#(vague screaming sounds)

[lunarblossomyuehua]

So I finally jumped back onto reading where I left off Aoab and already I can feel my entire brain chemistry rearranging all over again.

#aoab #ascendance of a bookworm #the 'sharing' parts of their grutissheits 🫣 #dudes #I SCREAMED #I KNEW VAGUELY THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN #BUT FERDINAND ???? YOU JUST LET HER??? AND THEN REACT LIKE /THAT/ ??? #excuse me wheres the pipe falling down sound effect bc thats me rn #I am in SHAMBLES #THAT WHOLE CHAPTER WAS JUST ONE BIG FAT INNUENDO

[happi-tree]

head in my hands (<- she is thinking about the dreamcatcher dystopia and apocalypse trilogies)

with dystopia it's like. (scream) the world is so full of hatred and vitriol and every time i am reminded of it, it seeps further and further into my veins and i'm worried it may consume me. the witch hunts are constant and ever worsening, and all that ever comes from them is more contempt and more regret. what is this poisonous masquerade all for. does anyone else hear this, i'm calling out to you, i'm begging for relief and for catharsis. i need this to reach you, i need you to hear the cries of the people who are suffering. i'm shouting alongside them. (boca) do you speak to your mother with that mouth. would she be proud of the things that you're saying. look around you - the angels are dying and the casualties grow with every spiteful word. sometimes kindness starts with silence when all you want is to fight fire with fire. my heart is pierced for you again and again, and i don't know how much longer it can be like this. i want to help you, i want to let you breathe again and give you relief from the harsh words that have strangled your lungs. i want to make this world better, and i want it to start with us. (odd eye) the world is broken, this is not a fairytale. utopia has never existed and it never will. do not believe the sugarcoated lie of perfection because it is impossible to grasp. the world is dark and you will not find what you're looking for if eternal peace is what you seek. open your eyes to reality, and you will make it a better place - not by dreaming, but by doing what you can.

and then with apocalypse it's like. (maison) our home is dying, our planet is dying, our people are dying, but i feel so detached from it all. i need to come down to earth, i need to keep pushing for change in every way that matters. your conscience is drying faster than the droughts plaguing our land, don't you see that we need to do something about this. please someone fight for us - the task is enormous and the stakes are daunting, and i'm coming down to rescue you but i can't do it alone. you have to help save yourself. (vision) the world is a scorched-earth battlefield and we are its foot-soldiers. we must press on and fight now that we've come this far. everything is painted in shades of moral gray, but we must act decisively. i am reaching for your hand in the trenches, i am sending a message to you, i am giving you a vision. do you copy, have you clasped my soot-stained hand. the work is hard, but we must reload and keep going. join us and fight alongside us. i am not asking, i am not begging - there is no time for either. ([reason] i am with you always, in war and peace, in hatred and in love. you are why i fight. i have spent years being beaten down, and you have, too, but it is your companionship that buoys me, brightens my darkness, makes this world worth it all. you are my reason. don't let me stop fighting.) (bon voyage) we have fought the good fight together, my friend. the war wages onward, but our assignments have changed, and we must part ways. i will carry every lesson you have taught me within me. the battlefield lies fallow until the footprints recede. the flowers are starting to bloom again and the colors are coming into focus. a part of me will always be drawn to you even as i leave you, even when you are long gone. travel well, my friend. may our battles not be in vain and may we both find rest. i hope i will see your face in peacetime.

#i have a normal amount of thoughts about music i promise #and this is WITH a language barrier i can't even fathom how much more feral their discography would make me if i was fluent #anyway um. they popped off so hard with their recent trilogies and they did it so well. thank you leez and ollounder thank you deukae #anyway um. go listen to dreamcatcher if you like sick instrumentals and tolerate kpop even a little bit. #scream boca odd eye maison vision and bon voyage you are all so special to me. perhaps doubly so for reason #also for the dndads folks in the audience their sound is so gothweeb to me. btw #yeah if you like video game soundtracks and anime osts and vaguely horror flavored things. them #also if you like pretty women as well. probably goes without saying since they’re a kpop group but they are very pretty #music #dreamcatcher #happi rambles #hi mutuals i bet you weren't expecting a kpop post from me today. or ever. i'm full of surprises to the point where i surprise even myself

[cadriona]

Rated: T

Pairing: Beidou/Ningguang

Word count: 1.3k

Summary:

Yet for as inhuman, as undefinable it was, the god… it followed Beidou. From a distance, usually, but for as long as Ningguang’s known her, the pirate was blind to its presence. So was everyone else, really. But it knew that Ningguang could see it, and it mocked her so— draped across Beidou with its too many teeth, luminescent eyes and the whisper-song of the sea's allure. Or: There was a wild, eldritch god that only Ningguang could see, and it follows Beidou like a spectre. Ningguang does not approve.

