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burning-sol · 1 year

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i am thinking to myself "hmmm i wanna do a ranking of my fav jrwi pcs" BUT IM SO TORN?? like. what do i rank them based on??? i like them all for different reasons?????

fuck. like how do i compare my yucky gucky man rand to rumiracle me sparkling magical girl. they are disasters in difficult to immediately compare ways. some pcs i like because theyre goofy and others i like because theyve got so much going on!!! i fucking love thanatos cause he's thanatos and jay because she's a girlboss like what the fuck.

you know what FUCK IT!! CATEGORIES!!! (even some of THESE were hard to rank so yeah subject to change... some of these are nonsensical dont look too deep into it)

STRONGEST ATTACHMENTS IN CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER:

1. gillion (the original blorbo) 2. exandroth (INTENSE but took a while to set in and i hate him) 3. rand (late comer but now am an avid lover of)

HAS MY SYMPTOMS:

1. rand (gross and psychotic) 2. gillion (dissociation for realsies) 3. rumi (complete identity confusion) 4. exandroth (loud, impulsive, self centered, god complex) 5. kian (depressed in a life threatening way) 6. rolan (depressed in a slowburn way)

SAME TRAUMA:

1. gillion (wanted validation and affection to the point of killing people, hiding pain including physical ailments) 2. rand (unemployed, dyfunctional and needing to rely on others, having scary symptoms, dealing with substance abuse) 3. jay (primal fear of parental figure and trying to run away but also feeling trapped)

SAME JOYS:

1. peter sqloint (OH MY GOSH LOOK AT THAT ROCK!!! oh the BLISS of pointing at that thing and explaining the thing!!) 2. exandroth (*LAUGHS MANIACALLY*) 3. thanatos (very content with big weapon) 4. gillion (i love my friends!!! i would take a bullet for you!!!)

HEADCANON EMPOWERED:

1. exandroth (whole character is hc at this point so ranked 1st) 2. rand (schizo girl!!!) 3. kian (god what a mess) 4. angelstone (but only post-campaign p much) 5. rolan (adhd AND insert spoilers) 6. gillion (HE'S A FISH!!!!) 7. peter sqloint (making him slightly more interesting than you'd think)

JUST A GUY:

1. rolan (just a guy) 2. peter sqloint (just a guy but slightly too funny to be ranked 1st)

SAYS THEIR OWN NAME AND IT'S FUNNY:

1. thanatos 2. goobleck!! 3. GILLION!!! 4. peter SQloint 5. exandrothh

IMPERSONATED ON ACCIDENT:

1. goobleck (i had this voice during a school excursion, it was attrocious and it hurt my throat and im ranking it 1st because of the horrors) 2. gillion (not a vocal impersonation but when gillion went brooding in the fey wild i became 'evil' and just like gillion it only last a short while before i went into an emotional breakdown so yeah) 3. peter sqloint (was a very funny voice but didn't scar my psyche like the other two so ranked 3rd little guy) 4. exandroth...?

MOST EXANDROTH:

1. all the exandroth introjects (haiii i love youuu) 2. exandroth (relatively exandroth im neutral on this guy) 3. xander (called og exandroth a loser, doesnt identify with the guy so he's obv less exandroth) 4. the different interpretations of exandroth in my head that all fought each other that one time (i don't know who won)

WET AND PATHETIC:

1. chip (just look at him) 2. peter sqloint (just look at him) 3. rand (just look at him) 4. rolan (just look at him) 5. exandroth (because she is SO fucking insecure!! girl get it together!!! sopping wet beast what a mess!!!!) 6. jay (just a tad pathetic when she's not girlbossing)

ACEAROSPEC RANKS THE ATTRACTIVE PPL:

1. gillion (fuck im i love... guy actually :flushed:) 2. rand (i want to smoke with this guy and make out even if he's gross) 3. jay (if she twirled my hair in her hand i would instantly EXPLODE) 4. kian (has that sort of vibe that i associate with someone in my life who i like so yeah) 5. rumi (drop dead gorgeous but ranked last because i would be so intimidated like rumi is too perfect for me you know what i mean) 6. exandroth (analyse whatever freudian bs is happening here, idk i like an offputting guy thats also an eldritch horror and nonbinary im into that)

MOST LIKELY TO HOLD HANDS WITH:

1. jay (obvious choice, warm hand, easy to lean up against) 2. rumi (i am nervous and you are pretty help) 3. rolan (mutually scared people holding hands) 4. exandroth (i trust this guy) 5. peter (clammy hands we have clammy hands i dont even know where we're walking)

I'M SORRY I DON'T TALK ABOUT YOU MORE:

1. chip (we do not have the same trauma) 2. thanatos (why did bizly make your character like that im so mad i love you but you have been slaughtered by your creator) 3. goobleck (IM SO SORRY I LOVE YOU GOOBLECK!! EVEN IF OTHERS DONT APPRECIATE YOU!!!) 4. peter (I LOVE YOU TOO!! MY BOY!!!)

