#All told it wasn't too bad! :D I had fun making it and I'm fairly pleased ♪

[lookbluesoup]

If you're up for it, what was the first sexual encounter like for each of your OCs? If not all of them then your choice!

Ohh good question! Thank you! :D

Nahte's first attempt at sex was with a fellow Keeper of the Moon girl who took a liking to him. Though she was nice, there was no deep emotional connection, and it didn't go well. He ended up extremely uncomfortable and couldn't finish. It was so embarrassing/shameful that he pretty well avoided any other potential encounters for a while.

His first time really wanting sex was with A'mahl Tia. Their initial attempt... ALSO didn't go great. A'mahl was trying to be the bold dominant "Nunh" and Nahte was extremely uncomfortable and... they had to stop. Nahte felt terrible, even more certain something was wrong with him and that he must just not like sex at all.

A'mahl was feeling pretty bad too because he WANTED this to be good for Nahte. He actually ended up consulting a few ladies at the brothels in Limsa Lominsa, where the pair were living at the time, who advised him that Nahte might need more of a gentle, emotional approach.

Nahte was willing to try again, and when they took things slow he ended up feeling much more connected and aroused and - they were young, he was inexperienced, I won't pretend it was mind blowing intercourse - but it was, indeed, making love.

I'lyrha had to put up with plenty of "encounters" growing up as a pretty little thing on a slaving ship. It wasn't the worst it could be, for a while Captain Baagvai kept her around instead of selling her with the rest of his chattel because he liked her, and Lyrha came to see herself as part of his crew. The crew was smart enough not to take too many liberties with one of the Captain's favorites.

She lost her virginity to a pirate of her own choosing, but he hadn't exactly been concerned with her pleasure and it'd been a painful, rather underwhelming event. She continued to pair up with bad lovers who offered her social protection, using sex more as a tool to manipulate and bargain.

I'lyrha did not actually know that women can orgasm until she and X'rhun sleep together for the first time, which completely changes her perspective on what sex can mean. She would probably insist that was her first "real" time.

I'm actually not sure for Louis! I haven't done a lot of development for him in his young adult years yet, though I know he's a bit of a rover. It was probably a Moonkeeper girl during one of his family's visits to the Shroud, and he probably had a lot of fun, but beyond that? Well, he hasn't told me yet. lol

Tsimh grew up in the same clan as Nahte, but she took to the more casual approach to sex Moonkeepers have much better than her brother. A young Keeper man named Okkh'a was her first, by her choice, the two being fairly close as he visited the Vhia clan often to meet with the women.

Tsimh was adventurous and confident, and had enough practice just, learning what she liked about her own body in "personal time" beforehand that it was a relaxed and pleasant encounter for both of them. Okkh'a is one of her more frequent partners and eventually ended up being the father of her first child!

#ffxiv #nahte'to vhia #lyrha #louis borel #tsimh vhia #text #long post #nsftumblr #slavery mention #sinday

[pbandjesse]

I'm really tired. Everyone was very surprised I came to work today was how badly injured I am. Honestly I probably could have stayed home but it's not like I didn't have a good time at work. It was a really good day. I am tired.

I slept good last night. I woke up once but I wasn't as freaked out and sleeping with the eye mask on definitely helps. I got up with my alarm at 7:30 and got dressed and felt very cute. I love my outfit today. It was only like 75 degrees out so I actually could wear sleeves and that was nice. It also helped protect my arm a little bit. The one. My elbow is pretty raw. And it hurts to bend and pick up stuff but we survived.

I had waffles for breakfast and then I headed to work. Kenneth set up tables and I unfold a chair since I couldn't pick anything up really. Honestly doing the chairs kind of hurt my arm but I was okay. The Cannery was fun but we had a big stressful moment because the person who was supposed to be doing the printmaking was an hour late. So nothing was set up and we didn't realize until right as the kids were getting there and I really shouldn't have moving to process so I had to do my best but then I got upset because I was in pain and I yelled down and somebody had to come up and do it because I was just so frustrated.

The Cannery went good. The kids were really sweet. And I stumble on my words a few times during The Company Store but mostly it was very good.

I got a half hour break. I eat my rice and chilled. And then I gave my door. There was a little bit of a problem because we ran into the neighborhood tour but it all worked out. Again I had some trouble talking because are being distracted and being in pain but at the end of the parent on my tour said that she liked it a lot and then I did a really great job and she just kept telling me how nice it was. I love giving Forest there. Just good because I have two in a row tomorrow.

