#I started this a month ago 🙃

[jellabean22]

OBEY ME NIGHTBRINGER SPOILERS: LESSON 8-4

Drawing scenes that made me cry :)

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Characters saying "Welcome home" usually makes me cry like a baby :)

#I started this a month ago 🙃 #what is supposed to be a simple drawing turns into multi day drawing that I'm like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ at the end #but I'm happy with how it turned out for the most part 👍 #Obey Me Shall We Date #Obey Me Nightbringer #Obey Me #Obey Me fanart #Obey Me Luke #Obey Me Simeon #Obey Me Simeon fanart #Obey me Luke fanart #obmswd #obmswd fanart #my art

[demadogs]

sooo how long after crashing your car do you feel normal again emotionally… how many business days.

#had a full blown panic attack last night imagining me crashing and killing someone #tried hugging a pillow pet that my best friend gave me ans then i thought about crashing and killing her #hugged my cats and thought about accidentally killing them #i barely hurt anyone but i cannot stop thinking what if i did #i HATE that giant death machines are my only mode of transportation i dont live in a city and im an event photographer i HAVE to drive again #and im so pissed about it #i didnt even START driving regularly until like 4 months ago i had genuinely debilitating driving anxiety for years and years #and i fear its back!!!!!! 🙃🙃🙃 #everybody i talked to keeps being like ‘accidents happen all the time’ SO IS IT GONNA HAPPEN AGAIN????

[lavender-femme]

crying screaming throwing up because i REALLY don’t wanna go to work 😭😭😭

#born to be a femme housewife #forced to be in charge of clean play + the store for 10 hours 😭 #i’m talking #at least I’m able to start really saving now #got big plans #well #ideas of plans #also have a million and one things to do #such as: the really important stuff I was meant to finish and mail like… two months ago 🙃 #the adhd and general executive dysfunction combined with working so much are winning #hahahahaha anyway… #hi y’all idk if I’ve even posted something personal here in months but hi I miss y’all but social media is rotting my brain and I’m so tired

[xannerz]

Vigo has a heart murmur

#we went in today bc he hurt his back #and then the vet noticed this she checked twice #the vet ranked it a 3/6 #we did an x ray his hearts a little enlarged too #almost started crying in the vet office lmao #I’m just crying on the car ride back I’m glad my dad offered to drive lmao #I’m just floored bc a few months ago he got checked and he was fine #and last Jan we dealt w the tumor surgery #and I was like wow thank god we caught that early #the vet gave me a cardiologist referral #I’ll see how soon I can take him in #he’s not even on a grain free diet or anything I avoided that specifically #bc I know there are studies showing a link btwn those diets and some like heart issue in dogs IIRC?? #she told me it wasn’t anything I did to cause it bc I kept asking like did I do anything wrong 🙃 #xangoeswah

[jackredfieldwasmyjacob]

oh hi anxiety at 9 am! i missed you (not)

#i'm once again having anxiety while looking for doctoral programs 👍 #i managed to be cool about it for a while but it's starting to crumble down again #most of the offers for studentships are from months ago and no longer available to apply 🙃 #it's too late for anything isn't it

[sadisticyouko]

I was mentally preparing myself to be an eventual lawyer…but this one gives me a pretty much guaranteed shot at making good money 😬 fml

#I had to jump through a lot of hoops when applying for this job #I know I’d rather be a lawyer #but that’s not guaranteed #getting into law school and passing the bar just isn’t a guarantee #this one IS guaranteed to get me started on a good career path #fml I literally just started working here 😭 #WHERE WAS THIS LIKE 2 MONTHS AGO #not writing #sadisticyouko rants #my anxiety is literally so high right now 🙃

[saintedbythestorm]

Sure gotta love when people try to guilt trip you into seeing them.

Imma be honest, it just makes me want to see them less.

#yes manipulation tactics that the toxic half of the family would use all the time is absolutely going to change my mind #you'd think when this tactic has worked for years they'd realise it isn't working. but no. #maybe actually talk to me instead of just telling me who died or is sick every damn time and i want to talk?? #nooooo gotta just sit and talk about how horrible everything is EVERY SINGLE TIME. #which is a great idea when the person you're talking to is already depressed and barely holding together 🙃 #and if i do see them they get bored of me within like 20 minutes anyway and just walk off to watch tv #very worth all my energy for a few days as you can tell. 🙄 #i just saw that the hasn't worked for years turned into has... too lazy to change it now. ty phone #like ffs i can't even be up on the right side of the day now a days ... just try and work with me instead?? #maybe if you stop pushing and trying to make me feel bad all the time I'd called ages ago? #like I'm sorry but i ain't no therapist and you sure af ain't paying me so no i won't spend the little grain of energy i have on it #i hear enough of sickness death and misery every single fucking day... i do not need someone to put theirs on me too #and then expect me to constantly make them feel better about it. like i can't even describe how exhausting it is #and we tell em.... and they don't give a shit . #sorry for the rant but i just... i already felt so shit rn and now i get this too #like the past months stress that has ruined my brain ain't enough...or the super bad body ache ain't enough #or the super bad stomach isn't enough... or the lack of sleep and effed up day night cycle ain't enough #it's just.. i do not need this right now please stop... please stop.. #i just stopped going 150% and pure survival the past 2 months.. don't start this shit now i literally cannot... #i am exhausted to a point I never thought possible... and it keeps going down cause it never let's up. #... i need a hug... #rant #ryder speaking

