#|| I'M MAD YOU WASTED MY TIME

[green-x-reaper]

|| Customer: How much is this worth?

D-Mun: Nothing. It says on there "not legal tender"

Customer: WELL WHEN HE BECOMES PRESIDENT AGAIN YOU'RE GONNA REGRET NOT TAKING MY MONEY

D-Mun: Mmkay. Have a good day.

#;;outworldy voices #;; out of character #tw: politics #|| YOU'RE MAD FOR COMING TO MY WORK AND GIVING ME THIS SHIT??? #|| I'M MAD YOU WASTED MY TIME #|| God i hope he gets arrested because mega rep oldies won't stfu about him

[skrunksthatwunk]

why the fuck did i write about birds this fucking sucks. i just found out birds only sleep for a few minutes at a time, hundreds of times a day. do you know what this is going to do to my structure? the logistics of their road trip? this is already like three days late and i've been fighting for my life to get A Plot Like Any Plot That Makes Sense out and now the birds fucking sleep for 5 minutes at a time.

#i should've just bailed and written another story when i had the chance #i'm not joking i've never fought a fiction piece this hard before. usually because i'm not writing for specific deadlines #and not a piece so big. and not one that's gonna be workshopped. i wanna blow them away but if things keep going the way they are everyone' #gonna tell me the pacing sucks and it feels pointless and the characters feel really confused. I KNOW. I KNOW THAT. FUCKK #i'm the type to do about 15 passes before i let someone see my 'first draft' and i'm just not gonna be able to do that if i want to get it #in time for a workshop. every day i delay is making things harder for my classmates y'know?? but i've been writing like 1k words a day #and it's still not done. GUHH #I DON'T LIKE WRITING THESE CHARACTERS THAT MUCH THEY'RE NOT FUNNY OR ENDEARING AND THAT'S MY LIKE. #MAIN SKILL AND VIBE WITH SHORT STORY DUOS. BUT NOOOO I HAD TO MAKE THEM DIFFERENT CUZ I WAS SICK OF DOING #THE SAME DYNAMIC OVER AND OVER. BITCH THIS IS YOUR FINAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TRIED AND TRUE GETS THE BLUE (RIBBON)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #head in my hands head in my hands head in my hands head in my hands head #going to work on it some more. fuckk #the voices aren't consistent and i'm trying to make it clear that this is toxic bird yuri and not a mother/daughter thing but the maternal #themes are kind of fucking with that but they're important and i don't wanna get rid of them but it feels forced cuz im forcing it #sigh. i'm gonna have to cut the yuri. these two don't work romantically at all. what a waste of time. #i watched the entirety of mnthly girls' nozaki-kun in the past two days while avoiding writing. did you know that? the lengths to which i'l #go? anyway it was fun i appreciate fellow creative agony and i uh never knew how they did screen tones and wasn't expecting that somehow #so i learned something new (hooray). anyway back to. fucking. bird story stuff #i'm so mad i hate these two (<- lying. just pissy) i hate this story (<- mostly exaggerating. throwing a tantrum) #eughhhhhh i just wanna lie on the floor and cryyyyyyyyyy (<- completely deadpan irl. not That upset just kind of sick of shit) #i'm so burnt out and it's only gonna get worse. ughh #why can't someone just come in and write it for meeeeeeeeeeheheuhhh (<- would hate that)

[chiropteracupola]

hey there, sawbones...

[why yes! the collaboration with @dxppercxdxver continues.]

