#I need to have Tumblr taken away I can’t be trusted with it rn

[finisnihil]

I need to train a bird and send it to spy on somebody who knows EXTENSIVE knowledge of HI3 lore and then when it comes back to report its findings to me I need to brutally snatch it out of the air mid-flight like a peregrine falcon and eat it and thus immediately absorb all its stolen knowledge so that I can understand even a sliver, even a fraction of what the FUCK IS GOING ON in HSR and what ANY of these references and allusions are and who the HELL any of these people showing up are. The fuck is Kevin? What’s up with your cane, Mr. Yang? I need to shred that fucking bird.

#honkai star rail #honkai impact 3rd #WHAT IS UP WITH THAT WRECHED CANE #WHAT IS ITS SECRETS #WHO IS KEVIN #WHAT IS KEVIN #AM I KEVIN? #IS KEVIN NOTHING BUT AN INCONSEQUENTIAL CONCEPT? #Finis how much sleep have you gotten- DON’T ASK YOU DONT WANT TO KNOW #Releasing my evil spy bird like go little Akuma and bring me lore #I need to have Tumblr taken away I can’t be trusted with it rn #2.1 is killing me dead don’t you see

[god-of-entropy]

sorry this is my first time doing a req, but since you like iida tenya, i was wondering if you had any knight iida tenya headcanons?

So I was re-enacting a bakuiida hurt/comfort scenario I made up for exactly 2 hours since I started during 10:00 pm and it is 12:00 AM

gist of it: bakugou’s inferiority complex acts up and so he doesn’t take care of himself bc he’s too busy training and iida tells him how much he (Katsuki) means to him, (Tenya) and that there aren’t enough numbers that exist that could tell him (Katsuki) how much he (Katsuki) meant to Tenya

and then I remembered my tumblr account and one of the asks I got was “do some knight Iida Tenya headcanons this is my first time doing a req” and I was like oh wow I am v blessed that I am the person who took anon’s req virginity so here we are

CW: few times of cursing, mention of me talking about a car kink

Knight Iida Tenya Headcanons

Part of the King’s guard no I do not. Take criticism

If he isn’t he’s most likely in a very high position of knight rankings in the fantasy AU

His chivalrous spirit could rival canon Kirishima’s

But since Kiri’s a dragon hybrid here,,well

Did I mention

He’s TALL

Like. Bumping his head on every single fucking doorway kind of tall

He is a staggering 6”6

HES TALLER THAN MY BEDROOM WALLS JSJSJ

anyways so like bc he’s so tall he learned the very hard way (literally) that you should not wear a metal cone hat while sliding down ladders

Was this inspired by that one (1) video on YouTube where this guy’s character slid down a really long ladder wearing a golden metal cone hat

I will not agree nor will I deny this accusation

So bc he’s so tall he grudgingly cannot wear a fancy Iida helmet from the prestigious and noble Iida family line

ofc his brother was a knight before him, it’s so obvious

(Speaking about Tensei, his brother wore it anyways even though his brother is taller than him because he was always on horseback anyways, but having to patrol the streets of the kingdom on a daily basis trailing after the King or Prince or whatever he can’t let a helmet hinder him from going after people

Anyways so like because he is So Tall people often make jokes about his height and how rectangular his body was

So poor bby got insecure about his height and prefers not to talk about it, stays silent when someone thinks he can’t hear them whispering and making jokes about his bulky stature

speaking about bulky things his canon costume is lightweight in design because if speed and leg strength makes up 100% of your quirk you can’t have stupid accessories and additional weight.

But of course since what he’s going for (the Ingenium title) is pretty much set in stone, there’s a heavy emphasis in visuals (in canon) so like 90% of his fucking costume is for Decor

And I hate him for that

Because TENYA FOR THE LOVE OF GOD YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE 100% INGENIUM YOU CAN BE YOUR OWN INGENIUM

Even if you were put the pressure on yourself to become like your brother, don’t feel burdened to make sure your hero career is 100% like his

OK I kind of swerved away from topic but since we’re talking about hero costumes and knight armor

Since this is fantasy and most fantasy-ish things are set in a European medieval style because of fucking Hollywood and not in a more traditional Japanese style since apparently fire spitting dragons are cooler than Kitsunes with ten tails, power over nature elements and are literally considered deities—

Knight armor is made of metal, right?

So in that case..his armor would really weigh him down.

But because this is FANTASY and science and physics can go fuck themselves here,

It’s possible that there’s a chance magic could make his armor more lightweight, like Uraraka’s quirk

but like there’s a chance that his armor is ALREADY lightweight because again, canon Tenya really went after the design of his brother’s costume

And his brother’s costume was inspired by his parent’s and grandfather’s own costumes, which kinda looked the same since it had the white modern accents and holes in the helmets kinda aesthetic

SO ASSUMING THAT THE IIDA FAMILY LINE IS V NOBLE AND FAMED FOR BEING IMMERESED IN THE KNIGHTHOOD SHITE FOR A V LONG TIME

And his brother did copy whatever his parents and ancestors’s armor was or whatever

And they’re noble, right—so they’re rich. Because magic exists, plenty of wizards mages and other magic people for hire also exist

Enchanted lightweight metal armor

there’s a reason why you shouldn’t trust knights in shining armor and that’s because if their chest plate is too pristine, that means they’ve never went to battle

Here’s a rule for all you y/ns: don’t trust a knight in shining armor if it’s not enchanted

what I’m saying is if you wanna date Iida, the knight in shining AND enchanted armor, go for it bestie TT

Also His Boots

Assuming he doesn’t have his sexy engines on his calves in this AU

(Or perhaps the sleek, modern looking engines are replaced with steampunk ones O.O)

OK SO WE’RE GOING WITH THE STEAMPUNK MUFFLERS

Because holy shit that’s such a cool fucking concept??

Oh you bet your y/n messy buns that steampunk iida hcs are next

so since fantasy usually goes with at least one (1) “primitive” tribe with their own kind of technology centered around weapons and battle

And that one (1) “”tribe”” that’s an entire fucking kingdom/city like the Carja in the game Horizon Zero Dawn

Speaking of Horizon Zero Dawn, the “primitive” tribe with their own kind of technology centered around battle and more battle are the Banuk

They’re hardcore fam

They give me Bakugou Katsuki vibes because those people would literally rather die than say a challenge is too big to overcome

again going back to the topic: Steampunk

In “”fantasy”” medieval AUS there’s always that one steampunk inventor that’s a Mei Hatsume ripoff (Tangled The Series I’m looking at you)

And of course the Support Students need their time to shine too, so like — Steampunk City let’s gooo

(The closest Horizon Zero Dawn’s “tribe” got to steampunk is whatever the hell the Oseram are doing.)

So now Tenya has sexy, sexy steampunk mufflers that are very well taken care of

<SKIP THIS PART, I TALK ABOUT RANDOM EVENTS AND BAD CHOICES I MADE IN MY LIFE>

god I’m so sorry but me talking about mufflers like they’re a full course meal is reminding me of the time where I joked to my friends that I had a car kink

and not that I had a kink to have sex inside the car, but to be fucked BY the car itself

like your ass being just wrecked by a fucking shalon poofa

if you get that joke get off this site

one of my messages was very specific

It read:

“I eagerly lick car-senpai’s oil of his exhaust pipe”

And Yeah

unsanitary and a health hazard

While discussing about simpable men one of my friends were like

my man has a CAR your man, Tenya Iida, doesn’t

And I just stared at her

Because bitch MY MAN IS THE CAR

anyways if you actually read this may god have mercy on you

<DON’T SKIP THIS PART BECAUSE I CONTINUE>

Because I make the rules

Wouldn’t they be a hindrance to him bc of his metal boots?

So Let Me Tell You A Story

you know the Ingenifoot (the boots in canon Iida’s costume)

It’s special since it has holes punched into it for the mufflers to retract out of

Who says Ingenifoot can’t be steampunk as well?

I DON’T

But it can’t be steampunk bc this is a Knight Iida hcs and not Inventor Steampunk Iida Hcs

:<

So it’s plain boring white carved steel or smth with a small section where a part of the boot flexes for the mufflers to stick out

Speaking of carved steel, Knight Iida’s armor def has intricate details and shite on it

Maybe even his family crest

OK so it is 12:45 AM rn I am gonna sleep

Goodnight

#iida tenya #tenya iida #iida tenya hcs #iida tenya headcanons #knight iida tenya #iida simping hours #will continue dw my loves

[brookswackermanfeetcam]

You should do all of them questions and 90 is true

I love you!!!!

1. Favorite instrument?

I work at a music store u can’t just ask me this. When my coworkers play it’s the saxophone or the flute, when the boys in the repair shop are testing repairs and they harmonize with each other or try to outplay one another it’s the bassoon or the trombone or whatever they’re fixing at the moment. When I hear 🎺 give his lesson on Wednesday afternoons it’s the trumpet, and when I think about middle school it’s the clarinet, the flute, the French horn. When I hear the nutcracker pas des deux is the oboe and when I hear edith piaf l’accordeoniste it’s the remarkable human voice. Really my favorite instrument is all of them, it just depends.