[onrainynights]

my ac has been broken for months and it's the hottest day of the year so far and my room was unbearably hot BUT MY MOM JUST FIXED IT when I tell you I am literally crying right now.... I was prepared to be up until 4 am bc I can't sleep when it's warm but now I have sweet relief

#turns out the filter caught the thermostat last time I took it out to clean it and for whatever reason #it won't turn on the cooling function if it can't tell what temperature it is in the room 🙃 #if I had known that months ago maybe my mom would've made the connection immediately bc she knew the thermostat was #the thing the filter catches on if you don't take it out right #and I had no clue #we both had half the puzzle and we just had to put it together I'm SOBBING #I spent WEEKS in pain bc of how warm it's been and all of it could've been avoided #anyway rip to my brother whose ac broke like a week before mine but his was because he forgot to turn it off during a snow storm #(he runs the fan year round bc air flow) #and the fan blade BENT and so it wouldn't start and we couldn't bend it back :( #so he's been chilling (except not really) with a box fan and his room is like twice the size of mine #he's suffering rn hashtag pray for my melting brother

[branmuffins22]

WIP Wednesday: Thanks to Them Ending Ragefic Redux

Thanks for the push!

As mentioned in the prompt, to provide something more than just canon retreading, I've elected to also work on a different fic, and share the progress from that.

And since I was on a roll after previous asks, here's more from Masha and the Very Normal Nocedas:

NamesOfNoRenown: not exactly inspiring NamesOfNoRenown: but were desperate Snorebord: YOU'RE desperate, I'M just fine sticking to the one book i've read and the ok movie it inspired NamesOfNoRenown: i cant believe you NamesOfNoRenown: fake fan Snorebord: i never claimed to be a real one

#wip wednesday #ask game #Masha and the Very Normal Nocedas #the more i think about it #the more this chapter really is just two and a half chatfics rolled into one #but! #once its done i should finally be able to start posting it to ao3! #...hopefully! #meanwhile in the fic this ask was originally about #i wrote the whole ending in basically one go #months ago #and now im working backwards and its awkward as hell #but im doin it! its gettin done! #and it probably wont get posted for at least another year because of where its at in the story! 🙃

[raeathnos]

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#someone is tampering with our fucking mail 🙃 #someone ripped open my parents anniversary card #check was still there thank goodness they didn’t send cash #but I think I know which neighbor did it #there’s a guy several doors down we’ve been having more and more issues with #he keyed my car several years ago when I parked in front of his house cause there was no other parking (it’s a public street) #could never prove it though #more recently he keyed my parent’s car but the woman who lives next to him got it on her security feed #which she installed because he also keyed her car and stole several packages #my parents went to the cops who told the guy to pay for repairs or go to jail #after the car was fixed he started parking every day in front of our house #my mom had knee replacement surgery a few months back and the spit out front is now handicap so he can’t park there anymore #I wonder if this is his knew harassment tactic 🙃 #regardless I’m calling the post office tomorrow and reporting it #my parents were talking about installing security cams after he started parking in front of our house but never did #gonna revisit that again I think #the one good thing is that the mail usually comes after I’m off work #not always but usually #gonna have to go out and get it right away when they deliver it #back when he keyed my parents car my dad went around and talked to some other neighbors and it turned out that #he’s keyed like half the cars on our street #dude is fucking batshit in a bad way #would like to also get cameras installed because I don’t necessarily feel safe #who knows what he’ll fucking try next

[medusasbush]

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#my sister keeps asking me what i want to do for my birthday #uhhhh idk man i had the most devastating friend break up of my life with my only local friend two months ago #so i will probably be spending the day in my room and crying bc its the first birthday since i was 12 that i wont celebrate w her 🙃 #if you make me think about my birthday for one more fucking second im GOING to start crying pls stop

[colourmeastonished]

Delighted to announce that I can single-handedly disprove the efficacy of the resilience narrative because after 10 years of hospitality, 7 years of bar work and 25 years of being a woman on this forsaken earth, I got sexually harassed at work last week and now my fight or flight response is Broken 👍

