bad at making friends and being in friend groups. i know. i'm just tired #it's not looking good for me when i'm not in uni anymore i'm not gonna lie. if i'm struggling a lot now #teehee #anyway. i should sleep. i'm tired and need to get up early #it's just the second month. it's ok. i'm sure other people are feeling like this as well #mumbles

[albatris]

honestly whatever nat and marián have going on in book two is ten times h*rnier than whatever nat and quinn have going on in book two at the moment and I should probably change that but whatever

#when nat realises he can technically feed from ppl without killing them it opens up some new options for him #but if ur gonna try and do it consensually the best way to up your chances of getting a ''yeah sure go ahead'' is #to maybe hook up w some ppl who have raging vampire kinks #enter marián and millie #the first time they uhhh Hang Out is basically just them getting each other off while Nat bites them and drinks n then #he's just kind of like Ok Cool that was all I'm here for you can kick me out now if u want but they both just #go to town on him lmao #it's what he deserves #idk if I'm gonna actually write it bc uggghhh sexy scenes hard but it's dumb and fun to think about #anyway. sorry for h*rny posting LMAO

[desperatepleasures]

wehhhh pain's at a 5 and fatigue at a 4 today so we're doing our signature "only leave the house for groceries and library" move today

#it's ok I'm drinking lots of various liquids and getting lots of rest #I'm gonna make my classic cucumber salad + miso soup dinner tonight and that way I'll have leftovers to get me through the week #i def need to go to tjoes at some point but oh well #had a fun but busy/overstimulating weekend and a long day at work yesterday so i really need to Recover #but i am showered and fed and i am listening when my nervous system screams at me #maybe later i can try some light yoga...it would feel good to stretch i think

[sschmendrick]

Gotta write a production report for two songs we recorded and I'm gonna have to do at least a third of it for a group of 6 after having done about half of the recording and editing work for one of these two projects...all that cause I still haven't found an internship so I can't just say : do it without me.

It's a little exhausting. I know they will work if I really push them but they'll do it super late and I'll have to revise it when I get back home from the small concert I've allowed myself to go instead of my portuguese lesson (brazilian artist so it's all good my teacher said, I still feel bad) and I'll have to run around tomorrow morning to print it and I'll assume the cost again.

It's...yeah it's exhausting. And my thesis is so far behind, and I still have no internship. I wanna keep strong but man that diploma is slipping away from me. I'm not even sure I have good enough grades at my exams now !

#yeah ok the anxiety is back #I have meds that are over the counter so like not great stuff but I'll just chug that down and hope it does something #plus I'm super stressed cause some of them are coming to a small party at my place (for once that I'm alone without my brother there) #and I was talkign with one of them (the closer one) about maybe coming out to them and he said yeah if you want :) #but now one of them is bringing his girlfriend and I am noooot doing that but also my place is a very intimate space for me #I so rarely invite people over because of that #I should stop drinking coffee it might be helping #my head is killing me #I'm so close to giving up on my studies all together and reimburse my mom #but I don't want to !! the people that inspire me the people i look up to the people i want to be like fought for it and never gave up #I'm not even sure I'm made for these studies. I have no ambition I just want to make people happy with music but the kind I love doesn't #really require me ? cause it's mostly small concerts with acoustics instruments #maybe I should have gone into idk social work but I'm pretty sure I would be way too anxious for it same reason i can't be a therapist #and the situation at home isn't much better rn #I really need to breath rn or I'm gonna be out of commission for so long that it will be even more stressful to do the reports at midnight #I'm gonna chicken out tonight as well and just stand there and listen and not talk to the artist afterwards and try to use the portuguese #I've learned nooo I'm just gonna default to english or french

[ruvviks]

i think one of the best things to teach yourself when you have very bad anxiety is how to say "this is not my problem anymore"

#personal #as in. i left a note saying the containers are full with dirty cups and they took the note and left the cups in the container #so this is not my problem anymore and i won't let it bother me anymore! #if no one else apparently cares enough to pick them up then why should i #or the guy who couldn't find the cups so i told him where they are and when i came back he was just gone #like ok then don't have a drink! i told him all i know so there's no use in thinking about this for the rest of the day #anyway i finished early so i'm just standing here i'm gonna get a drink in a sec and then leave

[thats-a-lot-of-cortisol]

My mom just sent a message to the family group chat suggesting that my siblings download the 'For the Strength of Youth' magazine on their Gospel Library app and talked about how much the youth magazines helped her testimony growing up and like, cool. Fine. Don't know why the 'sending random spiritual thoughts in the gc' thing started out of nowhere when it hadn't been a thing for a decade but this is just another one of those, and you're ofc allowed to talk about things that are significant in your life.

