#BUT I GUESS IT DOESNT FUCKING MATTER

[ccrv-7]

saw-esque halloween themed dnd oneshot with the party tomorrow and i probably wont be able to attend

#thetalogs #love my friends but THEY ARE FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE TO PLAN THINGS WITH #the AMOUNT of fucking times i have to BEG them to stop going off topic in the gc is insane. please please please oh my fucking god #the oneshot is tomorrow and we didnt have a solidly established plans until literally 45 min ago #BUT I GUESS IT DOESNT FUCKING MATTER #CONSIDERING I WONT BE ABLE TO ATTEND #LOL #whatever! whatever whatever ive had 3 really good days in a row im not gonna let this get me down #just. really shit planning on literally everyones part #oh yeah sure bro we can do this at 6 pm cause you have to get off work. #yeah ofc we can eat dinner together and THEN start a 4 hr+ length dnd oneshot. yeah thatll be fine. absolutely fucking ludicrous reasoning. #honestly i probably could go but i almost dont even want to anymore. feeling too spiteful #AND ANOTHER THING #why the FUCK did P disrupt the whole planning convo and then go yeah ethan is coming! youre coming right ethan???? #like shut the absolute hell up youre not funny nobody finds you funny #the fact that you keep making jokes while im trying to figure out this scheduling is irritating at best #and genuinely makes me wanna kick you in the fucking face at worst #LITERALLY i dont even like you right now #ooooooooo im normal. normal emotions well adjusted girlie etc etc. haha

[dorkicon]

i posted some development stuff ^ for this a while back, but here it is.

the final project for my comic class this semester. please clap. (i didnt turn the cover in. that was just for fun)

#idt my professor liked it too much frm his feedback but whatever. i dont know. #shrug i guess #the dialog was kind of cheesy on purpose but maybe i fucked up there #anyway im taking a sabbatical from drawing seekers for a while. 9 million years in fact #tfoc #nightlight #actually im really bummed about the feedback but i guess it doesnt matter #my art #fuck it this is going in the #maccadam #tag

[akkpipitphattana]

i'm gonna say something controversial yet brave but i think the people that claim taylor swift is the best song writer of our generation and the people that say shes a horrible lyricist are like. equally stupid. like yes she has some banger lines that strike the soul but she also has lines like "i never don't cry at the bar" like let's be serious. her pen is inconsistent at best and there are FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR better lyricists in the game currently

#olivia rodrigo and sabrina carpenter's pens for instance are immaculate #and far less known but #listen to a maddie zahm song and maybe youll learn a thing or two #also this isnt fully related to all her controversies but like her being a phenomenal song writer is something people will grab onto #no matter what she does and like. shes mid guys like she has a lot of hits but also a lot of misses #which like comes with the territory of having 11 fucking albums #like when midnights came out and people were trying to claim her lyricism on that was someone as groundbreaking as ever #girl midnights doesnt come CLOSE to folklore like get real with yourselves #SO RED IT WAS ANOTEHR SHADE OF RED LIKE THATS LYRICISM TO YOU. BE SERIOUS #anti taylor swift #<- i guess?

[astranauticus]

stultifera navis rerun AKA thinking about Iberia hours again because a lot of the Iberians have such fascinating relationships with the concept of home but specifically Thorns and Lumen are eating at my brain. like where do you call home when the place that is your home Just Fucking Hates You? Elysium's rewinding breeze specifically makes a point to hammers home how differently Iberia treats its Liberi and its Aegir

(which is especially interesting since this comes right after a conversation where Purestream commented on how despite Leizi being a high ranking government official, there are still some experiences that are universal for all Yanese people - because the experience of what Iberia itself is like isnt universal for all Iberians)

But all that being said, Thorns also straight up states that Aegir is not his home, and yeah, how could it be? How could a place you've never been to, never truly known, ever be your home? How could it ever feel like a home?

