#And Life Goes On

[in-the-sweet-november-rain]

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#can someone help me feel something? #its just so hard to fucking keep going you know? #i have 0 purpose exept to be second place and watch other people succeed #no one seems to care anymore that i'm still here #and i basically not even part of my friend group anymore (i never was in the first place they just tolerated me) #like whats the fucking point? #i don't win anything- i'm not good at anything #just middling and mediocre at EVERYTHING! #and i just ant someone to want me #like theres nothing keeping me on this planet #so why stay #i try to feel something- i rly do #but i can't #the knot in my stomach keeps getting tighter and tighter until i eventually push everyone away and break and the cycle repeats #sry to be this depressing on valentines day #but idk anymore... livings hard #and i'd rather not #getting out of bed is so hard knowing no one wants to see you or here you or know you #but i have to #and life goes on #and i'm just swept with the current #because thats all i'll ever amount to <3 #i sound so ungrateful and stupid #but idk somethings obviously wrong with me and i don't know how to stop it #vick's venting again

[petitgalaxy]

feeling SO LONELY AND BORED!!!!

#my best friend is studying abroad #my other close friend is studying abroad #my party friends that i don’t always like are studying abroad #my close friend here doesn’t respond to texts + has a lot on her plate #i have been sick for so much of college and low energy and i feel like I’ve missed out on dating!!! #i was so good at dating freshman year #and now my dating confidence has plummeted #i cant wait to live in the city #im lonely!!!!!!!! #want a boyfriend!!!! #want my friends to be here!!!!!!!!! #It’s also interim semester so #It’s almost over #and life goes on #but i am so bored and aloooone #mine

[itemfinder]

I have had the privilege of the last few weeks off, which has neatly coincided with my mom coming home from a really scary set of hospital experiences and also the holidays.

I'm grateful that I've had the time to spend with her and with my dad, and the time also to recover and rest so I can continue to help.

there have been years that I couldn't deal with them even for the given amount of holiday -- too drained by everything else to handle them and my reaction to them and the history we have.

I had initially (excitedly) planned to spend my break working on sewing projects. I've done... zero of that. I don't regret it -- those can wait, and I'm glad I've done what I did.

I am constantly thinking of how people say I'd run out of things to do with myself without a job. there's so much out there to do.

#and life goes on

[bapydemonprincess]

Please note if you know of a really cool thing you did or someone else did and you're surprised I haven't liked and reblogged yet, it's probably just.,...

I haven't scrolled through my dashboard yet, and idk when I'll have time to or remember to do so 🤷

#the curse of no ability to focus on going through dash #and dash keeps updating #and life goes on #and I never see that Really Good Post #haha

[coffincoitus]

I've talked extensively about the wonders of feeling empathy for the fucked up character but occasionally a character behaves annoyingly for trauma related reasons and I can clearly see the pathway between the horror and the behavior... and still I think he's pathetic and want him to suffer when he disgusts me <3

#like idk sometimes you don't have enough empathy for the victim #and life goes on

[sins-of-the-sea]

//…… lmao

I’m reviewing Phoebus/The Cruel Choice as I return to the hotel-

Pandora decides to play “Untitled” by Simple Plan.

#HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME #I MADE MY MISTAKES #GOT NOWHERE TO RUN #AND LIFE GOES ON #AS IM FADING AWAY #[Dumb] #[OOC] #I embrace being an old hag on the internet now #just need the super long nose and cane

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

you know, thanks to ✨traumatic life experiences✨ during lockdown, i got used to the surreality of knowing someone you love is considerably unwell while not being able there to support them or even see them and i forgot how just achingly empty it makes you feel

#kai rambles #personal #delete later #i said id stay home to take care of our dog since im also having bad fatigue from like idk ME? fibro? both of them? neither idfk #but god i just #you feel useless and you feel bad for feeling anything but fear and worry but you cant even see whats happening #and life goes on #and goes on #i know this pain and monotony so well #and i hate that its easier than the first time #but i think id go insane if it was as difficult as it was the first time

[pwurrz]

yakumo really is built like a dorito huh. itty bitty waist, broad fucking shoulders….