I don't think sending the 'What I Did When Someone Close to Me Challenged My Faith' article right afterwards was strictly necessary though 🙃

#hi bg mutuals 👋 i'm gonna vent about this from time to time. if any mutuals dont want to see it block the 'apostake' tag #trying not to read too much into it b/c I think I did last time something like this happened #and i dont want to make an ass of myself even if neither time would actually be in front of my parents #but like...i know that they know that one of my sisters is clearly PIMO #they went through her phone a couple weeks ago and i have no idea if they read my texts w/ her #but if they did they probably saw the conversation i had with her about some of the really common shelf-breakers #and telling her to take looking into it at her own pace b/c it's scary and overwhelming #(a conversation SHE started btw) #and when i talked to my parents about the larger context of that whole situation i talked about not having space to step back #and their response was that they give plenty of space b/c they dont make her go to seminary??? #that's not the same thing as letting her openly question & potentially leave the church idk what to tell you #like. besties i dont know for sure what caused it (which is NOT making things better. it just feels potentially passive aggressive) #but from my end? it sure looks like it might be a reaction to that. probably not JUST that (friends exist) but. #if you think I'm whispering anti-mormon rhetoric into my siblings' ears just ask me. i'm very much NOT doing that #i'm just. talking? to them? when and if they come to me with questions? #and not making my answer 'well there's a reason our parents raised us in the church! ☺️' #(an actual argument given in the article my mom sent) #hate it. thanks #apostake #jay rambles #ok to interact #im not challenging anyone's faith. my patience though? INCREDIBLY challenged #gotta figure out how to work my way around a 'hey please dont send spiritual thoughts to the gc *I'm in*' talk tactfully #they've been pretty chill about me leaving over-all?? at least to my face #haven't pushed me to go to church w/ them; was fine with me not visiting for easter; didnt try to convince me to not drink coffee; etc #it's just. frustrating that they're not giving my siblings that still live with them that same grace #my sister's 17 ffs #it's very possible im way overreacting to the article. but what is tumblr for if not screaming into the void #religion #mormonism

[vimbry]

saw a really fun show tonight! got home took pee and became an ex-member of the never passed out club

#it's oversharing time on tumblr bc I'm a little freaked and have never fainted before haha #we got home and I just suddenly got a lot of pelvic discomfort and nausea like food poisoning #at some point I was thinking oh better go tell my mum in case she needs the bathroom/wondering why I've been up there a while #hey listen don't come upstairs I'm gonna poop massively #and apparently I did actually do that. but I don't remember because the next thing I saw was her looking over me on the floor downstairs #so I still feel like I dreamt that conversation and also the first few things said to me waking up #which is probably normal for passing out right. #really surreal and not a fun thing to happen. fortunately only happened for a few seconds but felt like I was out longer #I'm sure experienced faintees are looking at this as no big deal but it kinda shook me ngl #I'm better so I think I'm just dehydrated (I do drink through the day. maybe it's still not enough as it should be tho?) #but apparently I went grey and blue lipped which is just scary for everyone! I'm ok now #I'm just lying here searching my symptoms and going hm. fascinsting like a cartoon scientist in-between being dramatic and scared #I never did poop

[byanyan]

crazy how much better talking to someone can make u feel

#was actually having a terrible night but finally opening up to my mom helped sm #idk sometimes I forget how much genuinely straight up talking can help afkgskg #.........ok actually alcohol helped but like. that's bc it took me drinking to build up the courage to talk #which is a me issue more than anything but ahfkgkshsgj #yeah. idk. sorry I'm still sucking at keeping up w things buttttttttt #I'm kinda a dumbass for hoping I might get anything done tonight lmaoooooo #I need to get better at accepting my own limitations I think #........anyway. sorry for still not doing stuff I'll get back to things eventually but rn I need to be chill with what I can & can't manage #u know? if I need to take the weekend to properly fucking FINALLY let my brain relax I will #and if I'm chill enough to vibe w writing while I'm relaxing?? that's great!!!! #but I'm not gonna pressure myself I'm all vibes for the next few days bc that's what I fuckin need #that said.... I do love y'all 💜💜 ty for ur patience bc I need it so badly rn #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[greppelheks]

