#BUT ITS GONNA BE FUNNNNNNN

[vvitchering]

Last minute decided I’m going to megacon and then even more last minute decided to grab a Neil Newbon autograph ticket. Now I have to decide what to have him sign djskdjdjd

#this is gonna be my birthday present to myself this year so I’m splurging a little bit #none of my nerdy friends could go so I’m going with one of my more normie friends and I hope she doesn’t get overwhelmed 😂 #also really wish they’d release the actual autograph schedule so I could plan my day #I gotta buy a higher quality mask for this too #BUT ITS GONNA BE FUNNNNNNN #I’ve missed cons #life

[holographicbutch]

What the hell

#picture is from a few hours ago its gotten worse since then >:( #there goes all my fun plans for the weekend. i am not making a 2hr trip north in this weather #i wanted to see my friends new puppy so bad 😭 and we were gonna do dnd and spend the night #it was gonna be so funnnnnnn waaaaaahhh #we might try again next week but. sad :( #skele says stuff #posting two pics so hopefully this post doesnt take up the whole screen lmao

[socially-unexeptional]

have not slept all night lmao

#prolly wont sleep until at least 10-11 #havin funnnnnnn #fish is doing fine #jet star keeps throwing up and wont keep and Pedialyte pepto bismol or charcoal down #violet is doing okay question mark. i cant tell #peaches still cant stand up and and she is crying constantly #its like a 50/50 if shes even gonna fucking make it #we cant find a vet thats oppen on sundays #i dont know what to do

[reminiscingtonight]

bracelet+hoodie+braid - aitana bonmati

All Locked Up (Aitana Bonmatí x Reader)

[WOSO Masterlist]

The first thing that registers is the pounding of your head.

Groaning, you lift a hand to rub at your face.

Only for the second thing to register when a sharp pain flares up at your wrist and your hand hits resistance before it can reach its destination.

“What the--” you mutter, staring at your hand with wonder. You give your limb another tug but still it goes nowhere.

Following the silver bracelet on your wrist, you trace it to a sleeping form next to you.

Peacefully closed eyes, button nose, hair done up in neat braids, yeah, you’d know that face anywhere.

“Aita.”

Your best friend murmurs incomprehensibly but doesn’t stir.

You sigh, nudging her again. “Aita!”

This time you get a tiny mumble, the other girl’s eyebrows furrowing as she fights to stay asleep.

“Aitana wake up!” This time your words are paired with a harsh yank of the bracelet on your wrist, Aitana’s hand consequently raising up as a result.

With a sputter the brunette wakes, lurching up so suddenly you almost clash heads.

“Ugh,” she groans, clearly feeling the effects of partying last night as much as you. “Why are you yelling so early in the morning?”

“It’s nearly noon,” you point out.

Aitana rolls her eyes at your correction. “Whatever. My question still stands. Why the yelling?”

“I don’t know, Aita, you tell me. Why are we handcuffed together?”

The footballer’s eyes stay narrowed for a second.

It’s clear when your words finally hit.

“Why are we what?!”

She seems frantic when she notices the predicament you’re in, ignoring your hisses of pain when she starts yanking her arm back with vigor.

“Stop it!” you yelp, free hand clamping down on Aitana’s wrist to stop her from detaching your hand from your body.

“Give me the key!” she all but shouts.

You give her a look. “You think I’d wake you up if I had the key? Honestly-- Wait why do you think the handcuff’s mine? For all I know it could be yours!”

Aitana tries to shove you in retaliation but all it does is yank her on top of you when you fall over.

“Why hello there,” she chuckles, wiggling her eyebrows in a suggestive manner.

“Do not even think about it. You’re not getting anywhere near my pants until we get out of these cuffs.”

Aitana lets out a groan when you shuffle your way out from under her.

While you reach for your phone in hopes of piecing together your night, Aitana snags a discarded hoodie from the foot of the bed.

