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lumilasi · 3 years

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I haven't read Reanimate, but I'm curious as to why you grew to hate the original take on it so much, to the point you chose to revamp it? What things did you change then? Most authors I know wouldn't necessarily bother doing such a big rewrite(?) So I'm also curious why you chose to go ahead anyway. I hope my questions aren't bothersome or anything, I'm just curious like said! Keep up the good work!

Ah, I guess it might be a bit unusual for somebody to re-write parts of a fic so much while not completely starting from scratch? Especially fic that is already some years old. (or maybe it does happen commonly, IDK honestly haha)

Well, the main reason why I chose to revamp the second half of the fic instead of maybe rewriting the whole thing, was because the first half was totally fine for me. It was just the league parts I disliked, and the same time I still really loved Reanimate's story as a whole, hence I ended up doing a partial revamp instead of full rewrite. (also I guess I had a lot of time in my hands at the time heh)

(Also that fic was my first ever on the fandom meaning it's nostalgic, and served as an origin story for my favorite bnha oc's, so I wanted to make sure I was happy with it)

But yeah, to go more into detail about why I disliked the league portrayal, as well as what I did with my character in the story (this is gonna be a long explanation so please bear with me lmao) ;

Tomura's portayal felt too much like being stuck in his first impression, when timing vise he should already have matured quite a bit

His interactions with the league, albeit kinda funny, also felt too OOC at this point. He was acting too childish for what I wanted/the point in time the fic takes place at

Basically I felt he was too much of a manchild when at this point in time he's already matured quite a bit in canon (and some more in the fic au given it's timed some years AFTER canonical timeline)

In Kain's case, I kinda got too stuck on his source of inspiration (a horror game villain) and made him too one-dimensional and creepy from what I really wanted to do. He's very stoic and cold yes, but not THAT level of psychotic.

I basically felt Kain needed more nuance and humanity, because including an oc in a fic was ALREADY kind of tricky, so I wanted to make absolutely sure I actually liked what I wrote with them, and that it's of good enough quality to not feel too jarring and out-of-place among the canonical characters. (of course how well I managed to do that is up to the reader)

Kain's original take didn't really work for how I wanted it to affect the civilian Tenko. He was too, well, monstrous/felt nonhuman even as a kid for what I really needed. I needed him to be somebody Tenko could kinda sympathize with/someone who could sympathize with Tenko. My original take kinda failed miserably at that OTL

To go back to Shigaraki, he was also being too harsh/mean to his friends. Basically everything about his portrayal lowkey sucked for me lmao

As for more detail about the changes...well there's too much to describe, but for Tomura and others the biggest change was with their interactions; Tomura is still jumpy and snarky, but less so. Also while his friends do goof around and tease him like in the original, they turn serious as soon as he leaves, discussing and mulling over why he's acting so strange. Tomura also has picked up on the fact he feels "off" in some way, and wonders why he's acting so freaked out all the time/seems to struggle to think straight. (the reason for this is part of the revised plot)

There are two significantly changed scenes in mind though that I could mention, as they have a big impact on the narrative in a way;

First one is the flashback Tenko has about his time kidnapped by Kain's dad. The moment where Kain ends up killing bunch of people working (unwillingly) for his father. In original version Kain kills them on purpose, because their terrified/traumatized thoughts were causing him mental strain. While this latter is still the case, in the new take on the scene Kain does it accidentally, as he loses control of his quirk. This change was highly important IMO, because it shows better why Tenko might've sympathized with him, and tried to convince Kain to come with him and All Might later when Tenko was being rescued. It also better establishes that Kain's not some inhuman evil/creepy horror villain, but more typical origin story for a BNHA villain. Basically what I originally wanted out of his character, but failed to do lmao

Second one is at the end, when the league are taking their leave. This deals more with the foreshadowing for Reclaimed, but basically in the original Tenko gives bad Dabs something to use potentially to take Kain down if he plots something. Given I completely changed my mind about his potential role in the follow-up story later, the new version of the scene has Tenko telling bad Dabs to consider if AFO really has his student's wellbeing in mind. (this will be relevant later in reclaimed as one of the things pushing Dabi to question Tomura about this, and eventually having an effect on Tomura as well, further helping him break free from AFO's mental influence)

Sooo...yeah. I know this is a long-winded explanation, but I couldn't really explain this in simpler terms as the reasoning was quite complicated in a way? I just felt like it could be better with just some minor tweaks, instead of needing to rewrite it completely, and it bothered me too much to not do anything about it lmao. I hope this did satisfy your curiosity about this whole deal and didn't confuse you too much!

