#I’m so excited to read the new chapter! (I’ve been doing family stuff all day so I am waiting until I can savor the awesomeness)

[agirlwithdemonblood]

Celebrity Next Door - Chapter 18

Pairings: Jensen Ackles & Reader (Read as first person!)

Series Summary: Moving to a new location is difficult but living next to somebody you’d never expect to meet, and catching feelings? That’s damn near impossible to comprehend.

Chapter Summary: New house, new memories, new life.

Warnings: Slight angst, comfort, anxieties, flashbacks, buuuut lots of sexxxy smut so enjoy! ;)

Series Masterlist here! Main masterlist here!

Texas, here we come. 

I was nervous, anxious and scared to move, to finally take this step but ever since last night's events, I’ve never been more excited. We told the kids this morning and their reactions were better than we thought they where going to be. Katie was excited to have an “endless sleepover” and constant tea parties, and Kevin just seemed… happy. Genially happy. He even hugged his dad which was a shock. 

We all said goodbye to my family at the house. I didn’t really want a goodbye at the airport after last night, even though I’ve forgiven most of them. I just wanted to start this new chapter with my new family, just us. 

We arrived in Texas later that afternoon, dropped the kids off back at their mom's, and headed to our new home, together. I was excited and happy, Jensen seemed to be also, but there was something bothering him beneath the surface and I couldn’t figure out what it was. 

I gave him time and patience as we unloaded all our luggage from the car and brought it to our new bedroom. He was trying really hard to keep up the happy guy act, but his smile wasn’t as bright, his eyes looked worried and concerned like he was scared to say whatever he wanted to. 

After our clothes were put away, I crossed the room to where he was sitting on the bed. I sat in between his legs, facing him. My hand moved to his cheek and he grinned while he rested against it. “You doing okay?” I questioned lightly. 

He sighed and nodded before his gaze looked to the floor. “Sort of.”

“What’s going on?”

He stood slowly as his hands ran through his hair, “I don’t want to ruin today by complaining about my stuff honey, it’s okay I’m good.”

I shook my head and stood with him, grabbing his hand in mine. “You're not ruining anything, what’s wrong?”

He shook his head and turned towards me, hands on my arms. “I just.. fuck it’s so stupid.” He paused to laugh at himself, “I thought I’d come home with you and the house would be fresh, but I can’t get it out of my head.”

I tilted my head in confusion before I realized what he meant. “The stuff that happened between you and Danneel?”

He nodded sadly. 

I hugged him tight and my heart broke for him. I could understand that, the triggers, flashbacks of events that occurred. I wouldn’t ever blame him. 

He lifted his head to face me and frowned, “I’m sorry. It’s not fair, this is your first day in our home and I’m ruining it with my own shit.”

I shook my head, “No, you're not. The last time you’ve really lived here was chaotic and hard on you, I get that.”

He sighed and sat back on the edge of the bed, “I don’t understand. I’m over what happened, but for some reason ever since I’ve walked in here my chest is tight and I feel like I’m going to have a panic attack.”

I nodded and sat beside him, holding his hand tightly in mine. “It’s a trigger. A flashback. You might have forgiven and moved on but it’s hard to forget the pain you’ve been through, especially when you return to the scene where the pain occurred in the first place.”

His hands moved to his hair as he ran his fingers through them, his breathing a little heavier than usual. I moved close, my hand against his back and my mouth by his ear. “Hey, you're okay Jensen, just take a deep breath.”

He nodded and took a shaky breath in before exhaling deep. He kept it up, holding the breath in and then slowly pushing out until I felt his shoulders relax a bit. 

I smiled when his head turned towards me, a weak grin spread across his face. “Thank you honey.”

Shaking my head, I kissed him gently. “Don’t need to thank me. I’m here.”

A few hours had passed and Jensen was in a better mood, we unpacked more stuff, it didn’t take long considering I didn’t have much but Jensen ordered new bed sheets, new blankets, basically anything that was shared with Daneel was replaced.

I didn’t mind either way. I mean, it was thoughtful and kind, but I knew it was mainly for himself. Starting fresh. That’s what we both needed. 

And that’s when a thought crossed my mind. A dirty, hot, and exciting thought. Maybe we needed to replace the memories here, give eachother a memory that we can hold onto forever. 

Jensen was in the kitchen putting away the dishes when I escaped to the bedroom, changing into the only piece of lingerie I owned, and internally thanking myself for buying it even when I thought I’d never use it. 

I never wore something like this before, there was never a chance and my body confidence wasn’t strong enough to show it off, but tonight I was determined to give Jensen an image he wouldn’t soon forget. 

I pulled on the black and pink laced bra and tightened it before sliding on the matching pink thong. The fishnets were next and I cursed at whoever created such a difficult piece of clothing for women.

When I was dressed, I looked in the mirror and blew out a breath. 

Even without the confidence, I knew Jensen was going to be blown away by my outfit choice. 

When I came back into the kitchen, Jensen's back was turned towards me and I smiled nervously. I cleared my throat and Jensen turned his head slightly but not enough to see me. 

“Doing good honey?” He questioned. 

I laughed lightly and leaned against the counter to give him a nice view if he would ever turn around. “Yeah I’m good. I’ll be better in a few minutes.”

He chuckled, “Oh yeah? Why’s that?”

This time I laughed loudly and shook my head. “Well, if you’d ever turn around you’d know.”

He tossed the towel down and finally turned before he froze, eyes locked in on my body, redness filling his face from the tip of his ears to his cheeks. 

His mouth dropped open slightly into an o shape, and he sucked in a breath. 

“Oh… wow. Holy shit Y/N, you look… Jesus.”

I smiled as my own cheeks burned red, coming around the counter to show it off. My fingers traced up and down his chest, eyes trailing with it. I smirked and leaned into his ear. “Wait till you see the back.”

He swallowed hard as I turned around, giving him a nice clear view of my ass that he loved so much. He groaned underneath his breath and I could feel him watching me, staring at every piece of skin he could see. “My god, you are just… gorgeous. I’m a lucky man.”

I giggled and turned back towards him, “Well, I was thinking maybe we both could be lucky. Maybe we could christen every room in this house, start our new life with some good memories.”

He nodded frantically and pulled me close, nails digging into my hips tightly. “I’m game.”

I smirked and moved to the counter, my back against him. “Well, I was thinking maybe here first… you could fuck me against our new kitchen island….”

He gasped and before I could say anything, his hands where on the globes off my ass, pulling me towards him. He leaned closer to my ear leaving goosebumps everywhere. “You want me to bend you over and fuck you right here?”

I bit my lip to stifle the moan and nodded, before his hand came to my hair, pulling me backwards until my back was flush against his chest. “Words honey.”

“Yes… yes I want you to fuck me right here.”

He stayed silent but the sound of his belt sliding out of the loops sent shivers down my spine. Jensen usually wasn’t dominating in bed, but it was certainly a nice change of events. 

His hand moved to the back of my neck as he pushed me down onto the counter, a gasp leaving my lips as the cold tile pressed against my exposed skin and my cheek. 

“Put your hands on the sides of the counter, and hold on.” He demanded.

I quickly did as he said, waiting in anticipation for him to give me what I so desperately needed, but he was taking his time. 

His fingers moved lower, tracing overtop of my panties causing me to squirm. He groaned in his throat and leaned closer to kiss my back. “Your already soaked, you really like this eh?”

I nodded and breathed deep, trying to hold back begging him to fuck me, but I was ready to. 

He chuckled lightly as his hands moved back to my hips. “Ready?”

I just started to nod my head when his cock slammed deep inside, causing my body to shoot forward. My hands gripped the counter tightly as a loud and needy moan escaped my lips. He panted against me, desperate to fill me as much as he possibly could.He was relentless and rough in such a good way, pounding me over and over again, hips slamming against mine, pushing and pressing against me so hard. 

It felt like he was punishing me, like he hated me and I loved it. I knew he loved me, I knew that he wasn’t taking anything out on me, but it just felt freeing to have him completely in control, demanding my body, taking what was his.

My hands were going white against the counter and every slam was starting to ache on my stomach to the point were it really hurt. I lifted my head dizzily, and turned the best I could towards him. “J-Jensen..”

He stilled his movements and leaned over, brushing the hair from my face, “Yeah? You alright?”

I nodded and rested my head back down, “Just… the counter hurts a bit.”

He slowly pulled out of me as his hand came to my arms, spinning me around gently. He smiled and bent lower, grabbing my thighs to lift me up. 

As gently as possible, he picked me up and brought me to the kitchen table before laying me down on my back. I sighed contently and nodded, “Much better.”

He smirked, his hand moving down to stroke his hard cock before he slid back inside me in one swift motion. I leaned my head back and whimpered as he filled me up to the point where I didn’t think he could reach any further, but every thrust, every movement felt like he was hitting spots I didn’t realize were there. 

He leaned over me, hands grabbing mine to hold them in place. “This is better anyways, I like seeing your gorgeous face as I fuck you.”

My eyes slammed shut as his words brought me closer to the edge, every word that rolled off his tongue pushed me further and further. “Oh god, oh fuck, yes Jensen, please more.”

His hands pulled down on my hips, forcing me closer and himself deeper, causing my eyes to roll back in my head. He groaned loudly as he watched me fall apart, desperate to get me there.

“Oh fuck, your so fucking hot baby, so damn delicious.” He spoke hungrily.

I nodded and opened my eyes, my hand reaching for the back of his head to pull him lower. He smirked as his eyes glanced on my lips, kissing them deeply. 

I could feel the shockwaves crashing through my entire body, legs shaking with pleasure and hot white lights exploding before my eyes, I was there, and I just needed a push. He groaned as his forehead dropped against mine, “Oh fuck your so tight.”

“P-Please… Jensen…” I choked out.

He lifted his head as his hand came to my cheek, “What do you need?”

“S-So close…”

He nodded in understanding as he sat up gently, pulling my legs over his shoulders to get as deep as he could. His other hand moved to my clit, rubbing the nub so roughly that I thought I might explode right here. “I’m right behind you honey, cum for me.”

I closed my eyes tight as I felt the coil start to snap, my vision went dark and the entire world around me was spinning, rotating like I was about to fall off.

He let out a rather loud moan as he pumped a few more times, exploding right inside of me. 

When he stilled, the room was filled with breathy gasps for air and hot sticky arousal, filled with love and passion, exactly how I wanted it to be.

He gently pulled out of me and rushed to grab a towel before cleaning me up and fixing my clothes. I stayed where I was, unsure if I would even be able to walk after that. He leaned over me, bright lust blown eyes staring right back at me. He smiled lightly and kissed my cheek. “Are you okay?”

I nodded lazily and fluttered my eyes open, “Yeah, I’m good just… exhausted.”

He smirked and helped me to my feet, holding me tightly against him. 

“Well, why don’t we go take a nap, and than we can see how many other rooms we can christen if your up to it?”

I giggled playfully and nodded, “Yeah, I’m game.”

“Hey, that’s my line.”

I laughed loudly and shook my head, walking towards the bedroom to get some sleep, “It’s mine now.”

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Yeah, also since I read manga weekly, any spoiler that I do see usually isn’t major like that one. It really did. And like I said, I was with extended family and it was so difficult not to cry as much as I wanted to and I only managed to keep myself calm with the thought that there might be more to it, it might not be final beause he really is just such a fun character. That’s so nice to hear and I’m also excited to see you write about them 😃 Yeah, other people also predict autumn at the latest and it would make the most sense considering everything that’s happening in the story. Yeah, same here. Like I do really love the series and am always excited to read a new chapter every Friday evening (when there’s no break), it’s pretty much become my routine to read it after dinner, but even though I love it dearly and will probably at some point rewatch the anime, I wouldn’t say I love it as much as some of the other series out there. And I see. And that might also explain why I don’t love it as much as some other series out there beause of that.

