#( idk ?? i don't think this REALLY makes sense but whatever. )

[anewp0tat0]

I tried but not very hard to see what the anniversary date was, and i decided to just prepare myself for the 16th or the 18th... it was the former. so, as always, but this time truly by accident... happy belated 17th birthday Black Butler!! I truly hope this year is amazing for us.

this year, I decided to use an idea I had wanted to try for a while but I never thought I would be able to pull off. and I still probably couldn't in the best way.... but regardless, here is a made up last chapter scenario.

you can also see this comic on webtoon here. whatever your fancy, if you please :>

#I don't know if this thing makes any sense or if it means anything at all. or if it looks like anything actually carefully put together #but hey it was nice! so I hope it brings a little bit of pleasant feelings... or terrible ones idk #i was going a page a day fully intending to finish by the 13th the latest but yeaaa things came up. but whatever this is the last day that #I'm in america until some months later so it's still a special day for me! so it still counts. and also do specifics really matter so much #at this point #sadly while I wasn't rushed this time I did intend to use the remaining days i had to revise the visuals framing and diologue. so I'm not #100% confident. but c'est la vie #kuroshitsuji #black butler #kuroshitsuji fanart #fanart #sebastian michaelis #ciel phantomhive #digital art #and... I would be absolutely lying if I didn't try to put just a little bit of dadbastian undertones in there. it's what I do #but I think it's up for interpration. after I decided that I was gonna draw in my own style instead of trying to replicate yana's(as fun as #that would be) i decided to go crazy

[imadeoutwithmikeywayonwarpedtour]

why are women just always expected to. deal with it. deal with harrassment, rape, being pregnant when we don't want to be, slutshaming, burnout, abuse. like. i hate where feminism is right now because it's very bipartisan. you're either are a t3rf, or you're too afraid to say anything remotely radical because you don't want to sound like one. it's just like. i fucking hate what transmisogynists and white feminists have done to what used to be, a radical movement focused on improving the lives of ALL women.

#trans inclusive radical feminism does exist. intersectional feminism does exist. but so many people are just... unwillfully submitting #themselves to misogyny and abuse under the guide of feminism. #uuuuugggggghhhhhhhhh #not to say that racism and transmisogyny wasn't always something that unfortunately werent apart of earlier waves. they definitely were. #but i think with the internet these people have just become sooooo loud especially in whatever political climate we're in right now #whereas in previous waves it might not have been as easy to disseminate information #idk... im really high i don't know if what i say makes any sense

[whiskeyswifty]

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#this is such a niche gripe i guess idk its why it's in the tags #but i really get so annoyed by how a lot of this fandom acts like they know everything about her especially like where she goes #and what she does in her free time because they think they KNOW about everything but #all you know is what she chooses to show you like specifically paps like...... she calls them. all celebs do. 99.999999% of the time #these days it's how that industry works which i KNOW for a fact but like don't take my word for it if you don't believe me fine #but it's how it is and i can tell you that from professional experience but also like #the amount of friends and people i know who've seen her places all over the city for YEARS now #and there are no pap photos of her in those places nor did anyone know she went to that building/restaurant/bar/event #there are a feeeeeew places in the city which are celeb hotspots and the paps might skulk around there but that's cuz #they are known spots for that and waiters and staff tip them off for profit shares #like i know someone who saw her literally last night at a restaurant #there are no photos of her there and no paps outside #like if you think she doesn't leave the house or go somewhere without you knowing cuz you think she's papped everywhere... #thats just simply not true lol couldn't be FURTHER from true #she goes so many places and does so many things that you just don't know about. it's VERY easy to live a private life in the city #EVEN THIS WEEK she's gone more places than you've seen her getting papped at cuz i know people who've seen her! #i can't tell you the amount of famous people i've come across in these situations and the press and social media were none the wiser #people i've sat next to at a crowded brunch counter or people walking their dog or taking their kid for a bike ride like.... ALL THE TIME #famous people love new york cuz new yorkers don't bother them and they can live in relative obscurity #idk what i'm getting at i guess this weirdness like I AM GONNA SHUT DOWN ANYTHING THAT I DONT HAVE PROOF OF #is so deranged to me because...... you only have ~proof~ of like 10% of her life #so the other 90% of it didn't happen cuz.... you a blogger on the internet don't have photographic evidence of it???? #IS THAT NOT THE MOST INSANE THING TO SAY???? #idk really weird that people just think they know her and shut down any one who poses something that doesn't fit into their #frankensteined version of her that they made out of a bunch of paparazzi photos and flight trackers and deuxmoi posts taped together #as if THATS somehow MORE sane and a more realized person #idk if i'm making sense i'm annoyed whatever whatEVERRRRR

