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wannabecatwriter · 10 months

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When your music tastes take you to a band you've heard of before but haven't really listened to and you check them out and yes, they're great, but it was also the worst thing you could've done for your own peace of mind because now you may be getting a dumbass celebrity crush.

#non-sims #music #anyways #I'm talking about Amaranthe #specifically Nils #almost feels illegal for a man to both look and sound this good #like wtf?#he's now living in my head rent free #it's been years since a singer intrigued me like this #and I was very ok with this #I like my peace of mind very much #but yeah...#the guy is king of thirst traps

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rachedurst · 5 months

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anyways i love you people that are both gay and straight, in whatever way that presents. being nonbinary often can mean a complicated relationship to sexuality and how one perceives it within the societal restrictions of homo and heterosexual, and i think bridging those definitions and having "contradictory" labels like lesboy or whatever is really cool. i support and stan he/him lesbians or butch lesbians or she/her gay men or femme gays or she/he pronoun users and whatever else, be it cis or trans or both. if you feel like youre both cis and trans that also rocks. dont let people force you back into a binary within the queer community, stay strong!

#queer #nonbinary #genderqueer #cis / trans as opposites is a false dichotomy and only harms nonbinary people.#same with straight/gay. these things can and will overlap if one for example feels like both a man and a woman #and of course beyond self identification alone #the way society treats you will also influence that #anyways op is a binary trans man. im very much a hundert precent a man and dont want people blurring the lines there. but that doesnt apply #for everyone! what makes me hapyp will be misery for someone else. so the reverse applies too.#peace and love on planet earth #fuck up with that gender everyone #gender nonconforming #bigender #im not vaguing the person i responded to btw im just gonna state my support again while its on my mind #multigender

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alackofghosts · 2 months

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lost & found

#warrior of light #Ardbert #fanart #speedpaint #i draw sometimes #Final Fantasy XIV #i wasn't gonna do this BUT the chronology demons are very persistent #but also like. for my general peace of mind. felt bad about leaving this train of thought on a downer note #because ultimately to me it's so much more about the love and hope. the sprinkle of angst is just a flavour enhancer yknow #so a little happy ending. as a treat.

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iraprince · 2 months

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Hiii, i love your stuff and kinda from a distance really look up at you for, in my perception, being able to express yourself without giving a fuck. Thats sick dude, Im so so afraid, of absolutely everything, its nice to think like i might grow into someone less apologetic of my existence. Nice to see people just being yknow

hey, thank you, this is really really nice. the secret that is probably not a secret is that i am also deeply afraid a lot of the time lmao -- but less than i used to be, and in ways that feel less stifling and self-suffocating, if that makes sense.

like, it used to be "i'm scared that if i express myself the way i want to, everyone will find me obnoxious, so let's just sand those edges down to be safe" -- now my fears are more like "now that i'm expressing myself in a way that feels natural and real, i'm afraid that it's all stupid/vapid/not worthwhile or meaningful" (<- specifically abt my art) or "i'm happy that i talk and act the way i want to now, but what if it makes me impossible to befriend," etc etc etc. which still feels bad and puts me in a funk a lot of the time but at least it's a fear that comes After/in reaction to doing stuff, rather than a fear that STOPS me from doing stuff, you know? like, it's evolved into a kind of fear that's less in my way.

anyway. i believe you'll experience something like this, because wanting to grow is the first step of growing. the fact that u hope or wish for something different means you're already on your way. to fewer fucks!! or at least distributing the fucks u give in a way that serves u better

#stuff like accepting that i'm reserved and i'm not very accessible via messages.#or that my online tone isn't very bubbly and it's weird and uncomfortable to force it.#i stop letting fears about that shape my behavior ('i'll look mean or snotty so let's force markers of Friendliness to avoid that!!') -#- and instead act the way i want to and then trade it in for new fears that come After the action.#also a good reminder to give urself is that if ur fear is abt how other ppl perceive u (as 90% of mine is personally)#u really... can't actually control that. and being very very anxious abt it all the time is usually ur brain throwing a tantrum abt not--#--having that control. bc it is understandably very scary that u don't have that control #as much as it sucks + is terrifying the truth is the only thing u can do is ask urself 'am i behaving in a way that i'm proud of'#'am i behaving in a way that's in alignment w my values + what i think is important'#bc if the answer to that is yes and somebody hates u or is deeply offended by ur existence anyway. well. literally not ur problem #but obv being at peace w that is way way easier said than done + requires tons of practice and will take. probably. years. which is fine #i am stuck with myself. i can either contort myself forever trying to be someone everyone will like and find totally nonthreatening and-#inoffensive and in the process exhaust myself totally and never feel safe or natural myself. OR #i can say okay. so i am a kind of prickly guy with stern and drab speech patterns and close to no social energy. and i think i can still be #-sexy and fun this way. and it is up to other ppl to figure out if they can agree w me on that #ANYWAY enough rambling for now. just another one of those things i think abt a lot so i have a lot of ready-made sentences abt it in mind