From what I saw after a quick search, both Persona 3 and 4 have less than 100 chapters. Sure thing. Oh, that’s unfortunate to hear. I’m sorry that happened and hope that you’re still able to rest properly at some point. But still glad to hear that you’re doing well ☺ I see. And it is a nice thing that it lets you take a break from things since I feel like for a decent amount of people, it probably is. Thank you for saying that. Since I could look it up, I did a quick search and the manga of D. Gray-Man is still ongoing. Oh that’s a good mood to be in. It’s funny though beause I finished the Swordsmith Village Arc a few days ago so we might’ve been watching the series around the same time or might’ve swapped around. Again, saving you a Google search beause this girl knows it just from what’s in her head. The Mugen Train season isn’t Crunchyroll screwing up beause those 7 episodes actually aired before the actual second season (The Entertainment District Arc which is 11 episodes). It’s the movie’s plot, but with some added scenes, plus the first episode is entirely new stuff, and when I did my rewatch, I watched both because yeah, both are done beautifully in their own ways. That’s also an important thing to do. I see. Yeah, I also really like that character and I do think that I love him and Sanemi equally, at least I said so at some point, beause they’re both just so great in their own ways. And since we’re talking about the movie here, this is the movie that made me upset a few weeks ago that I was talking in our DMs about. And yeah, hopefully now that I’ve explained it, you can go on to watch yet another great season. Yeah, true to what you’re saying about Avatar. Yeah, same. Like Toph is my girl and I was just looking forward to seeing her again when I was doing the rewatch and like I don’t think I have an actual proper favourite beause I love all of the main gang for who they are. They’re just all so great.

Yeah. A part of me wants to say more but I won’t in case of any kind of spoilers but it’s a well-told story until the very end. Yeah. Like the only ‘extra’ stuff we get is those extra scenes from the Mugen Train season and the stuff I was fangirling to you about in our DMs. Yeah, understandable. And after you’ve watched it all, if you still want to hear Genya in Japanese, I could find some of my favourite moments of him. Though there is one scene (apart from his first scene in the Swordsmith Village arc which was just so very Bakugou. Like what he said is something Bakugou says very often) that I’m thinking of so yeah, if you want to hear him in Japanese, I’ll give you the episode and the time stamp after you’ve watched it all. No problem. Yeah, it’s very clear beause even though it’s all clearly the final arc, there’s still a clear division between the two mini-arcs. I hope not. Like as much as I love the movies, I don’t think they’d be able to do those 22 chapters justice. Like the Mugen Train was 13 chapters to give an idea and that movie was almost two hours long so it would have to be a very long movie and considering what happens (not that I remember everything), we do need breathers. But yeah, I do understand your dislike towards the tentacles but I do feel like that’s probably the worst. Yeah, Genya’s first scene isn’t his best moment, like Nemi’s first moments actually, but like with Sanemi you do kind of get to understand why he was being such a dick and was so inpatient at that point when you learn his story. And yay to that. And when you do, just tell me all your thoughts beause he’s just so great and precious and deserves all the love 😭

Yay. That arc takes place a few episodes after the Tenrou Island arc and Sting’s first appearance is the episode after that arc’s done to give you an idea of when it takes place. No problem at all ☺ I see. Will you watch the whole of Beyblade then? Like go from the original to the Metal Saga? Thank you. I finished A Sign of Affection and it was nice. But yeah, even though I liked watching it and the couple was cute, I guess I would have liked more development. Like there’s this one very romance centred anime and it’s just one couple, but there’s still slight misunderstanding that the guy the girl is actually interested in thinks that she’s into his really good looking and all around amazing best friend (who I till this day will headcanon as aro ace) but she’s absolutely into the main guy and it’s just so cute and sweet and sure I haven’t rewatched it sine first seeing it but it definitely left a good impression on me. It’s called Ore Monogatari or My Love Story if you’re interested. But yeah, now it’s onto Tokyo Revengers and then finally Iruma-kun.

Yeah and believe me when I say that I was worried that they wouldn’t properly adapt the main backstory that takes place during this match. And thank you for the understanding. I’m not sure yet to what extent it will be a let down but it really was such an important match, probably the most important math considering it’s been set-up sine the very first season. Really and I hope they don’t beause they teased what the next movie would be about, another important Karasuno match in a different way, but on that same day there’s another match that’s also really important beause my owl boy has such, such amazing moments during that math (and I love what he says before the match even starts) and his backstory is shown in it and I just hope that one day the studio will say ‘Actually we will not only adapt this match properly but also everything that we did in the movies and of course the time-skip’ beause sure, everything is important, but that match showed a glimpse into Bokuto’s development and I really do fear that we’ll never see it animated. Funny thing is also when it comes down to that Bokuto match I sent a screenshot of a moment of him and literally was like ‘I will cry when this is animated’ so maybe the studio saw it and was like “Okay, we’ll never animate it then”. And true. Like I said about the Mugen Train movie, that was 13 chapters and the movie was almost two hours long. Yay 😄 Be excited. And that’s great to hear about you appreciating all their characterisations and be free to say anything you want about it all in our DMs when you get to responding to me. Thank you so much for all of that. Yeah, we definitely do get to see all the Hashira fighting at some point, and some do get to shine more than others and that’s probably why we got that extra scene in the latest movie I went to, to show a bit of two Hashira fighting before the final arc. I see. Yay 😄 Really glad to hear that. I’ve been doing pretty well. Saw some Doctor Who episodes today, the first ones with the Master and he’s such a fun character to watch. Though a few days ago at my latest physio appointment my physiotherapist said something which I didn’t especially like and now it just won’t leave my mind. Like I mentioned while we were talking about stuff that since I’m disabled, I probably won’t be called in to do certain things and first she was shocked that I’d even use that word to describe myself which was yeah, whatever since I don’t generally have any reason to, but then later she said that I’m not as disabled as other people and that’s stuck in my head since since of course I know that, but I’m still much less abled than other people around and I know she never sees me at my worst but it still stings and I know it’d be weird to bring it up again to her so I just wanted to say it here in hopes of it helping in leaving my mind. But yeah, apart from that, been doing pretty well. Have done some more of my diamond painting and put all my Bokuto anime screenshots in order and really do love all the expressions he makes. They’re just so funny and nice. He’s such a gift and I’m really so grateful for him.

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I’m glad that most spoilers you see are relatively minor, being a weekly reader. I’m definitely not. I’m usually either rereading series that I’ve read before and forget a lot of what happened in them or I’m reading completed series. There’s only a couple I follow that are still ongoing, and I tend to forget to catch up with them for a couple weeks or such and binge the chapters that I missed. I’m horrible at keeping up with a lot of things. It sucks that you got such a massive spoiler in a situation where you could do nothing about the information. I don’t think I could’ve stayed calm and I would have had to excuse myself to go read real quick and then would’ve been upset the rest of the night, so you handled it really well! And I can definitely see the argument for autumn, so we’re just going to have to wait and see, I guess. I didn’t know the manga updates on Fridays, so that was fun to learn. Thank you for that. It’s also interesting to hear that you kind of see some of my points and feel the same way in some regards. It’s really comforting to hear that and I feel really relieved reading that.

Yeah, both anime and manga wise, Persona isn’t too long. I’m just saving up money so I won’t feel guilty splurging on the Steam versions of the games, because I’ve really gotten interested and want to give the actual games a try! And thank you for that. I’ll admit to getting very little proper rest lately, but on the other hand, I’ve been being really productive and that’s always a great feeling to have. Accomplishment is always a feeling I really enjoy and aim to get, so while I’m trading some rest and relaxation, I still feel good about it. Thank you so much for the saved Google searches and I find it amazing that D. Gray-Man is still ongoing. I’m wondering if the manga went on hiatus or something, because it’s been years since I read it and I remember thinking it had to be pretty close to wrapping up! In terms of Demon Slayer, I’ve finished up to the end of the Swordsmith Village Arc, so all the episodes that Crunchyroll has. I haven’t watched more than the first movie though, because Crunchyroll doesn’t have that but can I just reiterate – I’m so pissed off my manga app doesn’t have the manga because I really want to read it. I want so much more story and hopefully some more character development, since I feel there’s a lot more that is going to happen and I feel like the anime might be cutting out small moments because of pacing and such. I’m just intensely curious as to where everything is heading and why certain characters are the way they are and I always feel I get better handles on that through reading than through watching. That being said, I have a couple minor complaints, but overall, I really enoyed it. Thanks again for the recommendation! I’m mostly just pissed I don’t have more of it, hahaha! I honestly can’t think of any of the Avatar characters I truly hated, because even the villains were largely really well done.

Thank you for avoiding spoilers – unless it was in the movies though, I’m pretty sure I’m caught up on the anime? Now, it’s funny because I was just complaining about fillers, but I enjoyed the little ‘fillers’ at the end of the episodes of Demon Slayer, I just want to put that out there. Also, Haganezuka is now my husband, just saying it. He amuses me so much and I just adore him. I will definitely take hearing Genya in Japanese, if you wanna send me any of your favourite moments through dm’s! Especially if, like you said, there are scenes where you can really connect the voices to the different characters! I hadn’t realized the movies covered so few chapters so I do take back my statement then, because yeah, that was a long movie, covered a lot well, but a movie definitely couldn’t be made out of that many chapters then, since I think most fans are not Lord of the Rings loyal to the point where they’d sit through a four hour long movie. Heck, I don’t think even I would do that for much else besides LotR! I genuinely wish I was learning more about both Genya and Sanemi, and I know more about them has to be uncovered later on and I’m hoping they’ll both get focus on them after this arc as well, because I really feel we’re just barely scraping the surface here! They introduced a lot of characters we’d just barely seen before in the arc and it felt like none of them really got the focus that they should have gotten for us to properly know them, just going anime only.

Oh, that is helpful to know! I’m probably going to speedread through Fairy Tail and then watch the anime, so I’ll meet Sting via manga first, though I’m excited to also hear all the characters since I remember having really strong voice ideas for a few of them when I first read some of it way back when. As for Beyblade, I’ll give each series a try, but I’ll probably skip any series that don’t catch my attention within four episodes – I always try to give animated shows at least two hours before I decide if I’m interested and like them or not. I’m glad you enjoyed A Sign of Affection! I actually know of Ore Monogatari! I keep getting recommended it and honestly, it does seem like a romance I might actually enjoy, so it’s on my watchlist though it’s not the first one I decide to watch any time I’m flicking through that list! We actually might be watching Tokyo Revengers at the same time then, since it’s my next anime! I hope we both enjoy it 😊

Wait, it was that important of a match? Like, there’d been build up for it since that early and they did all the fans dirty by not giving that match a full movie entirely focused on it? That seems really frigging awful, not even going to lie. I hope, if the movie is indeed about that, that the important Karasuno match is the movie and then you get an arc for Bokuto and that match, including episodes showing his backstory. To me, just as a creator, that is the way I’d go – a movie for the big match and then a three to four short arc dedicated to the smaller match with Bokuto’s team. I’m also really glad to hear that we get to see all the Hashira fighting at some point, because I am curious about some of them and kind of really hope for some more Giyu moments, not going to lie.

I’m so, so angry at your physiotherapist though. If you feel, because you know your body best, that you’re disabled in some way, then you are and her treating you that way is inexcusable. Knowing you like I do, I can also safely say that I adore you but yeah, I agree with you, I do also consider you as someone who has a disability. I also think you handle it amazingly well, are gracious in the face of it, and really admire how kind you are even dealing with everything you do. Don’t let that twatface of a physiotherapist get you down. If I could, I would take their kneecaps. I’m sorry my reply came so late and I hope you’re doing as well as can be expected! Hugs!