#mmmmmmmmm #will i ever get over it #no #and life goes on #nu carnival #yakumo ♡

[thedoorsofmyheart]

“I have loved you.” “I have loved you. I have had to deal with that.” “And you have broken every promise that we made, And I have loved you anyway. And you have cursed me when there's no one left to blame, And I have loved you just the same. And you have broken every single fuckin' rule. And I have loved you- like a fool.” “I have loved you all my life, I whispered through my tears. There is no end to our story.” “I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday. - That is how I will love you, even as the world goes on its wicked way.” “I don’t love you. But I always will. I always will.” “Maybe I’ll find you in some other life…We won’t be heartbroken half of the time.”

#quotes #poetry #lyrics #quote poetry paralell combos #when they said #love #loss #and life goes on #I have loved you #I will love you #always #but I can’t #I don’t love you #I can’t love you #but I always will #I am that clumsy human #always loving loving loving #never leaving #he loves me he loves me not #uneven petals #hopeless romanticism #art academia excelsior

[starlitwishes]

@starscrxssed

"... I didn't know she was one of his test subjects too."

Wrenn had been staying with Tighnari in Gandharva Ville for some time now. He had gotten to know Collei a fair bit, and while his time there was meant to be 'punishment' for the injury he inflicted upon Tighnari, he knew he wasn't in bad company. In fact, he secretly enjoyed his stay there, much to his own dismay.

At least, until something happened--something he didn't expect.

Wrenn hadn't meant to startle her so badly, when he went to grab her. He hadn't meant anything by it--she had just been turning away from him and he wanted to stop her from leaving, to tell her something he felt was important. But she violently pulled her wrist away and screamed, cowering away from him before running off. Such a reaction to being touched by him startled him, and his own self hatred had started to bubble over--was he so repulsive or other to them that his touch was so offensive?

So he had been in a foul mood all day, avoiding everyone--until Tighnari had found him, and revealed the truth of the matter. That Collei had been one of Dottore's prior experiments.

A segment of his, probably--but still, nevertheless, a victim.

"That explains why she freaked out so much," Wrenn huffed. Though a part of him felt guilty for how quickly he jumped to the conclusion that it was a problem with him specifically, and not something outside of himself. "I'm... surprised she survived through it. Humans are far more fragile than I am. Normally, they die after one experiment... guess he wanted to keep her alive for some reason. That's the only reason she's alive. He doesn't care if his test subjects live or die unless he has something to gain from you being alive. If he's interested enough, then you're not allowed to die. Not on his watch."

Wrenn's words were harsher than he meant, but they were a matter of fact--as his own chest tightened at the thought, he knew better than anyone that if Dottore was interested in you, it was the only thing that saved you from death.

If one could call it saving.

"I'll take care not to suddenly grab or touch her from now on," he promised with a nod. "The last thing I want is to put myself in more debt to you. I'll take on some of her work to make up for it... and, feel free to tell her that I meant no harm by it."