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flufflecat · 8 months

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moodboard for when you feel normal

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freakinator · 3 days

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its been 7 hours in the poll so far and i saw the who ppl want to win coming but i wasnt expecting the who they think will win ngl, like i was expecting it to be a little more even but nope lol

#mine.txt #lifesteal spoilers #< jic #wanted to keep my opinion to myself until the poll ended to prevent influence or whatever but realized that was stupid so here it is #personally i want zam to win but i think theyll come to a stalemate #i want zam to win causeas cute as it would be to give zam a redemption arc and esp by minute of all ppl i just dont like that idea very muc #i want his redemption arc if he ever decides to have one to be long and gruelling and full of setbacks and last for seasons #i want him to keep failing and building himself back up and all over again through the influence of multiple ppl and experiences #i dont want it to start and end all cause of one guy #and with ppl as stubborn as those two it would not surprise me if they reached a stalemate #esp since they seem to have completely incongruent mindsets regarding the nature of lifesteal #identical yet opposites those two #zam may think hes more determined than minute but i dont think thats true i think theyre a lil more even #like not to bring up kings but they both went looking for nether fortresses for hours in the first session #they both kept farming and grinding even when the odds are stacked against them #even when they lose hope they keep going anyway for that tiny sliver of a chance that Something happens #like theres a reason minute looked up to him in s3 and i think its cause he saw a lil bit of himself in zam #or at least what he could be if he set his mind to it #but honestly i dont really care who wins or loses that much #all i ask is that the season ends in an interesting way regardless of if its in peace or chaos #characterwise; plotwise; possibly even metawise #just give me something to chew on and ill be happy

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bumblingbabooshka · 10 months

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-Remembers how T’Pring looked as she watched Spock & Chapel vanish into the bathroom together after seeing them kiss on the bridge (which she knew was for a mission and didn’t hold against them but perhaps she could sense something there since they do have feelings for one another), maybe attempting to calm herself and her suspicions as she’s left alone again (and later finds she’s been left out entirely this whole time) and how she doesn’t know that Spock almost told Chapel he loved her then and there, with T’Pring in the other room waiting, and how Amanda and Sevet both think she could have more confidence in herself and how T’Pring thought that she and Spock were in this together (her holding his hand, subtly letting him know to pour slower so the tea flowers would bloom correctly, a whispered ‘well done’, the ritual is over mother) and how mere hours after she expresses to Spock how she feels: Like he doesn’t trust her, like he doesn’t care to include her in his life, how she’s trying her best to show him that she will accept him wholly, how she wants to be his partner instead of an adversary or an obstacle, after all this he’s found Chapel within the hour and is kissing her.-