I left there at 12:30 and just missed the bus as I was coming up the hill. A sweet old man was sitting on the bench and he told me he was mostly blind and asked if I could tell him when the 80 bus came. And I said of course and we talked about how nice the weather was and then his bus came. And thankfully mine came just a couple minutes after. I was texting chelsi that would be late and she told me I shouldn't even come because she was worried about me. But honestly I wanted to go see the school nurse. I don't know when you need to go to the doctor. I feel like no one ever taught me that and I just feel like I'm bothering people or it's a waste of time. When I was a kid we never went to the doctor unless we were dying. My dad didn't go until after he was done having shingles. I don't have good references for this. So I got to school and I went to the school nurse and she told me that it looks bad but it's going to keep spreading. But the blood vessels are going to spread out and then lighten. She said if it gets really bad in the next couple days like it swells up or I get a hard knot somewhere else on my leg that I should be concerned and then go to the doctor. But she said that it doesn't look that bad All Things Considered. She said it looks bad. And everyone else agreed. Because all day and that's all I had to hear. I told the story what happened like 75 times today. But I was good.

I picked up the kids and I got lots of hugs which is really what I wanted today. I was talking to Marcus and joking about that. Everyone kept saying that they would have stayed home if they were made but for real what was I going to do. Lay here and be sad. I'd rather be at work and be safe. We spend the kids will come and give me hugs and that's always nice.

We made mosaics today. Every day this week, which is just tomorrow and Wednesday, will introduce a different project that the kids have requested. So it was nice to be able to kind of come together and have options and tomorrow add more options to the board of what they can make and it's just going to be good.

We had a nice time at recess and dinner was fine. There was some conflict with one of the staff members because she thought we were taking up too many tables and kept trying to tell her this is where we always sit and she disagreed with us and I just didn't even get into it with her I'd let Chelsea handle it. I just couldn't deal with that today.

But art was really fun and I was very proud of the kids. And it was a fairly quick day. At the end of the day I ended up staying behind because one of my students parents was just really concerned. She was really worried about how they're communication is with her daughter and she doesn't know what to do. Apparently they live in a neighborhood where the girl can sleep through anything until there's gunshots. And then she freaks out and can't sleep. I don't blame her. But she doesn't feel like they can talk to each other. So I suggested they do a mommy and me Journal where they can talk to each other through that. Where it's a judgement free zone and they can get things out. Maybe it'll help. I felt really bad and I wish there was something I could have done more for them. I really like the girl. But I understand where mother is coming from and it's really hard. For everybody.

When I got outside I had to run for the bus. But he didn't make me pay for it so that was cool. And then I got back to my bike and went up to James's place.

He made me a pizza bagel. And we hung out until all of the D&D people got there. First time in almost three months! It's been too long since I've seen all of them. But it was nice to be around other people for a bit. I got to try fancy Japanese Kit Kats because one of them had just gotten back from Japan. It was really fun.

As their game got started though I headed out. Said goodbye to everyone. Tentatively told Jordan that we may still be able to go to his birthday. But I'm not sure if we're going back to Philly for Father's Day and now so who knows what's going on there. And then I came back home.

Where I became crazy angry because again the new people next door locked the back gate. So I couldn't get into my Ally. So I couldn't get into my apartment. I had to go all the way around the block to the front drag my bike in through the door where it does not fit. And go back into my apartment. I went outside and I kicked the fuck out of that gate. I broke that lock right off which is what I told them I was going to do. I gave them a warning that if they locked me out of my apartment again I would remove the lock and I was serious. If they do it again I will remove the door. I cannot wait to not live in this apartment anymore because those people next door have ruined it for me. Besides any issue I had in this apartment as soon as they moved and they have made everything around here miserable. They put trash in the alleyway they let their dog shit everywhere and they lock me out of the place I live. They do not own that public shared space. And it is ridiculous that I have to continue to ask not to be locked out. I told them to put on a type of gate where you can open it from both sides they didn't listen. I had my dad fix the gate so that it would stay closed when that broke I fixed it. And then when it broke again their maintenance people fixed it and out of the second one that broke her most immediately. The spring is still whole and that should be good enough. If it is not you guys can then put on a different piece I am not fixing it again. It is so crazy to me that they think that they can lock that gate when I live here. They know they're not the only ones that can get through that gate and it is insanity. I will not put up with it anymore.

But after I did that I calm down. They will not lock me out again so there's that. So I felt better. I brought Sweet Pea inside and I went and took a shower. My new dress came that I got on eBay it fits me great and I feel super cute in it. And basically the rest of my day has been great. I'm very sleepy. I'm going to go have a snack and then I'm going to brush my teeth and go to bed. I have double doors tomorrow and then teaching at the school. I think it's going to be an excellent day. James has his second interview and I'm very excited for him. I hate that it's on the phone for him because that sounds horrible but I hope that it goes well. He's such a good boy and he deserves to get this job. And I hope you all have a great night tonight. Sleep well everyone. Be safe out there.