You give her a look. “What do you think you’re doing with that?”

“I’m cold,” she points out like it’s obvious.

You roll your eyes at her. “And how do you think you’re going to get it on?”

Aitana opens her mouth, retort ready to fire before she realizes you’re right. Her mouth snaps shut with a click.

Sighing, you scoop up a blanket and drape it over her shoulders.

You pretend not to feel something when her free hand grazes yours and she murmurs a soft ‘thank you.’

Some day the two of you will have to sit down and actually define what you are.

Some day.

But not today.

You have more pressing things to do.

Like kill Patri and Claudia.

When Aitana frowns at your declaration you shove your phone into her hand.

“I swear to god, when I find them--” you huff.

Aitana’s silent as she reads through your text chain with the older of the two. Clearly sent sometime after the two of you got home and passed out, the texts read as follows:

[when you and aitana gonna get together]

[?]

[are you ignoring me :(]

[haha blame claudia]

[dunno where she got the cuffs didn’t ask but it was a great plan]

[have funnnnnnn]

[no freedom until you figure things out]

Clearly you’re going to need to re-educate Patri on what an “emergency key” means. Because sneaking into people’s houses in the middle of the night to handcuff them is definitely not in the handbook of uses.

Aitana seems to agree as she all but shoves your car keys into your hands.

“You hit high, I’ll hit low. If we double team one of them, the other will definitely break too.”

#aitana bonmati x reader #aitana bonmati imagine #woso x reader #woso imagine #Ace writes #3wp

[dufrau]

guyyyyyys i am having so much fun writing this not-exactly-TLOU ronance AU like im 1600 words in and still getting through the whole end of the world part but it is so much funnnnnnn. nancy in her lil bunker! my baby! this is everything i have ever wanted to write! i mean its probably gonna get less fun at some point but like maybe not who knows maybe this is going to be just an incredibly chill apocalypse.

#doomsday prepper nancy wheeler #the last of us bill and frank AU #ronance

[fizzfags]

well that sucked. anyways im not gonna pretend that emizel having his mouth taken away and then the moment he got it back biting his tongue off out of spite wasnt hot as fuck. sorry i think this is the only way i can deal with this episode. finger his wounds friday or whatever. wait no its saturday. shit. hey nico avien if youre seeing this post should i go to the party? like is it too late to go now? is it even worth it. or is it just like a you guys thingits fine if it is ^_^ hope you guys have funnnnnnn :3

#barking

[idiotsofoz]

OK I JUST LISTENED TO ALL YOUR SUGGESTIONS!!!!!!! :DDDD I went into that whole thing fully expecting them to not be my thing, but oh my gosh??????? Those songs were so fun omggggggg!!!!!! I'm definitely gonna listen to them more than once :DD I'm kinda conflicted about I Constantly Thank God For Esteban (there were some very cool things going on in that song but also I couldn't fully get into it), and I still maintain that Too Weird To Live is good but not for me, but the rest were so good and so funnnnnnn- I think my favorites were London Beckoned, Time To Dance, The Only Difference Between Martyrdom and Suicide, Nearly Witches, and Sarah Smiles 😁

I did not have "becoming a Panic! fan" on my 2023 bingo card, but here we are

Sorry I know this ask is running long but here were the notes I wrote while listening to all of them XP

(That thing I said about a Dallon part in Time To Dance is because one time I saw a compilation of a bunch of times that Dallon sang "give me envy, give me malice, give me your attention", and now the way that part of the song sounds is just BURNED INTO MY BRAIN XD)

LAUGHED OUT LOUD AT YOUR COMMENT ON NEARLY WITCHES. oh yeah oh yeah!!!!!!

i completely get TWTL not being your thing just wanted to share some of my favorites :D and since you seemed to like afycso i would suggest listening to the album all the way through its super good and has cool transitions between songs :O

also ermm would you happen to have the dallon compilation 🧐🧐 for research reasons 🧐🧐🧐🧐🧐

#i LOVVEEE afycso top ten albums ever made #asks #long post

[inthewild-flowers]

it really is

ALSO

im going to camp w/ a talent show, so my friends and i are gonna do some flag stuff to try and make it in! (because what are we?? ~extra~ {its a cg requirement btw})

oooo omg that sounds so good !! :D good luck !! and have funnnnnnn <33

#asks #indigo <3

[khaleesiofalicante]

Guess what???