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It took me a while to understand the number theorists' notorious little joke. But it seems to me, once you see the trick, that it's a simple, elegant thing.

(There's a story about my great-uncle Simon, who I never met. He died long before I was born, and you'd think that sort of thing doesn't matter much, but I've always known that I would never meet him, which made me think about him. Maybe I'm a better person than I might have been, if I'd grown up with more of my parents' family, but maybe not. That's a story in itself.)

Uncle Simon was a physicist, but unlike almost all the physicists I've known, he spent a lot of time thinking about discrete systems. My dad's always been kind of proud of this, even though he was clearly not impressed when he would ask Simon questions and get only half-formed responses. When I was growing up, my parents would always make it sound like Simon had a sort of saintliness about him, or something: the way he was always quietly working, the way he was always reaching beyond the standard questions, without ever losing sight of the practical in favor of the theoretical, the way he never seemed to need to talk much, but would still always have something to contribute when he was pressed. He lived on a tiny pension from a university he'd worked at 50 years ago, and a pension from the centralized university that replaced it 30 years ago. It was a quiet life.

I never really knew him. At least, I don't think I ever knew him. But I did read his books, and went through his papers, whenever I got the chance. And I liked that he always had interesting things to say about n and n+1. He was clever enough, and patient enough, to find things you and I might never have thought of. Like that thing about the hats.

Simon would always be searching for new problems that could be framed in his way. I've always been impressed by that too. To be honest, I do the same thing: I take a problem I don't really understand, and I try to see if I can change the format of the problem so that I can understand it. Or, if I can't figure out a new format, I try to figure out the best way to summarize the relevant facts, so that I can be sure to carry those with me when I read the next thing. Mostly I work with number theory problems. That's the field I understand best.

A lot of researchers got into this game back when it was common for mathematicians to apply a bunch of different areas to one problem. These days, that's a lot less common. The distinction between fields, and "fields" and "disciplines," is pretty hazy. And, of course, you can get much more work done by focusing on fewer problems. But those of us who've grown up with interdisciplinarity still remember how it felt to be students, doing all kinds of things at once. And we always want to recapture that feeling of multifarious, unbridled possibility.

So anyway. One day a few years ago, I picked up this book of Simon's called Hats, Trees and Others. It's not his most famous book, and I don't know why I picked it up at the time. My memory is fuzzy; it might have been from a list in the back of some other book. The book was good, though. It was basically a masterclass in the art of trying to formalize real-world intuitions. The first chapter went through a bunch of really interesting ways of formalizing things that I would never have thought of.

The first chapter made me pretty excited. I was anxious to read more of this guy's work, and see what he could do. Of course, what he could do was painfully simplistic, once you've read more about the actual issues. But even when I was reading his stuff, I could always see his focus on both the forest and the trees. He always wrote about trees, sure, but he was also willing to see the forest. I'm not really sure what I mean by that: I guess he had a good sense of whether an idea was the sort of thing that would actually help you understand the world, or if it was just a fun toy for toy enthusiasts. And when you read his papers, you get the same sense of playful precision.

I'm not saying he had the right idea, necessarily. But he was willing to see the forest, as well as the trees.

The hardest part of writing is the first page. (What a cliché! Sorry, I'm trying to be pithy.) The reason is that by the time you're on page 100, you've got a good idea of what kind of story you're telling; you've made many decisions about how it will proceed; you have a whole bunch of references to build on. But in the first few pages, you're still thinking, "What's this story about? What question will the reader be most surprised by? What will they most want an answer to?"

There was some time I spent thinking about that question, in my earlier writing. (When you write fiction, it's a lot harder to stay focused on a given story without creating a lot of worlds and a lot of characters in your head. Actually, that's probably why I stopped writing fiction: I could never stop thinking about these creations.) But I always had trouble coming up with a single answer to the question, and usually settled for one that was, well, pithy. (As in my Cat and Kitten stories, which I think are really bad. Finding a "paradigmatic cat story" was easier than finding the right story. Or, as a friend of mine once said, joking around, "you should start a band called Paradigmatic Cat Story, and I will play drums." It was funny at the time. And then I started reading some 350-page online forum argument where every single poster was a decade-long participant, and the main thing they disagreed about was what you could call a paradigmatic cat story. Which was clearly a paradigmatically bad joke, and yet . . . )

Anyway, there is a type of feeling I find hard to describe -- but if I didn't try to describe it, who would? -- that happens when I read a piece of writing that gets it. The feeling is almost about . . . gentleness, I guess? Or maybe restraint? But it's also about the fact that the author understands that they are telling a story, and believes that they have something interesting to say. It's that combination of restraint, impishness, and . . . confidence? -- that makes that feeling so sweet.

The Count of Monte Cristo gets it. Of course The Count of Monte Cristo gets it -- the tones of The Count of Monte Cristo define the tones of that feeling. It's an epic novel. It's on that scale. But it's a story about a man who is written off by everyone, and yet who finds a way to change the world. It's often described as an epic romance, and on some level it is, but it's much more than that. It doesn't just romanticize the world, it's about a person who romanticizes the world himself. He sees what's wrong in the world, and he devises ways to fix it, and then he does so. It is a novel about someone who is kind enough to take responsibility for the world, while no one else will.

For me, when I read that book, for the first time, I felt I was reading an author who got it. I didn't know who he was. I knew the book was old, and I knew it was popular, and that's all. But, like I said, if I didn't try to describe, who would? In the face of that restraint, impishness, and confidence, I find myself believing. I don't always know what to believe, but I find myself believing.

Now, was that what Count of Monte Cristo was trying to do? I don't think so. But, like I said, tones don't have any natural referents in the real world. They only refer to themselves, and our perceptions of ourselves. So it's really hard to tell what a novel is actually about, I think. And who cares anyway? If you're a good storyteller, that's all that matters.

There are two ways I feel a novel is "about" something, and they're opposites. The first is when a story says, "here

#original fiction

[berenwrites]

Beyond the Battle - Chapter 16 - Stranger Things - Steddie

Beyond the Battle­: Action & Consequence

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Summary: Steve hits things with a bat or gets hit depending on who you ask. He definitely does not have anything to do with the psychic stuff. That is El’s domain. However, as Vecna is defeated, the rules change.

Pairing: steddie (Steve Harrington/Eddie Munson)

Other Relationships: Steve & Robin, Steve & Dustin, Eddie & Dustin

Rating: Teen

A/N: Multi-chapter story, updated regularly. Honestly not sure how many chapters it will have yet because it's still a bit hand wavy in the middle, but definitely more than 12. Thank you to my beta for find my mistakes and to all those who read/like/reblog.💖 Follow #st:beyond-the-battle for updates.

Also on AO3

Chapter 16. Come Down?

Food definitely made Steve feel a hell of a lot better, but when he almost fell asleep on the couch, he realised it would probably be a bad idea to attempt anything else that evening. After all, it had been a long day. He was also new at this and El had been adamant that like any other physical activity, it was easier with practice.

“And I think that is my cue to leave,” Hopper said as Steve yawned widely, totally unable to stop himself.

“Can finish tomorrow,” he said round another yawn.

“Kid, I haven’t felt this good in ten years,” Hopper replied with a grin. “If you never get to finish, I am more than happy.”

“Your ankle is still bad and the hearing in your right ear is out of whack,” he said, pausing as he realised he had no idea he had even had that information, “and I’m not clear on how I know that,” he added, “but I don’t like leaving it unfinished.”

It wasn’t like he had catalogued everything in Hopper that needed his help on a conscious level, but apparently part of him had.

“You have a very convincing bitch face,” Hopper said, clearly amused by his reaction. “When tomorrow?”

“Same time, probably,” he replied, “but Keith is supposed to be calling tomorrow to let me and Robin know if Family Video is reopening. I doubt I’ll have a shift, but I’ll let you know if I do.”

“I thought those stores weren’t touched by the gates?” Hopper replied.

“Mostly they weren’t,” Steve explained, “but Keith got a message to Robin to let her know the pipes in the store had ruptured, took out most of the stock. It’s all up in the air if they will reopen or if we’ll be looking for new jobs. Kind of shocked we didn’t get fired, honestly. Guess with all the excitement Keith never figured out we abandoned the store mid shift.”

Given everything else that had been going on, Steve couldn’t exactly find it in himself to get excited one way or the other. It was a problem for later.

“Any particular reason you did that?” Hopper asked.

“Well Dustin was adamant we go rescue Eddie and you have met Dustin, right?” Steve replied.

“You were on shift when you found me at Rick’s?” Eddie asked, eyes round with surprise.

Steve nodded.

“Did we not tell you that part?” he asked.

Eddie shook his head.

“Yeah, we used the company computer to figure out where you’d be and then abandoned ship to come find you,” he replied with a shrug. “We’ve kind of figured out when weird stuff starts happening in this town it’s best to get ahead of it and Dustin was adamant everything was weird.”

“Let’s hope this is the last time,” Hopper said.

“No argument from me,” Eddie replied. “Doing all this once is enough for me, that you’ve all been dealing with this shit since 83 still blows my mind.”

“Same here, Munson, and I’ve lived it,” Hopper replied, going to stand up. “But it’s time I got back. I told Joyce I just wanted to check in with Powell.”

“Might want to come clean about that, Chief,” Eddie said and grinned, “I’m sure she’ll only kill you a little bit.”

“Yeah, gonna avoid that for as long as possible,” Hopper said, “at least until I can come up with a decent enough excuse.”

“Just tell her I was nervous it wouldn’t work and so asked you not to say anything,” Steve offered.

“Thanks, Kid,” Hopper replied, “but this is on me, not you. I will take the heat once I have worked up the courage.”

“Joyce Byers is a formidable woman,” Eddie said, and they all nodded in agreement.

“I’m not sure who’s scarier, Joyce on a mission or Nancy with a gun,” Steve commented.

“We’re agreed we’re never letting either of them team up with Erica, aren’t we?” Eddie added. “Because they really will take over the world.”

“Not sure that would be a bad thing,” Steve said with a laugh.

“Right,” Hopper said, smiling, “I really must go. Get some sleep, Steve, and thank you. I can never repay you …”

“You already did,” Steve interrupted him. “You took in a little girl who needed a dad, and she just saved the world.”

Hopper didn’t seem to know what to say to that, just nodding in that gruff way he had.

“See you tomorrow,” the older man said.

Steve went to get up to show him out, but Eddie got there first.

“Stay put, I got this,” Eddie said.

Normally he would have protested, but he was pretty comfortable on the couch, and he was sleepy. He heard Eddie and Hopper exchange words at the door. It was too low for him to make out what, so he closed his eyes for a moment.

“Come on, Sleepyhead.”

He opened his eyes to find Eddie right in front of him, at which point he realised he had dozed off.

“Sorry,” he said, rubbing his face with his hand.

“Nothing to be sorry for,” Eddie told him. “You’ve been working hard. Time for bed.”

“It’s not even nine o’clock,” Steve did his best to object.

“And I woke you up at ridiculous o’clock this morning,” Eddie said, “you’ve been driving all over the place half the day, you just put back together a man the Russians tried very hard to kill, and let’s not even talk about the rest of the week. Sleep is just what the doctor ordered.”

“Awww, but I was hoping to make out now we’re finally alone,” he responded, making sure to put just enough of a whine into his voice.

The way Eddie’s cheeks coloured pink at his words was absolutely perfect.

“Oh, you did, did you?” was Eddie’s not so smooth comeback.

“Yeah,” he replied, reaching out to slide his hand into Eddie’s.

They had kissed for the first time that morning, but he already felt strangely comfortable with Eddie. To him it was as if the kiss was more a confirmation than a beginning, even though he hadn’t actually accepted he could feel this way until then. Robin had definitely been onto something when she told him this had been going on for a while. He might not have acknowledged what he was feeling, but it had been there.

