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[glystenangel]

the dark of night & the light of day✨

ServiceDom&General!Gojo x PillowPrincess&Afab!Reader (Historical AU)

Series Summary: getou isn't the caring type, but he can be for you

Chapters: 1/3

Chapter Summary: getou is offered a gift by one of his soliders, and he takes it

Status: Completed

Tags/Warnings: 18+ MDNI, getou may be a bit ooc but idrc, getou telling you what to do all the time, GETOUS POV (for the fellow bis i luv u), not too lemony this chapter but next ones are s o u r, d/s, stockholm syndrome, master/servant kink, possessiveness & jealousy, getou being down bad w/o realizing or having any reason to be lmao

~1.4k

thanks for reading and enjoy<3

Ch. 1 - Hate & Sleeplessness

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Getou despised you, or at least, he tried very hard to.

It was an exhaustive effort because as much as he truly wanted to, you needed him. So he couldn’t.

You had been scooped up by one of his henchmen from a small village they had been instructed to exterminate, and he had presented you to the unamused general as a presumed gift.

At first glance, he thought you were, for a lack of a better description, startlingly pretty. Your eyes were glossy with fear and uncertainty, cheeks stained with streaks of saline. The hue of your eyes, though diluted with the redness that only comes from crying, contained an intensity he had never seen before. Evidence of your sorrow did little to hide your masterfully crafted facial features and the enticing shape of your body underneath your dress. With such unique beauty, Getou could comprehend the reasoning behind your capture regardless of the fact that he didn’t condone it. This supposed present was completely unnecessary as a token of loyalty. Clearly the man was hoping to have you for himself after Getou would surely reject you. There was a rumor circulating amongst his forces that Getou was numb to emotions like lust or love, due to his lack of company and insistence upon solitude.

Frankly, he didn’t care what would happen to you, but he decided to accept the gift as a punitive measure for the soldier to simply follow his orders as told. That was all, nothing more. It had nothing to do with the terrified and imploring look on your face, or the way your bottom lip wobbled with obvious terror.

Not knowing what to do with you, Getou settled on assigning you as his personal maid.

In spite of your best efforts, every time you do something, you’re so inconceivably useless that he is forced to help you. When you burn your hand while cooking him lunch, he tsks and nudges you aside to save whatever concoction you started. When he sees you folding his clothes in the less than precise shapes he likes, he makes you sit down and does it himself as he irritably explains to you how it’s done.

As you live alongside the powerful commander, he becomes more and more annoyed by your inability to learn or successfully do any tasks given to you. The only thing you seem to have picked up is how to address him, by name or his title as your master.

He assumes you were some kind of nobility, based on the softness of your hands and lack of tolerance for any violence you witness his troops carrying out for missions or training.

So, he does his best to keep you out of the way. You would be of no use to him crying and fretting over military matters.

Still, he has half a mind to kill you whenever your seemingly innate uselessness reveals itself. But every time you applaud and make impressed comments of approval on how easily he does things, the murderous rage simmers down to a roll of his eyes and a reluctant hand off of the remaining chores. That is, if he has enough confidence that you can perform them yourself after watching him. 

Of course, that paper thin confidence dissipates as soon as you begin to take over the task and he has to take it back. 

Over the next few months, he hovers over you as you attempt to work, tapping on your wrist from behind as if he were trying to puppeteer your body into fulfilling the proper steps to duties like cleaning dishes or shaving his sideburns. The need to do everything for you becomes natural, and he can’t help but notice that your presence at his side isn’t as annoying as he thought it would be.

Once you start picking up on your responsibilities, all Getou has to do is make minute, disapproving shakes of his head to correct you. Sometimes, he can even leave you to your own devices.

Eventually when you familiarize yourself with the entire headquarters and the assistance he needs while commanding an army, he’s almost proud of you.

Day after day, he watches you take care of small tasks and errands. It becomes a regular sight.

Today when he finds you hanging laundry, your back is to him as you clip cloth to the taut curves of rope stretched across the eastern yard of his headquarters. Sheets of pristine, white cotton from the soldiers’ quarters surround you, and farther back he can see spotless uniforms being hung on rope closer to the walls enclosing his entire operation.

You’re humming to yourself, some old children’s song with a fleeting melody that he vaguely recognizes, stepping among the tall woven baskets at your feet and bundling more of their contents in your arms.

Getou crosses his arms over his wide chest, bracing a shoulder on one of the columns opening up the hall to the grassy, laundry covered field dotted with those small white flowers he never bothered to learn the names of because he sees them everywhere.

It’s a peaceful scene. Something he endures to savor because it might be the last one he gets.

Most days he regarded his position with little reverence, it was a job with high praise but little reward. Merely acting under the petty wishes of feudal lords more powerful than he could ever dream of being. Such was the life of a warrior.

It rarely saddens him anymore. 

Aside from the day you were brought, he realizes you never once seemed upset by your circumstances. He’s unsure if that should make him grateful or unbearably sad.

That thought appears to announce his presence, as you turn to find his eyes on you. The eye contact makes you pause, and your hands cascade off of the laundry you were hanging. The wind blows at the fabric behind you, making it billow around your figure and having your own clothes be tousled by the wind. It’s gentle, moving over your hair and eyelashes like a child cautiously blowing on a dandelion. Astonishment never crosses your face, and he feels…something. Something? A stirring within him. How to define it beyond that escapes him at this particular moment. 

No words are exchanged between you, only continued observation of each other. 

He feels the breeze caress his face, and he wonders if it kisses him the same way it did you.

You then smile at him, a genuine, gracious smile, and for once he returns it.

Perhaps hatred was too harsh for someone like you.

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Your laugh takes him off guard the first time he hears it. It’s lovely and warm, but he realizes you’re not alone when he also hears one of his lower ranking officers, Mahito. Mahito’s drawling voice is paired with your happy laughter, and he can almost see the stitched man’s simper and blue gray hair leaning close to you.

“I made you laugh!” Mahito proudly croons, and Getou takes pause in the section of hallway next to the kitchen door.

“You’re too funny, Mahito.” Traces of amusement remain in your voice, and he hears the audible sound of you playfully slapping Mahito’s arm.

The easy compliment you give Mahito boils Getou’s blood.

He doesn’t deserve it. It doesn’t make any sense. 

Something had to be wrong with him. He owns every part of you, yet he hates that Mahito had gotten your smile and laugh, however brief.

Those are his. You, are his. He was your master after all. Your laughs, your tears, your every effort and breath were his. 

The disrespect has him reeling, and he lets out an annoyed click of his tongue before sweeping his robes closer to his side and pacing back to his room. He convinces himself he does not need to hear anymore, and that it was illogical to expend any further headspace on it.