I finally returned to normal classes (they literally let me know a day before lmao) and HOLY FUCK socializing is hard jfksnkdisd

But I've been talking to some people and its not actually that bad 😂 its been really exhausting but its Friday so I made it!!!!

How have you been??

Yours with love has been so sweet and cute🥺🥺🥺💙

socialising is so exhausting tho??? who invented this shit???

I hope your weekend is super fun and relaxing so you can recover from this week!!

I'm good. This week was chill so I am lowkey sus lol. Next week has a few deadlines (ew) but once I get through it's gonna be funnnnnnn.

Thank you babes. I am glad you like it 🥺💙

#mutuals

[romancemoved]

                ✨ THIS IS OBVIOUSLY A PINNED POST: RULES. 🌙  ABOUT.

 some quick rules. :) hard block me instead of soft blocking when u unfollow i don’t wanna see u either.

don’t follow me if ur gonna fuck around, not plot, not thread, etc. and no ur shyness is a nonfactor to me, please grow up.

don’t be a weirdo.

lotsa foolassery and hot takes in this neighborhood so hold on to ur butts and dont let ur feelings get hurt.

don’t 4get 2 b sexy n have funnnnnnn!!!

TO DO LIST: gorl i dont even know rn. so many verses to write. if u dont see a verse on my about page hmu because i can bullshit a verse in completion almost immediately its my god given gifT.

#( 🌙 OOC! RULER OF THE VOLCANIC DIAMOND PLANET. ✨ ) #/ new pinned post 2 match the theme and promo. #/ im just glad i got it DONE!!!

[jimimn]

WOW NOT AT HOW I NEVER FINISH WHAT I'M SAYING EVEN AFTER TYPING A FULL BLOWN ESSAY 🤡 I was meaning to ask you,,, I'm getting done with work earlier today (thank the gods they heard me lmao) so I was planning to re-watch a few run eps!! which ones are your favorites that you'd rec for me to watch? 💫

HI HI HI HIIIIIII! OKAY SO IM ANSWERING THIS NOW SO THAT YOU CAN WATCH! I've read the other two asks and I'm gonna reply to them later because I'm swamped with work rn 😩 ANYWAY OKAY HERE WE GO BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT OF FAVES!!!!

Episode 8 in which they have to find flags - THE CHAOS THE BETRAYAL LMFAO I love it so much

Episode 19 IN WHICH THEY GO BOWLING AAJHSJSJS PEAK COMEDY

23 : THEM WITH DOGGOS PEAK SEROTONIN 🥰🥰

27 and 28: this is a series (?) episode like both episodes are connected and they play a board game (i forgot the name lol sorry) and then sing karaoke ❤️❤️❤️

30-31 : their outfits are so cute and they play games which were played in old variety shows ITS SUPER CUTE AND FUN SPECIALLY 31 WHERE THEY HAVE THE TOMATO SONG GAME

32: TINY JIMIN IN HIS OVERALLS SO MUCH HAPPINESS

33-34 : THESE TWO EPISODES FUNNIEST OKAY I CAN'T BREATHE whenever I see this because goddamn everyone is just so funny and peak chaos oof fave fave fave of all time

41: LACHIMOLALA and Yoongi's and Hobi's tiny dancing and Jin so intelligent GWKSHDJD loveeeee

47-48: BLUE VILLAGE. SLYTHERIN JIMIN 🥴🥵🥴🥵🥴🥵

53-56: picnic episodes!!! So much serotonin and funnnnnnn and their poems in the end 😭😭😭 Plus Jimin has curly black hair in these and just 🥺🥺🥺🥺

