#And these people do not pay me enough

[downfallofi]

"You don't smile a lot, it gets ya through the day!" - Pam from sales to me

#My face #Sorry Pamela its more like I have the senior shop tech now as my boss #And he's a dickhead mechanic type that doesnt like me being on my computer #Ie ya know to do my job functions #And berates me a lot #And Im thinking now would working for Kroger again really be so bad? #And there's always inventory issues #And these people do not pay me enough #But you are so right Pamela #Smilllleeee through the shit #Sigh #Shes nice and well meaning #But beyond... well me... I have never seen someone so dry and uncomfortable to talk to #Real Colin Robinson coded #Office life ya know #I really... dont smile a lot do I

[tapakah0]

Quick question, how did you get into drawing and making your amazing animations? Is there a story behind it or have you just always loved drawing?

Thank you for your amazing work! 💙💜❤️🧡

Oh I've been drawing since I was little... pretty common beginning for almost all artists)

But! Almost all this time it was feeling kind of... pale? I was drawing just because wanted to draw, making stories and all that, was in a few fandoms, but it didn't last long since I was losing interest usually after 3-4 months (there are stories that I've been following for longer, but they are not the ones that were making me create), nothing of it was giving me something that could make me obsessed, very happy, stupidly happy with a feeling of never letting my pen ever again and spend sleepless nights creating something. You see, I'm pretty picky when it is about stories, if they don't move something in my head - I will stop reading them or will enjoy just as a watcher. Around 5 months ago I've found in this place one comic that introduced me to that secret word "obsession" ~ When your hands are shaking at nights because you want to see it moving, you have it in your head and wanna show, mostly because this comic by itself is already moving. I think I did improve a little in animation since then thanks to that obsession and I think I owe that person a lot for lightning that little fire in me for the first time in my life. I always loved animating but could never find something that I truly wanted to show, something that felt enough and complete for me myself. It might sound too mushy, but it is

#I am #Very happy to finally see what people love in stories #Why they are screaming over something or trying to understand characters #I could never watch cartoon series to the very end since... I can't even explain why #They were becoming boring for me #But when someone shows you what you can see in these stories #You finally feel it #I am a little person who finally found a happiness in a series and I can't pay for it enough #Just do all I can while it lasts and I hope it will be going as long as it can #Thank you ;;-;;;

[learnelle]

Do you ever just get so tired and end up writing secononondly, unsure why it looks a lil off 👁👁

#3 french exams on Friday weeeelp #But I’m feeling so down because I wasn’t confident enough to pay €100+ to do the DELF b2 exam last week #Yesterday I was told that everyone passed the B2 DELF - even those who are doing the B1 uni course instead #And so it got me thinking why do I just * not * believe in my exam taking ability when people in the B1 course can pass the B2 🫠 #(( I am super happy for them though !!! Especially for two ppl who can now apply to uni courses in January like they wanted ! )) #Hopefully I can pass in March 🤞 #I just want that diploma so I can stop paying €900-2700 every year in Irish uni tuition fees 😭 #Also it would be nice to have a lil paper saying I can do ze French a bit #Because some days I feel like my french skills are non existent ( like yesterday when it took wayyy too long to compute the number 95 )

[museaway]

There are better posts about this floating around, but if you've missed them, tumblr has changed anonymous asks. They have to be sent from logged in accounts. If you receive an anon, you still won't know who has sent it, but tumblr does! This will help them deal with abuse reports. I'm sorry this change is coming so late, but I'm thrilled for people who will benefit from it

#tumblr #you still can't pay me enough to turn anon back on #but I'm glad for everyone else #If you've never been harassed on this website #by people making socks and abusing anon #I'm glad for you #this post is not for you #people can create Tumblr accounts #If they're not willing to do that #They shouldn't be able to use all of the features #That's absolutely fair #If they can't make an account for some reason #I really am sorry for them #but for me the safety of the user base is still paramount

[vulpinesaint]

listen i am geralt of rivia hater number one but one thing i actually CANNOT stand is when the fandom mischaracterizes him. took one look at this man who speaks very straight-forwardly and matter-of-fact and is a little recalcitrant with his words sometimes and went "haha he communicates in grunts! man who only says 'hm'!" and then won't even write him to speak in full fucking sentences. hello???? hello???????? yes the netflix show was a bad influence on everybody because they were trying too hard to depict geralt as a stoic manly badass but we CANNOT let that distract us from the REAL thing to make fun of geralt for. which are his Constant Unprovoked Monologues