[hydrasaura]

when i said that mha ripped off naruto (which i said only to piss off mha stans anyway) I didn't mean to sound like i was praising naruto. it was actually more like a sigh of disappointment, a reaction to seeing that all the problems that naruto had as a show transpired trough mha too and i was tired because watching naruto was enough for me but then i realized that my problem actually is that i can no longer stand watching shonen anime and i chose not to tire myself by cringing at the repetitive tropes and cliches anymore

#demon slayer falls under the same category sadly #actually it was more a combination of these 2 that made me realize that i had enough of this genre #me judging other shonen having as reference only naruto #but look! i watched both mha and demon slayer and my personal point was proven that i would get bored by them #(with the exception of some rare moments that were really good in mha but the bad and cringe moments made me forget abt them) #like i remember crying bcs this dude who trained deku died but then i remembered that a few episodes earlier he ''punished'' #one of his female students by tying her up a ledge and tickling her with a feather :| #LIKE WHY DID YOU NEED TO PUT THAT IN THE STORY? HORIKOSHI OR WHATEVER THE MANGAKA'S NAME IS #WHY YOU FELT THE NEED TO ADD THAT IN??? #and then you tried to make me feel sorry for the guy too? #that was such a jiraya death moment like they were playing it a sad but all i could think abt was ''rip bozo'' #not saying that other anime don't have cringe moments. even moments that i had to skip because of how gruesome they were #but they sorta make sense in the big picture of the story? but other characters experience it too not just a category of people? idk #also it's funny how pissed mha stans get for having their show insulted like #when i tell ppl that my fave anime/manga are evangelion; black lagoon #and berserk they look at me like i deserve to be put in an electric chair #like they are right but at the same time i find it funny and i rly don't care #but these guys always go bananas if you insult their fav show as if you broke the geneva convention #i'd say that it's because the majority of the fans are children but i know for a fact that they are not 😭

[craperonipizza]

You know what? Yes, top surgery WOULD fix all my problems. Fuck you

#it literally would. my mental health is poor BECAUSE OF MY BODY. #if i could fix it then i WOULD BE HAPPIER #i dont want top surgery cause itll fix my mental illness or whatever the fuck my parents think. #i want it cause IT'LL FIX ISSUES THAT MY MENTAL ILLNESS IS MAKING WORSE #does that make sense??? #idk how to communicate this to my parents. #like no i don't think testosterone or top surgery is a magic button to make all my problems go away. #BUT IT KIND OF ALSO IS. IT'D HELP A FUCKING LOT. #craperonipizza post #transgender #ftm trans #im SO FRUSTRATED #vent post #i mean im doing it anyway cause i need to and im a fucking adult. #but the opposition sucks yknow. #i know where theyre coming from. like concern bc yes its surgery and testosterone effects can be permanent...but thats kind of the point. #dont get me wrong my parents are doing amazing. i love them a lot #but its also so frustrating. cause they can't really understand what im going through no matter how much i talk to them. thats just a fact.

[running-in-the-dark]

okay I need to know this now. can't stop thinking about it (haha....) since I read that post.

so. you're supposed to just be able to stop thinking about things?? whenever you want? like. anything? even the really bad things? just. decide to not think about it anymore/at that moment/whatever??

#I'm being so serious right now I genuinely can't believe that's what that person meant #that's kinda. wait that makes some things my therapist said make a lot more sense. fuck is this another thing like when I thought my whole #life that people were speaking metaphorically when they talked about their minds eye and shit? #like. idk we worked on strategies to distract myself from some of the thoughts and stuff but it was always like. I was supposed to stop #thinking about whatever it was that was making me anxious and I didn't think it meant like. I don't know!! I don't know what I thought!! #I didn't think you could just not think about the really bad thoughts?! because. how??? #I can do it with some things I guess especially with my anxiety meds but the bad stuff?? no way #personal

[magentagalaxies]

having a moment about my gender rn and i'm just like ugggggh @ my brain do we have to. like can we just not

