#I try not to lie to children

[tj-crochets]

Octopus friend here!!

(The one who thought the Frogs were octopi, changed my user since then soo whoop)

And eheh!! A question for you as the distraction post requests,

How come objects sometimes look like they have faces?

Hello frogtopus friend!! Why objects sometimes look like they have faces, as explained to a four year old: Our brains are like really really complex machines. They are doing all kinds of things in the background as we walk around and [list one or two things the kid likes doing or is currently doing]. Without thinking about it, you're breathing in and out, and blinking, and your body is turning your food into energy. How cool is that! So many things you don't have to tell your body to do, it just does them automatically. One of those things that humans are really really good at doing automatically is recognizing patterns, and one of the patterns we are best at recognizing is faces. I think it's because if we were out in the forest (or in whatever fantasy setting of a show/book the kid likes), and there were lions or tigers or monsters out to get us*, noticing them before they could pounce would help keep us safe. And there are lots of different kinds of animals, that are different colors and sizes and everything, but you know what they all have? Faces! Every animal we might see on land has a face, and most of the animals in the sea have faces too! Do you know any animals that don't have faces? (maybe talk about jellyfish and starfish and animals** like that). Nowadays, we spend less time worrying about lions and tigers and monsters, but that automatic face recognition is still in our brains, so we still notice faces. We're just more likely to see them on trees or stains on the ground or in the clouds. Why do you think we see faces on things? (talk for a while about their ideas) Let's see who can find the most faces in the house/yard/room! Ready, set, go! Let's find some faces! *unless you live somewhere where large carnivores hunting children is a legitimate concern, maybe do not tell toddler that the hypothetical lions are trying to kill or eat them. Depending on the kid, that could be fine, or it could give them nightmares and make them scared to go outside (not as dramatic, but I accidentally had the toddler I babysat super afraid of snakes for a few days and he wouldn't go in the part of his yard with tall grass. We did live somewhere with a lot of rattlesnakes, though, so it was important that he knew that there were dangerous snakes and what to watch out for so he wouldn't *run towards a snake* again)

**idk where the line is between "animal" and "not animal" or where jellyfish fall but I do not think that's a line a four year old is likely to know a lot about or care about

#ask away! #tj explains things to toddlers #snake mention #local-hellcat #long post #explaining to toddlers why objects sometimes look like they have faces #I don't know if that's really the reason we see faces? #I think it's like vaguely in the right direction of the answer #so I made sure to couch it as 'this is what I think' #and ask 'what do you think?' #I try not to lie to children #that said. the tolerance for sentences like 'if lions are trying to eat you' varies WILDLY between little kids #when I was a toddler I really really liked animals and the movie Jumanji #the idea of large carnivores eating me wouldn't have bothered me a bit I'd just have started talking about the food chain #(yes I know now it's called the food web I did not know that at age four) #but I have met several toddlers that are terrified at the idea of any animal out to get them #I've also had a toddler chased by a dog and utterly unafraid (both toddler and dog were fine I intervened) #so...err on the side of not implying they could get eaten by lions if you don't know the kid well #if you do know the kid well use your best judgment #the toddler I babysat was completely unafraid of any kind of animal (except temporarily snakes) #but was TERRIFIED for weeks after learning about the SCP foundation through youtube videos of a game #that was like...based on it? a version of it? #he was having nightmares and his parents had no idea what SCP was and I had to explain it while also only vaguely knowing

[salamie-baby]

Local urban development scheme makes efforts to shelter millions of homeless children across the country within three months

#I'm so EXCITED I LOVE BUILDING AND CUSTOMISING THINGS #It messes with my headcanon that sky children are like cats in the sense that they won't just be living wherever anymore #BUT #I wamt haus #I'm gonna try and make mine at least a little silly like a zoo enclosure because I want to climb and lie on top of things #Totally not projecting at all #:3 #Season of nesting #Nesting Guide #sky children of the light #sky: cotl #that sky game #sky cotl #sky: children of the light #sky game #skyblr #skykid #IKEA #Meme