#also the fact that he fakes his dumb stupid little rivian accent because the man was NOT raised in rivia. but i digress #'haha he only says hm!' where were you for every episode when he launched into a speech about the lesser evil. that's like. the whole thing #geralt of rivia will do nothing But talk once you let him. don't give that bitch a chance! he'll start up about honor again!!! #convinced that most of this is because netflix show insisted on showing us him around jaskier so much #and jaskier does not shut up. love him to death. but geralt genuinely does not have time to get a word in edgewise #i will admit that this is something that i had to learn by reading the books and paying more attention to it #but it's not like he DOESN'T do it in the show. if you ever sit with a witcher episode transcript for whatever reason #and really take a look at geralt's lines. man he talks a whole fucking lot. #again cannot emphasize enough that he Monologues. HE TALKS HIS WAY OUT OF SO MANY SITUATIONS. #me when i look filavandrel of the elves in the eyes and 'hm' at him and he lets me go. no bitch he monologued!!!! #terrible. terrible. let this man speak. if i see you fanfic bitches continue making him talk in sentence fragments again i'm gonna kill #as for my own fanfic. i will always prefer a geralt who talks too much to be believable over a geralt who barely speaks at all. #both because i believe in letting him speak his mind which he OBVIOUSLY likes to do. sideeyes him. #and because it's just fucking boring and a little annoying to read speech patterns that don't sound like how people talk. #cough cough lan wanji the untamed. man i'm not sitting here and reading this motherfucker's two word sentences #let him speak!!!!!! #anyway. #geralt of rivia #the witcher #fanfic

[somecunttookmyurl]

all the while society conflates "being an adult" with "having a proper job" and "having money to make arbitrary Adult Purchases" disabled people who can't work - or can only work part time or can only do entry level baby jobs - will never be 'allowed' to be adults

you can say "being an adult is looking after yourself you don't have to have a job!!!" all you want but most people who say that will still assume anybody who doesn't either can't or won't 'look after themselves' actually. and every 'marker' of 'adulthood' that's observable and thus actually counts or whatever loops back around to... having a job and 'contributing' something

#yeah i have netflix on all day #i am quite literally signed off of work for the -rest of my life- #what the fuck else would you like me to do with my time when most people are in fact at work #or did you think i can't have the tv on and put laundry away at the same time or something #must i work on commissions on silence in a dour room to be perceived as an adult #anyway 'looking after yourself/your home/your pet' is not observable #to anybody who doesn't like ACTUALLY live in your house #unless you are extremely obviously NOT doing it #if a tree falls in a forest etc #owning a house? job. like not even 'in this economy? lol' #disabled people LITERALLY can't because we aren't allowed to have enough savings for a deposit #car? would you honestly trust me with a vehicle lol but also: job #you mostly cannot buy a car without one it's a requirement for the lease #otherwise you aren't 'trusted' to pay it on time #incidentally most landlords will also - perfectly legally - refuse to rent to you because you are going to be unreliable with the rent #which is being paid directly by the gov anyway like take your trust issues up with them bro #a family? if i get married or cohabit with a partner my income gets sliced in half #so to support even myself let alone a child would require. drumroll please. employment #savings? adults have savings right? yeah but unlike you i have a gov enforced cap on mine #'good furniture not shit from ikea' (someone has remarked that ikea furniture is 'college dorm-y' it's going here) #i mean do i have to say it

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

hey guys just doodling the guy again (i am booed offstage)

#death note #l lawliet #bright colors #eyestrain #my art #yeah it’s him again #went to actually draw something but like #eh #might as well draw this guy #i’m projecting my tiredness onto him but is it really projection if he’s also tired? i don’t think so #i would pay cash money to pass out for the next 24 hours dm me and i’ll give you my location and u can bonk me on the head w a bat #genuinely think the lack of sleep has been aggravating a lot of my issues i’ve been weirdly flipping between like #paranoia and weirdly happy and irrational anger and just deeply numb #which actually now that i think about it is exactly what happens every time i don’t sleep enough for long enough #methinks i should sleep more snork mimimi it makes my brain work better #god i want to sleep so bad rn #but i have to do laundry and make 2 pies for other people to consume tomorrow #i plan on decorating the crusts w dicks or smth bc i hate the people it’s going to and they are very conservative religious sorta vibes #but some people there would get a kick out of it (the good ones) #u know i was wondering if i really complain about being tired enough for those anons about sleep and y’know what #i really do #and i will forever #if i’m tired u will know of it and thats because it’s always #maybe i should try that caffeine shit people rave about (<- has not drank energy drinks or sodas or coffees since i was like. 14) #actually i think my heart would give out idk what’s with it but it gets silly sometimes so i don’t think it would like caffeine #or maybe idc who knows #the best solution imo is passing out forever and ever and waking up and hopefully being refreshed or smth

