#‘ You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent’

[manifall-moved]

this generation is so weak we just dont write homoerotic love letters like we used to

#dom.txt #reading the hamilton laurens letters for senior thesis and #‘ You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent’ #why dont we write letters like that anymore

[gjesse]

people say "i love you" but alexander hamilton wrote "You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent. But as you have done it and as we are generally indulgent to those we love, I shall not scruple to pardon the fraud you have committed, on condition that for my sake, if not for your own, you will always continue to merit the partiality, which you have so artfully instilled into me." to john laurens. insanity.

#historical lams #alexander hamilton #john laurens #amrev #my roman empire

[indestructibleheart]

Thank you, @hgejfmw-hgejhsf, @kiwiana-writes, and @junebugclaremontdiaz for the tags! ❤️

I have reached the point of the Doctor Who AU where I'm so close to finishing it that my ADHD brain has decided it cannot focus on it... which is incredibly annoying, but whatever. I'll finish it when I finish it—as you can see, I am trying to be kinder to myself, lol.

I was able to write some of The Coma AU™️ this weekend... so that's what I'm gonna share today. This is a piece of Alex's coma dream, particularly where shit gets real for him.

Content Warning: Major character injury, some light purple prose (lilac prose?) describing remembering a car accident.

It's also more than seven sentences, as these often are.

Please note the "ish" in the graphic. 😅

He remembers now. Waist-deep in Lake LBJ, he remembers the last letter Henry wrote him, left on the kitchen counter. Alex remembers the silence. The waiting. You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent, drafted and deleted. Dear fucking Thisbe, stuffed into his pocket on the runway. He remembers the sound of it first—skidding and screeching and sirens—then the white hot pain. It starts at the back of his neck and travels down his spine. Waist-deep in Lake LBJ, his knees buckle, but four hands catch him before he faceplants into the water—Nora's hitting his sternum hard enough to crack his ribs. Alex isn't even sure where they fucking came from, but they practically drag him out of the water until the three of them collapse into a pile of tangled limbs in the dirt. His ears are ringing like crazy; he only vaguely hears June's voice above the din, saying, "Stay with us, Alex. We've got you." He wants to tell her he's not going anywhere.  His lips won't move.

As a reminder... Alex will be okay, despite how grim this snippet may seem, and there will be a happy ending.

Tagging some lovelies under the cut. If you have not been tagged and you want to be, consider this your tag!

@anchoredarchangel, @barbiediaz @cha-melodius, @cricketnationrise, @guillermosfamiliar, @hgejfmw-hgejhsf, @hippolotamus, @inexplicablymine, @jettestar, @junebugclaremontdiaz, @lizzie-bennetdarcy , @missgeevious, @mulderscully, @myheartalivewrites, @ninzied, @nontoxic-writes, @notspecialbabe, @priincebutt, @rmd-writes, @rosedavid, @sparklepocalypse, @three-drink-amy, @treluna4, @vanillahigh00, @welcometololaland, @orchidscript, @ships-to-sail, @stereopticons

#m:wip #wip:snippet #fic: pcsfoptp

[winter-spirit-jack]

Here Hamilton writes to John Laurens, whom he addresses with "my Dear", he should get Hamilton a wife. How? Tell them about my massive and long cock. The way it's phrased, it's pretty obv that Laurens has seen Hamilton's cock before - in his full glory:

[April, 1779]

Cold in my professions – warm in my friendships – I wish, my Dear Laurens, it were in my power, by actions rather than words, to convince you that I love you. I shall only tell you that 'till you bade us Adieu, I hardly knew the value you had taught my heart to set upon you. Indeed, my friend, it was not well done. You know the opinion I entertain of mankind, and how much it is my desire to preserve myself free from particular attachments, and to keep my happiness independent of the caprice of others. You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility, to steal into my affections without my consent. But as you have done it, and as we are generally indulgent to those we love, I shall not scruple to pardon the fraud you have committed, on one condition; that for my sake, if not for your own, you will always continue to merit the partiality, which you have so artfully instilled into me. . . .

He basically says: I did not want to fall in love with you, but I did, my boo. You know, I hate everybody, but you made me love you. So please never leave me. But let's move on:

And Now my Dear as we are upon the subject of wife, I empower and command you to get me one in Carolina. Such a wife as I want will, I know, be difficult to be found, but if you succeed, it will be the stronger proof of your zeal and dexterity. . . .

