#'i wasnt able to be happy because of YOU'

[niishi]

"garp let ace die" ace killed himself. nice that you let the entire point fly over your head though. people who blame everyone else for their problems truly want there to be a villian in aces story. ace was his own worst enemy. idk how you guys think "garp let ace die" when ace would've killed himself regardless of who stepped up for him. obviously. because his entire friends and family and even hundreds of people he'd never met stepped up for him and risked their lives for him and none of that mattered. how would garps influence have changed anything? if Luffys didn't? if white beards didn't? ace wanted to die. ace chose to die. ignoring that and blaming his death on everyone else is a disservice to the story oda is trying to tell you.

#its like everyone forgot garp and aces conversation #garp telling ace that the importance of his life is up to him and no one else #garp couldve never convinced ace that his life was worth living #ace needed to find that for himself #people always want someone to blame for their unhappiness #'i wasnt able to be happy because of YOU' #youre happiness is up to you and no one else #ace made his own choice #no one killed ace #no one is the reason ace is dead except for ace #ace had the freedom in that moment to choose to live or die #and he chose death #he made the choice no one else could make for him #he answered his question to garp on his own #if you guys cant see what aces entire story mean #and you just blame it on everyone else #then you're missing the entire point #stop playing the victim game and start empathizing #oda is telling a profound story #i guess not all of us are capable of understanding whats being said

[ourstarscollided]

#julie and the phantoms #pls have this meme #woke up this morning and the news from the convention were REAL #and im still not okay about it 😭 #like WHAT DO YOU MEAN WE EERR SUPPOSED TO HAVE 5 SEsons. FIVE. THATS FOUR MORE SEASONS OF ORIGINAL MUSIC AND JUKE AND THE MOLINA FAMILY AND #SIGNS SISJJS #i literally found out the news last night while playing board games and drinking with my friends and straight up started crying because i wa #so emotional about it. i thought I WAS OKAY EITH NOT KNOWING HOW JATP ENDS BUT NOW IM EVEN MORE MAD THAT IT WAS CANCELLED AND KENNY WASNT #ABLE TO BUY THE RIGHTS TO IT AND I JUST. #but mainly im so happy we get this kind of closure and it must not have been easy for kenny and the producers to have had known this info #and idk. im just glad this is the closure we got. #also madi in the stand tsll jacket? ohmygod. #also hello from the dead aka my queue. #text post

[midnightdemonhunter]

Oh 11037 i’ll be with you still, you are the angel that I couldn’t kill.

#danganronpa #leon kuwata #sayaka maizono #dr1 #danganronpa trigger happy havoc #you know what. #leosaya #because im insane #midnight draws #also of course #mini makoto cameo #chapter 1 #decided to shade an older sketch and got hit over the head by Oh Ana with these two #oh ana mother mother...please listen to it and think of chap 1 #no i couldnt kill ana.... #love love how it works for both of their povs #get it cause sayaka wasnt able to kill leon but also leon was never able to properly kill sayaka. she lives on after death and it is her #message that gets HIM killed #you are the angel that i couldnt kill!!!!!!!

[driftwooddestiel]

I DID MY COMEDY PERFORMANCE TODAY!!! in front of like 200 people!!! and i didnt stutter or forget what to say!!! and people laughed!!!

#i wasnt THE funniest other performances got better reactions but that was largely because the people performing were popular #point is people laughed !! two girls i barely know came up to me after and said i was really good! (thank you nikita and i forgot your name #and according to one of my friends some mullets were making fun of me during my thing and then a popular girl behind them was like #hey stop dont do that #so thats cool #and the girl whos lockers next to mine also complimented my comedy thing after so that was nice #+ one of the other ppl performing who i used ro be super good friends with (years ago) was very engaged and laughing which was nice :-) #we may not be close friends anymore but yk its nice to still get along 👍 #also two of my friends also performed and they did well too ‼️ it was very cool #anyway im very proud of myself for being able to perform in front of that many people cos i have literally never done that #the last time i spoke to an audience of more than 30 people was year 4 assembly and that was like 100 ppl max #so yea im very happy lol. especially considering that the past three years weve been doing persuasive speeches instead of comedy #(comedy was introduced this year to try it out instead of persuasive speeches) #and for the past 2 years ive done my speeches to just the teacher and a few friends cos i dont like giving persuasives to the whole class #(which i still feel tbh) but like. i can do comedy and play a character in front of an audience! which is pretty awesome