#em draws stuff #flintlock fortress #team fortress 2 #wanted to practice ansel's face and then things got out of hand #this is the drawing that the most people have said odd things about since that time I drew william bush with his shirt off #anyway anyway. I have made some strategic edits to this one to make him more fun to draw and in turn done some ponderments of my own #for example we do have a plot shape that doesn't really make sense unless he had a very particular situation as regards gender. #but what if. what if he was butch. once again things are getting out of control in the ol' braincase. #(butch mad-scientist is a concept that never crossed my mind previously but there very well may be a character design in there...) #please do not adjust your set but do ignore me until the second layer of madness has passed. #and Certainly do zoom in if the fancy takes you because the number of textures I put in this one... ohhhhh the textures... #there's not a ton to play with and tumblr crunches it terribly but I do love to add all manner of tiny scars and such when I'm scribblin' #this one scanned Weirdly but it did mean I ended up with a Huge canvas and thus much more room to play around #by rights I've misspent my evening terribly but I can't look at this and say my time was at all wasted. em's drawn Another horrid surgeon!

[beastofwant]

guys can you help me understand the eldritch fucking logic my housing worker is on?

I have a hearing on Monday to terminate my lease on that day (Monday). My housing worker told me to, in court, ask it to be the 28th. I decided to ask my lawyer if this would be possible, and CC'd my worker on the email.

She is now claiming that she didn't ask me to change the termination date to the 28th. She is asking for the termination date to remain the same (the 12th, this upcoming Monday) but for me to move out on the 28th.

Does this make any sense to you guys

#mad scrawl #like am I just stupid. am I too low insight #am I confounded by my beastly fucking idiocy #or does 'terminate' not mean 'lease ends and you move out' #furthermore she knows all the ways this place has fucked me up and knows I'm living out of bags and knows this is a Nightmare Situation #but continues to just. push my move-out date #and not listen to me #my therapist caught her in gaslighting me #like. idk. it's insane #she's wasted my time so muchhhh

[peaceloveandahardcock]

male dominated interests and fields are actually incredibly fun and easy to progress in with a fair amount of practise and time. what the fuck

#when i tell you my dads woodworking hobbies and general affinity for tinkering was treated like forbidden dark magicks #i'm genuinely very mad to discover hobbies i could have been sharing with him and enjoying this entire time #things i have good aptitude in and could have gotten even better at with proper guidance #but no! because im a girl my brain is too feeble to comprehend these things or whatever #whats even more fucked is the hobbies i did develop interests in were treated as superficial and a waste of time also #fucked up. i hate men. ive been scammed and played for a fool #talking

[arcaneyouth]

"well at least I'll get good sleep tonight" they said, not getting good sleep tonight

#vent post #negative #doing really fucking bad mentally actually #cant turn my brain off about how mad i am about money #about wasting my fucking time meeting people and their dogs they want me to care for #not getting paid for the fucking meetings that have been half the reason i struggle making progress on my personal projects #undercharging myself to hell and back just for the chance to get A Job #only for them to fucking cancel because they dont respect my time #cancel a meet up 3 hours before. cancel the booking less than 24 hours after making it. make me drive an hour for fucking nothing #begging me to lower my prices which are already lower than everyone in the area #i dont want to work anymore i want it to stop #going to do a week of dog sitting for less than 200 fucking dollars because its the only god damn fucking job i can fuckkng get #and it wont even happen for another month! who knows! they could cancel too! #if they cancel I'm deleting my fucking rover account! #i cant earn money. im trying so hard for nothing. #i cant apply to normal jobs because my job anxiety is So Bad i NEED someone to be with me as i apply showing me how it works #i dont know what job i want because i dont want a job i want to go to bed #im so so tired of going 'this could work! i could make this work!' and it just never gets far enough to matter #after 3 years of no progress you know what! maybe i cant fucking make it work! #i dont want to keep trying with this stupid shit anymore #im not even gonna be able to afford christmas presents this year. #anyways. whats a girl gotta do to get some fuckinf sleep around here

[cadathecat]

screw that one anon, i love cada and you’re doing a public service posting cute cat pics here ❤️

thank! 💚

#i'm not even mad at that anon #it's just rich how the loadest & most accusatory of ppl are almost always the ones that behave #more or less the same as the ppl they claim to dislike. #genuinely don't know how wasting your time typing up something like that in unresponse to a simple cat post makes them any different. l #that's peak twitter behavior tbh #usually ignore that shit but if you get my car involved your gettin' chewed out #simple as that. #fr thank you though #they-bite #replies #asks