If you should not readily meet with a lady that you think answers my description you can only advertise in the public papers and doubtless you will hear of many . . . who will be glad to become candidates for such a prize as I am. To excite their emulation, it will be necessary for you to give an account of the lover – his size, make, quality of mind and body, achievements, expectations, fortune, &c. In drawing my picture, you will no doubt be civil to your friend; mind you do justice to the length of my nose and don't forget, that I [about five words here have been mutilated in the manuscript].

It's like: Yo, we need wives to cover our sus 'friendship', so talk about my big schlong (the nose thing 😏 haha). It's like two teenagers after making out the first time. The writing is so full of horny puns and flirtatious behaviour. And after finding a reason to talk about his dick to Laurens, he's like "Nah, I don't want a woman anyway":

After reviewing what I have written, I am ready to ask myself what could have put it into my head to hazard this Jeu de follie. Do I want a wife? No – I have plagues enough without desiring to add to the number that greatest of all; and if I were silly enough to do it, I should take care how I employ a proxy. Did I mean to show my wit? If I did, I am sure I have missed my aim. Did I only intend to [frisk]? In this I have succeeded, but I have done more. I have gratified my feelings, by lengthening out the only kind of interc0urse now in my power with my friend. Adieu

Yours.

A Hamilton

THE LAST SENTENCE!!! It basically says: "Yeah since we can't fuck right now, this is the only way to have sex with you, my friend" haha 🤣

Okay, enough love fantasies about dead old white men we only ship, because they're represented by hotter men in a modern musical 😎

Let me tell you this: After Laurens death, his family found his letters and burned them all to destroy evidence. There were too raunchy for the history books.

I think that's enough queer history for today :D

#hamilton musical #alexander hamilton #john laurens #lgbt #bisexual #lams

[isakvaltersnake]

I’m sorry but I want pettiness from alex in the close friends stories in this moment. give me an empty whisky bottle. give me a spotify screenshot of silver springs by fleetwood mac on repeat. give me an excerpt dug up from an archived letter, hamilton to laurens, you should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent.

LET HIM BE MESSY AND DRAMATIC AND HEARTBROKEN OUT LOUD OR WHAT ARE THE CLOSE FRIENDS STORIES EVEN FOR MATTHEW

#red white and royal blue

[lostlosersclub]

Cold in my professions, warm in my friendships, I wish, my Dear Laurens, it might be in my power, by action rather than words, to convince you that I love you. I shall only tell you that 'till you bade us Adieu, I hardly knew the value you had taught my heart to set upon you. Indeed, my friend, it was not well done. You know the opinion I entertain of mankind, and how much it is my desire to preserve myself free from particular attachments, and to keep my happiness independent on the caprice of others. You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent. But as you have done it and as we are generally indulgent to those we love, I shall not scruple to pardon the fraud you have committed, on condition that for my sake, if not for your own, you will always continue to merit the partiality, which you have so artfully instilled into me.

i am nodding as if i know what the fuck is going on

#like #john laurens #???? #thats what im assuming

[rmsstevielol]

you know what I find wild… how historians still deny Alexander Hamilton and John laurens had a “thing”.

argue all you like but you cannot tell me that this

“Cold in my professions — warm in my friendships -I wish, my dear Laurens, it were in my power, by actions, rather than words, to convince you that I love you”

Or this

“You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent. But as you have done it, and as we are generally indulgent to those we love, I shall not scruple to pardon the fraud you have com- mitted, on one condition;”

Were just a couple of words between “best friends” I kid you not, MOST male best mates wouldn’t speak to eachother like that nowadays Nevermjnd in the 18TH CENTURY, also not to mention the fact that Alexander literally said “i love you” and in many letters things like “yrs” and “yrs forever” and just generally the way he wrote to John was very much.. loving and interesting for mates. I also noticed the way he wrote to Laurens was only really repeated in letters to Eliza like as in he seemed very much in love with both of them.

Anyways it was real I don’t care what historians say 😜

#amrev #american history #alexander hamilton #american revolution #john laurens #alexander hamilshit #henry laurens #eliza schuyler

[respectthepetty]

You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent.

