#FINE ILL MAKE MY OWN

[snipp-snapp-snute]

I sure do love the little "indomitable human spirit" shtick they have going on

#SO NO FANART???????? #FINE ILL MAKE MY OWN #let the loser speak #my art #fanart #art #honkai impact #honkai impact 3rd #anti entropy #welt yang #honkai einstein #honkai tesla #honkai fanart

[killjoy-prince]

House M.D. but it's when a character says the name of the episode

#house md #prince's talk tag #flashing #repitition #so as i was watching this show i noticed they'd say the episode title in the episode #so i wanted to see how many times they did it #the people on livejournal who made transcripts of the episodes are my saviors and without them this would of been so much harder to do #thank you all for your service and i hope wherever you all are you're having a great day #sometimes they would use a variation of the word like in the episode poison they would say 'poisoned' or 'poisoning' #i did not include those instances #there was an instance in 'merry little christmas' where they do play the song in the show #but since ella fitzgerald was not a character in the show i did not include it #where as in the episode 'joy to the world' the students are singing it in the concert so i did include that #i apologize for the tonal whiplash when you get to that part but it did make me laugh #one of the times kutner says 'locked in' is overshadowed by the POTW's voice over but i assure you he says it and thats why its in there #out of the main characters from the one who said the title the most to least are #House > Foreman > Wilson > Chase > Cuddy > Adams > Cameron and Taub > Kutner > Thirteen and Park #this took a bit to do lolol its probably been done already but i wanted my own #there is a chance im missing some on technicalities but idc. im fine with this #there are two more i wanna do but with a character saying another character's name but ill do that some other time #EDIT: When I was making this video I was unaware that the Pilot episode went by two names: 'Pilot' and 'Everybody Lies' #Basically everywhere I looked the first episode was only referred to by 'Pilot' #which I found weird bc i remember seeing somewhere that the last episode was paired with the first episode in terms of title #but i couldn't find hard proof so I decided to leave it out at the time #well i checked again last night and yea the pilot IS also called Everybody Lies so I updated the video #I also think it goes well with the fact that House does say 'Everybody Dies' in the finale so another reason to fix it #AND he says it without Wilson while he and Wilson say the title of the pilot sooooo yea hehehehehe

[plulp]

im so glad we all agree avery has white hairs

#my art #dol #avery the businessperson #ugh the EVERYTHING is so hard to design #i HATE designing. cant even make my own ocs BEE TEE DUBS #i hate colors too #hope this is OKAY #maybe ill change it later im not sure #i wanted to make their hair more Gray but uwwaaaaagghhhh #tried a lot of things #but this seemed to work fine #oh but all white does look kind of awesome #but i dont know #if any of you have any suggestions ill be glad to get them #OH MY GOD. it was so hard not to draw The American Psycho or Hannibal. you dont understand #i dont know how to color the suit so :(

[vehemourn]

what if people think im weird?

#thank u black dresses this album understands me i feel like #and also goodbye black dresses ill miss you :( #i like that this album feels like. to me. how trauma can make you Trap Yourself #perpetuate your own hurt in a way thats so dizzying and hard to unravel #fav songs are CAT CUP' ITS PROBABLY FINE' and especially IF YOU FIND ME GONE #k #my art #emo dog #LAUGHINGFISH #black dresses #canine #artists on tumblr #art

[be-bi-do-crime]

it’s rough out here…

#i know the govt would never have allowed their loveline to pass censorship but 😔😔😔 jlfx really wrote them so well #excited for their interactions in the drama tho i hope we somehow end up getting some rendition of the jade pendant fiasco…… its all i ask… #drunk kiss scene you will forever be mourned by me 💔 #its fine im cooking a fic for them in my docs. ill make my own food #the legend of shen li #与凤行 #mo fang #fu rong

[aftg-rot]

THAT IS HOW IT ENDS!? are you kidding me!?

#am i happy or sad!? #maybe its a good ending bc it could have gone so bad #BUT I NEED MORE #SOMETHING NORA #ANYTHING #FINE ILL MAKE MY OWN STORIES NOW #FANFIC IN COMING #essays in coming #aftg #all for the game #the foxhole court #mine #nora sakavic #jean moreau #tsc #the sunshine court

[robobee]

trying to remember how to draw (failing!) BUT for a first pass I LOVE how haunted Declan looks skjeekkek

#yes i make fanart for my own fics to cope im ILL #thats him after the very normal self torture sequence in ch3. hes going to be fine [LYING] #personal #blood cw