[pikp0kcas3]

I HAVE NOT SEEN THIS MENTIONED YET AT ALL HELLO

I’ve been thinking about this nonstop since the episode came out so I wanna point it out in a long rant about it.

There’s a leitmotif in mammon’s musical episode! To clarify, a leitmotif is a recurring tune associated with a particular character or idea. This one in particular is an excellent musical representation of Fizz’s character growth, and I’d like to explain why, because I’ve been obsessed with this and I tear up every time I hear this theme. IT MAKES ME WANT TO CRY

The leitmotif plays thrice in the episode. The first two are the same track, while the third is a variation of it.

The first time:

When Fizz is gushing about his passion and his dream to work with Mammon. There’s not much else going on, but Fizz is clearly in awe of his idol, as to be expected. He’s starstruck by the idea that he could have a chance to meet someone he admires so much. It’s a scene full of the wonder and excitement little Fizz encompasses.

And then the second:

When Fizz is communicating with the deaf fan! Oh god, oh god. I cried at this part, as I know a lot of people did too, because this part is so sweet and it’s so so important.

This is the reason Fizz kept doing his job. Because I think he realized that this fan looked up to him the same way Fizz did to Mammon. And, looking at him— the little guy has broken horns too. Just like Fizz.

Fizz sees himself in that kid.

Fizz has always wanted to put a smile on people’s faces, has always wanted to be the person kids look up to. And when he sees that happen, it’s probably what inspires him to keep going.

Now, what do these two instances have in common for the exact same track to play? I think that it’s a good emphasis on the kindness Fizz has when he’s a kid, and then, as an adult, the quieter gentleness underneath his stage persona.

Fizz is a kind person by nature, but the image that he has to maintain for Mammon’s brand is like— horniness and innuendos and sneering bravado cranked up to 11. So his audience never really sees the real side of him. The only time he gets to be more like himself is probably when a younger fan approaches him, which likely doesn’t happen a lot, considering the boatload of money you have to pay to even meet the performers, which I assume is added to what you’d have to scrape together to attend the event in the first place.

Another thing I noticed these two scenes have in common: The creepy fan’s appearance.

If you listen, Fizz’s leitmotif is overturned by an ominous shift in tone when the same obsessive fan shows up. I think it’s saying that even though there are undoubtedly positive experiences, they can very easily be overcome by the negative ones. Our brains are essentially hardwired to fixate on the negative experiences because of the possibility of the threat to safety. It wouldn’t be surprising if that’s what happened to Fizz.

Okay. Now, for the third and final time Fizz’s leitmotif plays:

Right after Fizz’s two minute notice. Right after he tells Mammon to go fuck himself.

This time, instead of the sweet and small melody with the subtle isolated instrumentation, it’s a fanfare. A full-force, fully orchestrated, trumpets blazing fanfare version of Fizz’s leitmotif. It’s kicking you right in the feels and it’s not hiding anymore.

It’s representing Fizz finally stepping into his own. Representing him standing up for himself. Representing his pride and his courage and him finally believing in his own self-worth.

And no one can tell me that it is pure coincidence that the music swells right at this moment.

Another beautiful thing is that the music is indeed cut off, just like the prior two scenes mentioned, but it’s by Fizz himself.

It happens when he finally announces what he’s been wanting to do after so many years of being manipulated, abused, and controlled. And for once, the decision he makes is all of his own accord.

And that’s because of the sheer amount of self-confidence and the courage he’s built throughout this entire episode.

Isn’t that such a beautiful thing?