NON-HUMAN I WOULD TRUST MY LIFE WITH:

1. thanatos (structurally sound and killed gods so we're set) 2. exandroth (biased but i would feel safe with an angel eldritch horror even if she has her flaws) 3. gillion (an obvious choice!!! please protect me) 4. spoilers (oh yeah that thing is a bug you got this) 5. rumi (i socially feel safe with you but physically i would be getting nervous) 6. goobleck (i would rank you higher but i have vivid imagery in my head of you going SPLAT and i cannot shake this)

BROWN HAIRED GUYS:

1. chip (he's vintage, you know? anyways probably cares way too much abt his hair to let it be destroyed) 2. rand (he definitely has greasy hair like he needs a shower but he smells like smoke so i have a bias) 3. peter (dandruff) 4. i can imagine all these guys potentially having lice and that makes me very uncomfortable so fuck this why did i come up with this category

GIRLBOSS:

1. jay (EMBODIMENT of girlboss!!) 2. exandroth (she's a big cringefail but super girlboss) 3. kian (that one image of the anime girl in a room thats a mess with the text "MY GIRLBOSS EMPIRE IS CRUMBLING")

GRIZZLY:

1. rumi (sorry but you can't beat a classic) 2. kian stone (KIAN STONE!! *GUITAR RIFF*)

CHARLIE:

1. exandroth (legally obligated) 2. gillion (equal homicidal intent AND fish) 3. peter sqloint (he's so... sqloint) 4. goobleck (goobleck)

CONDI:

1. rolan (sad!!) 2. jay (i LOVE you girl!!)

BIZLY:

1. chip (not my cup of tea but he's pretty funny) 2. thanatos (i love him) 3. timothy rand (you know he's a guy that does weed)

FUNNIEST PONIFICATION:

1. rand (WEED PONY) 2. thanatos (because he's thanatos)

ANIME GIRLS:

1. exandroth (she deserves it) 2. rumi (they are already a magical girl) 3. gillion (gillion is out here killing evil things like a magical girl too, fucking spectacular) 4. rolan (i imagined rolan girl with a grey streak in her hair so this is too hilarious to pass up) 5. rand (one of those anime weird girls im down with that) 6. kian (also writing this down to note she should keep the abs)

MINECRAFT:

1. goobleck (you met it on a server and it was really funny and you two are now friends forever) 2. thanatos (beats your ass in every competitive game but thinks youre good enough to team with despite you feeling bad and pathetic at the game) 3. rand (has been banned several times for swearing and being stupid but every time he's back you love him more) 4. rumi (has minecraft builds that blow your mind theyre so pretty) 5. peter (has minecraft builds that blow your mind for.. other reasons. needs some improvement. i like the big rock though. this guy keeps infodumping abt and he loved the addition of andesite btw) 6. jay (she is a hacker and is flying around like no one's business and got banned and was sad posting "i thought it was funny :(( please let me back in")

HONOURABLE MENTIONS

chip. just him. idk. i think he needs it.

i should have stopped this list over half an hour ago so yeah that's it I got way too lost in this sorry....

(maybe i will do more or redo this later because it was pretty fun)

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emonaculate · 3 years

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AOT Freshman v Senior Year headcanons (Eren, Armin, and Mikasa)

❥ AU: Highschool!AU

❥ Genre: Fluff

❥ Rating: Everyone can read

❥ Pairing: hinted at Eren x reader

❥ Warnings Include: Profanity, mentions of violence, manipulation, mention of weed, and slight angst

❥ Author Note: I'm making this an entire series for the main cast or my favorite characters from AOT

Eren Yeager

Freshman year

Extremely fucking loud for no reason

Runs to class and somehow always manages to be late

Tries to pay attention in class but due to his ADHD would always spaces tf out

Despite being loud, only talks to Mikasa and Armin

Smells like nothing but AXE body spray, its not even a bad smell, its just too much

That kid that takes P.E. TOO fucking serious

"Eren you know why you're in trouble right?"

"No."

"...You hit your classmate in the face with a ball."

"He could have dodged."

"Eren it was a basketball, you broke his nose and chipped his tooth."

"He shouldn't have gotten so close to me."

Im sorry but totally dresses like this

Constantly compared to his older brother.

"Yeager... Are you by any chance related to Zeke Yeager?"

"No way, your brother is THE Zeke Yeager?"

Makes a name for himself rather quickly

Listens to heavy rock/metal music

He loves My Chemical Romance and Three Day Grace.

Learned how to play the guitar just so he could play "Teenagers"

Forced Mikasa and Armin to also listen to the bands

They ended up all deciding on making a small little garage band; Miki on vocals and drums, Min on bass, and Eren as lead vocalist and electric guitar.

His style changed randomly but no one questioned it since his personality remained the same.

Senior year

180 personality

Completely mellowed tf out

Either he is in class on time or not showing up at all

Senioritis is strong within him

Works better when he is completely out of it

STONER

This mf always high as shit

Either you love him, hate him, or respect him there is no inbetween

MANBUN

Smart as hell but usually on the low

His music taste has changed a little

LOVES POLITICAL RAP

J.cole and Kendrick stan; it is not up for debate

His favorite songs are Neighbors by J.Cole and Alright by Kendrick

Listens to throwback RnB when high

Still godly at the guitar

Has a couple stick and poke tattoos; He has one behind his ear matching Min and Miki.

He has the sun, Armin has the ocean waves, Mikasa has the moon

PIERCINGS

A total of 8; 4 in his left and 2 in his right + the industrial

Has a tongue piercing

A two slices in his eyebrow but only got them as a dare

Most of them minus the industrial piercing was done at home because he has an abnormally high pain tolerance.

