#CANT I EVER KNOW PEACE

[fagtainsparklez]

3k notes in 6 hours……. you people want me DEAD

#icarus speaks #I JUST WOKE YP FROM A BAP #NAP #CANT I EVER KNOW PEACE

[destinysbounty]

Yall ever think about how Zane is a seer with prophetic dreams of the future, but he's also a robot with memory problems who struggles to maintain his sense of self? Like. He's condemned to see a future he cannot prevent, yet cursed to long for a past he cannot recall. His dreams are filled with the vestiges of tragedies yet to come, but never the tragedies he wishes he could remember. Do you think he ever used to get disappointed when he'd have prophetic dreams, upset that it was another vision of the future but not of the past he so desperately wished to understand?

Anyway I'm gonna start biting people

#do you think the ice emperor ever experienced zanes sixth sense? #did he ever get visions? #i wonder what the visions were like. i wonder how he felt about them #did the ice emperor ever have visions foretelling the day his friends come to save him? #did he see dreams of him in ninjago again surrounded by loved ones? #dide the ice emperor has a vision of himself in a field having long since shed the armor hes worn for 50 years? #surrounded by grass and sun and springtime. the winter is over #he and some other people are laughing and eating bountiful food. it is serene and peaceful #he wakes up but cant remember the faces of the people in the dream #he doesnt know if its a dream or a vision but either way it haunts him. he doesnt know why #20 years later he is back in ninjago and he and his friends have a picnic #the dream has come true. zane looks around and sees not friends but the blurry-faced ghosts that haunted him for so long #ninjago #zane julien #zane ninjago #destiny post

[hypogryffin]

side-by-side

#persona 3 #p3 #mitsuru kirijo #p3 aigis #i have THOUGHTS and FEELINGS about the potential of mitsuai as a dynamic #emotions even #just. listen. they are the only two who can never stop fightjng shadows. who will never have peace and never leave the other world behind #everyone else has a choice. maybe akihiko doesnt feel like he does maybe he feels like he has to get stronger and keep figjting #so that no one he knows will ever get hurt again. but its a DECISION on his part to stay fighting shadows. and everyone else has left their #fighting days behind. but aegis and mitsuru?? #aegis is a shadow suppression unit. she was created to fight shadows and even if she has a life and feelings and friends she will never #NOT be a robot made to fight and kill shadows. she can never stop. it is a part of her forever. #and mitsuru theoretically has a choice but. does she really? does she really? the moment she awoke to her persona she was cursed #now as the last kirijou alive she has a burden no one else could possibly bear. no one can take responsibility for her grandfathers sins. #nor for her fathers. nor for every person who worked at kirijou ergonomics no matter their innocence. no one but her. #she cant stop fighting shadows until the kirijou name is clear of guilt. and that will never happen until shadows stop existing #everyone else who survived sees have the option to put their weapons down. whether they choose it is on them but they CAN choose #mitsuru and aegis will never be so lucky #just. G-D! G-D! gnaws my arm off

[liquidstar]

and now for something stupid

#but really i also just wanted to play around w this sort of coloring style bc its been FOREVER since ive used it #and i think i can make it look better now #AND i think i can make more sillay stuff like this and not have it take as long w cleaning up lines #anyway now you all understand the terrible dynamic between these three #phobo's infodump text is just copypasted from the wikipedia page for knives. #julliet ALSO uses knives is the thing so hes actually mansplaining < JOKE #he just wants to share. even if it gives her a headache. but he wouldnt mansplain he doesnt have it in him. hes ok with felonies tho #but julis life hasnt known peace since she was told to take care of the newbies #and shes ALSO a newbie (just slightly less so) so really this is probably just tartarus hazing her #theyd take one look at the two disorganized unserious overeager newbies and think ''you know what would be fucking hilarious'' #and pass them onto the neurotic slightly-less-newbie who takes everything as seriously as possible. disaster combination. #i cannot stress enough that this is a group of bandits and murderers theyre NOT above hazing. #deimos actually is doing the best job at it since he is stealing as we speak #i mean hes not supposed to do it to his teammates but still. on the right track #as for the dynamic between deimos and phobos themselves its like. theyre just bros. theyre both pretty similar in personality #except deimos is kinda more mean and cynical while phobos can be kinda. dense and naive despite literally where hes at in life #but most of the time theyre basically beavis and butthead #i would also like to stress that juli is not being homophobic she just already cannot stand these guys and cant believe the audacity #but. complete misunderstanding. karma for stealing wallets ig #this will never be cleared up by anyone ever #but again thats not their dynamic they are just beavis and butthead. and i guess that makes juli daria LOL #finn's ocs #finn's art

[candlesoul]

i dont want to do anything but i want to do everything you know

#please understand me why cant i move why am i frozen #why i want to move but i cant why moving is emotionally hard am i ungrateful am i bad am i no good #i want to read but emotions are too heavy to carry i want to watch but my heart is aching i want to talk someone but in my room not interne #when will it be good will it ever be okay #is there gonna be peace feeling warmth joy friendships #will they exist at future for me? #i dont even lnow what im talking about #hope i see good dreams tonight but i know theres too much nightmare thar waits me there and im scared to tell you this but they are too muc #you have to process #you lived it but now you need feel it again #i want joy kindness warmth #i want to someone to cry #personal

[purple--queen]

To this day it still bothers me that Steve Rogers had a fucking support group who they talked stuff like "move on blablabla" & he did in fact not moved on & went back in time to be with a woman just to leave everyone behind.