[vulpinesaint]

haha yeah i'm just like all the other men i think about the roman empire all the time... [ dreamily imagines saint sebastian tied to that tree ]

#genuinely i think about the roman empire a lot. cause i think about centurion uniforms a lot. #and this is because i have been obsessed with saint sebastian since i was a little boy. #you can trace it all back dkfghs #red cloak and boots save me... red cloak and boots... #the version of saint seb in my children's book of saints was fully clothed and had armor on. so that's what child me was on #anyway yeah i idolize roman centurions. no it's not about any of the colonization or military power. #it's about. saint sebastian #WHICH ISN'T ABOUT THE RELIGION THING EITHER TO BE CLEAR I'M JUST TRANS #total lie but you get what i mean #i'm not trying to be a good christian. however. bitches when they claim themself as roman catholic... #valentine notes #catholic tag

[branmer]

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#i was like hmm maybe i was too petty blocking that person and then i checked their blog #and they're like lit reblogging stuff from actual admitted zionists and railing angrily about how terrible everyone on the left is #and reblogging posts saying that what's happening in gaza isn't genocide or ethnic cleansing #and i was like oof ok im gonna keep you blocked lmaaaaaooo #what a genuinely horrible person #love that they're also peddling the lie that anti-zionist = anti-semitic #which is a wild claim considering the many anti-zionist jewish people and the fact that many zionists are actually christians #but ok! #(not to say that some ppl don't try to disguise anti-semitism in anti-zionism #but saying that everyone who talks critically about zionism really means 'the jews' is just totally untrue and a fucked thing to say!) #but the point of this kind of rhetoric is in the end to undermine solidarity for palestine #and it worked for a long time but it doesn't anymore #because people are now seeing children buried in rubble and hospitals being bombed #and ethnic cleansing being committed in realtime in front of us

[chipjrwibignaturals]

THOUGHT ABT CHIP JRWI INCIDENT 40 DEAD 32 WOUNDED

#im so fucking far behind so I feel like I can’t rlly say shit #bc either its shit I’ve already said or abt events I haven’t witnessed myself #so I can’t like. give MY take im going off second hand info anyway #idk I just. I LOVE HIM!!!!!!!! #he’s so selfish and selfless and all he really wants is to protect and love #forever some part of him is stuck as that little boy on the black rose #whether it’s in his desire for family and crew or even just his… simple urge to do good for goods sake that children have #before hard reality and Reuben and the streets told him to keep to himself and only care abt him and his #idk I just!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ya #it took gillion beating the shit out of him for that selfish shell to break #for him to realize like. hey. you’re impacting the ppl you interact with and you’re being a *dick* #and after we see him care more not just for his crew (like keeping his promise to gillion to not lie or just trying to know them better) #but like. signing for la alma. giving up grimms magic to revive people. stealing from royalty to give to an orphanage #loffinlot chip just… WOULDNT do that. it wouldn’t help him and just puts him at risk. just ignore it keep your head down and leave. #and even WITH that growth he’s still got that selfish streak— in the most positive sense of the term #him turning down Lizzie’s army offer in joaldo is him prioritizing those close to him over the needs of the many #(versus with Grimm doing what serves the most— self-sacrifice is easier to swallow) #anyway. tumblr mobile stopped showing my last tags like 7 lines ago so im stopping here just. #know that fucker is rotating in here again.

[bright-eyes-strawberry-lies]

I think perhaps the queer couple shouldn't keep Nico's children as pets regardless of what their species is.