“God, you make it hard to be a responsible human being,” Eddie complained, thumb stroking over Steve’s palm.

“Don’t you want to kiss me too?” he asked, doing his best sweet and innocent impression.

“Fuck, yes, of course I want to kiss you,” Eddie replied, leaning down and pecking his forehead. “How about we head upstairs, we get ready for bed, and then we make out until you fall asleep?”

“You inviting yourself into my bed, Munson?” he shot back with a grin.

“Well I can always go and sleep in my own, cold, lonely room, if you’re against the idea,” was Eddie very dramatic response, even going so far as to hang his head and look at the floor.

Steve stood, pulling Eddie towards him.

“I could never be so heartless,” he said, matching Eddie’s tone. “Forgive me for ever suggesting it.”

Eddie laughed, leaning into him.

“You are a giant dork, Stevie,” Eddie said, eyes flicking over his face and landing on his lips.

“Good thing we match then,” he replied, voice deepening at the thought of what was going through Eddie’s head.

Closing the remaining distance between them, he captured Eddie’s lips with his own, pulling Eddie flush to him at the same time. Eddie’s arms wound around him as they kissed slowly and gently. It was sweet and light, and it made Steve’s head spin.

“You are incorrigible,” Eddie said when they broke apart. “Come on, let’s take this upstairs.”

Steve could totally get behind that sentiment.

~*~

Steve reared off the bed clutching at his throat, the taste of chlorinated water clear in his mouth.

“Hey, hey, it’s okay, you’re okay, Steve, it’s just a dream.”

For a second, he didn’t remotely comprehend the words, but strong, firm, warm hands gripping his shoulders grounded him. He stared into the darkness breathing hard as the meaning slowly resolved in his brain.

“Eddie,” he half gasped, half said.

“Yep, it’s little old me,” Eddie replied, tone soft and calm, which was just what Steve needed. “Breathe with me, Sweetheart, before you start hyperventilating.”

Eddie took an exaggerated breath in while Steve did his best to imitate it. It took a few more deep inhales and exhales, but eventually Steve felt his heartrate coming back down towards normal and his breathing settling. He hated nightmares, but it was always better when someone was there.

“Want some water?” Eddie asked, gently rubbing his back.

“Please,” he said with a nod.

The phantom taste of pool water clung to his tongue, even though it was all in his head. Eddie disappeared into the bathroom for a few seconds and returned with a glass.

“Here,” he said, handing over the drink and climbing back onto the bed.

They’d fallen asleep tangled together an hour or so after they had come upstairs. Steve had hoped that would be enough to push his dark thoughts far enough away to have a restful night, but apparently not.

“Thanks,” he said, sipping the water and trying to push away the images in his head.

“Want to talk about it?” Eddie asked, going back to rubbing him on the back. “You were mumbling about something, but I couldn’t make it out.”

“Sorry,” he apologised, taking a few more little sips.

“Not a problem,” Eddie assured him. “My turn last night, your turn tonight. Just let me know what you need.”

Steve sat there for a little while longer. Sometimes it helped to talk, sometimes it didn’t, so it took him a few moments to figure out what would be best.

“Did you know Barb?” he asked in the end.

“Nancy’s friend who died?” Eddie checked.

Steve nodded.

“Not really,” Eddie said. “We didn’t run in the same circles.”

“She died in my pool,” he explained. “A Demogorgon took her and killed her. She was here because I invited Nancy to a small party: me, her, Tommy, Carol, and Barb.”

“That sucks,” Eddie said.

“Today,” Steve went on, “when I was out the back I was looking into the pool where the gate was. It occurred to me that the Demogorgon being in my yard might not have been as random as it seemed at the time.”

“Why?”

“Do you remember what El said the first day, about them suspecting that Henry took Will because he had dormant powers?” he asked.

“Um, yeah,” Eddie replied with a nod. “A lot of that day is a bit fuzzy, but I remember that.”

“So, what if the Demogorgon was here for me?” Steve said.

“Oh,” Eddie said, leaning closer to him. “But that’s not your fault.”

Steve smiled a tiny sad smile.

“Robin already rammed that into my thick skull,” he said, “but I guess my subconscious didn’t get the message. The Barb in my nightmares very much thinks it’s my fault.”

Moving in close, Eddie wrapped his arms around him, resting his chin on Steve’s shoulder.

“Nobel of spirit, brave of heart, and far too willing to take things onto himself, my mighty paladin-cleric,” Eddie whispered in his ear. “How about this humble bard soothes you back to sleep with some music?”

Steve wasn’t sure he’d be doing much more sleeping that night. The mental image of a rotting and angry Barb trying to drown him in the pool was a little too raw. But Eddie looked so hopeful, so he nodded and smiled.

“Be right back,” Eddie said, scrambling off the bed and heading out of the room.

One thing Steve did notice was the house was pretty dark. There wasn’t much of a moon, but Eddie moved as if he could see perfectly. However, he filed that away for later, because it was possible that Eddie had always had good night vision. Steve knew his was pretty good, but Eddie had moved without any hesitation at all.

Less than a minute later, Eddie was back with his acoustic guitar.

“Any requests?” Eddie asked, sitting cross-legged on the bed and putting the instrument in his lap.

“You pick,” Steve said.

“Hmmm,” Eddie said, pretending to think very hard. “Okay, this is one my mom used to sing to me when I was little.”

Steve smiled as soon as he heard the opening chords. When Eddie’s husky tones started with the words of Bridge Over Troubled Water goosebumps broke out all over Steve’s skin and the nightmare dimmed in his mind. That they had lost Eddie, that no one, that he might never have had a chance to have this made the back of his eyes prickle. He couldn’t figure out how he had gotten so lucky.

End of Chapter 16

Chapter 17

#stranger things fanfiction #steddie #steve harrington/eddie munson #steve x eddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #eddie lives #stranger things #st:beyond-the-battle #fanfic #post season 4 #vampire eddie #hurt/comfort #vampire eddie munson #steve harrington has powers #steddie fanfic #steddie fic

[silvertsundere]

Silver Talks AniManga (26/02/23)

I read a buncha stuff and it’s only been increasing over time and I like yapping about it so gonna start making a post like this every sunday (jump day) so I can dump all my thoughts for the week, stuff is in the order I read it in (best stuff last for the stuff that comes out on sunday), tho sometimes something will be at the top if I did a big catch up or there’s a new series obviously there’s gonna be spoilers under cut sometimes tho not like I expect anyone to actually read these but and sometimes I don’t have much to say about stuff but yeah. tho since this is the first it’s mostly just my overall opinion on them (especially the jump stuff) if something isn’t on here it’s cause I’m either not reading it, or not caught up yet (most likely the latter)

Dandadan Ch94

I was very unsure about dandadan in the first chap cause it made me a bit uncomfortable but it’s actually really good. it’s stupid how incredibly good the art is for a weekly series. it’s currently trucking along a training arc, so not much happened, but all that talk about spirals got my ttgl loving ass very interested in what okarun gonna do in the future

Jojo: The Hol Horse/Josuke spinoff Ch13

I actually started reading this right after I finished P8 cause “well it’s more jojo and there’s only like 11 chaps so not gonna take that long to catch up anyway” and it’s p decent for not being written by araki. as for this chap, ryoko finally saw kakyoin so it’s gonna end sooner than later, tho I obviously never expected it to be that long only 2 or 3 vols, tho I gotta say I’ve really enjoy the characterization they gave dio and showing him recruit his goons from part 3

One Punch Man Ch177

OPM is one of my favourite manga ever so I don’t think there’s much else for me to say. saitama fighting tatsumaki has been very pog, excited to continue seeing this fight, I love tatsumaki so all these recent chaps have been a treat, especially that panel in 176 where saitama squishes her against his chest OOF

Tokyo Underworld Ch32

it’s like an isekai gory survival game,it’s nothing to write home about but it’s also not bad enough to drop and I love danganronpa so I thought it could scratch that itch (it didn’t but oh well). as for the chap, I thought having leonidas and jeanne to go up against was already bad enough for the protags but now cao cao showed up too so good luck to them

Choujin X Ch35

the newest manga from tokyo ghoul’s author, chapters come out when they’re ready and sometimes they’re crazy long cause of that. it’s kinda hard to keep track of cause of that, and cause it’s ishida too lol, but it isn’t bad at all. this chap came after a 4 parter chapter, and it’s a 59 page one, calm down ishida. a big time skip huh? certainly didn’t expect it, chap was mostly the aftermath of the previous battle and then a fastforward in time to where we are now the final shot was cool tho 

PPPPPP Ch70 (Finale)

from the start I never liked the art and never cared about any of the characters. I used to have it at a 5 but I bumped it down to 4 cause I didn’t care about the ending either, especially the rushing to “resolve” the other brothers’ stories in the last few chaps which even ignored some of them. the story was ok at best but way too confusing and hard to follow at some points, even if you didn’t read it weekly but all back to back. all the performances looked cool at least

Ichigoki’s Under Control!! Ch12

it’s a gag manga so it really depends on your sense of humour, but I think it’s really bad, and most people seem too since it always places so low in the rankings. last chap had a huge timeskip so hopefully it’s ending soon. 

The Ichinose Family's Deadly Sins Ch14

another one I haven’t liked since the start. it’s way too edgy for my taste, recently it’s moved on from being edgy for the sake of it and actually doing stuff, but it also feels like it’ll end soon so I’m thankful for that. it has some cool panel composition sometimes tho

Ginka & Glüna Ch23

while the art, especially the action, is good looking most of the time the rest of the manga doesn’t really do anything special and it’s gonna get axed sooner than later so rip to the author

Fabricant 100 Ch11

another one that’ll prob get axed soon. the art isn’t bad, reminds me of fma tbh, but it’s p boring since the mc’s sidekick is so much more powerful than the enemies, the arc from the last few chaps was a bit more interesting and today’s chap wasn’t bad but still not enough to save it I think.

Jiangshi X Ch6

the art’s good but it has felt pretty generic so far, tho today’s chapter moved the plot along a bit so we’ll see, this isn’t on the jump mag so no risk of it getting axed too soon like some other stuff

Tokyo Demon Bride Story Ch24

it’s a shame that’s it getting axed soon instead of one of the 4 I mentioned before. the art’s great, all the designs are fun and the charas are likeable

Cipher Academy Ch13

the nisio series, which I always joke about being rough for the translator, that actually made the current translator quit lmao. while it’s not a series for everyone it’s doing alright in rankings so I hope it sticks around for a good while, I always enjoy getting some nisio stuff when it’s possible. today’s chap had a neat development too

Witch Watch Ch98

a very cute chap today, good for nico finally having some time alone with moi

Blue Box Ch90

I was actually very unsure of blue box when I started it cause if feels so shoujo-y but I actually ended up really liking it a lot and I’m invested in taiki and natsu. today’s chap was incredible too oh my god 

Mashle Ch145

it’s getting an anime in april! and it’s prob gonna adapt the whole manga cause it’ll end soon! it starts off as a comedy manga making fun of “magic school” series but it eventually becomes a very pog battle manga, while still retain some of it’s comedy. it’s currently on the battle against the final villain so not much more left.

The Elusive Samurai Ch99

Matsui’s 3rd series and 3rd hit wao! it’s only a matter of time til it gets an anime too so that’s an incredible track record for him. it’s a period piece with matsui’s usual flair to it, the art is very good, especially some of the more detailed panels he pulls off sometimes. today introduced some new characters and set up the mcs to get some power ups next chap, the big 100, so that was fun

Sakamoto Days Ch108

one of the best things on jump rn and probably getting an anime announcement sometimes this year. I like to describe it as “anime john wick”. the fight coreography, set pieces and everything is just some of the best in any manga, not even just now but that I’ve read ever. really hope it gets picked up by a studio that doesn’t half ass it cause it deserves the love.