so where do you go when the place that you are from hates your people and the place your people are from is completely unfamiliar and alien to you? Thorns' answer at the end of the conversation with Aya is: my home is where i chose it to be. my home is where there are people I care about and people who care about me

in the complete opposite direction, Lumen's oprec asks: why do you still stay in a place that wants you gone? because the people of Gran Faro like Jordi well enough but when push comes to shove, they will want the only Aegir in town gone

and yet, when Rald the messenger offers him a chance to leave Jordi turns him down and when he's forced to escape Gran Faro after the people there literally try to send him to his death (or worse) at the hands of the Inquisitors he keeps trying to go back because like everyone in stultifera navis, Jordi is clinging to his own dreams of a golden age

but the shape of that dream is unique to every character and for Jordi, his dreams are deeply, inseparably bound to the Eye of Iberia, the legacy his parents left behind

and it's this dream of becoming someone great, of bringing about that golden age that his parents devoted their lives to help create that ties Jordi to this nothing town because despite everything, despite the mistrust of the townsfolk and the hostility of the Inquisition and the danger from the ocean, he simply cannot leave it behind

(or, because i personally dislike the official translation,)

"I just see this place as my home"

so yeah. not sure what overall point i was trying to make here i'm just. deeply in love with these stories about chosing what is and isn't your home, of saying you will not call a place your home because it has given you no reason to or saying you consider a place your home even though it has given you every reason not to. deeply unwell about them <3

#arknights #asto speaks #not much of an essay writer i just keep thinking about them and i need to force other people to think about them too #thorns story fucks me up bc like. this whole almost found family adjacent idea of like #maybe home isnt something decided by your birth but something you can chose based on what truly matters to you #it just gets to me. i guess. #jordi gets to me in a completely different direction there's nothing personal about it i just find his story *fascinating* #just a guy. a completely normal guy. an absolute nobody caught up in these dreams of greatness while also fully aware of his own normalcy #but never letting either of those overshadow the other. never losing that self awareness or that fuckin obsessive determination #god. what a Character #i love jordi so much like genuinely #i joke a lot about him being just a Guy but thats also kinda like the best thing about him #the fact that he is the way that he is and does all the things he does despite being just a Guy #gently holds #for context i was so hyped about new iberia lore when sn was announced i read the whole thing as soon as it dropped on cn server #cuz someone uploaded all the story sections to bilibili right after it came out #and '我只是把这里当作自己的故乡啊' fucking hit me SO HARD #in like the greater context of elysium demanding to know why hes risking his life in like 5 different ways to return to gran faro #because yeah jordi just doesnt want to leave his home but like we the audience knows the full *weight* of what that home means to him #and the weight of the dreams that made him chose to see Gran Faro as his home and to refuse to let go of that #thats why i like the original a lot more than the translation i think like it really emphasises that active *choice*. #this is the place jordi has *decided* to see as his home and he knows what that means and what it means to him #side note the part on thorns might not actually age well depending on whether hg decides to ever release more aulus lore #i mean i'll gladly take the L if it means more aulus and/or thorns lore like #i just wanna know what (if anything) is tying him to iberia yknow #ak #iberiaposting

[fortunatelyenchantingtaco]

The degree to which i see some people bend over backwards to excuse or justify or change or solve Geto’s character is honestly astounding. Just own it up. This man commited atrocities enough for a death sentence. Accept it. Its fine it adds flavour.