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

and so begins the making of christmas presents

#its the mooooost stree-essful tiiiimeeee of the yeaaarrrrrrrr #ive found good small projects that will suffice #thankfully i only have five people to crochet for! #and my grampas lap blanket is mostly done! #im keeping it shrimple <3 #man crocheting has made christmas so much easier #less expensive less stressful. still stressful but at least i dont have to find something to buy #plus handmade things have the added factor of 'i made this with my own two hands. it took time' #so people are more inclined to like what you made them no matter how simple it is! #an 'i made this for you' automatically holds more weight than 'i bought this for you' #absolutely unprompted #im actually excited to make some of these! new stuff to try! #and ofc ill be proud of what i make which is always fun. the delight of making things for people... and them Receiving it... yes.... #its like making a cake for someone but more permanent #my stepdad's getting a stocking for the dog he wants #for his - and i quote - lovey cuddle buddy #i expect that on christmas morn next year the stocking will be full of dog treats and a kong ball #my mother is getting a bandana in bright colors that suit nothing she wears #since she's keeping her hair long again. also shes insecure about gray hairs so yk fine here's somethin to cover them up with #and my two homies... my breadslices... well! i shant say! #well. one of them knows what theyre getting but hush lets pretend you dont. bc i know youre reading this rn

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

"yes im so fine"

*researches whether i can get my hands on ipecac*

#tw ed #obligatory MASSIVE do not do this #straight up poison that can kill you from one (1) time #used to be used to induce vomiting #directly the cause of death of karen carpenter and countless others #i wont i swear i wont #but i still researched it bc i was curious #tbh there are easier ways of poisoing oneself than semi illegal drugs #also if yall remember the post about a poison i own: i did more reseach and while that amount would probably kill me w no medical #intervention; it would take just under three times as much to be absolutely certain of hitting the toxic dose (calculated quantity per kg #of the top end of a given range. so it could kill me but if i was gonna go out that way id want about three times as much to be sure.) #honestly surprised ive never heard of any deaths from it. the most likely way to survive would be to throw it up i think #(or present to hospital and take charcoal or smth) #honestly though. my research says loss of consciousness and required intubation within half an hour in case studies #hence if you werent in reach of medical attention youd probably collapse an die #and i am very deliberately NOT mentioning what it is bc of how toxic it is #ive thought of combining it and another method to be absolutely sure but eh #honestly if it DIDNT work it sounds straight up embarrassing to admit to people tho thats one of the things stopping me #but literally a dose in a child requiring intubation and kid ended up in a coma recovered w no ill effects. #thats the dream yk. try and succeed and youre free; try and fail and you see no ill effects. #but yeah i wouldnt try w only the amount i have. #so im safe #....rereading the above. okay i might be a little mentally ill lol #but i am safe and absolutely nobody call the cops on me. #im fine. #tw suicide #puddleglum hours #nobody worry abt me ok. im fine. #just thinking silly lil thoughts like usual :) #EDIT: just occurred to me that using this poison could make it not look like a suicide

[torahtot]

ok ive had enough of queering judaism. can we start judaizing queerness now. or something

#like. it feels like so much of this queering judaism shtus just layers an american/secular queer identity over judaism #which i guess is fine for certain communities. but it's only going to push you away from orthodoxy #and if as queer jews we already feel like our queerness makes us into secularized outsiders in our own communities #how does this help? is trying to get our communities to embrace an essentially secular american iteration of queer identity supposed to mak #us feel LESS like outsiders? it's not quite doing it for me #we need a queerness that comes from within judaism that is essentially jewish #ive seen a couple of articles recently from ppl talking abt how word/concept of butch doesnt exist in their language & culture #but they use it anyway #& like. i love being butch. it's important to me ill never give it up #& i am american too. but my whole identity as a butch he/him lesbian is exclusively secular american it came from the outsifr #which is definitely due in large part to the fact that my Gender Problems were really tied up w orthodox jewish gender roles #so naturally to get out of that i'd pull on something not jewish. but i wish there was another option? idk if that's possible #or how it would look #maybe that's why im obsessed w the idea of a butch w long curly payos.... 😦 #i forgot where i was going w this but yeah it's frustrating #this is a large part of why im wary of starting a queer Jewish club on campus bc the people who would wanna start it w mr #well no offense but they are insufferable about this #(incidentally they're also insufferable about chanukah. no surprises there) #nachi speaks #jew blogging #others have Actually written abt all this tho

[puppyeared]

i am playing professor layton and the curious village on my ds. very fun!!!

I don't know if i'm very far in because most of the time spent in that game was me being confused and bad at puzzles. it's fun though.

