#*when i'm screaming at the sky

[honeydukesheroine]

Go With Grace 🌧️

For @corneliaavenue-ao3 and @severalsunlitdaylights!

Folklore: my tears ricochet

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace, Because when I'd fight, you used to tell me I was brave

Deathly Hallows angst with a sunny Half Blood Prince ending:

She knew he’d waited there for her, a safe enough distance away that he wouldn’t be discovered.  Ginny marched past him, each footfall an act of violence, heading straight into the dark chasm of Hogwarts’ halls. Warmth from the sinking sun had long since been extinguished, it deserting her too.  “You’ve got to stop challenging them like that,” Neville said for the fiftieth time. The ache lingered longer each time, bone deep, like being outside in a freezing rain. He thought she was being intransigent. Difficult for no reason. Reckless.  “And what? Roll over like a Plimpy and take it?” She tried to outpace him, but he caught up with her easily. “There’s a time and place, Ginny,” he said, sounding weary, yet desperate. “And getting tortured for mocking Alecto’s grammatical errors is not one of them.” “She wrote ‘Muggles cause displeases incurable by magic,’ Neville, disPLEASES… it was what she wrote just as much as the meaning behind it.”  “Still.” They’d reached the Fat Lady’s corridor. She stopped and faced him to say quietly, “It’s what he would do. It’s what he did. Against Umbridge.” “That was different.” “How?” She demanded in a whisper. For she was tired too. Tired of being contested. Of compromising under their fool’s tyranny.  It was after curfew. If they were caught in the halls, the Carrows would gladly inflict another punishment, yet Neville’s sympathetic expression hit just as hard. — Ginny threw her bag on the grass, and collapsed to the ground beside it. “Maybe I shouldn’t have hexed her, she’s just going to go squealing to McGonagall.”  “Bright side, if you get detention, maybe you can do it with me,” Harry said, casting an Imperturbable Charm around their cluster of trees before spreading out beside her.  “I doubt Snape will leave us alone that long.”  Harry laughed. He tilted his head back, looking flushed, and loosened his tie. Even after these last few weeks, his smiles lingered longer than before, like his face was building muscle memory.  She crawled over her bag and laid on her side too, facing him.  As with many other “firsts” in their relationship, she studied him - his eyes, his hands, his lips - for reassurance. And her first retaliatory hex seemed as important a milestone as any. He pushed her hair back, fingers combing through, until he was cradling her head in his hand.  And for the first time since lunch, she kissed him. Hooking her heel behind his knee, she pressed closer to him, basking in the comfort of him pressing back. “You’re tough…” he said against her lips a few minutes later, still smiling. “And brave… I like that about you.”

Usually she didn’t put much stock in words, but these ones she would hold close.

#I wanted to choose fluff but Taylor Swift had other ideas #i still talk to you #when i'm screaming at the sky #severalsunlitdaylights #hinny #ginny weasley #harry potter #missing moments #deathly hallows

[willows-lane]

screaming my tears ricochet while taking a bath is so me coded

#i love taylor swift ok #my tears ricochet #fuck fuck fuck #lyrical masterpiece #AND I STILL TALK TO YOU #WHEN I'M SCREAMING AT THE SKY

[seabird-bard]

and i still talk to youu

#when i'm screaming at the sky #:(

[florencewellch]

OUR SONG IS THE SLAMMIN' SCREEN DOOR, SNEAKING OUT LATE TAPPING ON YOUR WINDOW. WHEN WE'RE ON THE PHONE AND YOU TALK REAL SLOW, CAUSE ITS LATE AND YOUR MAMA DONT KNOW

#when i'm screaming at the sky*

[isitovernow-ootw]

the most random atla fic that is canon to me has to be this one where zukko and sokka have been together for years when sokka gets memory loss all the way back to the day of black sun and everybody has to pretend their whole relationship never happened for fear of making it worse and its just so true

(i havent read this fic in like 2 years i cant fully vouch for it but i loved it SO MUCH at the time that what i remember about it is Fully Canon in my mind)

#atla #zukka #*when i'm screaming at the sky

[thornheartless]

What if I just slowly post every screenshot I have of Nada? Anyway, I like this quote.

"Nothing has changed. Everything is the same."

Nada, this room didn't use to exist.

