#[excuse me while I go off to cry]

[nekky-nek]

Will I ever recover from Xemnas saying to be human must take incredible strength? No. No I will not.

#xemnas #kingdom hearts #kh #ansem and xemnas send offs had me feeling for very different reasons #saying goodbye to ansem and the journey from innocence to adulthood #xemnas acknowledging being a human is hard but how incredibly strong we are to keep going #excuse me while i lie down and cry

[fisheito]

Imagine you have to set up yakumo's enclosure for the next couple months. How do you set it up and what do you put in there?

oh NO.! THE PROPPHECY HAS BEenm FUFILLED

i am standing in my room, leggies rooted to the floor. i am in shock .frozen and i have no idea how to proceed. there is a perpetual pathetically sobbing serpent under my blankie.

#stares at the camera and stage whispers #i can't be responsible for another living creature. i can't. or . er. i can. but I SHOULDN'T #i'll have to suppress every violent urge in my body to keep this thing alive for several months #i CANNOT fling him out the window. i WILL NOT grab his entire face and squeeze. I SHALL NOT chew on his tail. #now i'm reminded of that post where it's a pretty princess cage on the floor and comments go [that aint big enough for a dog] #and OP is all [it's not FOR a dog 😀] #yeah. that's me right now imagining a full grown yakumo in a cage by my bedside #SO FOR EASE OF MY IMAGINATION AND TO increase yaku's chance of surviving these next months #i'm going to try real hard to imagine him exclusively in pocket snake form (scrunches up my face in valiant effort) #his enclosure (crib?!?!) is flanked on all sides by eiden plushies #since yaku is an adult there is a smaller chance of him suffocating on eiden in his sleep. wait. actually #arranges the eiden walls to give some pockets of air. i don't trust him. he WILL suffocate on eiden given the opportunity #he gets one of those tiny dollhouse cooking sets for enrichment LOL #or i'll give him a bunch of those make-your-own gummy kits with elaborate setups and tiny egg gummies #crying yaku is the excuse i need to finally get a humidifier #i can survive not misting myself.. usually... but yaku will cry himself into dehydration. it's misting time #he gets an entire alcove closed off in the corner with his basic needs met. i cannot perceive #he can lurk in privacy as much as he wants. there are at least TWO hot rocks in there with garukaru's faces painted on em #there is a duplicate open-space alcove next to it for when he actually wants something from me LOL #is he a free range snake? can i take him to a bunch of restaurants and shove food into my sleeve for him? he wants to sample the delights.. #tempted to put a bell on him just so if he gets loose in the basement i'll know to fish him out #but he's pretty cautious... he won't get into any fatal situations in the house right? ...does he know how to swim?! #at least one day is reserved for testing yaku's swimming capabilities. #he is going into the bathtub while it has a film of water. gonna test his traction. i hope i won't get panic-strangled #asks

[callsign-magnolia]

You know what sucks? Realizing I'm not reading as much as I used to and I haven't written anything in 2 weeks. I'm slowly falling out of this fandom and I don't want to!

#Excuse me while i go cry #I really enjoy this fandom #but I'm slowly falling off #topgun maverick

[chaotic-kitty]

Haha…ha. That’s funny 🥹🥹🥲

#excuse me while I go cry #really wonder what calendar and passage of time y’all are working off of………..it’s been a hell of a long week since the last story update /hj #fictif #fictif games #fictif last legacy #fictif ftlog #fictifgames

[darth-hader]

i love how in almost every post online we're all collectively begging bill hader to give nohobal the happy ending they both deserve

#despite knowing deep down that it's not happening #not with antony and bill unintentionally confirming that hank dies sometime during this season in that interview about the hank spin-off #excuse me while i go cry in the corner #barry hbo #nohobal #barry season 4 hype

[welcometogrouchland]

I will feel so tired that it's like my atoms are coming undone and I'm being made unreal...and then I will have a little chocolate treat and for 15 minutes I am whole and present again. Then the horrors