63-65: TEACHER YOONGI dealing with 6 chaotic students lmfao I love these so much SPECIALLY 65 BECAUSE OF THE DEBATE PART AND ALL THE WATER SPRAYING AND HOBI 😂❤️❤️❤️

69-71: run bts in Canada IDK WHY I LOVE THIS SO MUCH BUT I DO hajshdjd peak comedy in 70 when they have to choose their rooms lmaoooo 😂

79-80: when they play the collecting the hearts game in the Lotte mall (I guess I don't remember but it was a mall hwsjdjdj) JIMIN BEING A WHINY CUTE BABIE IN EP 79 BECAUSE HE KEPT LOSING and Jin being the sneakiest and most intelligent of all in ep 80 I LOVE IT

83-85 : them in a water park aaaaahhhhhh they look so squishy in their helmets and Jimin especially looked so tiny and then in 85 they exchange gifts with their manitos and hobi gives Jimin the best gift aaahhhhhh 🥺🥺

87-88: where they have to sneakily put stickers on the backs of the member each of them chose. Betrayal, chaos, comedy ALL IN ONE. TAEHYUNG IN THIS ONE. HIS BRAIN 😭❤️

97-98: all of them look so cute in their PJs and JIMIN IS SO TINY IN THIS ONE AND WITH HIS SOCK DOODLES AND FLOWERY PJS JUST ABSOLUTE HAPPINESS

Okay I have so many more faves but these are like, at the top. Ones which I'd re-watch when I'm sad and need a real good laugh or just a lot of serotonin. this list got real long 🥴🥴 but I HOPE YOU ENJOYYYYYY!!!!! ❤️❤️❤️

#anonymous #replied #💫

[harryfeatgaga]

I only became a Harry fan at the beginning of last year so I’m genuinely scared off all of the content we’re getting for tour and esp since I’m not going I feel like it’s just gonna be so overwhelming like how am I supposed to absorb all that

ITS SO FUNNNNNNN

[burnedbyshoto]

hey lovies, its ya girl, burnedbyshoto aka alyssa (you can totally call me that or lyssa/lyss if you love me, because thats what people who love me call me ;) ) i’m going to be doing a get to know me thing pretty soon, for whenever i manage to hit 500 followers because i’m hopeful you guys want to learn... more about me,,, because i like oversharing and I want you guys to like me... only if thats what you want!!!???? if not, totally cool too. YES SO MOVING FORWARD

anyways, im super bad at updating what i have in my request box so i just wanted to give you guys a heads up of what is coming!!! earlier, i think yesterday???, i posted what i had already completed and rn i’m going to be telling you everything i have in my ask box that have not been touched!!! i did finish two requests today so GO ME!!! anyways, here’s the list if y’all are interested:

aizawa and present mic ~ shy reader losing her bikini top

werewolf! izuku, dabi, bakugou ~ asexual!reader and how they deal with intimacy

dad!shouto ~ more new baby and kaito domestics!!!!!!!!!!!! (i’m combining two here,,, because they’re the same general ask)

best jeanist ~ ray of sunshine reader

inasa ~ general relationship hc

expecting!aizawa ~ HAHAHHA MORE DOMESTICS

christmas!aizawa and present mic ~ shy reader caught under the mistletoe

nsfw!aizawa ~ smut

inasa ~ short and seems distant but is super sweet reader

bakugou and shouto ~ accidentally hurting their s/o during a fight

shouto ~ jealous!reader

villain!shouto ~ part two of my other piece AHA

shouto ~ tsundere!reader

nsfw!shouto ~ getting lost and fucking in the woods cuz we animals yall

shouto ~ baking cupcakes for your birthday!!! (i’m going to try to put this out on sunday sept 8 because its for anons birthday,,, and its my birthday gift to anon,,,, no promises, but i will TRY MY BEST)

shouto, aizawa, present mic ~ shy s/o out on their first date

dad!shouto ~ kaito gets kidnapped...