#thorn talks #nms #no man's sky #nms nada #priest entity nada #<- tumblr's stupid update to suggest popular tags as you type #did NOT recommend me that and instead suggested that i tag their name as #pri.est ki.nk #just breaking the words up to avoid this post showing up in that tag when it's not relevant to it #aNyway i'm gonna internally scream about that

[wright-phoenix]

everglow vocals only save me. everglow vocals only. save me everglow vocals only

#dustin bates when i get you #i'm on my KNEES #orz #screaming shouting at the sky (positive) #cas.txt #maybe i should start a tag for when i talk about starset #cas.strst #no thats lame uhmmmm #cas.stst #i cant put it as double s because uhm well. history #cas.star #idk i'll figure it out

[the-music-maniac]

random rant incoming

Y'know, while I think the ship of Kazurei is absolutely adorable, I'm also perfectly happy with Kazuki and Rei being purely friends, cause tbh I love the idea of platonic love and unconventional families and two het men not being absolutely terrified of being conceived as gay with that no homo shit because they don't see it as an issue, and just raising a child together with a friend - we need more media representation of platonic love and unconventional families and they're so adorable and I love how the show depicts them already -

H O W E V E R

The homophobic people I've been seeing online going "oh thank god they're not gay, NOW I can watch it" or just refusing to watch it because they STILL think two totally platonic guy best friends raising a kid together is too "gay"????  It's pissing me off. Enough that I want to ship them even harder out of spite - draw a shit ton of Kazurei fanart and make their eyes bleed. I already liked this ship, it's fucking adorable, but my shipping was also 100% casual. Not ride or die. I would be perfectly happy with them as platonic best friends raising an adorable 4 year old. But damn is that petty side of me taking over now.

I understand if people are tired of media putting too much importance on romantic relationships and not enough on platonic, it's an exasperation I totally understand and definitely feel as well. And of course you don't need to watch media that you aren't interested in, and I 100% understand if people just straight up don't like Kazuki and Rei together as anything but platonic because they don't think it fits! All of that is so valid. But I think it's the entitlement in these specific comments that piss me off. The implication of there being too much lgbtq+ rep nowadays, of all of it being too loud, oh no I can't get away from it, oh no, must you turn every single character gay??? You can't see a single straight person on tv! We aren't able to ignore your existence anymore, oh the humanity!  

I hate to break it to these dumbasses, but the internet has been shipping canonically platonic characters together since the beginning of the internet. The only difference is that they don't have any complaints about it if it's a platonic guy and girl friendship that’s being shipped romantically. It's just interesting how they only start finding an issue with romantic relationships overshadowing platonic ones when it's two people of the same gender. And the nature of these types of complaints piss me off because despite how much better lgbtq+ rep has gotten over the years, we are still so far from having enough rep in media. So many people have grown up with heteronormativity shoved so far down their throats (me included) that they didn't even realize what their sexuality was until adulthood! I can't even watch an insta reel of a guy and girl being best friends without the entire comments section talking about how they're secretly in love with each other! People look at me and their automatic reaction is always that I must only like the opposite gender, and if I happen to want to go on a date with a girl in public instead of a guy there will always that part of me that screams unsafe unsafe unsafe. And people can't even handle the existence of a cute little anime about two PLATONIC guy best friends raising a kid, or the existence of a fucking ship that isn't hurting anyone???? Give me a goddamned break

#damn i didn't mean to trauma dump on a kazurei post #i'm just kinda angry rn #and I've decided that i will do what i always do when i see homophobes on the internet getting angry at gay ships #i will ship it harder #and i will point at them and laugh #i hope they're hopping mad #i hope they're absolutely foaming at the mouth #i hope they're screaming at the sky at the injustice of our existence #i hope how loud we are keeps them awake at night #okay perhaps i'm more than just a little pissed #perhaps i shouldn't be over such a small thing #especially not over a cute fluffy ship i'm not even that serious about #but it's just the principle of the matter #how many times have i read this bullshit on the internet over and over and over #it's just about a ship #but is it really? #buddy daddies #kazurei #kazuki #rei #reikazu #miri buddy daddies #kazuki buddy daddies #rei buddy daddies #kazuki x rei #shipping rant #and also lgbtq+ media rep rant