#i need to go to bed soon bc i have a 10am class tomorrow but shoutout to the identity crisis i've been having since at least feb 6th #idk if identity crisis is even the right word. bc like one thing about me is that i have a very solid sense of self #like i know who i am and what i want and how i move through the world and what it feels like to be me #but in terms of how i label and explain that to others? that's where the identity crisis comes in #but no one else gets to experience me in first person POV so the descriptors i use and they ways i present myself are reality to them #and tbh? as i think about how some of the descriptors i use for myself don't accurately describe me some people are getting mad??? #which is so fucking bizarre bc like. what the fuck it's my gender why are YOU being offended??? #but it's also making me low key be like ''wait am i a bad person now????'' #even tho i don't believe morality works like that. idk it's just been an exhausting month and a half #if anyone wants to hear more in depth thoughts on all this i would love to vent about it #(but not rn bc i will be going to bed as soon as i get this all out) #but like what i will say now is even tho this past month and a half has been ROUGH (for several reasons especially gender) #and people might expect that me spending so much time with scott in february made it more exhausting #which is understandable we love scott but touring in general is tiring and also i am the most opinionated person i've ever met but so is he #and also like. if you've heard scott talk about gender it's very obvious we disagree on a lot of things and he doesn't shy away from that #but the thing is. i'd actually say spending so much time with scott (even when we talk about gender. even when we *argue* about gender) #was actually such a good thing for me throughout all of this bc even when we disagree on semantics of labels #scott actually sees me beyond that rather than reducing my identity to what i call myself #which is how a lot of well-meaning allys tend to treat me. like i'm just one thing. #so when i'm with scott i never really have to think about my gender #bc he doesn't treat me like i'm (insert whatever gender people treat me like). he just treats me like i'm jessamine #and i'm tired of having to explain myself into smaller pieces so people can pretend to get it #but i feel like there's no way not to do that in our society rn especially at my ''progressive'' liberal arts college

[blujayonthewing]

holy mother of god I have got to start dressing weirder

#[clutching my face] I need to figure out HOW!! I have no FASHION SENSE #I think a big part of my problem is figuring out bottoms #sometimes I'll buy a cool thrift store top and discover it doesn't really go with jeans and then I'm like '... now what' agdkfjsks #I also wear like... cargo shorts and cargo joggers but those aren't Fashion Choices (especially the shorts) #I need... colored jeans. or harem pants (or whatever else they're called that's not That :I) or. idk SOMETHING #honestly I feel like... those dickies cargo joggers but in fun colors instead of Olive Drab could be fun?? I really love those pants lol #I DON'T KNOW I spend all day in pajamas cause they're comfy and then when I actually wanna look nice I have no idea what to wear #I love sundresses because they are the idiot's shortcut to looking cute (just put on ONE THING and that's a cute outfit babey!) #but my heart wants pirate shirts and funky vests #and maybe blousy tops with weird pants I dunno #if I knew how to make pants. ... I still wouldn't because I never get around to sewing agdjfldvs but AT LEAST IT WOULD FEEL LIKE AN OPTION #why can't life be like animal crossing where you can try on fifty different outfit combos in five minutes to figure out what you like :') #about me

[random-human-being2311]

I love encountering the "I only like their '70s songs" queen fans because they're such a funny flavour of extremely pretentious

the way they talk about it you'd think their entire family was personally murdered by a synthesiser and/or a drum machine

#queen band #queen #this doesn't apply very much to the tumblr end of the Queen fandom but eh who cares #my queen-related posts already have a target audience of one (1) person (myself) already #but seriously what do you guys have against synthesisers?? #“it sounds too dated and 1980s” guess what my dude believe it or not people actually still use synthesisers in modern music #!! - RANT INCOMING - !! #HOLD ON I JUST REALISED #ISN'T THE GUITAR BEEPING NOISE ON FATHER TO SON (ONE OF THE TRACKS FROM QUEEN II OF ALL ALBUMS) INFAMOUS EASY TO MISTAKE FOR SYNTHESISER #AND THE OUTRO OF TEO TORIATTE #AND LIKE QUEEN MADE SURE TO INCLUDE “NOBODY PLAYED SYNTHESISER” OR WHATEVER THE WORDING WAS ON THEIR 1970S ALBUMS #**BECAUSE** EVERYONE KEPT MISTAKENLY THINKING THEY HAD SYNTHESISER IN THEM??? #DUE TO THE LAYERED VOCAL SOUND AND THE OCCASIONAL WEIRD USE OF A GUITAR THAT MAKES IT SOUND LIKE A SYNTH #oh also on drum machines: barely any queen songs use them what's the big problem #like only a handful from one (1) album #and on those songs it really works #idk why but the drum machine just works really well in Back Chat and it's a bop #Back Chat my beloved <3 #yeah anyway these guys don't make sense to me #and the good thing about posting this on tumblr is that the chance of one of them actually seeing this is so low it's basically zero #because I'm not in the mood to get into a heated argument about that right now #I will gladly rant but I want to rant into the void not actually at anyone #that one's ramblings