Dresses like this

Doesnt really play sports but is super good at soccer and basketball

He's actually good at most sports just refuses to join because why would he want to support a corrupted system??

Still more of a loner but has a rather nice friend group

Looks mean asf but is actually really nice

Goes the hardest for his friends

You fuck with them = you getting your shit rocked by him

100% the friend that hits you for forgetting to eat

Despite being hot as shit; never really has a girlfriend

Its only because hes oblivious or just not interested

Deathly scary when hes pissed

If you guys got beef; there is no talking

Its on sight bro

Be prepared to get beat the fuck up

A few things that makes him go from 0 to 100 is racism, mocking disabled people, and domestic violence

He's an activist

If you need help organizing a protest; he'll help and somehow manage to get people to come.

Basically a really good guy just hot headed as hell

Armin Arlert

Freshman Year

The kid who looked up those lame videos on how to survive highschool.

Panicked when it came to speaking in class

Stuttered like hell

AP CLASSES

He's way too advanced like could graduate early but refuses to so he can stay with his friends

Super sweet but extremely naive

People definitely took advantage of him.

"Hey Armin, my dog got in a car accident so I wasnt really focused in class, can you give me the homework answers?"

"Yeah sure its no problem."

Sends them a whole ass powerpoint on the entire lesson and teaches them better than the actual teacher.

Band nerd

Can play the Piano, Bass, and Trumpet

Listens to Mother Mother and Queen religiously

Only joined Eren's garage band after he agreed to watch Bohemian Rhapsody

Dresses like this

Moved in with Ren and Miki after he went through some shit with his family; he came out as bisexual after realizing he was attracted to one of his classmates.

Sometimes worries that Eren gets uncomfortable but relaxes after he remembers who Eren really is.

Wouldn't trade his friends for the world

Senior Year

His glow up took awhile because he didnt really feel the need to change

He was always rather cute; just shy and timid

VALEDICTORIAN

Slightly because he manipulated his runner up into become a burnout gifted kid lmao

Everyone has his Snapchat and Instagram so they can get help

Now he knows when people are using him and he still lets them; the only difference is you fuck with him and he can make you end up repeating the same grade.

Lets people copy his test and at the last minute pauses and erases all his answers before putting the correct ones.

No one has realized his plan.

His fashion sense changed a lot

Subconsciously tries to match Eren all the time

The only person that noticed was Mikasa; she thinks its cute

Is in love with Russian foreign exchange student, Annie.

He talks to her from time to time before gathering enough courage to ask her out

Doesnt realize how popular he is.

Oftentimes volunteers at the aquarium to study the ocean life as well as help out.

Helps plenty of organizations clean up the ocean.

A total of four piercings and the tattoo that matches his friends.

Two in his ears and nipple piercings.

It was a dare he sobbed through

Mikasa Ackerman

Freshman year

Basketcase

Follows Eren and Armin around

Super quiet

Doesn't really have much of a personality

She is cute though

Dresses like this

Like I said no real personality at all

Well except she was the girl who thought she was in a romance novel

Especially when Eren would get into a fight.

"Eren look at me... This isnt you."

"Mikasa move."

Most times it wouldnt work.

It was just cringy man...

Can play the violin, flute, piano, and cello

Only learned the drums so she could play with Eren and Armin

A secret pop stan

Loves Ariana Grande and Doja Cat

Thank god she manages to grow out of that yucky phase.

Senior Year

GOTH GF

Track, Gymnast, and female basketball player

She mellowed out as well and became her own person

Still heavily in love with Eren

Confessed to him during a karaoke session to the song Baby I by Ariana Grande; he didnt realize.

Sang her heart out and was a blushing mess but still got no where

Has deep down accepted that she may never be more than just his friend

Is okay with it and NOT toxic when he's crushing on someone else

Just wants him to be happy

Saw how he looked at some girl during a fundraiser to raise money for animal shelters and realized that he may never look at her like that.

Turned a guy down because Armin had a crush on him

The ultimate wing girl

Introduced Eren to her opponent after a track meet after realizing it was the girl from the fundraiser.

Dresses like this

Super sweet despite her look

However pick on her friends and you're fucked

CAN and WILL whoop your ass

The only person who can get Eren to not fight.

Pissed them both off at the same time and you're screwed

Has a total of three piercings

Her ears and nose

Loves her boys more than anything

Stays with Eren while her parents travel to help with natural disasters

Noticed that Armin's ideal type is Eren but never mentioned it because she knows Armin would overract

Very observant

Just wants the best for her friends even if she is the one who ends up happy

Eventually falls for the guy that asked her out junior year.

Still close to her boys because they come before anyone.

#eren yeager x black reader #armin arlert #mikasa ackerman #eren yeager #highschool headcanons #attack on titan #snk fanfiction

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the-bees-knives · 3 years

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Hi yes hello. I saw that you rebloged the oc ask thingy and I'll be ordering for the whole table. Can I get a 2, 3 ,5, 7, 9, 10, 12, 13, 16, 17, 19, 20, 21, 32, 34, 37, 41, 45, 48, 50, 51, 55, 60, 65, 68, 69, 70, 73, 78, 83, 87, 89, 93, 96, 98, and 99? All for Biscuit. (IM REALLY REALLY SORRY I JUST WANNA KNOW MORE ABOUT THEM 😭)

This got real long... answers under the cut!