2. Favorite fic trope? Mutual pining 🥺

3. Sport you played for the longest amount of time? LMAO I wasn’t a sporty kid but I did ballet

4. Shoe size? 10-11

5. Most recent (good) dream? Uhh I had a dream last night about my coworker 🎹 it wasn’t bad though I can’t really remember what it was about

6. Last person in your DMs? smugg

7. Can you do a handstand? Nooo nooo lmaoo nooooo

8. Unpopular food opinion I don’t like oranges or red meat

9. Conspiracy you believe in? There’s some kind of weird weather dome in my hometown around the military base that makes most storms pass around us

10. Is your hair its natural color/style? Most of it is I dyed the bottom layer of my hair tho so it’s blonde rn

11. state a useless fact all that’s coming to mind is outright lies rn hold on. The inventor of pringles is buried in a pringles can that’s so fucking nasty omg

12. most interesting gossip you’ve heard? Idk I don’t really care for gossip uhhhh have u heard tho rin dippindogs is a huge gay hah she uhh she like men AND women lmao gaaay gaaaay

13. Middle name? Carolyn

14. Sexuality? Bisexual

15. Amount of sleep you got last night? Idk actually I think like 9-10 hrs tho I slept in until 11

16. Opinion on ice cream cake? Tasty!!!

17. Opinion on (cup)cake frosting? It’s depends buttercream is usually too sweet for me in large amounts so I prefer whipped cream frosting

18. Last board game you played? Idk??? We played hunt a killer tho last Thursday me n my family I guess that counts kinda

19. Project you want to start? I need ideas first baby

20. Project you’re working on right now? HAHAHAHAHAHA

21. TV show you’re watching? nothing rn I just rewatch bojack a lot if I watch anything

22. Last movie you watched? Lego batman I think

23. Ever left anon hate? Not legit hate

24. Ever left anon love? Yes all the time. Sometimes to strangers it’s my favorite thing to do

25. Best Disney movie? The princess and the frog

26. Best Pixar movie? Soul or Up I can’t decide

27. Best Star Wars? Um. Empire strikes back

28. Last thing you consumed? Fuit gumy

29. NoTP? Idk I don’t really hate ships unless they’re gross like pedophilic gross

30. story behind your (nick)name? When I was a fetus my great grandfather had a dream that my name should be Carolyn Marie but my parents were huge dweebs so they named me Marina after the actress of Deanna Troi in Star Trek. Idk about my nickname ive just always been Rina/Rin as long as I can remember

31. ice cream order? Lately it’s lemon sorbetto I know it’s SO high in sugar but I love it

32. describe your blog in <5 words I love you

33. how many blogs do you follow? 436

34. Describe your voice it depends usually I sound like a sick child but my customer service voice is really pleasant

35. Describe your smile it’s cute :)

36. What is the place you live known for? LMAOOO LMAO we have a military base nearby and like. I could go on abt that one but also like. There’s a lot of gang violence and a lot of the other consequences of poverty. People from the cities around us see us as “””ghetto””” or violent but it’s just. It’s more than that it’s always more than that. And idk what else there’s nothing really particularly special about this town except that we’re all here and not anywhere else

37. What is the place you’re originally from known for? (if they’re different)

38. pronouns? she/any idc

39. Languages you speak? English

40. first friend you made through tumblr? Idk. I probably don’t talk to them anymore :(

41. Person on tumblr you know in real life? my brother

42. First dog breed you think of shih tzu I have 2 next to me rn

43. room wall color? Purble!!!! The paint color is called grape juice that’s why I picked it!!!

44. Song that’s stuck in your head right now? It’s tricky to rock a rhyme to rock a rhyme that’s right on time it’s trickyyyyy

45. Favorite number? 5, 34

46. Color you associate with your name? Red

47. Favorite jolly rancher flavor?watermelon

48. Pets? 2 dogs rocket and groot and 4 cats loki danni who r from the same litter and we raised from kittens, miss kitty who we adopted from a shelter after my boy blue moon passed away and ben (his real name is Kylo Ren thanks to my mom but I refuse to call him that) he is my little baby and he has 7 toes on his front paws

49. Collections? Hot wheels

50. Character outside of your fandom you’d marry? Girl what lmaooo idk

51. Character outside of your fandom you’d kill? That’s mean :(

52. Have you met any celebrities? NO thank god id have to kill on sight

53. Favorite time period in history? Itslian Renaissance & Romantic Era

54. What time is it right now? 2:35 am oops

55. History or future? Future but like . A good one. Or prehistory

56. Space or ocean? Space

57. Fears? Abandonment

58. Command + v and post. It’s this list of questions u don’t want that

59. Favorite season? Spring

60. Describe your aesthetic. Messy just a mess, neon and old buildings and things, antiques, countryside if there weren’t so many trump pence flags still lmaoo give uppp give up, nature just al of nature and space and places humans can’t touch and places they used to touch but can’t anymore

61. MBTI? Infp but I haven’t taken it in a few years

62. What’s your relationship with your family like? Normal.

63. “Biggest fan” in your tumblr activity? I’m in mobile hold on acc to tumblr it’s akky

64. Favorite musical? Sweeney todd

65. Comfort book? Idk how to read 💔💔💔 wuthering heights tho

66. Comfort movie? Whisper of the heart

67. OTP? Girl idk

68. BroTP? Joey and Tristan yugioh

69. AUs or canon compliant? Canon ig idk

70. Opinion on the person who’s sending the ask? It’s an anon!! But I love them

71. FMK + 3 characters anon didnt leave any characters and I was going to say something very bad but I won’t

72. Dream date? I’ve wanted to do this for a while but ideally it would be after we’d been together a while maybe even engaged or whatever, I wanna go to like a Home Depot or a furniture store and pretend to be married and looking for house paints and furniture and plan what our home is going to look like I wanna do that so bad. But idk for a first/early relationship date i really want to go to the zilker botanical garden it’s one of my favorite places, we could also go to the natural gardener which is a plant nursery in Austin I really love it there too and it’s not that far from zilker.

73. Relationship status? Single

74. Ever dyed your hair? Do you plan to? Yes and perhaps. Maybe

75. Dream job/career? Idk anymore I used to have big girl goals and I haven’t had any in a while. But when I was younger I wanted to be a game warden

76. Favorite band/singer? Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky

77. Something that makes you soft/that you find adorable? My cats

78. The first thing you would do if you won the lottery? Buy a house

79. Are you superstitious? Yes

80. Character you project onto? Shizuku tsukishima

81. Fictional character you’ve had a crush on? Vergil devil may cry. Forever husband

82. Celebrity crush? LMAO

83. Person on here you’d date? my mutuals

84. Person on here you’d marry? 🥺 my mutuals

85. Person on here you’d throw into the void? Smugg

86. Other social media you have? I’ve got a photography insta that I barely use and a Twitter that’s just nintendo switch screenies that’s it

87. Finish the sentence: Due to personal reasons, ___________i will be passing away

88. Bad habit? I find it rlly hard to say no or like to say when and why I’m upset I don’t feel like for the latter I don’t feel like I should bring something that’s upsetting me up because I know I’ll get over it on my own and I don’t really trust myself to be upset about rational things. Idk I’m working on it

89. Three things you like about yourself? I’m hot, I’m kind, I’m resilient

90. Ily and you deserve the world I love you!!!!! YOU deserve it too!!!

#askies #anonymous #long post / #thank u!!

[lasheslongsblog]

BROKEN , THEN WOKE!

I was never really that dude that wanted to share alot about my upbringing or whatever issues I went through to affect who I am rn.

But recently I got triggered and I guess that's why I'm here today. I never knew tumblr rants were a thing until I watched Euphoria. I actually think that's what made me download the app and just bring all my emotions over here before I got depressed and fail to function as a normal human being , something I feel has gone away from me for quite sometime now.

I used to be a happy boy. My mum was the best! I forever looked upto her for everything and growing up I wouldn't really stand in a crowd and lie how much of an intimate connection I had with my dad. I grew up knowing my mom was the hero and I wanted to be like her. I admired how caring she was and how in the midst of raising a son by herself, she did it so gracefully , the type of grace and strength that earned her that role model position in my life to this day.

So about my dad😏

He would show up sometimes, I always yearned to see him. I was so excited whenever he came home coz it felt like finally..the father figure that I wanted to form a connection with is here! Weirdly enough, even at that tender age...we never really talked a lot, we never really had the connection going...we never did father son things together like most kids with dads do.

For this reason, I found myself sticking and falling more to what mama's lessons were. I became a care giver, got really cautious about how I looked, took a lot of interest in 'girly' stuff like playing with dolls or jumping ropes and all that stuff. Damn! Thinking about it now just reminds me how good I was and probably everything I missed coz the boys scared me🤥 I thought they were really rough and what they did to themselves, to their bodies, it was really risky and I didn't want none of it.

Fast forward to now I turned out to be really friendly to girls, but I liked boys. Ik its not much of a surprise especially after everything I've described from my childhood but really, that shit affected me! I'm not Sharing all this for pity but I just really was doing it for myself.

To clear my thoughts, to really go to the roots about where it all started and everything that has led upto it. It gives me a sense of closure.

I've found someone I'm in love with, a guy of course. We're almost down to our 1st year anniversary and I really wouldn't think of a man I can trust now or count on as I do to this one😍.

My dad returned to the Fam but we're not really best friends like they're with my sister. What we have is just a fucking cordial relationship but the tension is there especially in times he can't hide whatever anger he has concerning me and ends up scolding me for no fucking apparent reason, I lose it and all the flashbacks from my childhood come running back to me and get me in a state of hate and so much anger that I feel like I don't really need to be the good son that I usually am.

My kindness is literally taken for weakness and it's like he never learns. We've been through so many bad arguments but it gets to a point where I get to forgive and reassure myself that he's changed. All to my surprise, a leopard really never changes its spots. I feel like a fucking clown for even giving him so many chances to do me dirty like that...his caring part concerning me feels hypocritical and to the point I've gotten to even write all this, guess it's time for the games to stop and I should just stop acting around like we have the best relationship coz we don't. And I finally realize, Daddy Issues are REAL.

[seijuurouxryuu]

red sweater and biceps

Title: red sweater and biceps Author: Shiro (TeitoxAkashi [AO3]/ seijuurouxryuu [tumblr]) Rating: T Pairing: Fon/ Reborn Event: @khrrarepairweek Prompts: Mutual Pining | Social Media AU  Tags/Warnings: No Archive Warning

Day 5: Rain Day

It all started with a post on the College Confession site.

(Or, Reborn and Fon being dumb gays)

AO3

Key:

espresso/ espresso or die: Reborn soft: Luce Later Alligator: Verde (CREDITS TO BLUE-SENPAI [OnceABlueMoon] FOR THE NAME) War God: Hibari Kyouya give me your bank PIN: I-Pin Lal my qUEEN: Colonello bitch what: Lal Mirch No Money No Talk: Mammon PLEASE LET ME GO: Sawada Tsunayoshi

It all started with a post on the College Confession site.