#I've seen people say 'it's not technically cheating because-' and once you've hit 'technically' in MY opinion it's pretty much cheating #'taking a break' isn't synonymous with being able to kiss/have sex with other people - that's something that needs to be discussed #in my opinion...BUT ALSO. Even STILL. Not even a goddamn DAY went by.#T'PRING!!!!!! SAVE MY GIRL T'PRING!!!#Can you imagine hearing your fiancee who you ostensibly like tell you (very vulnerably - especially for a Vulcan: I didn't mind this bc I #personally assume that Vulcan partners WOULD discuss and talk through feelings though probably with a different goal than humans)#that she feels hurt that you seem to not want to include her in your life and that she feels you should take a break #and then IMMEDIATELY going to find the girl you have a crush on to tell her that you and your fiancee are taking a break and that you feel #bad about it and then IMMEDIATELY after that you're KISSING her??????#didn't feel TOO bad about it then huh!#Anyway I'm not earnestly like incensed I'm tv angry on T'Pring's behalf - love the drama bc I'm experiencing SNW from a very particular POV #I will only be angry if they make T'Pring into the bad guy somehow (like if the NARRATIVE says this is correct)#also off topic but I personally think star trek has had enough 'Vulcan culture is bad and restrictive' episodes/talking points - Enough.#Find some joy and peace through connection to an alien culture PLEASE.#I get it humans are great humans are so much freer and happier than Vulcans humans rule - Enough.#-turns to camera with a smile- anywaaaay I watched the episode once and I couldn't rewatch it for this post so <3 #if any of this is wrong just chalk it up to bad memory <3 #snw spoilers #idk how long an ep has to be out for that to apply #also just so everyone knows - I /do/ think it's stupid that Spock forgets how to act Vulcan when he turns fully human #but I also just expected it since star trek writers LOVE bioessentialism #I have NO doubt that if Spock turned Klingon he'd suddenly start talking about honor and being rowdy despite those things being #learned and cultural v_v #I SAY ALL THIS...and I DID like the episode! I'm complicated <3 #<- just likes episodes with fun hijinks as their thesis and also T'Pring is there

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soomanymoths · 5 months

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CrinklyTinfoil bs

Just a collection of receipts since krys decided to go ahead and spew such backwards bs im no longer willing to keep this to myself - i only did in the first place because crinkles spouse (nightjarteeth) asked me to keep it tucked away for a while (Night is aware of the events and supports me in the situation last i checked). Crinkle really hates the idea of their behavior backfiring & someone they hurt speaking about the experience. They will do anything to discredit people, doesnt matter if they caused the sitch in the 1st place. Its all about appearances, distorting events and grasping at straws for them. If you're their reader and you choose to believe them - remember they were comfortable pulling wool over the eyes of their spouse and someone they called a "dear friend". Ask yourself why anyone else would be exempt from this. I might update this when i have more time on my hands.

#crinklytinfoil #among us #not posting from main but hey hi i am nika / nikadilly #if you like their writing etc thats great but as someone who knew them for a few years now i feel p sure i can say #Crinkle is not a trustworthy person #i trusted them and it it only got me hurt #how they present themself is nothing but a facade and when you get close enough the cracks start to show #FYI a medical professional stated they are gaslighting people so that's that #if u want to see what i vented the tag on my personal is iykyk im not exactly interested in hiding it lol #my venting is v much true to their behavior #massive copium on these guys' side all around #unlike them i have no reason to bend anything to suit some shaky narrative / if im being a d/ck im being one for a very good reason #im not doing this for notes or whatever its just for my peace of mind & if anyone is interested to know what happened #bcs they will never own up to hurting ppl in any way that counts / they have to play a kicked puppy in front anyone who will listen #nicadilly #cw: sa mentions

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princeslimey · 2 years

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thinking about how karkat and the fact that he’s basically what if the second coming of christ was just the angriest little teenage boy you’ve ever seen

#i think that is very funny and its one of the reasons i love him so much #the fact signless was basically troll jesus and preached for peace and karkat's acts like a rabid chihuahua half the time is soo funny to me #but despite all the angry stuff on the outside karkat is a very emotionally charged character and he is just sfgdfgs he's the best #karkat vantas #slimey talks #ok to reblog #i just woke up and this was the first thing in my mind before i have to go to work #homestuck #HS meta #kinda i guess

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eff-plays · 8 months

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ALSO TO BE CLEAR: I don't actually think you're like cringe or a bad person or have bad taste if you romance Astarion with elves. I don't actually care, because it's a video game and I, like, have homework. It's all just hyperbole for the hahas. Yes I do genuinely find the dynamic less interesting, but that's because I don't generally play elves if there's more fucked up guys on offer, so I would just naturally have a harder time making it interesting. So if you can come up with an amazing story for your elf romancing Astarion, great! More power to you! I love you etc etc.