[leadendeath]

fellow adhd people (or people who get extremely excited about something for other ND reasons, i'm gonna let u in too for this one):

what do YOU call it when you're vibrating with enthusiasm/love for something/thinking rlly hard about stuff that makes u extreme happy and u gotta wiggle about it?

there is electricity inside ur body and u need to scream on the internet about it or smth or u will be overcharged battery explosion &fire ????? this u when:

i could call it ecstatic. that does not quite cover it. there is so much energy. too much for one word.

#this is about hyperfixation #and i didn't wanna say anything because i wanna kill the part of my brain that berates me for finding compromise; but... #i heard about a 'budget' version of the scanner i want. so much more affordable. i went ahead and got one. #in a couple of days i will be able to share SO MUCH more art with you all #and it will look better. nothing ever turns out right because it looks so much better in person‚ really. thats not just Bad At Art cope lol #i have a bunch of reqs on my new shiny t//f//2 blog after putting a post out; which i am so happy to be getting! #engagement!!!! connection!!! eventually pleasing people with the thing i'm supposed to be good at!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #(=art in case it wasnt clear lol) #i wasn't depressed before lately but this has really boosted my mood #it feels like a chance. at what? i can't quite place it. but it feels like Something. something good. positivity.

[strangleetomz]

sometimes i wish people could properly understand why i apologize for falling asleep before or during a conversation

#‘its okay’ no it isnt #its not okay #because if i fell asleep before talking to you that means i missed out on talking to you #and now ive talked to you less than i want to #and i barely get to talk to you as is #so ‘its okay theres next time / right now’ yeah but i missed THAT TIME #and then what if they end up not replying until the day later? #i have to go so long without talking to one of my favorite people #and then that ruins my whole mood because its that theyre one of the few people who actually keep me happy #and are the reason im still getting through this shit #so what am i supposed to do going what would be practically 2 days without talking to that person?? #its not their fault #it isnt mine but it feels like its mine #because i know i couldve stayed up #if i would if sat up instead of laying down #took the blankets off so i wasnt warm and comfortable #i’d be freezing and uncomfortable so i wouldnt be able to fall asleep #and i know that #but i stayed comfortable anyway #so that makes it my fault

[tittysuckersworld]

y'know, not saying anything but you know what id love to see more of? sorta washed up kaveh fic stuff. like he is burnt out and tired and cant compell himself to work in different mediums he used to do good in cause it just dosent work for him anymore. or just being dad cause he defines himself on art and others define him on art so when he dose other things its weird or smth idk

just like if know any fics about kaveh struggle with happy end would love to read yes

#can you tell im an art kid? #only thing defined myself by in childhood that wasnt smth bad #loved sewing knitting the like #and now i have so much materials piled in my room from those passions #so much time and effort and work #and i cant get enough energy to even find my knitting needles again #i have projects wanna do but just #cant #idk i just wish i had extra energy again because these things i love that brought me so much energy now drain me #i still love them so much #but im really not good anymore. especially with standards by my age #idk you ever have a mid life crisis at like your teen years? #think shows how messed up the world has become lol #oh well #i just #kaveh is so much to me personally #i judt wanna see him struggle a little and think and yet be able to be pulled back up #i want him to be happy so bad #im horid horible projecting again but cant help it #if you cant find yourself really in a character project a little helps yes #glob im existing #gonna sleep now school but fanfic authors or ppl who read fics like this recomend me them pls thanks yous!!! #kaveh #also forgot to tag main man