#Bad Boys unraveling their Good Boys #Are they manipulating or flirting? #Por que no los dos? #the eclipse #kinnporsche #the eclipse series #kinnporsche the series #vegas x pete #vegaspete #akk x ayan

[jadejedi]

Old Queer Love Letters

So, I just reread Red, White, and Royal Blue this week and was reminded of my slight obsession with historical gay love letters. I think there is something so heart-wrenchingly beautiful and devastating about these letters written between these people who so deeply love each other, even in times when they would be persecuted for that love. This is a collection of excerpts from some of my favorites, with sources included. Many of the letters written by men are from Rictor Norton’s “Dear Boy” essays, a collection of essays on love letters between men throughout history, which I highly recommend perusing if you also like to read old gay love letters (links below). All emphasis is my own. 

1779- Alexander Hamilton to John Laurens

“Cold in my professions, warm in my friendships, I wish, my Dear Laurens, it might be in my power, by actions rather than words, to convince you that I love you. I shall only tell you that ‘till I bade us Adieu, I hardly knew the value you had taught my heart to set upon you. Indeed, my friend, it was not well done. You know the opinion I entertain of mankind, and how much it is my desire to preserve myself free from particular attachments, and to keep my happiness independent on the caprice of others. You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent. But as you have done it and as we are generally indulgent to those we love, I shall not scruple to pardon the fraud you have committed, on condition that for my sake, if not for your own, you will always continue to merit the partiality, which you have so artfully instilled into me.”

816- Yuan Zhen to Bo Juyi

“Other people too have friends that they love; 

But ours was a love such as few friends have known.

You were all my sustenance; it mattered more

To see you daily than to get my morning food.”

1927- Vita Sackville-West to Virginia Woolf

“I miss you even more than I could have believed; and I was prepared to miss you a good deal. So this letter is really just a squeal of pain. It is incredible how essential to me you have become. I suppose you are accustomed to people saying these things. Damn you, spoilt creature; I shan’t make you love me any more by giving myself away like this- But oh my dear, I can’t be clever and stand-offish with you: I love you too much for that. Too truly. You have no idea how stand-offish I can be with people I don’t love. I have brought it to a fine art. But you have broken down my defenses. And I don’t really resent it.”

1958- Allen Ginsberg to Peter Orlovsky

“‘When I think on thee dear friend/ all loses are restored & sorrows end,’ came over & over in my mind- it’s the end of a Shakespeare Sonnet- he must have been happy in love too. I had never realized that before… 

Write me soon baby, I’ll write you a big long poem I feel as if you were a god that I pray to-

Love, Allen”

1933- Eleanor Roosevelt to Lorena Hickok

“I cannot go to bed tonight without a word to you. I felt a little as though a part of me was leaving tonight. You have grown so much a part of my life that it is empty without you.”

And from a different letter that same year, 

“I miss you greatly dear. The nicest time of day is when I write to you. You have a stormier time than I do but I miss you as much, I think. I couldn’t bear to think of you crying yourself to sleep. Oh! how I wanted to put my arms around you in reality instead of in spirit. I went & kissed your photograph instead & the tears were in my eyes. Please keep most of your heart in Washington as long as I’m here for most of mine is with you!”

1941- Gordon Bowsher to Gilbert Bradley

“For years I had it drummed into me that no love could last for life…

I want you darling seriously to delve into your own mind, and to look for once in to the future. 

Imagine the time when the war is over and we are living together… would it not be better to live on from now on the memory of our life together when it was at its most golden pitch.”

1917- Wilfred Owen to Siegfried Sassoon

“And you have fixed my Life- however short. You did not light me: I was always a mad comet; but you have fixed me. I spun round you a satellite for a month, but I shall swing out soon, a dark star in the orbit where you will blaze.”

Sources below the cut:

Hamilton to Laurens, from the National Archives and Rictor Norton’s My Dear Boy: Gay Love Letters through the Centuries

Yuan Zhen to Bo Juyi, from Rictor Norton’s My Dear Boy: Gay Love Letters through the Centuries

Sackville-West to Woolf, from The Marginalian

Ginsberg to Orlovsky, from Rictor Norton’s My Dear Boy: Gay Love Letters through the Centuries and The Pink News

Roosevelt to Hickok, from Autostraddle.com

Bowsher to Bradley, from the BBC

Owen to Sassoon, from Rictor Norton’s My Dear Boy: Gay Love Letters through the Centuries

#jj talks #lgbtqia #queer history #history is gayyy

[thatgreenthingy]

“Henry’s lips are soft, and short-circuits.”