#ramblings of a lunatic #i remember feeling like this at the peak of my burnout and fatigue before #(also the same burnout and fatigue that took my interests and creativity and ground them into dust) #so I've concluded that i will just try and make it through the next two days as best i can (I GET FANCY RESTAURANT FOOD ON WEDNESDAY) #and then I'll just try to let my mental and physical health recuperate while finding excuses to hang w/ friends #cause that'll stave off thr madness of isolation #i wanna watch my shows and movies too and I'll finally be able to w/o guilt after the last exam :cries: #anyway. if you've noticed an uptick in me just sayin shit recently (in a way that may or may not be cause for concern) #it's bc I'm so close to getting out of the mines that having to wait any longer is driving me clinically insane #i wanna downplay the problem bc it's truly not that big a deal in some ways #but then i remembered that this is a) the longest I've gone w/o seeing my pals in like. nearly a month #and I've been at home doing the same stuff everyday for nearly a month too #and also IT'S THE FINAL EXAM I'M EVER GONNA DO BEFORE COLLEGE. IT'S A BIG DEAL MAN #so actually. yes I'm a bit of a drama queen but my slice of life problems have a place for mediation and bemoaning #but it's fine. bc we're gonna kill it #I'm gonna do sooooooo good on this test (<- manifesting) #it's. a little high pressure bc the last time i did a test for this subject (that I'm generally very good at) i majorly beefed it #but I've learned since then and I'm hoping. praying. also working hard but mostly hoping and praying #anyway. I gotta sleep soon bc i got so little sleep last night bc of the heat that i almost started crying at breakfast #LET'S GO LESBIANS (the lesbians are me. it's just me talking into a hall of mirrors)

[kingcunny]

I meant the gown rhaenys wears in those two scenes are the same despite being years apart (tho now i'm not sure), not that it's the same alicent or aemma wear. But viserys making all of them wear the same gown sent me 🤣 plot twist, it was alyssa's gown

after i answered that i was like wait…. i dont think thats what they meant 😭 (it IS the same gown btw! you can see the same pattern in the fabric. but in ep 9 rhaenys isnt wearing the robe(?) over it)

PLLEWASEEEE SHFVVDB??? viserys and his insane mommy issues…. he sees alicent in her dead moms dress and is like this isnt doing anything for me…… but you know what Would….?

#vis like will u put on my dead moms lingerie and call me mean names while i cry and jerk off 🥺 #aemma would be uncomfortable with it but alicent JUMPS at the excuse to berate her stupid worthless husband #he tells rhaenys hell marry laena if she puts on one of alyssas gowns and lets him watch while she fucks corlys #corlys wouldve gone for it but rhaenys said no :/ #i said i was gonna go to bed early tonight and now look at what im doing #asks

[arachnidiots-a]

goodness gracious where do i even start. to say i'm obsessed with your portrayals would be SEVERELY understating it. i love to write with you because you give so much voice to your characters and every reply i get from you always, ALWAYS knocks me on my ass. i am so incredibly blessed to have gotten to explore the dynamics we have together, and don't even get me STARTED on the bingo board. (this is turning into a birdie appreciation ask) i just adore you so much!! and i adore your characters and how you write them!!!!!!! xoxo

tell me your honest opinion of my portrayal

head in HANDS. what am i supposed to say to this coma. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY. :( i love you

:( coma what the heck . i am so

#this may be a birdie appreciation post but this is a coma appreciation blog #I love you so so dearly #you’re so CREATIVE AND the sheer talent you have for being able to juggle so many muses and make them all so distinct #for their voices to stand out??? #GOSH. #excuse me while i go off and cry im gonna reread this and cry #☺ : inquire within — asks

[loverofartandgaypeople]