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

one day, im gonna sit down and write a poem about how after adopting a dog who spends 80% of his time sat in my lap, ive come to appreciate how difficult it is to do things without jostling him and how id never appreciated the gentleness of the stranger who had picked me up, held me and carried me home when i tore a chunk of flesh out of my leg at age 9 when i ran into barbed wire playing hide and seek tag, and how a man i didnt know had done everything he could not to jostle me as i clung to him, and just how difficult it must have been for him not to jostle me, and how he didnt need to be that gentle or to help me at all but when he was the first adult a different child could find and ask help from, he didnt hesitate to do everything he could, and how every time im trying to do anything without jostling archie, i think of him, and how anytime some piece of media tries to tell me that computers have figured out humans can only destroy, i cant take it seriously because with nothing to gain from it, he did everything he could to help a child who was hurting.

i just dont know how the fuck to put all of those feelings into coherent words because theres just so much feeling and emotion that goes into it, and because im always more critical of my work when its more optimistic or positive and how that definitely says something all by itself, but i still dont know how to word any of it.

#kai rambles #delete later #probably #im just feeling some feelings on this fine saturday afternoon #and i dont know how to word any of them #its so much easier to write painful things or sad things than happy things #at least for me #i also dont know how to separate it from the fact that none of it should have happened in the first place #because we shouldnt have been able to play there #residents had written to the council over and over again asking them to put a fence up because they knew it was dangerous #and that there was barbed fucking wire sticking out of the ground #and that kids were playing there #and the council never did because it was seen as a priority #and they didnt have the money #because they rarely ever have any money because we are one of the most impoverished boroughs in britain #and thats consistent #so it wasnt even that the council knew it was an accident waiting to happen and didnt do anything #it was that they couldnt rationalise spending the money on it without there being an accident because you know #some of our schools were not safe for kids to be in like on a hygeine level #and our water pipes broke seemingly every year so they were always fixing that and our roads needed doing #and a lot of our bridges are barely over the threshold of safe #so the council just couldnt afford to put a fence there until i ran into barbed wire and needed stitches #its so hard to separate all of that from the actual event because the wider context is just a damnation of capitalism and our government

[crescentfool]

i'm a little late (oopsies) buuuut if you're still answering 'em, 6 and 14 for the artist asks? ehehe

hi misty!! thank you for stopping by with the artist asks, i'm happy to answer them!

6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously (i.e. this horse wasn’t supposed to look like the Last Unicorn but I see it)

it took me a bit to come up with an answer for this because stylistically speaking, i try to be very deliberate with what choices i want to try out and yoink from artists...

that said, i think that whenever i do any silly comics, because i'm not too well-versed in the medium, i feel like my expressions end up getting subconsciously inspired by expressions i see passed around a lot... like anya's waku waku expression or MS paint tails...

so basically memes...! im a very silly littel guy. oh and do cats count i swear my expressions are based off of meme cats sometimes.

14. Any favorite motifs

i think in most arts of mine it's very easy to see that i'm so very fond of sparkles... i can't help but insert a little ✨ into my work... i am also very fond of the moon (all phases are cool but i am most drawn to crescent and full moons). this is probably not a surprise whatsoever given that ryoji's one of my favorite characters 🤣

i think i just really like circular motifs in general too... like radial lines? concentric circle? is that what they are called? my vocabulary regarding these are a bit lackluster, so here's an example of what i mean featuring a sylvain concept from may 2023 that will probably not see the light of day </3 (this was supposed to be for his birthday) (being impaled by the lance of ruin is a great birthday gift i know)

for composition heavy things i usually enjoy integrating character motifs... whether if it's very direct (e.g. crests for fe3h characters, the moon for ryoji, water for minato), or just something that i feel reminds me of the subject matter... (i love sprinkling music notes whenever i draw ryomina i just think there's intimacy in sharing music together when you use ur headphones to isolate urself but umm thats very unrelated to this ask.)

i also really enjoy visual motifs being used to make characters look like they are being displayed in a church (see this tweet for examples of characters)... i guess you could say religious imagery? i'm very fond of the art nouveau style and i feel like i'd wanna make a few pieces like that!