[helenhuntingdon]

Of course another lesbian show was cancelled

#I actually like the l word generation q a lot #though I'm not caught up but I'm not in america lol #Idk if it's the best recent lesbian or queer women show #but yeah when they're pretty much all cancelled that is definitely a thing #yeah they may do new things #but personally I don't watch shows with 1 season often if they may get cancelled on a cliffhanger or some shit #unless they are really good or obvs if they're meant to be 1 season #I'm not wasting time to watch an unfinished story to be mad at the potential #so I and many others won't watch the shows cancelled after 1 season either it's sad for those shows #sorry for you lesbians #and personally I feel like lately I'm watching a lot more (possible) queer men and that's not a conscious choice at all #but when I think about it it's like what current queer women show would I even watch??? so that makes sense now lmfao #911 obvs has a lesbian couple and station 19 has a queer woman couple and grey's has a queer couple and prob soon another #love them queer women lots but they're not all exactly leads #a league of their own obvs I forgot then it wasn't cancelled just will have 4 eps lmfao this is all so ridiculous #and I don't even want to watch new queer women shows rn I want to continue watchin those great ones till they end #gentleman jack most comes to mind as a show everyone loved even my str8 parents and yet????? #this is just a rant this is what this is here for SIGH

[buppypuppy]

heavily debating going to bed as soon as i get home from work.

#will it make me feel bad about wasting time. almost undoubtedly. but i dont want to be miserable at people any more thn i already have . #started crying so you know it's bad. #the cycle of someone unintentionally triggers my npd -> makes me feel mad at them -> i feel horrible about feeling mad at them because #i know its unreasonable but i cant fucking make myself not be -> get fucking depressed all day #its um. well . i'm miserable. #jane mary cry one tear

[constellationcrowned]

((I want everyone to keep something in mind in regards to this blog and this is going to sound like a general, common sense post (and in a way it is) but it's also hi I'm in your house, whispering into your ear, telling you to call ga//amestop and ask them if they have bat//tleto//ads---, blah blah, basically it's personal too:

With me, regardless of blog or content, both communication and engagement go hand in hand. Communication and engagement needs to go both ways.

I love posting and reblogging memes and calls and will continue to do so but you folks---old mutual or new mutual doesn't matter---need to take the initiative yourself sometimes too. Be enthusiastic. Be spontaneous. Be proactive. I don't want to ask people to write with me all of the damn time nor do I want to chase after people all of the time because if I have to do that constantly over and over again it starts feeling incredibly one sided even when it isn't (because ofc people have lives, specific interests, anxiety, and whatever else which are all things that I deal with myself and I understand how that can stop someone from doing something, but that's how it feels especially over an extended period of time) and I don't need to explain how disheartening and draining that can be.

My seeming to interact with only one person---and for both of my blogs it's @magioffire and we all know that---it's not because we're being stuck up, elitist or whatever inane and incorrect term people want to throw at our feet it's because we engage and communicate. The give and take between us (both from an ic and ooc standpoint) never feels imbalanced or even transactional (I really hate using that word but, again I gotta stress this, that's how this makes me feel) and I have never felt like I needed to chase them down for an interaction or had to fight for a scrap of their time---which feels like a feat bc Blair has a lot of people scrambling at their door---and I cannot tell you how huge that is. That sounds like a huge sweeping thing to say, I know, but I mean it in all of the little ways too. I could post some stupid bullshit on here; not a starter or a meme just a little random muse thought or observation, and 100% of the time here comes Blair telling me what they think or adding on to it or just...whatever. They're here for both me and my muses for the big and small things, whenever I've asked and, more often than not, when I haven't (or couldn't) and that's incredibly important. It's that kind of stuff that makes what we have special and that's putting it super lightly. And yes, our relationship both as friends and as writers has developed over a long time, and we did click immediately that's true, but there's never been any doubt to cast upon the work and effort both of us have put forth.