#ootd #work #babe #selfie #good day #wound #bruise #art #kids art #monday

[pbandjesse]

It was a cold day. Like not just regular winter it was a blustery kind of frigid. And it was just kind of rough. Enough that I was fragile and cried a whole bunch at the play me and James just went and saw. But today wasn't a bad day.

I was just up way too long last night. D&D friends stayed until after midnight. And then Brandon woke up right after they left which was very funny. And he ended up staying until about 1:30. Like it was fun but I feel so tired and really wanted to go to sleep. And then once he did leave I couldn't fall asleep for a while. James went to bed but I was up until about 2:30. I ended up selling one of the McDonald's fast food toys I had listed on eBay. So I made like $5. I forgot that I gave it free shipping so I honestly might lose money in the long run. But it's whatever. I hope that they make someone happy.

I woke up at 8 wall James was making breakfast for himself. I got up and got dressed and said goodbye and went to go home. I wanted to get some more sleep while he went to work. But then I got outside and my bike lock it frozen shut. Would not turn. I called him and he came down with a pot of hot water. Poured it down the walk as best he could and that opened it up. I was able to buy, but I brought the back in the house because I don't want it to happen again.

I was fairly bundled but getting home with still rough. It was very cold. And windy. I got back here and got a shower after I brought my bike inside. I had to do some cleaning because sweetpea threw up on the stairs. But then I took shower and wash my hair and I felt a lot better. I was very hungry but I decided I'd rather go to sleep.

I laid in bed for a while. I fell asleep somewhere around 9:30. And I woke up at 11 feeling much better. I got dressed and did my makeup. And then I left. I walked down towards the harbor to go to the Chipotle. I brought a container so I could get another meal out of it. The bowl is definitely the best way to go. Because you can get taco shells on the side have three tacos than have a whole meal still there. It's actually outrageous how much the tacos are a rip-off if you buy them by themselves. I packed up my leftovers and I went to get the bus.

I had to wait for the bus so much today. It was really long getting to work at 3. But I got to work and everything was fine. And then all the sudden it started snowing really bad. It only lasted for like 20 minutes but it was coming down and Swirls and sideways. It was wild. But then it stopped in the sun came out. It's still too cold but it was neat to see.

The kids were pretty good today. We had a meltdown with one of them and they cried a lot. But we have a small class and we were able to go to the gym for us and we had a good dinner. Art time went okay. The one table was way too loud and they weren't as focused as they could have been and that led to me having to split up the table so that they could focus more. And that led to meltdown. And some torn apart. It wasn't fun seeing one of my students cry that much. It was over nothing. We sat in the hallway and I held his hand and we did some deep breaths but he just could not calm down. Just got to keep working at it. He'll take tomorrow off and we'll see him again on Monday

After work I went to go get the bus and the transit app said it was one minute away. And that minute passed and nothing came. And then it said it was 20 minutes away. After I spent 15 minutes outside. And it was freezing. My hands were so stiff from the cold. I was in pain and I was tired. I thought I could waste some time by wandering up to the stop that comes before mine. So I walked what is a pretty far distance. And I was very cold. And I got there. And it still said the bus was 20 minutes away. I was going to cry. And then I saw two buses in the distance and I was like I'm getting on that bus I don't care where it's going. I had to get inside. So I get on the bus. Thankfully it's going downtown. It's going away I never gone before but it was going where I needed to go. Which is nice to know for the future that I can take a different bus. And it took about the same amount of time.

But I was very fragile and I didn't feel good and I feel cold. And I was getting more and more upset. I was texting James and I told him where I was getting off and he said he would meet me there. I forgot that we were going to a play tonight and all the sudden I was like I'm I can't go. But we went to McDonald's and we ate food and it made me feel better and I'm really glad we went to the play.

Don't get me wrong it was rough. Play was a little over two hours. Was about an Amish community. Specifically one family. And an English man. That is to say someone who is not Amish. He fell asleep behind the wheel and killed the two sons of the family. And he comes back to try to atone for what happened. It was all about forgiveness. And then the daughter that have been excommunicated comes back. And you deal with figuring out why she had been shunned by the family. And it turned out she was sexually assaulted and Community forgave her rapist but she couldn't so she left. And it was very very difficult to watch. I cried a little bit in the first half. But the second half I was sobbing almost the entire time. I really enjoyed the show but I think I cried more because I was tired. I really loved it though and the lighting in the show was fabulous.

I was really really happy to go home. And James just walk back and he's in the other room doing dishes and hanging out with the cat. We have the morning off together we're going to make muffins. And then I have teaching and I'm looking forward to another nice day. Hopefully I don't get stuck outside as often. But it's going to be colder. So wish me luck. Good night everybody sleep well

#ootd #work #babe #selfie #art #play #amish #theater #tired #long day #wensday