#I mean we’re technically doing that

[lapelle-du-bubblegum-vide]

I love how fast her mood changes, lmao.

#dracula daily #lucy westenra #it’s like messaging with a friend #I mean we’re technically doing that #anyways #I love her #I feel like I’m at a sleepover #and my bestie is gossiping to me #pls bestie continue <3 #calls from the void

[mycological-mariner]

And a hint of this character’s trauma, and a pinch of this character’s inferiority complex, and a touch - a light touch - of homoeroticism

#I’m reading back through what I’ve written today #I didn’t MEAN for these two to have some lil gay thing going on but now we’re here I guess #but sometimes begging for someone to help kill you can sound gay #oh now I feel only slightly bad about making these people suffer #it’s gonna get so much worse than this #cannot wait for a certain character to have her full on page intro #I love her sm #she’s technically already showed up like twice #I do I love her #writing today bc if I keep drawing wood grain I’m gonna cry

[mobbothetrue]

houghrgrhrgghrgh the agonies <- wants to make money

#mobbtalks #I mean technically I HAVE money just :( not very much #I wanna buy nice shtuff for my friends #I mean the answer is pretty simple: get a job but #I am disabled I can’t stand for extended periods of time #which is like. every entry level job ever #+ my mom wants me to just focus on uni which like. fair. but. money #there is a uni newsletter I could submit writing to which would pay me if they published it but #I can’t. tell what they want written. #‘think humour pop culture crazy sh*t and fun […] it’ll be a spicy one and we’re begging for the heat’ WHAT DOES THAT MEAN #WHAT DO YOU WANT #also the deadline is literally in 2 days so I don’t think I’m making it

[designernishiki]

I wanna flesh out a yakuza oc but every time I think about it I end up thinking about an oc of mine who already Exists who’s not a yakuza oc. but is, in fact, an oc who is a yakuza. and that fact is genuinely completely unrelated

#he existed WAY before I started playing yakuza or knew really anything about it #actually he contributes to why I got into yakuza to begin with. cause when my friend first showed me y0 I was like ough… my character #grew up in this exact environment and culture and structure and etc (son of a patriarch) #so it was legitimately a good reference for his background and stuff #I kinda wanna talk about him/his background more on here but. like i said he’s. not technically a yakuza oc #and he can’t be because he. canonically. has PLAYED yakuza. like the games EXIST cause it’s just a normal real world type universe and #I won’t get into all this much but he ends up in the states on the dl for Reasons. accidentally ends up with a son when he’s 22 (son’s #mother being significantly younger but again we’re not gonna get into THAT mess). ends up seeing the first game being sold somewhere in nyc #and is unable to restrain his curiosity about it (as an Actual Yakuza) so he ends up getting his son a ps2 for his birthday partly just #as an excuse to buy and play yakuza 1 because he NEEDS to know what’s in it #something something it ends up being a weird bonding thing with his son who’s definitely too young to be watching this game being played #(he was born the same year as haruka so he’d be like. 8-9. also already a concerningly violent child with many issues but. anyway) #something something he ends up disappearing out of the blue from the states when his son is 12 but the pastime still sticks for said son #from then on. so uh. yeah weirdly significant that these games Exist in this story/universe bdsjhfdfjnd #idk why I’m avoiding saying his name. his name’s asura. he’s a year or two older than daigo (born 1974) and his family’s supposed to be a #pretty powerful one in the tokyo area and he was supposed to be a nepo baby sorta like daigo except he’s not Technically an only child- he #has a much younger sister. but obviously she wasn’t gonna be considered for taking over their father’s seat nor would she want to #she wants absolutely nothing to do with any of it and changes her last name pretty soon after moving to the US to get away from them #no beef with her brother or anything she was just treated absolutely horribly and disgustingly by older members of their family growing up #ANYWAY I should stop talking bdshshcbsnnf I didn’t mean to infodump all this the lore is just. deep with these guys #Asura wasn’t even made to be a particularly prominent character or anything it’s his SON who’s a Bonafide Main Character and asura’s ties in #the story are mostly related to Him. (though his sister is also a pretty prominent character so there’s connection there too) #rambling #also one more note. yes. the timing and location of where asura would’ve first bought yakuza 1 means that it would most likely be the #infamous original english dub version. which is hilarious to think about #especially because his son’s mom (I keep calling her that because they weren’t really in a Relationship they just co-parented and lived #together a little less than half the time. it’s complicated) Did Not Approve of a game that Adult around their kid. so she would not be fond #of walking in the room and hearing TEN YEARS IN THE JOINT MADE YOU A FUCKING PUSSY #luckily she was so young and considered her son a lost cause and a burden as it is so. she complained but didn’t really do anything about #it. I mean shit she was like. only around 24-25 I think. but yeah