#to all my new followers: i am very loud and obnoxious about my opinions online for the hahas and for the expression of it #irl i'm actually chill and don't actually care that much because frankly it's none of my fucking business how you enjoy the game #blog stuff #bg3 #so basically if you saw my previous post asking to see tavs/durges and think that i wouldn't wanna see yours because they're an elf?#WRONG i would like to see them please!!#i am very real about blocking people that annoy me though but that's mainly because of my fucking #pathetic backstory as a drama queen from back in the dragon age days #it's for my own peace of mind so i don't get jebaited into cringe debates #and also i just like to curate my own online experience<3

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cosmik-homo · 2 months

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I wrote about this on discord a bit back but I think a big part of the whole doctor-master complication is that it's the type of argument and the master is the kind of person where they'd rather die than do something that might make it seem like conceding they're wrong, regardless what they actually think, and that's why "where I stand is where I fall. Stand with me" that almost works on Missy: She has made her move here, she killed him- made so he's dead when the other shoe drops- and he knows and acknowledges that and can offer her a way of coming near him and being on the same side without it being her side losing, saving face that she can join him in this. And the speech very much highlights how to the doctor it's never been about winning, always about harm to people and help to people, but I don't think the master is as affected by that as by the 'if you want to hold my hand now I can make it so it doesn't make you seem the fool for your past actions'.

#and thats how i think you get missy2 is that hes at a point where hes so exhausted with the role he stuck himself in w the master #he wants out but he would NEVER take the embarassment of changing his mind or his ways in public-#proving anyone else right all along? unthinkable- he instead concots some great last evil design #not sure whether its to gurantee some retirement from a position of dignity or to change his own timeline-#leaning second- but regardless its Very very much 'or die trying' (and have that peace)#and when 18 realizes she cant not just. her hearts are so squished by that. by seeing her friend treat himself like that #and if she foiled his plan before realizing this and now she needs him to step from the beink and not go down w his ship #and his tardis gets destroyed and. what is she gonna do. well obviously take him but what i mean is #when she takes him what do you expect her- to be all naggy and complicated about his morals?#ok maybe but shes gonna just let them both be messed up and trying to do better except when theyre not yknow #he can have little a murder as a treat. or. yknow. 'if youre gonna femme fatale please just do what my wife did and go behind my back'

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arklay · 1 year

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DIANA x ALBERT WESKER / template.

#mine.#pair: ewskers #oc: diana #click for better quality ♡#posting this before i start changing more things lmao but yes i went nuts and made my own psd from scratch... don't look at me #changed ages to birth years cause of how much time passes in the story!! and also gives cheeky fc for you hehe runs away #the checkboxes make me scream like he almost had a clean sweep it's so funny. and he could've had one more i'm not even joking. cause their #first kiss was technically both of them... like idk how to explain this but they were already standing close then diana moved even closer #and was tracing his jaw and such and they were just lingering while holding eye contact but he was the one who actually closed the distance #so i mean... yeah. she was just about to and he beat her to it!! but diana made the move to get them into that position in the first place #is what i mean. i just couldn't give him more it was already too hilarious lmao #can't tell if i like the lil icons but i can't doodle so peace and love on planet earth but yes i'm happy with how this came out hehe #clueless levels are cause they are clowns <3 i have a lot of thoughts about all that but yes they both take hints in some aspects but i #think they both have trouble telling if they are genuine or not or if they are misreading the situation or whether something is romantic or #not (unless ofc it's over the top and ridiculous. ahem. excella. cough. explodes her with my mind) but yeah hit him with the tism so he's #learnt how to read people very well as he's gotten older but i think when it comes to actual just genuine like wanting to get to know #someone and not just someone wanting to get in his pants he seconds guesses it a lot. and diana's all stems from being rattled by her past #experiences oughguhh and i mean her not actually having experienced proper feelings for someone until him lmao but she's got trust issues #also there were so many tropes i could use (thank you to bestie elliot for helping me finds names of things) but i had to do i got you a #drawer specifically because that moment has such a special place in my heart!! like i need to finish the wip where i talk about that cause #it makes me so silly i'm not even joking #anyway omg i hope the mentions work because doing this on the legacy editor after copying the html for beta one because the image just #didn't want to work in the beta image for some reason rip

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thedreadvampy · 9 months

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Got a paramount+ trial subscription. Just finished watching all of Strange New Worlds (review: solid star trek shenanigans, pretty much all bangers with the exception of the Spock-is-human episode which just suuuuuucked and the Klingon war trauma episode about which I have let's say Philosophical Reservations in that it could have been more Space M*A*S*H. not as gay as I was promised, in fact I would say disappointingly heterosexual. adore uhura, hemmer and la'an. cannot believe they gorned my boy 😢)

Off sick all week with COVID can't really do anything except lie around and watch TV.

