#I'll excuse it

[wander-over-the-words]

File this under Best Comments I’ve Ever Gotten and Comments That Destroyed Me Emotionally

(Was a comment on my 2nd BioShock 2 fic, The Villain of Another Story)

#wandering over the words #that post about rereading fic reminded me #god this DESTROYED ME!! #GAH #that fic is still my baby #prime example of ''I wrote this for me but you guys can read it too I guess'' lmao #I'm not 100% on how I wrote Delta in it but it was during the time I was still figuring him out so #I'll excuse it

[bixels]

Learning that fans hated Applejack and called her "boring" is crazyyy to me because I genuinely, unironically believe AJ's the most complex character in the main six.

Backstory-wise, she was born into a family of famers/blue collar workers who helped found the town she lives in. She grew up a habitual liar until she had the bad habit traumatized outta her. She lost both her parents and was orphaned at a young age, having to step up as her baby sister's mother figure. She's the only person in the main gang who's experienced this level of loss and grief (A Royal Problem reveals that AJ dreams about memories of being held by her parents as a baby). She moved to Manhattan to live with her wealthy family members, only to realize she'll never fit in or be accepted, even amongst her own family. The earlier seasons imply she and her family had money problems too (In The Ticket Master, AJ wants to go to the gala to earn money to buy new farm equipment and afford hip surgery for her grandma).

Personality-wise, she's a total people-pleaser/steamroller (with an occasional savior complex) who places her self worth on her independence and usefulness for other people, causing her to become a complete workaholic. In Applebuck Season, AJ stops taking care of herself because of her obsessive responsibilities for others and becomes completely dysfunctional. In Apple Family Reunion, AJ has a tearful breakdown because in she thinks she dishonored her family and tarnished her reputation as a potential leader –– an expectation and anxiety that's directly tied to her deceased parents, as shown in the episode's ending scene. In The Last Roundup, AJ abandons her family and friends out of shame because believes she failed them by not earning 1st place in a rodeo competition. She completely spirals emotionally when she isn't able to fulfill her duties toward others. Her need to be the best manifests in intense pride and competitiveness when others challenge her. And when her pride's broken, she cowers and physically hides herself.

Moreover, it's strongly implied that AJ has a deep-seated anger. The comics explore her ranting outbursts more. EQG also obviously has AJ yelling at and insulting Rarity in a jealous fit just to hurt her feelings (with a line that I could write a whole dissection on). And I'm certain I read in a post somewhere that in a Gameloft event, AJ's negative traits are listed as anger.

Subtextually, a lot of these flaws and anxieties can be (retroactively) linked to her parents' death, forcing her to grow up too quickly to become the adult/caregiver of the family (especially after her big brother becomes semiverbal). Notice how throughout the series, she's constantly acting as the "mom friend" of the group (despite everything, she manages to be the most emotionally mature of the bunch). Notice how AJ'll switch to a quieter, calmer tone when her friends are panicking and use soothing prompts and questions to talk them through their emotions/problems; something she'd definitely pick up while raising a child. Same with her stoicism and reluctance at crying or releasing emotions (something Pinkie explicitly points out). She also had a childhood relationship with Rara (which, if you were to give a queer reading, could easy be interpreted as her first 'aha' crush), who eventually left her life. (Interestingly enough, AJ also has an angry outburst with Rara for the same exact reasons as with EQG Rarity; jealous, upset that someone else is using and changing her). It's not hard to imagine an AJ with separation anxiety stemming from her mother and childhood friend/crush leaving. I'm also not above reading into AJ's relationship with her little sister (Y'all ever think about how AB never got to know her parents, even though she shares her father's colors and her mother's curly hair?).

AJ's stubbornness is a symptom of growing up too quickly as well. Who else to play with your baby sister when your brother goes nonverbal (not to discount Big Mac's role in raising AB)? Who else to wake up in the middle of the night to care for your crying baby sister when your grandma needs her rest? When you need to be 100% all the time for your family, you tend to become hard-stuck with a sense of moral superiority. You know what's best because you have to be your best because if you're aren't your best, then everything'll inevitably fall apart and it'll be your fault. And if you don't know what's best –– if you've been wrong the whole time –– that means you haven't been your best, which means you've failed the people who rely on you, which means you can't fulfill your role in the family/society, which makes you worthless . We've seen time and time again how this compulsive need to be right for the sake of others becomes self-destructive (Apple Family Reunion, Sound of Silence, all competitions against RD). We've seen in The Last Roundup how, when no longer at her best, AJ would rather remove herself from her community than confront them because she no longer feels of use to them.

But I guess it is kinda weird that AJ has "masculine" traits and isn't interested in men at all. It's totally justified that an aggressively straight, misogynistic male fandom would characterize her as a "boring background character." /s

At the time of writing this, it's 4:46AM.