#riordanverse #tsats #spoilers #the sun and the star #solangelo #nynico #rick i am criticizing you #someone tell me what i read was a lie #someone tell me i didnt actually read that in print #someone tell me this isnt the real book and we're all being pranked #also no one try to justify that choice to me #i dont care if nyx literally welped a litter of kittens #those are their children they're introduced as Nico's children to the readers and to Nico #as we all know just because it looks like a monster doesnt mean it isn't a person (tyson elle grover juniper etc etc) #I'm still hoping i read this wrong because wow what a choice

[rotzaprachim]

this is definitely not the first time war has ended up on tumblr.net but it’s still wild to see people learn about the horrific haze of wartime reporting and chains of knowledge amidst a fandom-esque desire to be right all time time. “You can’t believe that all you have is witness testimonies, military reports and foreign news agents” girl how do you THINK information gets reported in a war

#Like I hate to break it to you there’s no easy tally you’re ever going to find about Exactly what’s on the ground and we’ll probably never #Know the exact details of a lot of this and certainly not for a long long time #It’s pulled out a lot of peoples anti Arab racism and antisemitism and at the heard ot both those very parallel ideologies #Is a belief in shifty people who lie about things #So in general: the response? Hell #Added levels of many people not being anglophones so there’s like #Anglophone news media trying to communicate in rapid time with extremely distraught people whose primary langauge is Arabic or Hebrew #This is to say that I haven’t found any solid evidence of the 40 babies which would be statistically unlikely from the 70 ish casualties in #In that kibbutz #And I think that came from an outsider American journalist? #However manyyyy sources have independently confirmed that many children have been found dead and beheadings have happened

[icharchivist]

yknow this one post that's like

the embarrassing thing about me is that this is me but it only works when i'm super mentally ill about ff7 because every time i'm obsessed with ff7 it's the only time i manage to motivate myself to do exercises and trying to take better care of myself FULLY because "Zack would want me to take care of myself", i'm doing some exercises despite hating every second of it because "Zack would want me to be able to pull some squats and i can't do that in my current shape so now i have to make it better" like, ok, cringelord. DoItForHimCollage.jpg about Zack Fair i guess. I have a deodorant smell i associate so strongly to Zack that putting it on makes me actually motivated to take care of myself. fucking mortifying.

*sends a kiss to the sky* for Zack Fair. I guess.

#17 years of this nonsense and it still doesn't stop #yknow once i told my bestfriends about Cloud's trivia and stuff #and my bestfriends grimaced because they immediately connected how i could relate to that #so much so they started laughing after a bit because it was so on the nose #and yet the most obvious reasons i'm a Cloud kinnie is not obvious to them but it's this fucking thing #yeah i guess i need to take care of myself because of Zack. Whatever. #In my mind i just constantly relive on loop that one scene of Advent Children like the mentally stable person i am #Im a Cloud kinnie because i'm mentally unstable about Zack Fair. Whatever. Why do i try to fight it now. #Zack entered my life and i've never been fucking normal ever again. #(also i lie the /most/ obvious reasons i'm a Cloud kinnie is that we share birthday but that's irrelevant) #anyway sorry i spent the last two days bing reading a clackfic and now i feel mentally unwell #grits my teeth. For Zack Fucking Fair I Guess. Fucking Mortifying. #ichatalks about ffvii #ichatalks

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

There always seems to be one kid who just screams like a tornado siren, all day long, at any given opportunity. Like, kid, I love you, you are precious and deserve all the happiness in the world; but please for the love of god shut up. There are people trying to learn here and you’re not helping them or yourself.