#35867

To the red sweater guy with awesome biceps in class S344, you’ve taken my breath away the moment you walk through the door. Have a nice day.

p/s: Please let me touch your biceps.

L1: Oh wow OP calm your thirst.

L2: OP youre valid.

L3: IS THIS WHO I THINK IT IS?!

L4: red sweater guy omg @Fon yoU HAvE aN AdmIRer!

L5: omg it is fon omg omgo mgom

L6: TO THINK THAT I’VE LIVED UNTIL THIS DAY TO SEE FON GETTING HIT ON SO OPENLY

L7: Finally it’s not another confession-to-Reborn post

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Lnth: OP’s words are never truer.

And from that moment onwards, wherever Fon goes, people would stare at him and whispers, giggling as he walked pass them. It was fine at first but it had soon gotten very annoying, because while Fon was fine with crowds or stares, he was of a Hibari and all Hibari Hates. Crowds. And Noises.

Fon rubbed his temple, lips pursing. It was a rare moment for him to expose his feelings in public, but he was far too irritated. He folded his sleeves of his button down—not red thank you very much—up as he made himself comfortable on the plastic chair. Or, as comfortable as plastic chairs can get because it definitely wasn’t.

If he could, he would like to find the culprit to the prank—yes, it could only be a prank—and have a good talk with them. And probably a punch. In fact, he would probably punch Luce for showing him the post if it weren’t for the fact that Luce is Very Scary when provoked. He would rather stay ignorant to all that, thank you very much.

To be honest, it wasn’t as though he didn’t want to find the culprit. He tried by asking Mammon, but they simply ignored him even when he offered the Materialstm, saying that they still wanted to live and something else that was incoherent to Fon. He tried by approaching his older cousin Alaude who definitely knew who but was ignored and sent away as well, only with a contemplating look. What did that even mean?

Anyways, long story short, Fon tried for the whole two weeks, but ultimately failed to find out who it was. He sighed as he spun his ballpoint pen, waiting for the lecturer to come in. It was S344 again, and this time he had come early to scrutinize all his classmates—not all whom he knew well—to see if he can figure out who it was, since that was the only clue given.

Sitting at the highest level in the lecture hall—he can effort not listening to the teacher so it doesn’t matter—he scanned through the class and stared at all the students that had arrived early, mentally cancelling whoever that didn’t seem like the one.

‘Not here yet, I guess.’

Soon, the class started to fill up and Fon simply just gave up. One, there were too many students and all of them are still buzzing around who god-knows-what reason. Two, this one guy with cute, curly sideburn and abyss-like eyes arrived.

A small smile and a statement in the smooth, pleasing voice shook Fon down to the core. “I supposed that you’re trying to find who posted that post.”

Holy shit.

“I-I’m sorry, what?”

The chuckle he gave Fon definitely made his legs weak and Fon was so thankful that he was sitting instead of standing. “Do you mind if I sit here?”

“I—no, no. Definitely not. Go ahead.” Shit, Fon was turning stupid from how hot the other was.

“Thanks.” And he slid in, sitting beside Fon. “So how’s the progress? Found any suspect?”

Fon didn’t answer for a moment as he blinked a few times to digest the question. (‘Stupid, you aren’t supposed to be this dumb. Granted, he is too hot…’) Then he frowned a little. “You know me?”

A snort. “Of course. You’re currently the hottest topic at the moment. One would have to live 15 feet underground to not know who you are.”

Fon looked like he wanted to groan out loud but stopped himself because it would rather rude of him and that earned a look of sympathy. “Don’t worry. Things will quiet down after a while.”

“How sure are you?” Fon tilted his head. “Trust me.”

Fon raised an eyebrow at that but didn’t ask further. If the other doesn’t want to talk, then he would rather not talk. Plus, the lecturer had arrived. The two of them turned back to the class—or, well, they tried to. Fon was very distracted with his seat companion’s presence and the dying urge to turn around and stare at the beautiful pair of eyes. It was the first time he had noticed so much of a person and wanted to know so much more.

Also, he would die to keep talking with him just to hear his voice.

A click and Fon paled slightly.

Oh god, did he just get himself a crush?

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soft

Forget the confession. Forget finding the culprit.

Um, Fon, bby? Are you alright?

Fdskajfldsk

No.

Oh dear, what happened?

I saw the Devil

And I want to punch them

In the face

With my mouth

Softly

Oh?

OH

OHHHH

Luce please kill me I don’t need this

Oh babe, come over. We’ll have a Talk

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Mission: PROTECT FON AT ALL COST

soft

@everyone please come over to our usual spot to give moral support to our beloved bby fon

Later Alligator

Is Killer 3.5 needed?

War God

@Later Alligator yes

Later Alligator

My invention is not for you Hibari back off

War God

You can’t stop me

give me your bank PIN

Hibari-san no

Also @soft who do I need to kill for master?

soft

No fighting. Anyone who brings weapons will be barred from entering the base.

War God

Bold of you to assume that I need my tonfa at all.

soft

I’ll tell Tsuna that you are the one who burnt his manga

War God

I’ve no idea what you’re talking about.

soft

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War God

I know where you live.

soft

and so do I. ANYWAYS! There’s no need to kill anyone! Just come and you’ll know!

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The first time Reborn saw Fon was in S344. That day, he was sitting alone on the highest level because he liked looking down at everyone from higher ground. (Plus, it wasn’t as though he needed to listen to lectures; he was just attending because he had nothing better to do.) He was scrolling through the Confession site, snorting at idiotic posts, when Fon walked into class with a perfectly fitted red sweater that hugged his frame—especially his biceps—so beautifully. He was carrying a laptop bag and a few files, smiling at something on his phone as he climbed up the stairs.

Reborn was awestruck, eyes wide as he stared at the angel that gotten closer and closer. His heart had unknowingly started thumping louder as he took in the most perfect man he had ever saw like a lost, thirsty traveller who had not drank in days. Reborn had almost stopped breathing when Fon looked up to find an empty row.

Their eyes met.

And Fon smiled.

Shit.

He was so dead.

(He had spent the whole period staring at Fon’s back, especially his exposed neck and arm, thanking god that he was sitting directly in front of him. It wasn’t until Fon left the room that he realized that he was actually drooling.)

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Leon is the best @espresso . 57s

Have you ever seen someone so beautiful that you just want to die?

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Lal my qUEEN

OmG GuYs haVE yoU seEn Reborn’s tweet?!

bitch what

No???

Did he delete it?

Lal my qUEEN

@espresso or die WHY DID YOU DELETE IT GET OVER HERE fdhsaklfjdsAFJDSL

bitch what

What did he do again?

@espresso or die What did you do again?

Stop depriving us

I know you’re on rn

espresso or die

lies

Lal my qUEEN

KORA REBORN! STOP DISAPPEARING!

REBORN!

OI!

@espresso or die DUDE EXPLAIN

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@No Money No Talk RECEIPT! I’LL GIVE YOU FIFTY (50) AND A STRAWBERRY MILK!

No Money No Talk

Hundred and two, no less.

Lal my qUEEN

ALRIGHT

No Money No Talk

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espresso or die

You’re dead to me, Viper.

No Money No Talk

It’s Mammon.

And you’re welcome.

PLEASE LET ME GO

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Are you okay Reborn? Are you sick? What temperature are you?

Do we need to call an ambulance? Or do we need to call for a priest?

espresso or die

Dead. You’re all dead to me.

Especially you, @Lal my qUEEN

I’m coming for you first.

Lal my qUEEN

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PLEASE LET ME GO

RIP

espresso or die

You’re next

PLEASE LET ME GO

WHY ME?!

A/N= As you can see, its not fully complete. I didn't finish it because I couldn't make the plunny move + no motivation/inspiration. I might pick it up again when I do have the motivation to.

At least this is longer and written just for this event unlike the previous one...

[I apologize for any grammar, spelling, etc. etc. mistake]

#Katekyo Hitman Reborn #KHR #khrrarepairweek2019 #Reborn #Fon #Sawada Tsunayoshi #Luce #Verde #Mammon #Viper #Colonello #Lal Mirch #My Writings #Hibari Kyouya #I-Pin

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Daring Do and the Adventure of the X'ibian Vase : MLP Fan Fiction : Part 17 of 21

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Daring Do

and the Adventure of the X'ibian Vase!

by

De Writer (Glen Ten-Eyck)

And

Carmen Pondiego

Cover Art by

Doctor Dimension

52630 words

© 2015 by Glen Ten-Eyck

Writing begun 08/26/15

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Robber and Overthrow were scanning the two passes that the maps showed as the only approaches to ancient Hong Wa.  Their binoculars showed only narrow, stony notches with no vegetation at all.  

“Any luck, Robber?”

“No.  It is hard to be sure of details with all the heat shimmering but nothing the size of a dromedary has showed up at all.  I wonder if something has happened to them?”

Tyranny was crouched behind one of the MT81 quick fire cannon, pretending to aim and fire up the gorges.

Overthrow shook his head sadly.  “He was a sharp and prudent lawyer before he got this obsession with the Heart of Discord and world domination.  Look at him.  He threw away the firm’s entire capital on this one throw of the dice.

“He does not even seem to understand that we need to capture them all ALIVE, if we can!  Daring Do, especially.  I overheard him last night.  He was muttering to himself about torturing her to death.  That is bad enough.  He was not even thinking about the fact that only she has any actual chance of FINDING the Heart of Discord.”

Robber agreed glumly as he sweated under the merciless X'ibian sun.  “I would have given up. I can’t.  If this does not work, we are bankrupt.  I don’t want to start over from nothing.”

Overthrow sat on a stone and asked, “Taken up mind reading, Robber?  Those are my thoughts, exactly.”

Tyranny was laughing in a twisted fantasy.  “Just wait until they show their heads!  These guns will tear them to shreds!”

Robber stepped up behind Tyranny and pulled him away from the weapon.  “Fine!  Blow them to pieces!  THEN HOW ARE WE GOING TO FIND THE TOMB?”