#red said #an addendum to the snw review is like #bearing in mind I'm a big time ds9 guy #i really like every episode of this i think it's fun and delightful. however there are certain philosophical undercurrents I'm #at best kind of iffy on. wrt militarism.#there's points where it feels sort of like the message of the show is that it's naive and harmful to seek peace #or reconciliation #and i think that if i hold it up to tng or ds9 or even tos on that front that's a philosophy that doesn't match up with what i like in trek #like both ds9 and tng are very much about commanders doing extrajudicial war crimes but there's something about the framing #i guess like. it feels To Me like when sisko does a war crimes it weighs very heavily on him #whereas idk. it feels like the message of all the time shenanigans in snw keep coming round to You Should Feel Bad For Not Doing War Crimes #and particularly the arc with Pike staring down his fate concluding with 'you shouldn't try to change this'#compared to like. the foundation of Star Trek being 'in between two unacceptable solutions you have to look for a third way'#it sits a bit wrong for me. like. maybe they're planning more on that but it feels like they've concluded that arc with #'guess i have to let people die to prevent a future where i try to make peace then fuck it up'#like the message of season 1 is You Can't Change Your Fate which is. a weirdly doomery one.#don't get me wrong I've really been enjoying snw i think it's probably the most flat out Good Star Trek since DS9 #buuuuuuuut. i have Reservations. as i always do.#also callout post for my pal saying this is the gayest star trek. there's no fucking gays here and the nonbinary character is a 1-ep villain #i mean ortega is for sure a dyke but not explicitly #2 seconds of Andrew Robinson and Alexander Siddig sharing the screen in DS9 is gayer than this whole season and a half of SNW #literally are ANY of this cast canon queer? feel like there's a couple of lines of throwaway bisexuality but be real #we had that in the 90s #it's not toppling DS9 for gay rep any time soon and DS9 was made in the era where you weren't ALLOWED to be gay on star trek #(unless you were evil or a worm)

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fluxweeed · 1 month

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yes I agree that you’re implicitly required to rec a fic you’re involved in which is why it HURTS WHEN PEOPLE DONT like oof. you said yes to work on it but then you didn’t like it that much hey. obviously I’d rather that than people rec something they don’t actually like, I’m not saying it should be disingenuous, it just hurts you know? ouch

nahhh i don't think ppl should feel obligated to do marketing for a fic they've already put time and energy into helping the writer with!

#anon it sounds like you've had a rough experience tho and that does suck i'm sorry ❤️#i mean it sounds a little bit like *i* was the one who beta'd ur fic and then didn't promo it?#and if so i encourage u to jump in my DMs bc anon messages aren't the way to resolve feelings 😅#but sometimes people really are just busy #or they didn't realise the expectations u had of them #or they don't use social media v often so they missed the post #or they beta so many fics that they don't keep up what is uploaded and when #so many factors that could be at play in situations like this!#not necessarily anything to do with your fic!#(and tbh sometimes people really just don't like a fic they've agreed to beta #i have had some exceeeeedingly underwhelming responses from betas lmfao #did it suck?? did it make me want to delete my entire fandom existence?? absolutely!!!#but did i expect them to pretend to like it once i posted it?? heck no)#(actually now i'm thinking abt it i don't think many of my betas have rec'd my stuff at ALL 😂#some have for sure! but probably like? 40%? maybe less?#so either i personally traumatise 60% of my beta readers or the post-beta promotional circuit isn't as common as u think!)#(i very much might traumatise my beta readers tho so. do keep that in mind.)#anyway anon peace and love i hope the good outweighs the bad for u! this hobby can be rough sometimes eh ❤️

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scattered-winter · 1 year

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ok maybe this is controversial but it's always rubbed me the wrong way whenever an actor/celebrity dies and everyone is mourning them but only in relation to the character they played??? like idk if my mom died tomorrow and everyone was mourning her because she couldn't do her job anymore I would probably commit a hatecrime

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aquietgirlsmess · 1 year

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I’ll never forgive the writers for what they did to villadero

#like look i know the plan was j&r #and even if I never managed to get into these two i could have made my peace with that #but then they just had to bring back michael #and do whatever the hell that was #they should have 1) either let michael rest in peace #or 2) changed their plan and made villadero endgame #i'll never change my mind about this #this seems very random but it's because i've just watched some villadero fanvids #and so it reminded how much i loved these two #and how much they were done dirty #villadero #jtv #tv shows

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