“You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent”

“Tho I long for the actual sunlight contact between us I miss you like a home. Shine back honey & think of me.”

“ I miss you I miss you I miss you I love you.”

#red white and royal blue

[vmpirevnom]

Day 4: What If?

What if John Laurens was in the show? What if there was another ship, Alexander Hamilton x John Laurens, otherwise known as Lams?

I know Laurens was briefly mentioned, but I wish we could have seen him on screen, or at least seen him and Alexander together.

There is proof that they loved each other. In the famous letter, Alexander Hamilton wrote:

Cold in my professions - warm in my friendships I wish, my dear Laurens, it were in my power, by actions, rather than words, to convince you that I love you. I shall only tell you, that till you bade us adieu, I hardly knew the value you had taught my heart to set upon sou. Indeed, my friend, it was not well done. You know the opinion I entertain of mankind; and how much it is my desire to preserve myself from particular attachments, and to keep my happiness independent of the caprices of others. You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent. But as you have done it, and as we are generally indulgent to those we love, I shall not scruple to pardon the fraud you have com-mitted, on one condition; that for my sake, it not for your own, you will continue to merit the partiality which you have so artfully instilled into me.

Of course, there’s a chance that it was platonic (I doubt it), but it would’ve been a cute thing to see in the show.

#turn amc #turn washington's spies #turn: washingtons spies #turnsgiving2022 #lams #historical lams

[olivers-cocoapuffs]

My mum said Hamilton sending Laurens love letters was bullshit so I’m doing some digging and have sent her links to a few. High lights:

In spite of Schylers black eyes, I have still a part for the public and another for you; so your impatience to have me married is misplaced; a strange cure by the way, as if after matrimony I was to be less devoted that I am now

2. I have written you five or six letters since you left Philadelphia and I should have written you more had you made proper return. But like a jealous lover, when I thought you slighted my caresses, my affection was alarmed and my vanity piqued

3.  I wish, my Dear Laurens, it were in my power, by actions rather than words, to convince you that I love you

4.  You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility, to steal into my affections without my consent. But as you have done it,

anyway they were gay and he was a bisexual icon

#Wait John just died gimmie a minute to collect myself

[degreeofdisorder]

so i finally got my collectors edition today and i have been rereading the entire afternoon, and are you telling me in this edition alex never sends the "you should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent" email??? why!!!! what do you mean "drafted and deleted" henry should've gotten that email and read it and felt like shit!!!!!! that's the whole point!!!!!!! wdym "drafted and deleted" as if alex would ever do that this is bullshit

#rwrb livenats #they also deleted the bit where alex also swears in spanish when they first hook up after the state dinner #I don't understand some of these choices #the israel thing? fine. getting rid of terf supreme references? encouraged and great #but why these? these make no sense

[dolphinqueen10]

Chapter 10 fuckery

"You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent." 💔😭 why must you hurt me thusly.

Ooh, the night in LA is when "everything inside of Alex rearranged"? (I'm fighting the urge to make a dirty joke here) But seriously, that's interesting 🤔🤔🤔

Alex, you dramatic bitch. I love it.

Oh, Henry. 💔

God this line: Henry's room has never felt much like Henry, but in the quiet of the morning, he shows up in pieces. Oh my God the metaphor. 😭💔

Since the Olympics Henry? 🙄 I figured.

Ferris Bueller 🤣🤣🤣🤣

"Tell me everything." 😍❤️❤️❤️❤️😍

These two romantic bastards. I love them so much and am eternally thankful they came into my life. 💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙

#rwrb #red white and royal blue

[queercomesthesun]

I just found out about Alexander Hamilton's love letters to a guy and I need to rant about it

The musical Hamilton omitted a lot of gay stuff.

Excerpts from his letters to Laurens

"I wish, my dear Laurens, it were in my power, by actions rather than words, to convince you that I love you. I shall only tell you that till you bade us adieu, I hardly knew the value you had taught my heart to set upon you."

"you should not have taken advantage of my sensibility, to steal into my affections without my consent"

"in spite of Schyler'sblack eyes, I have still a part for the public, and a part for you;so your impatience to have me married is misplaced; a strange cure by the way, as if after matrimony I was to be less devoted than I am now."