[lovely-hikari-cosplay]

Replaying SMT V because I couldn’t get the idea of an Ailment build being viable (if not ideal) out of my head and I was able to beat the funny lvl 99 Abscess first try???

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Note: This is on Normal difficulty but STILL

#technically this NG+ #But because I was changing my build I couldn’t reincarnate #meaning no high level essences nor my stocks of balms and such #I’m focusing on a Mag/Luck Ailment build but I see a Phys/Ailment as viable too with skills like Blight and Dark Sword #Profaned Land is the GOAT of this build btw #Even aside from being Dark ie Insta-Death with high enough Luck #the Poison Proc + Poison Adept + A Phys Demon with Venom Chaser means enemies get WASHED a lot of the time #early game was ROUGH but now I feel surprisingly comfortable #like I was SO shocked with how smooth the lvl 99 Abscess went like #When I did a straight up Magic build last time I had to get up to 70+ to do it #Even with Phys/Almighty I needed to be that high AND have Murakumo #this build is just kinda juice I guess #smt V #Shin Megami Tensei V #nahobino #ailment build #Makajama is so clutch with high luck it almost always hits #and that’s the motto of this build #it just has to hit once and we’re in #this abscess btw sewed the seeds of Ailment build being viable with the Poisma from the slime doing up to like 200-300 damage with lvl diff #this is also all in an effort to make Chaotic Will a real danger if I can beat Demifiend that is #which the strat is to seal him as much as possible and my Makajama has been hittin a lot sooooo #shin megami tensei

[jrwiyuri]

Nobody can see into my brain or private messages rn but I just made some really awesome points about genloss & other medias about the strange idea of how “viewers are really the ones who made this happen”

#stupid snake talk #^ it’s a idea that rubs me the wrong way a bit #like ok sure technically ur not wrong but also ur not looking at the full picture #especially 4 smth like genloss where the point was not that we’re watching fucked up stuff for fun #but that we are trying to help Ranboo escape this place #idk idk I’m not saying that it’s wrong #I think it’s a good narrative to place #but also personally my analysis kind of yknow #it’s more about the general atmosphere of exploiting both fans AND creators #cause that’s what the corporation was doing!! that’s what snowfalls whole plan w/ this was >_< #I cant explain my thoughts very well but yknow yeah #like metawise? good keep up the commentary on the damages popularity has on ccs! #but in the universe of genloss? welll… that’s a bit far <_< #yeah actually that’s exactly why my opinion on that narrative flip flops #because if u mean if as genloss is a COMMENTARY on how viewers change a person #then YES UR SO RIGHT!! #but if you mean IN THE SHOW the viewers are in some part to blame #idk!! I don’t see it that way;

[lilgynt]

i hate the other departments at my company so bad we’re a security company ur answer to has this merchant been verified CANNOT be probably at some point 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#personal #if you said no technically ur still not doing ur job but u know what *i* give? less of a shit #cause no is simple okay i’ll just reverify their info which whatever ur supposed to do that #first thing in a call and well before transferring #but it’s not the biggest deal #you should also know if there is an error and where it’s coming from IF there is one. like how do you know to call me. #but again doable i’ll just tell you to go back and get the answer #but hey did you do this thing we need to do every single call even between transfers bc we’re a security comapany #and there have been several hacks around the area by VERY simple means and our company has been sending us non stop articles on hey! don’t #let us get hacked by being stupid! #and your answer is probably at some point we confirmed this is a guy we can talk about this system with and give him private information or #controls. HELLO? he’s not even a brain dead customer service rep he’s SPECIALITY. #it’s just very annoying how one every department dumps their shit or shit they’re not sure about onto us #and two they’re in no way held to the same standards and do shit on the reg that would get anyone in my department canned