shouto ~ s/o is killed in front of him....

kirishima and kaminari ~ homECOMING AU!

mystery ;) just kidding help me decide ~ s/o compliments them and they’re caught off guard

shouto ~ dOMESTICS!!! WITHOUT BABIES THOUGH!!! WHATS IT LIKE LIVING WITH SHOUTO

not apart of the list but the spy!au... if anyone is interested LMAO

all in all, it’s gonna be a funnnnnnn month of september!!! thank you all you beautiful people for standing me for this entire almost month i’ve been here, i cannot wait to see where this goes!!! have a lovely night, i need to finish my physics homework <3 also i have like 11 shouto requests and im here bitching like i only have one wHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

#burnedbyshoto wip #dont we love this for me

[crustaceanenjoyer]

Hyperfocusing on sewing machine info rn its funnnnnnn! Different settings and such.. different needles and presser foots ... instruction manual.... it's fun to hyperfocus on something that will be useful to a hobby+that I can talk to people about and infodump on innocent bystanders 😌 although. Idk. Bc I don't know lots of ppl who would care about that aside from sewing teachers bc people who just sew for a hobby probably choose to not learn that stuff except for if they're gonna use it but I just 😳😳😳

[fallingforholland]

Your best friend’s best friend

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Requested: Yes. @tommyvelvet said “congrats on 200!! can you write about haz introducing the reader to tom at a party and he is like 😍 and flirts with her a lot”

Summary: you and Haz have known eacheother forever. When he finally introduces you to his ther best friend tom could ther be instant fireworks?

Warnings: the flirting might be a little cringy, you have been warned

A/N : Y/N/N stands for your nickname incase y'alls are new. Also sorry that this took me so long. I wanted to get it right so I procrastinated like crazy...whoopsie. I hope it was worth the wait guys

*******************************************************************************************

"Plllleeeasee (Y/N/N), it'll be funnnnnnn" Harrison entreated in an almost futile attempt to convince his oldest friend to meet his new friends.

"that was what you said about drunk paint ball, and about my surprise party and abo..."

"ok ok I get it I have made errors in judgment in the past. But in my defense those things were fun in the moment. Also this is entirely different" Haz finished, looking quite triumphant, he knew he was wearing you down.

"Why do you even want me to meet your new 'best friend' anyway? he's probably a butt-head just like you"

"ahhhh I see, you're Jealous" before you could object, Haz was ruffling your hair like he'd done since you were 5 and he had grown slightly taller than you "Don't worry, he won't replace you, we've been friends forever, you're practly my baby sister"

you pushed him away from you with a huff and fixed your hair while pointing out

"I'm 3 months older then you and you know it, you prick"

"so you're coming?!" he said, bouncing on the balls of his feet like an excited child

"Yes obviously I'm coming. what are their names again?"

"It's just gonna be Tom, Harry, Jacob and Tuwaine"

 Time Skip

 you double checked the address of the pub you were currently standing outside of against the address Haz had texted you this morning before entering, sure that you would be early. you beelined for the bar to order a drink and texted Haz to let him know that you were already here and to see how far away he was and then opened instagram to mindlesly scroll until Haz either responded or showed up. After a few minutes a pair of hands were clasped over your eyes

"Guess who"

"hmmm the biggest Div in the universe?"

"no because that would be you"

"Haz you have 5 seconds to get off before I start kicking"

"ok ok chill" and the world became bright again as Haz moved his hands. "(Y/N) this is Jacob, Tuwaine, Harry and Tom" you waved at each of them and your eyes lingered a moment longer on Tom, whilst you were being subtle, Tom was quite blatantly staring at you with an expression that could only be described as quite infatuated.