#lizzy askbox #thank you for the ask!!! i had a lot of fun reflecting on these #especially number 6 given that i had to think a different angle that wasnt necessarily 'style' #i did briefly consider yosuke as an answer to number 6 (he subconsciously informs my ocs but i cannot fucking explain that #also that's writing and not necessarily drawn art #14 was also fun! it was a nice realization that maybe i would enjoy relearning about art history #ive had some art history classes in 2016 but i dont think i drew a lot at that time to incorporate what i learned from those courses #into my own works... and also thats just a long time ago that i can only remember the general gist haha #like.. relearning about art history to be able to put names to the motifs and styles that were around #i definitely know that some people are inspired by classical paintings and i think thats fucking swag #and i probably would be too if i took a look at them again! #actually the sylvain wips not that bad. maybe i should come back to it. LMAO #i think i stopped because i tried to clean it up and god forbid i clean anything up (hate that shit!!) #anyway im rambling. thank you again! i love talking about art i will still be happy to answer more of these! <3

[skinnymeanfaggot]

also

#im making huge huge changes in my life and i think the next logical step would be to cut off jamie. ive already been ghosting him but thats #just me avoiding the problem. i just like. it feels fucked to be like hey i told you i was ok with what you did but i Changed my mind #i just think like. i have next to no contact with him and i feel fucking fantastic. we talk like every couple months on the rare occurrence #he can text and then i answer in vague short sentences and ghost. and now that i finally have firm boundaries with him and havent engaged #with him sexually its like. i feel like basically all my ties are cut. and i feel like im ready to let go for the first time. like ive #always felt like i just wasnt ready but now i like i Am ready its just a matter of like. doing it. thats difficult. even though i know hell #accept it because hes matured. and like. idk. i think its fine like this #and idk i think its fine like this. being the absolute barest form of acquaintances. i cannot stress how little we interact and how little #affect he has on my life at this point outside of what happened in the past. like i am in a good place he is 99% cut off i just need to do #the last bit. but like also fuck. you know. its hard to kinda finish it off. and its also like ooh it would hurt his feelings but now i #fucking. dont care lol. after everything. with blue i realize every day just how much more respected i feel and less gross and shitty #even with being jamies friend which we never were because whenever i was single we were sexual. i just felt bad. i never wanted to fuck #either. and he would say he loved me and id be like hahaha yeahhhh and now that ive finally drawn that boundary and said he cant do that #anymore i feel so much lighter and i just feel so happy and safe with blue in a way ive never felt with jamie and its like. im almost there #i feel like i might be able to cut him off by the end of the year. and thats crazy to me. i just also have a lot of like shit to unpack #in general too also. with what he did. and i just have a lot. but i feel like im progressing

[westywallowing]

exploring creative careers?? who knew could be kind of fun??

#reasonable #okay so i just finished my first year of American College and i was. unimpressed to say the least #when i was choosing which college to go to i had two choices: out of state (super expensive) for a creative major #or in-state (more reasonably affordable) for a more major #so i went with the safe option and did in-state #and i am.. not very impressed #i mean its a good school! i love the staff and the community and the campus #ive made amazing friends and socially feel very secure and happy #its the academics and career path that im not interested in at all #i kind of always told myself in highschool that id never be able to do creative careers because they just werent reasonable #which is not correct right i just wasnt giving myself the chance #this year has been INCREDIBLY taxing on me mentally due to my struggle with academics and my adhd #if u have adhd you know how draining it is to be forced to put all your energy into something that doesnt make u happy #its like punching concrete with your fist #but anyway the point is. ive been looking at beauty schools for cosmetology :) #its very daunting. in a big city really far away from home #but also achievable?? inspiring?? creative?? fun??? #its not a set thing but. we'll see where the wind takes me!! #you never know #westy's shit

[sakebytheriver]

...

