#I AM IN FUCKING SHAMBLES RIGHT NOW

[doctorwhoisadhd]

[ID: DOCTOR: Oh, you remember, er. Thingy. The, er, the not-me one. The asking questions one. Names not my area. CLARA: Clara. DOCTOR: Well, it might be Clara. Might not be. It's a lottery. CLARA: It is Clara. DOCTOR: Well, I'm not ruling it out. /end ID]

oh my god... he didnt mean clara's name he meant his own... he meant his own name cause he didn't know who he was yet......

#doctor who #dr who #dw #clara oswald #twelfth doctor #deep breath #I AM IN FUCKING SHAMBLES RIGHT NOW #ari opinion hour #some bonff

[b0nelessdoodles]

the only doodles i have for the finale are both sad af but its okay everything worked out in the end

#dungeons and dragons #dnd #dnd character #dnd goblin #ITS OKAY TIC AND RIP ARE BACK TOGETHER NOW EVERYTHING IS OKAY #THEYRE BACK TOGETHER AND I ABSOLUTELY CRIED SO DAMN MUCH ABOUT IT #I AM IN FUCKING SHAMBLES RIGHT NOW #everything that happened was so good i really need to draw more stuff just oh my goodness #im sobbing i cant believe this game is over #we got the god back together and i fucking cried the whole time #THAT'S OUR GOD WHO LOVES US EVERYONE SHUT UP #I'M SO FUCKING NORMAL ABOUT THIS GAME ITWAS HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[fuyuesu]

the fact that they gave aira and mayoi this part is going to ruin me forever btw

#melty rambles #enstarsposting #i am in fucking SHAMBLES right now

[runawaymun]

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#sorry let me rant real quick in the tags #cw personal #once again hitting an insurance pothole bc the psych says she accepts my OHP plan HOWEVER the therapy group she is contacted with says #THEY don't #they only accept the insurance if it's through my employer but NOT through the government?????????????? #so there's still some kind of payment??? #anyway I want to scream why is this so complicated #like will she take my insurance or not who's right here #anyway called her back directly and went to voicemail so now I've done all I can for now #why the hell is this so hard man #the person on the phone didn't know really how to explain #once again no one knows what they're talking about #like can y'all not communicate and figure this out? #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i need to get an ADHD eval before my next PCP appointment in june so that they will continue giving me my meds #and the psychiatry through the hospital has a limited number of visits that insurance will cover #*contracted #not retyping all of that #and once again the only reason this is so stressful is because the psychiatry group at the hospital fumbled the communication ball last tim #and the psychiatrist I was with never put the ADHD on the chart #and now somehow it's MY responsibility to fix that> #UGH #like I am grateful to have some kind of coverage but holy shit is the US healthcare system in shambles #the bureaucracy is INSANE #i had to just sit down and put my head in my hands for a second #and then go 'right okay nothing i can do about that rn moving on' #uGH #literally said 'what the FUCK' out loud a couple times #like not on the phone after I hung up obvs

[chocolaminity]

I wonder when I'll get to see him again... I want to see him soon.

I hope he can teach me all sorts of things about soccer!

#or: I just watched episodes 102-106 today and I am in shambles. #Minty doodles #Inazuma Eleven #Rushe #Lusce #no clue which one is the right way to spell her name sorry #apologies if the drawing is like. messy and stuff. it is 11 PM and I have tests so I drew this as fast as I can in my notes app #anyways. I have. so many thoughts. #especially about Kageyama. #the episodes are so. grahhh I'm going insane #I LITERALLY CRIED???? LIKE THREE OR FOUR TIMES WATCHING IT????????? #I was Kageyama's number one little hater throughout watching this series and. I still kinda am but. god. he is so. I'm insane. #the ending of episode 106. what the fuck. what the fuck. #anyways. I hope Rushe is okay. I hope she's playing soccer and making friends and having fun #ok. off I go to the void now. goodnight 👋

[fabbyf1]

They took Logan’s seat for the weekend bc Alex crashed??? Istg something with Australia and angsty smut plotlines…

something something... Sad Logan and Big Dick Oscar. tysm. i won't be taking any further questions at this time.

