A check in / posting update
Hello friends, I apologize in advance because this may be a bit of a ramble.
As many of you know, I’ve been on an aggressive posting schedule since October. While it’s been an incredible push to grow as a writer and a challenge to my ADHD to retain a strict schedule I must admit it’s really been stressful behind the scenes.
I’ve recently transitioned into a new full time job (yay better pay and paid benefits) and will be starting school in the fall. That being said, something time wise has to give.
Hang on though, just because I won’t be sticking to a direct posting schedule doesn’t mean I will disappear entirely or stop writing. I still have some requests I’d like to work on as well as some extra ideas I really want to get out there.
All this means is my posting may be a bit sporadic. I’ll still be active and I’ll still take requests as well as post my own ideas. I just need a bit more time in my day for other things. (Like my real actual life. Crazy, I know.)
This also is to help me have the time to make a longer chaptered work I’ve had sitting in my brain and my drafts for ages now.
I really endlessly appreciate all the love and support sent my way and if I could I’d thank each and every single one of you personally for supporting my 4 month writing binge, I would.
As a finale for my insane writing stint. I have one final work set to post tomorrow and that will be the last of my January posts.
Much love, Sylvie 💕
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I think about this moment a lot.
Like. It feels really rude that Fushi’s just brushing Tonari off like this, jerking his hand away as if he’s annoyed she even tried to touch him in the first place. The fact that we don’t even see his expression when he does this makes it feel extra brutal. But I think a lot of people see this scene as if Fushi rejecting Tonari’s ‘advances,’ so to speak, and I’m not convinced that’s what’s happening here.
Like, yeah we see that big love bubble at the corner of the panel while she’s telling Fushi how important he is to her, but Tonari’s just reflected on how she feels about him and ultimately rejected her own feelings. Romantic love is not something she wants to feel for Fushi. So I don’t think she was working her way up to a confession. At least, not intentionally (it’s not her fault Fushi’s an empath)!
Instead I think this scene is supposed to be a parallel of the moment that happens between Gugu and Rean.
Gugu doesn’t tear his hand away from Rean’s because he doesn’t want to hear her confession. He isn’t running away because he doesn’t love her back. Gugu pulls away from Rean because he’s rejecting the concern she has for him and his safety. He realizes there’s something greater that he needs to focus on, something he feels only he‘s strong enough to take care of. And he wants to take care of it to keep her and the people he loves safe. Gugu loves her, it’s just not the right time for him to indulge in it.
In my opinion Fushi feels similarly to Gugu (not the reciprocation part though). He appreciates Tonari’s concern and love for him- that’s why he smiles a little and thanks her- but it’s not the right time for him to indulge in that. He‘s still trying to prove that the world is at peace (something he’s doing because of her, for her), he doesn’t need or want her getting involved in his fight against the nokkers.
I wanna reemphasize that I’m not trying to argue that Fushi secretly reciprocates Tonari’s romantic feelings- he’s already said he’s never felt that way about anyone before. I just don’t think he’s outright rejecting them either.
I think the hands in this scene are also what get people thinking this scene is a little more romantic than it is. It’s a standard cliche where one character stops another from leaving after all lmao. But this to me is what solidifies this as a scene that’s not inherently romantic.
Them grabbing at each other like this is a much older, a much deeper thing for them. Back when they were on Jananda, they’d often grab at each other’s wrists because they could never quite see eye to eye. Tonari specifically would grab at Fushi’s wrists a lot when trying to impose her will on him and drag him along. Once they start understanding each other, however, their hands actually touch (ex. Tonari pressing Oopa’s blow dart to the back of Fushi’s hand).
This scene is a little mix of the two. Tonari’s grabbing Fushi’s wrist to stop him from leaving (imposing her will on him) but her hand overlaps with his palm a little (trying to understand him). Tonari doesn’t know what’s happening completely, but she knows enough to know something’s wrong. In a way, Tonari grabbing for his hand is her appealing to Fushi to open up, to let her in, follow through on this connection that’s always been theirs.
But he doesn’t. Fushi rejects it.
I think the chapter image shows it all pretty well too. They’re both reaching out for each other. But while Tonari’s solid in her attempts to reach him, Fushi's all fuzzy. It's as if these are his emotions. Like, subconsciously he wants to reach out, but he can't. So close, yet so far…
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mmmm list need to remember
fill in assignment flow chart thingy
send birthday letter
330 reading response
BIBLE!!!!!
376 both reading responses (and others if feeling ambitious)
kiss kitty on head
make mushroom barley soup yippeeeeee
refill meds
more stamps
banking shtuff
talk to aviva about editing journal
talk to poland lady about scheduling
HUNT DOWN ULA. MAKE HER RESPOND.
love kitty with my whole heart
call anna
imma esplode. too much. and i am on crutches mid montreal winter. barf.
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Your boy is back at it again working himself into a flare up and still refusing to take a break because *deadlines*. I stg this project I’m working on right now might actually kill me. If you are able to please remember to take breaks and take care of yourself. Do better than me lol
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