Akane-banashi Ch51

currently my favourite series in jump by a long shot!! it’s crazy too cause when it started I was like “eh how are they gonna pull off a manga about rakugo”but they did, oh boy did they. it got recommendations from both oda AND anno on vol 1 and 2 so you know it’s something special. please read it if you haven’t yet. today’s chap was very good as usual, it was the backstory of akane’s main rival

Ayakashi Triangle Ch121

yabuki’s, of TLR fame, newest series, it doesn’t have as many lewd moments but it has more action to make up for it. I really enjoy it at lot but ofc I do it’s yabuki how could I not, his art is just a treat to look at and he knows how to make entertaining manga

#whew that was a lot of yapping #but had to be like that cause first time #silver talks animanga

[bohemian-rhapsody-in-blue]

Beboptober Day 18: Don’t Lose Me

Thanks to @thestarlightsymphony​ for the prompt list! I know, it looks like I’ve skipped Day 17, and...I kinda have (sorry!), but not permanently. I’ve just had the idea for this for a really long time, so I’ve decided to catch up and do Day 17 at some other point during the month, along with another prompt. It will lead to things being a little out of order, but what’s life without a little variety, right?

Oh, and credit where credit’s due—I think I got the idea of Faye keeping a journal at all from Chapter 4 of @beccanoodles’ one-shot collection “With Love, From Bebop” (read it here), although in that one, Ed takes it over!

June 9, 2007

Dear Diary,

Today some of my friends and I found a Betamax tape recorder, and we all decided to use it to record messages to our future selves. It was a little embarrassing at first! I kept getting shy and having to turn the camera off and start again. I guess it was hard to think of things to say to myself ten years from now. At first, all I could say was “Good morning,” and that made everyone laugh. I suppose part of the reason why it was easier for my friends is that they know exactly what they want to be, and they can see their future selves so clearly. Sara wants to be a vetrenarian veterinarian, Mei wants to work on Hyperspace Gates. But it’s hard for me to to imagine my future self.

Ten years from now I’ll be 22, almost 23. That seems so adult! I’ll be a newer version of myself—ten years older, ten years wiser—more mature, I hope. I guess I’ll have graduated from school & university and I’ll have a job, unless I decide to become a doctor or something and have to go to even more school (UGH) and do lots of math (UGGGGHHHH). But I guess my future self knows best—maybe I’d actually be a great doctor and I don’t know it yet. I really have no idea what I’ll be doing with my life that far in the future….For a while I thought maybe I wanted to be an actress, because it sounded like fun. But I sort of gave up on that dream after I was only cast as Villager #3 in the play this year. (Vivien says it’s just because Director Chen doesn’t see my talents, but I think she’s just saying that to make me feel better!) Whatever it is I’m doing in the future, though, I hope it’s something I like, not just something I’m pushed into or anything. I bet I’ll be great at it, especially with 10 more years of experience!

Oh, and I hope that I’ve traveled lots of places and seen lots of new sights by the time I’m 22! I especially want to go to space and see some other planets. I’ve been to a few places on Earth with my family—I told you about that trip to Tokyo earlier in this diary, and we’ve also been to London and New York and a few parts of Beijing—but I’ve never actually been on a rocket, not even one that’s just in orbit. Someday I’d like to see other planets, like Mars or the Moon. (The Moon’s not a planet but whatever.) I bet it will be easier to go there in the future and they’ll have more people and stuff on them, specially with all that Mei says about the new advancing tecknology technology of Hyperspace Gates. It all sounds so exciting!

But there are also some things I hope don’t change. Like I hope that, so far in the future, I still have my friends. I’d be so sad to lose them, even if we just fall out of touch, which Dad says might happen now that we’re all entering our first year of secondary school. Maybe I’ll make new friends, though, in addition to the ones I have already. Maybe ten years from now all of us can watch the tape and laugh and remember how we used to be.

I wonder if I’ll have a boyfriend?

Now that I’m writing this and I’ve recorded the tape, I think, most of all, I hope I don’t change too much—that I don’t lose the things that make me me. Yes, my future self may seem really foren foriegn (dang it) foreign to me now, but she’s really just me, just a little older. I hope she’s still the good things my friends and my parents say I am—compassionate, caring, creative. Plus 10 years of experience and growth and stuff, of course. I hope she’s happy and she has friends, and she’s doing okay. I really want that to look forward to when I’m grown up. When I’m her, I guess.

I thought about this a lot today after my friends left and I did the rest of the recording by myself. I even put on my cheerleading outfit and gave my future self a cheer I’d made up! It’s a little embarrassing, now that I think about it…but I was proud of it. I hope my future self will like it. Or at least that it will make her laugh.

I don’t know what exactly will happen in the future, or what my future self will be like. When she arrives on the scene, I won’t be here anymore. But she won’t totally have lost me. I’m here right now, and even ten years from today I’ll still be there on the tape we recorded today and, I guess, in this diary. And in memories. My future self will know I’m cheering for her, that I love her so much and look up to her (how mature she must be!) and want things to be okay for her. I hope she’s looking back in time and cheering for me, too.

 - Faye ♡

#cowboy bebop #beboptober #beboptober 2022 #beboptober2022 #anime #faye valentine #speak like a child #memories #betamax #journal #diary #don't lose me #textpost #fic #my fic #maya’s musings #maya’s masterpieces #i hope this accurately captures all my Speak Like A Child Feelings™ #of which i have many

[lightlycareless]

sooo can we get a sneak peek 👀👀

Heya anon!

Was planning to do a post for that, kind of like "if I get one like I'll post a sneak peak" and then like it myself lol but you won me to that!

Anyways, here's the first page/segment of the next chapter :) I hope you enjoy it!

WARNING: spoilers for chapter 33🤭 also, some words might change. Gotta give it that last proofread if you know what I mean.

“Dear Hinata—

I hope this letter finds you well.

I’m still not used to writing that, the whole dear Hinata thing. It reminds me of those really old letters, like from the Victorian Era or something, or those during the war, when people used to be very polite and stuff, super formal even with their own friends and family! I don’t know how to describe it… I hope you get what I mean.

But yeah, reading back through my letters after I'm done writing them always makes me laugh because I think I’m being melodramatic.

In my excuse, it’s all because of those etiquette classes we were forced to take since, I don’t know, we were born? Ugh, and only because of our roles in the clan! Which I don’t mind! Really… but sometimes the elders tend to be very weird about it, and it makes me feel like they don’t deserve to be treated respectfully at all! I know that you, more than anyone else, would understand what I mean.

Ah, well, I’m not writing to you to complain about my preferences, I’m doing so because… there’s no other way to put it: I miss you.

It’s been a while since I heard anything from you, or at all. And I’m not writing either to complain about that! I don’t want you to feel guilty, if you ever get time to read my letters, for not responding because I know for a fact you’re very busy with work. 

Last thing I heard was that the crisis was getting worse. It was already bad during my last mission, so I can only imagine how it is now.

Either way, even when I understand why you can’t respond, it’s still… painful to not hear anything from you. I wish I could at least get one letter from you, a call, even a smoke signal for god’s sake, I don’t care, just to let me know how you, Ren, dad, and everyone else is doing.

I hope Satoru isn’t bothering you too much, Sumire too. I know very well how annoying they can be on their own, so I feel even worse knowing that I can’t help you ease the burden of their antics ^^; hang on, Hinata!!

As for me, life here has been… ok, to say the least. The life of a married woman is surprisingly boring, but I think that’s mainly because there’s so many new things I now have to take care of that I ever thought of before! Mom and dad sure made it seem so fun… or that’s what they wanted us to think? 

Anyways, now that I’ve experienced a bit of the “married life” I now feel confident to tell you that you did the right thing in not marrying Satoru. Being a wife is boring, you’re expected to keep most of the time in the house, tending to it and its inhabitants… So yeah, definitely boring. Although I think Satoru could’ve managed to also make it irritating. 

But yeah, being a sorcerer is much more exciting, totally.

That kind of makes my life sound terrible, right? Like I’m locked or something. Please, don’t worry. I’m ok, busy, but ok. Just missing you, and Ren. 

I hope dad is ok too. He worries me the most. I… hope he hasn’t taken up on drinking again. You know how bad he gets when he spirals… please take care of him if you can.

From there, I don’t really have anything new to say. My ladies, Mariya, Haruko and Hitomi, have been quite calm nowadays, and that’s a bit eerie if you ask me! Anyways, I hope you can meet them one day. Or Mai and Maki, I think you’d find them adorably funny too! And mischievous. They kind of remind me of us when we were younger. Oh, but they’re definitely way nicer, we used to be our parent’s nightmare, remember?

But all in due time, I suppose.

Well… I guess the main point of this letter is to tell you that I miss you, very, very much. That I hope you’re ok and… don’t worry about me. Keep doing what you’re doing, and I’ll be here.

Take care, and give everyone a big hug from my part.

Yours truly, Y/N.

P.S. Don’t let Satoru get the idea that just because I’m not there, my things are his. They’re not. And please, please, please don’t let him delete my save files. I do intend on playing them again when possible”

#ask #ask series: first it hurts—

[problematicfanfics]

alright i only just noticed you had a tumblr and felt obligated to say something so

i just want to say that i’m a huge fan of your writing and works, and have been for years. i first found out about your stuff back in november or december 2020 (??) a little bit after I Threw Glass At My Friend's Eyes and Now I'm On Probation was first published, since i had been absolutely in love with tombur at the time and scavenging the ao3 tag 24/7 to see if anything new came out, and i was instantly hooked. i have so much to say about it and no way to put it into words, but the whole general concept surrounding it is so interesting and alluring, everytime a new chapter was posted and i’d read right until the end and then it’d be stuck lingering in my mind for literal days on end. every cliffhanger that was left had me so excited for what was next, excited to see whether wilbur would finally be confronted or not. the fic meant and still means so much to me, it’s taken up so long of my life to the point that its probably something i’ll still remember even when i stop consuming poppy or mcyt content. i’ve been so obsessed with the fic that the song it’s based off of was quite literally my #1 song of 2021 all because of it, and was within my top 100 this year too. i’m legitemately grateful for you writing it, because it both got me into Destroy Boys and gave me so much joy for so long.

this is more an amalgamation of me rambling about how much it means to me, so i apologize about how cluttered and disorganized it is, but thank you for writing. your stuff has helped me with a lot of my life ♥️

i’m gonna cry. i hope u understand that i just finished the chapter today because of this. i literally wrote through a wake at church because of the motivation this gave me. is that bad? probably. but the entire family hated the guy anyways

thank you, you specifically as well as everyone who has stuck around, for, well… sticking around i guess. for leaving me comments, asks, messages, friend requests, texts (to those of u ik well), for motivating me.

it’s been over a YEAR since i updated. and even then, by april 2021, updates were very few and far between. so truly no NEW chapters have really come out and when they do it’s ~1,200 words every three months. but y’all still check in, and not only that, LEAVE COMMENTS. even though it’s been silence since october 23rd, 2021 (i missed oct 22 like an idiot last year AND this year), you guys come back. thank you. it’s been TWO YEARS since the release and i’m no where near done and i’m so sorry to any of you who care enough.

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but thank you everyone for checking in, offering help, reading, helping me brainstorm. thank you rad, even though we don’t talk much anymore i have u on snap and i still message u time to time. thank u fello, for being amazing and always supporting me, constantly my #1 supporter and lover. Tater, my love who i message at least once a week, idk where id be without u. and all those “anti”s from 2020 i still talk to to this day, i passed my psych test w a 67% 🦅‼️🙏

i’m blasted. this is long. i had a shit day today, with church and my family being a shit show, and this really made me pick up my head and do what i always do: say “fuck it, we ball” and keep moving on.

so fuck it, we ball, thank you anon.