#hashtag i don't have time to be writing a fucking loscar fic right now #my apt is in shambles #i have so much to do #why am i sitting at my computer

[naomiknight-17]

About to mail off my ODSP final appeal to the Social Benefits Tribunal office

Gonna ask for fastest possible shipping and tracking. Idc what it costs. I am not gonna have them say they didn't receive it this time. I am gonna have proof

#the first appeal request i sent they said all they ever got was a letter from my doctor #which is bullshit because i sent them 10+ pages of documentation from multiple medical professionals #but they 'have no record' of that #well this time i have the records bitch #and if they try to pretend i didn't send anything i am gonna lawyer up and fuck 'em up #this has been so stressful. the gaslighting of 'no you're not disabled. no you didn't send us the right thing' #when yes i am!! yes i did!!! #has just had me in shambles #it could be months or even over a year before i get an appeal date. but at least once this is sent #i've done all i can for now and i can focus on other shit #mod post #odsp

[druidgroves]

can't apply to this job because the requirements are insane. can't apply to that job because it's a scam. can't apply to this job because they lied about it being remote. can't apply to this other one because it doesn't pay enough. can't apply to that job because the listing is fake. can't apply to this job because it's another scam. can't apply to that one because it doesn't give benefits until 90 days in. can't apply to this job because the experience needed is wack. can't apply to this job because it is yet again another scam. does this make anyone else want to die.

#rae.txt #i feel extremely useless right now. mentally i am in shambles. #i truly have no marketable skills & i wasted my time & money going to college because it hasn't helped at fucking all. #all the jobs i want to do either require 75 years of experience or aren't actually remote. #like what do i fucking do at this point. i feel like i'm drowning.

[blightstaff-beetles]

Rifle in hand

The singing has stopped

I meet your eyes

#brennan stop making fucking poetry right now i am in shambles #co spoilers #candela spoilers #candela obscura #candela obscura chapter 2 #circle of the needle and thread

[eudico-my-beloved]

I hate to admit it but the speed really did help with the whole. Thing that went down immediately after i took 20 steps to get to whirling in rags

#i thought it would like. happen during the day but turns out it just happens right after the whole ruby incident #on an unrelated note ive just now managed to realise the time based buffs technically has no time limit if you take the drugs after 2am #(that is until you go to sleep and time starts counting again probably) #also. holy shit that whole tribunal #that check with the “kim trusts you” and “kim really trusts you” #:'(((((((((( #thank fuck i didnt fuck that one up #if i did fuck that up it probably would not have been good #i am. in shambles #stopped just a few lines after “sunrise parabellum” due to time constraints but oufnsofjwnf #i am. normal about this game #disco elysium

[canonically47]

EMILY IS PREGNANT????????

#well #my hc for her that she is 17 is now out the window #i'll just age her at like. 19 #sounds about right #anyways #EMILY IS PREGNANT?????!!!???!!!??!! #TIMOTHY. WAS IT YOU TIMOTHY. #HOLY FUCK #THIS ARC IS GONNA GO CRAZY #also LOVE how much cameron has been writing for max and gus lately. especially max #those two guys are CARRYINGGGGG the cgcu on their backs rn #anyways tags #cameron geller #cameron geller cinematic universe #emily wokerson #timothy bichboy #(mentioned) #i am in shambles #forgot one #cgcu

[orcelito]

feeling like

this right now

#speculation nation #i think the face scratch is what sealed the deal #everything is wet nd i havent even showered and my kitchen is in shambles #and my face hurts and i am feeling very overwhelmed actually #and tomorrow is going to be. difficult. #i was wanting to write some more tonight but. well. ahaha #negative/ #im just sitting here with a bandaid on my face to cover the active bleeding #tonight was a hair washing night too. god this is gonna hurt. #i think if i was anyone else i'd be crying right now. but im me. so im just doing a thousand yard stare lol #i have toilet water on my counters. i have fucking toilet water on my counters. #and i dont have anywhere Near the energy i need to deal with that.

[muckmage]

Wauhhhh AUAGH you're all so means to me (and nO I don't secretly enjoy it)

-muckmage

you hate me and want to see me suffer and die is that it? alone on the side of the road, in a ditch, huh? hm?

#i've been fucking. eviscerated. #i am in shambles right now #02 #09

[2-wuv]

ok OC character building/rambling time under the cut

(before I start I just wanna say that we are collectively psychotic and that's the end of that sentence do not @ me for any tropes/negative psychosis stereotypes talked about here. thanks.)

Ok so Nestle, right. The dude kills his SO. we've got that figured out for the Plot™. But like… what's his Motive behind it, y'know?