[skydigiblogs]

y'all bandai themselves is assigning me with the apocalymon autism

[ID: A photo of a someone holding a copy of the parallel art of Apocalymon from the Exceed Apocalypse expansion of the Digimon Card Game. The alt art depicts Apocalymon's humanoid body with an intense expression. The card itself is in a gold sleeve.]

we only bought four packs (the first time we have bought packs since 2021) and this was the last card in the last pack

we're getting the whole pizza with this one fellas

#sky talks #digimon card game #yes i know apo is a restricted card #but i have that apocalymon autism real bad right now so even though i barely know shit about DCG #i'm like determined to make it work #also the dcg tutorial app is really good for what it is but. god damn. #i am remembering why we stopped playing card games in college because worrying about interactions is a pain and a half #one game takes me like 30 minutes minimum even with the app making the flow easier for my brain #anyways #when i tell y'all i screamed #i could not chill for about an hour after this #he came home fr #now i feel like i HAVE to find a FLGS that actually has people playing digimon lmao #(as if i wasn't already gonna try to) #ALSO having not played card games since like? 2018? #(and considering the only card game we really played was MTG) #i am losing my mind over how pretty and intricate foil cards are nowadays??? #like i also collect pokemon cards and YES there are some very gorgeous older pokemon foils #(there's this one pidgeotto card with starburst sparkles that is dazzling) #but the intricacy of the pattern work in some of these foil cards is nutty #i have to wonder what kind of tech goes into making card art do that #anyways uhh #i'm going to bed now that i've spent 6 hours riding this high #download the DCG tutorial app

[fisheito]

gosh okay if it's okay can i leave some extremely persistent brainyakus for babyyakus.... like obv you can just leave this or post or just share w whoever you want i'm just some dudegirl clanging pots and pans in your boxes but! i have always loved the idea of like...... baby yakumo being taught some form of sign language (Klein Sign if u will allow the goofery) bc the mouth shapes and tongue movements of the spoken language are hard for him to grasp even with full immersion and support!!!! i also think he would have some anxiety actually using his voice bc Y'know. It's Yakumo. he does eventually become more comfortable with verbal speech ofc but oh my god i am losing my mind at (baby yakumo voice) pep-per......... once again thank you mxr requiodile for my god life. and truly what are pigs but big potatoes....... ONION OWWIES..........

my last spam i will leave u with is also! ever since i unlocked homecoming ssr yakumo and it's dropped that he made his own ceremonial clothing i became OBSESSED w the idea of grandma taking babkumo to The Crafting Circle of the village. maybe he needed a bit more immersion into human spaces before he started school so he's just cowering in grandmas lap while she's knitting and mending but slowly he starts just like wandering around, looking at all the things happening with all the crafters just letting this uncanny child gaze in wonder over all the comfort items and soft blankets and warm clothes being made. and then there's at least one giant ass loom and those things are HUGE and make a lot of clacking noises. babkumo inching closer to it but doing these big scared jumps every time it makes noise but he's just so O.O like this giant scary thing makes such nice things!!! he's been wrapped in scarves fresh off this thing!!! and then whoever is working the loom pushing the shuttle through and just patiently waiting for yakumo to very tentatively push it back toward them. tbh i don't even really think that's great weaving technique but idc we are socializing this yokai via fibers and stich-n-bitch. thank you again for the generosity and enthusiasm ;w;

i am leaving this here for everyone to see because i like it and i want to show it

#SIGN LANGUAGE YAKUMO.......... sweet child #it's scary to talk sometimes. especially if the meaner ppl around u make fun of ur pronunciation #baby which of the mean adults made fun of your syllables. i'll beat them with a shovel #so instead we'll put that affinity for hand fidgeting to practical use #yakumo's good with his hands right?? takes all sorts of practice!!! #dexterity +6 from signing. another +6 from whatever crafting class he's shadowing in the village #he's doing potterymaybe! he's sewing! he's cookin! he is extricating fchickens from the wire gate bc some chickens live life on the edge!!! #honestly nonners i also freaked out when i unlocked that ssr lore about his sewing #i think i just screamed at the sky like “WHY IS MY WIFE SO PERFECT” #seriously. points to the outfit. that is not the work of an amateur. #i'm gonna kill him for being an anxious mary sue. i hate him. why is he good at things. why is he so cute #actually he's probably less mary sue than i think. i would not trust him to win a game of dodgeball. #do mary sues always win at dodgeball? i'm not putting yakumo near any high contact sports. just to be safe. #IGNORE ME. ANYWAY. #OLDER YAKUMO HAVIN A NONVERBAL MOMENT AND EVERYONE'S like ???? how do we get him to tell us what's wrong?? #BAM! FATHER OLIVINE KNOWS KLEIN SIGN! HE SOOTHES THE SNAKE AND WE ALL GET BACK TO COMMUNICATION #asks #yakumo