The phrase “there arent good or bad people, just the choices they make” is right HERE. Geto and Gojo have a great dichotomy and a big part of it is the fact that in person Geto is the good guy and Gojo is the unbearable asshole. In contrast to that, Gojo is one making the typically “good” choices ant Geto makes “evil” choices. Gojo will save you but will piss you off in the process. Geto will kill you with the kindest smile on his face. I sure hope we dont need to have a conversation on why genocide is a bad thing

#jjk #gojo satoru #jujutsu kaisen #geto suguru #satosugu #you ever just see #people desperately falling for a nice facade #and go wow #i get why people join cults #in all honesty its just a weird thing to see #people calling geto maternal or nice or anything #yall it doesnt matter how nice or good a person is #when they actively choose to kill #idk i may be traumatised cause ya know #another country actively tries to made genocide happen in mine #and its hard to understand in your head #wow how is it possible so many people are evil #its all bullshit #people just decide you shouldnt exist #fun stuff #anyway #accept suguru as he is hes fucked up #which is cool cause gojo is also fucked up #theyre fine #and its an anime who cares #sorry im procrastinating sorry #jjk analysis i guess idk #fuck me if i know

[lobotomyladylives]

I think bpd is a bullshit stigmatizing label thrown at women to pathologize what is very obviously a response to prolonged childhood trauma and would be better labeled as C-PTSD. that being said my god I am bpd as fuck

#my sister just snapped at me bc i said i dont want to do a ton of physical labor for the job she signed me up for which apparently does i #in fact involve a lot of it. and her being mad for even that moment sent me spiraling so badly & i had the reaction i often do where #i start hating both her & myself terribly & want to isolate forever #i think she hates her new job & is taking it out on me but it doesnt matter bc i cant handle being yelled at #and the fact thst it took me till adulthood to realize thats bc i associate it with my father is crazy. yeah its just the cptsd like #everything else. and whats nutso is how i continue to think my trauma Wasnt Bad Enough for ptsd . #just bc he didnt beat the shit out of or molest me i feel like i dont even have a right to be this fucked up #not that it was only him. being bullied at school really did not help. i guess now that i think about it the problem is that until #i was a teenager i literally did not feel emotionally secure anywhere. home or school. always the ticking of a bomb in the bg #the inevitable moment my dad blew up over nothing or i overheard my peers talking about what a freak i was #i dont know why it still hurts to think about. im so far removed from it my life now couldnt be more different #well thats the stupid fucking thing about childhood isnt it. those are your very first experiences with the world & other ppl #i do know my view of romantic relationships was irrevocably poisoned by my parents & that is never going to be undone. so cool

[kurozu501]

this is one of those moments with silence that really gets me, just the way she gently works on the girls hairs while softly guiding ifrit to the conclusion “you should read her a story to calm her down” without directly telling her the answer is just. peak soft mom vibes. this owl is mom of the year, of all years. 

#arknights #olivia silence #silence arknights #ifrit #all the rhine characters are good but silence's defining trait is her humanity. her gentleness and love. her refusal to allow injustice. #i feel like im just listing classic hero traits but somehow the way they are presented in silence is so effective #she's just a normal young woman who got caught up in all this bc she refused to turn a blind eye to ifrit's suffering #she doesnt have any special powers. her power is her empathy. #she looked at this fucked up situation and said well i guess im her mom now. and she stuck to that no matter all the hell that followed

[anxiously-sidequesting]

To me personally malistaire is the funniest and most pathetic villain wizard101 has ever had AND I MEAN THAT SINCERELY!!! Between doomed children who have been manipulated, groomed, and isolated into becoming products of their environments, someone scorned who has been punished unfairly by having your biological heart torn out your chest and turning your children and all of reality against you to satiate their own ego, a nonhuman entity so powerful and so clueless they unintentionally threaten the lives of everyone around them, Malistaire FELL DOWN BRO. Like yeah you're bitchless now. You and me both. Get in line. Everyone in this room is bitchless. We are ALL living that ✨💅🏾💃🕺 Single Life™. You are a middle-aged man. Cope