#beidou #ningguang #beiguang #genshin fanfic #cadri's writing #cadri's fic #buddy idk how this got here either #but it exists now so *shrugs in extreme confusion* #gods i need sleep #ok time to go back to thesis- only 2 chapters left to write! #(vague screaming sounds)

[lucyvaleheart]

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#man. nights are. Hard huh #Uhhh this is. Another vent post HEAVY trigger warnings for this one #honestly I wouldn't bother reading this nothing'll come of it good or bad so #don't worry about me ill be fine in the morning just need to. Scream into the void again #....again serious serious trigger warnings on this I'm too tired to say specifics but I know it'll be fucked so #Anyway #maybe Jade's right maybe I do need to see a therapist #she talked about some medication for anxiety and it's effects and what is like on and off the stuff #And...... #........'waking up and going to bed on the verge of tears' vs 'not doing that' #sounds................ #............christ. I... #I'm not suicidal I think I'd never actually follow through nor would I bother to self harm #None of that would solve anything for me and I'm too chicken to do it regardless #But..... #......i sure do think the words 'I wanna throw myself off a cliff' kind of a lot #killing myself is sounding less like a vague weird concept and more grounded in reality #hhhh #do I need to talk to someone about this? maybe #am I going to? probably not #is putting this on my public blog where I know there's a very good chance a bunch of people really close to me will see it a cry for help? #............................................................ #i dunno #just know my chest hurts all the time and Im always a few seconds away from breaking down in tears at any given moment #and I just kind of want everything to stop #just stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop #wanna turn my brain off and just leave it like that #everything sucks and is hard and getting harder and despite being absolutely surrounded by love and support #I keep having these horrible low points and the high points feel further and further away #....anyway.....this is the last tag it'll let me do so. um. I'm sorry for whoever does read this... hope you're having a decent night

[rexscanonwife]

I picked up a volume of the mha manga at the con and it ended up being the Kamino Ward arc, or more the tail end of it but reliving it in manga form and seeing all the pro heroes/teachers being like "uhh maybe we've been hoisting all our problems onto All Might" and getting SO MAD ALL OVER AGAIN 😂😂

My s/i is in the corner being held back by someone thrashing and biting like "I'VE BEEN FUCKING TELLING YOU ALL THAT FOR YEARS" she's ready to start SWINGING at whoever is closest these hands are rated E for Everyone 😤😤😤

#jane journals #self insert talk #❤️ scars and stripes 💙 #trying to keep this somewhat vague cause i know my partner will see this and i dont wanna spoil them ajfjgm #but GODDDD #my s/i had been screaming into the void for YEARS that it cant all be on him that he shouldnt be shouldering the burden of EVERYTHING #to the point that thats what initially drove a wedge between them in their relationship #in fact i was listening to my playlist for him today on the bus and hhgghhh one of the songs on there is Everything by Muna #and one of the lyrics is 'you are wildfire and im standing in the rain' AND IT JUST SORTA HITS TBH YOU KNOW??? #he burns brightly. beautifully. dangerously and violently #and being soaked in the rain youd be safe. the fire never touches u but in this song it almost sounds like LONGING to be burned #e #ok thats all for now of my autistic ramblings

[zedif-y]

tfw you try to figure out why you feel like shit and your options start to look more and more like a really long list

#ryan's screaming #like yeah shit man maybe the dizziness vague trembling and general anxiety were caused by uhhh #(sound of a scroll being unfolded. it hits the floor) #oh #...so lets start with the fact that uve barely drank water in 3 days

[slimslamflimflam]

Learning how to make a dating sim for like three people in a discord server who really want to romance those funny lawyer guys

#also working on fanfic + drawings + school stuff + OTHER fanfic + video game + OTHER drawings + waxing and waning lack of motivation #sounds like a lot written down but honestly it’s something for me to do so i’m havin a blast #i think i finally have a concept down for the dating sim!!!!!!!!!! #still really wanna work on that big piece for the main fic tho……. it’s little more than a vague idea in my head but still. sounds like fun #I HAVE NO MOUTH AND I MUST SCREAM !!

[lilithrebellion]

Oh and in other hoyonews.... why does she look like dark!Amayui's lovechild????

I want her.