And this post isn't to say that I'm demanding constant or immediate attention from you all---because, again, we all have lives, health issues, etc, etc, and all of that takes precedence over a hobby as I've said before and will say again and again---but....put some effort into it when you have the capability. Yes, like the calls that I post or send a meme in, absolutely, but also message me on your own and ask a question or shoot a muse a random prompt or just @ me in a post. Show me some enthusiasm and engagement on your end because right now it feels like I'm doing all the work all of the time and that's tiring. I'm tired of handing stuff to people all of the time---I'll keep doing it, obviously, because I need and want to engage on my end and love throwing stuff at people and providing opportunities---all I'm asking for is understanding and reciprocation.

If you can't reciprocate for whatever reason? Tell me.

If you're unsure about something, no matter what that something is? Tell me.

If you need help or even a specific kind of accommodation in order for us to start interacting or continue interacting? Tell me.

Don't just assume that I don't want to write with you or that you can't ask me for things. Don't assume that I'm being a snob or whatever else just because I seem to be paying attention to a certain mun full time because do you know what that actually is? That's friendship. That's effort. That's me giving back what I've been given. That's me reciprocating the enthusiasm, love and creativity that I've been handed, nothing more. There's nothing unobtainable or gatekeep-y about that either, you just need to be earnest and forthcoming with me and I can assure you that I'll return the favor in kind.))

#;;ooc: mun muttering #long post #this isn't a guilt trip of any sort (it doesn't even feel right calling it a vent tbh) I'm just being earnest in my point here #I'm tired of constantly pulling teeth (and this is an issue for both old and new mutuals rather than one over the other) #it just....doesn't feel good. there shouldn't be this much of a struggle for *any* of us #and are we all going to end up on the same level as what I have with Blair? No absolutely not and that's not what I'm asking for #the difference between them and you all is the lack of struggle and just...the earnestness to put it mildly #I'm honestly tired of people trying to give me shit for writing w/ them so much because??? why wouldn't I??? #getting mad because I'm having a blast with someone who wants to write with me and actually does/tells me? that's nothing to be jealous of! #in fact you should strive for it yourself!! you could have it all too if you just crawled out of your own hole and thought for a second #I am incredibly fucking lucky and blessed to write with Blair; they've greatly influenced me both as a person and as a writer; #and every day I return that kindness and attention with more (hopefully) great content regardless of what or who we're writing #because they do the exact same thing for me every single day and that should be celebrated #stop wasting time trying to pit people against each other or feeling left out and actually step in yourself #I've said this before and I'll say it again: the main thing holding you back from interacting with me is you #so think about it and just...get over whatever is telling you that you can't and just do the fuckin thing. come have fun

[domesticmail]

how do you self-soothe

#my google search be like #i locked myself in the bathroom because there's nowhere else private in this apt and i don't think rudy has anywhere to be until 10:30 #and like if he's going to be super upset and take it out on me then i'm just going to do my best to avoid him #because atp i don't want to be hurt #i made a mistake this morning and overreacted to a joke #it's been three hours and he's still so mad he won't say anything to me unless i initiate #and even then it's just him yelling at me #asked if he was leaving earlier #and he RAGED at me for being 'controlling' #like dude you have a consistent pattern of leaving for who knows how fucking long when you're upset #i am not trying to stop you from leaving. i'm trying to understand if you're leaving FOREVER #but hey got it. i will not ask if you're leaving again. my fucking bad. #i asked why he thought it was ok to treat me this way and he said #'i never said it was okay. i can treat you however i want. you decide whether or not to tolerate it' #so now i'm in the bathroom. because i have no privacy otherwise #and honestly if he wants me away that bad? fine! great! #why the fuck would i waste my time wanting to be around you when you yourself admit you clearly don't want to be around me #i struggle with stuff like this because i feel betrayed when we don't work out an issue instantly. it feels like he is going out of his way #to make this painful for me #but i know he's not. that's my angry brain talking. #he has his own feelings and needs to be given space for them when he asks (like i'm doing now! yay me!) #it doesn't mean the world is going to blow up or my life is over #it means i probably need to leave him alone all day today