#I don’t like being harsh with people in general but if one child is raising the tension in the room to a fever pitch every single day #making it incredibly hard for the kids who are trying really really hard to focus when they already have focus issues #and because I know this specific kid gets absolutely spoiled rotten at home and is allowed to do whatever they want #you know… sometimes it helps to show the kid how they sound to others by demonstrating the obnoxious nature of The Scream #because when the parents do Jack Shit about teaching their kid discipline and courtesy; you have to be a parent in their stead #But do NOT continue to scream. You are an adult with adequate emotional control. Screaming should be be done EXTREMELY sparingly #and only utilized for demonstration purposes or to stop a brawl; not for bullying or intimidation #Don’t do a JoJo Siwa and TRY to make kids cry even though you may get stressed enough that you want to escalate on purpose #Again: you are an adult with adequate emotional control; don’t escalate unless the overreaching plan is to deescalate #if eliciting a startle response will stop harmful behavior and “snap them out of it” for long enough for you to get through #or if they just need to let all their emotions out at once so they can lose enough of that high energy to think critically #then sure #but you have to guide them back down very carefully and calmly; it’s a precise science #Don’t be mean about it; be genuine in your feelings and don’t go overboard. Genuine ≠ mean unless you’re evil #Or if you don’t feel emotions very strongly (like I do) then react like a “normal” person. Lie about being angry or sad if it is appropriat #Again: Your goal should not be to get the kid to do what you want; the goal should be to get them to feel good enough #so they are ABLE to do it in the first place #And the goal should also be to show them how their actions affect others if they are not aware of it #“Teach a man to fish” and all that. Don’t always check them; get them to check themselves #If a kid hits another kid when they’re angry at something completely unrelated; then 1.) redirect destructive behavior #and 2.) walk them back over to the kid they hurt and say: #“Look at [name]; look how sad you made them. [name] didn’t do anything to you #It’s okay to be angry but we CANNOT hit people when we are angry because it hurts and makes them cry.” Works great #Always remember there is a power imbalance inherent in EVERY child-adult relationship and NEVER abuse it #And if you’re not patient or emotionally stable enough to work with or have children; then don’t. Please don’t. #Children are not cute little dolls to play dress-up with; nor are they perfect angels; nor are they your personal stress ball #Having children is NOT A GAME. They are PEOPLE who will grow to be your age one day and everything you do affects them #Sorry I’m just tired of all these parents who shove iPads in their kids faces so they don’t bother them. You’re giving them an addiction

[yakny]

ARE YOU READY TO LET YOUR HEART REST AMONGST THE EVERLASTING, MY LITTLE CHAMPIÑON FRIEND?

#LN #debbie #asdhfgkkh i quite literally started this a year ago for her birthday and then i remember losing my drawing pen and feeling #gloomy at not finishing it. and suddenly today‚ i remembered her birthday fell around august and checked her wiki so: #🎉happy birthday🎂🥳 to my daughter‚ who in another world is my little mushroom dawn front general💕👏😭!!! #few notes: 1) sometimes‚ all you have to do is open an old wip and realize that adjustments that would've taken you hours to do a year ago #would now take less time‚ but only if you've never stopped trying to improve yourself. it made me a little teary‚ not gonna lie :'D #2) her color palette was inspired by a tokoyami's art piece i made ages ago. i absolutely love that piece. will reblog it soon here :D #3) parts of her suit are inspired by akishi ueda's piece named ''Children of the Beginning''. It's such a whimsical piece as is most of his #work. the other inspiration i took for her suit was this specific 17t century doublet coat? all i know is the coat i'm talking about #to the blog i saw it from‚ is that it comes from the book ''17th century Cologne Costume'' published by Abegg-Stiftung in 2008. so yeah :) #4) —and this is so stupid but‚ champiñones is a spanish name for edible mushrooms which almost sounds like champion so yeah. yeah. asdjsfk

[lab-gr0wn-lambs]

I've got so many thoughts about Fear and I'm trying not to say them all because it's mostly complaining and confusion.

I will say. The um. Dialogue?

#It got to a point where every conversation had the exact energy of “because singing killed my grandma ok!” #and also why was everybody such a selfish bastard? ''why are you helping me why do you care?!'' the fuck kinda question is that? #just BECAUSE. but no they'd always answer with ''I'm trying to be good! I've got things to make up for! guilt! my mommy told me to!'' #bitch you need a REASON to rescue children from a nuclear plant meltdown? WHAT? #I watched it just to find out what happened to Morgan Dwight and Sherry I'm not gonna lie to you #I've said it before and I'll say it again these actors throw their ENTIRE pussy into these scenes #thank you for trying so hard with what you were given #ftwd #I'm not really sure what to do now

[pynkhues]

Me after my sister asks me to draft a new legal letter to her ex-husband for her lawyers to approve.