#looking back at that friendship and its felt like for years now that she would never take responsibility for anything #that i was gonna constantly be the bad guy and constantly have to swallow teeth because speaking up and confronting her was something #she just couldnt handle and she would see it as grounds to end the friendship entirely #and how she would compare me to her abusive ex and say that i triggefed her but then when i ask for more info when i aske her to explain #she breaks down until i just have to capitulate her and apologize without being able to have a conversation about it whatsoever #how she turned the one time i confronted her about how she hurt me into a 'im sorry you feel that way' and then made it about how i hurt her #for even being upset about her actions and that i wasnt happy for her turning it into me apologizing for even speaking up at all #how she held her friendship hostage and made me feel like i had to walk on eggshells and that any errant comment meant shed leave #how it was always about her and how she felt and that ive been feeling for so long now that i cant tell her shit about my feelings #that whenever i was with her i had to be on guard and that anything meant she wouldnt want me around #how i had to validate her every feeling and make her the center of the universe that i could never criticize her or her behavior #because her insecurity and sensitivity was so intense if i didnt constantly make her feel like she was in the right even when she was wrong #it would spell the end of the friendship #and now i said the wrong thing i made her feel bad and triggered her insecurity and her toxic positivity so after 5 years she decides #that shes 'done with second chances' as if i was the only problem in this friendship and she for sure has convinced herself of that #has convinced everyone im this bitch who couldnt help but hurt her when in reality basically anything would hurt her #there were times when i wasnt sufficiently happy enough for her and shed make it into a big thing and make me apologize for not validating #her enough shed make me overly congratulate her and capitulate her feelings while she never once reciprocated the same treatment for my shit #and its like thats not how friendship is supposed to work its not supposed to feel like im one mistake away from being left #its not supposed to feel like i have to give her everything to receive basically nothing in return #its not supposed to feel like im waiting for the moment she tells me she never wants to talk to me again (WITH ONE TEXT TOO AFTER 5 YEARS) #its not supposed to feel like i have to constantly make myself the bad guy and over apologize while she can treat me any way she wants to #without being confronted about it because she 'cant handle confrontation' #like what kind of friendship can even be built when one person has one foot out the door at all times and builds the relationship in such a #way where they can talk to you anyway they see fit and tell you anything they want but you cant talk to them the same way #i look back at so much of what she said to me how one time she said the way i treated her wasnt fair and its like the way she treated me #wasnt fair that after five years of friendship she wasnt a safe place for me at all that i had to be on my toes or else id be left #and now here we are i didnt articulate myself right i made her feel bad i tried to explain and make my point better she didnt want to talk #at all and instead ghosted me for weeks before playing phone tag for a week when all she planned to do was send one text and cut me off #i look back and i really was just fighting to keep her around just to say that someone stayed but she was never one i should have kept

[senxitive]

I genuinely can't imagine myself in another relationship ever and I don't know if it's just post-post heartbreak or the fact that I can't imagine meeting someone who I want to be in my life every day all the time or if I'm just homesick and want one person or if I genuinely don't want to compromise my space and time and energy for another person.

I just feel so devoid but also sad at the same time (when I think of the One Person)

#it's weird #even the last couple years of my longterm relationship i felt kind of that way #it was this sense of if I dont feel this way about one of the best ppl i know....then how could i possibly feel it about anyone ever #and now that im single #i feel that plus a sense of melancholy that maybe i wont ever connect with that feeling or be able to accept it as the luxury it is #just like when i accepted that having a child wasnt for me #and that meant accepting that the fairytale of meaning and true love and purpose and happiness associated w birth wouldnt be something #i experience and that maybe i wouldnt ever feel that happiness because I wont have children #and its the same thing now #its scary when you dont necessarily believe in these 'guaranteed' paths to true happiness #it means you have to accept that you have to create your own fulfillment and try to find peace with that #and if you dont create it....you're just existing.... #im not saying you cant do both...make your own and have ppl in ur life #you should #but when you start to think genuinely that relationships arent for you....you see a big piece of that removed and feel so much more #emphasis on finding your own fulfillment which is just hard #and melancholy idk what else to say

[hexagonaldecency]

.