Tyranny blinked several times.  In a puzzled voice he pointed out, “That nearest necropolis is the oldest of them.  We just go down there and look for the marker.  Im Farst was an emperor, so the marker on the grave must be huge.”

In the gentle voice reserved for trying to reason with a child, Robber suggested, “Think it through, Tyranny.  If it was that simple, one of the many previous expeditions would have found it.  Besides, IT IS NOT A GRAVE.  It is a BIG tomb.  Somehow, it was hidden so well that over the ages, MILLIONS have been spent trying to find it.  NOPONY ever has.  

“Daring Do must not be harmed.  SHE it very sure that she has solved the problem.  She is not the only one.  BOTH Celestia and Luna are backing her expedition. THEY are sure that she is right.”

From the low stone ridge off to the left of them, a rifle boomed, echoes bouncing back from the ancient wall of Hong Wa.  Dirt flew up about two feet from one of the ammunition boxes.  A second shot blasted from a different part of the ridge.  The bullet made a screaming whine as it ricocheted from a stone near the tripod of one of the guns.

Before either of the partners could stop him, Tyranny leaped to one of the MT81s and began to blast away along the ridge, swinging the weapon on its mount like a fire hose!  The noise was a deafening, rolling thunder!  

The bits and chunks of rock flying from the ridge told of bad aim.  He was not even hitting near the crest where his opponents had to be.

Robber simply clubbed him down and hurled him away from the gun.  Taking the handles, he waited until the next rifle shot’s noise and smoke revealed where to shoot. He sent an economical three round burst at the spot.  It shattered stone and threw up dirt right on target.  He waited quietly for the next shot to reveal the location of a shooter.

That shot came quickly, and Robber’s return fire splintered stone there too.  Not hearing their other MT81, he spared a glance.  Overthrow was bleeding from a leg but worse, the gun’s ammo box was a shattered ruin.  Single shells were thrown about like nine-pins when a strike is rolled.  Overthrow was attempting to clear the wreckage and feed the weapon single bullets.

There was another shot from the ridge!  Robber aimed and fired.  His gun blasted once and clicked.  His ammunition box was empty.  He raised his hooves and stood well back from the useless MT81.

He saw that Overthrow was following his example.  Tyranny was frozen with terror.  Dromedaries were coming across the ridge.  Robber recognized the advance method and shook his head.  Somepony had trained these fighters.

Seven dromedaries under arms, accompanied by two ponies with rifles and one horse with a wicked looking sword came up and seized the three.

A large dromedary bared a sword and held it in a threatening position.  Robber had read enough to know that was a bad sign with X'ibians.  The dromedary mare spoke mildly enough.  “I am Sang He.  This could have been an interesting fight if that idiot,” she pointed to Tyranny, “had not wasted your ammunition.  You used what you had very well.”

Robber shrugged, “Not a lot that I could do to stop him, in time.  He was 'playing’ gunner when the first shot was fired.  I knocked him off the gun as swiftly as I could.

“This whole expedition has been his idea.  He thought that we could just go to the necropolis and dig up relics of Im Farst.

“The whole expedition was not too bad, financially.  He bankrupted us, buying old manuscripts of the earliest X'ibian Empire.  He thought that those relics would be fabulously valuable and allow us to recover our huge expenses. There is only one problem.  We made a foray into the nearby necropolis.  It is the wrong age entirely.

“Then he thought that maybe we could force Daring Do to reveal the location of Im Farst’s tomb. That was another piece of stupidity on his part.  

“Here at the last, Overthrow and I were following him because we had no other choice.  I mentioned that we are bankrupt?  If it helps any, I was shooting only in defense.”

Sang He regarded Robber with mild disdain.  “You told us only some of the truth.  You are after a single relic.  The legendary Heart of Discord.  Daring Do was dispatched, not to prevent you from it, but to study and preserve the rest of the tomb.”

“She wasn’t to prevent us from getting the Heart of Discord?”

Daring Do, a bit of wind whipping her mane impressively, inquired, “Do you have any idea at all how old the Princesses Luna and Celestia are?  They KNEW Im Farst and the Dragon Queen.  They do not want the tomb of a friend despoiled for a single relic.”

Tyranny leaped on what Daring Do had said.  “So!  They gave you a map to the tomb!  If you don’t hand it over right now, I will …”  He hit the ground with a thump and a cloud of dust flaring out in all directions!  Overthrow, leg wound still bleeding a bit, knocked him down and was sitting on him.

From his perch on Tyranny, he offered, “Excuse this, please.  Our senior partner is more than a tiny bit unhinged.  It did not show until we were committed to this business.”

Jeremy giggled.  “It sure showed when he was shooting!  Are you SURE that he is on YOUR side?”

Daring Do glanced skeptically at the three.  “I had in mind allowing you to help us to excavate the tomb entrance as soon as we find it.  You must realize that any three thousand year old guide or map will not be too accurate today. Even some hills move in that span of time.  We will have our work cut out for us, just to locate the tomb and determine the correct method of entry.”

Tyranny, from his place flat on the ground, demanded, “What is so complex about it?  Once we find the tomb, we just dig in and get what we need!”

Daring Do looked down incredulously.  With all seven dromedaries doubled up with laughter and Soree giggling, she pointed out, “In my career, I have opened thirty eight significant ancient tombs.  Every one has had at least two lethal traps that still functioned.

“Now I am certain that it will be YOU digging in, when we find the entrance!”

Robber chuckled sourly, “Tyranny, are you even beginning to grasp how stupid you are sounding?”

Daring Do shrugged.  “Let him up.  I have had to deal with grave robbing idiots before. “Mister Tyranny, you will not be allowed to enter the tomb at all. When we locate the artifact or any complication connected with it, you will be informed.  If you try to enter without our specific permission, Sang He and her Dromedaries will shoot to kill without warning, is that clear?”

Tyranny regained his feet, snarling, “How can we possibly trust YOU?”

That caused Daring Do to double up laughing.  When she regained her composure, she replied, “Not only are you still alive when we could have easily killed you, we are allowing you to stay with us.  Consider, you are bankrupt. You cannot buy enough of fuel or supplies to get home but we are taking you in.

“It is we who have no cause to trust you!”

Soree went to Kanya Ama and asked, “May I get out the stove and fuel?  We are now past our noon meal, due the presence of certain venomous insects.”

Kanya Ama knelt and allowed Soree to open her big pack panniers.  Soree got out the stove, charcoal, and rice with dried vegetables already chopped and mixed in, needing only cooking to make them a meal.

Jeremy and  Sehang Shu joined her in preparing the meal.  Sehang Shu quietly offered, “Jeremy, you were very courageous in this event.  Without your lead, we could have been killed.

“My given name is Shu.  I wish that you would use it from now on.”

Lifting his eyes from the task of measuring the noon rice, Jeremy questioned, “I have made many mistakes of understanding so far, due to both prejudice and not grasping what I have been presented to study.  From my reading, that offer has more meaning than simply letting me call you by your given name.  Is that correct?”

Shehang Shu nodded, her face serious.  “That is true, Jeremy.  It is an offer of more than simply friendship.”

Jeremy returned to her the bow of one of low station to one of high.  “I would be most honored, Shu.  If I may say so, I have rarely ever met one that I respect more.”  He hesitated before giving her a gentle hug.

Her return hug lifted him a good half meter off the ground!

She let him down and suggested with a giggle, “We can follow this up later.  Just now, your lunch needs to be fixed!”

Soree grinned ear to ear as she commented, “We had better give you seconds, Jeremy!  You are going to need your strength!”

Tyranny wandered close and demanded, “Never mind messing with the servants!  When will my noon meal be ready?”

Tyranny promptly discovered two things about dromedaries.  The first was that they can deliver a full power kick from any angle, using any leg.  The other was that full power for a dromedary is very powerful indeed!  

He picked himself up, cautiously, checking for broken bones.  He had landed two meters away from where Shehang Shu’s hoof caught him.  He snarled, “That is it! You are fired!  Get out of here!”

That was met by a sudden clacking sound as all seven of the large bore dromedary rifles that Daring Do gave the herd were brought to bear and cocked, safeties off.  He was surrounded by a herd of grim faced dromedaries staring down the sights of their weapons.

Sang He said in such a gentle voice that it took a moment for the meaning to penetrate, “You will abase yourself.  Grovel before Shehang Shu and beg her for your life. If you do not, we will destroy you.”

Tyranny turned to Daring Do, who was staring in consternation at a sheaf of papers, and demanded, “Do something!  Your servants are in revolt!”

Daring Do gave him a pained look.  She patiently explained, “There is nothing for me to do. They are being very forbearing in allowing this conversation before firing.”

She pointed sweepingly to the desert horizon about them.  “If you examine your surroundings with the utmost care, you might notice a tiny detail.  You are not in Equestria.  Equestrian law does not run here.  What Sang He’s herd is about to do is TOTALLY LEGAL HERE.”

Tyranny’s brows drew down in puzzled shock.  “All of this over firing a servant?”

Daring Do pointed out, “In the first place, NOT YOUR SERVANT!  In the second place, not my servant, either.  Sang He’s herd was engaged for their known and proven expertise in all aspects of the documentation, conservation and proper handling of antiquities.  

“They have worked with me before.  They are partners splitting a twenty percent share of the value of the total find as assessed by consultation between my Royal backers and the X'ibian Provincial Department of Antiquities.  If the expedition fails, they will receive an already agreed to per diem.”

He gestured at the herd, with unwavering guns aimed at him.  “These crude beasts, expert at anything?  Ridiculous.”

There was another clacking of a rifle being cocked and brought to bear.  Jeremy had joined the herd in steady, utterly calm aim at Tyranny.  Soree was off to one side, out of the line of fire, sketching the scene into her notebook!

Daring Do observed, “Your mouth is digging you a grave that you will not get.  By custom, your body will be put into an exposed location for desert scavengers to eat.”

It slowly percolated through Tyranny’s consciousness that what he was hearing was perfectly serious.  He got down to his belly, head extended toward Shehang Shu. “Please spare my life!  I did not understand what I was doing.” He frowned in concentration and added, “I am not sure that I do now.  I will do my best to understand and behave.

