#BUT NOW IT'S JUST A BUMMER- BECAUSE-

[birchbow]

Your character designs are always so dang cool!!! Are the captain positions on other ships in the holy fleet challenged for like the position of GHB in a duel to the death, or are they appointed? (Some combination thereof?) The Orisoner looks so friendly, but I bet he’s brained somebody with that whimsical staff! I love that in the group shot Kurloz’s frame is almost a 2x scaled up version of Sister Waspclaw - his Gigantic Lankiness is just so fun. (Also LMAO at Kurloz being too prudish to claim his right to show tits! Honestly any time he mentions modesty standards being different a couple centuries ago it cracks me right up 😂)

Aw, thank you! :D Waspclaw is real small for a highblood, especially a relatively old and powerful one--smaller than pretty much all her pupated students, and a few of the pre-pupation ones! So next to Kurloz "Big Motherfucker" Makara, she's absolutely tiny. But does still manage to have more boobs than he does. Tragic.

RE: succession, it varies! It's pretty much always going to include some amount of combat--some of the variety where the loser is allowed to slink away and lick their wounds, and some where they definitely don't. Let's see. On a scale from most to least "Challenge To The Death"...

Definitely the Behemoth. It follows the same rules as the Grand Highblood challenge--if two trolls who want to be in charge walk into what passes for a captain's court on the Freakshow, only one is going to come out. Yozuna's not fast, and most trolls who ARE fast aren't nearly strong enough to make a dent in it even if they hit it--but the fact that Kurloz is big enough to really hit it hard and also came up specializing in speed and evasion is probably a real big part of the reason it hasn't made any attempt to challenge him for the throne, honestly.

Waspclaw. She's very lax with gutsy newbies getting fresh with each other and their superiors, thus the Joker's reputation for letting people get away with stuff, but stepping to her directly is SUPER dangerous. Make your gamble if you know you can get away with it!! But always know you aren't going to get away with it with her. :o) Plus, much like the Uderaks and Untoxxic, she works in poisons and venoms, and also she's heavily min-maxed into speed, so by the time you realize your challenge fight has officially been accepted, she's gone "well, they made their choice!" and you've been stung with something fatal.

The Abattoir. He isn't fucking around, although she also strikes me as very businesslike about it, and not inclined to be vindictive about the act of the challenge itself. I think the format is a little less "immediate fight to the death" and a little more "courtly duel" in keeping with both of his knightly sort of vibes. The exception being if you manage to draw blood on either of him, in which case shit flips very much into death-match mode. Also like. Hard-mode. You do have to challenge for both ships at once, and you will be fighting both of her. So like, considering authority over Elixir and Stardust features a lot of interfacing with the nonbelievers and doing Finance and shit, not a lot of people are jumping at THAT daunting prospect lol.

The Judgment. She wants to hear your argument for why the fuck you think you have what it takes to perform the physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually-taxing work of disciplining the wayward sinner-criminals of the church, and she's not getting any younger, here! If she feels like she's won her argument and the battle and you're inclined to back down in shame, she's not going to continue to press the point, but she will definitely openly think less of you for making a stupid and badly thought out attempt on her authority. She's as close as the church fleet gets to having a legislacerator taskforce, and she's just as stern and hard-assed as the Cruelest Bar, but also a large part of the Penitent's function is for flagellation and rehabilitation (???) of potentially-redeemable highbloods who've fucked up in ways that the church considers forgivable enough to give them a shot. She's down to clown (fatal) but also she's not an executioner necessarily.

Brother Libation. I drew inspiration from Il Dottore from the commedia del'arte, Bacchus, and the whole concept of drunken fist characters as an archetype, so if he's challenged he's got like... a 33% chance of just offering some kind of whimsical puzzle challenge that nobody ever manages to solve to his satisfaction, a 33% chance of just verbally convincing them to chill the fuck out by being a Cool Hang, and a 33% chance of bonking them heartily to the brink of death with his big spiky gourd.