2. What are their favourite possessions? Why? (sentimentality, history, price, etc.)

His favourite possession... is you! ✋👁👁

Jokes aside, Biscuit isn't too materialistic. However, he does like the hairband he uses for his braid; it was a gift from his mother! The bow he wears around his neck is also a remnant of a modification of his uniform from his previous place of work. Biscuit used to work both as a mascot and a cook (it would switch depending on the situation) at his family's diner (restaurant? i don't know the term), and he added it because he thought it looked cute (also he couldn't do anything too feminine :( so this was the best he could do).

I will note that the cutlery embedded into him is not a part of his favourite possessions, despite his unwillingness to part with them. They're more like a part of his body, I guess?

3. Do They get jealous easily? If so, what usually causes it?

If Biscuit formed an attachment to someone and then saw them with someone else, he'd be wary of the new person, if not jealous. They'd have to become acquainted with Biscuit to ease him, though that might not always work. He'd still probably try to drag his companion away. Basically, he's pretty protective (possessive?) over those he likes.

5. What's their reputation like? Does this reputation contrast what they're really like?

I'm not sure how others would see him. Either it's "eccentric cosplayer (who's really in character)" or "weird dude". Probably the first one, as normal people couldn't survive with knives in their body for that long. Mostly Biscuit's just a weird dude though.

7. What's their "type"? What romantically attracts them to another person?

Biscuit doesn't really have a preference on appearance, it's more based on personality. Either it's someone who can care for him or someone who's just as feral/zero-braincell'd as him. He normally takes care of his victims, but he doesn't see that as attraction; it's more like caring for cattle before you eat it. If someone cared for him though, he'd be into it. As for the other one, it's just a feral power couple; both can be absolutely insane together (Run).

9. If they could change one part of their appearance, what would it be?

Spine that can turn 180 degrees. Reasoning: he has to sleep on his stomach because of the knives, but then his feet are bent uncomfy while on his stomach. Rotate spine for comfy feets. Plus, it'd be a cool party trick.

10. What's a simple thing that brings them joy?

Pets/physical affection. (Unfortunately, by unintentional design, this man is Unpettable.)

12. What's their position in their friend group? (leader, mom friend, chaos goblin, etc.)

The chill goblin: you can sit with him and have a nice hat, but if anything gets the interest of his one (1) braincell, he will go absolutely feral.

13. How forgiving are they? What do they consider unforgivable?

I think he's pretty forgiving, considering. If you attacked him, he'd probably consider it as play-fighting or something. He won't like it if you mess with his personal belongings, but he'll forgive you if it's for a good reason (for him) or if you give it back.

As for the things he'd find unforgivable, touching the two knives sticking out of his head is an absolute no-no. (The ones in his shoulders are sort of meh; he won't like it if you touch them, but he won't try to kill you for it.) The knives in his head are really sensitive, so he'll become agitated quick and snap if you try to move or remove them.

16. What food do they absolutely hate?

fish yucky >:(

17. Do they show a lot of affection, or are they pretty reserved?

If Biscuit had an s/o or a good friend (you know, people he's not interested in for food), he'd be pretty affectionate; he likes them and wants to show it! He might get a little close though, so make sure to set (and remind him of) personal boundaries.

19. What's their unusual quirk?

I don't know why, but I imagine that Biscuit can bleed infinitely. If you were to remove any of the knives embedded into him, the wound will just keep bleeding until they're inserted back in. I don't really have an explanation for this, but he is a human, so??? I just think it's neat.

20. Are they easy to wake up in the morning, or grouchy and sleepy?

While Biscuit does get up early, he's particularly lazy and groggy. It's kind of like those moods where you want to go back to sleep, but you can't because your body's awake.

21. What's their ideal date like?

Anywhere really, so long as his s/o is giving him attention.

32. What are they like at parties? Party animal, or awkwardly sitting in the corner drinking punch and reading?

Party animal, except everyone else is sitting in the corner trying to avoid him. He doesn’t really think before speaking, so he says whatever without any filter. (Plus, the knives don’t help. No, he won’t remove them.)

34. What’s their favourite drink? (Coffee, tea, juice, hot chocolate, soda, etc.)

Biscuit is a milkshake lad. His favourite is strawberry-banana!

37. Are they a hopeless romantic, or is that stuff just not for them?

Biscuit has a “love-at-first-interaction” mentality, like if someone shows genuine interest in him, then he wants to be with them and chases that feeling (and them).

41. What would they dress up as for Halloween?

Bold of you to assume that he’d even need a Halloween costume.

All jokes aside though, Biscuit has No Patience to put a costume together (or even look for one), so he’d probably just go with his normal wear. People have already mistaken the knives as cosplay/props anyway, so it’s just less work, instant results.

(He does have the old mascot suit, but he can’t wear it anymore without it hitting the knives.)

45. Are they always late, on time, or early?

None of the above, he forgot that event was today.

48. How dramatic are they?

Biscuit’s not the type to start drama, nor is he extremely emphatic (is that the word?) with his speech. He’s just kind of vibing.

50. Why would they be a good partner for a road trip?

Fun(?) to do activities with; will probably suggest random stuff to do if there’s no set itinerary (will probably suggest it anyway). If you’re looking for a spontaneous road trip, he’s your guy.