#her lawyers always edit out my most passive aggressive digs but they left one in tonight and i can't lie #it made me very happy #because fuck that guy #(my sister's dyslexic which means she has low confidence with writing this stuff #and he's really weaponised it against her in their divorce because he's a pos #[also ironic given he can't spell for shit and writes in a faux academic style that makes me scream] #and i know that he KNOWS i'm writing these letters with her but refuses to acknowledge it because he's trying to paint that she and i #never made up after our huge fight two years ago to build his case to stop her moving the children #and jokes on him because he should know given his children love me and we're spending so much time together #but he's literally like #so delusional #and thinks because he decides something's true it is #i cannot even begin to say how awful he is this is literally just a post of nothing in the scheme of it all #but still

[umberandmochaagate]

You know what fuck it bro

I'm tired of seeing "but Joe Biden is our only chance and if you don't vote for him—" I'm tired. I'm so tired. I'm tired of bearing witness to the crimes America has done over and over to so many places and people. I'm tired of the ways they try to crush us under their boots. I'm tired of the illusions of choice. I'm tired of trying to make it in this world as a black femme. I'm so tired. And I'm not near as tired as my family and my friends' families trying to survive in Haiti. I'm not nearly as tired as those suffering in Congo to provide the very devices that we're all using. I'm not nearly as tired as the journalists in Gaza who get on the internet when they can to report the genocide around them. I'm tired for them, and if the weight of it all is breaking my heart from the pressure, I can't imagine it for them. What can even an atom of compassion mean? And every day those people in power get up on their podiums all spick and span and look into the eyes of the millions watching them and go

"Keep killing them"

"We want these people tortured and suffering"

And I'm supposed to act like none of this is happening?? Because this guy wearing one color says he's not bad like the guy wearing red and vice versa??? People are fighting, have been fighting, and continue to fight for their liberation and human rights. Yet these handfuls of people, those who's greed and lack of humanity, go "But we don't want them to."

For years. For decades. Centuries even.

All they have to do is stop. Stop. And they don't. They won't. And I'm supposed to suck it up because one seems better than the other, rather than the truth that none every ACTUALLY have ALL of our best interests to heart. None. But I'm supposed to settle. Because that's all I'm supposed to do as an American. Settle. I'm so tired.

#gave up trying to make sense cuz I'm crying #left and right and up and down and all around #people are fighting for their liberation #for quiet #for rest #for ceasefire #no one I know can just get to to get groceries without being set back for weeks #and they take what little money we have here to go kill others #and it's not new #I think that makes it worse #I know there's progress but it really doesn't feel like it in these moments #when you look up and see that you're all still fighting the same things in different forms #we're doing it #but oh my god #to just keep hearing 'but it's so simple just vote blue' #like there's not blood all over those blue suits and ties #like we're not seeing these people actively cheer on genocide #watching them lie and gaslight us to our faces CONSTANTLY #I just can't pretend like it's all so simple #as if this is all just some fucking children's board game with set rules that everyone's following #idk all I can hope is that we don't let them make us forget #we've seen the truths of the past. we're watching the future in the present #we can't forget none of it

[tracle0]

I want to talk about magic systems in The Spiders Song (and it’s sequel) and explain ideas I have that may or may not make it into the actual book.

Let’s start with sigils.

Sigils are the common name given to magic in written form. They are a manifestation of the Squids magic, and it’s servants are able to tap into its abilities to write their own sigils. It is, however, a lot more complicated than that.

See, the Squid is the god of writing. That’s pretty much it. It’s magic is manifesting other magic in written form, for communicating ideas to later generations or giving you an experience or warning strangers of something. Inflicting an ill will on them. Whatever! Sigils are versatile as a result. They can communicate a wide range of things, channel a wide range of magics. Every single strand of these magics has a source, and not a single one of those sources is the Squid itself.