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For the next few days, Getou can’t sleep.

He can hear your laugh whenever he tosses and turns in his bed.

It’s maddening. What had Mahito said to make you that amused?

He curses, sitting up in his futon and angrily tossing his pillow at the wall until it sinks and slumps in half against the floor.

For a moment he cups his chin, one of his fingers pressing into the divet between his lips as he tries to detangle each end of his thoughts from the other.

It’s brutally impossible.

“Just ask her.” He mumbles to himself.

For a moment he sits with the disgruntled suggestion, and then he stands to his feet. Inner conflict tenses his chest, but it doesn’t matter.

He has to know.

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End Notes:

i have no excuse for what is coming but :)))))))))

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[osaemu]

share the dm ?!

lmao ok

heyy [NAME], just wanted to let u know about something that's been going around for the past couple months. idk if anyone's told you directly and/or seriously yet, but this korean/asian fetish of yours is actually getting out of hand—honestly, its making the rest of us pretty uncomfortable.

liking kpop/kdramas/whatever isn't a problem, but when it becomes your whole personality and when you start to objectify an entire race/culture/language as a result (intentional or not, that's still what's happening), that's when people start to get the ick. i've had an insane amount of ppl come to me personally and talk about how your obvious fixation on asians makes them uncomfortable, and it's getting to a point where it's just rubbing everyone the wrong way.

i could list off any number of events, but one of the many instances of this was when, in ur english period, five different people told me that u apparently said something about "involuntarily speaking korean when you get upset". first of all, your korean is objectively incorrect a pretty big fraction of the time (as i've heard from three of my korean-speaking friends) and second of all, it's just so weird for u to "talk" or write in korean on your stories, in real life, etc. and finally, i know damn well you do not "involuntarily speak in korean", girl. and if you do, that's embarrassing. obviously, i'm not gatekeeping a whole language, but the fact of the matter is that it's just disrespectful. 

and also, your latest insta posts were apparently tagged with tags like #asian #bts etc., and believe me when i tell you that a lot of people whose spam accounts i follow posted about how weird it was. you're not asian, [NAME]—stop trying to be. you're already the laughingstock of many asian friend groups, and i would heavily advise you to tone it down before you embarrass yourself any more. 

there's a reason asians are wary of koreaboos and ppl who want to act like asians—because it's just so weird. imagine if some random korean girl started posting in armenian, making her whole personality armenian music, thirsting over armenian guys, etc. that'd probably make you pretty uncomfortable, in the same way the rest of us feel. 

anyways, i'm sure this wasn't an easy read, but obviously i'm the only one who's willing to let you know about this instead of complaining about it behind your back. you have a right to know, and hopefully you take this seriously and don't make excuses.

thanks,

the entire asian population of [SCHOOL NAME] 🤍

#sabs answers! #i should've been writing the h4m fic instead of this #but uhhhh this was easier

[sixosix]

I need you to know that I squawked at the cliffhanger of childe’s appearance. Lost my mind and almost threw my phone. Fingers crossed that Aether got to him before the banquet!

But to the chapter as a whole! There are?? So many things I wanna talk about? I’ll try to keep it somewhat short so I can fit it all into one ask but sienussnei-

I’m like 50 percent sure those strings pulled had something to do with the fauti. Something I remembered!! Not every person from the house of the hearth becomes one of the fauti! But they still do remain close to the group! My crack theory is that Rosalie is one of people in that latter group. Arlecchino was able to fully attempt an assassination on Furina without anyone knowing before or after( including the orphans in this as well since they don’t say thing about it as far as i know? And im absolutely positive they wouldn’t push for more info and take her at her word that she didn’t have the gnosis) and the only reason why it was a attempt and not a success is because she stopped herself! Either way though, considering her disguise used for that same attempt, I sure that the hooded figure was Father herself.

ALSO THE PINING OF THIS MAN!!! That polearm?? The sudden flip from fake to real the moment he saw Rosseland (I’m assuming that was the kitty in question) had led Thawed!Reader to him? The instant flirtations? Not to mention that despite the fact Thawed!Reader kept talking about kissing him, he refused!! Because he knew they were both drunk and not quite in their right minds to do that!!! THE MAN CARES!! It’s also a blessing and a curse rn that Thawed!Reader is kinda drunk. A blessing because she isn’t hiding her feelings as much, but a curse because she isn’t being subtle at all. The straight forward question she asked? Lyney isn’t drunk enough to forget that.

The callback to the last chapter too! She really does know lyney so well, even after all this time. He was right, she did know he was lying. And she’s just sitting there, trying to figure out what’s going on while Aether’s just sitting there like ‘you two nerds love each other.’ Not that she would admit it out loud. Yet. Also RIP reader, paimon and Rosalie are friends now, friendship forged by food. They aren’t gonna leave readers life once this is over and done. Say goodbye to your peace and quiet! (Although lyney may complain about that but that’s a different story-)

Losing my mind also over Rosalie and Thawed!Reader’s connection. She doesn’t even realize she is calling Rosalie maman!! But Rosalie does and it’s just so soft and sweet and family and rurnfjkeis. I’ve known Rosalie for 7 chapters and if anything happens to her I will kill everyone in this room and then myself.

Great chapter as always! I’m a little sad to hear regular updates are potentially stopping for a bit but I fully understand! Best of luck with school!!

-Deadman Aether Anon

deadman aether anon i wish you couldve seen my face when i saw your ask i literally lit up. and im sure that the other readers have been waiting for your thoughts as well, based on the tags of reblogs i read (“cant wait for deadman aether anon's insight now”)

HAHA i talked about this w my friend but i wanted to make childes appearance TERRIBLE. i wanted everyone to be like "FUCK. I LOVE YOU BUT NOT NOW." while childe shows up lke a celebrity in a disneyshow. it seems like it worked LMFAOO

INTERESTNG CRACK THEORY U HAVE!!!! the truth will be revealed eventually but i applaud u for how ure thinking of it. :D big brain as usual. it is also interesting to see people trying to figure out who the hooded figure was? deadman aether anon idk if u saw but there are other people guessing differently. im surprised bc i thought it was pretty obvious !!