And… We have… About 4 angel characters in the story. All fill the role of guardian angel in some way. All know each other. Soooooooo.…

What if,,, Be it Before or After the Murdering, the Angel Council (a placeholder name) starts talking 2 him. Now the four of em have different ideas in mind for him and it is A Mess and they don't Get Along and Nestle's like, "this is fine :)" and moves on with his life and continues to commit crimes and generally being an Overall Nuisance to people around him Oh also did I mention that these 4 angels are supposed to make sure he doesn't get into any more trouble. they don't do that. they're too busy arguing abt what path they should put Nestle on.

So while they're arguing Nestle's out doing Whatever the fuck. Probably not murder. Probably. Most likely vandalism and theft and also physical assault but not MURDER, no, that was a one time thing it's fine he's fine! Meanwhile In Heaven everything's going to shit because the four fuckos cannot come 2 an agreement thus meaning they can't make sure Nestle acts nice and not violent thus meaning he is still Out Here. Committing Crimes. </3 Rip

But eVERY NOW AND THEN. They Do collectively decide on shit to tell him and they're all like "HI HEY HELLO. WE'RE YOUR GUARDIAN ANGELS. DON'T DO X THING OK BYEEEEEEeeeee" and Nestle's like "Huh. ok! :)" and stops doing X thing midway through and like ups and leaves. His friends r like "hey what" and he's like "yeah the angels told me not to, ciao" and they're like "ok go off. not the weirdest shit that's happened this week"

Just a Small Idea rn in general. We need some way to connect Thee Angels to Thee OG Crew in the story so,,, we'll ofc still keep thinking of ideas this isn't finalized at all but the idea of "one guy with multiple guardian angels who are all shit at their job" is. so funny 2 us HFJDJjajdjf

#talky #oc talk #yes i am purposefully playing around w the 'InSaNe MuRdErEr HeArS vOiCeS oOoOoH!!' stereotype but listen 2 me right now. #***I*** am the psycho clown-ass motherfucker and ***THIS*** is my goddamn circus. If i wanna fuck around w stereotypes related #to my brain bs i damn well will. and i will write it in a way that's funny to us as a whole #bc at the end of the day no one aside us and like 2 friends will read totchb tbh #I think all this would happen After Allan gets yote tho #thus meaning we still need a motive for the murder. #amd other things ofc. like i said it's all small ideas n tidbits I'm brainstorming here #so in short: #Nestle does a Violence. Allan Dies. Angels get a Notif™ thts like #'hey this guy needs guardian angels 2 keep him from being more damned. y'all r in charge.' #the angels have 2 figure out how 2 work together to keep this one guy alive #unrelated I'm feeling deja vu shit rn. the fuck. #anyways meanwhile Nestle's like 'well this is weird. go off tho. #Uhhhh anyways my life is in shambles suddenly I'm gonna go swing my bat at things bc of it. ciao.' #will also probably Indeed give him (and others in the story.) My Symptoms of Unreality Brain Disorder #Hmmmb and actually thinking abt it more. He has friends outside of Allan #(in theory. i haven't Put Characterization into any of em yet but Eventually i will) #what if They egged him on and pushed him over the edge to kill Allan..... Hmmmmb 🤔🤔🤔 perhaps. #i am falling down the characterization brainstorming rabbit hole I'm gonna stop now ajdjsjdj #ask to tag #totchb

[merry-the-cookie]

literally losing it over these edits jfc

#listen my periods a week late im in fucking shambles right now #i cried watching stranger things yesterday i cried reading fic this morning #like im a cry baby i cry easy but i am extra vulnerable right now and these ash edits #might be what does me in for tonight #teresa.txt

[lunarsapphism]

at least you can watch the leaves blow in the wind and the sky change from light to dark and at least the stars are always there even if you cant see them and at least you can listen to birds sing outside your window every morning and at least you can buy pretty flowers and put them in a vase and at least there are days to experience that arent too warm and arent too cold and at least there are clouds in the sky sometimes and at least you can go outside and sit in the rain and at least there is always music to listen to and at least theres soft blankets and nice smelling candles and at least you can collect rocks and put them on your windowsill and at least you can put fun little trinkets around your room and at least there are thousands of cats and dogs that you have the chance to pet in your lifetime and at least you can make yourself a cup of tea and have your favorite meal and at least there are so many beautiful little things about life that make it nice to exist

#i am trying soooo hard to make my night better i am fr in shambles right now lmao good fucking god. #positivity #<- like i said im trying #aiilov-personal