[atomicc]

Had a huge thought but it ended up just boiling down to how I think people should focus less of their energy on shipping or whatever but also do what you want just don't be a misogynist i don't know

#I think it ultimately doesn't matter except when it becomes a problem #If that makes sense #What spurred this thought was vivaxbarb stuff #Because it kinda felt like people saw the canon straightness or whatever #And went oh well ok we'll just use this other poppy who cares #Sorta just immediately shipping viva away instead of focusing on what makes her interesting and unique #Especially since poppy n barb was a ship because of their in canon relationship and dynamics #Which actually make sense and work really well as a lesbian couple #I love poppy n barb together it works so well #Plus poppy has two hands brother #But viva and barb haven't even met and probably won't have that same dynamic #So it feels like people are treating viva as poppy 2 with just a disregard for her as her own character #Which. Idk. Strange. #I'm reading too far into it but like #I don't see people doing like Synth x one of branchs brothers or anything because branch is in a relationship already or whatever #I think ultimately it's a harmless ship #That's indicative of a greater issue #Which is seeing women characters as just. Things to be put into relationships. #Right? #Idk! #🚧 #😈

[storfulsten]

that feel when you watch too many old letsplays and compilations and get too dang focused on cool voices and dynamics and vibes of random actual letsplayers and stuff so you think up aus of aus within aus of your dumb fnf au to project upon ha

fnf letsplayer au bullshit brainworms wooh

#instead of rapbattling they sus eachother in amongus #and other games with other shenanigans #makes perfect sense #also got online music careers in some cases maybe #idk man ha #all I know is if you squint really realllly hard #and accept some ooc-ness in the name of au shenanigans #idk corpse and sykkuno #could be neat dynamic and voice hc stuff to project unto bombeep in very specific circumstances #theoretic letsplay au circumstances that is #and maybe valkyrae gf vibes bc yes #thus the au-ception #yeehaw #idk the way I think of my au as is nowadays it's so far removed from the original game and mods it's just #I don't even remember their original personalities it's just whatever I feel like in the moment is canon to me tbh #I just borrow their designs and just do whatever kinda like playing with dolls making up your own bullcrap #thus these projections make sense to me ha #so yeah anyways #either way corpse is my main voice hc for whitty now even ignoring everything else #thus in my au whenever I draw him that's what he sounds like #or at least pretty similar-ish #so ye have fun with that info I guess or don't it's up to you really #eh idk where I'm going with this rambling #I probably need a nap lol bye #pls feel free to ignore ha

[maddy-ferguson]

it's so weird to me that a lot of people seem to think that mike genuinely meant to be homophobic during the rain fight? they think he's that mean and that he thought it through and went out of his way to act like their middle school bully because his best friend tangentially called his girlfriend stupid? and not...that it was a poor choice of words? maybe i just have too much faith in humanity but i literally couldn't brainwash myself into interpreting it like that...and neither could will

#does it come off as homophobic? yeah sure but with the context you Obviously KNOW that that's not what he meant #i know i'm like two days late i was just thinking about it...team twt mlvns (and normal bylers) on this one like #i mean i hope will would have enough self-respect to not let himself fall deeper in love with a guy he thinks is homophobic #and paint him as his knight in shining armor and tell him he makes him feel better for being different like...lmao #sure he couldn't have stopped it that easily because he's really in love with him whatever i believe in him he would have done it #and of course it's still shitty and of course will thought he meant it like that for a second and this and everything else mike tells him #still makes him feel awful and of course it was supposed to clue the audience in on the fact that will Really doesn't like girls but? #and i don't even really think it was projection that interpretation doesn't make that much sense to me like idk it doesn't click in my #brain i really just think he meant...that will didnt like girls...because he'd been going on about it being a day free of girls and getting #annoyed with lucas and mike for wanting to talk to the girls. like he was not liking girls the way 14-year-olds who aren't interested in #romance don't like girls which is why that was the official meaning of that line for three years lmao #i do think mike not liking girls himself is ironic and funny and makes the line work really well #but yeah idk #also if you do think he MEANT to be homophobic why do you even like him and why do you want him to be with will😭 #i really didn't know people thought he was being homophobic on purpose until last year and i was like wait...do we really think that? #and like i say: brf slt

[imwritesometimes]

deleting the playlist is the official nail in the coffin like. it's over. it's over now.