"It's so nice to finally meet you (Y/N)" Jacob said,

pulling you into a hug

"Its nice to meet you too Jacob, Haz has told me a lot about you guys" After swapping introductions and hugs with Tuwaine and Harry who were equally as sweet as Jacob was, then you turned to Tom

"So you're the guy who my best friend has replaced me with, It's nice to meet you" you said, reaching your hand out to shake his

"(Y/N) you overestimate me, I could never replace someone as beautiful as you love"

"that was pretty lame"

You replied, rolling your eyes, trying to combat the blush creeping across your cheek. At that moment, Haz flung his arm over your shoulders

"Tom, I already told you she was off limits. keep it in your pants dude"

You Shove Haz off you and groan in exhasperation

"I can look after myself Harrison, I don't need you to protect me, I'm older then you for christs sake. Anyway, awkward introduction over, lets get a table, shall we?"

when you got a table Tom slid into the booth on one side, you casually sat next to him as Jacob sat on the opposite side of the table, Harry looked like he was about to sit next to you but Haz sat down and gave him a look so he sat next to jacob, and tuwaine sat next to him.

"Haz, chill ok. this is supposed to be fun rememeber" you whispered to Haz, noticing how tense he was.

as the night continued, you guys ate and drank copious amounts, laughed and talked. throughout all this you and tom maintained a constant banter, flirting back and forth. suffice it to say tom is quite impressed that you never miss a beat. he casually drapes his arm on your shoulder, you rest your hand on his thigh. he comes out with some stupid pick up line, you've got a witty response. As much as you were trying to play it cool you couldn't deny the way your heart lept to your throat when he laughed or the way your pulse quickened when he looked at you. and you'd be lying if you said he wasn't exceptionally good looking.

After a few hours you started to get tired, yawning and unconsciously leaning on toms shoulder. He noticed this and looked down at you with a smirk on his face

“Getting tired love?”

“Maybe just a little, I was at work today so I might be just a tiny bit exhausted”

“Do you want me to give you a ride home?”

“Haven’t you been drinking”

“No I’ve got an early morning tomorrow, I haven’t had any alcohol at all, so my offer still stands for a ride home”

“I think that’s my job as her big brother” Haz chimed in, you responded with a playful punch to his stomach

“Haz you aren’t my older brother and you’re too drunk to drive me home”

“Awwww (Y/N/N) that hurts me”

You turned to Harry

“Harry can you make sure Haz gets home safe and with at least some of the contents of his stomach still in his stomach?”

“Yeah no problem (Y/N)”

“Awesome thank you” you replied then you turned to Tom “that ride home still up for grabs?”

“Of course it is love”

“Awesome” you and Tom then got up and said goodbye to everybody. On the walk to the door you almost tripped, causing Tom to instantly wrap an arm around your waist

“Thanks for that”

The drive home continued with the same energy that the whole night had, flirting, giggling and banter. Before you knew it you were at your door.

“Don’t suppose you want to come inside?”

“No I won’t. Not tonight. I really really want to, but I like you and more importantly I respect you. So here” he hands you a napkin with his number on it “when you’re sober, if you want to, give me a call. That way if we end up back here I’ll know it’s what you want and not what the alcohol wants, ok?”

“Ok, I’ll do that” you gave him a kiss on the cheek “that’s what you get for being a perfect gentleman.”

#tom holland x reader #tom holland imagines #tom holland

[kaybound]

December 2017/April 2018

But I’m pretty tired, emotionally. I’m never physically tired much anymore. Simply tired. 

But that okay. Cause I may have bags in my eyes, but I got a bag full of things to do and be and I won’t let people down :)

I’m focused for the work and hardship that this life brings. That’s a weird motivation.

ANYWAYS

I got this. I always do :) Mostly, mostly. 

I think sometimes I need, someone. But they aren’t there. 

Its strange when no one is there, answering your calls and minor texts. You feel letdown. 