#sometimes i want to talk to the people who where in charge for it #i get it. peggy was a beautiful strong independent woman who stole his heart...she took mine as well...but it still makes no sense to leave #everyone just like that... #Steve really said: see you later losers *peace sign* i get now the live i ever wanted... #i get headache just from thinking about it... #why was everyone involved in this okay with that whole thing... #it is not romantic or in character...it is creepy... #i really need to know of his interaction with peggy happend... #this is reason number whatever why i cant watch endgame again... #i saw it once & never again... #steve rogers #captain america #marvel endgame #marvel #mcu #mcu steve rogers

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

trying to imagine what a Welcome Home ending would look like (which is extremely stupid lmao considering we dont know shit about jack yet), and it's just... huh.

i doubt it's going to take the "the puppets are turned into humans and they join the real world" route (and if it does, then cool! that'd be sick as fuck!), so what would a happy ending look like for them? would they get a little sanctuary to live freely in? is there a secret world of living puppets out there somewhere?

what if its a tragic ending? the puppets either are repurposed for a new show, or stripped of their Awareness, or become inanimate objects - normal puppets? what if they just straight up fade away?

or a bittersweet ending? they renew the show in order to stay alive and together, but they're forced to return to their old lives & routines? or it's ambiguous and we don't actually see what happens after a certain point - where the ending for the audience comes before the puppet's real endgame; it's not for us to see/know, they get an unobserved close to the story.

its simultaneously fascinating and distressing to think about.

#i have an inkling its gonna be that last bittersweet one but WHO KNOWS NOT FUCKIN ME!!! #for all we know theres a secret option none of us will ever consider #and then clown'll pull it outta thin air and we'll all be like OHHHHHHH HOLY SHIT!!!! #yknow? yah? #plot twist: wally turns the entire world into puppets #i just!!! i just have thoughts! #thinking about WH ending gives me that specific bittersweet/nostalgia/dread/anticipation emotion combo i still cant name #i have to shake myself by the shoulders and screech You Have Literal Fucking Years Before It Ends. Probably. Shut The Fuck Up And Vibe. #unfortunately my brain is Incapable of shutting up and i have the compulsive need to guess the ending of everything i watch/read/enjoy #welcome home theory #welcome home speculation #honestly thinking about that last option makes me so emotional #bc it is what they deserve. they were constantly Observed and Watched and theyre still being Watched and they deserve peace and freedom #BUT AGAIN WHO KNOWS!!! WE DONT KNOW HOW THIS STORY IS GONNA UNFOLD! #what twists and turns and Developments and Evolutions it'll take #i need to chill. i need to calm down about this project. i need to go camping for a week with not a hint of cell service #i need to be on a train north. please. please-

[rushthehollow]

art of the duel

#roller coasters #cedar point #maverick #intamin #mine* #still one of the most fun seasons i had with the ride. and no its not because i was the TL for the first half. it was because of 2/4 #may 2/4 rest in peace. But 2/6 isnt so bad either. hopefully next years leadership cares about it as much as we did #we were so close to one million :') so damn close. downtime beloathed #(2/4 2/6 are interval numbers. the op manually sends the second train and if you do it right then the photo of the trains like that happens #(it is an art form to master and get comfortable with the ride) (etc) #i could go on forever but i wont here #just know. if you ever thought to yourself at cepo this year #wow! i cant beleive they can do that again! #it was mainly because of me #:')

[grapecaseschoices]

things i'd like from bg4 or any similar future games

I think BG3 is very detailed; but I would really like it if the backgrounds had mattered more. Or at least for every one. I heard if you're a drow/half-drow noble you get special dialogue with Minthara. But why didn't my Folk Hero!Tav with Wyll [or just in general?] Or my Outlander!Tav with Karlach? I love that your character gets special interaction with all and sundry, at times, re: class and race. But backgrounds make a charcacter. I don't need details. Just a bit of a nod. At least within the camp.

This brings me to point two. I wish there was a way to get friendship points. It is so strange the characters can be 'meh' about you, dislike you [and strongly], but high to exceptional bonds trigger romance. What about close friendships or growing into a family?