[crabs-but-better]

oh god oh fucj

#category 2 yearning event #i have our group photo hanging up and i just looked at it and remembered and how she asked me out and said she’d text me to #plan a time but she hasn’t yet and we don’t really talk so do i text her out of nowhere and follow up or do i just leave it at that #and oh god school is starting again and i’m gonna see her eeeeek #and also idek if it was romantic i mean it had to be right? she asked me to go to chicago with her that is surely a date #but i had told her i was gay which is technically true but i am occasionally attracted to people other than men so like it’s complicated bu #how would she know that? and also she asked me to go to a filipino place which is like a Thing bc we’re the only other filipino people we #know besides our family so it could be that she just wants me to try that restaurant with her but still. all the way in chicago? #aurggghhhh #it’s okay everything’s fine haha

[mrs-kelly]

Man I love the sentiment behind getting married but some f/o’s just are not the marriage type and like. I want to move a step forward. Without getting married. You get me?

#I mean Jack and I had a commitment ceremony but #we’re BASICALLY married tho ahdkfl I just didn’t wanna have a ‘wedding’ #a wedding between Jack and I didn’t make sense #but when I say ‘some f/o’s’ I’m particularly talking about James ok ahdkfl #I don’t wanna do anything like that right now but I know I will #so I’m trying to brainstorm now and like #maybe I can find some other ceremonies or #just come up with a special moment for us to share you know #just. something that brings us together and makes it clear to the both of us that neither of us is going anywhere #cuz I mean technically at this moment James and I aren’t even using labels for our relationship #like he’s not my ‘boyfriend’ #but I don’t know that we’ll ever use labels like that? #or maybe we’ll come up with something else? #idk all I know is James is really important to me #and he’s bound to become even more important as time goes on #and I just wanna be able to make a big deal of it you know #ren speaks #im gushing out here folks #lost in your eyes

[sundropglass]

What’s something nice you’ve done for your inner child/children lately? 🥰🧸💕

Feel free to comment or rebloggie or whatever 💛

#working with parts #did posting on not main #i mean technically everyone has an inner child so those answers r valid too 💛 #the easiest way i do is giving them choices on things that otherwise dont have too much weight to them #like we’re thinking of what movie to watch later tonight and what ocs to doodle #im trying to engage the lils tonight bc theyve had it rough #sometimes seeing others do the same takes away a lot of the shame

[myname-isnia]

The day I found out people actually find writing and drawing and generally creating art enjoyable is the day my perception of the world broke

#it was just over a year ago when I was doing group art classes #we were painting a vase and flowers. y’know. as you do in art class #and the teacher stopped what I was doing and said I was being too technical #I was trying way too hard to get it exactly right #we’re not aiming for 100% realism. academical paintings are built on exaggerating a few things and playing with colours #I was supposed to let go and enjoy myself and have fun doing it #it was supposed to be relaxing #(literally quoting here) #and I sat there like.. borderline hysterical #WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT’S SUPPOSED TO BE RELAXING #WHAT DO YOU MEAN Y’ALL DON’T THROW FITS OVER DRAWINGS NOT BEING PERFECT #AND LOSE YOURSELF IN JEALOSY BC THE PRETTY GIRL YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON THAT SITS NEXT TO YOU IS SO MUCH BETTER AT ART THAN YOU #AND YOUR MOM WON’T STOP COMPARING YOU TO HER BC HER MOM DOES NOTHING BUT BRAG ABOUT HOW GOOD SHE IS #I’M SUPPOSED TO ENJOY IT????? #it’s been over a year and it hasn’t gotten easier #I stopped being openly upset in class bc like I said I liked a girl there and didn’t want her to think I was pathetic #but good god did I feel pathetic #and it’s the same with writing #I don’t get jealous over it bc I don’t watch people not struggle with it in real life like in art class #but yeah… when I started seeing those writer positivity posts like #‘it doesn’t matter if it’s self indulgent or cringe or bad. what matters is that you enjoyed writing it’ #and that’s the thing #I have never. in my life. enjoyed writing something #which sounds insane but it’s true. writing is frustrating and anger inducing and most of the time I hate it #both the process and the end result #I realised that I create for selfish reasons. I write and draw because I like reading comments and reblog tags. not because I enjoy it #and it’s not even worth it bc I barely get any feedback on my work anyway. I’m into way too niche things for that #it’s why I can never get any writing done. I say I’m tired or busy or burnt out or have writers block. all lies. every single one #I just can’t force myself to do things I hate. but I keep lying to myself that I like them bc that’s what I based my personality around #maybe I should just quit instead of whining about it all the time like a fucking toddler. wouldn’t be that big of a loss

