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#he gets it #adhd #-_- #i have been thinking of drawing my 10th class oc (who is just me but if i was in tf2) asking medic for Completely Ethical adhd meds 😈 #(*i know i know adhd isnt a mental illness i have somethin from every brain category lmao. learning difficulty neurological the whole thang

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Congratulations! You are now a Magic-User!!

#already there at the last one #re: the sixth one- my friends and i were on our way to whitby goth festival years ago and i was talkin about like #''oh i couldn't really be a goth; i'm not into the music'' while standin on the bus in all black; spikes; longish black hair; 4'' flatforms #yknow all that #and i kid you not. i then pulled a spider out of my hair. #(there's a lot of it so i'm always finding small things and items in there) #my friends (actual goths) just lmao'd #but yeah seriously goth is too elaborate for me. probably most closest to goth band i like is type o negative #it's more than just all black and spikes innit. i'm just whatever

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just rediscovered this after getting back into the harder afx tracks..... goes insane

#i used to listen to this all the time in my teens #there's the ''metal music'' i like... and then there's the ''audio recording of an industrial plant steelworks metal music'' i like... #funny enough i didn't get into metal (as in with guitars n stuff) until much later... #loved primus and black sabbath but that's about as metallic as it would get #tunes #Youtube

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humanity and the non-human (i made you this way)

maritime morse is tapped out (wired) / eternal silence (jamie clements & nick millar) / (reddit) / (guggenheim museum) / can't help myself (sun yuan & peng yu) / (youtube) / opportunity (rover) (wikipedia) / opportunity's selfie (NASA) / (youtube)

#;-; #🖥️

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going through lots of boxes in garage, found surprising amount of finished patches i’ve made before… i’m gonna show u them soon >:)

#some need ironing #past synth whyyy did you use fabric that can crease without backing it. why

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dearest followers i regret to inform you that thinking with my cunt has once again led me perilously and irretrievably deep into a vast system of underground tunnels

#the underground tunnels is a new hyperfixation

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wish i could call in bitchy to work

#this is just my default irl

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0_0;

#i sure hope other people saw yellow in post i just reblogged

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in the hour or so it took me to draw this op turned reblogs off

#you know not the pleasures of the swamp #GREEN

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i don’t even need to name it i don’t think lmao.. it’s funny because yeah yeah the monsterfucker wants to fuck the monster whatever

but a lesser-known thing about me is i love code and numbers. I love code analysis and rng manipulation it’s fascinating even if numbers make my head hurt after like 2mins of thinking about them cuz i got the numbers dyslexia..... it's like the mental equivalent of eating pineapple even though pineapple hurt mouth

love it when a weapons-grade strength hyperfix has a side hyperfix on the side.. do u know what i mean

​i love FPSs and gravitate towards them- i can’t see myself ever playing a third person shooter- but this side hyperfix in question is like a HYPER-FIRST PERSON SHOOTER. you are shooting your Self

#i have been watching a not very sane amount of buckshot roulette playthroughs

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love it when a weapons-grade strength hyperfix has a side hyperfix on the side.. do u know what i mean

​i love FPSs and gravitate towards them- i can’t see myself ever playing a third person shooter- but this side hyperfix in question is like a HYPER-FIRST PERSON SHOOTER. you are shooting your Self

#i mean sometimes. if ur unlucky. #buckshot roulette

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¯\_(ツ)_/¯ no use in denying my weakness for chunky fuckd up creature-guys

#it surprised me that popular fanon gives him a BOY WHY YOU SO T¡TS body type... im not complaining At All #much better than the j*ck skell¡ngton body type i automatically pictured at first myself. deleted that from my mind real quick #he hits me in the right monsterfucker places (the TEETH; disembodied hands; somewhat vague/obscured face)- so why not hit all of em (✿◠‿◠) #obvious wip is obvious (no reblogs pls and thx) #my art

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I’m going to unlearn shame *bursts into tears and beats my head against a brick wall*

#me right now -_-

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#evil big empty warehouse or hangar music^ #a certain ost has reminded me of polygon window (whom is aphex twin) #quoth ep especially that’s eviller and bangs harder #this one has a computer voice in it tho which ups its evilness(positive) by a percentage #tunes

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#aw hell yea #so early 2000s. tin can music #do i even have to say (positive) you know me by now #tunes

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random secret-share time.

i used to have tf/2/ blocked in my tumblr savior (remember those days before the built-in blacklist, and it was only available on desktop? tumblr olds like me remember) because, like with many medias, seeing it everywhere pissed me off.

i am brutally killing past me from around 10 years ago with my bare hands and also rocks

imagine two pictures of me. one picture is labelled “past synth (t/f//2/ disliker)”. one picture is labelled “the COOLER current year synth (loves t/f/2)”.

#it’s funny the same thing happened w/ h0mestuck. hated seeing it everywhere then i started liking it. then it became huge chunk of my life. #if i can find an old device which i still run tumblr savior on i’ll let you see it; just so we can laugh at it together :D #i was an adult already 10years ago but i was still in that ‘I’M SOOOOO GROWN UP’ phase. bein developmentally disabled does that. #brother you just hated fun. dumbass. grow up and start loving mercs like me. fucken idiot. #time travel would be really fun for this specific reason #he really doesn’t need to be made feel worse about himself by current me tho 0_0 #what is this post

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I hate the “open floor plan” that everyone is obsessed with in houses now. I want nooks and crannies and bizarre floor plans. I don’t need to be able to see what someone is doing on the other side of the house. I want places to hide and lurk and dwell in the shadows. I am the beast who awaits in the labyrinth

#makes me feel threatened. i am like gecko. give me hides in my habitat #or i will scream.