#this post is lighthearted btw JELAJWODJTU i aint actually mad #but like...... malistaire as a villain is kinda mid though im sorry. IM SORRY ill take the L opinion if i have to #its one thing if he lost his wife to unfair systematic negligence or thru someone else's doings or smth but. no she just got sick bro 😐 #HWMSNFLEKSDIDOA EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE I WILL GIVW A BAD OPINION AND THIS IS ONE OF THEM. i cant be right ALL the time /j #like if i dont focus on malistaire's motives and just his ACTIONS he seems super metal #but then he does ALLLLL of that heinous shit because his wife died. like thats absolutely very sad but damn get a grip #(fandom starts breaking in my windows and drags me out into the street) IM SORRY IM SORRY LOOK ITS JUST NOT MY CUP OF TEA #ive never been invested in those Mr. Freeze types of villains where a person they love dies due to normal circumstances- #and they go fucking BERSERK. they LOSE IT. they go like “well okay fuck the entire world i guess nothing matters” and then kill people #LIKE IF IT'S DONE IN A CERTAIN WAY I CAN BE INVESTED but more often than not to me? its just kind of funny #like “okay damn there was only ONE person keeping you from being a national criminal? okay” #and you know what? thats a mood actually. thats a mood #without my cat i probanly would have become the president by now #for some reason its a little diff for me if its like a child you lost and idk why #like if malistaire lost a kid instead of his wife id probably be more inclined to feel bad and thats terribly fucked up JSLSJSJSJ #you know what its also bias because in some shape or form i relate to all the other villains. morganthe and duncan especially #whereas in malitsaire's case i have never been married. which i mean doesnt stop me from tryna be more synpathetic i guess but im just not #ONCE AGAIN FEEL VERY BAD FOR HIM AND SULVIA. like losing someone to sickness or any reason really is a serious thing #but in terms of a fictional setting with fictional characters where one of them decides to commit genocide over it? 🧍 like okay boo u do u #i will gladly give up my mantle for the “most reasonable opinions” guy in the fandom foe this one. i deserve it #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #text posts #malistaire drake

[ghostcrows]

the rest of this post is fine but this did NOT happen...if it did this guys the most insanely lucky person in his position and i don't even know what to make of it

what conservative trump loving group of people is just going to, after knowing you by your deadname, after already having seen your unbound chest, suddenly be like "ohhhh you use he/him and youre a man? SO sorry sir yes sir right away sir and btw here's a raise keep up the good work brother, good job becoming the superior sex". that simply does not happen

#the fact of the matter is it doesnt matter how good you pass and how long youve been stealth #the second they know youre trans you are on thin fucking ice #also why would binding out you...?? i dont really understand what that means #like if they saw the binder? yeah i guess but...why would they

[trans-estinien]

people really love to conveniently forget trans men exist when they talk about feminism. or if they dont they make us out as also part of the problem as if we somehow are able to have the same amount of privilege as cis men. absolutely wild

#“not all men” is a valid statement because its fucking true #like guys. seriously. not every single man is evil #feminism isnt about putting men down its about raising women up to be equal and getting rid of gender inequality #sorry im seeing a massive uptick in people hating on trans men for being men lately and its fucking stupid #like yall are doing a great job at making me feel ashamed to be a man who likes men. awesome thanks guys #i dont normally make posts like this but its been rattling around in my mind for a few days now #its always put out like. all men (trans or not) are Inherently Evil and all women (trans or not) are Inherently Victims #which is absolutely the stupidest shit ive ever seen #and they also leave out anyone who doesnt fit into the man/woman dichotomy. and if they dont its always seen as woman lite #which is also stupid as fuck #not every nb/agender/other person is feminine asshole #anways. case in point. can we stop demonizing masculinity while also discussing the effects of misogyny and the patriarchy please. #because both of those things are very real and very much do hurt people #but im sick of people lashing out at trans men as if the problem magically doesn't affect us anymore because we are men #because guess what! newsflash! it affects trans AND cis men too!! #i shouldnt have to explain it should be obvious but like. im tired man #sorry ill forever be annoyed at women who just hate every single man who dares breathe in their direction because they COULD be an asshole #if you hate someone because of their gender no matter what gender it is i Do Not Trust You #anyways thanks for coming to my ted talk. replies are off cause i dont want to argue with people i just want to express my opinion