And I’m just lonely. Very lonely. Its very bad. Immmmm terrribly sad. 

Yes

I’m not okay 

I’m very terribly terrible 

I wish people talk to me

Text me

Call me up

Bother me with 100+ texts 

I don’t know I just want to have funnnnnnn

But no one wants to have fun 

No one. 

At least 

not 

with 

me 

I’m terribly sad

A sad being 

Sad sad sad 

stop 

i want it to stop 

Its Christmas time 

Hey 

Infinite

Is how I feel right now

Le Vie en Rose 

Is infine

I hope you think its cool

I mean you aren’t really there

But you know

I’m gonna head to California soon

And its pretty exciting 

When I think I’ll be way from just Texas

But I don’t know how I reaaaaaally feel

Like its exciting in thought

But honestly I don’t feel much right now and not lately 

I just want to text you 

Real, present you 

How busy can a person be?

Maybe you have too many people to think about 

Things to think about

I could never be in your thoughts 

no 

I have many people to think about 

Things to think about 

I don’t have to think about too many people if I don’t have too many people outside of my home to think about

I want more people in my life to think about 

For people to think about me 

To exist in other peoples’ lives 

How existential.

Well I don’t have many people to text right now 

Correction: to text me

I hope you don’t mind I bother you 

AHA MOTHERFUCKER WHATS UP 

Hey! 

Whats up 

Hey I thought you’d like this song..

HEY

You like the Beatles? I mean the overrated white british pop band of the century 

You like music?

I’ve been dancing a lot lately, ironically for someone who is beat deaf.

Let me tell you: Come On Eileen by the Dexy Midnight Runners is an obvious infinite song. I know it was popularized by Perks but come on its too good. 

It gets you on your feet immediately. 

If I’m honest, I wish someone would tell me, “Come on” as if I were Eileen and they wanted me to join in on a fun, exciting moment. 

Maybe even do Patrick’s and Sam’s dance in the movie. 

Maybe have a Patrick and Sam in my life to get me out of my monotonous and stagnant life as if I were the wallflower of my own coming of age story. 

I don’t know its a wish. 

That someone want me. 

Nvm, I’ve went too much into detail.

I wish I can tell you to listen to some of my music recommendations.

But you’re not even there. 

In a sense, you’re practically not real. 

Why do I always end up saying such sad things?

Excuse my negativity.

Today, I told you I was going to board.

You replied, “Well, you better talk to me more then.”

I should take this as a small things, but it stayed at the back of my mind. Its been a while since we’ve talked. 

Well alrighty.

I give up :) 

Cause normal people answer.

I’m not worth answering :)

I think I know now

The feeling of wanting to die 

A part of me inside crumbles and gently weeps with no tears under my puffed up eyelids. 

My eyes caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror - my lips large and serious but my eyes small and sad. 

Inside I feel nothing but pity for who she is in the mirror, she doesn’t deserve to live. 

I’m not suicidal. I’m not depressed. I just get this sadness and loneliness that sometimes doesn’t leave. I sleep it out and cry until I’m numb and then it leaves. When it does I’m much more lively. My mom told me we are mentally healthy. She says we don’t need doctors to tell us that. Its simply fact and its all in our head. 

We all have setbacks in life. 

I will experience loneliness and we just have to accept and continue. 

There is a poem by Rupi kaur that says, 

We will wilt

Fall

Root

and rise 

in order to Bloom.

Hey, its been a while. 

You know talking to you lately is a lovely feeling.

Being with you is infinite and you don’t even know it. 

I often wonder though how awkward I am and whether or not I make weird at times for you. 

But I try my best to be cool and just be happy. 

No depressed me. 

No emotional me.

Happy.

Just stay happy.

And I do admit I’ve always been happy. 

I just had to be an idiot to set off that feeling inside me. 

When I look at my wrists

my arms 

my legs

and my 

I hate every inch of it 

Nothing is pretty about me. 

Everything is pretty about others.