#fizzarolli #helluva boss #fizzaroli helluva boss #mammons magnificent musical mid season special #character development #character growth #people do NOT pay enough attention to how important music is you guys #they put so many itty bitty details in the background #small details #they always get me #i am sobbing

[tearlessrain]

jesus christ deviantart is an absolute cesspit of low effort AI cash grabbing now. made the mistake of going there to see if I could find a pose ref. I did not.

really glad I left when I did.

#look people who use AI for their homebrew campaigns or groupchat bullshit I at least understand #I still don't enjoy it but I get why #but why would you set up an entire gallery just for images a procedural generator spat out for you? genuinely what is the point? #why are you even trying to be an artist if you don't want to make art??? #why are people CHARGING MONEY for this shit???? #like I hope to god nobody's paying them considering literally anyone could punch in prompts and get a similar enough result #at least by the standards of people who are content with whatever AI spits out in the first place #don't try to reason with me about this I do not mean to be reasonable I mean to pettily bitch about it #there are very few things in this world toward which I hold a seething irrational hatred but AI art is one of them #I don't have a moral high ground or anything I just really hate it on a personal level

[daily-hanamura]

curls up into a ball and cries

#submission #OH I SEE #YELLLING WITH YOU ACTUALLY #yosuke's relationship with his father is such A Thing because it's so complex #on the one hand he's deeply frustrated and resentful about the move and he's had to bear a lot of the backlash because of his fathers job #on the other hand he doesnt really let any of that colour the fact that he still wants to be a good son and support his dad #that hes still sensitive enough to pay attention to when his father is having a bad time at wotk #and for all of yosuke's complicated feelings towards junes he just wants to help his father out however he can #yosuke's need to do right by the people around him!!!! #HE IS GENUINELY EVERYTHING TO ME #I HEAR YOU MAN I HEAR YOU I WANT TO THROW MYSELF AT THE WALL #also if you saw me accidentally post this without tags the first time... no you did not #hanamura yosuke #persona 4 #p4g

[unpretty]

have you considered hiring a webdev?

i've got 'pay for a fancy theme (within limits)' money but not 'pay a webdev a reasonable hourly rate' money

my only hope with emailing theme creators is that maybe they'll see enough value in my suggestion that they'll decide it's worth making a theme they can sell both to me and to anyone else who wants to use ghost for this

#original #i don't WANT to pay $150 for a theme but like. if it saves me enough time i'll do it. #alternately i will just put in the work to figure out how to modify one of the default official themes #if i can figure out how to repackage it maybe i can offer it to people who aren't me who knows #if i could afford to pay a webdev i would make them work on alonimi because absolutely no one wants to fuck with mybb lmao

[goldensunset]

i don't really know how to word this but like i feel like i'm gonna forever have to deal with the pain and heartache of one of my very first pokémon games- the first 'normal' pokémon game i've ever played, that i will have lasting nostalgia and love for as a result of it being formative to my introduction into the series- being the one that will forever be looked down upon for bad graphics and technical issues as a result of the game having been rushed

like i honest to goodness want to scream and yell and cry into the void about how this means everything to me and will always be one of my fave games just in general. but how am i gonna do that without someone being like 'the broken overpriced mess? the one that's missing all this stuff from the older games that was great? the thing with all the cringe? that one?' or whatever. and the thing is they aren't wrong for their criticisms either like i know the fact that they rushed this wonderful game hardcore is a massive stain on its reputation and it hurts me too but like i cannot turn off the brain full of love in me and be a mean critic. or even an impartial one. i mean i criticize everything i love don't get me wrong i am constantly running my mouth about what i like and don't like. but at the end of the day i approach all media with an unusually optimistic mindset. if you see me talk a ton about something no matter what i'm saying you can bet it means i love it.

just. aaagh. it's always tough being a new fan of an old series. i'm like too embarrassed to express my opinions bc i feel like they're invalid y'know? i feel so exhausted every time i see something to the effect of like 'oh those poor kids these days having to deal with such bad quality everything what a bad time to be a fan of pokémon wow y'all make me feel so old' well see the thing is i actually am thriving and i love it here. and i'm also an adult myself so i have more critical thinking skills than people who played red when they were like five years old did. and even with the power of critical thinking i manage to be in love with this. join me in marvelling at the beauty of life