YEAHH!! IT WAS ROSSELAND !!! i love rosseland and how lyney ended up making the cat his assistant-- that little backstory is so cute. rosseland is such a smart cat, too; writing that scene of leading mc to lyney didnt seem absurd in the slightest to me.

drunk t!reader is a mess kwdhkdfhd some drunk words are sober thoughts. and yes i think and know that lyney is a gentleman. even drunk he would always put reader first. always!

aether is so silly he came in there to blackmail someone and ended up playing secondhand matchmaker, if that makes sense LMFAOO i actually love aether and readers dynamic its so absurd when you look at it from a different perspective. its such a strange friendship they ended up making

yes ure right!!!!!1 im not sure if im portraying it well but reader calling rosalie maman is so ? subconsciously done. its like looking at a cat and going "here kitty". u look at rosalie and the way she treats reader and u go "thanks maman".

tysm for this ask!!!!!!!!! always such a delight to see you stopping by and sharing your thoughts, but i think ive said that every time by now LOL. and thank u too for the wishes T__T ill need them when i deal with chemistry <333 MUCH LOVE

#606:inbox #606: deadmanaether anon

[nightcolorz]

Quick disclaimer: I mean no hate or ill will at all to any fanfic writers who’ve written this trope. You’re all very talented and u shouldn’t let my personal taste stop u from writing what u want to write. This is just me complaining for fun bcus I’m a brat and I care way to much about stupid internet stuff concerning my vampire blorbos. Also this isn’t directed towards any individual fanfic and/or fanfic author since I’ve seen lots of works that include this, and wouldn’t be able to name or remember any specific work even if I wanted to bcus I dislike this sm that I rarely stick around for long when this comes up in stuff I read. So plz don’t be like “oh this is about xyz isn’t it?” Bcus I guarantee u it is not

I’ve noticed this trope that’s become common enough to be annoying to me recently concerning Nicki. This isn’t a fanfic exclusive phenomenon, it’s also present as a general attitude among amc iwtv fans mostly which is a rant for another day. But basically what it boils down to is fanfic writers (pretty much always in AUs for reasons that will become obvious) characterizing/utilizing Nicki as the romantic rival for loustat and/or bitter ex who we should be rooting against bcus he’s interfering with the Ship. I really dislike this trope! As someone who’s a certified Nicolas de Lenfent fanboy it’s so disappointing whenever I come across a fanfic that includes Nicolas as a reoccurring character and he ends up being stripped of all his nuance and character traits and boiled down to unlikable romantic rival. It sucks! And it’s frustrating especially bcus theirs literally canonical loustat romantic rivals (Antoine/Antoinette for show fans bcus tbh this is a very amc exclusive occurrence) that could easily fulfill this role! And if that doesn’t suit your fancy we have love interests of Lestat that r generally disliked/unlikeable (at least imo) that could be used in a similar way (coughcoughDavidTalbotcoughcough). And u could make an argument that those characters just don’t have Nicki’s brand of drama and emotion and yes! I agree! That’s why I’m frustrated! Bcus I would eat up a fanfic that explored a love triangle or rivalry between Nicki, Louis, and Lestat where shit hit the fan over the unique conflict and drama that would unravel considering the characters and their dynamics + history, au-ified or otherwise, but I’ve never come across a fanfic like this! And trust me, I read a lot of fanfic. It’s just a little saddening for me tbh. I love Nicolas sm, I don’t like reading about him as the shitty ex bf and the shitty ex bf only, with little to no depth. The reason I’m complaining about this is bcus it’s reached the point where it’s clogging the Nicki character tag on a03 a bit, I keep finding fanfic with him in it and checking it out only to find him portrayed as a stock bitter ex character. And I honestly don’t know where this characterization even came from when it comes to the show fans? Bcus Nicolas has only ever been framed in the show as Lestat’s tragically and mysteriously dead first love, and it’s like, idk how u can hear about that and come to the conclusion that this guy would make sense as the romantic rival? Like poor Nicolas lol, he’s literally dead let him rest 😭. He doesn’t have any part in this ship drama 💀. And now I’m getting a lil off track and verging onto general Nicolas hate in the fandom and not just in fanfic, but whatever, I all ready decided I’m not touching that. But u know, as a side note, Nicolas in book canon was never once framed as someone who’s existence is a threat to loustat and the validity of their love, so u don’t need to make him about that! Louis and Lestat r immature messes who can’t function healthily ever but not to the point where Louis has beef with Lestat’s literally dead ex boyfriend 💀 c’mon now

also if I didn’t make it clear my beef isn’t with framing Nicki as a villain I love me a messy bitter bitch.My beef is with stripping him of all that makes him interesting for the sake of having a generic romantic rival in ur fic. Not a fan of that. However I am all for messy bitter bitch Nicki. Idk this phenomenon just comes off as weird and kind of upsetting to me. It’s kind of like if the John Wick fandom had a trend where ppls self insert ocs or y/n characters had drama with John Wick’s dead wife…it’d be uncomfortable. (I’m not in the John Wick fandom so idk if this is an actual thing lmao).

#vampire chronicles #the vampire chronicles #tvc #vc #nicolas de lenfent #the vampire lestat #lestat x nicki #nicki de lenfent #nicki x lestat

[thisbelongsto-nohbodys]

Okay, like, I'm actually tearing up, dude. Super happy you like my sh*tty little fan fic. And given my notifications, at least a few others do too, which is super uplifting to me. I've had this idea for a while, which is probably why I managed to write it so fast. Decided to leave some questions about the armour open in case I decide to make a sequel. I've always been super nervous about sharing my writing, and considering your fan comics were so good that they actually got me to watch Amphibia just so I could get the context, it made me even more nervous writing about your characters specifically. (Cried at the ending btw, so thanks for that lol).

I do want to say this, not to you, but to other fans of yours. A mini PSA if you will.

Yes, my fic ships Lily and Azura. No, I won't demand nohbody has that become canon. For some of you reading this, that's obvious, but I'm a RWBY fan. I know how some people can get. There's a reason some BlackSun fans referred to all Bumbleby shippers as "The Wasps". Please, just let nohbody tell their story how they wish. If Lily and Azura get together, awesome. But even if they don't, please don't send hate towards nohbody. The same goes for anyone who ships any of the other characters of nohbody.

No problem, I'm just glad that my silly comics was able to inspire someone to be creative. It's a bit funny to me that my comics is how u started watching Amphibia since I'm such a small player that normally one would have to dig in the tags to find my stuff and ya'd have to be a fan of the source material to even care enough to dig far enough to find me, lol.

as for that rwby disclaimer, don't worry, I don't let outside forces influences major decisions I have for my or fan version of characters.

Keep being creative and have fun.