[doyouknowhoyouare]

at work wasting company time 🤓

#is it reallt wasting time tho if there’s nothing to do #i mean technically i could be doing things but those things i need to do require time and we’re out of here in like 40 mins so…

[the-irrelevant-trumpeter]

bullshitting my way through my english exam tomorrow ✌️

#technically today #but i don’t think of it as today until i go to sleep and then wake up again #(or if i pull an all nighter it’s when the sun comes up) #anyway i have some stuff to go off #and in the morning i just have to memorise my quotes #ugh i hate the module we’re doing atm SO MUCH it’s so bullshit #we’re doing textual conversations which means we look at a classic work and an adaptation of it #and our classic is richard iii. which is actually interesting! #we haven’t done too much shakespeare but i generally enjoy it when we do #but the adaptation text we’re doing is looking for richard #and it’s literally the worst text i’ve ever had to study in english #it’s sooo bullshit and it’s super boring and no one has any clue what’s going on #and now i have a vendetta against al pacino #i hate it with my entire being

[inkykeiji]

i have the cutest, gnarliest bruise on my bum and i so desperately wish i could show u guys :(

#tw clari overshares #i mean technically i could lol #it’s so 😣😣😣 but it’s also so prettyyyyyyy #these are the types of bruises i am 100% sure touya (especially touya-nii) would give #my boyfriend bit me #in case you were wondering #we both agreed it’s the worst bruise he’s ever given me #but we’re kind of obsessed with it #anyway hey hi hello i hope ur doing well!

[annoyinglibra]

Noon on a Monday is a great time for a nap yeah?

#I’m literally the unemployed friend on a Tuesday except in technically employed #except I’m part time (every day but hours are as needed) #and we’re super slow so I’m only working like two hours a day #so I’m making like no money LOL #I mean I prefer it rn because I’m unpacking so much mentally but I gotta say it’s bizarre to have such little time #I mean a few days this month I’ve worked like. half an hour. it’s insane #I still wake up for it every morning though and still technically have to get fully ready or whatever #but it just feels so pointless to wake up in the morning when there’s a chance that I have half an hour of work to do #but even if I only work two hours those two hours could def be things that would be too much for my manager to take on #so I’m still like. needed even if it’s for short periods of time. #but because of it I literally just larp as unemployed 99% of the time

[lilyaceofdiamonds]

The urge to flee somewhere no one knows you and start all over again

#my ramblings #my walls have been vibrating with They Know Too Much lately #people have been telling others things about me that technically aren’t secret #but it sets my teeth on edge trying not to growl that it’s none of their business #(admittedly a boundary i never had growing up and still don’t really know how to use) #and answering questions with ‘i’m fine’ only to get ‘i doubt that’ it’s my lie to tell i don’t owe you the truth #i know we’re friends i guess but i get to decide how much i tell about my life #especially when telling people things has had … less than great results #‘i’m touch avoidant but the hugs/etc you’ve been doing are fine’ does not mean poke my shoulder repeatedly to try and get a reaction #‘if you throw that (food) towards me i will flinch’ does not mean test that by pelting me with little plastic poker chips #saying something normal about my pain level and getting ‘poor little uwu’ and a fucking hug as if i’m not a adult human being #just everyone stop leave me alone let me breathe without calling me out on my coping mechanisms #i mean i’m unsurprised by this bc 30+ years of experience has never resulted in anything different #but it’s been too much in too concentrated of a dose the last few weeks and i’m shaking apart