#sorry for the massive rant i am full of both love and rage but i feel alone in this world about this particular subject #my other fav complaint is like 'they make it too easy to xyz these days' #to me that reads like 'i suffered so why shouldn't they' #yes we should encourage people to spend 100 hours grinding to do basic story requirements. #to weed out the true gamers from the weaklings. or maybe we could use the spare time in our lives to touch grass #the only easy-fication change in sv i don't like is the ability to access boxes right from the menu #that kinda cheapens the need to strategically organize a team before heading somewhere #i can.. sorta understand being miffed about the remember moves mechanic? #frankly platinum was so stressful with not being able to freely switch without great hassle/cost #it would have been a fair enough compromise to make you pay a bit of lp or something #or do it for free but having to go to like a pokécenter or something #i'll never agree that exp share is bad though sorry #pokémon #ok but about the 'i feel bad for kids these days with these ugly designs/lame 3D models' thing #yeah i have news for you every gen has its ugly/stupid pokémon. #dude look at exeggcute #and some of the oldest spritework is hideous #granted the ds era spritework was beautiful #but i don't see what is so bad about the 3D models of today? they're both nice... #dude play an indie game or something if it's that important to you idk #it will never be the 90s again. it will never be the 00s again. i'm sorry.

[shopwitchvamp]

might as well start warning ya'll now...

#the regulations and stuff keep getting stricter all the time #people get REALLY mad at me because they have to pay customs #even got a bad review about that recently #and international shipping has become outrageously expensive #percentage-wise i don't get that many international orders #but they cause more stress than all my domestic orders combined #:[ #been thinking about this a lot #and i've seen more and more small business artists just shutting off international orders #i'm kinda afraid to do it because i know people are gonna be really upset #but.. #it's starting to just not make any sense unless i was big enough to have EU hubs and a legal team to make sure everything is ok #witch vamp #text post #twitter screenshot

[kazanskys-mitchell]

hi just a friendly fucking reminder that you should be nice to people, especially the ones who are trying to help your pets :)

#so many people say that vet med should be free #and i agree!! #but that’s not how it works and you do have to pay for things #vets/vet techs/vet assistants/receptionists do NOT make enough money in the field #we do it because we want to help animals #but if the people are fucking rude then no one will want to do it!! #and then guess what #there’s no one to take care of the animals #i’m sorry these tags are long as hell #i got verbally abused at work last night and it’s been weighing on me #rant over :) #jj rants

[drumlincountry]

Litany against running for local government:

- I'm LITERALLY an anarchist

- I'd hate it

- local government in Ireland is demonstrably undemocratic such that the structure that exists would not allow me to actually represent people well even if I wanted to and they wanted me to.

- what if they found my blog

- my mother would be SO DISAPPOINTED

#Its too late for this election cycle anyway #And I don't want to join a political party and I don't have the capability to run independently #And really really I can't stress this enough my mother would be so devastated she'd be so MAD #Last time someone she respected was successfully elected to office she told him: #You're a good man but you have your snout in the trough now. Lets see how long it takes you to become a pig. #Cointerpoints are: all the cool kids are running for local election #& I see all these councils passing BDS and Palestinian solidarity rulings...I want to do that #And people keep telling me I should do it #ultimately... i WOULD make a great mayor #Me Fein #Irish shit #The other counterpoint is that I have the heritable curse of sticking my nose into every bit of activism happening in the area #pplus a chronic committee addiction #So they may as well pay me for it

[manichewitz]

an unfortunately really really frustrating part about seeing different companies/organisations/etc try to be more trans inclusive is that even if they're actually doing a great job, its fucking depressing to see how people need to be formally trained on how to treat me with respect. i'm reading this article right now about how theatre companies are trying to be trans-friendly and how people actually needed to like. take classes and talk to experts and get all this gender stuff explained to them in order to have an accepting workplace, meanwhile it's all things that i know about because they are the most basic aspects of my everyday life. its so fucking tiring

#its just depressing that people need to be taught how to respect me bc they wouldn't just know how to do that already #im just like damn...ik we're marginalised but we're really *that* marginalised? ppl dont even know how to be polite to us?? #anyways trans ppl that work in gender education for cis people are stronger than the us marines #you could not pay me enough to explain pronouns or gender identity to full grown adults i just can't do it #like someone needs to but god it wont be me #.txt #alex talks #lgbtq #trans #trans tag #representation #transmasc #transfem #theatre #theater #queer #queer tag #musical theater