#author screams about other things #vaguely resembles Amaya but has a church girl aesthetic??? #her name even sounds like something Yui would pick #whelp our daughter now

[mxharu]

Gonna just muse in the tags about Bliss thoughts hoo hoo

#the universe is spinning as if all of itself is up and vibrating shaking with unbridled amounts of energy #theres so much noise and there is no sound at all #nothing processable but still there all the same #sight #visions of flashing lights of fingers being stretched and shaking surrounding him #sound #distant panicked vocalizations fear and doom and the smalest inclination of rapid breathing beyond the louder white noise #sensation. physical pressure. warmth. cold. vaccum. surrounding gas and molecules. a physical tether for his conciousness. #Conciousness #vague picture of reality. a craving for stimulation. of grounding. his body is aimless and formless. the universe is splitting apart. #the panicked screams distant. he is somewhere else. vague warmth. the sun. vague cold. the rain. sensation of wind. plant matter. #disconnected. formless. conciousness growing. floating away. disperse. #touch #need touch #a tether to the ground #need physicality #a form #a solid touch a solid body #sensation #taste #hunger #desire #a tether #a touch #more touch #hands. two of them. senses forming and swirling. alive. tethered. grounded. sated. #saved. #haru speaks #bliss

[fahbev]

please nobody tell me

#If anyone explains in the notes im ignoring it #Im living in blissful ignorance rn #with the vague sound of screaming and sirens in the distance #Im curious but at this point i don’t think i wanna know #funni

[chaoticgremlinbrainspace]

was going insane at a friend last night now I need to research transness in the 70s and all that fun stuff so I can be fully unhinged and maybe actually write smth for once instead of being haunted by visions

#grem screams #I love history #I love reading and learning about the past and the people #I love seeing the way things have changed the way things reflect and parallel and diverge #I also just really like queer history #I love learning about the ways people existed and shit #idk theres just smth so cool about people in spaces that aren't really talked about in regular history classes and like learning about them #I might be a lil cringe boy art student who cant help but romanticize shit because hes full of feelings but idk it got me feeling #sometime of way #idk lately ive been feeling like I cant quite find the words to describe what I am I just know I am what I am #and that often people just get it or they dont lol #ngl this all started off as me vague posting about wanting to write a trans genda scout from tf2 fic and getting wya too invested in how #that would work logically bc it needs to be accurate #it needs to be a journey!!! #and I want it to be in charater #but im also a lil bitch for angst lmao #im also a nerd lmaooo that and its hard for me to write things dow n with out it sounding wrong or just not right you know? #it feels wholly too earnest and cheesy to my own ears and it makes me shrivel up like a popcorn left in the oven #uh anyway I think trans scout is neat actually and I would love to see more explorations into it guess im gonna attempt to be the change I #wanna see in the world lmao #idk hes just so easy to grab and dunk into the #world is fuck being different is hard give 200 dollars sauce you know? #veeerrrry easy to project onto the trans angst is he is like sponge and I am a vicious liquid #and he has daddy issues lmao apparently arcording to my very small sampling size that tends to happen side by side #and idk I think it would make sense for scout to just straight up not know a lot of shit he gives #me when I was in middle school and I thought it was funny to trick people into thinking I was a guy even tho I was totally a girl /sarcasm #he gives deep in the denial sauce but also totally extremely uncomfy when people find out and getting unreasonably happy when hes called si #but ahahaha nooo im totally a girl haha and just feeling more awkward now #lmao #sorry for the rambling lmao idk if this is accurate for his charater I do think him being trans could be a fun thing to just explore and sh

[fingertipsmp3]

Why is my granddad messaging me and shading my uncle

#my uncle’s business was featured on a youtube channel because he and various other people at the business collaborated with a local artist #on a very (physically) big project #(i’m being deliberately vague to avoid doxxing my uncle) #and tell me why my granddad was like ‘he’s doing so well. i didn’t know he had it in him’ #sir THIS IS YOUR SON #you invested in his business!! did you do that thinking it would fail #i’m ngl it sounded like kind of a bizarre idea when he pitched it to us all; but it also sounded like an untapped market & something that #could be a goldmine in the right hands. and it does seem to be in the right hands #i was just like ‘yeah i didn’t expect this either but it looks great’ and left it at that #i am once again asking when me and my uncle traded places as ‘the successful one’ & ‘the black sheep of the family’ #i would never suggest that there’s a correlation. but also since my uncle started his business; i have been mugged twice #my mentor who i trusted tried to ruin my career and did succeed in making a lot of people lose respect for me; i had to leave the only job #that accepted me because they tried to make me work thrice as many hours as i was being paid for and gave me zero support #i was unemployed for months and losing my mind and finally had to become a barista and just as i was starting to enjoy that; i dislocated #my knee & sprained two joints in the process #oh and it wasn’t the first time!! i’ve actually dislocated that knee four times. all during the time my uncle had his business #let’s not even talk about how i got covid 3 times or all the shit that happened to me in 2021 because i really will scream #2021 literally had it in for me in every single way #i literally think my uncle was being dunked on by the universe but he found a way to dodge the curse and he has no descendants #so it just passed to me. i need to hand this curse over to a child #maybe i should just start a business. doing what though 🧐 #personal