#mlp #yeah i wrote this last night during insomnia. #yeah i know an embarrassing amount of crap about this kids show #but whatever it's my hyperfixation i'll store as much useless information as i want!!! #i'm gay and neurodivergent i have an excuse #in case you needed more proof that aj's my favorite character #personal #delete later #unless you like this analysis stuff #i get why they didn't reveal aj's parent's death until way later and why they didn't do much with it but i wish they did #cuz narratively there could've been so much material with aj's grief. like. i feel like we gloss over the fact that she lost her #mother and father as a teenager #i tried keeping my personal hcs out of this to keep it unbiased #but i'll put some in the tags #involving rarijack –– i think aj can be (but not always) very self-conscious about her relationship with rarity #anxieties that she's not the right fit or that rarity will move away and leave her some day or that another woman will take her attention #(like in rollercoaster of friendship?? nudge nudge??). basic seperation anxiety stuff #long post #regarding applebloom whenever i think about her and her parents i think about that scene in steven universe where steven looks up at #a portrait of his mother and openly wonders what kind of sack lunches she would've made for him. that episode still fucks me up

[0hpotato]

old atla fanart from 2020 hihi

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#never made aang and katara but maybe i'll try this year #avatar the last airbender #atla #toph #katara #mai #zuko #sokka #suki #digital art #krita art #artists on tumblr #mine #i dont think my 'style' has changed that much tbh #pls excuse how disjointed the styles are i did them over a couple months and couldn't pick one lol

[sketchy-tour]

Thank you, Remderem!

#WALLY SITTING ON THE CLOUD I DID IT AARAAH #Ended up coming out a lil janky but we take the Ls and we post anyway!!!!!!! #and by we I mean just me #Another excuse to draw Wally with a robe on is an excuse I'll take any fucking day #He just looks SO FUCKING COZY!!!!!! #Been doing little Wally doodle studies again and this one was one of the sketches that I decided to finish! #which might be why it looks a bit jank but OH WELL! #welcome home #welcome home fanart #welcome home puppet show #welcome home arg #welcome home wally #wally darling #WH wally #wally darling fanart #my art

[solroskajan]

:D

#I've been wanting to draw something like this #thank you for giving me the excuse #nuziv #vuzin #murder drones #my art #I'll get to the other requests eventually! #(except for the crossover and oc requests i'm so sorry but I don't do those right now) #again there are 3 requests that I really want to combine #I'll probably draw other things in between though #okay i'll just tag all the ships #nuzi #vuzi #envy #they give me so much joy #!!! #both uzi and v are going to die of embarrassment later btw #especially uzi

[asturlavi]

the dungeons of fear and hunger

#fear and hunger #cahara #ragnvaldr #le'garde #d'arce #enki #bls don't look at the mistakes i'll render it when i have more time #also lmk if there's an interest in funger prints bc i have a con coming up and will use any and all excuse to give people funger merch.....

[solarpunkani]

sometimes spite is a powerful motivator and today its motivating me to crochet

long story short I saw a cool bag on pinterest while I was looking for crochet patterns but there was no fucking pattern but one of my friends found a pattern for a similar but not quite bag so I watched an hour long video, transcribed it into text, and am now gonna make a wholeass backpack just because Sunflower Vibe

Wish me luck I guess

Also this is the bag

#anis crochet journey #ani rambles #out of queue #do i have enough green yarn for this? no idea #if i need more I'll go buy more it'll be a nice excuse to get myself a cute planner for garden planning anyways #'ani dont you carry a purse around everywhere what would you carry in this extra bag' idk yet but its CUTE I will FIND A REASON #also if anyone asks yes I'm willing to share the transcription if someone wants it #like literally if someone reblogs or replies to this post 'plz transcription' i will post a link to the google doc in an INSTANT #i spent like 2 hours on that transcription I want it to be APPRECIATED (by more than just me)

[pharawee]

Seiji✨Pan✨Ken

—DEEP NIGHT THE SERIES · Special Episode

#deep night #deep night the series #seijipanken #neptune bhurichon #chalarm siam #seagames teerapat #deepnightedit #thai bl #thai drama #bl drama #bl series #my edits. #pls excuse the quality of these #i was in a hurry and the scene was weirdly muted and blurry #i should have expected this special to be extremely light on content #the insurance ad was a bit of a surprise though 🤣 #so cute to see pan and ken all cuddly together though #guess i'll have to pray to the god of fanfic now 🙏

[fudgecake-charlie]

Say cheese for the team ZITS reunion pic!! i lied about it being a while until i did art

#hermitcraft #hermitcraft season 10 #team ZITS #tangotek #zedaph #impulsesv #skizzleman #Got an excuse to sit and draw for a few hours so of course my go to was them <3 #i really wanted to make this a painting but it wasn't working with me OTL i'll try again some time #i forgot impulse's visor and skizz's scars but that's ok #[scheduled]

[tarashima]

Does Adam know bisexuality is a thing? Should we tell him?