#hhhholy shit I got an incredibly fancy gift from my boyfriend's family #they said it wasnt even a christmas gift it was for celebrating my graduation and getting into the master's program #and I'm just so thankful but I'm embarassed because I dont feel like it was that much of a big deal #I'm having some mental issues and I havent been able to submit some stuff I said I would to my professor #so it feels like I dont deserve this #especially such a fancy thing #that I could not afford #It's a necklace and I love it so much but I'm scared it felt like I didnt #because I think I got kinda shy about it #I know these things about 'not deserving nice things' are all in my head but you know. #it means they love and cherish me #and are happy with my accomplishments #and that's great #just a little overwhelming

[hellsitegenetics]

genome THIS (pleag. it would make me happy):

STUPID IDIOT MOTHERFUCKING JURGEN LEITNER GOD DAMN FOOL BOOK COLLECTING DUST EATING RAT OLD BASTARD SHITHEAD IDIOT AVATAR OF THE WHORE BIGGEST CLOWN IN THE CIRCUS LAUGHED OUT OF TOWN COWBOY MOTHERFUCKING JURGEN LEITNER

STOP PINNING ME WHEN I TALK ABOUT JURGEN LEITENER I HATE HIM SO MUCH WHY DOES HE HAVE SO MANY FUCKED UP BOOKS WHY DID HE DECIDE TO FUCK AROUND AND FIND OUT JUST SET THEM LOOSE IS HE DEAD IS HE A BASTARD MAN HAS SUCH A VISCERAL AFFECT ON ME NOT EVEN IN THE ROOM NEVER SEEN THIS MANS FACE AND I KNOW HE HAS THE WORLDS SHITTIEST BEARD GET AWAY FROM ME

if i wanted to get into heaven and god said jurgen leitners waiting inside i would piss on gods feet for the sole purpose of getting sent back down

if i have to deal with jurgen leitner speaking one word in person on voice in podcast not only will i close the tab i will delete my bookmark out of spite and have to rewatch the entire series again for the experience of being able to skip all the times when he is mentioned or alive

i dont even know why i hate him so much. he collects books but i am just mad because i am angy

he better have some fucked up backstory to explain this if hes just some rich shithead whos a fan of creepypasta and wanted the irl version ill go ham

BETTER have had a book make him kill a man cuz if he didnt Im going to make him

paypal.com/IFuckingHateJurgenLeitner

episodes not even about him. vaguely mentioned what is supposed to maybe be his library and I lost it

where the fuck is jurgen leitner if hes still alive im going to so deeply wish he wasnt

crusty old man

ill punch leitner and his sad frail old man twig bones will simply flake apart under my epic huge meat fist and he will disintegrate until all thats left is one final book he kept on him at all times simply titled Now You Fucked Up in ancient yiddish

im not breathing im hyperventilating at this point

i hope theres a date given for when jurgen died or will die so i can make it a reminder on my phone

everyday once a year i will see it and do anything but pay respects to the man who had so many fucked up if true books

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#tumblr genetics #genetics #marigold #flowers #the magnus archives #jurgen leitner #sent to me #requests #completely-real-and-normal-human #asks

[zeldasnotes]

PLUTO NOTES

MOON NOTES VENUS NOTES MARS NOTES NEPTUNE NOTES

Plutonians and 8th housers can have a hard time with people being behind them. Also in the classroom, the bus or wherever they are they want to be in the back. They need their face facing the door so that they can see who walks in.

People with Pluto/Moon see stuff that other people just dont get to see. This is both good and bad. They get to experience intense and wonderful sexual relationships with others because they merge with others on a completely different level but they also recieve intense hatred from others too.