Totally fucked up from three little glasses of wine with food. Guess i really was tired. Had so much fun having drinks with three wonderful, kind women, and completely and fully fell in love with one of the women's five year old son. Honestly the sweetest, most polite, smartest little boy I've ever met. 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

#she asked if she could bring him because her husband was late #and everybody was so excited because he's so sweet #and he's so talkative #he was telling us all about superman and spiderman and snakes and frogs #and he was giggling away over a story he told he's so precious #tiny tiny little man with red hair #want to put him in my pocket #personal #The three women I was with are so kind so sweet so interested #Theyre the best communicaters and these are just women where hanging out with them doesn't exhaust #But gives me energy #I love them! #I'm gonna make some dinner because wow 3 drinks really? And then I'm gonna start my reading journal! #ok god bless this food just completely sobered me up #gonna make some coffee and have fun not being at woooork! #god bless three days off ahead of me yeehaw

[twilightarcade]

Opinions and THOUGHTS

like in general or...

Ummm! I don't like crunchy foods that are like. Soft. You know like onions and stuff?? Hate those om a texture basis. Also mushrooms.. don't have too much a problem with the taste but it isn't quite worth the texture. That's not really an opinion more of a preference but I don't really have any ground breaking opinions I think so let's pretend ok

OH um!! Opinion I think 125% zoom shouldn't be the default zoom because that's literally huge which like I know it's different bur I'm special pleadingface the world has to revolve around me. Alsoalso I hate hate hate that TouchPad thing where sometimes if you touch it it'll stay touched except it's so weird!!! Unpredictable n such..

^^^ guy who just got new laptop voice anyway hi future us here this was written like 5 years ago ummmmmmm let's see here

ok you knwo right noow we're laying in bed actually so not many thoughts. Tomorrow is friyay I suppose...... This weeekend though !! Going to be out like all weekend to help some stupid middle schoolers (I LOVE tjem so much) (theyre so tiny.) (some of them are taller than me but we don't talk about that) except like i've been putting off coding this thhimh (TECHNICALLY NOT MY FAULT !! IM NOT UNDER CONTRACT AND HAVENT BEEN ABLE 2 MAKE THE MEETINGS) so im going to need to finish it in like. A day. And sorta pray ....

#askstag #SOSOSO behind on things don't look ........ #anyways also this weekend my mom wanted me to figure out how to make these like granola bar whatever #that are like. 4 dollars each (ABSOLUTELY INSANE !) at this cafe and they're really good allegedly #so i'm gonna figure out how to make them 4 her 👍 #BUT like i never make. Granola bars. So it's gonna be fun. #Ermmm these aren't really thoughts more an account of my life I suppose #It was snowing like? Yesterday. Absolutely huge snowflakes made me so happy #I was TOO tired today apparently and i talked a lot (BAD !!) absolutely horrendous. Not an articulate individual when tired. #it's ok though nothing can damage my upstanding reputation 👊👊 everyone loves me (<- lying) #been really sleepy lately but also havennr really been eating latelyso going 2 try n fix that #ALSO NEED A MUG ! Like i have one except SOMEONE likes to use it all the time (there's several others) #but like. That's the only one that feels nice yk #the design is nice on the eyes AND the shape is really nice. What more do you need in a mug #now i juust need to start drinking coffee or somethibg. Then my hashtag mug liffe will be complete #been sorta mulling over the people in my family as of late and it's really funny. Would share if that wasn't #like. People in my family. Safety or whatever. #it's like if you got a bunch of guys who hated each other and locked them in a room together yk #they would slay in a death game

[jack-owo-valentine]

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#cooking pizza rolls #no idea I'm supposed to eat them. ik they give me an allergic reaction but it's better than idk more bread or nothing #ig the stuff wasn't working that I usually use #so had 2 do it kinda wrong- gonna hope that's ok- generally so anxious I just wanna sob #my step mom just got home #didn't say much #grabbed a bunch of bread #olive(?) oil n put it in a bowl #mentioned it's great for you and #rubbed it on her hands and face #said the Italians do it and even drink it #added salt and pepper and left #generally im not ok #un #i keep crying #im constantly afraid of getting in trouvle #my eating habits are a lot worse again #im p sure im having ptsd episodes #and generally #im not ok