51. Why would they be a BAD partner for a road trip?

Will Never Sit Still; must be kept under watch constantly, otherwise he’ll run off to who knows where. (Just keep him on a leash or something)

55. Choose a vine you think perfectly encapsulates their character.

This video has pretty strong vibes of brainrot, so I think it's appropriate.

60. What sappy thing will they cry at? (romance movies, cute cat videos, etc.) Would they deny crying about it later on?

Biscuit loves all types of animals, especially furry ones (so dogs, cats, bats, rats… bean toes are a plus). So he’d absolutely cry if shown cute pet videos and gush about how precious and baby each one is. No denial either, if you confront him about it, he’d just justify it by gushing about them more. (He doesn’t have any pets of his own though. I wouldn’t trust him with a pet.)

As a side note, if he found out his victim was a beastkin or could turn into an animal or something, he’d be really conflicted on whether to harm them or not, but would ultimately decide against it.

65. Do they give people a lot of nicknames?

Biscuit isn’t creative enough to make genuine nicknames. However, if he forgot your name (and he probably would), he’d just name something off of your appearance (“pink jacket”, “shark guy”, things like that).

68. Are they easy to fluster? What would you have to do to truly fluster them?

Biscuit can only really be flustered by people he likes or people that he thinks are close to him. He’ll melt and nuzzle you if you surprise him with something nice, physical or otherwise :)

69. What’s their dream vacation like?

Go to the countryside and run around and be feral. Then chill in the evening and take a bath, because he needs to make sure his knives are clean.

70. Are they a good liar?

Biscuit doesn’t even try to lie. He’s really impulsive, and he doesn’t see what’s wrong with what he does. If he tried to lie, it’d be stupid/simple and obvious that it’s a lie, but he’d stick to his guns and insist that it’s true. Though, his voice/expression wouldn’t fluctuate, so you’d have to believe either in common sense or him.

73. Are they more book smarts, or street smarts?

Street smarts; this man’s head is empty (except for the two knives in there but).

78. What’s something they’re really bad at?

Almost anything that involves careful planning and concentration to complete. Things like puzzles or sewing; if it doesn’t give immediate satisfaction, then what’s the point?

The only things that Biscuit does pay attention to are cooking and, by extent, caring for his victim (as they’re a part of the cooking process).

83. What are they like as an s/o?

Loyal and (possibly) clingy. Will want to accompany you for days, then vanish out of thin air due to impulsiveness (will absolutely forget to feed his victim during this time, if he has one). Forgets about physical boundaries, but means well (trying to show affection).

Biscuit’s love languages are, in no particular order: physical touch, acts of service, and quality time. Personal hug-buddy that can cook :)

87. Do they like spicy food?

Yes he does! I like to imagine that he incorporates spice from time to time into his dishes. I don’t know what his tolerance would be though due to lack of experience (I will perish).

89. What would they get into a petty argument over?

Which animal is the best? Answer: it’s all of them. (Though he does have a preference towards furry animals, he tries to be unbiased in this argument.)

93. What type of movies do they like to watch?

Both gorey horror movies and feel-good movies (especially if they have animal protagonists). They’re just fun to watch.

96. What’s their sense of humour like? (Dad jokes, morbid humour, basic knock-knock jokes, stand-up comedy, etc.)

Physical humour, stand-up, and maybe surreal humour. Anything else might be too complex for him.

98. How competitive are they?

He’s not very competitive on his own, though if someone challenges him to a contest, he’s still going to try to beat them for the satisfaction of it. Don’t challenge him to a contest if you want to have chill times with him.

99. What would they wear to a formal event? Describe their outfit!

Biscuit has No Standards when it comes to social events, so he’s going as normal. If he had to dress fancy though (and if he had access to it), he’d probably just wear a simple pink dress shirt and dress pants + suspenders. Slick his hair back too. The knives stay.

(I don’t even think he can enter most shops with the knives, fake or not. I don’t know; I’ve never entered an establishment with visible knives before.)

This was a long post, so let me know if I missed anything;;

#i spent Too Much Time thinking about these answers #also sorry for the late reply; i kept getting distracted;;#is this man just a dog? maybe #biscuit oc #my oc #emi-bunni #ask #oc questions meme

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goatbi · 4 years

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Hey Ho, it’s a Host backstory babey.

so uhhh, trigger warning for blood, child abuse, vague gore, rape mention (not explicitly stated but very much implied) and murder!

So, uh, smol bean born, given dead name, which,,,, he doesn’t technically have cause I never? gave him one? Cause it makes me feel yucky, so, smol baby, born into a family, had two older brothers and an older sister, so he was the Baby of the Family. Mom and Dad were,,,, gross. They didn’t have much, relatively poor, which didn’t help the family shit, and baby Author got really into books and writing. Like, really into it.

so the moment he could, he started to write journals. He kept every single one he wrote, stealing notebooks to be able to keep them going. Sometimes it was random ideas and doodles, and other times there were blood staining a few pages, along with tears, and accounts of what his mother would do when dad wasn’t home.

His brothers (twins) where three years older than him, and his sister a year and a half. They were baby too, so they couldn’t do much against it all, but they tried to protect small boy. He wasn’t exactly completely protected, cause of reasons, but they tried their best and he was quite grateful.