Dont ever mess with a Sun Square Pluto persons image or disrespect them infront of others, just dont.

Ive never met a person with Sun or Mercury Square Pluto who wasnt extremely strategic and calculating. They know when its time to leave the party.

If you have Venus/Pluto or Venus 8th house dont ever share to others who you are in love with. Just dont.

If you have Venus/Pluto or Venus 8th house and you notice people being completely taken by you, complimenting you bla bla for your beauty dont get all friendly and start trusting these people. Just wait and you will see that admiration turn to bitterness. A friend in my old class in High School got Venus Square Pluto and we had to watch another girl in our class try to BECOME her. Like she would buy the same clothes as her, talk like her, freaking SIT like her, cut her hair like her. We laughed at this bc the copycat was a nice and funny girl in general but it was creepy.

Most people with harsh Pluto aspects went through a time in their life where they shut down their feelings completely and became cold. These peoples minds can take them to dark places when they have been through trauma. Their first response to trauma might be to get cold. And this can make them very problematic until they heal. But when they heal they are the kindest, because they know pain.

When I hear the quote ”I didnt want to be strong I wanted to be happy.” I think of Pluto dominant people. Yes plutonians are strong but they were forced to, there was no other choice. Telling Plutonians ”But it made you stronger in the end” does not help because being strong was not their goal.

Ive seen Ceres(1) Square Pluto in a lot of charts of people who are obsessed with fitness and nutrition. Like people who weight their food, only eat a specific amount of calories etc.

Pluto/Moon people go through periods of extreme emotional turmoil. Especially the Square and Conjunction.

People with Sun or Moon Square Pluto always get what they want but they also get what they fear. Their feelings and thoughts are so strong. These people have experienced their worst fears happen to them. The kind of people to think for themselves ”I wouldnt be able to handle losing my bestfriend” and the next day their bestie leaves them for no reason. Its almost like there is some kind of test from life like ”Hmmm lets see how much this person can take😈”

Pluto conjunct a planet can in some cases make you suppress that placement or be afraid of that energy. I know a lot of people with Pluto Square Mars whos seriously afraid of conflict. Some people respond to trauma by becoming passive instead of being angered by it.

Pluto conjunct Ascendant in the Solar Return Chart makes you come across as more dominant and powerful. You wont think before you act because you are not as afraid this year.

Mars conjunct Pluto people are much more goal oriented than they even realize themselves. Constantly pushing themselves to become better and better. The kind of person to have the whole package like good job, fit, the best hair stylist, the latest clothes, the latest everything etc. Being the best is something they just do because they dont know anything else. They need structure and perfection. Nobody better look down on them. And Mars conjunct Pluto makes them driven enough to become ”perfect”. Others stare in awe because they could never have that drive. Others might be like ”You doing too much”. They dont realize this is what Mars/Pluto likes and needs.

Pluto in the 10th house makes someone have A LOT of haters and secret admirers. These people are constantly under intense scrutiny. Every word they say is made to be something bad or manipulative. The kind of person to say ”Oh what a beautiful dress!” And people will think they are being sarcastic when they are not. They got Regina George energy no matter how nice they are inside.

Pluto in the 3rd house really know what to say to make you hate yourself. If afflicted they can have a horrible mouth.

People with Mercury conjunct Pluto read into everything. Constantly finding flaws. Might see the worst in you because they project their own fears and insecurities onto others. The kind of person to hate people who snitch and gossip because they do it themselves.

People with a Plutonian Moon will recognize eachother at first sight.

Pluto conjunct Lust(4386) can make someone VERY sexual.

Pluto/Moon can mean your mom went to prison and Pluto/Sun can mean your dad went to prison.

With strong Pluto energy always remember this quote: ”Be nice to the people you meet on your way up, because you will need them on your way down.” Life can go from heaven to hell in a night for these people.

If you got Mercury Square Pluto please shut that cakehole when angry bc that mouth freaky as hell.

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