“I am a scholar of the ancient form of your language.  Perhaps I can assist the work coming by that means.”

Shehang Shu gave a millimetric nod from the Bow of one of highest station and slung her rifle.  She pulled her sword and held it in a low guard position, edge toward Tyranny.

In a voice so cold that it should have frozen him, she stated, “We are on the same road.  We ask no thing of you and you, none from us.  The path is all that is shared.”

She sheathed her sword and turned her back on him.  The others all released the cock and slung their rifles too.  Even Jeremy turned his back on the shivering Tyranny.  

Soree and Jeremy returned to fixing their delayed noon meal.

Daring Do stirred the still shuddering Tyranny with her hoof.  “We need to talk about this translation.  I told you, back in your office in Canterlot, that your X'ibian translation was near hopeless.  It does not seem to have improved.”

That got Tyranny’s attention. “Nonsense.  I have even used your lexicon of X'ibian Ideograms!  I got every one exactly right!”

Daring Do nodded briskly. “You did.  You also totally missed the meaning!  All references to Dromedary are superlatives.  They are the epitome of beauty, grace, elegance and deep thought.  They are NEVER negatives or symbols of clumsiness, stupidity or ugliness.”

Incredulous, Tyranny gestured at the herd and exclaimed, “Impossible!  Just look at them!”

Jeremy had quietly joined them and said, “Yes, just look at them through THEIR EYES.  Didn’t you know that the whole X'ibian first Empire was founded and carried on by dromedaries?  Im Farst, whose tomb we are seeking, was a dromedary.

“His wife, the legendary Dragon Queen, named Wisdom, was actually a dragon, as the X'ibians understood such creatures.  We hope to find out more about Wisdom herself, in the exploration of this tomb, assuming that we can find it.”

Tyranny, ears stinging from the multiple rebukes, snapped, “What about HER MAP?  How could you fail to find it unless you are really stupid?”  He pointed dramatically at Daring Do, who yawned.

Sehang Shu loftily informed him, “If you were a student, you would be removed from the class. I believe the term I want here is flunked.

“You were informed already that landmarks can change a great deal in three thousand years.  You have failed to consider the information given you.”

Jeremy quietly added, “Besides, Doctor Do does not have a map.  That was a conclusion that you jumped on and have accepted without question since.  That is faulty reasoning that not even the military of any nation will accept.  I am amazed that you, as a lawyer, would be guilty of such a basic failure of logic.”

Daring Do agreed, “I do not have a map.  I do know how to find the tomb.  It will not be easy. We must begin inside the Hong Wa.”

Overthrow cautiously inquired, “If the tomb is outside the city, why do we need to begin inside it?”

Robber acidly pointed out, “If Daring Do has no map, she has a chain of clues that begin inside the city somewhere, obviously.”

Sang He politely herded Daring Do away from the lawyers.  “Doctor Do, your delayed noon meal is now ready.  Why you would wish to associate with such low creatures as they is beyond me.”

Daring Do chided gently, “My friend, do not discriminate with them because they are ponies.”

“I did not.  I have placed them in the station that they have earned by their behavior.  We honor you and those you have brought, because you and they have earned our respect.  Those back there have gone so far the other way that I am glad that we did not shoot.

“Scavengers are a needful part of the ecology of the desert.  I would not wish to poison them with that creature’s carcass.”

(to be continued)

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[gimmesumsuga]

I feel like there's been a few moments throughout this story where I would've left for a night/couple days. I'm the type of person that needs space, so whenever MC stays in that environment I feel like a step of the healing process has been skipped. But that's just me. I like to hide away and lick my wounds. And now, as hot as evil Joon is, he has utterly betrayed her (fragile, tentative) trust. And idek how Jimin & Yoongi will be. I would def be calling Sam up. I'd feel so used & embarrassed.

I think I’m quite guilty of putting a lot of myself into the reader in that respect - if ever I have an argument or get upset I desperately want to be around people and talk/cuddle it out until it’s all sorted!  I think Sam will most definitely be helping to deal with some of the fallout. 

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Anon: THE FIRST THING THAT LEFT MY MOUTH WHEN I FINISHED CH 65 WAS “FUCK, OH NO”. ITS 2 AM AND I HAVE A FINAL LATER ON;;; THE CHAPTER WAS FUCKING HOT BUT IM STILL I GOD DAMN SHOCK

Ohh I hope your final went well despite the shock! 

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Anon:  Omg STS 65... I screamed at the last two words. Bravo! Genius! Amazing!

Aww thank you nonnie! ^^

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Anon:  Small spoilers‼️ *towards the ending of chap. 65* I— DID HE REALLY JUST— OH MY GOD HE DID. HE SO DID THAT. WHAT THE— NO. Oh my god that chapter was so good by the way but like- WAY TO JUST PUNCH ME IN THE FACE NAMJOON OH MY GOD. THIS IS SO GOOD I SWEAR TO GOD THIS IS THE QUEEN OF ALL PLOT TWISTS AND CLIFF HANGERS. Tbh I kinda suspected cuz Jimin would’ve been there to supervise the whole thing or at least nearby so like- BUT SHIT I DIDNT REALLY THINK- I love you. I’m a mess rn but I love you~💌

Yup... yup he did.  He went there, he did that lol glad you enjoyed it hun.  Love you! 

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Anon: Ma’am, I’m gonna need to stop trying to KILL me because holy balls. STS... I’m dead over here. It’s too good!!

I really can’t make any promises...

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Anon: Just so you know, I just read chapter 65 of STS and uuuuhhhhhh UUUHHHHHHHHH I'm not okay with how it finished it's exactly what I was afraid of 😭😭😭 ((don't get me wrong I loved the chapter but I had sneaking suspicions about what was up and oH bOi WaS i CorReCt)) --feel free to not respond in case of spoilers or something for tumblr readers ❤️

You certainly were correct! Well done! 

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Anon: GDHDJD CHAPTER 65 IS GIVING ME A MENTAL BREAKDOWN 😫 the smut was so good I honestly don’t know what to do with myself but thaT ending has me all kinds of fucked up

You’re not alone nonnie.  I think a lot of people were left feeling a bit compromised! 

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Anon: OMG I JUST FINISHED READING CHAPTER 65 AND IM SCREAMING! Your writing is amazing and I check your blog everyday 😊keep up the good work love

Aww thank you nonnie! Glad to have you as a reader 

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Anon: OH SHIT!!! THAT ENDING IM DEAD OMG YOUR A FUCKING GENIUS

You’re far, far too kind sweetie

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Anon: WHAT THE FUCK. I KNEW I DIDN'T TRUST HIM. I FUCKING KNEW JOONIE LIED. SOMETHING DIDN'T FEEL RIGHT. JIMINIE WOULD HAVE SAID SOMETHING TO HER. JOONIE WOULD HAVE TAKEN HER TO HIS ROOM TO DOMINATE HER AND PUT HER IN HER PLACE. I KNEW IT. OOOOHHHH NOOOOO. AM I ABOUT TO CRY??? Once again, great job boo. I absolutely loved it. 👏👏💕 -A.P.

Noooo, don’t cry!  Daydream about being taken to Joonie’s room to be dominated with me instead lol 

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Anon: That ending was evil :( lol can't wait for next part 😙

Kinda was, wasn’t it? lol

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Anon: So..... I usually felt pretty OK (very OK) with her (reader) fucking the other guys in the house, and don't get me wrong, 65 was awesome, and perfect and I loved it, but when he told her "I lied" my heard felt full of pain, and now I feel like I've cheated on my boyfriend. This is fucked up, my heart bleeds, you made it bleed. You are good!

Aww hun, as sad as I am to hear it hurt you so much, it’s always kinda nice to know I’ve had the ability to affect someone so greatly. Thank you 

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Anon: Okay okay okay so I want to ask a question about what may happen in chapter 66.... I totally understand if you don’t want to answer but I was wondering if in this new chapter Jimin will be upset with the main character???! Or is it mainly going to be a mad at Joonie thing?! I’m also scared because I think it was Yoongi that walked in and my baby boy bias is gonna be hurt and I’m afraid... thanks babydoll💙

I’m afraid you’re going to have to sit tight and see what happens in the next chapter sweetie!  Just keep in mind that I’m a big fan of happy endings along the way :)

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Anon: BDKFHBSJENFBD CHAPTER 65 HAS ME FEELING A WHOLE LOTTA THINGS BC ON ONE HAND HOT JOONIE SMUT AYY BUT ON THE OTHER HAND HE FUCKING LIED THAT ASSHOLE OH GOD IT WAS SO GOOD THE WAIT WAS FUCKING WORTH IT

Hahaha I’m glad it was still worth it for the smut though! 

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Anon: So like my question for chapter 65 is literally wtf? I enjoying the chapter and then out of no where it’s just like BOOM, I was smacked with a ton of dicks wtf. I really liked the chapter though, it was amazing lol, love your works

Did you.... did you actually mean a tonne of dicks?  lol this ask made me laugh so hard, because even if that’s a case of autocorrect or a typo, how absolutely apt it is in regards to this fic hahaha

[micahs-journal]

05/24/2020 12:29pm

This was one year ago today. We were going camping at ocean shores. It should’ve been you and I and I changed the plans. You went along with it and tried very hard to have fun and I wish I hadn’t changed the plans. I’m sorry for that.

I love you. I wish so badly I was different back then. I miss you greatly.

I trust you to come back even now even though I know you can’t. I’m sorry I made it that way.

Today we were going to hang out. I wasn’t going to bring anything up. I respected that you said you’d sleep on it and I was very much looking forward to your company and doing something outside. It’s a beautiful day after all. I didn’t want to taint our time together with that. I just wanted to be carefree with you again because you make me feel a feeling i only get at festivals. I stayed for that feeling last time. And I only felt that feeling with you this time around. Until I left the groupchat. Until I was silent for too long while I thought. Until I was short with you. I’m sorry.