So, mom was shit, and lil baby Author was sittin there like ‘don’t think im a girl, but is this the right time to say this?’ so he hid that from parent, but told! Older Bros, who were both like ‘neato lil dude, but don’t say shit to mom’

and time went on, they got older, started being teens, and Author wasn’t exactly... normal. The other kiddos were relatively okay, rather traumatized by the whole situation, but they came out of it the other side, and were fine. Author, on the other hand, seemed a bit... off to everyone who saw him. First off, no one liked his eyes, cause they seemed to glow at times, bright gold and full of malice towards others. He wasn’t exactly as normal.

and this is around the time that he discovered how much Better he was than anyone else, the power he wielded in his hands to control people’s fates simply by writing.

And... well, there was some revenge to deal out.

Siblings escaped, left him behind, as he wrote the parents death, blaming dad for not stopping her, and mom for being horrible. he left them to die in their old house and forgot about the three that protected him, who ran off to exist as beans somewhere else. I dunno, I haven’t really expanded their characters much they’re kinda there for filler.

and he grew. He was still small, as he always had been, since birth he was a small little baby, and he stayed small and rather weak. having the taste for blood now, he searched for people to hurt.

sometimes, though, they found him.

he’d go to bars looking for people who were being rude, or just people he didn’t like the look of, and write their deaths out. He didn’t exactly look male enough to people yet, especially for that time period, so there were a lot of nasty looks and rude comments, slurs thrown at him. He didn’t care, just writing out their deaths and keeping his journals, of which there were quite a few now.

and eventually, someone took it too far, and he couldn’t protect himself in time, couldn’t write out their death fast enough, and they set out to ‘prove what a girl’s supposed to be’ to him, out in the alleyway behind one of the places he frequented.

this was the start of the more... gruesome kills, where he found himself torturing them longer than he had before, playing with his victims, slowly gaining more power as he exercised his abilities.

he was eventually found by the egos, taken into the group, and he let himself pretend he could feel more than malice and hatred, tried to let them into his heart, but he couldn’t find it in him.

but he had a library, where he kept his books and his journals, and he had his cabin, where he kept his more... grotesque ideas.

slowly, he began to crave more power than he had, and faster than he could build it. He was reckless and angry, and wanted more and more, and eventually he looked to dark magic, scouring book after book to find whatever it is that could make him better than before, make him more than what he was now.

and he found The Ritual. It was a complicated thing, and he left the others to go to his cabin, which was a normal occurance for him. However, he usually told people where he was going and how long, so they knew in case he got in over his head. He believed he couldn’t do such, being a powerful man such as himself, controlling a person’s fate as easily as writing a word.

so this time he didn’t tell anyone.

it took almost two months to gather and complete this Ritual, and finally, powerhungry and angry, he did what he thought he had to

and drove himself insane.

the sudden rush of everything, every last broken bit of emotion he never let himself feel, the ideas and everything he thought he could do and everything he never thought of, the beings hidden deep in the world that could kill something with a single glance, if that, the power he now possessed, at such a powerful cost to himself.

he screamed, tore at his face and neck and screamed in his cabin, the fire blazing around him, before finally, his scratching fingers caught around his eyes, and he tore them from his skull, feeling the flesh around his face burn and sting as he did.

he escaped the cabin before it fully caught, bloody and burnt, dripping blood and occasionally his own melted skin, and wandered. He wore nothing but a shirt and pants, both burn to hell, tearing the skin of his feet as he walked back home, where he knew they would be waiting. He knew that they would be there, sitting around, wanting to find him, though he wasn’t sure how he knew.

he wandered in, dripped blood on everything, showed his broken bloody form to them, the empty void of where his eyes had once been, and collapsed.

when he finally woke, it had been nearly a week after he had done the Ritual, and Host was exahusted. He knew too much, felt too much, and wanted this pounding headache to go away and-... realized he was talking aloud, he could feel the things around them, see them in a way that he shouldn’t have been able to do, with the crisp white bandages wrapped securely around his face.

he spent nearly a month in doc’s care, bleeding violently, and occasionally dropping back into that insanity from the cabin, screaming and voilently tearing away his own skin.

eventually, he calmed, mellowed out, and retrated to his library. he couldn’t bear to destory everything that he had, so he hid it off in a small room, everything of the Author away and broken, in a sealed off room, and forced himself to forget, to think he burned it all to restart, and went about his new life, until he was prepared to deal with what he had done.

until then, he slowly forced himself to remember what it was like to feel.

#the host #markiplier egos #this is angsty as fuck #i forgot how fucked i made his backstory #he's trans and autistic btw #mom hated the second thing in that a huge amount cause he was #off #anyways #that room? is what Host found on my ask blog #he found a box of his old journals and read through them #Feelings In Various Ways

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My Trip to S. Korea (5/25/16 - 6/2/16)

Hello, friends!! I am back! Ahaha I have several posts that I’ve been wanting to make, but this one in particular has been fueling my interest more than ever these days. Rather than a review or a rant, this post is simply.. a log? :)

On May 25th of last year, I had the opportunity to travel to Korea as a 16 year old junior. I left school a week and a half earlier than everyone else, but it wasn’t just for fun. I was a part of IVSBP, the Interact Vietnam Soccer Ball Project (s/o to my wonderful team: Rotarians Nick, Marriane, Avis, and Sue, Roteractor Oliver, & fellow Interactors Gina and Abdul), a service project that aimed to bring the power of play to less fortunate children in Vietnam. In 2016, the Rotary International Convention (RICON) was being held in Korea, and I was blessed enough to be a part of the team that represented IVSBP with its very own booth at RICON. In this place, over 45,000 Rotarians from all over the world would gather for several special days.