Speaking of, I definitely would have love some down time chatter. It is so strange to me that you get a 'this could be our last time in camp' but don't do anything with it. I appreciate the tiefling [or goblin] party. I love the idle banter on the road. But why not a couple of casual fireside chats. As a group?

I love Halsin but the fact that he is the only one we can have a polyamorous dynamic with, is bull. I'm fine with not every character being into polyam -- but maybe research more before diving into it. I am 90% sure Wyll would've been okay with Polyam - a triad too! - if it was Halsin or Astarion [maybe with Lae'zel but I have to play further to be sure]. I could see Astarion and Shadowheart swinging a 'v' dynamic, and being the best [or worst for Tav's sanity] of metamours! Maybe it would have been a hassle for coding to fit every configuration, but we deserved at least a COUPLE of Tav x Origin x Origin loving.

Also, I think we should have been able to encourage - or maybe it could have happened sans MC involvement - the npcs getting together.

#bg3 #baldur's gate #larian studios #i have more thoughts #but that is all im going to say for now #if i got into my frustration about how the only fat characters that are taller than dwarves are evil i'd be here all week #or why is there only ONE character of color in the main cast?? - no karlach doesn't count bc her voice actress is white #i know no one in larian goes here #but if anyone is ever considering an if or a video game! keep this in mind #i really love how games like wayfarer/infamous/dropout/exile [to name to name a few] have 'main' characters who are either #strictly platonic or can differentiate between what dynamic mc will have with the potential romance options #i also love how they have subromances #i wanted to list that too put this was getting long #i also no one but my moots will read this but that's perfect bc we can bitch in peace #nd that's what i wanted to get off my chest #i keep looking at karlach and dammon and being like roflmao why cant theys mooch? #or if pandira was a side/sub romance or lia - i like their fces okay #and im looking forward to adair/shadowheart/halsin but what ive heard there isnt much to be excited about lmao #also there's no bg4. the header is jokes!

[parasitic-saint]

something you need to know abt me is that im extremely scared of artificial voices (think siri, alexa, any voice on gps thingies while driving) and no one believed me when the alexa changed voices one night, even tho i froze in place and all the hairs in my body stand up...

anyway, i'm also terrified of blonde and not really human faces... like that mix specifically (think "i feel fantastic" lady android, max headroom and the first mask of "possibly in michigan")

just felt like sharing <3

#the parasite talks #idk where these fears come from honestly #i've tried watching the max headroom series but i cant #i cant go past the intro without feeling physically ill #i've been able to watch possibly in michigan and is my favorite video and song ever #but the other two i cant at all #i also scream an cry when there's a picture of a being looking directly “at you” but im guessing that's normal if the intent was to scare #i also imagine beings looking at me through the windows and dark screens and generally the dark but i know thats my crazy mind #that's why i have my windows taped vampire style like the wwdits house #and when i was little i would stare at my toys for a long while in case they would move or blink #i still think they do that but i have made peace with it #specially because i had 2 toys that actually moved and talked without me touching them i guess that made something in my brain go wrong #but they were mostly batteries corroding #although one was alive for almost 20 years with the same batteries #sometimes i worry what will happen when i live alone...

[bunnihearted]

🫎

#this place drives me crazy.... #i notice it esp bc when im outside and feel a tiny bit better #(unfortunately this city is a nightmare for a hypervigilant like me to live bc theres crazyyy much noise 24/7) #but my home has for the first 23yrs of my life been a noise wise calm place to wind down and be safe and relax #but a couple of years ago there was like a shift and everyone who moves in here are crazy #my neighbors are constantly stomping banging and thumping. constantly....... #people outside are always screaming and yelling and slamming doors and everything u can do #they let their kids run around and scream like demons and throw rocks on cats and piss on the walls #and they go around with metal pipes or sticks and hit everything #like.... im sorry if u wanna call me a childhater for saying thats fucked up then go ahead #that's not sane behavior and the parents dont raise their kids anymore #constant yelling.... anyway #we have a clan of ppl who do lots of illegal things which is above all NOISYYYYYY #they make shit in the apartment above me and then live in another and then large moving trucks come and pick it up #?????? if u wanna call me a stuck up karen for thinking thats not ok to do to your neighbors go ahead!!!!!! im a bitter bitch #i dont think it's ok to cause such disturbance to your neighbors they cant sleep or exist in peace but thats just me ig!!!!! #these ppl living here are batshit insane bc i've been here for 25 and it's never been like this #and i mean it's MY problem for being noise sensitive ofc #but i feel like my brain is CONSTANTLY always being overstimulated and i can barely function anymore #i like legit wanna kms just to escape all this noise #i dont get any quiet moment ever #not even in the middle of the night there is always some human making noise and causing a disturbance #a few years ago it could be dead quiet in the middle of the day #what has happened im losing my miiiiiiind i wanna dieeeeeeeee #what happens when i reach a point where my brain just overcooks and i explode? #what will i do? what will i do when i lose control sksksk that shit scares me i dont wanna see #i cant live like this but im stuck and i dont know how to get out #and my mom was in a smaller city the other day and she said it was a crazy amount of noise yhere to #what do i do? whrre do i go???? i might jusy have to go deaf or smth i cant do this

[kennys-parka-jacket]

I need to compile a comfort compilation of all the times someone acts concerned about kenny's death. Or just acts normal about him dying.