I spent all day yesterday inside my room save to use the bathroom and for an an hour long drive. I cried a lot. I yelled into my pillow a couple times. I didn’t mean to make you feel guilty. I didn’t mean to ruin your day. I sent you smiley faces and tried to send good vibes despite my pain.

Today I put on clothes but I’m still in my room. Maybe I’ll force myself out onto the couch.

I trusted when you said you wanted me. I trusted you with my safe place where I could vent.

You broke that trust. It’s ok, you couldn’t do it. It hurts but not as much as I’m sure it hurts you.

I can’t be around the way you want me to while you act the way you do. I can’t trust someone who takes my vented words on tumblr and uses them against me when I’m my eyes I hadn’t done anything to you. in your eyes that’s not true I’m sure and that’s ok. I sent you smiley faces and kind words 45minutes before you betrayed me.

You betrayed me by leaving when I needed emotional support. You betrayed me by taking things I said when venting and used that a reason to hurt me. I vent so I don’t get bitter or resentful and lash out at you.

You told me you loved me, I chose you, you ghosted me, you found someone else, and you blocked me. I know there’s way more to it and I am not without fault.

I was willing to be just friends and yes I hoped you could change your mind. You said you’d always have feelings for me and that you’d sleep on it. I must’ve misunderstood those words.

I do want to date you. But rn I can’t. I can’t trust you with details of my life. You can’t trust me with details in yours.

I won’t go back any further than I am to the Canadians. I won’t like their posts even though I follow them. I thought about unfollowing them but I’m not sure that would help you. I want to give them up for you. I want to show you things would be better and different because they will be. Maybe I’m time you’ll see that.

For now I just ask you unblock my phone so I can text you when I’m sad and need emotional support or advice. I won’t ask for more because you can’t do that rn and tbh, I don’t think I can either. I can feel myself closing up again. I don’t want that.

You’re the only person I trust completely still with my emotions. If you can’t do that it’s ok. I want what’s best for you. I want that. desperately to be me. But I want to slowly add you back into my life. I have to go slow now. I restarted.

I thought about so many things I want to do while upset. I wanted to call you from my work phone, make new accounts and message you, email you. But at the end of the day you said you needed space and can’t do it. Only way I can show I’ve changed is to let you do what you need to and trust that if you change your mind you’ll come back.

I will still keep posting here. It’s my journal and I still want you to see where I’m at because that means I’m vulnerable. Love is giving someone the complete power to destroy you and trusting they won’t.

I do love you Jessica. I always will. I really hope you had a fantastic day yesterday. I was envious. I didn’t mean for that to ruin your day. I just envied those who could be with you. I want you in my life and I want to be in yours. I’m not going anywhere. Even if you do.

I hope this doesn’t upset you. I’m not mad or upset or anything right now. I’m numb right now or maybe it’s acceptance. I can’t tell 😂

I will always want more from you Jess. I just won’t say it anymore. I’m sorry if that bothers you.

In the time it’s taken me to right this Kyle has convinced to go on a bike ride. That’s probably for the best. It’s 12:59pm now.

6:55pm

It’s ok you can’t do it Jess. I hope someday you reach out to me and we can try again. I love you. I hope you’re happy either way :)

7:21pm

Fuck me I miss you and this is hard and it’s not going to be easier. I’m going to know you’re falling for someone else, going to know you’re at shows and festivals making memories I’ll never get to make. I made my choice and it was wrong. And when I corrected it I was too late. That hurt along with everything else won’t go away. How do I get over or forget you? You’re unforgettable. I couldn’t do it last time and I’m the one who left. How am I supposed to do it when you’re the one who left this time? I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to not feel anymore. That hurt and I let myself be swept away with you and that felt good. I want to feel good. I want you and you only in the room we made together. Twice. I wanted to make a home with you someday.

7:53pm

You can’t even reach out to me about being friends after I gave you what you needed. I don’t understand you. Do you just say stuff to try give the illusion you want me around? Because I don’t understand. I don’t know if you’re moving on or still needing space because you told me you could but you still aren’t here.

#personal

[girlsnsleep]

For the anon who wanted everything started with 7...

7: My best friend: Daimbarage, Wsup 8: Sexual orientation: Gayy af 9: My best first date: Regular diner and afterwards we went to the movies 10: How tall am I: 165cm 11: What do I miss: You don’t wanna know lol 12: What time were I born: Idk actually, somewhere in the evening probably 13: Favourite color: black, grey, red, white 14: Do I have a crush: uhu (lern jergi watch out) 15: Favourite quote: grab that booty when she moody 16: Favourite place: my bed 17: Favourite food: PIZZA and chicken nuggets 18: Do I use sarcasm: yeah who doesn’t these days 19: What am I listening to right now: Sauced-up by Fifth Harmony 20: First thing I notice in new person: Their caracter and how they act when im around 21: Shoe size: 40EU 22: Eye color: Brownnn 23: Hair color: Also brownn 24: Favourite style of clothing: i like to wear black, wish i’ve had the money to buy the stuff i really wanna wear 25: Ever done a prank call?: hell yeah

27: Meaning behind my URL: i like girls and sleeping 28: Favourite movie:idk got so many, i saw The Martian and i cried and had to laugh (really watch it) 29: Favourite song: don’t askme that :(( 30: Favourite band: Pvris, Tøp, 5H 31: How I feel right now: terrible

32: Someone I love: my gf 33: My current relationship status: so taken 34: My relationship with my parents: good lately 35: Favourite holiday: all 36: Tattoos and piercing i have: none :(( 37: Tattoos and piercing i want: tattoos so many omg 38: The reason I joined Tumblr: cz i was in my phase from bi to gay and here you can do whatever you wanna do 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?: nope 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: nah 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? nope 42: When did I last hold hands? a while ago 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? depends on my mood 44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days? nope haha 45: Where am I right now? in my bed 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me? probably one of my friends but never had that situation so im good with alcohol 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? depends on the song 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad? mom and stepdad 49: Am I excited for anything? uhuu 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? nope 51: How often do I wear a fake smile? often lately 52: When was the last time I hugged someone? few days ago, need a hug rn 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me? oh hell no, you don’t wanna see that honey 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not? nope 55: What is something I disliked about today? myself

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? FIFTH FUCKING HARMONYYYYYYY 57: What do I think about most? a lot of things i dont wanna think about 58: What’s my strangest talent? crying when i dont have a reason to cry 59: Do I have any strange phobias? not really 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? behind bc imma photographerrrr 61: What was the last lie I told? that the restaurant i didn’t wanted to go to was closed while they werent lol 62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? phone 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? nope and nope

64: Do I believe in magic?nope 65: Do I believe in luck? maybe 66: What’s the weather like right now? clear but a bit cold 67: What was the last book I’ve read? *camren fanfic oops 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline? hell yes 69: Do I have any nicknames? Ang 70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had? My hip was discolated 71: Do I spend money or save it? depends lol 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? nope haha 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? no 74: Favourite animal? cats dogs 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? tumblr 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? nugget 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? idk 78: How can you win my heart? not unless you buy me food 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? ‘go to hell bitches’ 80: What is my favorite word? nugget 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: well actually everyone who reblogs stuff from my blog so YEAH YOU WHO READS THIS luv for u all 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? lauren jauregui marry me 83: Do I have any relatives in jail? nope 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? to be invisible and beat the motherfuckers 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? ugh idk 86: What is my current desktop picture? something with a car 87: Had sex? yeah 88: Bought condoms? no hahah 89: Gotten pregnant? hell no 90: Failed a class? yupp 91: Kissed a boy? no 92: Kissed a girl? uhuuuuuuuuuu 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? yep 94: Had job? yep 95: Left the house without my wallet? once, never do this 96: Bullied someone on the internet? nope 97: Had sex in public? no?? 98: Played on a sports team? yes :((( 99: Smoked weed? everyday 100: Did drugs? yes 101: Smoked cigarettes?yuppp 102: Drank alcohol? only at parties 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? nooooo 104: Been overweight? no?? why is this even a question 105: Been underweight? *see 104 106: Been to a wedding? yesss 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? probably 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? yeah Friends 109: Been outside my home country? many times 110: Gotten my heart broken? oh yeshhh 111: Been to a professional sports game? a few yess

112: Broken a bone? nope 113: Cut myself? uhu 114: Been to prom? in June :)) 115: Been in airplane? yes i luvvvv it 116: Fly by helicopter? no :((( 117: What concerts have I been to? Tøp, 5H, some belgian artists, Drake etc 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? Oh hell yeah 119: Learned another language? yeah who doesn’t? 120: Wore make up? actually no 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? noooo 122: Had oral sex? pussy 123: Dyed my hair? yeaaass 124: Voted in a presidential election? nope 125: Rode in an ambulance? yes haha lol 126: Had a surgery? yup my upper leggg and head 127: Met someone famous? no :(((((( 128: Stalked someone on a social network? not really 129: Peed outside? yeah when we went on a survival trip and when we slept in school (outside yk) 130: Been fishing? i live next to water so yeah 131: Helped with charity? a fewtimes 132: Been rejected by a crush? uhuuuu 133: Broken a mirror? many times 134: What do I want for birthday? lauren jauregui 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? none bish 136: Was I named after anyone? no but after a song from the rolling stones 137: Do I like my handwriting? nope not really 138: What was my favourite toy as a child? i had a peter pan island lol 139: Favourite Tv Show? friends 140: Where do I want to live when older? far away from belgium 141: Play any musical instrument? not atm 142: One of my scars, how did I get it? surgery and stupid things 143: Favourite pizza toping? mozzarella 144: Am I afraid of the dark? no 145: Am I afraid of heights? hell yes 146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? not that i know 147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? many times lol 148: What I’m really bad at: being myself 149: What my greatest achievments are: going to college in a few days 150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: not gonna tell here 151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery: buy clothes and shoes and food and go farrrr away 152: What do I like about myself: nothing 153: My closest Tumblr friend: @wsupfuckah 154: Something I fantasise about: food 155: Any question you’d like?nope

Have fun.