#ask #pluralfuture

[birlwrites]

Helloo!! Uve sometimes described barty as potentially being a romantic partner to regulus and so i was wondering what made u choose evan to be his love interest in ttdl instead? I think u also mentioned the possibility of them being polyamorous and so in what scenario do u see that happening (in the ttdl universe or a whole other one)

Have a great day!!!

okay SO

there are a few reasons that regulus/barty does not happen in atfhv and most of them are supports to the real reason which is that i think best friends are SO underutilized as central pairs of characters. i've read a shitload of works centered around regulus and sirius, and a shitload of works centered around regulus and a romantic partner, and i have also written a bunch of these! like they're everywhere! and there's no inherent problem with that, but i think that with a familial or romantic relationship, the question of 'why us' becomes much simpler and less interesting

so ig the short answer to your question is: it was more about choosing for barty to *not* be regulus's love interest than it was about choosing evan to be

also [insert rant about regulus not often having his own friends in fic]

but as for why i did choose evan!! aghslgkjdhf i'm going to have to do a lot of tracing of my thought process because regulus and evan as a pairing just feels SO intuitive and obvious to me now, but the fact remains that when i got into it the tag was TINY. so like. how did those neurons fire in my brain?

i think it started with survived by, which was the first fic i wrote in which evan really played a role - barty's always had a pretty set personality and vibe in my head, so evan was an opportunity to play around and make someone up. i didn't proceed directly from there to rosewater - there was a period of time when i was experimenting with a few different ships, notably blaise zabini's mom and The Forbidden Jegulus Fic, and i'm looking at my warmups document right now (which is where most of my stories start before they hit ~10 pages and i decide they merit their own documents) and rosewater just sPRINGS INTO EXISTENCE on page 11. so those neurons may continue to be a mystery

but i think generally speaking, to answer 'why evan,' it's because the persona i gave him complements regulus's personality in a very different way from how barty does. they're playing the same game in very different ways, and of all the characters in ttdl, the two of them have the strongest facades.

regulus is very guarded and has a role he's decided to play, and evan just has Massive Fucking Secrets, including a role that was decided for him, but regardless - the process of the two of them growing close enough to develop and then EXPRESS vulnerable feelings is so intense/demanding in a way that it wouldn't be for any other combination of people, because literally any other combination of people would be slightly less hidden away. even them + barty in a triad would be less closed off b/c barty

in the ttdl universe i'm very attached to aro barty, which doesn't prevent there being polyamory but does affect the shape of it - i do think that at any given time the probability of regulus and barty being life partners is basically 100% though. in my head they always have a life together, unless it's like, stga aghshgljkdf, so then the question becomes how does evan factor in, and the answer is 'yes'

like they're very much a trio in my mind - the specific dynamics might change but in terms of the future, almost regardless of universe (rip stga), i envision the three of them together in some way

#should i make an inbox tag #dark lord wip #i am in the TRENCHES with support documentation #slooooooooooowly getting there

[remyfire]

It definitely is! I always love some AUs, but I have so much trouble coming up with them for this show because so few things can match the energy of being at war together. The small space and the trauma and everything else combine to create some really interesting character dynamics, and they're so hard to replicate in a place with lower stakes or more space or just anything where one of the variables is changed. I have so much respect for someone who can write it well (and will definitely read that fic) and wish I could do the same! But hey, making things far more complicated than they need to be is the life of a writer 😂

I completely understand how you feel with the canoe ship though, I am the Queen of Canoes in a couple of my other fandoms 😂 I literally originated a ship tag for one on Ao3, so I'm right there with you on the tiny ships I would go to war for lmao. But yes BJ is so husband coded all the time! BJ Papa San showed it most explicitly, but even just the little things he does in camp are him trying to connect to the husband and father part of himself he left behind when he got sent over to Korea. He's a good person, but he also so genuinely enjoys that role, and it's so obvious to see if you're looking for it. We love a man that's respectful and kind 😤

Mulcahy is so interesting, and I look forward to that episode mentioned! Due to several literature and art classes over the course of my schooling I have become very good at using my Catholic upbringing to completely overanalyze Catholic media, and I am absolutely delighted to be able to pull it in here. It's clear that Mulcahy is genuinely kind and believes in goodness, and I think if he ever comes to the realization that religion isn't always the way to show that it'll tear him apart. He's devoted so much of his life to his religion (hell the man is named after three saints, he was practically BORN to be a priest) so anything that can dismantle that would hit him really hard. And unfortunately, I love throwing my favorite characters into difficult situations, so sorry in advance Father. I loved the glimpse into his head in Dear Sis, and I genuinely had to rewind a few times to watch Hawkeye talking to him over again. It's just so a u g h (affectionate)

I also just finished C*A*V*E and oh boy oh boy I could probably write half a novel on this already but I'll try to keep it short for now. The Hawkeye and Margaret connection! The deeper peek into who Hawkeye is as a person rather than just a doctor, and what actually makes him tick! Margaret sharing her own fears and offering to sit with him to make him feel better! BJ staying close to Hawkeye when he had to come check on his patient in the cave so Hawk knows he has someone safe nearby! Margaret and Hawkeye facing their fears together! Hawk playing a dumb little game with her in the OR to take her mind off things!! This episode is truly making me Feral oh my god, I don't think it will ever leave my brain, it's just gonna live there now.

It is SUCH a good show! I knew it was before but now that I'm actually watching it through I'm getting the full weight of it and god it's a masterpiece. You can talk about the cultural impact all day, but it's hard to truly understand w h y it had such an impact until you're watching it yourself and picking up on all these little intricacies. I've been keeping a list of good episodes for myself, just for Personal Reasons I can't really explain, and there are f a r too many episodes on that list already. So many are just so good, I want to remember them and rewatch them and frankly just roll around in them like a dog that's found a particularly nice patch of grass. This show already shaped me when I watched it with my parents when I was younger but genuinely I don't think I will be the same after watching it all the way through. Just, what a show.

Weeping. After reading this, I had to go check my Canoe status. In this fandom, I have originated 5 ship tags (Trap/Peg, BJ/Leo, BJ/Klinger, Margie/Klinger, Sam/Sid/Hawk) and I have been between the 2nd and 5th story in 10 more ship tags (Sid/Beej, Marg/Beej, Trap/Mulcahy, Trap/Margie, Hawk/Klinger, Marg/Beej/Hawk, Trap/Klinger, Sid/Beej/Hawk, Sid/Sam, BJ/Charles). Why did I do this to myself. It's a lonely life isn't it hfksdfds

But it also makes perfect sense that this fandom is ripe for rare ships because though they are in the center of a situation that demands order, there is very little sense of actual social order as they might experience back home. I think even if I wasn't The Way I Am with multishipping, I'd still be compelled to go, "Yeah, you know what, everything is pretty permissible here. The line between friendship and lover blurs often. There's not much demand for monogamy among denizens of this camp. They're seeking comfort and love where they can find it and they're all very good at giving it." It compels me idk

I'm really enjoying hearing your thoughts about Mulcahy!! I feel the same way about him as well, how he's ripe for a thunderbolt realization or two that his faith isn't going to be the Way and, in fact, is often dealing the damage in a lot of situations. I love you mentioning his three names, though. It immediately takes my mind right back to Trapper and his own long series of very Catholic names. Trap, I am putting you in a jar and staring very hard at you. Tell me your Catholic past. Did you really consider becoming a priest. Why didn't you and Mulcahy get more screen time together.