#my art #adamsapple #guitarduck #hazbin hotel lucifer #hazbin hotel adam #hazbin hotel #think I'm getting closer to how I want to draw Adam but blep #please excuse my bad humour I'll see myself out

[flowerakatsuka]

LET'S HEAR IT FOR OUR NEETS!!

#i'm late but whatever that's fine 😭 #i've been wanting to draw them in my actual art style for a while so their birthday was a good excuse to do it #* holds totty's hand * i stg i'll make your season 3 fit work #i hope ya'll like my lil headcanons for how they look #i like giving them small differences in stuff like height #but also some of the brothers sharing traits with each other that not all of them have ( like kara & jyushi's bottom eyelashes ) #how old are they old now? 32?? grown ass men..... #OKAY I HAVE WORK IN THE MORNING I NEED TO GO TO BED #osomatsu-san #osmt #osomatsu #osomatsu m #karamatsu #karamatsu ma #choromatsu #choromatsu matsuno #ichimatsu #ichimatsu matsuno #jyushimatsu #jyushimatsu matsuno #todomatsu #todomatsu matsuno #matsuno bros #mj draws

[raggedy-spaceman]

Ineffable husbands + singing

#good omens #good omens spoilers #good omens 2 #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #gos2 spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #go2 spoilers #good omens season 2 #michael sheen #david tennant #aziraphale #crowley #i'll be honest this is just an excuse to gif aziraphale being cute #obsessed with the way he counts every time before singing #he's so pure my god #also the way he gets it wrong the first time he sings it to maggie but then he learned it by the time he sang it to crowley #sigh #i love them #mine

[soosoosoup]

Head empty, except for brop

#dreamworks trolls #trolls #trolls poppy #trolls branch #broppy #saw this dress with a mini cardigan and had to give one to poppy #though we can't really see it since she's sitting away from us... lol #branch has like... a mini moss cloak?? i guess??? #tbh i just let the vibes guide me with this #one day i'll draw someone other than broppy #trolls fanart #excuse the messiness #my art <3

[stefisdoingthings]

people are designing modern manga characters thinking they should be animator friendly/not too complex/coherent,,,,,,,

meanwhile Nightow in the 1990s:

#trigun #gungrave #i find myself rather funny (not at all) #just wanted an excuse to use the burning letters okay #yasuhiro nightow #trigun maximum #trimax #trigun meme #vash the stampede #legato bluesummers #beyond the grave #brandon heat #also vash's design not being coherent is killing me but also lets me do whatever the fuck i want with his clothes and not question it #that's what nightow did that's what i'll do #shut up stef

[chanrizard]

Again＆Again | Special Performance Movie Bang Chan

#bystay #staysource #createskz #channiesnet #staydaily #skz #bang chan #usersun #userlau #usertsu #melontrack #meltracks #usersemily #dreamytag #userbeepls #le mie creature #fun sized australian steak #i needed an excuse to see if the new watermark works and i think i'll keep it ahjsbsb #should i change my url to gnabsnacc tho?

[buggachat]

i do just have to say though.................... i feel like people who really really loved the movie's portrayals of the characters are adding aspects of the show characters onto them? you know what i mean? like i see people say that adrien and marinette were more likeable in the movie than the show, when movie adrien didn't perform a single act of kindness in the entire 2 hours despite kindness being a core trait of adrien in the show? marinette was normal and not particularly weird at all and just kind of a generic protagonist? were adrien and marinette actually more interesting in the movie than the show, or are you just cherrypicking the aspects of them you like the from the show and putting them on the movie characters to make your favorite amalgamation?

marinette fell for adrien not because he showed vulnerability and forgiveness and kindness and opened his heart up to her.... but because he awkwardly tried to help her up after being kind of weirded out by her? so like i guess she thought he was hot and that was basically it? chat noir fell for ladybug not because she was strong and confident and showed determination in the face of fear... but because she begrudgingly helped him up in the middle of a battle? so like i guess he thought she was hot and that was basically it? they fell for each other over just the bare minimum interactions? most of their relationship was a montage? like, did the movie do the work to convince you of lovesquare's romantic potential, or did you go into the movie already shipping them because the show had already convinced you?

thats totally a valid way to enjoy the movie ftr! i'm just saying.... idk it's weird to see people praising the movie for being "better" when i feel like a lot of the enjoyment of the movie actually hinges on watching the show as context for their characters. and i guess im just a cringe slow-burn enjoyer but i find it weird that people are using "faster" as a synonym for "better"

#ml movie spoilers #ml movie #to be clear i dont hate the movie it's fine #it was fun enough to watch #we dont talk about plagg #i guess im mostly just '?' about people dismissing all the work the show put in #i just know people are gonna use this post as an excuse to hate on the show but auauaggghhh i really dont care if you hate the show lol #in fact thats kind of the point. i find it weird people are using the movie as an excuse to dunk on the show when the movie didnt #actually do anything particularly substantial #ml fandom salt #<- i guess? i'll tag it to be safe