The Orisoner wins for least deathmatchy. You can try to challenge, but you'll just get invited to come chill and vibe and just like. Really get into why you think your leadership will be hilarious and honoring to the messiahs, and what you think about art, and why you feel like you need captaincy to make the changes you want to see in the church and empire. If anybody attempts to escalate to violence, they'll mostly be met with a vaguely disappointed, surprisingly benevolent no-weapon-open-palms kind of rebuff, and if things continue to get more aggressive from there, the big spiky walloping staff will come out and be employed with startling effectiveness and skill lmao. But! If there were ever going to be highbloods inclined to take debate of best leadership policy over violence, it's the ones who decide they want to be theologians professionally. (Debate of best religious interpretation is a whole other ballgame, and gets aggressive here more than any other ship on the fleet lol). Orisoner in general though, would be one of the safer trolls you could be around as like, a human or a lowblood, if you had to pick a ship.

#ask time! #Gianna Yozuna #Vespul Astopa #The Orisoner #The Abattoir #Zhadie Deijou #Bachio Dotore #Yozuna is where it is because it just plain likes to fight. It likes to win and be on top and be challenged and fuck people up. So like. #do not recommend. as a troll to challenge lmao. #It's probably the only one who like. If you issued a serious challenge even if it just stood up and its killing intent convinced you- #-to back down and apologize. that bell is rung and you ARE now dead. Most of the others would be willing to let a challenger go #just demanding varying types and degrees of penance/grovelling/leaving and never coming back to their various ships #meanwhile Orisoner will kick somebody's ass up and down the deck with deadly intent if pushed and then be like #''anyway i hope this was like totally enlightening motherfucker. :o) Come on up for the service of laughter tonight! :o)'' #or like. ''aw man bummer :o('' if they died

[blujayonthewing]

literally genuinely hate to be this guy because I originally WANTED to watch the dub because subtitles are annoying and distracting for my adhd ass but I don't know how y'all can stand marcille sounding like a nurse joy

#why is she DOING IT LIKE THAT... PLEASE..... #I actually really Don't Like any of the voice performances in the dub except chilchuck which is a bummer #and I also kinda feel like a lot of the translations are? weird for no reason?? which is a MAJOR BUMMER TBH #(IS THAT LINE REALLY 'YOU'RE SO CRINGE' IN DUB?? PLEASE SAY SIKE???) #but marcille's voice is so.... :') yeah yeah yeah let's get into the more serious moments of this story with the VA doing a Fake Lady Voice #SORRY FOR BEING A HATER it's just annoying because I wanted!! to be watching the dub I don't WANNA be a WEEB ABOUT IT #and like I don't knoooow maybe she also sounds like she's Doing A Voice in japanese and it's just harder to tell because I don't speak it #BIG SHRUG. DON'T LIKE THE IT. #like I watched the first ep in english FIRST and was so '... :\' about the VA that I tried the sub just because I felt disappointed #anyway. sorry weebs. I get it now. #about me

[dimsilver]

🎥

#friend of mine just offered me a job as a project coordinator for his visual production company…I declined because I feel like I’m currently #in the right job for me #but I’m so honored I just!! #I’ve helped him with several short films now (another this weekend) and it means so much to me that he appreciates my help enough #to offer me this #kind of a bummer I can’t do both

[ginalinettiofficial]

ok i’m actually mad abt how little continuity dndads has rn like why are we doing memory stuff if we haven’t checked to make it consistent w what we’ve already said has happened ????

and also why are they seemingly determined to character assassinate ALL of the characters from s1???? up to and including the already dead ones?????

and ALSO what is even the plot anymore i feel like the world building has been so inconsistent and loosey-goosey and like that’s okay when it isn’t relevant to the plot but in this season where it IS relevant to the plot like. what are we doing???? who can or can’t travel between dimensions???? what are the limitations????

i’m just confused and annoyed i want it to be a fun show with a story that you can follow again but lately it’s been just a mess. still fun ofc because all five of them are just fun to listen to but like. i have not been able to make any sense of what the fuck is going on for like a solid 4 episodes now and i’m just disheartened about it. it’s gone off the rails but not in a hehehaha funny fun way.