Each and every day, I documented my journey by quickly (and messily) scribbling each entry onto a currency conversion diagram paper that was partially cut up for reasons I cannot recall. Here is my 7-day “diary”, as transcribed word for word from the paper itself, with extra commentary below each entry:

Day 1

Arrive in Seoul Incheon + struggle tremendously to find driver. Astounded/fascinated/freaked out by tons of tall apts. Notes smog. Eat funky dinner w/ ppl, walked late at night.

Yes, I was admittedly spooked by the massive apartments that stretched on and on for as long as the eye could see LOL. The drive from Incheon to Seoul was one that I will never forget. That foreign feeling of being in a country that I dreamed about so many times makes my heart bulge with longing excitement. Also, our lodging was an Airbnb located in the heart of Gangnam. And so, our first night-walk was one that I wished could last forever.

Day 2

Wake at 6:45 am. Go to convention to set up. Kintex was rly cool. Cooler empty. Ate lunch (self-service). slow business. Went home to rest. Took metro home b/c no shuttles running. Took a long ass time & struggled little bit but managed to get it down. Went to COEX. Good shops, not enough time. Son Hoyoung fansigning + mini stage. Ate kbbq alone + did well even though scary. Home @ 11:30. 1:30 am sleep.

RICON was not held in Seoul, but rather in Goyang, which is a city about an hour away from Seoul. Kintex is the convention center, a massive two-structure building, with its own restaurants inside. To this day, I have spotted several shows / dramas / music videos that were filmed at Kintex as well. The Korean metro system is hands down my favorite part about Korea. It is very affordable, convenient, & easy to use once you get the hang of it. My team and I struggled a little bit at first because we were confused by the questionable red/green colors for some stops & routes, but I quickly realized it simply meant express versus “all-stop”. Myself and two others managed to go to the COEX Mall by metro, which was about a mile from our own apartment. One of my goals for Korea was to see a celebrity randomly, and it just so happened on our first full day! I was shopping in Aland with my friend when she suddenly ran up to me and said “Vanessa, Vanessa come look over here, come with me, there is someone singing outside!!”. We hurried outside, and there was Son Hoyoung, promoting his solo album with a mini fansigning event! After shopping, we wandered the streets of Gangnam once again, settling on a random bbq place for dinner. We were just 3 measly American high schoolers in a foreign country, but we ordered, ate, and paid for everything with ease. It was quite an exhilarating experience.

Day 3

Wake 6:45 am. Preconvention. Slow business. (BTW saw Music Works notice about Song yoo bin busking the night before --> day goal: leave & get to COEX by 6 pm) Talked to lotsa ppl. Managed to rush to shuttle station 9 @ 5 pm. Very late bus out of all 20 stations. Eventually wound up @ COEX at 7:20 pm w/ a very distraught heart. Went & finished COEX shopping. Struggled to eat stew at place w/o menu. Abdul + soju = dafuq is wrong w/ you; gtfo. 1:30 am sleep.

Ah yes, this day will go down as one of the most frustrating/ stressful/ depressing days I have ever experienced. RICON offers 20 different shuttle stations, each w/ their own buses & unique routes that run all throughout Seoul. The one that was crucial for me that day was Station 9, specifically at 5 pm. I remember stressing out the entire day about how we could get permission to leave early enough, which route to use, and simply making it to Song Yubin’s event with ease. And yes, I was able to successfully figure all that out throughout the day’s activities. It was just up to the bus to take us there. Unfortunately, although each station should have had buses running every 15 minutes starting from 5 pm & onward, Station 9′s bus was late to begin with. In fact, there was just one bus at first, but it filled quickly, and with only 3 seats left, we didn’t want to separate our group of 4, so we decided to wait for the next bus that would come in “5″ minutes. Those “5″ minutes trickled into the longest hour of my life. I remember standing in the burning sun, looking towards the end of the street the entire time, keeping my eyes peeled, standing on my tippie toes, my forehead sweating, my face twisting into distress as each minute passed. We finally made it onto the bus around 6:10. Yubin’s event started at 6. I remember falling asleep on the bus ride there, but waking up every ten minutes or so, just to see if we could still make it. By the time we walked out into COEX’s exhibition hall (the same one that Son Hoyoung was at the day before), it was completely empty. I didn’t cry because I wasn’t that petty, but.... I definitely felt extremely down. I had completely missed a once in a lifetime opportunity. To see one of my favorite, young & talented vocalists before he became popular and ventured into the kpop-idol scene. There was just some terrible kinda fate happening that day, in which the world just really didn’t want me to see him. For dinner, us 4 wandered around Gangnam again, but settled for something closer to our apt. It had no English menus nor pictures at all. And so once again (the other time would be the metro debacle), my handy dandy Korean-reading skills helped us out, and we barely managed to order various ... ingredients?? (only ones that I understood, though) that all went together in some sort of soup... To this day, I’m not really sure what we ate, but I remember it tasted delicious nonetheless.

Day 4

Same wake. Opening ceremony cool = k-tigers + Lena Park. Sleep-inducing speeches. Arrived back to booth @ 1 pm. Mango six yucky bubble tea. Left to Namsan. Actually used diff shuttle route + taxi to end up @ Namsan cable car. Went to tower. Managed to wander into Myeongdong. V cool. Metro home.