[fire-fira]

I really, really, really want to die rn. I'm going to binge read your stories because they're seemingly all I live for at the moment. If you could ease write like.. a small Drabble or whatever size length you want of DamiColin angst centered on our fav orphan, that would really help. Thank you.

Apologies that it has taken me so long to get this one done (due to the first attempt having been eaten by tumblr). I hope you’re feeling better since you wrote this, and I hope you’re getting the help and support you need. I hope you enjoy the final result.

Also, just in case there’s any confusion, I included a little Arabic on Damian’s part (habibi– ‘my love’ or ‘beloved’– and ouhibbouka– I love you). I tried my best to make sure it was accurate.

(So if any of my lovely followers speak Arabic and I got it wrong, please let me know.)

Sometimes It’s The Little Things (Ao3 version)

Colindidn’t like thinking about family. Or, more accurately, he didn’t like thinkingabout his lack of one. It wasn’t something he wanted to focus on. It wasn’tsomething he wanted to think about. Thinking about it only ever made him upset,and while Colin wasn’t as bad as some, he couldn’t erase his anger issues— andwhenever he was upset it was reallyhard to keep his temper in check. So he tried not to think about it and put itout of his mind. It wasn’t always effective. Like now.

Heand Damian were in one of the League’s various bases (more like a safehousethan anything) alone. Colin was sitting on a couch in what could have beentermed either a living room area or a lounge, brooding; honestly it didn’tmatter what the space was called. What mattered was the fact that he wasbrooding and had been brooding for a long time. Damian had been standingnearby, waiting, but Colin didn’t feel inclined to break the silence first.

Finally,Damian chose to speak up and casually asked, “What’s bothering you Wilkes?” Of course he could tell that Colin wasstewing over something. After having known each other for a little over sixyears it only made sense that he knewwhen Colin was close to blowing up.

“Nothing.”

“Weboth know that’s a lie.”

Colinscowled. “I don’t want to talk about it.”

Damianarched an eyebrow as he crossed his arms. After a moment or two he said, “Weboth know I’m not good with talking about ‘feelings,’ but even I know thattrying to ignore it when you’re this frustrated isn’t a good thing.”

“Youcan’t fix it Damian,” Colin snapped.

Silencestretched for a few long moments before Damian said, “You don’t have to stayhere on-base, or even go back to the orphanage. You’re more than welcome tostay at the manor.” This was hardly the first time Damian had said something ofthe sort while clearly implying that Colin should move in rather than justvisit.

Itwas no secret that at times Colin hatedhaving to stay at the orphanage, but at the same time he wasn’t happy that hewould age out of it soon. It was all he had known, and while it wasn’t accurateto say he had nowhere to go (Damian would hardly tolerate Colin ending up onthe street), it was everything he’d had and— in a year— would lose.

“That’sjust it, Damian. Moving in wouldn’t help anything. Sure, your family is greatand all, don’t get me wrong, but they’re not mine. And don’t try tosuggest that they would adopt me because I refuseto consider becoming my boyfriend’s brother.”He was agitated, but trying to keep it in check. Even so, he could feel thedistant itching sensation in his spine that usually signaled the beginning ofhis physical shift to Abuse. He forcefully clamped it down.

“Theydon’t dislike you. And you’ve said you like the manor when you’re there anyway.”Apparently he felt like being persistent.

Theitch in Colin’s spine spread to a vague ache in the bones of his arms andhands. “That’s not the point!” he burst out before lunging to his feet to paceback-and-forth. “You want to know what’s bothering me? Fine. The problem isthat moving in won’t change anything.”

Damianwatched silently as Colin paced, his rant becoming more heated the longer hespoke.

“Movingin won’t change the fact that I’venever had a family who gave a shit about me, or at least not for long anyway!Moving in won’t change the fact that I never had a home, that no one wanted toput up with my anger issues, that I was considered ‘too much of a problem’ toeven be fostered. It won’t change thefact that I was considered so much of a ‘problem’ that almost no one cared to go looking for me when I went missing and was getting experimented onin that damned warehouse! If I had died I would have just been one more namelesslittle body mentioned on the news with no one to even see or mourn the factthat I wasn’t there anymore… if my bodyhad even been found. No one wonderingwhere I went, what happened, and no one to even miss me enough to have a hardtime changing anything in a room that had been mine.” He came to a stop in his pacing, his hands flexing as amuscle in his jaw worked. It was getting hard to hold the shift back, but hewas determined not to lose that much control.

Damianalmost reached out to him, but pulled back. Something else that had come fromknowing Colin for so long was the awareness that sometimes it wasn’t wise totry to touch Colin when he was upset, unless he indicated otherwise.

WhenColin started speaking again, it was in a far more subdued tone as he droppedback into his seat on the couch. “It can’t take away the fact that I never had anyone to come home to, tocare about, or to even have care about me.I never had siblings, or parents, oreven grandparents. No one cared, noone wanted to care, all because I wasthe pain-in-the-ass orphan with anger issues. It didn’t matter how good I was,how hard I tried. I was too much to handle. And because of that, if I died, noone would have cared. I would have just been one more damned statistic.”

Damianfrowned and moved to sit on the arm of the couch. When Colin didn’t tell him toback off, he placed a hand on Colin’s shoulder. “Habibi… You have a place.You always have a place, even if wedon’t last.” It was rare for Damian to be gentle, rare to show that side. Ithad taken years for Damian to let those walls down even around Colin, and Colinwas the one emotionally closest to him.

Colincould feel his eyes trying to well up and pressed the heels of his palms to hiseyes while forcing himself to breathe slowly. He didn’t want to cry, cryingwould have been too much and would have been too overwhelming in that moment,but he couldn’t help the faint tremble that escaped anyway. When he trustedhimself to speak without his voice cracking, he weakly laughed out, “You’resuch a goddamn sap. A sap who puts up this giant front of being a fuckingasshole except for moments like this when I need you like the pain-in-the-assthat I am.” His throat felt thick with unshed tears.

A thoughtfulhum emanated from Damian before he gently tugged Colin closer and soothinglycombed the fingers of his right hand through Colin’s hair. “Only around you, habibi. Ouhibbouka. This you know.”

Colin held it together for a moment longer before heturned and buried his face in Damian’s chest and wrapped his arms around him.Even through the tears he struggled to keep in check, he said, “Next time I seethem I’m telling your family you’re a giant fucking sap.”

“Better that than telling them you’re breaking up withme.”

“Shut up.” Despite the teasing, Colin felt a littlebetter. Nothing could erase the gap in Colin’s life of what he hadn’t had, butat least on days like this Damian knew how to make it bearable.

#Colin Wilkes #Damian Wayne #DamiColin #angst #my fiction #17-year-old Damian isn't as much of a pain in the ass #He's matured a little #Colin has been through too much

[sweetblossoms]

1-69 bay bee, I wanna know stuff

i haven’t dont one of these mass answerings since like 2015 f u c k

1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?

Probably, yeah. I’ve had cigarettes before, but I’m not addicted to nicotine, so I’d live without having another one

2: Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused?

Single as hell, and don’t care for romance tbh

3: What if I told you that you were pretty?

I’d say “thanks, I know”

4: Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”?

Yeah and it was prefaced with the sentence “You’re too damaged for me” bc life is gr8 to me

5: Are you interested in anyone right now?

Nope, I’m too busy getting my life on track to try and focus on anyone else

6: What are you looking forward to in the next week?

I’m getting a pedicure on Thursday with an old friend and my new Morphe makeup brush set should be arriving on Wednesday so it’s gonna be fuckin lit

7: Do you want to be single?

I mean I am whether I want it or not, so-

8: Did you go out or stay in last night?

Stay in, I had work today and am trying out a new sleeping pill, so I’m trying to regulate my sleeping cycle

9: How late did you stay up last night?

Like 12:30 AM

10: Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot?

Yeah, it was like a year and a half ago I think and it was a process let me tell you

11: Last three things you had to drink?

Water, coffee, root beer

12: Have you pretended to like someone?

Yeah lmao on the daily

13: Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it?

Yeah, but that’s more directed at family, not to any partner I’ve had

14: Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?

I don’t think so, no

15: Is it hard for you to get over someone?

Nah, it generally takes me like two weeks and I’m over it tbh

16: Think back five months ago, were you single?

Yes most definitely

17: What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?

Working

18: Hold hands with anyone this week?

Ew no I don’t think I’ve held hands with anyone since I was like 16, I hate hand holding, it’s so awkward for me

19: Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?

Probably not tbh

20: What would you name your future daughter?

Probably some hippie white person shit like Celeste or Marina

21: Do you miss anyone?

Yeah, I’ve been missing my college friends a lot lately

22: Have you kissed three or more people in one night?

Yes lmao

23: Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed?

I think so, yeah

24: Are you good at hiding your feelings?

I’m actually really good at hiding all my emotions besides annoyance tbh, if I’m annoyed, you fucking know it and that’s that

25: Have you ever cried from being so mad?

Yes, I am such an intense angry crier, I instantly tear up any time I’m mad, it’s an awful curse

26: Who did you last see in person?

My brother? I think

27: Are you listening to music right now?

No I’m listening to a podcast

28: What is something you currently want right now?

To replace my old makeup because I’m on a makeup binge rn and want it all, I’ve been obsessed with youtube makeup gurus all week

29: What is the last thing you said out lot?

“Here, take the water bottle”

30: How is your heart lately?

Still pumping blood, so it’s good I’d assume

31: Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?

Only if it’s raining because my hair frizzes up like a shitball when it rains

32: Are you wearing socks?

Ew no, I only wear socks if I have to

33: What do people call you?

Ilene, Lena, Bean, Leenie, Ling. I am a nameless orb for you to project your name fantasies onto.

34: Will you talk to the person you like tonight?

I don’t...like anyone...???

35: Are there any stressful situations in your life?

L M F A O

36: Who did you last share a bed with?

An ex-fling sometime last May

37: Did you do something bad today?

I ordered a burger and stuffed jalapenos for lunch, so I’ve been real bad today ;)

38: When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?