!!! im glad to hear youre enjoying it!! its one of my fav titles and honestly such an underrated series, id love it if more ppl gave it a try!

the puzzles can be difficult but very rewarding!! i used to dread them as a kid but now i find them nice and challenging. the math ones are still hard, but if u speak to Flick at the cafe he'll give you chess puzzles which i think were my favorite ^_^

#its nice because its story driven but gives u enough room to do the puzzles on your own to make progress.. and the rewards like #the gizmos painting pieces and furniture for the minigames are also a nice bonus because it gives u a little extra incentive to solve as #many puzzles as possible!! ngl i didnt know how the hotel room minigame worked but i had fun completing the painting and robot dog #plus the variety and the fact that u dont know which puzzles youre gonna get makes it interesting. and theres no harm if u cant finish or #end up missing some because you can find them in the riddle shack or just do a different one instead and its fine. very cool #i have dyscalculia so the math ones have always been hard for me and id need my brothers help so we'd work on it together #or i'd just search up the answer as a last resort............ #actually im gonna save u the trouble. if u get the camera case puzzle the answer is 95. ITS FUCKED UP I KNOW BUT ITS 95 #it took me like 2 hours with my brother just to figure that out and i dont want anyone to get a headache from that one ITS FRUSTRATING #ive only played curious village and pandoras box bc its the only ones i had as a kid. replaying pandoras box rn actually!!! #i have cracked versions of unwound future and azran legacy which come after CV and PB BUT my version of unwound future is broken #it freezes on the opening cutscene every time i try to play it which SUCKS bc i really wanna play the games in order. maybe ill emulate it #professor layton #ask #answered #yapping #doodles

[shooks-stupid-stuff]

no bigger birthday art this year (or now, at least) since i was gonna do a big drawing but got hit with other art stuff and general fatigue (dw im just actually working out again and am in the 'man this shit is kicking my ass' phase chbvjcv) i cannot believe i'm fucking 20. what the hell. where did my youth go- anyways happy birthday me i guess lol

#shook arts #ik i drew myself looking so done but dw im doing fine lol #this year has been. something thusfar tho- #anyways. yes i do actually own the shirt i drew myself in (as is standard for me) and yes i did make it in jackbox #funny :] #posting this uhhh idk probably in the morning. i made this at midnight tho chbvchjv #heres to hoping the year only continues to get better for my illness ridden ass cjhbvgjcv

[patchworkgargoyle]

Found a sunbeam yesterday.

#alternatively titled: 'fine ill hold my own hand' or 'bed rotting but make it Glamorous' #ARE THESE CRINGE IDK BUT I LIKE THEM SO IM POSTING THEM #its a me

[dullahandyke]

all fun and games being a college student until youre lookin at recipes like 'i dont have a knife that isnt a butter knife. i only have one pot and no pan. making me buy two different types of oil seems like a scam. can i freeze homemade wedges if i make them'

#and my roommates have all those things and would probably be fine to lend me them #but also i do not talk to them a lot. and i am scared #and ofc worst part of being a college student is ive been putting off my work so i wont have time until like next week to go and get shit.. #wait actually my mam is picking me up tomorrow. im sure she'd drive me to home store and more. this is a win #still does not solve my Burning Urge to make my own wedges but sigh ill work w it #edit actually the WORST part of being a college student is i made the idiot move of choosing one of the tall presses #not taking into account that im too short to take advantage of all the storage space.... #i think theres one of the short presses still empty i could claim #but i dont wanna have to bend all the time to get my shit.... meguca is suffeirng

[pcktknife]

stressed yet again 😏

#wake up every other day with the goal of just trying to survive my own thoughts and feelings ugh im tired #anyway thing of today just boils down to me not being able to put my own feelings before anyone elses n caring too much things i probably #shouldnt. the anxiety of a hypothetical situation just makes me wanns kms is all #its fine ill go to sleep tonight and only think about it when im reminded for the next few days until i forget and the problem inevitably #returns again sometime like a couple weeks from now its cool👍🏾 #kae.txt

[savetheghost]

wanna be put in a room with craft stuff for 10 years

#i cant focus on anything rn but the stuff i wanna make and its turning my brain into mush #the weird brainfucked fear that if i dont get these things started Soon ill forget it #my memory is so fucking borked man and my brain runs too fucking fast to hold on to anything #i make so much that i went and made my own hell lol #the two jobs thing i think is probably the crux rn cause ive got even less time than i used to and my time blindness gives me troubles #ill get adjusted to it #sometimes with all my fucked up processing issues makes me feel like im kind of stuck in a weird bubble #like i have no idea whats happening or whos around me or what people are saying and i just have to stumble through it yknow #shouldve been born as a tiktokers pet snail #not tryna be complainy or in a bad mood or nuffin im fine i literally just want to be making stuff rn #even though works like a big Thing its also been understimulating the past week because theres nothing to do i just gotta Be Here #i need to be put under pressure i need squeezed i need smushed and i aint getting that #if i ever make something for u plz hound me about it #so i can explain in excruciating detail what step im on and how im doing it and what still needs done and how ill do THAT #i should make tutorials #i feel like im way too stream of consciousness to make anything actually helpful #idk i want a toast chee