[magpie-rogue]

I finished rendering Imeneth's travel clothes coming into the new year; just in time for their game starting up next week! I need to get their armor done soon as well,,,,

oc: Imeneth Nira-Misd'vurai [They/He/No pronouns]

#artdemra #dnd shit ya know how it is #yippee on my blood cleric who isnt religious and sasses the fuck out of their ''god'' figure (easiest way to put it with the world building #I would have posted close ups but what i used to get them crunched the FUCK outta the #pictures so. zoom in i guess lmao #<- no idea why those tags separated??????? tf????? doesnt matter

[constantvariations]

My scavenge for screenshots that I might use in an upcoming video essay led me to Lilith Fairen’s blog where, lo and behold, she apparently saw this post of mine and decided she had to talk about it

That’s an interesting way to say “the blog has me blocked, so I can’t reblog the OG post.” Fairen, you know what a block means, right? It means I don’t consent to you being on my damn blog. So either you don’t understand what boundaries are or you think it’s okay to ignore them so long as it’s the right kind of person you’re invading. Neither of which reflect well on you

#rwde #lilith fairen #while i could go through her post and tear it apart point by point #i got shit to do. my essay aint gonna write itself #and itd be redundant since my essay is in part abt how people willfully misinterpret adam for their hate wanks #maybe i will anyway since i have her whole post but this is the thing thats pissing me off. dont fucking lie that rwde hates disagreements #i enjoy talking to people w different perspectives. an anti rwder and i once had a v pleasant talk despite a v rocky start #we even reached a conclusion with mutual understanding of each others positions and reasonings #but lilith doesnt want to talk. she doesnt want to look at how flawed rwby is unless its in a way that can be used to bash others #and it'd be pointless considering she's never going to change her mind no matter what any of us say #if she was here for honest. good faith discussion abt a cartoon she wouldn't be blocked by the entire damn tag #so lilith kindly take the planet sized hint and leave people the fuck alone #you wanna bitch and moan abt dex stalking or bullying or whatever to you but then you turn around and do shit like this #treat others how you want to be treated. when you act like an invasive asshole guess what people are going to start reflecting back at you

[candies-and-eyeliner]

I think it's very punk rock of me to not get lip filler

#me? an anticapitalist queen? yes #well #a cheapskate afraid of everything but same difference #beauty industry you might have successfully made me insecure about my appearance #but you'll never get my moneyyyyyyyy #beauty industry but also that bitch [redacted] at work that keeps complaining about having thin lips but like her lips are bigger than mine #oh she doesnt have tumblr yolo fuck you sandra #oh while we're going on a tangent #thats the reason why i dont talk a lot about my physical insecurities #cause if you say something negative abt your appearance and someone else with that same trait hears you it's kind of like insulting them #no matter if you say like 'well i dont like that ON ME but on others it's fine yada yada yada' #guess what too late! the seed is planted the damage is done

[criminal-sen]

Get you a man who can do uh.. whatever this is

#mayuri kurotsuchi #kurotsuchi mayuri #bleach #my art #bleach captain #i changed his jawline/nose/mouth like. twenty fucking times. and i still don't like it lol #but whatever.. close enough ig #also this pic is flipped lol. i guess it doesnt matter? i forgot i had flipped it. just picture him leaning the other way idk

[thats-a-lot-of-cortisol]