CAVE MY BELOVED. CAVE, my Margaret/Hawk/BJ thesis (yes, even in a platonic sense, I promise, no one come for me). I think the first time I heard BJ say, "Thank heavens none of us has to stand it alone," I had to pause and fold my hands and stare at the wall. The support all three of them give each other. BJ bringing a cup of comfort and it being passed to Margaret because Hawkeye knows she needs it too. It always makes me sad when people read that as a jealousy moment from BJ when he snuggles down just as close to her and isn't being snippy or annoyed at her presence. He cares them! He cares them both! And such a really lovely way for Hawk and Margaret to continue sinking into each other, to carve out even more level ground between them, ugh. I'm unwell about it. It's so delightful.

It really is so fascinating, returning to this show as adults, huh? It's a completely different experience. There's some grief there because we can still relate to so much of what they're talking or snipping or griping about in our modern, continuously-war-waging era, but also it's absolutely remarkable how timeless it has become. And being able to analyze it now with such depth due to the easy streaming access and the online fan communities, it's incredible. Chef's kiss.

#sorry for neglecting your ask for a day anon i was having a rough one #i'm still a little disjointed so i apologize if this isn't thoughtful or coherent but i don't want to forget your ask and never get back #my ramblings

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Hehehe. Hi. Saw your tags on my post and would love to hear your own headcanons for T1 Marty. It's an interesting one to ponder for sure!

*chuckles evilly* oh boy, of course!!! i truly end up headcanoning any character i like with t1 diabetes for the soul reasoning of 'well, SOMEONE has to!'

SO!! marty mcfly with type 1 diabetes! where do i even begin! well, i will say that as i am a bttf musical enthusiast, im mainly gonna focus on that instead of movies 2 +3, just because im not AS familiar with them as i am the first movie and a musical!

so, join me under the cut for a LOT of thoughts and headcanons...i have a lot to say lol like a LOT a lot...i apolgise lol

so, i think marty was diagnosed with t1 when he was around 9-10, and was doing ye olde pee-on-a-stick method of blood sugar testing, which was a super inaccurate way of doing it BUT it was either that of nothing in the mid-to-late 70's. he would have always been taking one injection of insulin and just praying it all worked out around that dkjdfjk ah, the joys of early diabetes treatment!

i like it think marty is like me in the sense that i naturally have blood sugars that tend to be on the higher side, and because it wasn't a thing to treat a high blood sugar with more insulin back then, it's why he took up skateboarding!! exercise gets that blood sugar down and his brother, dave, let marty use a skateboard that he had been gifted and never used. thus, marty started skating and just really fucking liked it!

as he got older and all that, and blood glucose monitors became a thing, AND marty became friends with doc, things did a pretty quick turn around in regards to how he treated stuff. doc would've gotten one look at the medieval torture device looking stuff marty was carrying around in his backpack and gone 'nope, i can make this a lot easier!' and basically invented a more modern version of a bgm - u prick ur finger with the lancet, put ur blood onto a calibrated strip into the machine and get a reading! although, i believe it would be less accurate for obvious reason. more likely that you'd either get a 'HIGH' 'LOW' OR 'REGULAR'.

in regards to insulin, as i mentioned earlier, marty would've been on one daily injection for most of his childhood. which is a real annoyance, bc it means ur meals have to happen at certain times with certain amount of carbs. by the time we meet marty in the movies/musical in 1985, he most likely would've just become aware of insulin pens - they legit came out that year lol BUT because i think doc is out here being a disability activist, marty might have received one a lil earlier and without the big ol' price tag attached to it lol so he would've been taking multiple injections a day by the time we meet him!

YES, i use doc as a scapegoat to give marty nicer treatment options!!! he deserves it!! if u have a friend who is a mad scientist, then of COURSE ur gonna abuse that to try and get new and improved and FREE medical equipment! so, i think marty has this stuff in his pockets alongside his walkman lol

i also think the reason marty is known to be as such of a slacker as he is is because besides all the sick days he would have taken, he's also known for sneaking out of class and/or showing up late to take his blood sugars or take his insulin.

the idea of marty having an insulin pump is also something i really like! again, i think doc was able to get his hands on one and rejigged it to fit into the shell of a walkman, which would be great for stealth lol. for me, this applies a lot more to my headcanons relating musical!marty. basically, i think movie!marty has insulin pens, and i think musical!marty has a pump. idk why, i just do djkdfkj i just think musical!doc would

SOOOO, marty in the 50's!! of course, we get marty on the hunt for ANYTHING to drink without sugar - and that's very relatable lol, again as someone with naturally higher blood sugars, i also tend to just find it 100 times easier to have low sugar options than use up SOOO much insulin! but in terms of how tf he's gonna make it thru a week when it comes to insulin, i think because he was meeting doc at the mall so early in the morning, he threw an extra vial or two in his pockets just in case. marty can never be too sure what's going to happen when he meets up w/ doc lol i also think musical!young lorraine would've been DEEPLY confused about what tf all this stuff attached to this boy she has straight up undressed is, and honestly she probably just ripped his infusion site straight out on accident so marty probably returned to injections anyways - but with is 80's sensibilities on how diabetes WORKS and how it's treated, he would've been pretty on top of everything. he would've just had to use those fugly giant syringes. flop!!

once returning to '85 in the new timeline, nothing would have changed w/ marty diabetes bc, well, he would've been diabetic anyways! his parents would be a lot more supportive, a lot bigger disabilitiy activists - i think george mcfly definitely has a diabetic character in his novels! and lorraine is on the pta board FIGHTING for the rights of disabled students BIG TIME, while in the og timeline i imagine they were very much in the mind set of not talking about marty's diabetes bc they saw it as shameful or somehow their fault. catch the mcfly family car having a bumper sticker that says 'someone i love has type 1 diabetes!'

so YEAH, i think that's everything that came to mind for me! musical!marty is defs more the muse of my diabetic headcanon, i think just bc im currently obsessed w/ it so im projecting onto him harder but, BASICALLY;

tl;dr: marty has t1, in the movie he uses insulin pens that he gets from doc, in the musical he uses an insulin pump that doc decked out to make a lot cooler and both verses use a blood glucose monitor that the doc made a lot more compact. ALSO, just for the hell of it - fuck it! jennifer is diabetic too! they knew each other from school but really met at the hospital while they were waiting for diabetes clinic appointments and they bonded lol!