"I have gratified my feelings by lengthening out the only kind of intercourse now in my power with my friend" (I know this one is probably just meaning writing letters instead of talking but the word 'intercourse' makes it sound like he's like "I can't fuck you right now so I'll write you long letters instead"

there's also a bit where he tells laurens to find him a wife by advertising his size (lmao) but later goes on to say "do I want a wife? no," basically saying a wife would be an annoyance in his life, and saying he should take care how he employs a proxy. (he thinks getting a wife would just be a conduit for the affections that would otherwise be directed at laurens. *or at least that's how I'm interpreting it??*)

if this interests you please go read the letters and correct me if I'm interpreting any of this wrong

he gets upset when Laurens doesn't write him back and compares himself to a jealous lover.

#alexander hamilton

[marvelgeeklikestowrite]

Letters and lines quoted by Alex and Henry in their e-mails

Sense and Sensibility: “You want nothing but patience—or give it a more fascinating name, call it hope.”

Alexander Hamilton to Laurens: The truth is I am an unlucky honest man, that speak my sentiments to all and with emphasis. I say this to you because you know it and will not charge me with vanity. I hate Congress—I hate the army—I hate the world—I hate myself. The whole is a mass of fools and knaves; I could almost except you …

Hamilton said it better in a letter to Eliza: You engross my thoughts too entirely to allow me to think of any thing else—you not only employ my mind all day; but you intrude upon my sleep. I meet you in every dream—and when I wake I cannot close my eyes again for ruminating on your sweetness.

Allen Ginsberg to Peter Orlovsky—1958: Tho I long for the actual sunlight contact between us I miss you like a home. Shine back honey & think of me.

Henry James to Hendrik C. Andersen, 1899: May the terrific U.S.A. be meanwhile not a brute to you. I feel in you a confidence, dear Boy–which to show is a joy to me. My hopes and desires and sympathies right heartily and most firmly, go with you. So keep up your heart, and tell me, as it shapes itself, your (inevitably, I imagine, more or less weird) American story. May, at any rate, tutta quella gente be good to you.

Hamilton to Laurens: You should not have taken advantage of my sensibility to steal into my affections without my consent.

Dear Thisbe,

I wish there weren’t a wall.

Love, Pyramus

Vita Sackville-West to Virginia Woolf—1927: With me it is quite stark: I miss you even more than I could have believed; and I was prepared to miss you a good deal.

From Radclyffe Hall to Evguenia Souline, 1934: Darling—I wonder if you realize how much I am counting on your coming to England, how much it means to me—it means all the world, and indeed my body shall be all, all yours, as yours will be all, all mine, beloved.… And nothing will matter but just we two, we two longing loves at last come together.

Eleanor Roosevelt to Lorena Hickock—1933: I miss you greatly dear. The nicest time of the day is when I write to you. You have a stormier time than I do but I miss you as much, I think.… Please keep most of your heart in Washington as long as I’m here for most of mine is with you!

From Michelangelo to Tommaso Cavalieri, 1533: I know well that, at this hour, I could as easily forget your name as the food by which I live; nay, it were easier to forget the food, which only nourishes my body miserably, than your name, which nourishes both body and soul, filling the one and the other with such sweetness that neither weariness nor fear of death is felt by me while memory preserves you to my mind. Think, if the eyes could also enjoy their portion, in what condition I should find myself.

Richard Wagner to Eliza Wille, re: Ludwig II–1864 : It is true that I have my young king who genuinely adores me. You cannot form an idea of our relations. I recall one of the dreams of my youth. I once dreamed that Shakespeare was alive: that I really saw and spoke to him: I can never forget the impression that dream made on me. Then I would have wished to see Beethoven, though he was already dead. Something of the same kind must pass in the mind of this lovable man when with me. He says he can hardly believe that he really possesses me. None can read without astonishment, without enchantment, the letters he writes to me.

Wilfred owen to siegfried sassoon—1917:And you have fixed my Life—however short. You did not light me: I was always a mad comet; but you have fixed me. I spun round you a satellite for a month, but shall swing out soon, a dark star in the orbit where you will blaze.

Jean Cocteau to Jean Marais, 1939: Thank you from the bottom of my heart for having saved me. I was drowning and you threw yourself into the water without hesitation, without a backward look.

#alex claremont diaz #henry fox mountchristen windsor #alex x henry #red white and royal blue #rwrb alex #rwrb spoilers #rwrb henry #letters #love letters #idiots in love