ANYWAYS here’s some church shit from today i found funny

#problematicmcyt #poppytwt #problematic #problematictwt #askver #problematicfanfics #tombur #poppyblr #ver's serious discussions #point me to the nearest problematic pit stop pls

[chidoroki]

ahh i’m so mad for forgetting it was tpn’s 6th anniversary today.. i dunno how i can never remember that date. i don’t have anything planned though, which sucks because it’s kinda the most important day of the series ya know?? HOWEVER! i already finished my edit for emma’s birthday last week, so that’s pretty darn early for me! okay so it’s like 99% done, i gotta figure out one final touch, but yeah. and then isabella’s should be next but that’s not til september anyways. i remember very few birthdays..still upset i forgot about today though! i know i can always post something later this week but then it’s late! and that’s even if i get an idea in the first place hhmmm..

but in my defense it was an important day for me for a completely different reason though.. little Kona turned one today!!! love her. she’s too cute. she actually shares a birthday with my late great grandmother so that’s kinda sweet. (maybe now i won’f forget tpn’s anniversary either)

aside from that i feel like last week was real busy/eventful. dad had actually tested positive for covid tuesday so since we had dinner together the day before i worked from home all last week just to make sure i was okay (which i am thankfully). i don’t mind working from home, it allows me to sleep in a bit but having two screens instead of three is always a troublesome adjustment, and annoying if things get too stressful. every now and then there’s also some nights where i can’t even fall asleep and just feel incredible anxious..why i dunno. it feels random honestly.

it hasn’t been all bad though. i decided to read ahead with the paripi koumei manga and oh my god, the love i have for eiko is IMMENSE!! i honestly wasn’t expecting to get more of her backstory, but i’m so happy we did. i thought we were just gonna focus on the summer sonia concert stuff next, but it seems that is gonna be the final goal. so i’m really loving the direction the manga is going now with creating more songs and learning more of eiko’s past/family. it just makes sense. i debated in writing a whole post on it but idk yet, we’ll see. i dunno how often the manga updates, but i’ve only seen sites have up to ch49? but aahh i want her to succeed so badly! i really hope we get another season because i need to hear more of her lovely voice! THEN i forget what day i read ch113 of ft 100yq but MMHHMM that gruvia body swap! their reactions were great and i loved every moment and of course i’m looking forward to see how gray fights with juvia’s magic. i’m eagerly waiting for the day we get a trailer for the anime too.

then finally.. FINALLY the black clover manga is back! and i still think it’s hilarious that the three month hiatus started right as i finished the anime, like of course that’s just my luck! i think i caught up for just two new chapters then poof! break time! my friend has been begging me to watch since the anime started so i pushed it off for years, til something just.. clicked within me? i remember the movie trailer was announced months ago and friend was excited about it and naturally tried to convince me to start the series once more and i dunno exact words, but i’m pretty sure he compared it to fairy tail (which i sorta figured from the start anyways) but then said everyone from the squad got more focus/backstory, and i was like.. oh? so, that kinda did it for me. and damn it, i ended up loving the series. a lot. but better late than never i suppose! (and he totally has the right to say “told you so,” he deserved it. he even predicted that vanessa would end up as my favorite. so he’s right. again.) so sorry not sorry for all the spam. my queue was filled over 250+ at one point and stayed like that for weeks because i just kept adding more to it. it’s finally back around 50ish now because i FINALLY gone through the whole anime yet again (why do i queue all the gifs chronologically? i dunno!! i forget which series i started doing this with but now it feels necessary for me to do so! lowkey kinda hate it, makes it seem like i’m insane ahaaa. but now all that’s left is artwork that i can fangirl over, thank god!)

but now that the manga is back i’m debating on writing chapter reviews for it, though i doubt they’ll be as long as those i’ve done for tpn, but hhmmm. it’s just funny how i decide on doing such a thing whenever a series enters their final arcs. well, i say that but i haven’t done any for mha in.. years. probably won’t start those up though. i still read it sure but the story is meh to me sometimes. i enjoy the characters more and unfortunately those i really love don’t get much spotlight, maybe just a moment or two recently. always debating on reading ahead for no guns life too since i have no clue if the anime is gonna continue, but i definitely won’t for fire force since season3 has at least been confirmed, whenever.. same with tokyo revengers even though i’m getting real tempted with that one. and for the love of god i have to remember to read the psycho pass manga still! or however much i can find of it anyways!

what else is happening in my world right now, umm. almost a month away from splatoon3 thank god. i haven’t played my switch in a hot minute but once i got that then mmmhmm it’s over. then. scarlet & violet a couple months after too. OH! pokemon.. the masters 8 tournament has been bittersweet for me. the battles are rushed, even most take one episode, some of the moves and outcomes are just.. upsetting and strange. like i’ll never get over how dirty the writing handled the leon vs alain match. my boy deserved so much better. lance vs diantha was okay i guess and ya knew cynthia was gonna win against iris no problem. but then that battle with steven and ash.. idc what people say but there’s no way he should’ve won. after all that damage pikachu took from mega-metagross, he wins by one z-move and an iron tail of all things?? what?? (i think? i dont remember, i was annoyed). only bright side are all the cameos we’ve been getting. they only last a few seconds but they grant me SO MUCH happiness! seeing mairin, the johto trio, drew AND harley?? my heart was ecstatic! and i’m sure they’ll save all of ash’s traveling companions for his final match with leon, or at least i’m hoping so. i better see may and serena again darn it!

oh, and no joke but i swear i actually had a fucking contestshipping dream last night, which isn’t too surprising since i do indeed love them very much, but it was just randomly timed? like why now and not last month around their actual day when i rewatched all their episodes ya know?? but whatever. all it was was drew calling up may after some contest lose (in johto im assuming) to cheer her up. then some light teasing of course. that’s all i needed.

sometime during my incoherent rambling i did get an idea for an tpn anniversary edit. so i’ll definitely start on something for it tonight or tomorrow, unless i get caught up playing more pmd sky.. i started a randomizer yesterday and i’m enjoying myself. nostalgia hitting hard. but i would seriously love a new mystery dungeon.

#talking to myself #edit: as im posting this i just noticed a pokemon presents was announced for august 3rd! HELL YEAAHH more scarlet & violet news babyyy!!!!

[lonniecomics]

Growing Up & Getting Out【Prologue】

Hello! This series of pages is the prologue of a graphic novel I've been working on for many, many years. It's not nearly done, but I've made quite a lot of progress on it over the last couple years, and I'm excited to start sharing it as a webcomic!

My journey with this comic about my experiences grouping up gay in an Orthodox Jewish family has had ups and downs, rewrites and redraws, good news and bad. About 4 years ago, I got an agent and pitched almost 20 different publishers, but no one wanted that version.

I spent 3 years rewriting it, and coming up with a new art style, and began redrawing it with help from my partner, but my agent no longer had bandwidth for it, so we unfortunately had to (amicably) part ways.

I spent many months pitching new agents as well as trying to pitch new publishers on my own, but I haven't yet found one of either that wants to work with me on this project. But I'm not giving up! This book will be finished some day, even if it that just means it'll just be online. Hopefully I'll find a means of printing and distributing it eventually, but for now, I want to start sharing it with others bit by bit, as I work on it.

In the future, in addition to of course posting more finished pages, I hope to also share stuff like sketches, process breakdowns, etc. Please feel free to post questions or comments!

Hope you find it interesting. Please also feel feel free to share a link to this post anywhere you'd like!

Lastly, I’ve actually already been posting updates of chapters as I finish them to my patreon, publicly, for free. I.e. anyone can read them/follow, without paying anything. If you’d like to read all the chapters I’ve posted there so far (7 as of this writing, plus the prologue above), you can do so by going here.

#web comic #original comic #graphic novel #lgbtqia #lgbt #autobio comics #jewish #orthodox judaism #digital watercolor #gay #orthodox jew #GrowingUpGettingOut

[dailyaudiobiblechronological]

8/3/2022 DAB Chronological Transcription

2 Chronicles 32-33

Welcome to the Daily Audio Bible Chronological, I'm China. Today is the third day of August, welcome. So glad to be here with you. Today. I'm excited to be in the word of the Lord and excited to read it and to digest the word of the Lord and let it nourish our bodies. Just as I would get excited for a meal. I'm excited to read the word of the Lord today. Today we are in the Book of Second Chronicles with chapters 32 through 33. This week, we are in the New International Version.

Commentary

You know what's crazy to me is that we read about several different generations here. We start with King Hezekiah, then we go to Manasseh, and then we go to Manasseh's son Aman, and then we're going to pick up with Josiah. And so I'm like, in my brain, shouldn't we pick somebody else from a different family line? Right? Wouldn't that make sense? Hey, let's draw straws. Clearly, this family, whatever is going on, they got some stuff happening, and maybe it's a different family who doesn't have four generations of wishy washy people who are doing evil, right? Wouldn't that make sense? But if we go all the way back to where we have come from in the beginning of this year, we see Lord's promises, we see his faithfulness, and we see a steady God who has kept his word, has kept his promise, even in the midst of so much betrayal and so much hurt and so much evil and wickedness. And I've only been on this earth for 24 years. I have not encountered a deep amount of betrayal. I have not encountered a deep amount of or even like, a lengthy or consistent amount of hurt. Maybe like, yes, obviously on some scales, but not I've never made a promise and then felt like I just keep getting dragged. And that would be like if I was in a marriage. I'm trying to like, my brain is trying to make sense of this, like, trying to make it a metaphor so that we could understand this. I was in a marriage and I was like, I made this vow. I promised. And my spouse, we're using a hypothetical spouse was consistently betraying me, consistently choosing everyone else and anyone else but me. But I had said, I made my promise. I'm going to be a person of my word. I'm going to be faithful. I'm going to show you grace. I'm going to show you mercy. I feel like my friends, and even maybe a therapist would say kind of like, you're in an abusive relationship. I think it's time we get out. Like, let's get you some support groups. Let's get you into a recovery group, a recovering home. You need to get out of this, right? And we're reading this. If we take it in that grand of scale, some of you can relate to that. That's really difficult. And really tricky and really awful. And this is what we're reading about for seven, eight months now of people choosing everything but the Lord, being in a relationship with Him and then choosing not to be coming back and saying, I'm going to draw a line in the sand just for their descendants to rebuild everything that they were playing off of and everything that they had been destroyed. There's just so much wickedness, so much grief, so much hurt. And I'm like, Lord, I am speechless. I am speechless in how you have not completely wiped us off the Earth, that you are gracious and loving God, that you care for us when there has been every opportunity for you to not. And something that we read a little bit ago was that the Lord is waiting and anxiously ready to give us I don't know if it's anxiously just ready to give us and ready to show us grace and mercy. And that kind of love to me just does not make sense. Like that type of unconditional love, wow, is that rich? Is that vast? And it's for us and extended to us. And also we have an enemy who wants to try to blur the lines of that and say, yeah, but you're not for you, not this time, man, you just keep screwing up. Yeah, that's not how his love works. Too complicated. He doesn't even know what all you've done. You can never forgive it. Whatever things sound like, that's not the word. That's the enemy's voice who knows how he has to know the depths of the Lord's love. He has to somewhat understand because he's trying to do everything he can to keep us from it. And I don't know about you, but the more that I read the word of the Lord. The more that I understand slowly, day by day who he is and how vast his love is for us and how much my brain is spinning trying to understand it and just kind of almost like this image of a child spinning around and then just like crashing and sitting on the floor and being like. Okay, I don't have to understand. I don't have to keep spinning. I'm just going to sit and I'm just going to enjoy the complexity and also the simplicity. I don't have to overthink it. I just get to receive it. And I don't even fully know what that means or how I get that. And it has nothing to do with us. It's not because we're so great or so broken. It's because of who he is. And there's just so much to it. And at the same time, I feel like who the Lord is isn't complicated and he's not a Rubik's Cube puzzle. I know some people can put those together really quickly, but also he's not one that we can just be like, oh, man, I don't get this. It's too complicated, it's too difficult. I think we over complicate him and also just understanding that the enemy really doesn't want us to get it. He doesn't want us to live in freedom and in grace and in mercy and understand that the word of the Lord is true and it's pure and it's good.