#ngl my dudes. I feel like the uhhhh blorbo part of my brain has just... stopped working at all #well.... blorbo insomuch as like shipping and fandom and whatever #I still have blorbo(s) that I love entirely and am obsessed with (see icon) but none I feel like #oh I should write for them or oh I should read for them #not even old blorbos give me ideas anymore. a fleeting sense of - oh! blorbos! but no *ideas* #idk maybe it's because shipping stuff to the level of fanfic is really rare for me. #and I gotta be honest the few things I *have* watched from here that ppl have OBSESSED over ships for I've always been like... #really? I don't see it.... #and on top of that I'm not someone who will watch something JUST for a ship like that's gotta be a bonus #I never go into watching something thinking omg I wonder who I'll ship. I just simply don't care abt that shit #when picking media to spend hours with #idk feels like I'm just 🤷‍♀️ #which then makes me feel like lmao why am I *here* on the blorbo shipping fanfic webbedsite then? #I still enjoy my old ships. seeing content abt them makes me go 😃!! but only for a second and then it's like 🤷‍♀️ ok. #this has gotten long and rambling and stupider than usually allow myself to get so ✌️ #erin explains it all

[torgawl]

gojover? i barely ever know her

#rip disabled gojo you will live on in my dreams #i'm so sad about that #why does he still have his arm and both of his eyes man 😢 #anyways!!! let's admit this feels like the perfect time for something to go bat shit wrong #gojo is exhausted there's a sense of relief from winning the fight #is megumi okay? like. is that really the end of the king of curses? and if yes will kenny really not take advantage of this situation? #i just feel like this was a very underwhelming fight overall?! for the magnitude it has so idk #i don't think i would be mad if gege pulled something for shock factor next chapter #i don't know if i want sukuna to have a way to come back or not like he IS the king of curses but gege's usage of sukuna as a character #fell so flat so far (in my opinion) that it feels a bit eh if he's just defeated like this with no real consequences #ignoring the town destroyed because that means nothing emotionally ahsjsj #i don't know if this makes sense but whatever i'm glad gojo's alive this week thank you gege #gege is that one meme of 'i hate gojo' while making a gojo collage on his wall #jjk leaks

[hirazuki]

I just popped into the Mairon tag to peruse fun fan content to end my night with, as I usually do; that's all I wanted T___T

#oh the dangers of going into the tags #i'm so tired #idk i just see the word 'adaptation' now and get exhausted lmao #i hope whatever they're cooking up is decent; i really do #i think we all could use a good old fashioned fantasy film these days #i'm just cynical and don't think that's what we'll be getting :/ #it just sounds too... franchise-y. if that makes sense.

[welcometoteyvat]

the rarepair pipeline really is just (wants to see two characters interact) (the only people who make content of those two interacting are the shippers) (doesn't mind them having a romantic relationship and thus is converted into the rarepair)

#xiao.yun...... albe.qiu....... any iteration of the xq cy xl ht xin.yan yj gang that don't involve xing.yun....... #i think the minds of koko.mi x raiden shippers are very large but i honestly haven't interacted with enough ship content to rlly get a vibe #yae.sara is also something that tickles the brain mostly bc the people who write fic of them give them so much depth its very nice #x.iao x ht too tbh #like maybe i haven't read enough gen fic of them but i feel like there are so many good potential parallels and a lot of them #are only present/prominent in the ship fics between the two. bc there the writer will have a heavy interest in developing both chars and th #relationship (in the platonic and nonplatonic sense) they have w each other #idk man i'm like thinking about why i seem to ship an endless amt of rarepairs and i think the answer is just ships give people a lot of fr #freedom in imagining things #since so much fanfic is like romance geared bc the development of a relationship begets a natural plot #like yes that's probably something to take note of in fandom that there's so little nonromantic stuff that focuses on more than 1 character #but i dont mind its cute to play w characters like dolls and make them kiss kiss fall in love or whatever #as long as they're a round character and not just used for romance reasons or flattened into like 2 traits im down #ramblings! #2 clarify i honestly think those ships i mentioned are really cute im just analyzing how one could get into them (neutral connotations)