#v; is the song enough to revive the light in his eyes? #rp #starscrxssed #muse: wrenn #And Life Goes On #I was thinking of what experiment Wrenn would tell Nari about #and while it's not necessarily an ''experiment'' #I thought it might be extremely bitter sweet if Nari learned about the events of the thread I have with L called ''Let Death Do Us Part'' #Incoming summary for that thread and #tw for suicide attempts mentioned #The summary of the thread was: As Scara; Wrenn tried to damage his body beyond repair by throwing himself off of a cliff #To which Dottore repaired the damage #But in an attempt to scare Wrenn into not doing that again #He threatened to convince Pierro and the Tsarista to let him cooped Wrenn up in his lab all day #the subtle threat being a promise of more and more experiments and worse ones #Wrenn took that threat very badly and tried to short circuit his own mind mechanism with his newish electro powers #Dottore fixed him again #Wrenn woke up and had a really bad panic attack that ended up having him stab Dottore in the side and getting himself restrained #And Dottore leaves him there until Wrenn convinces himself that his reaction was due to a malfunction caused by him jumping off the cliff #It's not the worst ''experiment'' Dottore ever put Wrenn through by a long shot #But it IS the event that just #completely fucked Wrenn up really badly #When it was shoved into his head (unintentionally but still) that being a perfect lab rat was his life now #That his life was going to be full of experiments and he couldn't stop it #AKA it was probably the lowest point in his life #Ala why I thought it would be a bittersweet idea for him to talk about it with Nari ;o; #BUT IF THIS DOESN'T WORK FOR YOU I CAN PICK A DIFFERENT ONE OFC #but yeah anyway #This thread might end up with Wrenn crying if all goes well (or not so well LMAO) #OH ALSO TO CLARIFY I DO NOT HAVE ANY SPECIFIC COLLEI MUSE IN MIND

[far-from--perfection]

" just because your parents didnt break all the generational traumas, DOESNT MEAN THEY BROKE NONE!"

#I read this somewhere today #And it stuck to my brain #I needed to know this and i need people to know it as well #Dont keep blaming your parents #They really might have broke heavy traumas that we thankfully didnt have to go through thanks to them #I believe each generation has her caracterized traumas.. And traumas definitely go by degrees #They did their best 🙌🤍 #For many of us our moms made sure we get an education and be financially independent while they didnt have this opportunity #For many of us our dads made sure to provide us with all we need until we can provide for ourselves #While they were forced to work so young #Those were the main traumas they broke for us #To now grow and have a bigger view of life #To have a better chance at life then they had #To give a better chance in life for our kids then we had #And life goes on

[whileiamdying]

On the Life and Work of Acclaimed Iranian Filmmaker Abbas Kiarostami

Speaking to critic and scholar Godfrey Cheshire ahead of the Belcourt’s Abbas Kiarostami: A Retrospective

CRAIG D. LINDSEY OCT 10, 2019

Where Is the Friend’s Home?

On Oct. 11, the Belcourt will host a two-week retrospective dedicated to the features and shorts of late Iranian filmmaker Abbas Kiarostami. This traveling tribute will feature 2K and 4K restorations of Kiarostami’s most poignant, most enigmatic, most essential work, including his acclaimed Koker Trilogy (Where Is the Friend’s Home?, And Life Goes On and Through the Olive Trees) and Taste of Cherry, the latter of which was awarded the Palme d’Or at the 1997 Cannes Film Festival.

And who better to talk with about Kiarostami than Godfrey Cheshire, the film critic/writer/filmmaker who knew him best? Quite possibly the foremost stateside authority on Iranian cinema, Cheshire (who has written for The New York Times, New York Press, Film Comment and RogerEbert.com) had a bond with the filmmaker that began back in the ’90s. The interviews they did over the years have now been collected in a new book, Conversations With Kiarostami. (He has another book, In the Time of Kiarostami: Writings on Iranian Cinema, scheduled for release next year.) Cheshire also served as a consultant on the retrospective, which — before coming to Nashville — showed in Los Angeles, New York City and elsewhere. He answered our questions via email.

OK, this retrospective. How did it come about, and how did you get roped into it?

In 2017, following Kiarostami’s death the previous year, the French company mk2 acquired the rights to almost all of his films and embarked on a two-year restoration project in collaboration with the U.S. company Janus Films/Criterion Collection. Ahmad Kiarostami, the director’s son, told Janus/Criterion that they should work with me because I’m virtually the only person in the U.S. who knows about the many films in the first third of Kiarostami’s career. That’s partly due to the interviews I did with him that are in my book. I have worked with Criterion on the DVD releases of Close-Up, Taste of Cherry, Certified Copy and the new Koker Trilogy box set.