[ifacotarwasgood]

CHAPTER 6 - page 13/?

original word count: 3602

revised word count: 1841

click for ch 6's full comparison document.

original:

begged again, trying my best to sound pathetic and sad and pitiful, she stormed out. I hadn’t worn a dress in years. I wasn’t about to start, not when escape was my main priority. I wouldn’t be able to move freely in a gown. Bundled in my robe, I sat for minute after minute, the chattering of small birds in the garden beyond the windows the only sounds. No screaming, no clashing weapons, no hint of any slaughter or torture. The bedroom was larger than our entire cottage. Its walls were pale green, delicately sketched with patterns of gold, and the moldings were golden as well. I might have thought it tacky had the ivory furniture and rugs not complemented it so well. The gigantic bed was of a similar color scheme, and the curtains that hung from the towering headboard drifted in the faint breeze from the open windows. My dressing gown was of the finest silk, edged with lace—simple and exquisite enough that I ran a finger along the lapels. The few stories I’d heard had been wrong—or five hundred years of separation had muddled them. Yes, I was still prey, still born weak and useless compared to them, but this place was…peaceful. Calm. Unless that was an illusion, too, and the loophole in the Treaty was a lie—a trick to set me at ease before they destroyed me. The High Fae liked to play with their food.

revised:

Alis left, and after a few minutes, she returned with a bundle of clothing in her hands. She lifted a sodden grayish shirt full of holes. “It fell apart the moment the laundress put it in water. Here’s what’s left of your pants.” She held up a few scraps of brown. “Now will you wear the dress?” I slumped. Alis sighed, left again, and returned with trousers and a tunic. I donned a white undershirt then buttoned the dark blue tunic over top. She herded me into a low-backed chair and ran a comb through my hair. “You’re skin and bones.” “Winter does that to mortals.” Her smile was without warmth. “A word of advice. Keep your mouth shut and ears open. It’ll do you more good than a loose tongue.” With nimble fingers, she wove my hair into a braid. “If you ask me, Andras was a good sentinel, but he knew the danger of crossing the wall. And the others understand the Treaty. So keep your head down, and none of them will bother you.” It was good advice. Maybe even kinder than I deserved. When I looked in the mirror, I saw her efforts had left my hair in a plait that started at my crown and fell over my right shoulder.

#this page is the jackpot of sjm prose #we've got negations: “no [sounds of] screaming no clashing weapons��� #wordy yet vague descriptions: “the gigantic bed was of a similar color scheme” #useless backstory: “the few stories I'd heard had been wrong—or five hundred years of separation had muddled them” #and toothless danger: “a trick to set me at ease before they destroyed me. the high fae liked to play with their food.” #ding ding ding #ch 6 #a court of thorns and roses #acotar #acotar rewrite #sarah j maas #sjm critical #acotar critical #anti acotar

[fiendfriend]

the thing they dont warn you about when it comes to living in a hostile dv adjacent situation is the way that just the sound of the other person existing in your general proximity makes you feel like both a violent feral dog and a neurotic prey animal at the same time

#an active category 6 event is like ohh big deal. you’re gonna scream and vaguely threaten people. big deal tough guy #but god forbid I hear 1 sound of life coming from that bedroom. I become the type of 14 year old they were writing callout posts about in 09

[damage-incorp0rated]

concert video 2 - my mom took this one here so thank her for this crumb of content

#ignore my screaming. you can vaguely hear it. i do not sound like myself. embarrassing #metallica #kirk my beloved #lars ulrich #(for a brief second!) #hardys concert log #night 1 had a nice set and whatever but night 2 fuckin blew my mind man

[iesuroo]

I hate it when people get mad when I mispronounce things or can't say words. I have not only a speech impediment but a hearing disability I can not say words right cause I can not hear them. I had years of speech therapy to get where I am now. Ableism isn't cute

#ableism #speech impediment #I have a dip in my left ear drum #I do not hear r sounds #this post is inspired by an ex friend vague posting about me on twitter #because I couldnt say her dumb new user name right #Like she got so mad at me while I was streaming #and i was struggling to say her new name #because like i said words are hard for me #i was trying so hard #she started ignoring me in her discord so i left #not like she was in mine so no big deal right #boom 15 mins later she unfollwed me from everything #so i blocked her cause im almost 30 and do not want to deal with that kind of drama #but also found out she was really abusive to her bf #like hitting and screaming at him #also she was really flaky #and would complain bout having no friends #like what am i?? #Its like she didnt want friends she wanted fans #i bought her phasmo like two years ago and we were gonna stream it together #she kept flaking #shes never even opened the game #sorry for the long rant in the tags #she was a childhood friend so it just sucks