A couple of weeks ago in a friend way. Actually wait, maybe my brother has hugged me since then, I can’t remember

39: Do you get stressed out easily?

I used to, but since getting older I realized that I don’t really get stressed easily, I just get overwhelmed easily, which are two different emotions that only slightly differ

40: Will you sing today?

I think I did earlier actually, I think I sang Hollaback Girl to my coworker

41: Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t?

Yeah, I bite my tongue a lot

42: Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?

I’m not going to lie, I kind of bottle everything up and then vent in long personal posts here on tumblr and then I’m good for the next couple of weeks and then the process continues

43: Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance?

No, I’ve ever actually never had to go to the hospital or ER (for myself)

44: What are you listening to right now?

The Valleyfolk Podcast

45: What is wrong with you right now?

I mean, what’s wrong with me all the time is the better question. I have no money to do the things I want in life, I’m fading away from old friends that I don’t to fade from, my depression is coming back, I live with my family instead of on my own like I used to, my job is a shithole and I want to quit on the daily, etc. etc. the list goes on and on

46: What is on your wrists right now?

Nothing?? It’s like 9:30 at night

47: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?

It was a Christmas present tanktop 

48: What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?

Hot chocolate because apple cider is best cold and alcoholic

49: Do you make wishes at 11:11?

No because time is an illusion and cannot provide humans wishes. Cute sentiment though.

50: Are you a good artist?

N o p e, I wish

51: Love really is a beautiful thing huh?

Not really, but I guess it’s cool for some people

52: Do you miss the way things were six months ago?

I think I was actually worse six months ago, so no

53: Ever been on a golf cart?

No, I wish tho, I always wished I could drive one of those school golf carts around just for the fuck of it

54: Do you have trust issues?

Oh most definitely, not a question, I trust nobody besides myself

55: Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who?

Ew no I hate phone conversations

56: Do you own something from Hot Topic?

I...yes, but in my defense it’s a pastel tie-dye tanktop that I bought specifically for Pride because it’s the pansexual colors

57: Do you use chap stick?

Yeah, I use the organic Eos brand

58: Have you ever slapped someone in the face?

Yes but like, as a joke, never for real

59: Do you have a little sister?

Nope

60: Have you ever been to New York?

No, I don’t really want to either? It just seems dirty and crowded and I’m too scared of heights for the skyscrapers and too cold. Love the fashion that comes from that area though

61: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?

Probably, because my friends are the best and we all love and support each other like a true squad should

62: Have you hugged someone within the last week?

I don’t think so, no

63: What were you doing at midnight last night?

I think I was playing Sims 4 and reading fanficiton on my phone

64: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?

Yes, drunk-me is a little shit

65: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

I think maybe my friend Taylor has that covered? He’s pretty good at comic relief when I need it

66: Were your last three kisses from the same person?

I mean, yeah, how do you only kiss someone once? My last kiss was a hook up, so-

67: Have you kissed anyone in the last five days?

No

68: Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?

Probably alone, I get too hot in my sleep and have specific bedtime qualifications before I can rest and some people cuddle way too much for my liking

69: Will next Friday be a good one?

Nah I have to be awake at 6 am to go to work all day

#personal #about me #these were all so romance centric and I haven't realized how long it's been since I got some until now #Anonymous #answered

[thefabkilljoy]

1, 5, 9, 10, 11, 14, 15, 16, 17, 19, 20, 23, 24, 25-27, 29, 30-33, 36-38, 41-44, 47, 51, 53-55, 59, 60, 61, 64, 67, 70, 72-74, 76, 81-87, 89, 99 sorry it's so many ^.^

Iddhsgsbshsj okay here we GO ((sorry for how long this post is about to be in advance lol))

1. 6 of the songs you listen to most?It’s kinda hard to answer this as I listen to so much and fluctuate between which genre I want to binge listen to but prob something from p!atd, mcr, or maybe Hamilton idk I’ve been listening to a lot of that recently for some reason

5. What does your latest text message from someone else say?“Oki” ,.,….. like okay but weirder I guess

9. Ever had a poem or song written about you?Nothing other than like family projects by my brother and this one time a friend wanted to write a song about me because I came back from a week vacation in Canada but it never happened oh and I think I was in a couple raps lmao

10. When is the last time you played the air guitar?lol like last week at a friend’s house when I was imitating pharah’s new dance emote in overwatch

11. Do you have any strange phobias?I don’t think I have “"strange”“ ones but I faint around needles and I’m claustrophobic

14. If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?Ew,,.,. Outside,.,. Uh well I only go outside on obligation so probably walking the dog or going out with some friends

15. Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?Is this,,.., metaphorically?? I can’t tell but either way probably most of the time behind but I guess it matters on the situation?

16. Favorite band?My Chemical Romance or Panic! At The Disco because my emo phase will never truly leave me

17. What as the last lie you told?Uh idk I don’t lie very often,… well I just told someone I couldn’t go to something when I just,,, didn’t want to and I also just told someone I ”“appreciated their words”“ when I sure af didn’t

19. What does your URL mean?Well my URL on almost everything is TheFabulousKilljoy ((mcr ref)) but THAT was obviously taken so I made this and it’s the only website I’ve ever used it on

20. What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?Everything and nothing hella

23. How do you vent your anger?Do nothing until I get over it or go to the vent channel on a discord server I’m on and complain

24. Do you have a collection of anything?When I in third grade I collected erasers, then in fourth I collected silly bands, and then after that not really anything unless you count the growing landfill of empty water bottles I’m too lazy to throw away in my room

25. Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? Shrug probably voice chatting bc discord doesn’t support video chat yet ((I use discord a lot of you haven’t noticed))

26. Are you happy with the person you’ve become?More or less, but I believe I still have a long way to go

27. What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?Hate: anything too loud that isn’t musicLove: rain!!!!

29. Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?Nope and yep, ghosts don’t really make sense to be real and duh of course there’s other life out there somewhere do you KNOW how big this universe is??

30. Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm. A supernatural blanket which I lowkey hate because it has the main characters on it and isn’t THAT terrifying to see when you’re trying to sleep and iron pills for my anemia

31. Smell the air. What do you smell?Shampoo because I just got out of the shower

32. What’s the worst place you have ever been to?There’s this house in Vegas that i have to go to every once in a while for vacation that I absolutely despise

33. Choose: East Coast or West Coast?West, I live in California

36. Define art. Anything that somebody creates

37. Do you believe in luck?Eh not really? Maybe?

38. What’s the weather like right now?Cloudy in the 70'sish but no rain :((

41. What was the last book you read?Oh god I have no idea probably the Princeton Review APWH 2017 Study Guide™

42. Do you like the smell of gasoline?Not really but my brother loves it

43. Do you have any nicknames?Killjoy, kj, tfkj, your royal highness ;))

44. What was the last film you saw?I don’t know what the last one I saw was called but the one before that was Dirty Dancing

47. Do you have any obsessions right now?Homestuck, Steven Universe, Still Mystic Messenger for some reason, Supernatural, Hamilton also for some reason I haven’t even seen it, the new FOB album ((can’t wait)), Skyrim, Overwatch, and about 846272 other things

51. Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?Yes, but again it depends on the situation and the person and how, if at all, it was resolved

53. Do you save money or spend it?Save until I get enough to buy something I want ((rn it’s the void sweatshirt from wlf so if anyone wants to throw me like $40 hmu ;;);)););)(;);,),;),))))

54. What’s the last thing you purchased?I can’t remember

55. Love or lust?Love of course

59. Where were you yesterday?Home playing a ton of overwatch

60. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?Yep, a pink skirt I use for Roxy cosplay ((still working on that,,, eventually)) a Steven universe crop top im not actually allowed to wear lol, a flower, one of those eos lip balm eggs, and a flower crown thing from medieval times ((the knight dinner show thing))

61. Are you wearing socks right now?Okay honestly I just got out the shower and I’m very lazy so I’m just sitting here with a towel

64. Where is your best friend?Uh I don’t know probably at her house

67. What were you doing last night at 12 AM?I was on tumblr and discord because sleep schedules are for the weak

70. Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?No I’m an asshole lol, but having shared interests would be nice

72. You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) what do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?Wow that’s dark okay uh I would tell everyone because then I’d just,,, die out of nowhere and they’d be so confused, with my remaining days I’d probably travel and make amends with people and try to do some good things in the world in the month I have left, and I’d probably be afraid but eventually accept it

73. You can only have one of these things; trust or love. Trust, love isn’t 100% necessary and it’s built off of trust nyanyways

74. What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?There’s definitely some but I sure can’t think of them right now

76. In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?Mutual trust, the ability to have fun with one another, shared interests and views, established boundaries

81. What would you want to be written on your tombstone?Something really witty and/or confusing so when people see it in the graveyard they’re just like,,, what the fuck was wrong with her

82. What is your favorite word?I don’t know I need time to prepare for these questions smh

83. Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart. A,,,,,,,, heart

84. What is a saying you say a lot?Oh god I have a lot of terrible annoying things I say a lot like rip, diddly darn, golly gee gosh, big mood, I’d let (her/him/you/them) step on me ((I say that all the time whenever I really like someone or someone says something nice to me lmao)) etc.

85. What’s the last song you listened to?Some Queen song I don’t remember that was playing

86. What’s your favorite color/colors?Black and pastel pink

87. What’s your current desktop picture?Well My computer has the Aperture Laboratories™ symbol from portal, my phone lock screen is my cat with a flower crown I photoshopped on him because,,, i love cats so much,,,, and my home screen is Bubblegum and Marceline from adventure time kissing ((even though I haven’t watched the show in years))

89. What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?There’s probably a ton but my least favorite that always comes up during truth or dare and stuff is "who do you have a crush on?” bc I can’t say that without outing myself bc spoiler alert: she’s a girl

99. If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?“HOLY SHIT THE WHOLE WORLD IS LISTENING TO ME RIGHT NOW I CANT FUCK THIS UP”

And we DID IT! Questions=Answered what a trip ((also something I say too much)) there’s probably hella spelling errors and shit but there’s no way I’m double checking this lmaothanks for asking my dude!!

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