(Side note: I probably won't bother doing anything like this with any other fic of mine ever again, the closest I could consider is Soul Duality, but the issue with that is I can't pinpoint exactly what my issue with it is. It just feels like something that has potential and good parts, but ended up kind of messy somehow.)

#sorry this is so long #but like said this was difficult to summarize shortly #answered anon #reanimate verse #my fic au #fic musings #tenko shimura #shiragaki tomura #bnha league of villains #my bnha oc #kain akashiro

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medu-nefer · 5 years

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So, I’ve just watched the last episode of the obviously non-existent Season 8. Maybe it’s because I’ve watched all the other episodes on 14th and 15th and thus I don’t remember them 100%, but the last one felt super shallow. All irony and idiocy aside (”Allura always said we’re stronger together. Soo, that’s why we thought it was a good idea for Voltron and Atlas to split up earlier. Yeah. Makes sense, right?”; also, Honerva regaining sanity, just like that, ‘cause why not. I’m not gonna dwell on that because I think it might pop my cranial veins or something.), I know the show’s targeted audience is kids and all that jazz. The literature I read is realistic, even dark, and involves lots and lots of death (in one series, 12 out of 14 main characters died, and one of them twice; my all-time favourite character lost his pregnant lover just a couple of minutes after she told him she was expecting, pretty much all of his friends had been killed, and then, at the very end, he killed himself in order to guard his very few surviving people from the afterlife’s antechamber, far from all the other dead, for eternity), so I’m actually okay with people dying, but I get that Allura’s death may be traumatising to some of the kids.

But, unlike almost everybody else, I don’t think it was unnecessarry or ridiculous or whatever. Like, only one reality was left. It wasn’t said it was our Paladins’ reality, so it could have been a really, really bad one. We don’t know what effect on that one reality the entire ordeal with everything else being suddenly destroyed would have. So yeah, Allura died to save countless lives. And she was with her beloved father. I don’t think it was pushed. It should have been more developed but it wasn’t the worst either.

It’s up to fanfic and fanart creators to bring her back, ‘cause she should get the chance to live a happy life too, I’m not saying she doesn’t deserve that. But she really didn’t have a choice. Heck, any of the Paladins would probably do the same if it was about them.

I’m also fine with Lance being a farmer. We know he knew how to milk Kaltenecker so it does make some sense. We also know he freaking loves his family so it’s even better that he’s surrounded by them.

I’m overjoyed that we got some more Slav. I’m sorry, but I loved him. I’m also a little happy that we got some Blade of Marmora (no more dead Blades!). Their portayal totally sucked and they suddenly turned into a bunch of boring, almost useless bystanders, despite being awesome fighters and spies with unmatched devotion and sense of purpose. I really don’t know what happened there. Have I missed a season or something?

I’d prefer season 8 never coming out, ‘cause in general, it was terrible. It was shallow and empty, and I felt like it mocked us. “You like Sheith? Fuck You, Next. You like Allurance? There you go, and now Fuck You, Next.” and so on. The characters in general were of cardboard-quality, there were way too many threads to do them all well, and the show lost so much of its earlier touch. Maybe I’m the only one to think that but Voltron (as in the robot itself) was way too much and I didn’t like it at all. Any sort of catastrophe? Here you go, good thing Voltron’s equipped just for that! You need lasers coming out of Voltron’s eyes? Tadah! The Blue Lion (not even the fastest one, mind you) is able to cross the Solar System in a couple of seconds? Nope, we need more speed! You need big-ass freaking engine or whatever? Of course Alfor had planned it all in advance, along with the creation of the Atlas, and everything...

Season 7 wasn’t too good either, it’d lost a lot of the, Voltron Feel, if you know what I mean, but it was still much better than this disaster. Even the characters still felt somewhat like themselves. Not here though. Slav can’t fix everything on his own, unfortunately.

#voltron #vld #vld s8 #vld spoilers #allura #lance #rambling #slav #blade of marmora #my thoughts #i hardly have anybody to talk to about this shit so i came here #it's okay if you think otherwise :)#even if you liked the season #*cough*idkifit'sposiblebutwhatever*cough*#soo yeah #now onto writing fics!#restoring planets. restoring dead maybe????

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