#d speaks #dndads #dndads spoilers #srry i just needed to vent like. what is happening what is happening ???? i’m so confused i don’t LIKE being constantly confused #and also i am getting so so sick of this ‘everything has to be grimdarksad no one gets a happy ending’ bs #it’s just annoying it’s pessimistic and i think there’s a line between being a comedy that deals with deep and serious issues and then just #being a bummer downer that has jokes in it. like it’s so pessimistic and none of the root issues are being solved or even fully fleshed out #and the constant indecision about the backstories of all these characters (the kiddads & the og dads) is SO frustrating #i know that there’s a degree of that to be expected just as is natural for improv #but also you’ve gotta have SOME consistency please i’m begging #i’m relistening to s1 rn and i’m in the later episodes and it’s just like. i miss when they had clear arcs #and yeah back before they character assassinated every single kiddad !!!! #also freddie and anthony specifically and their takes on glenn this episode. what the fuck was that #are you trying to tell me that everyone who said in s1 that glenn didn’t change and didn’t have any arc was RIGHT?????? #because you spent a LOT of time talking about how silly that opinion was just to now turn and around and be like yeah glenn is reverted #back to who he was in e1 !!!! like cmon. what the hell

[someone-you-do-not-know]

I kinda miss how much statistical information ff.net gave users about their fanfictions. Like sure. It also encouraged users to go slightly insane over numbers and updating just to see number go up. But AO3 gives me no indication or clue on how many people have read my stories. Like, for all I know, based on the numbers, even those with the biggest numbers could technically only have been read by the number of people who left kudos – and guests could theoretically be left by the same person. And it's completely impossible to tell for ongoing multichapter stories whether people just left after the first chapter unless they leave a comment.

I just miss parts of ff.net.

#fanfiction #writing fanfiction #ao3 #ff.net #being silly #I swear I'm not trying to complain or be a bummer #But when people tell me my stories are popular #I just can't see it #I don't feel popular? #There's a certain disconnect between being an author looking at a number and being the audience looking at the same number #I guess it's the same old song and dance #Leave kudos and a comment and all that #Which isn't really a requirement for reading #But don't be surprised if the people on the other end only look at kudos bookmarks or comments to gauge interest #For the longest time I thought no one even cared about my Birdbrains story because several of the parts had no or very few comments #Stars helped to get some of that passion back by commenting on all of them #Touched part 8 yesterday which was a huge accomplishment #i will shut up now

[parallaxabomination]

my brain is so full of stress it might explode. but ill do my best to keep putting out my best and stay kind to myself and others. but man, is it hard

#i wish i had something for myself rn #but i come home so exhausted i cant even focus on art #everything has been burning me so thin #i keep talking down my own art now. i keep refunding clients. i honestly want to give up on everything #people tell me i do a good job but i dont see it. i dont see an artist whos worth anything right now. #i dont know if thats a phrase #i have a early morning shift tomorrow and i cant fall asleep #i want to just rest but im so restless #i dont want to put pressure on anyone besides myself bc i feel like a huge burden #if i do so #everyone else should be having a good time #so i feel like a bummer to take up their emotional space and time #i appreciate the kindness people have shown me recently #i know i work hard. but im still so broken over everything #i just havent felt like an artist since it happend #he left a bigger scar on my ego than i thought it would #and every time i voice it i feel someone is out to end me for it #but at the same time i feel completely unnoticed and unheard #i dont expect anyone to see me as me #i just feel this lump in my throat now. this weight on my hand #they say kind things but im so hurt inside i dont see it as truth right now. i dont see anything worth admiring #they say such sweet things and i want to accept them so bad because my heart needs it #but i cant help but feel the words die as they reach my ears. im just too hurt i cant see it #i cant see the truth in my work all i see is someone else's desire in their commission #as long as they are happy. as long as they are satisfied #thats all that matters #i dont feel important enough to be apart of the process anymore #i dont feel worthy as a person or artist #i just feel less than nothing and that no one will care

[elijahwoodnot]

this is super random and not important but one time i was hanging with a buddy and trying to tell them about a cool experience i had while hanging out with other people and they didn’t seem enthused so i was like “it was really cool !” and they replied “well forgive me if i’m not over the moon about the fact that you had fun with someone other than me” and that’s when i learned that was the most manipulative and toxic person i had ever accidentally befriended

#like the friendship itself wasn’t ALL bad by any means #and we still see each other and hang out occasionally #but i try not to do anything one on one and honestly every time we do they just exhibit more weird and manipulative behavior #it’s a bummer because we were super close last year but i’ve taken some time to put some distance between us #after several similar and weird comments in a row #and the more i look back the more uncomfortable our entire relationship was #so in truth i’m happier now #but still adjusting and processing honestly #anyway this is very pointless but i didn’t know where else to put it #personal

[journcys-archived]

Soooo….

because I do enjoy originshipping, I’m going to say that in Wallace’s main verse (not when writing WITH Steven’s ), he’s married to Steven. Not a specific one. He’s no longer exclusive to a Steven right now and idk if he will be for a while.