[13eyond13]

how did I forgor Mad Max: Fury Road (2015) when I had to list my favourite movies here recently

#seriously if you haven't seen it it's a ridiculous piece of work #and I can't believe it's only 120 minutes long #ok let me be a nerd about this movie for a minute: #it was like cooking in the director's brain for literal decades and that's why it has an insane amount of worldbuilding built in #you don't have to see the previous 3 mad max movies to somehow also understand this world and everything that's going on #and yet it barely takes any time to sit you through long boring exposition chunks? #Like it RESPECTS the audience's intelligence enough to be like 'you guys are smart you will figure it out now let's get moving' #NOTHING is wasted in this movie and you pick up new cool things every time you watch #almost all of it was done practically including the vehicles and stunts INCLUDING stuff like the pole cats on the cars in the final act #in order to make the cars and props they had to build most things from a scrap yard instead of running to home depot for new parts #Every single vehicle and character down to the smallest war boy had their own backstory they made up #the only other movie I feel like i can compare this wonderful weirdness to is maybe the first 3 lotr movies #In terms of the insane work that went into it behind the scenes and the dedication to making the world come alive with so much artistry #and practical effects and years of worldbuilding and writing and the bizarre ways they had the crews bond behind the scenes #also fun fact: the director was also the guy behind Babe the pig movie and Happy Feet hahaha he's a very eclectic director to say the least #anyways now every time I see a movie that's 2.5+ hours long I'm like if Mad Max FR could be 120 mins long why can't YOU be 120 min long? #Like sorry but there's no excuse anymore. just simply get better at telling the story in 2 hours or less my guys #p

[b4kuch1n]

4, 11 and 13 for the ask game, pls! Thank you and have a good day!

ask game here!

4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw

let's see we can list more of this! I draw birds and wings a decent amount and still every time I draw that I still have to look up one of those wing anatomy charts. I find I'm not well practiced with transparent materials yet, but I hope to get better at that in time. I'd like to get better at figuring out how to lay down a nature scene quickly too, I love to work with that in theory but in practice every time I draw that kind of background I had to stare at like eighty tabs of refs the whole way through. I'm such a city kid through and through...

I'm mostly blessed to not have to worry about hands and shoes too much, I usually have an okay time with them, but I do have days I call bad hand days and bad shoe days the way folks have bad hair days. sometimes even things I like drawing and usually have a good time with don't come out right! just gotta stand up and do something else for a bit

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what

absolutely! especially nowadays. I rotate between my current favourite albums and youtube videos/stream VODs. the most consistent caveat is I cannot listen to anything with a plot. that will distract me way too much to draw at the same time.

I also call my friends and hang out in vc while drawing sometimes! especially if I really need to get something done. this is honestly the only way to subject me to new medias I don't know about

13. A creator who you admire but whose work isn't your thing

ahh this is hard... I usually don't look too hard into things I don't actively care about. I guess I'd say the Phong Dương comic team, they're immensely talented people who practically carried Vietnamese comic on their back for a while, and I love Thành Phong's inking style, I just... can't read their comics. for some reasons. they just flow off the back of my skull! I still have all three volumes of Long Thần Tướng currently out on my shelf, but every time I try reading them they just don't stick. I'm honestly kinda mad abt this lol