#wasn't even that bad lol just got propositioned and phsycially cornered which is like... very old news for me #but I guess that was the final straw and now I can't step inside my work building without feeling like I'm gonna puke #and like I gotta break something or get the hell out of dodge or scream at the top of my lungs or punch a wall until I break a couple bones #it's super fun I'm enjoying this 🙃 #it's been a week and a half and I've been so keyed up I thought I was having a heart attack a couple days ago #and I can't eat and I'm So Exhausted from my body running panic.exe to the point of overheating #I start thinking about work and I start getting tunnel vision and palpitations LOL #genuinely do not know how to deal with this bc finding a new job would be too much extra stress bc I'm bad at New Things #but I'm like... not actually safe at work and I'm So Very Aware of that #anyway I'm gonna have to pull my manager aside and be like 'look I know I keep bringing this up but it's not safe to be a woman in this pub #and something has got to change drastically or I have to leave for my sanity. Here are all the measures I've been suggesting for 8 months #time to actually get them done' #my thoughts

[slippery-minghus]

*sigh* it seems so silly compared to the gaping maw of depression i dealt with when i was young and the shit i've been through and grown to deal with so well, that i could possibly have seasonal depression... but then i look at how much i've been struggling since the days started getting shorter.

yeah, i could chalk it all up to the big changes in my life- changing jobs, my sweet bean chloe passing (a month, today)- but is that enough to have thrown my life into such unusual-for-me disarray?

my home is surprisingly clean, and the things slipping through the cracks are not from fatigue but from forgetfulness. it just hasn't crossed my mind to tidy the table. to bring the freezing plants inside. to cook for myself. not at any time that's helpful at least.

and in all of that i find myself actually wanting to be out and doing things. two weeks ago i started hiking, and all i want to do is be outside. to be in a different type of quiet from home. a different kind of stillness. and i can't parse how much of that is grief, how much is wanting every drop of sunlight, how much is wanting to... i don't know.

and i've been so forgetful. so forgetful. it's like i'm not even on this planet half the time, with how much slips my attention. and since chloe passed... the self depreciation has been hard to keep at bay. i've been talking to myself with more cruelty than i have in years. and every thing that slips my mind is more fuel for the fire. every typo i make another nail in my coffin. (and i make so many typos)

i've forgotten where i was going with this, beyond that now i want to cry, and i am so very tired. i feel like i havent been living my own life. and maybe that's grief. maybe it's seasonal depression. (i remember what this was about now) but it's been long enough since she passed, and i've been through so much that seasonal depression shouldn't be able to happen to me, that i really shouldn't be feeling this way. which only adds to the flame of self hate...

i dont know. i shouldn't let pathetic things like this wear me down so much. this is nothing compared to the hell i grew up in, and i think i've gotten awfully soft. ten years ago, this level of discomfort wouldn't have even been a blip on my radar. i shouldn't be so... pathetic

#oh....... tumblr didnt delete this when my phone died an hour ago #huh #i was just starting to type out the tags about how my shrink is on vacation rn which is whatever bc a few sessions wont fix this #and then my phone just fucking crapped out #so i threw it (gently 🙃) across the room and cried/slept into the back of the couch for an hour #i just want to go out and walk in the woods #because the only thing stopping me from doing a Violence right now is forcing myself to go to bed #in this past month alone i've wanted to self harm so much more than the past several years combined #and lets be real with all this negative self talk i HAVE been self harming #i'm being soooo mean to myself #because maybe. JUST MAYBE. if i blame myself enough for all the chaos then i'll (feel in control) stop misbehaving and causing so much chaos #i knew a month ago that the coming months were going to be very hard #i didnt anticipate that it would be hard like this- in a way that would throw me off so much #my dad emailing me a few weeks ago has hardly been a blip on my radar 🙃 #i ought to get to sleep before i talk myself into getting up and going to do something to hurt myself 🙃 #personal #self harm tw

[dagasinfilo]

besides the horrible lack of energy and terrible mood i think the biggest indicator that i need a dose adjustment on my meds is. the fucking brain zaps

#for reference i have a small body frame and since i started on my current dose i gained around 10-15kg #like two months ago i was weighing somewhere between 50 and 55kg now i’m a bit over 65 #so that’s a lot of weight i’ve put in a very short span of time #what really sucks is the lack of energy means exercising is. so god damn hard rn #and my next doc appt is on the 30th 🙃

[nonjuxtaposed]

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#:( #I started talking to someone on a dating app abt three months ago #We talked for weeks and almost met up a couple times and then he ghosted me #The other day (a month later) he texted me all apologetic #That no one deserves to be ghosted and it would never happen again #Guess what happened an entire two days later 🙃 #Its rare for me to be this into someone and i think thats why i gave him another chance but im kinda regretting it #Just saw he blocked me today so well then #Wh happened to no one deserves to be ghosted