[helianskies]

ugly maths.

i hate maths, right. i don't usually like numbers, and if i do like numbers it's gotta be an 8 or a 48 and nothing else.

thing is, i've recently caught myself doing maths again. ugly maths. the kind of maths that, really, i've been trying to avoid as much as possible because, well, it's ugly!

you... wanna see?

okay, fine... but don't say i didn't warn you!

ugly, see? look at all those numbers! not a 48 in sight!

huh? what's that? you don't see what i'm on about? oh... oh! hang on, lemme just—

better? yes? no? no? okay, what if i—

mmh, yes. ugly numbers. see it now? can you see why they're ugly?

here, i can make it worse.

these numbers are ugly. the maths they make me do is ugly.

now i'll level with you: the worst ones by far are the yellow numbers. the maths they make me do it the ugliest.

why ugly?

because it makes me ugly.

those numbers turn me into not only a suddenly number-obsessed fool, but a fool who also cannot understand these numbers and what they mean and why i feel like they reflect on me and my ability.

87, 75.

the thoughts are as follows:

• the orange numbers are big, so why are you being ugly about the yellow ones? you should be happy with what you have. so many nice big numbers! not everyone receives that.

• is it that there are two different audiences for these two different fics? perhaps. they are quite different works, with different appeals, and different themes. maybe you are reading too much into it.

• why are you obsessing over numbers anyway? you don't like maths! you left maths behind when you were 16, put it down!

okay, okay, fine! i'll put the maths down. right here, in fact!:

that 87 was an 83 at the start of the year. the 6161 it is attached to was a 5453.

4, 708.

ugly maths.

the 75 is a nice number. in fact, compared to 87, it is beautiful, radiant, enchanting. at the start of the year, 75 was 48. wow. now that is one sexy number!

27.

mmmm.

6161, 1061.

5100.

87, 75.

12.

mmmm.

you know, my most favourite comment left recently on a fic of mine was 2 characters long: :(

it made me :)

well, actually, it made me >:) because it was left in response, presumably, to one of the key scenes in a new chapter which left the exact impression on someone that i hoped it would.

they must be the only one who reacted like that, though.

1.

have i mentioned that that 87 and 75 include author responses?

i won't try to do more maths, there. it might not end well for me. the maths is making me tired enough as it is, and i have an early start tomorrow.

oh! but, that being said, i have another set of ugly numbers to show you, so keep 87 and 75 in mind.

ready?

838, 245.

(want a hint? the green numbers!)

838, 87. 245, 75.

9.6, 3.3.

ugly maths. it's ugly again, see? i don't like it. i'm seeing numbers within numbers within numbers, and i can't seem to stop!

the numbers make me ask new questions:

• why is it not good enough?

• people seem to engage more with one fic over the other, so shouldn't you prioritise?

• is all this maths this really good for you?

no, it isn't.

i want to avoid ugly maths. ugly maths makes me want to tear my hair out. it makes me want to start from scratch. it makes me want to grab someone and scream. it makes me want to cry and press a button that has tempted me many times before when the numbers become too ugly to bear.

ugly maths turn me into an ugly person.

ugly maths make me obsessive, paranoid, anxious, regretful, vindictive, spiteful, alone.

i hate maths. i hate numbers, just like, it feels, the numbers hate me.