Prayer

And so Father, I pray that Your Word would fall on good soil, that our hearts would be tilled every single day to receive Your truth and that we would know that you are for us, you love us, you have us in the palm of Your hand and you see us. And Lord, I just pray that we would humble ourselves before you, that we would ask for Your forgiveness daily, that we would ask others around us for forgiveness of our shortcomings, that we would forgive ourselves for the areas that we have either hurt ourselves or had some hurts or selfsabotage, whatever it looks like. What I pray that we would be able to extend the grace and mercy that you give us to ourselves and to others around us and that we may look more like you. And Father, I just thank you for Your word and it's in Your name we pray, amen.

Announcements

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Community Prayer Line

Good morning. DABCers. This is Laurie from Illinois. Jill, I just wanted to say thank you so much for being so open and honest with us and we don't expect you to be any other way. And I think sometimes as pastor's wives, people think they don't have problems or they have to be perfect and they can't be real, kind of like people thinking doctors can't be sick. And I want to lift you up in prayer. Jesus, I just pray today that you would be with Jill, Lord, and we know that you are. Lord, you know the emotions she's going through, the pain she feels. And Lord, just comfort her right where she is and give her the strength of Your word and Your love, Lord, that she is loved by you. In the name of Jesus, I pray. Amen. Keep it up. We love you, Jill, and we love you, China, and love this ministry. You're doing a great job. God bless you all.

Hey, my DABC family. This is Amanda from Colorado. I was just calling because I wanted to thank the woman from Canada. I'm sorry I forgot your name. For praying for my mom. After her knee surgery, she was in lots of pain and I really appreciate that. I'd like to ask you to continue praying for her. Knee pain has subsided a lot, but she now has a whole body bacterial infection and so she's on medication for that and in pain now because of that. So please continue to pray for her. I'd also like you to pray for my husband. He did end up losing his job, so I ask that you pray for him in his job search. He's had several phone interviews and tomorrow will be his first in person interview. We're really hoping for a good, exciting new position for him. He's been on shift work for years, so he has spent lots of time away from our family and it would be great to have him around more often. And so please pray. Give him strength. It's been hard on him. It's been hard on our family. The stressors of money and arguments, we know we're going to get through this. By the grace of God, he's always there. Pray for my children. My oldest has anxiety and she's having a hard time. She's getting ready to go into high school. My middle daughter's best friend just moved out of state and so she's having a tough time. And my son, he was diagnosed with autism last year and we're just trying to find him. Therapist so I thank you all love you all. Have a wonderful day. God bless.

This is Bobby calling in from Richmond, Virginia to pray for Baby Promise and her mother. Dear God, your word tells us you know us before you formed us in the womb. You know Baby Promise. You know the plans for this beautiful child. Your plans are perfect and you are sovereign. Lord, I ask that you be with baby. Promise mother. May she have peace during this time, ease any fear, anxieties anything she may have. Lord, I ask for a viable pregnancy and a smooth delivery. May this child always be a living testimony of how great you are in your mighty name. Amen.

Hi, DABC family. I'm calling today for a prayer request from Simone from Houston. She was calling in because her adopted niece daughter is pregnant with Baby Promise. And she went to the doctor and they had to fill up her uterus. And today, I'm just coming alongside you, Simone. And I'm praying for baby promise. And I also just want to reassure you that, well, this is the song that's been going in my head all day and night is standing on the promises of God. And so I'm also standing on a promise from God for my grandbaby. My son called me about four days ago and told me that I was going to be a first time grandma. My son and his girlfriend have been together for three years. They're not married. They're both about to turn 20. They are young, but there was a little question. My son would love to have the baby and so would his girlfriend, but they are scared. And the daughter, I think the girlfriend afraid to tell her family and abortion was mentioned. And so I'm praying against abortion for my grandbaby and I've named my grandbaby Baby Love. So Baby Promise and Baby Love are going to come into this world because God has a plan for their life. And I'm just joining with you, Simone from Houston and can't wait till we have our praise report when we're holding our little grandbabies. In Jesus name I pray, amen.

[purplesurveys]

1699

If I were to yell at you right now, what would you do? Depends on what you’re yelling at me for. I’d either tell you you’re talking to the wrong person...or if you were yelling at me for something sexist or racist or anything discriminatory, I’d take a photo of you to post on social media to tell everyone to stay away from you for being a disgusting weirdo.

Do you empathize with people often? I wouldn’t say it’s a strength, but I try to do it whenever I can.

Which do you prefer, Iced Tea or Fruit Punch? Iced tea. Idk what fruit punch is and with that statement I’m guessing I’ve never had it, either.

Have you ever been stung by a bee? Never been stung by a bee and I am also terrified by bees, so I do everything to avoid them and getting stung.

Did you read Where The Wild Things Are when you were little? Nope. I don’t think I heard of it till my teenage years.

Did you ever had one of those cash register toys? Yes! I liked toys that were more interactive than others, so toys that had lots of buttons or could bend and twist and turn and stuff like that. Cash registers were one of my favorites and at one point I even had one that had an actual working conveyor belt and microphone.

Do you have a collage of family pictures somewhere in your house? It’s not anywhere close to being a collage, but if anything we have a small collection of framed family photos that line up a portion of our stairs.

How many wooden spoons are in your household? I think it’s just the one.

Are you excited to go back to school? I graduated three years ago and have no immediate need to go back.

Has anyone ever thrown a cup of liquid on you? I don’t think so. I feel like I’d find that extremely inconvenient and disrespectful even when done playfully. I’m not really that friend you can prank and splash water on.

Have you ever faked sick at school just to go home? No. I couldn’t have made that happen even if I was terrific at acting sick. They check your temperature anyway and if you didn’t exceed 37.5C the most they’d have you do is take a nap before bringing you back to class.

Do you always watch something on tv on your home sick days? The thing is I was never sick as a kid, so I never got many of those days off school. On the days I actually had a fever, I felt way too sick that I was usually asleep the entire day.

Can you recommend me a book, right now? I don’t read enough to be able to share a book reco.

Are any of your siblings friends like family to you? Not really. I’m the sibling who has a friend that my family treats like our own, and that’s Angela.

Do you prefer colouring with crayons or coloured pencils? Colored pencils. I haven’t used crayons since...grade school, maybe?

Do you watch the SuperBowl because you like football? I don’t watch the Super Bowl because American football is not big here. I’ll watch the halftime show(?) if I like the artist, but otherwise Super Bowl day is just a normal, uneventful morning on this side of the world. It wouldn’t even be on the news unless it was like Beyoncé performing.

Are you sick of all of these people trying to find love on VH1? I never watched those programs; I was too young.

Did you ever watch Beauty and the Geek? Nah.

Do you enjoy cleaning? It’s a love-hate relationship. Sometimes it’ll feel like major back-to-back chores that I just want to abandon; sometimes it’ll feel therapeutic.

Have you read any of Ellen Hopkins’ books? No.

Do you even like to read? I do like reading but I’ve found that I don’t really have the attention span for it anymore. < This is me, too. I feel like the only thing I have the attention span for these days are digital articles (if they’re informative), or memoirs. Anything else I wouldn’t last past a chapter, especially if fictional.

If your house was on fire, what would you save? Assuming both dogs are out, realistically, probably just my phone. My biggest and only priority at that moment would 100% be having a communication device to keep in touch with people. Maybe my wallet too, but if everything was a matter of life and death, I’d stick with the phone.

Have you ever pretended to have a good time for the sake of someone else? Oh, of course.

Are you good at understanding baby talk? Nah, am not around babies that much.

What wouldn’t you want anybody to steal? My debit card.

What was the last movie that you saw in the theaters? Does it count as a movie if it was a concert? Haha I watched the theatrical screening of YTC Busan earlier this year.

Have you ever gotten your clothes mixed up with your mum’s? No, I know which ones are mine.

Do you share clothes with your friends? Not really, no.

Who was the last person/thing to lick you? Cooper.

Have you ever read one of those PostSecret books? No, I don’t know what those are.

Do you have a favorite Armor For Sleep song? Never heard of them.

Can you pat your head and rub your tummy at the same time? Sure.

Have you ever changed a baby’s diaper? I actually have not.

Did you have many baby dolls when you were little? I wasn’t into dolls. My cousins are all boys, so I preferred toy guns and soldiers. I never asked for a Barbie, and when I had gotten one for Christmas I remember ultimately not using it a lot.

Does the peanut butter or jelly make the sandwich? I find the combo so unusual and I have never enjoyed it.

Have you ever kept a diary? I did until I found out my mom read through them and acted like I was wrong for lashing out. After that I switched to surveys.

Is there always a supply of KoolAid in your fridge? I have never had KoolAid.

What is your favorite show on Nick At Nite? I’m familiar with Nick At Nite, but I don’t think we ever had that here! If we did it was probably in the early 90s.

If you had the chance to live anywhere in Europe, where would it be? Norway or Finland.

Do you have a favorite Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle? No.

Are you good at drawing self portraits? Not at all.

A plane crashes on the border of Canada. Where do you bury the survivors? You don’t bury survivors. < Well, there you go.

Do you think that you’re good at riddles? I’m terrible at them and I probably would have genuinely answered that ^ if not for seeing the previous answer.

Trix or Cheerios? Trix! It was my favorite cereal as a kid.

[biglisbonnews]

Jump Into Cydnee With a C's Colorful Comic World Los Angeles-based singer Cydnee with a C has been singing all her life, boasting collaborations with the likes of OG Maco and Trippie Redd off the strength of her rich, buttery croon evocative of early '00s R&B stars. However, recent singles and rumblings of the singer show another side to her that ushers in a new chapter for the young star.Now, the singer is embracing other parts of herself such as her passion for all things K-pop and her newfound love for the controlled chaos of drum and bass music. With her airy falsetto gliding over frenetic percussion, the Atlanta-born singer is part of a larger wave of artists bringing their sultry and delicate R&B into new territories. Today, she announces her forthcoming EP, Confessions of a Fan Girl, which synthesizes old and new, setting the stage for Cydnee to explore this newfound genre with everything she's built up over the years, cherishing the intensity of pure fangirl devotion.For her most recent (and aptly titled) Valentine's Day single "As Long As You Love Me," her sound comes together in perfect harmony. In the accompanying video, which premieres today on PAPER, HER frantic movements mimic a flipbook as she ponders a relationship that requires a bit more effort so she can finally let love in. She scribbles on walls and stabs teddy bears, slowly filling in the blank spaces with the love, care and color she rightfully deserves.Below, watch the PAPER video premiere of "As Long As You Love Me" and keep scrolling to read a short Q&A with Cydnee about all things K-pop, fandom and passion.Being a fan girl is so fun but it also has some negative connotations. How has that part of your life impacted you and influenced your artistry?Yeah, some people don’t understand being obsessively passionate. Maybe they haven’t connected with something they really love yet. No shade lol. Every fan is different but for me, fangirling inspires my creativity, dreams and ideas. To me, obsession is passion and passion is purpose. There’s a reason why you’re so obsessed. Do it, love it!Listening to your earlier work and your new stuff shows how you've become more comfortable dialing into other facets of your artistry and interests. What has it been like to explore new sounds and avenues?I introduced my producer Aktion Jackson to K-pop and he introduced me to drum and bass music. I’ve never been the same. It’s fun and stimulates my senses more than anything. Confessions of a Fangirl will definitely be a drum and bass project.Who is your dream K-pop collab?Oh my goodness, right now it would be Bibi or Hwasa from MAMAMOO.You emphasize community, from family and friends to the larger K-Pop community you've found online. What communities do you hope to foster around you?I’m not going to lie, I love the ASMR community! And anybody that can’t live without music is a part of the same community as me. I listen to everything from Coldplay to Sade to Blackpink.What is the most treasured part of this forthcoming EP that you're excited to share?The genre. Drum and bass is so fire. I love how me and Jackson are creating our own lil' sound and style. I can’t wait for people to connect with it.Photo courtesy of Ty Crane https://www.papermag.com/cydnee-with-a-c-premiere-2659431676.html

#Cydnee with a c #Premiere #Jade Gomez​ #PAPER

[b-wtie]

a return

Hi there, 

I’ve logged into my tumblr for the first time in a really, really long time. The last thing I remember about my era of tumblr was probably just reblogging a lot of quotes and maybe some vagueposts about a boy i liked that is now my long-term partner. What a time. 