#ask #bakuspeech #artist ask #thank you for the ask! #once again I am an intensely pleasure-oriented person lol. so I usually don't draw things I don't somewhat enjoy drawing #at most I suffer through drawing some objects that are necessary to the piece but I don't draw by themselves usually #but even those are often not hard to draw. just fiddly #the rest of art is a perfectly meshed cacophony of both joy and abject agony #say ''I enjoy drawing'' feels misleading. I do! but that's not even the half of it. drawing's like breathing to me #if breathing is vastly more costly and takes up much more focus and time. and also sometimes makes you mad #I enjoy drawing yeah. but more importantly I become kinda wrong if I don't draw. like I go bad like milk or produce #so yeah I'm already in This State just by drawing. might as well not make it hard for myself yknow #but also! I do genuinely think being indulgent is hugely important to art!! you need to be decadent and wasteful #and flippant and extremely selfish in your art. it's vital to your health #especially if you do art for a living. you need a space where you can be as indulgent as possible. #that's really my whole art philosophy lol. one it is always better to do art than not to do art. #two if your art is indulgent and self-entitled it inherently has value already. because it's serving something #<- once again rambling about how everyone should do some art #like. when I say ''drawing is like breathing to me'' I'm not lamenting the requirement #I think making funny shapes and funny noises is integral to being human. artists are not separate from humans #drawing well is overrated singing well is overrated. make shape now make noise now. for your health #this has been a PSA. thank u for the ask! fjshdfkdjsfh

[niishi]

I truly think one of my biggest pet peeves is when you ask someone for details on something and they're as vague as humanly possible. I hate vagueness. I hate people talking AT me with zero context and making me ask 1000000 questions so I can understand. when they could just tell me from the start and be helpful and not make communicating a stressful challenging game. there's just some people, and it's so common too, who want to make communicating so hard. it's like a narcissistic game. I have really, zero energy for that kind of thing. it's really frustrating like damn just fucking be helpful or don't talk to me at all.

#its literally bully energy #like lets be vague abd make you keep asking questions #that I'll vaguely answer #until youre super frustrated #and then im gon a get mad at you for being frustrated #even though i intentionally orchestrated this situation #and did everything in my power to upset you #and wasnt helpful or clear for even a second and wasted all your time #genuinely tired of this! #give me context right off the bat #be helpful #or literally die #I'm sick of it #if i ask you a 'where' question #answer me with a destination #not a bunch of random details that give me absolutely no answer to my question

[redysetdare]

It's funny how someone can say "I've reached a point where I'm tired of explaining to people who purposefully refuse to listen why what they're doing is harmful" and people will purposefully misread it and respond with "BUT WHAT ABOUT THE PPL WHO ARE GENUINELY IGNORANT??? WHAT ABOUT THE PEOPLE WHO DON'T KNOW??? YOU ARE BEING UNREASONABLE!!!"

Like wow you're exactly who i am talking about, good job!

#text #this is in response to the fact i STILL get people being like 'why are you being an asshole to people who don't know misgendering is bad' #like bro...you cannot be this dense #i shouldn't have to put a million disclaimers about who im talking about when its clear as day what im sick of #'you shouldn't be mad at ppl being transphobic you havent given them a chance' they say to the trans person who has given too many chances #i'm the most patient person when it comes to this shit when i get mad its because I've reached a breaking point #my patience and benefit of the doubt goes way farther than it should as is and i deserve to get pissed when it is taken for granted #people who dont listen do not deserve my patience. they do not deserve my understanding #they have refused to understand me so now they are facing the consequences. simple as that #i'm taking back the time they have already wasted #no reblog because im not in the mood to have those same ppl on this post crying about how unfair i am

[m--bloop]

First time going outside since my dog died and I went out with my friend to walk her dog with her. She’s the only person I’ve told about Belle so far and like... no I didn’t really want to talk about what happened because I’m not really ready yet but at the same time ngl I kind of felt a certain way because she was just talking about all the guys she’s been hooking up with the past few weeks and how upset she is about her ex lol

#i know i'm being selfish #but like tbh i don't care about these random tinder guys #they sound like douchebags #I'M SELFISH I KNOW WHATEVER #also just me being annoying because it's like no i don't want to talk about my thing #but can you talk about something else #bc this is making me mad in a different way #like why are you wasting your time on these jerks #txt