#You know that moment from s6 when kyle is like 'ever since kenny died i've been scared of my friends dying. I cant go through that again' #That's the good stuff #'Huh. He does look peaceful without his parka...'

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

most days I'm so chill with the fact I'm non-contact with my father, it was the best decision, I hate him, my life is so much more peaceful without him

then bam it's a random Tuesday at 8pm and I'm sobbing because I miss having a dad, like, excuse me what is this??

#im ping ponging between its all his fault he made all those decisions to maybe he was doing what he thought was right #i barely ever had a dad so i dont know what im crying for pff #if he died tomorrow I'm not sure I'd go to his funereal I don't want him at my wedding #but sometimes I want him to just hold me and read me narnia like he did when I was 9 #my parents were terrible but its cause they didnt know what they were doing but i dont know how to make peace with that #would it have killed them to be nice to me? #this is very simplified but yk #gonna go read some draco scorpius centred fanfics now to make me cry more cant wait!! #i hate him i hate him i HATE HIM I HATE HIM #but i didnt always and i dont want to but there are things you just cant take back #anywayz thats enough trauma dumping on main lmfao #if anyone has any father child centred fanfictions do let me know and give them to me plz thanks #daddy issues #are screaming #scorpius malfoy #and god do i hate his new wife #this is way too many tags im sorry to anyone whos made it down here lmfao

[simcardiac-arrested]

ok to be fair this is less of a pipe bomb and more of me drawing him with a peace sign for the second time in a row. needed to get him out of my head.

BACK OFF WITCH ! HUZZAH ! HALT !!

#WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME. WHY DID YOU DRAW HIM IN THE MIB TSHIRT #WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEMÉ #oh my goddddd #i cant WHY DID YOU DRAW HIM IN THE MIB TSHIRT. ANSWER ME #THROWING YOU IN A WASHING MACHINE #i’ll start biting people #fencing emoji #leave me alone i need to go to class. uehhgh #you’ll pay for all this shit someday just watch out #watch out #cramswering #is for me tag #oc: no way back #it’s ok he’s supposed to have a peace sign in every drawing ever it’s integral to him #he’s bisexual #FFFUUUCK I JUST DONT KNOW WHY YOU’D GIVE HIM THE MIB DRIP OUTFIT #LEAVE ME ALONE #THEY SHOULDNT MAKE MOVIES EVER

[the-holy-ghosted]

i asked for requests like ages ago and they have all been sitting collecting dust in my ask box because every time i go to draw something i black out and come to with another drawing of one of john lynch's characters. every time. without fail

#the heron speaketh #could tag this but i wont because i have some pride #i just think hes neat your honor i like his nose. a lot #will i EVER know peace. will this man ever cease to bewitch me. i cant start ideas for torn water pieces i cANT #i cant. i SHANT. i will but i shouldnt #youre all getting 6000 drawings of tadgh im SORRY

[toaster-selfships]

Send me good wishes yall. I'm going to try and work on some late work when I get home but I'm chronically bad at doing that without an energy drink but I'm not ready for the impending doom of selling my soul to energy drinks so I can function

Uuhhhhhhhhh I accidentally went on a tangent and there's a whole vent in the tags oopsies

#i already get an energy drink every time on my lunch break at work. but thats partly cause im not too fond of my current job anyways #i dont need perfect grades just. as long as theyre passing i dont care #and are still passing grades after whatverr the finals do to it #im going to a trade school anyways gpa doesnt matter. ive just. QUITE LITERALLY. spent my whole life smacking my head into a desk- #-cause of school. and im so desperate to get my ass outta here. It'll be so much easier cause i will be free from family too #once i get my own place that is. I honest to God would rather sell my soul to two jobs and come home to peace and breathe #than this hell now. being at school is tourment and being at home is tourment. cant wait till im actually HOME. and not some. house. #home is where the dodge challenger that i will sleep in is. home is where the heart is. and my heart isnt anywhere here. #just. one more year. i can get my license at my brithday which is all the way in decemeber but. one more year from now #and I can scrape by and graduate and say adios. #i refuse to acknowledge the scenerio of not making it cause. fuck it we ball or something. am i using that saying right #i already did my time in prison(summer school) #i dont know about yall but summer school was honestly one of the WORST expereinces ive ever been in. horrible.