#bttf #back to the future #diabetic marty is canon now because i said so! #idc about realism he's legit a time traveller!! he can have t1 diabetes lol

[treestargarden]

i got obsessed with the idea of building out teams for some of my fave bnha characters, so below the cut is an incredibly detailed post about the 8 gym leaders and the elite 4 members. read the tags if u wanna know who is in it

this is literally based on purely aesthetics n the most arbitrary knowledge of the pokemon in general do not come at me about “workability” n “technicality” or whatever. idc.  also if u make art of this plz tag me :O if you can figure out good movesets on any of the teams, also plz lmk would love to run it in a game 

Gym Leaders

Shouto’s Ice-Type Team:

Ninetales (Alolan variant): Ice/Fairy

Glaceon: Ice

Frosslass: Ice/Ghost

Aurorus: Ice/Rock

Chien-pao: Ice/Dark

Commentary:

Sho’s team is basically the most regal-looking ice types I could think of

Both he and Touya have Froslass on their teams to reference their relationship. Froslass is a dual-type pokemon (Ice/Ghost), so it links them very well

If the character’s typing matched an eeveelution currently available, I tried to fit them on the team

He has one regional variant, one eeveelution, one fossil pokemon, and a legendary

Eijirou’s Rock-Type Team: 

Golem: Rock/Ground

Rampardos: Rock

Coalossal: Rock/Fire

Lycanroc (Midnight form): Rock

Commentary:

He enjoys the classics, so I strayed from fancy forms or variants

Except for Lycanroc’s midnight form, because its red, and he’s RED riot

Also I think a wolfish pokemon really suits him anyway

He likes heavy hitters, but if he plays their movesets smart, they can become the fastest bunch on the field too (especially Golem and Coalossal)

Katsuki’s Fire-Type Team: 

Charizard: Fire/Flying

Flareon: Fire

Houndoom: Fire/Dark

Talonflame: Fire/Flying

Commentary: 

Like Ei, also likes the classics, so I didn’t give him flashy forms or variants

Chuffed that Ei opted for only 4 pokemon, rather than 5

Unwilling to be bested, he also opted to only use 4 pokemon, because how dare Kiri outshine him

Says he didn’t want a flashy team, but has a Charizard

But it matches his attitude 

Ochako’s Fairy-Type Team: 

Azumarill: Fairy/Water

Togekiss: Fairy/Flying

Sylveon: Fairy

Tinkaton: Fairy/Steel

Iron Valiant: Fairy/Fighting

Commentary: 

Of course, she fits the fairy aesthetics very well

All fairy types are super cut and pack a punch (just like my sweet girl)

I think she has an impressive range of typing 

Iron Valiant is a tribute to her internship with that one pro-hero who taught her how to fight lol

Hanta’s Bug-Type Team: 

Beedrill (Mega form): Bug/Poison

Yanmega: Bug/Flying

Galvantula: Bug/Electric

Araquanid: Bug/Water

Pheromosa: Bug/Fighting

Commentary: 

Honestly, I think he just wanted a gag team, but ended up with a really fast bunch

It would be really fuckin annoying to battle. There’s plenty of opportunity for speed set ups/reductions, poisonings. His battle style is definitely more in line with stalling and waiting until your out of options before he slowly chips at your team’s health and morale

He has a really great type coverage for a bug team

I was gonna give him Surskit for the interesting dual-type, but then I remembered Araquanid existed and replaced him instead. 

Also I think he just really loved the arachnid pokemon. For obvious reasons.

Has Pheromosa because he has definitely seen NSFW art of the pokemon and wanted it on his team. 

Hitoshi’s Psychic-Type Team: 

Hypno: Psychic

Espeon: Psychic

Metagross (Shiny form): Psychic/Steel

Gothitelle: Psychic/Dark

Lunala: Psychic/Ghost

Commentary: 

I honestly just gave him psychic pokemon I think would act like cats

Tsu’s Water-Type Team: 

Vaporeon: Water

Lapras: Water/Ice

Politoed: Water

Samurott (Hisuian variant): Water/Dark

Golisopod: Water/Bug

Commentary: 

Lapras was originally on Sho’s team, but I decided I wanted Ninetales on the team instead (they don’t have a dual-type crossing, but I just liked the idea of spreading out the generations of the individuals on each team)

Politoed is here because I think its a good homage to her canon quirk. There are a lot of frog pokemon, but I think Politoed is the most... in-line with Tsu’s personality

Samurott is an homage to her internship as well. I forgot his name, but he’s here lol

Kyouka’s Dark-Type Team: 

Umbreon: Dark

Mightyena: Dark

Sableye: Dark/Ghost

Thievul: Dark

Meowscarada: Dark/Grass

Commentary: 

Honestly, I just wanted her to have dark pokemon that looked like they would be part of a bank heist

Elite Four Members

Rumi’s Normal-Type Team: 

Eevee: Normal

Slaking: Normal

Lopunny (Shiny mega form): Normal/Fighting

Diggersby: Normal/Ground

Bewear: Normal/Fighting

Commentary: 

Wanted the E4 to have really hard-to-beat teams, so I put in alternate forms, and at least 1 mega on each team

I’m tickled by the fact that she leads with an Eevee and makes you believe you have this battle in the bag from jump

But then she has an absolute unit of a team behind it

Lopunny is here because why wouldn’t I give the bunny girl a bunny pokemon

Also Diggersby is basically the unofficial Lopunny cheerleader so I had to put him here, too

Kai’s Poison-Type Team: 

Nidoking: Poison/Ground

Gengar (Shiny mega form): Poison/Ghost

Scolipede: Poison/Bug

Toxtricity: (Amped form): Poison/Electric

Grafaiai: Poison/Normal

Commentary: 

He’s the poison E4 member because he’s a germaphobe. Made sense he would use a poison team on unsuspecting challengers

IDK argue with someone who cares

Also has a very nice type spread

Touya’s Ghost-Type Team: 

Drifblim: Ghost/Flying

Froslass: Ghost/Ice

Chandelure: Ghost/Fire

Mimikyu: Ghost/Fairy

Gholdengo: Ghost/Steel

Commentary: 

Touya’s was probably the funnest to put together

Ghost type is an homage to his canon backstory

Drifblim has an ability called “Aftermath.” When you kill it, it explodes and weakens your pokemon on the field. I think this pokemone especially fits the trajectory of Touya’s arc in canon (if it goes the way I want it to)

Mimikyu envies Pikachu. Its name is literally “mimic you” and wears a sheet with a Pikachu caricature on it. Considering Touya’s showdown with Sho and the phosphorous technique being copied, I figured this pokemon was in line with that canon

Chandelure is a dual Ghost/Fire type (ghost for the backstory, fire for the quirk)

Froslass links him n Sho

Gholdengo was supposed to be a gag. I just wanted a gold pokemon in his team to reference his manga colors. Its still a Ghost type though

Doesn’t have a pokemon with a mega evolution form, but he does have a legendary, so I guess that makes up for the lack of a team gimmick

Keigo’s Flying-Type Team: 

Pidgeot (Mega form): Flying/Normal

Ho-Oh: Flying/Fire

Salamence: Flying/Dragon

Noivern: Flying/Dragon

Flamigo: Flying/Fighting

Commentary: 

He likes the fast and strong pokemon, so I gave him a mega, a legendary, a pseudo legendary, a dragon, and a gag pokemon that’s actually really good?