[the-potato-beeper]

everything is BAD and AWFUL and i'm GRUMPY >:(

#key speaks #on my period and i have 2 midterms that i am Very worried about #i'm gonna faaaaaiiiiiilllllllllllllll #but i don't wanna study #i don't wanna do anything #every single thing i think about doing is met with a resounding NO from my brain #even like #playing video games or drinking my rly good frappe #>:( #i am ANGEY and upset >:{ #ok actually >:{ is kinda cute #it's a mustache! but also a mouth #it's an old man #an angry and confused old man #i'm just saying things now but it sort of cheers me up soooooo

[aroacehanzawa]

The Half Life of Valery K by Natasha Pulley would be so good if it was good

#i'm gonna have to revive my goodreads account just to leave a bad review AND send 10 million ranting voice messages to my friend tomorrow #ok first the premise was good and based on true history about the ussr's secret nuclear testing facility City 40 #the first half of the book had well-written mystery and the atmosphere was truly chilling it was a great cold war era thriller #unfortunately this book has too many flaws and just things that are straight up bad #such as: the mc is an uwuified scientist ex prisoner who GUESS WHAT worked directly under joseph mengele on human experiments??? #and it's just like but uwu he was still young and had no choice #well the author had a choice and if you're gonna write something like that at least explore the topic properly???????? #oh yeah and an entire prisoner train carriage of women gets raped by all the male prisoner except for valery our heroic mc #who couldn't do anything about it then until he laters kills all of those men with a bomb so he gets a traumatic AND a heroic backstory #and then the love interest: the kgb man with a wife and 4 kids he dearly loves but who conveniently get written off at the end #with no clear resolution as to what actually happened to his family after he defects abroad and he barely even mentions them afterwards???? #oh yeah and our mc has some wildly anachronistic sjw-esque tumblr feminisms that the author forced in seemingly to make up for her #treatment of the actual female characters in the book??? #the science was sound for the most part except the so-called scientist characters were being STUPID about it #they're like ohhh i wonder what are these weird mud geysers that keep popping off when we're not on volcanic ground #THAT'S THE GODDAMN HEAT FROM THE RADIOACTIVE WASTE AND I KNEW THAT FROM THE FIRST MENTION OF THESE GEYSERS #also the authir doesn't know how russian surnames work and wildly overestimates the amount of coffee that russians drink #and wildly underestimates the alcohol tolerance of 50+ year old bulky kgb officers and doesn't seem to know that the russian language #is gendered. like she writes a whole monologue for valery complaining about being called mister by the english because it's gendered???? #also the whole resolution of the book is like a mediocre action thriller airport novel compared to the tense and atmospheric beginning #nah i'm going to sleep. good night

[taichissu]

ok but i can't handle black coffee drinkers bc like

while i dislike both coffee and tea, tea drinkers just feel so Out Of It when talking about real tea and proper brewing and shit i can't really take it all that seriously

coffee drinkers are always those dude bros who actually only drink one kind of coffee ever and god forbid you add any cream or sugar to it it's this puritan who has been dating his girlfriend since high school and they don't love each other anymore they both know they cheat on each other but they don't want to break up because they don't want the change

#and their argument is always smn like #'no you simply havent learned to appreciate the flavor of pure coffee' #bro foods and drinks shouldn't be a 'skill' to 'learn' #if i dont like something im not gonna force myself into drinking it until i learn to tolerate it and pavlov myself into thinking i like it #just because 'ive been drinking it this whole time so i must like it' #liking food is not something you should have to learn #that goes out to picky eaters out there too: you dont gotta force yourself to eat something you deeply dislike just bc of other people #I'm rambling i dont even know if it makes sense #i'm just tired of how condensending every single coffee drinker has been to me my whole life when i say i cant handle bitter flavors #'you just need to learn' well i don't want to learn have you considered it #why are people trying to enforce their likes and dislikes onto other people #oh so its ok for you to like coffee but its fucked up for me to eat traditional food from my country bc its 'nasty' and 'fermented'? #fuck off #i made myself angry #also for clarification: when i say tea n coffee drinkers i dont mean anyone who's into those things brewing and blending can be your hobby #who i mean is those people who act all high and mighty and get offended when you drink cheap plain options