LIKE I JUST NEED TO SEE THE BYERS HOPPER FAMILY ACTUALLY FUNCTION AS A FAMILY. LIKE I WANT SIBLING MOMENTS BETWEEN JANE AND WILL AND JONATHAN AND I WANT MOMENTS BETWEEN HOPPER AND WILL AND I WANT MIKE TO BASICALLY BE EL'S FAMILY AGAIN (HE ALWAYS WAS) I NEED A PLATONIC FAMILIAL BOND TO BE ESTABLISHED BETWEEN EL AND MIKE. I NEED TO SEE SMILE AND BE HAPPY FOR THEM WHEN SHE SEES BYLER INTERACT AS A COUPLE. I NEED HER TO HUG THEM AND SAY "I'M SO GLAD YOU GUYS ARE OKAY" AND I NEED THEM TO BOTH SAY "ME TOO" BECAUSE THEY HAVE, AND ALWAYS WILL BE...HER FAMILY. I NEED MOTHER DAUGHTER MOMENTS BETWEEN JOYCE AND EL AND I NEED ALL THE JANCY BYLER PARALLELS. I NEED THEM ALL MORE THAN I NEED WATER AND OXYGEN. I ALSO NEED A PARALLEL TO THE SCENE WHERE NANCY AND JONATHAN WAKE UP AND THEY'RE LATE AND JONATHAN RUSHING TO GO TO HIS JOB AND NANCY RUNNING OUT THE BACK DOOR. YEAH I REALLY NEED THAT PARALLEL WITH BYLER. THE ENERGY JUST MATCHES. ALSO LITERALLY ANY JANCY SCENE EVER BASICALLY. ESPECIALLY THE GETTING MURRAYED SCENE.

I NEED BYLER TO GO ON A REAL DATE. I NEED THEM TO KISS EACH OTHER, I NEED TO SEE THEM INTERACT AND FUNCTION AS A OLDER ROMANTIC COUPLE. I NEED EL TO FIGURE OUT HER OWN PERSONAL STYLE AND BECOME HER OWN PERSON. I NEED A EL MAKEOVER SEQUENCE WITH THE WORDS IN THE BACKGROUND "NOT HOPPER, NOT MIKE...YOU." AND A SHES THE MAN REFERENCE WITH JOYCE SAYING "NOW PRESENTING...THE NEW, NOT IMPROVED...JANE HOPPER! AND SHE WALKS IN LOOKING SO DIFFERENT AND SO MUCH MORE CONFIDENT AND BEAUTIFUL AND HER BROTHERS AND HOPPER ARE JUST STANDING THERE SHOCKED. AND MIKE AND HOPPER ARE PROUD OF HER. SO IS JOYCE.

#byler #byler st5 #stranger things s5 #byers hopper family #byers hopper siblings #el is a independent WOMAN #my babies are gonna be SEVENTEEN YEARS OLD OMG BYLER IS NOW THE SAME AGE AS JANCY USED TO BE I'M LITERALLY CRYING SOBBING #ROLLING ON THE FLOOR EATING GLASS AND CRYING A WATER FALL AND DIGESTING DIRT AND BREAKING GLASS #AND SCREAMING 10000 DECIBELS HIGHER THAN I EVER HAVE IN MY ENTIRE FUCKING LIFE #LIKE THE SHEER AMOUNT OF INTIMACY WE'LL GET FROM BYLER NOW IS GENUINELY SO HARD TO FUCKING FATHOM #LIKE THE JANCY SCENES?????? AND THE FACT THAT BYLER IS GOING TO GET THE SAME TREATMENT???? IS MAKING ME ILL #LIKE IT'S GOING TO BE SO BEAUTIFUL AND CUTE AND ADOLESCENT AND GAY AND NORMAL AND THE FACT THAT THERE SCENES ARE GOING TO BE TREATED #JUST LIKE JANCY'S IS SO FUCKING CRAZY TO THINK ABOUT #LIKE EXCUSE ME WHILE I JUMP OFF OF THIS FUCKING CLIFF #stranger things

[theinfinitedivides]

as impossible as nearly all of these fight scenes are i'm so glad they let Shah Rukh be unhinged here as a treat. it's what he deserves