I’m uncertain if I’ll take a step back from origin shipping as a whole or not; just…trying to figure things out, but my pinned and Wallace’s bio will be edited once I get home from work.

I probably won’t be on tumblr much today. You can find me on discord.

#PSA #Paloma had to step away for personal reasons and I totally understand her and it’s not malicious or anything #she was also nice enough to come and tell me so I’m not mad at her #it’s just a bummer though for so much lore and stuff I have to pick apart now #I might…take a step back from originshipping as well and just have it mentioned instead of writing it I don’t know #I need to have that good connection again because Wallace is so important to me. #0. — cat. | out of character. #vent #tbd

[coquelicoq]

wow i am now attempting to edit the crosswords i wrote a week and a half ago and tested last week and they are. bad. i've already completely refilled one of them, refilled about half of another, and at the top of a third i had just written "too hard + boring" so will likely need to refill much of that one too. and when i'm done refilling i will still have to write new clues...i was not on my game in late february apparently! at least the rewriting process has been going okay. i'm so much more efficient at this than i used to be, which means i can be a lot pickier about quality now. so that's a good feeling, though obviously i would prefer to just...do better from the outset lol.

#i haven't been inspired to care about the quality lately but then i gave one of my themed puzzles to two of my friends #and they gave me feedback on the clues and i was like oh right. those matter #in good news though i think my meticulous database maintenance practice is paying off #because now when i refill i usually do get a lot of options from the software and i rarely have to do it by hand #which saves A LOT of time #inch by inch i am making this fucking garden grow goddammit #if you think about it i've only had this database for what. less than four years? and then all of my changes were overwritten #a year or so in. so my current wordlist is the result of only a little over two years of active work #just imagine how good it's going to be after two more years!! #cruciverbs #i came on here to write this purely as a way to encourage myself because it's such a bummer that these puzzles suck so bad lol #back to the grind

[cau-lee-flower215]

fuck dude.

#there’s no reason to be mad #it’s not her fault #but i was excited about this #and now we’re missing a huge chunk because she’s running late #but it’s not her fault #and i’m just cranky i guess #but like #this is a bummer bro

[starryserenade]

When I saw that the Topolino comics were making an adaptation of The Little Prince, I was soooo sure Minnie was going to make an appearance as Mickey's precious rose, and/or that we were going to get some whimsified version of that tragic ending.

The end result was still lovely--gorgeous gorgeous artwork and a really creative, beautiful story. But that doesn't mean I wasn't a little bummed that those other elements weren't at all present.

#if there's one thing I've noticed about those comics #it's that they don't seem to have much of a fondness for Minnie #she doesn't quite read like herself #and neither of them seem nearly as loyal to the other as they are in nearly all other media #which is kind of a bummer #because while their adaptations are a little crazy and sometimes weird #(btw I'm talking about the ones since Disney took over and NOT the really weird ones from way back when) #the artwork is always so pretty #and they do think outside the box in a really neat way #I just wish Minnie wasn't boxed into this little corner #they kind of write her like a brat #and it just seems they're missing that core essence of her character #which is her love #not just cheap romantic crush kind of love #but an overflowing compassion and care for Mickey and everyone else #ah #hold on #I think my Minnie mode has been activated lol #every now and then I switch back and forth between feeling really close with one or the other #right now it's Min I guess #xD

[blujayonthewing]

one thing that's fun for me every single year as a person on the internet is that 'depression and existential despair over having essentially wasted your favorite part of the year, again' season lines up exactly with 'everyone on earth absolutely tripping over each other to yell about how happy they are that this part of the year is almost over and how much they hate it and think it fucking sucks'