RICON officially begins! Lena Park performed and I was awestruck. At the convention, there are hundreds of different kind of volunteers, and some of them aid convention-goers with travels going to and from Kintex. We asked about getting to COEX the day before, and this time, we came back to ask about getting to Namsan, because my friend especially wanted to go there. I remember hearing the girls behind the table whisper about how we were just using them for our own personal, mini adventures, and I started to feel a bit embarrassed ahah. Regardless, the shuttle we took didn’t take us directly to the cable car site; we had to take a taxi after it dropped us off. I remember we struggled immensely with flagging it down and relaying our destination, but the driver thankfully understood perfectly, and took us right to the cable cars. From there, it was smooth sailing to the tower. It was very dreamlike, arriving at the top as the sun was setting, and leaving when the night had settled in completely. I remember taking a panoramic picture of the view, which I later used (and still use) as my facebook cover photo LOL. Wandering to Myeongdong was also quite the adventure, for we tried asking a civilian about “Myeongdong market” or something, but could not receive any helpful advice. If anything, I think we simply wandered farther into the city around Namsan, and *poof* there we stood in the middle of all the stores. And of course, we conveniently used the metro to make our way back home from there.

Day 5

6 am wake WTF?!?! Still left @ 7:30 anyway. V tired today. Kept falling asleep + lightheaded. Ate 떡볶이 & fell asleep disgustingly. Waited excruciatingly long for Nick to decide to go home. Left @ 5:30. Got back to station @ 7:15. Ate expensive bbq. 쌈 so good. Ate the snow w/ signatures like 정유미, 인순이, 박서준, 유아인 etc. 100% milk! Very nice lady :) . Gong cha jumbo. cool. Night @ 12 am for once.

By this time, the long days were getting to us, and we were thoroughly exhausted. However, dinner was quite fun, we ate with other convention-goers from the Bay Area as well. To this day, whenever I eat 쌈(ssam), it never compares to the kind I ate in Korea, and I have immediate withdrawals. And im not sure why i decided to write those names in Korean, but yes, the bingsoo place we stopped by had various signatures of celebs plastered around the walls, like Jung Yoo Mi, Insooni, Park Seo Joon, Yoo Ah In, and more. The “ice” was made of 100% milk, which was the entire shop’s selling point, & it was delish. Also, I, of course, had to get my pmt fix at the gong cha located near our apt. too.

Day 6

STOP waking us @ 6!!! Went about the usual day. Learned about fire w/ DC advisers :( . Ate frozen sticky dog for lunch. Fell asleep a lot still. Oliver felt much better: Myeongdong! The travel/transportation ladies seemed to dislike us so we managed to find proper shuttle. Shopped for a while. Felt rly sad that I couldn’t find good stuff for EZ. Going broke. Ate 김치 볶음밥! Yummy! w/ cheeseee. So full; couldn’t finish. Store ppl are scary. Very late. Everyone exhausted except for me. Got home 12:30. Slept 2:15. *written on the side* Gina lost her phone :( .

Not a super eventful day, but we went back to Myeongdong again because we felt like we didn’t have enough time to fully explore the first time we were there. Once again, whenever I eat some form of kimchi fried rice here in the states, it never ever ever compares to the kind we had that night. Literally the best fried rice I ever had. Cheap and generously filled, too. Our team was dead tired by the night, as in they kept falling asleep on the subway LOL. Except I stayed alert, out of duty, amusement, and just pure excitement for another deep night in Seoul.

Day 7

Leftovers for breakfast. Very slow day @ convention. Left later than usual. Fell asleep @ booth a lot. Closing ceremony PSY, but everyone else was p lame. Ravi’s speech was very sleep-inducing; I’m sorry :( . Went to shuttle + left @ 8 pm. Ate super expensive dinner beef 한우 w/ M & N. They r weird. Service 짬뽕! But too spicy. Large Gong cha @ 10 pm; only 5 bucks left :( . But Nick paid for the pmt. Its 1:30 am rn but we gotta wake at 3 am b/c flight @ 7:30 am. I GOT MY PERIOD, FUCK!!!

And that, is how I ended my last log in Korea LOL. The leftovers for breakfast refer to the kimchi fried rice leftovers ahaha. Getting to see PSY was also pretty cool. I’m not sure why I said “beef 한우(hanwoo)“, but yes, it was quite expensive, where like 1 of the slabs of meat costed about 50,000 won! But this restaurant was also where I finally got to experience the concept of “service” in which they gave us free food :’) Also,I’m not sure why I said 5 bucks, but I meant 5,000 won ahaha. Having a flight late at night was quite exciting, for the Seoul nights were my favorite kind of memory overall. Or rather, they were all I really had since I spent all my days at RICON.

Welp, this ended up wayyyy longer than i anticipated, but it was honestly really refreshing to go over some memories that happened over a year ago. Although this trip was mainly for RICON, I had the amazing opportunity to delve into the culture that I had only seen countless times through a computer screen. As Oliver had said, we were volunteers by day, & tourists by night. I enjoyed my time more than I ever expected, and I have promised myself that I will go back. Soon.

Thank you, sk, for treating us so well.

#south korea #travel log #trip #the food was to die for honestly #i will go back to read this each time i feel like im forgetting parts of this trip #i have to go back i swear

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