Basically, sigils have their own language you need to learn in order to channel magic correctly. The language is not random; it could be called the gods tongue, if gods had their own physical form and spoke. You make a sigil by writing down the god in question who’s magic you want to channel, and then twitching and tweaking it to fit the specifications best.

Mmmm say you wanted a sigil for encouraging strawberry growth in your garden. Why wouldn’t you? Strawberries are delicious. To do this, you’d want to channel the Deer - god of nature - and then tweak the name, so rather than the full force of nature coming down on your little garden, you have the magic target strawberries specifically. How this is done is a matter of opinion. Maybe you’d have it target red plants, and accept blooming roses into your life as well. Maybe you’d target the shape of the leaves, the abundance of seeds, the creeping vines… whatever. More complicated sigils may target multiple factors, to narrow it down to a strawberry.

So Deer + specification of a strawberry - and hey, you’re good to go!

Well - provided the Deer doesn’t notice.

Gods have servants, see. People who, from birth, gods sponsor and give them use of their magic. So they do share magic… but only with certain people. Servants to the Squid are at risk of a god noticing their magic going somewhere they don’t intend it to go, and unleashing their wrath on the unlucky bugger who caught their eye. In this example, the servant would very likely be fine - the Deer has a lot of servants, and so doesn’t notice when a stray hand may be pulling magic in another direction. But there’s always that risk, and more private or attentive gods would likely notice if their magic is drifting in places it doesn’t like.

You may be wondering why anyone wants to be any other servant if a servant to the Squid can just use any magic. Beyond the two stated reasons why - servants being chosen from birth with no input from them, and the risk they run using their magic - there’s also the factor of weaker magic being channeled through sigils. It’s not as pure, not as perfect, not as direct as a servant using magic. Like.

God —> servant is how it works for a typical servant. Direct flow of magic.

God —> Squid/sigil —> servant is how it’d work for sigils. Less direct, interference in the middle. The magic is still, yknow, magic… just a bit more patchy.

So sure, you get a wider range of magic, but there’s a constant risk to using it, plus the less direct results, plus limitations by what you can write and tweak… mmm

What else. Mmm. The study. You have to know a gods name to be able to use its magic, and it is a very exact science. You have to write it exactly, no room for unique handwriting or whatever - and that’s not even mentioning the fact that a lot of gods names aren’t even known! Or that you’ll want the tweak the sigil to your desired effect! You have to get the exact shapes and depth and size of the sigil perfectly exact, and figure out what can be tweaked in order to make your sigil work how you want. It’s laborious work compared to servants who look as if they just “poof!” And make a thing happen.

(they do not just “poof!” And make a thing happen, all servants have to study various things to various degrees, but servants to the Squid often have a poorer deal).

I do think it’s worth mentioning that you can have multiple gods in one sigil. Moth (warmth) plus Axolotl (biology) could give your body a boost of warmth in a cold environment, or something similar to that.

A lot of servants to the Squid often have tattoos of useful and frequently used sigils. This does require the sigil being made for repeated uses - some are one-use only.

Oh, obviously you also have to write out the sigil you want to use. You can do it Luz-style, where you pre-write a bunch and activate them later, or you can do them on the fly.

Any servant to the Squid can activate any sigil, unless specified otherwise in the sigil. They can also specify that non-magical folk, or non-Squid servants can activate or deactivate a sigil. A common example of this is locking sigils, to keep doors locked - a cheap one may just lock a place, and the more advanced ones specify that X and Y can unlock it, and only those two people.