#OH BOY JAY'S SEASONAL DEPRESSION SEASON IS FINALLY JUST AROUND THE CORNER!! #FUCK WARM WEATHER AND GREEN LIVING NATURE AND GOING TO THE BEACH I LOVE IT WHEN IT'S JAY GETTING SEASONAL DEPRESSION TIME!! #it's nobody's FAULT it can't be HELPED but :') #although. I am a little salty at how often it's framed like 'I'm not like OTHER GIRLS. *I* prefer sweaters and pumpkin spice 😌' #are these other girls in the room with us right now #also I mean not that it's not like this year round tbh #every other human being alive all summer: ugh what is worse than JUNE I fucking HATE this fuckass shit weather DISGUSTING UGHH #me-- loves going to the beach and being in the woods but nonetheless rotting away indoors because of Mental Illness: #(it's not EVERYONE on earth I know I have friends who are fellow summer lovers but you know what I mean) #and like!! I LIKE autumn!! it's just... bittersweet. always has been #and no one who Loves It can talk about it without also mentioning how much they LOATHE AND DESPISE summer #it's just a bummer #about me

[ghcstcd]

Feeling a bit lost right now, especially when it comes to drawing.

#bummer. Because I do feel better about the ghost band situation #but then again. my depression has been kicking my ass for like two weeks now :'/ #and I know the trigger but it's also nothing i can just sweep under the rug

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#guess who fucking fried 3 very fucking expensive machines today. me. i did #bc a fucking cabled decided to burn out and there was only one little symptom so i switched out the sensor head and inadvertently fried #another instrument. then when i was wait. hang on wtf happened here? and i was trouble shooting. i fried another one. so im down to one #machine. fucking holy christ. one mother fucking cable. a problem i cant fucking control and then i just fucking spred the problem #god dammit. which means i either have to do 20 additional days or we cut the number of reps to 7 or 8 #and because of this. ive Disrupted the plans of 4 different labs bc it takes at least 3 months for them to do calibration #ugh. i was so angry. whatever. its fine. these things happen in labs and u kinda just have to deal with it. i dont really feel bad on a #personal level bc ive been working with these things for like 4 years and if i mishandled the problem something was pretty fucked up #bc ive fixed a lot of fucking problems on those machines. bleh. and as im like simmering with rage my family is texting eachother like #yayyy vacation soon ☺️ #ugh. its just so frustrating bc i onlu had like 7 days left and i could have got thru all 10 reps. its gonna b maddening on one machine #ans ill have to do more when i fucking get back from vacation when i want it fucking done now but whatever ive bought #my fucking plane tickets and i leave in less than 2 weeks. plus ill get to spend at least one day at home #god im gonna be such a fucking bummer tho. im gonna get of the plane and my fam will b like how r u? and im gonna b like not fucking great #i am barely a functional person and im sure ill b so stressed abt thr fact i have to come back here that ill b on edge the whole time bc #thsts what happened over winter break. whatever. next weekend ill b fucking outta here for like 11 days #and just a few more months until i can leave for good. never walk into thst fucking building again. not that i have anything ready for thst #move. bc again. im barely a functional person #god. now i have to fucking ask for thr stupid bottom of the chamber for this last machine. i swear to christ if i have to fucking drive #down to [redacted] i fucking dont even kno #unrelated

[strawberry-jan]

Hello, friends! I recently finished another fic! 亀が如く (“Like a Turtle”) is a story about two middle-aged murderers getting extremely into turtle racing in the summer of 1605. It’s over 30,000 words of lavishly-described summer vibes, high-stakes turtle-based gambling, and extended references to 17th-century kabuki plays. I mean, really, what more could you ask for? 

#crime boys #fic #my art #writing about kenzan was initially a bummer (because no one reads kenzan fic) #but at this point i am firm in my resolution to just write whatever i like #i'm gonna do something for ishin next and no one can stop me #like a worse/better version of my commitment to mahjong-centric stories #that being said #i would love it if you read this and told me what you liked because i put a tonnnn of effort and research into this one! #howling at the realization that this is now the longest kenzan fic in the entire tag

[beauceronn]

Screaming and crying my friend isn't going to the last AKC show in the state this year. That opens up my schedule significantly (I can help out with other breeds) but I'm pretty bummed... I think most people I know aren't going. I'm still hoping to make it a weekend trip, I really like the location and the show was super fun last year. So if anyone wants to attend a fun show in southern CO,

#this is just a major bummer because that means last weekend was our last show weekend this year #until presumably denver in february since he only shows akc #there are like 2 ukc shows and some fun matches between now and then but nothing im pumped for #i really dont like ukc lol..