I know this has been ragged on a million times but I gotta

#also like. the patriars are just?? there??? #they see a grimy travelworn group of adventurers crash the archduke's coronation #and instead of kicking them out he goes 'oh heyyyyy!! ☺️☺️☺️ long time no see~ 🥰 let me update you on my - sorry - *our* evil plan!! 🤭🤭“ #and openly reveals one of the adventurers as a fucking bhaalspawn?! #he's not speaking quietly or anything #there's a very large tiefling who is on fire and getting angrier by the second so clearly SOMETHING is up #the bhaalspawn in question looks fucking pissed #did they just want the tea or #i guess it doesnt really matter what they do b/c none of that conversation leaves that room #so i think they're all just too psyched for the surprise soap opera to think about what they're hearing all the way through #anyway. i wish the game had different reactions if you've already told the party that youre a bhaalspawn #wyll gave corentin the same exact speech twice which. fair. they probably needed to hear it #but still #shadowheart's the only one who didnt react again iirc but i might have just been reeling too much from karlach's to remember it #bg3 #digital art #my art #bg3 spoilers #bg3 act 3 spoilers #corentin #bg3 wyll #bg3 karlach #bg3 shadowheart #bg3 gortash #bg3 durge #dark urge #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 tav #sketch #the prodigal saer

[literallysatanofficial]

I gotta say, like. I haven't seen the ep 9 and 10 leaks, nor do I want to (I watched pine barrens early and I wish I hadn't) but I swear, at this point I'm convinced everyone's overreacting for no reason; like there is NOTHING that the show could possibly do that would disappoint me on such a level that ppl are saying they don't want to continue watching the show. Unless they kill off the entire cast, pull an X-files and replace everyone, I just can't see it being as dire as people are making it out to be. Like... let's all calm down. You're getting (at best) a choppy machine translation, and at worst what is essentially a silent episode with 0 actual context for what you're seeing. From my experience watching pine barrens in Russian, I can tell y'all that things were interpreted incorrectly (both in summaries AND by me while I was watching) and watching the actual english episode was an entirely different experience.

Maybe it's just because I haven't gotten my hopes up about nandermo getting together this season there have been PLENTY of clear signs that it's not happening but I legit can't even imagine a worst case scenario that could prevent me from enjoying the show at this point. It feels like so many fans have gotten swept up in fandom hype (which is totally fine and completely understandable, I'm not immune to this either) but it's almost like... there's a terrifyingly big divide between fanon and canon this season. It's just a silly dumb little show. If you wanted it to go one way and it didn't, bummer, I guess, but to write off an entire show because the conclusions you've drawn up with friends weren't the way it panned out is so odd to me. It's understandable when theories like there being something in the walls that colin is trying to get to or whatever spread, but at the same time it could just be a running joke about him being a little shit of a kid. If this isn't addressed, I wouldn't be surprised. I don't think it's really ever been pushed like that, it's just that it gained traction in the fandom and a lot of fans started clinging to it (as well as some other common theories like it) but is it REALLY being teased? Or was it not meant to be anything more than a surface level joke.

I don't think it's right to be disappointed when stuff like this has been hyped up by the fandom rather than like... official marketing material or something, and I think that can be applied to every prediction that seemingly didn't come true.

I just see a lot of hostility and accusations thrown around, and some truly bizarre takes, and it's just... it's a show. it's a show, guys. it's just a show.

#wwdits #what we do in the shadows #ive been rewatching to recap the season for the wiki and like. #idk. ive thought some of the nandermo theories this season have been pushing it but MAN #idk how much clearer guillermo could be about not being into nandor anymore #i have no fucking idea if this is the source of all the vague complaining but it really seems like this is the root of the issue #the anger at last season's finale for 'queerbaiting' and now i guess anger about them not getting some contrived jealousy arc #ill be honest like. if it was some wack ass shit like nandor killing guillermo i still would not give a shit. #cause as we saw with last seasons cliffhanger and this seasons premiere ep. it doesnt matter #ITS JUST A DUMB LITTLE SHOW!!!! #i feel like everyones taking it SO seriously like its.... expectations are so high #its a tv show these characters arent real and they are all terrible stupid people #ada speaks #not to be all like 'calm down son its just a drawing' but can we maybe not hold this show to impossible standards #like its not some revolutionary all important work of art its a shit and fart comedy show with some plot to it #IDK MAN. IDK