#helia rants #cw vent #i'm okay but i'm not #this has been playing on my mind over the last couple of weeks #it's aimed at the sky rather than anyone here #i know i'm not the best myself as commenting. i justify it to myself by affirming i don't read much. which i don't. #since the start of the year i have tried to comment on everything i have read #bearing in mind i may also dm someone rather than comment because i want to scream and ramble about their fic more personally #that being said. i know i'm not the only one who finds themselves doing ugly maths #and in turn starting to feel uglier too #i don't like looking at the numbers #i was doing well at the start of the year #but as i open my drafts and look to a new chapter and at the notes i wrote #i can't stop myself from opening the fic. from seeing where it's at. from seeing if it's changed. from checking my inbox to see if... #if only... #what it's meant is that i've come to a point where a fic i loved has become exactly that: a fic i loved. past tense #the other fic is still a fic i love. but i know deep down that that is tied to the numbers too #i hate that this is what i've become #because i have tiny fics. fics with 50 hits and maybe 1 comment. and i love them. i still love them #but when it comes to the big ones. the multi-chapters. the hefty fics. after a point all i see are numbers #and those numbers have come to determine both my happiness and fulfilment as a writer #and so i am ugly. i am sad. i am pathetic. #and i don't know how to stop. #helia's stuff #this was meant to save back into my drafts. i was editing tags. tumblr decided it should post. so... so be it. #also this is not an attention thing if anyone dares go 'oh but you're a good writer uwu' i might do something we'll all regret #this is also not a 'ffs comment on my fics will you 😒' hell no #it's just about me. and my issue. and my unhealthy relationship with these fucking numbers. #gotta get this shit out of my head somehow :)

[june-again]

plans for valentine's day: social psyc midterm. interview for a job i don't plan to take. KISS BOYFRIEND. globalizations lecture. OPEN MIC NIGHT WITH BOYFRIEND. drink coffee too late at night. GIVE BOYFRIEND VALENTINE'S GIFT

#i got him a cool necklace from a local business in my hometown #and and and #he keeps saying how he wants to have a necklace and i'm like yeah! i agree #i'm bad at keeping this kind of secret when it comes up this much #but that's okay #it doesn't have to be a surprise anyways #it's a moon and star necklace and it's one of those adjustable ones so you can have it at any length #i thought the gimmick was cool and he's my night sky loverboy so sooooo #screams rolls around on floor i love him #june shines #music be the june of love

[katierosefun]

yeah no but have you thought about the poetic implications of obi-wan and vader literally holding hands in the duel right before obi-wan pummels his lightsaber into vader’s heart/chest piece 

#kenobi series #kenobi spoilers #caroline talks #what a fuckign wild moment #when i tell you i've been replaying that moment since forever #like . . . what am i. what do. #what do i do. #THEY WERE HOLDING HANDS ?!?!?!?!? #THE HEART PIECE ?!??!?! #AND YOU CAN AIM FOR MY HEART GO FOR BLOOD! BUT YOU WOULD STILL MISS ME IN YOUR BONES ! ! ! #AND I STILL TALK TO YOU WHEN I'M SCREAMING AT THE SKY ! !! TYPE BEAT ! ! ! #alexa play my tears ricochet alexa play exile alexa play hoax alexa--

[florencewellch]

CAUSE IM A REAL TOUGH KID, I CAN HANDLE MY SHIT

#jake.txt #when I'm screaming at the sky*

[isitovernow-ootw]

what phoebe bridgers doesn't understand about waiting room is what makes a song good isn't just how deep it is or whatever, its how well it gets across the feeling/message it's trying to get across. and waiting room is THE ULTIMATE representation of a melodramatic teenage crush that you are COMPLETELY convinced could never work but you've also never felt so strongly about anything in your life as you feel like you are in love with this person (you probably aren't you probably don't even know them that well) and that's incredibly beautiful

#and i say this as the foremost expert on that kind of crush #since mine lasted like 5 years thanks to lockdown and my gap year #waiting room #waiting room phoebe bridgers #phoebe bridgers #*when i'm screaming at the sky

[cerealbishh]

"Well, I think it's safe to say that my boots still work."

"Yes, they do."

"Pretty proud of those babies."

"Well, cheers to those babies."

"Cheers to your two left feet."

"Thanks."

#big sky #big sky spoilers #big sky 03x09 #cassie dewell #cormac barnes #kylie bunbury #luke mitchell #cassie x cormac #pls i scream when he leaned in for a kiss #but also i didn't think they kissed the first time i watched cuz it was purty short? #also i hate that cassie thinks there's something wrong with her #tbh i get why he doesn't wanna talk about it anymore but it would bother me too #this ship is probably going nowhere #it's doomed #why are they doing this to me??? #cassie and cormac are so playful and cute normally #now i'm just stressed and sad #tw: alcohol