[coco-loco-nut]

loml

pairing: max verstappen x reader

summary: a journey through your relationship with max

a/n: so for a little background... my ex (he wasn't an F1 fan, it was never gonna work, let's be real) broke up with me the night before this album was released, so writing this series has been very healing; however, this one was extremely difficult to write bc it's the only song i can't analytically listen to and find the deeper meanings yet, especially after losing your first love. sorry for the rant and making this short🙃

tw: emotional abuse, manipulation

masterlist ttpd masterlist part two

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You and Max were fan favorites, it was evident to anyone with eyes who had eyes. But they say you never know what happens behind closed doors.

“She’s the love of my life,” Max would always say about you, looking at you like you held the universe in the palm of your hand. His fans could recite your love story by heart from how much he loved to talk about you. It only made sense that he could shatter that public opinion.

“Y/n and I have divorced, I would like to ask for privacy as we navigate the changes,” Max posted one day, his socials wiped of everything. Your accounts remained the same, your last post being from the fateful race months ago. You haven’t posted since. The fans should’ve realized when the WAGs and George unfollowed Max.

Your apartment was full of things that reminded you of Max, every time you walked in it reminded you of every memory. He was embroidered in everything. You look at a printed photo of when you first met him. Despite it being six months later, you couldn’t get rid of him.

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All it took was locking eyes with him across the pier for you to fall in love on that breezy summer day. He walked up to you and asked you to join him, and you did. You kissed him at the top of the ferris wheel later that night, and you didn’t even know he was famous all you knew was that he made you feel safe. The breeze reminded you of the warm ocean breeze from that day, one you called the winds of fate.

Despite being young, you married him after a year of being together. Things weren’t perfect even then, he could be incredibly mean, but he was also a standup guy when it mattered. That erased any wrongdoing of his.

“You have made me a better man, you reformed me, the love of my life,” Max had said that fall evening, repeating the one line that brought you back to him every time.

You believed his words, his lies spun to make you believe the hell you were living in was actually heaven. When he takes his anger out at you, doesn’t defend you against his father, you start to second guess him but he calls you those four words.

“I’ll never leave you, Schatje,” Max holds you in his arms, your back against his chest as you both look at a tv in the Paddock. The fans loved that photo, calling your love legendary. They didn’t know about the growing hole in your heart.

Your marriage was looking like one of those black and white movies you and Max watch on snowy winter afternoons. You and Max had been talking about starting a family, but you couldn’t get pregnant and you were watching everything you loved slip away.

“God, Max, you are like a con-man. I feel like I’ve been sold a get-love-quick scheme. What happened to you?” you ask, voice laced with hurt, during an argument about it. Max just ignored you, pushing past to stream with some friend. He ignored the sobs coming from your bedroom. He told the chat that you are the love of his life when asked about you.

“Y/n, we need to talk,” some of the WAGs pulled you aside during a race. They told you how Max was shit talking you to other drivers, saying you were a waste of a wife for your inability to get pregnant, saying he should’ve never married you, pointing out every flaw he told you was beautiful when he was lying to your face. You stand up and leave, not saying a word even when the girls try to stop you. Max is confused but simply responds to your text saying you were sick with an okay.

You are laying in your bed sobbing when Max gets back from the race. You face the terrace, where you and Max would dance under the stars. You can see the ghosts of it through your tears, and you wished you could un-recall when you thought you had everything.

“Please get out of bed,” Max says, his concerned tone laced with venom. Maybe the ghosts of your relationship are embarrassed by the scene on the other side of the glass.

“No,” you cry, mourning the loss of your counterfeit relationship.

“I’ll be back in a few hours,” Max sighs leaving the room. You sent a text to the WAG group chat who helped you remove all your belongings from Max’s apartment into George’s apartment that he wasn’t using at the moment.

Your phone is flooded with messages from Max, so you turn it off unless you are talking to your lawyer. Max finds a divorce petition and your apartment key on the dining room table when he comes home from training a few days later. The relationship that had such a valiant roar ended with the blandest goodbye.

You sit in George’s apartment with Carmen and Lily drinking wine. You took over George’s lease after they insisted that you did.

“For someone who claims to be a lion, he sure is a manipulative coward,” Carmen says as the three of you comb through the years of lies he spun.

You took the dreams that you thought you and Max wanted and lit the match to destroy them with your divorce papers. Despite your somber eyes, you seem more at peace, even with the sadness you will carry with you until you die.

“He’s the loss of my life.”

part two

#f1 imagines #f1 x reader #f1 imagine #f1 grid #max verstappen #max verstappen imagines #max verstappen imagine #max verstappen x reader #george russell