Anyways - I’m back now because I think I’m starting a new chapter of my life in a couple of days. I’ve been a social worker for the past 5ish years and I’m doing a complete career shift into funeral service education. Mortuary school. A lot has changed since my last post (a meme) or my last actual ME post. It’s weird to admit it now. That I’ve changed. 

I think I’m just hoping to leave a pin in this moment right now, to come back to sometime later and say HEY, this is how you felt in this moment. The waiting room between this chapter and the next. The extra space at the bottom of a page between the end of the last thought and the beginning of the other. 

My family’s nervous for me because I’m giving up a cushy government job to do something truly less glamorous and manual. I get it. Me, too. I know I’m going to really, really fucking miss my 9-5, my ability to balance work and life, and my weekends. My schedule is about to be fucked. 

I know all that, yet it’s the most excited and interested I’ve been in months. In anything. I know we’ve all had a rough go of it through the pandemic and my priorities about myself and the world have completely changed. I’ve been prioritizing myself more, my interests and my excitement. And it feels good. It’s that simple - it feels good to just think of myself and not of the things people think or expect of me. 

I went through SW to have stability, and to have direction to get through the American Dream with. First generation in my family to grow up and graduate here, eldest daughter, successful and stable. Mortuary school is the biggest decision I’ve made by myself, for myself. And I just remember I woke up one day, disliked everything, and chose this instead. I woke up one day and said YES. To myself. Instead of YES to what was expected. 

My future self, if you’re reading this, I hope you remember that. I already know doing full time school AND full time work AND full time being-a-person is going to tear you inside out. Oh my god, Esai, we’re so fucking scared right now. 

What if this is a mistake? A huge financial fuck up. You and Michael could have gotten married, bought a house - but no, you wanted to learn how to professionally and ethically scrape people off of the ground and display their embalmed carcass in front of their family. 

Maybe we’re right - we’re fucking up royally. But isn’t that also part of it? You just have this one life, and you have the ability to choose. You chose this, you chose yourself. It’s the first thing ever that’s made you want to keep healthy and work out and all that stuff and isn’t that something worth holding on to?

You might give up halfway. You might fail, and fail, and fail - but you will always have succeeded in one thing. You chose yourself. You did what you could. You’ve tasted what you could of this sweet world, and that’s all you can do. 

I love you, Esai - you’re going to kick ass. I’m so proud of you already. Come back here if it’s too much or you need to vent to the void of the internet. That’s the beautiful thing about blogging - it’s not your partner, your mom, or your friends. It’s the general, uncaring public. And that’s just the right amount of attention these thoughts need.

If you’re a stranger or a distanced tumblr friend wondering how I’m doing - this is how I’m doing. I hope you’re okay, too. 

#diary #fse

[silvertsundere]

Silver Talks AniManga (5/03/23)

there’s a buncha new Jump SQ series but they’re not on Manga Plus yet cause of Viz so I’ll read them whenever they arrive there. I could do it on Viz but don’t feel like fiddling around with vpn for it, I can just wait a week lol

I wanted to do this last week, but didn’t get around to it, but from now I’ll have a list of everything that’s under the cut, in order (left to right), here so you can know what’s in there without opening it EDIT: Witch Watch Ch99 is between sxf and bb, completely forgot about it tehe

Dandadan Ch95

the training arc is finally over and now is the time for the big fights to begin 👀also didn’t say last week but it’s crazy to me how yukinobu manages to, consistently, have crazy pages like this on a weekly series

One Punch Man Ch178

thank you for the excellent food like always murata 🙏 I feel bad for poor metal bat at the end tho lmao

Kaiju 8 Ch81

oh yeah there was no kaiju last time but I’ll keep it short. it’s really good, just a good ol hot blooded battle manga. I especially appreciate having an older mc (30s) for once. anyway I figured what happened in this chap was the case from when the 1v1 fights started but still, stuff is looking dire monka

Show-ha Shoten! Ch16

it’s about manzai comedy and drawn by takeshi obata of death note fame, I wasn’t sure about it at first cause comedy stuff either gets you or it doesn’t but it’s pretty good even ignoring the jokes and all that. also been a while since last chap so I forgot they had introduced a baddie sheesh

Ichigoki’s Under Control!! Ch13

another bad chap, at least it should be ending soon so that’s good cause I’ve been over it for a while

The Ichinose Family’s Deadly Sins Ch15

not much to say here either, still as edgy as ever, tho it’s certainly gotten a lot better since the bullying arc. but I’m still waiting for it to end soon like ichigoki, fabricant and ginka

Fabricant 100 Ch12

honestly? one of the best chaps it’s had. the scene under was cool and the reveal and spread at the end was neat

Ginka & Gluna Ch24

some really gnarly art in this one, which has been ginka’s biggest strenght from the start and this chap really shows it. tho good art is not enough to save it and it seems to be setting up to end soon, which is expected considering it’s rankings

Jiangshi X Ch7

more sprinklings of the overarching plot and setting up the main villains, expecting the mcs to get saved by the big boss and then for there to be a timeskip of sorts to when they’re strong enough to actually fight scary stuff but we’ll see

Tokyo Demon Bride Story Ch25

damn thing’s didn’t go according to plan and they got caught by the big baddie? what a shocker. leaving my prediction here that next chap is gonna be mostly talking and a cliffhanger at the end with them about to fight

SPY x FAMILY Ch76

anya focused chap with her being a fool as usual, not much to say really lol

Witch Watch Ch99

a teacher chap oh no. thank you for your hard work translator and typesetter. teacher chaps are always rough cause they’re super wordy and it’s all hardcore otaku rambling but this one had a nice message along with it so that was good

Blue Box Ch91

another incredibly good chapter. yumeka’s extremely relatable for me as I also used to do sports and quit for the exact same reasons she did as she explained some chaps ago and her feeling in this chap too. it’s just crazy to me to see a character like this in a sports manga where every chara just loves the sport and rarely has any second thoughts or negative feelings about it.

incredible work as usual miura-sensei, jump really needs more female authors

Cipher Academy Ch14

a nice chap, however I’m very excited for the murder mystery game. it seems like it’ll be very fun especially considering the 2 cards that got revealed and the narration box at the end 👀

Mashle Ch146

well that was fast, I expected that to last 2 or 3 chaps total not just 1 lol

Sakamoto Days Ch109

you’re gonna hear me say this a lot but the action coreography in sakamoto is some of favourite in anything, it’s soooo good

The Elusive Samurai Ch100

always very exciting to see a series reach the big 100. a nice chap too, done with upgrading the mcs tho this line had me very 👀👀👀

Akane-banashi Ch52

holy moly, another incredibly good chapter, continuing from the last one and further setting up and characterizing akane’s biggest rival

Ayakashi Triangle Ch122

a nice conclusion to that mini arc and a cute ending, thank you yabuki as always

#nice chaps overall even the weaker series weren't bad #also looking forward to the new stuff I didn't read yet #also 'but silver it says animanga and it's just manga what gives' yeah yeah I know #I just haven't watched anime in ages but I'll add some in future weeks #silver talks animanga

[jayflrt]

Ahh Alice 🥰 yeah summer classes are WHEW I'm taking 2. One is a 5 week session so it ends next week and I'm hype 🤩 we literally had a test every week in that class and we'd do a new chapter of material every single day it was INSANE but I think I'm gonna get an A in the class so that's all that really matters, right??! The other class is either 8 or 10 weeks idk but it ends late July! That one is definitely still accelerated but definitely more manageable that the other. Even tho my professor wants us to read over 100 pages in the textbook while also watching 4 hours worth of lecture videos 🙃 but at least I have a week to do that rather than a night jsjjssj but since I'll still have the other class I don't expect really doing anything over the summer :(( it's my first summer away from my family 😭 hopefully I'll be able to go home for a weekend or something but I don't expect doing anything exciting other than that 🥲 but since I'm at my apartment I spend time with my roommates when I can and I've made some new friends through them so I'm dealing with it well :)

And yes oml ofc I thought of you 🥺 my favorite enha account!! I've been in Enha feels so bad bc of iland ndnsnsns I've had my enha Playlist on repeat and I think I listened to attention please 75 times in one day so... 😳 I've been spending most of my breaks between hw watching their videos hehe it feels like I'm stanning all over again! I love it tho 🥰 I stayed up later than I should have (I still have lots of hw to do today) last night watching their Weverse crack videos 💀 my ult group is on weverse now so I'm active more on there than I used to be so the videos hit harder now since I know the struggles LOL plus I'm in the big enhypen discord and they're doing a 2 year anniversary event where your favorite pics and stuff and yeah IN THE FEELS!! Is there any work of yours that you're most proud of that you'll want me to check out first?? Doesn't have to be enha either~ I'm excited to get back into reading bc I really do love it 🥺 I expect my fall semester is going to be very similar in terms of insane workload so I'm going to try and enjoy the freedom as much as I can starting in a week 🙏🏻 I love you! 💙

oh my gosh my college also offers 5 week summer session courses and it’s sooo grueling 🤧 last time i was literally thinking “i never wanna do this again” LOL so props to you for sticking through 🤩 you’re gonna do great and get to enjoy a fun summer ahead i just know it 💗💗 YESSS COP THAT A !!! and a test a week is so brutal 😭😭 like i thought two midterms was bad but .. a test …….. a week 😰

i’m glad your other class is manageable tho !! that’s a nice break from your five week course 🤧 also omg i’m glad it ends july so you still have some break to relax during (i think) 🥰 omg nooo :(( i hope it feels homey where you’re living at least! and i’m glad you have your roommate and friends to keep you company <33 i’m also here if you ever wanna talk :’))

PLSSS IM SO TOUCHED 🥺🥺💖💖 so insane bc we talked on my nct blog before this blog even existed !!! ATTENTION PLEASE SUPREMACY 🤩 i constantly loop upperside dreaming it’s tooooo good 😮‍💨 and getting back into a group is such a fun feeling :’) i’ve been watching more enha content recently too and i’m glad bc it makes me feel more excited for their cb ♡ also omg i hope you get to finish your work soon and get some rest! 🤧🤧

AHH THATS SUCH A SWEET QUESTION HAHAH :’)) i suppose i’m pretty proud of my spiderjake fic “i’ll save your (again)” on my enha masterlist :o but tbh feel free to just read whichever piques your interest !! i know sometimes ppl are just in the mood to read for a different group or different genre so just go for whatever you like 💝

AHH SAME IM SCARED FOR THE FALL QUARTER LMAODJD for once i actually got all the classes i wanted !! downside: i had to take an 8 am section 😵‍💫 so i will be suffering this fall 😭 also love u too !!! <33

#💌 : love notes #baekhyuns-lipchain