#film: pathaan #pathaan #local gay watches Pathaan (and loses their sh*t while doing so).txt #local gay watches Bollywood.txt #i got distracted by a YouTube notification and then spent ten minutes trying catch glimpses of him at someone's wedding irl #another ten minutes crying about how soft he looked and how if i was there and he and Gauri were standing next to me #i would either faint or throw up #and then the last ten minutes were spent listening to Ghungroo and JJS and realizing there are more (intentional?) references to those #in Pathaan. i have no excuse but that's alright we'll keep going #anyway this post was brought to you by my manic pixie dream girl sliding down the blades of a helicopter and landing in a roll #to one knee only to shoot and have perfect aim. my weak ass joints could never but then again i doubt his can either #they are held together by sheer determination and his off-the-chart levels of hotness full stop send tweet

[storiedhistories]

Anonymous asked: Atreus - Has your father ever told you of his first wife? What of his daughter?

Send My Muse Anons About Their Relationships // Accepting!

The question comes as something of a surprise.  He thought back to the time after they had scattered Mother's ashes, after the two of them had finally started to figure out how to be a FAMILY without her. His father had told him that he was a god, the first time he had really said much about his past.

Atreus knew that it was......painful for his dad to talk about his time in his homeland, but there had been one night, when they'd been staying warm around the fire, enjoying a moment of companionable silence, that his father had spoken first, telling him more about what had happened to bring him to this land.  He wasn't naïve enough to believe his dad had told him everything about his past, but he had mentioned, at least briefly, that he had had a family before, that it was their deaths had started the killing spree that had led him to kill his own father.

"He didn't tell me much, but I know that his first wife's name was Lysandra....., and that I had a sister named Calliope."  His father had sounded so sad when he talked about them, and Atreus had been able to FEEL his regret.  The sadness and pain that had washed over him as his dad had talked...., it was different than how he felt when Kratos talked about Faye.  

"I hope he'll tell me more someday."  He didn't want to make his father sad, or force him to relive his past if he didn't want to....., but he wanted to know more about his dad, so he could TALK to him, the way they'd finally started to be able to.

#✦ General || Anonymous ✦ Behind closed doors #✦ Atreus || Answered ✦ I don't want to fight anyone. I just want answers. #✦ Atreus || IC ✦ The giants called me Loki #[he has a lot of feelings] #[he wants to know more about his dad because he wants to know his DAD] #[but he also doesn't want Kratos to be sad] #[I ALSO have a lot of feelings about Lysandra and Calliope] #[excuse me while I go off to cry] #✦ Atreus || Headcanon ✦ My story doesn't end hiding in these woods

[wild-at-mind]

Maybe I will get top surgery purely to avoid dealing with mammogram appointments in whatever state the NHS is in by the time I reach the age to get them!!

#booked a cervical smear months ago it was meant to be in november #they #moved the appointment twice and then cancelled on the day #no automatic reschedule so i rang for a new one within the week #receptionist said there was nothing available within the 6 weeks or so her diary went up to so i would have to wait a few weeks #before ringing again so naturally i forgot for a while #now today i get a fucking letter saying 'we knooooow you don't wanna get it cause you're scard and a big baby!!! ' #and 'let us know if you want to be removed from the screening register!' #and i'm like FFS I TRIED TO GET ONE #it really pissed me off becuase i'm unwell and feeling shitty about myself at the moment #like you try and advocate for your own health and fall back at every turn and hte NHS treats you like you're incapable #and to be really clear i'm not calling anyone who has real and valid reasons for not wanted a smear test babies #absolutely not but what in my case it was NOT a case of not wanting to get one #also i acknowledge that having the NHS at all is a privilege please don't lecture me i beg you please #how much do i have to self flagellate first before i complain about the NHS to make certain americans happy #now if you'll excuse me i have to go and cry in frustration

[homosexual-fast-dancer]