He seems the type for trickery

Also I think Ho-oh is supposed to be a Phoenix parallel or something to that effect IDR

#shouto todoroki #eijirou kirishima #katsuki bakugou #ochako uraraka #hanta sero #hitoshi shinsou #tsuyu asui #kyouka jirou #rumi usagiyama #kai chisaki #touya todoroki #keigo takami #pokemon cross over #gym leader teams #elite four teams

[heliianth]

(i'm that anon) DON'T feel bad i think it's interesting talk all you wish. i never finished that trilogy so it's the same thing as a video essay about media i've never consumed

LOL noo i didnt think u did it on purpose i just have a guilt complex or w/e but im taking this as an invitation to air my grievances outside of tags SO.

I Just Don't Understand The Decision to align the end with the books. i've never Read the books but i Do Know that they are extremely different (because i've heard abt whats up and i'm just not super interested so ive never checked em out) and HTTYD1, while awesome, is not a faithful adaptation in any sense of the word. and KEEP IN MIND. from what IVE HEARD. the relationship between humans and dragons in the books is more fraught and unfair than the one in the movies. like ive heard stuff about slavery and pets. but the movie makes it almost a Point to say that the dragon riders treat their dragons equally and every place in which the two coexist do this as well. theres a reason why Hiccup calls Toothless His Best Friend. in the books it makes sense to separate the two groups, because there was genuine harm being done no matter what happened and separation was the best solution, but in the movie-verse the relationship being fought for was mutually beneficial and also had real, tangible support behind it that was having payoffs. idk if there was like a deal with Cressida Cowell for the end of the franchise but it did not work with the context set up by the other two movies. ur telling me all these dragons who bonded irreplacably with their riders, their best friends, wouldnt say "hey, fuck you, i'm staying"? they ALL went to this secret hidden cave after facing a bad guy that doesnt even seem that intimidating after u watch RTTE? like that love wasnt strong enough to defy everything? <- U KNOW. THE POINT OF THE SERIES.

speaking of which, HTTYD is like almost obnoxiously in your face about its theme of disability. the first movie is about a someone who can't do things everyone else can (kill dragons) who befriends someone else who also can't do things everyone (other dragon) else can (fly), then they help each other and make themselves and the world better for it. Hiccup makes Toothless a mobility aid and Hiccup literally becomes an amputee at the end of the movie and its framed as a moment of connection and understanding between the two rather than a tragedy. in the second movie, the villain is literally someone looking to enslave all dragons using the big mind-controlly dragon (i have some issue with the whole "the alpha protects them all" theme of HTTYD2. i get what they were going for but i don't think it was executed super well. the rest of the material introduced is super solid despite that tho imo) he abused since birth and Toothless broke out of it because of the depth of his attachment and then proceeded to beat the big dragon's ass to protect Hiccup. the entire theme being set up here is about strength in compassion, acceptance, and togetherness. these stories about outcasts proving themselves inherently worthy of love due to their difference and connection and not in spite of it Are The Type Of Stories most marginalized communities latch onto for obvious reasons. u see it literally everywhere—thats why the queer community calls some movies "queer movies" even though there might not be any characters that are actually queer. this type of setup is actually almost like a gateway for authors to address these subjects when it might otherwise be censored because it's so fucking prevalent and recognizable.

and i dont know if the directors or w/e Knew This and i don't want to accuse anyone of anything because they were clearly very, very passionate but introducing a Girl Character (I UNDERSTAND THAT the light fury is a different species and this is why she looks so different than Toothless but imo... she still falls into the "softer pink small female design" trope because they could've chosen to Not Make light furies look like that, especially bc every female dragon and even human design has been pretty good beforehand, so what changed?) with which Toothless falls in love with Immediately and is on screen for a total of EIGHT MINUTES who causes him to leave Hiccup forever without much thought is like the One Thing u dont do when u have themes like this. the movie tries to frame Hiccup's care for Toothless as clingyness but like... ur kidding me. HUH? THIS WAS NEVER A PROBLEM. Hiccup and Toothless being inseparable was Always framed as a strength that helped themselves and the people around them. thats why i sometimes talk abt HTTYD3 "hetero-ifying" the series. it tries really hard to deliver a "mature" message about ~*: . ~ letting go what you love ~*: . ~ but this was completely unnecessary if you think about it for more than two seconds in context with the 2 other movies and EIGHT SEASONS of tv shows its placed in. there was NO REASON for the dragons to go to the hidden world. Grimmel was no more of a threat thematically than Drago or Viggo. he had badass powerful dragons on his side but his motivation was the same Narratively. what made him Win this time? it just makes the entire thing feel like a cheap grab at tears and toy figurines in order to seem more adult than the other two despite its incoherency—Hiccup says the dragons will stay away until the humans can learn enough to deserve them, but they won't learn if they're separate from each other! This Is Like ABYSMAL post-hoc justification for the decision to have the dragons leave. and then the very end of the movie has Hiccup finding Toothless again (who FORGOT HIM? thats almost offensive) anyways, because who cares, whatever. anything for the audience to cry.

i dunno. i feel like despite the amount of care n passion put into HTTYD3, it's really.... not in the same spirit of the other two. all of the movie-verse media contradicts its message and themes, and it barely addresses this in a way i think is acceptable for the level of care n passion that was put in. there must've been thought and consideration here, all of the people working on it must've loved what they were making, so that's why i dont Get why HTTYD3 is the way it is. it's existence leaves the Entire Franchise feeling really hollow—without it the franchise is a statement about the power of love and belief in a better world, it features characters struggling to help themselves and their friends live in happiness no matter what challenges they face. with it, it says that these things are childish and something to let go. that the determination to make things better for yourselves and the people you love in spite of all the horrible people telling you otherwise is immature and needs to be grown out of. thats so fucking awful, dude, and thats why i don't really get how people who love the themes of the other media in the series can like the third movie.

anyway. LMFAO. this will probably be the end of me complaining abt this movie bc i addressed basically all my issues and id feel annoying repeating stuff in other posts. love u nonnie ur very funny.