Taste of Cherry

While I was reading your book, I was taken aback by how serious he was as an artist — but it seemed he could take or leave filmmaking. He said he wasn’t a big cinephile. There’s that story where he won the Palme d’Or at Cannes for Taste of Cherry and said he felt “nothing.” Considering his love for poetry and photography, what can you say is the thing that drove him to be a filmmaker?

I think filmmaking was his primary focus because it combined all of the qualities of the other arts and interests he had. It was visual and auditory, but also could be poetic, psychological, dramatic, philosophical and so on.

Kiarostami said there are Iranian filmmakers far more successful than he. In your opinion, what is it about Kiarostami that makes him such an emblematic figure in Iranian cinema?

When I first visited Iran in the late ’90s, I learned that many Iranians didn’t consider him their greatest director. I think he gradually became recognized as such when critics and audiences in other parts of the world embraced the films of his middle period, due to their very subtle and psychologically astute stories and distinctively poetic film language.

In the book, you break down his career into three periods: his work with the Institute for Intellectual Development of Children and Young Adults (better known as Kanoon), his Koker Trilogy/Masterworks period, and his experimental later-years period. What are the essentials from each period?

In the first period, you see an artist who has a very strong sense of a poetic kind of cinema (evident in his first four films, the shorts “The Bread and Alley” and “Breaktime,” the short feature The Experience and the feature The Traveler) and one who is also experimenting in various ways while mainly making films about children and teenagers. In the second period, he demonstrates a kind of mastery that has emerged from his earlier work while making films, mostly about adults, that continued to make artistic leaps. In the third period, it’s like he ceased to care about making masterpieces and returned to the more personal, low-key and experimental aspects of his first period. The experimentation here included making films in other countries and languages, Certified Copy (Italy) and Like Someone in Love (Japan).

And Life Goes On

As you continued to explore Iranian cinema and continued your relationship with Kiarostami, did it start to become a kindred-spirit thing where both of you had the same mission — to show the most ambitious cinema Iran has to offer?

I think our friendship, which began in 1994 and continued until his death, was a kind of kindred-spirits relationship. It had to do with the fact that he realized that I’d studied his films in detail, but it also was just personal — I liked him and he liked me. I would say that I had (and have) a mission to tell people about the genius of Iranian cinema and culture, while his only mission was to continue doing work that he considered challenging and meaningful.

What would you like people to take with them after attending this retrospective?

Recently in New Orleans, I spoke with a renowned art curator who said: “In the art world, Warhol was the last giant. In cinema, Kiarostami is the last giant.” I think you can certainly say that he was the last cinematic titan of the 20th century, the century of cinema. At the beginning of the 1990s, probably no American critic had ever heard of him; at the end of the ’90s, American critics polled by Film Comment voted him the decade’s most important filmmaker. I think people attending the retrospective will see the evidence of a multifaceted artist whose distinctively poetic way of filmmaking places him in the company of such figures as Chaplin, Welles, Rossellini, Bergman and Kurosawa.

#Iran #Cinema #Godfrey Cheshire #Abbas Kiarostami #CRAIG D. LINDSEY #Where Is the Friend’s Home? #Janus Films #Koker Trilogy #And Life Goes On #Through the Olive Trees #Taste of Cherry #Criterion Collection #Ahmad Kiarostami #Palme d’Or #The Bread and Alley #Breaktime #The Experience #The Traveler #Certified Copy #Like Someone in Love #Chaplin #Welles #Rossellini #Bergman #Kurosawa.

[dendro-albedo]

I put Genshin music over a Cookie Run Kingdom quest

#genshin impact #cookie run #cookie run kingdom #genshi impact music #fragile fantasy #cookie run kingdom quests #and life goes on #cotton cookie #dragonspine

[deimosatellite]

o yea bird guy

#that made me laugh so much ty luffy #imagine ur law and ur beefing w this guy your whole life and luffy goes ''o yea bird guy" #one piece #almost to dressrosa im on the last few eps of punk hazard now #monkey d luffy #trafalgar law #donquixote doflamingo