Just want to tell you how much I adore you!! Mostly since I was so very nervous about being into shipping myself with my comfort characters and seeing how proudly you and a bunch of others do aswell made me realize it’s not a weird thing and— ahdjdjdjd thank you so much!! 🥹💞

I-I-I-I

I never thought once in my life that me being interested in characters and wanting to date them would have this kinda impact on someone else

Really I should be thanking you for making my day- no my entire week

Although please never be hesitant to self ship with a character you like, cause I assure you they are head-over-heels smitten for you too <3

#also like please dm me off anon i wanna follow youuuu #sweet anon best anon #now excuse me while i go ugly cry- #thank you for the ask! #sincerely anonymous

[valpuduzz]

god im supposed to be working on a project but i think this is a venty kind of night. i dont feel good at all. im sorry (anything suicidal that im mentioning isnt meant to be taken seriously btw, im just going through it)

#the meowing of a cat 🐱 #vent #i dont think i want to go to DC anymore for the con. but i also dont want to go to mexico. and i rlly dont want a job #i dont want to hang out with anyone i dont want to see anyone i want to be left alone. i want to rot in my room #i just wanna shrivel up and die and i want to kill myself #i really really want to kill myself #i really really really want to kill myself #it's really hard to cry. i feel empty and on edge and like ive been put into this earth to suffer and yet i cant cry #and oh yeah here we go. crush problems once again. im sorry my dear mutuals #i love him so much i love him i love him but. i have no right to love him. i wish my feelings never latched on to him like this #i barely talk to him except when we voice call in the server im in. i dont have the right to love him like this #i kinda just wish he could straight up just tell me he hates me so i could finally have peace of mind. #i wish i knew how to talk to him. i wish i wish i wish. but i cant. because my desperation is so obvious and i'll come off as a creep #the last thing i want to do is make him uncomfortable #i think what hurts the most is that no matter how many times i tell him he's my friend and that i love him he wont know #the extent of my feelings for him. im jealous of his close friends because i know i'll never be close or special to him #because i dont know how #i already told him how i felt a while ago in march. and you cant confess to someone again #one time is okay. two times is being much too forceful and desperate #ive been trying so so so so fucking hard to get over these feelings. he's just a fucking crush ive only know for like three months #and yet it fucking hurts so fucking bad i fucking hate it i hate that my brain has put aside the friends who actually care about me #for a crush who even though is a dear friend of mine isnt as close to me as the other people in my life #genuinely think i should kill myself for this and im not lying #i hate this so much i hate that ive been abandoning my friends for him. but i love him so much i love him so fucking much #and i cant just randomly say that out of nowhere because he's gonna know im still in love with him and he'll hate me for forcing him #my biggest fear is he forces himself to like me back. i'd never forgive myself #im so sorry to my friends but this crush shit has taken over my mind and it's not good and it's toxic and i hate it #i wish i had an excuse to leave his life but that would mean he'd think he did nothing wrong when he did nothing to me #the only person to blame in this situation is me myself and i #fuck i reached tag limit OOPS

[thegenderfluidace]

Oh my gosh someone needs to remove my very being from my body cause right now it is my personal flesh prison hell, my senses are so outta wack rn I am going to commit a crime everything is awful, someone needs to do it before I peel all my skin off in a desperate attempt to do so

#ace rambles #rant #genuinely what the frick am I supposed to do???!? #like I am actually losing it rn #gonna have a breakdown #gonna scream #gonna scratch off all my skin and flesh and everything until I am nothing #void needs to eat me rn #I just need to not exist rn please I am going to scream and cry and akcnkdndnsnsm #dying dying dying dying #excuse me while I try and distract myself so I can ignore it and feel less #or something idk everything is awful rn

[queeranddepraved]

Ouch ouch ouch ouch ouch

#holy fuck #well that ripped my fucking heart out #excuse me while i go find a fucking cliff to jump off of #my heart hurts so much #but i am at my parents and cannot cry #i am about to cry though #ouch ouch ouch #instant change in mood #i feel so not okay