I think that’s all I’ve got for you today. Peace

#TSS #TCD #Worldbuilding #writing #original writing #I spent about ten minutes trying to find a good Toh gif of magic being used but alas could not find any #Also I was lying I have more to say in the tags teehee #Atlas pretended to be able to use sigils on tss a lot. This is because their magic and god are not believed to exist #And they would rather not be labelled as such #This secret does not last through all of TSS but they give it a good go #In TCD there was an idea for a while that they would revert back to their old lie of being a servant to the squid #But claim that they had figured out the Spiders name - hence being able to use illusions still #This would also be found out to be a lie except on a bigger scale this time and they would be labelled as a spiders servant #Which - amongst other things - would contribute to them leaving their home for a while and joining a circus #This would be post-plot originally. Just my idea of what happened. Atlas runs away and joins a circus #And then when they feel healed and ready - come back home again and work in the local library #Primarily taking over the duty of reading to the children who come #Which would be awesome in terms of them learning to read Better as well AND in terms of the cool lil illusion shows #They’d put on. Learning to use their magic for something good and kind rather than. Fear and terror haha #That’s a lot of rambles for not sigils on a post about sigils. What else. #There’s likely going to be a very powerful sigil involved in TCD which I am excited for #I also do not know what any sigils look like at all. RIP to that #Next post I might do about healing maybe because I like the Axolotl. It’s a fun god. Oh maybe I should talk about some gods attitudes too #We’ll see! #Trade-marked

[fakestage]

I think (as much as I annoyingly complain and whine about not having a partner) being single this long has been good for me. I'm learning a lot about myself and I'm learning why I was a shit person, and through finding the root of the problem I can kind of... start to heal. I can be nicer to myself so I can grow and get better. Because TBH.. being mean and cruel to yourself doesn't make you become a better person. It just makes you believe that thats what you /are,/ and thats what you /always will be,/ as opposed to realizing that you are a product of your circumstances but that does not mean you can't get better and become a better person. Accepting help and trying to get better so you can eventually love yourself – even if no one else does – is the greatest and loveliest thing you can do for yourself. You deserve that love, you exist and you live and you feel and that is a truly beautiful gift.

#uhm well anyway I hope everyone finds people and a place where they feel safe and loved #I'm feeling really emotional sorryy #basically. tldr; found the problem! trying to get better now through loving myself instead of hating myself #its been really hard. its going to be really hard. I feel like ive barely made any progress #I wish I had a therapist to talk about this stuff with. but I dont. #btw the uh root problem: finding out my mother was actually hugely abusive & I already knew my dad was #so basically ive been having to confront the fact that Ive been living a lie and my mother is actually deeply terrible as much as my dad #and my parents should have never had children & ive never had one single decent adult in my life #so basically uhm yea lol. I was born into dysfunction. I was never going to turn oit normal or okay. #so its been hard to like. figure all that out alone. learning I have ptsd and extreme ocd + dissociation because of them hasnt been easy #its made me so deeply miserable because I guess I assumed what my mom was doing to us was normal this whole time? #because I thought no. surely not. surely i cant have TWO terrible parents. I need at least 1 good one right? #but yea no actually every adult has hurt me in some way. and I was never going to turn out alright because #I am the king of obsessing and cycling over everything in my life #Im like. not okay right now but not being im in danger just because I wish I had someone to talk to about all this. #I just need to learn to drive so I can get out of here. I need to get out like #all these realizations have been really really heavy on me and ive been having trouble sleeping #Its been hard to process and I dont really know where to go from here. I guess I cant properly heal and grow until I move out? #idk this has been really long im so sorry. #vent #tw vent #tws -> #abuse ment #parents ment #<- in tags

[bylertruther]

We cannot ally with steve fans they just are antihesis to us. It is like allying with stancy fans

but how am i meant to resist him when i am him and he is me 💔 Im Not Strong Enough anon u have to go on without me 😞

#asks #this is so funny i feel like we're frontline soldiers n ur trying to knock some sense into me while we eat peanut butter crackers #he's my representation for the whores who are tired of whoring ok #the only children tht grew up in lonely empty homes n dream of filling one up one day #the people tht are more than a pretty face but rarely get acknowledged beyond that #and don't forget the bitches that can't fight!!!!! #not saying tht thats all 100% applicable to me.. .. 🤨👉👈 fhjsdnhd but jus tht i get the appeal #and tht his scene packs do be hitting i can't lie like . keery did his thing ok!!!!!!!