#long post #httyd

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What book are you currently reading? Idk I’ve had The Fellowship of the Ring on my bedside table for like months now. But I haven’t had time to read it?? Clown emoji.... SW has taken over my life so it’ll have to wait

What’s your favorite movie you saw in theaters this year? I’m preeetty sure I didn’t go to any movies this year. My cousins all went to see the black panther movie together but I was busy OTL

What do you usually wear? Sweaters or crewnecks with jeans, but I need to buy more plaid and flannels again. I used to dress like a butch but my old clothes either don’t fit or have holes. I’ve been avoiding getting new ones bc I hate shopping, lol

How tall are you? 5’6”, but my driver’s license says 5’7” for some reason

What’s your Star Sign? Do you share a birthday with a celebrity or a historical event? Immm gonna be honest, if blade didn’t answer “capricorn” I wouldn’t even know what you meant by star sign. I’m a sagittarius or however u spell it. I’m not even gonna bother googling the second question

Do you go by your name or a nick-name? I hate my name but I do go by it irl. On here I like to stick to some variation on my username

Did you grow up to become what you wanted to be when you were a child? Do you want the funny version or the sad version of this story? I honestly never thought I’d be anything, so in grade school I just put something random and different everytime someone/something asked. I'm a grad student rn

Are you in a relationship? If not, who is your crush if you have one? Nooope, I’m extremely single (and ready to mingle?)

What’s something you’re good at vs. something you’re bad at? I’m good at crafts! I’ve got a decent amount of experience with needlework and I’ve been thinking I want to branch out into something that’s more functional (like crocheting or sewing) compared to purely artistic.

I’m bad at reaching out of my comfort zone. I feel like life is already hard enough in the day-to-day, so finding the motivation to do something new and different is hard. I need a friend who will drag me out :(

Dogs or cats? Either one, they’re cute in different ways!

If you draw/write or create in any way, what’s your favorite picture/line/etc from something you created this year? Probably this bit from Take Care of Me, Please? These fics make me feel extremely seen, and I can’t wait to get back to them when I have a chance

But it seems too easy. Anakin is… Anakin is the brightest star in his life. He smiles and laughs and shines with such charisma—such gravity—that he must surely be at the center of everyone’s solar systems, not just Obi-Wan’s. What could Obi-Wan have possibly done, to deserve such devotion?

What’s something you would like to create content for? Well blade is right, “content” is kind of a shitty word. We are inspired and driven to make art. We’re sharing pieces of ourselves; in this essay I will... Anyway the answer to this is obvious: Star Wars

What’s something you’re currently obsessed with? Star Wars again! I normally fandom hop a decent amount but ever since I found SW, something has sort of settled in me. I hope it never goes away <3

What’s something you were excited about that turned out to be disappointing this year? Man I joined a westmarches campaign and it was very disappointing compared to a regular dnd campaign. I understand the draw of the structure, but it's just not as much fun

What’s a hidden talent of yours? Idk if you’d call it a “talent” but I really like to sing. When I get my own place, I’m never going to shut up <3

Are you religious? Kind of? My cultural roots are very deep and my religion is all tied up in that. But my health is bad, I regularly get fierce pains, and I’ve been depressed for like ten years now. Not to say that you CAN’T have faith coexisting with all those things, but I’m just exhausted. It’s not for me. (Or at least, it’s not for the me that exists right now. I suppose that could change in the future)

What’s something you wish to have at this moment? Ummmm, an ask in my inbox? Jk jk

I know this is a long one so don't feel obligated or anything but I'm tagging @leafchan15 @tennessoui @kyberkenobi

#as always feel free to tell me not to keep tagging u in things #tag game #red speaks

[marshmellowtea]

hey, sorry, i did read ur bio but im..... unclear what u mean specifically by "anti anti" and "pro ship/pro fiction"? sorry, the terms get thrown around a lot and its made me unclear what ppl mean when they use them since its used in such drastically different contexts. sorry to bother

it's alright, you're not bothering me. i was honestly kind of expecting an ask like this after making that post. i hope, anon, before you respond (if you respond) you hear me out for the whole post.

i'm gonna put this under a cut since i rambled, sorry. warning for some discussion of abuse

first off, i wanna say that while writing this response feels very weird and kind of nerve-wracking, this isn't information i've been trying to hide. i, perhaps foolishly, tend to assume that people who follow me have at least read my bio, even if they choose not to read my about page, and it's becoming increasingly obvious that this is just......not the case? and it's becoming a bit frustrating to inevitably receive backlash from people following me about views i've been open about having from the get-go, hence the vent post. sorry about that, though, there's better ways of handling that frustration, i know.

secondly, i'm pro ship as in......pro ship. all ships, no matter how tasteless, controversial, or disgusting i or anyone else might find them. i'm pro fiction in the same sense, but just in regards to fiction as a whole, both in and out of fandom. while i never fully identified as an anti, i definitely used to have views closer to that mindset, and i can confidently say that they have caused me a lot of harm in the long run. also, while i fully take accountability for the things i've said during those years, i also feel like in some sense i was enabled to be cruel to others while i was a part of that group. never full on hate campaigns, sure, but i've definitely said some nasty stuff to people, and i regret ever doing it, and i especially feel regret for ever feeling justified in doing it. it also bothers me that there were other anti-minded people in my circles who encouraged me, even, and assured me i was doing the right thing when i fucking wasn't.

while i don't think i can explain all of my reasons for my beliefs in this post alone—that would make this thing way longer than it already is—i want to mention that i don't disagree with the notion that fiction can have an affect on our reality, i just think it's more nuanced than a one-to-one correlation of "reading about [thing]=think [thing] is now good", and i also think since fandom is, well, fandom, people tend to overexaggerate its influence on people. if you've ever read a fic or watched a tv show and thought that they handled a certain subject poorly, or recognized that a certain trope they used was bigoted, or anything of that sort, then, well, congrats! you know exactly what i mean. fiction can certainly influence people's views, but i think it's more of a lack of education (sex education, education on the lived experiences of minorities, etc) that's the problem, rather than the fiction on its own.

i also HEAVILY dislike this notion that fiction causes or enables people to abuse—in the case of the former, that's taking responsibility from the abuser because it implies that fiction "made" them do it when it was really their choice to be cruel, and in the case of the latter, i really think it's the aforementioned lack of education and the lack of systems we have in place to support victims/challenge authority that's more of an issue. sure, fiction can absolutely be used to groom people for abuse, but so can candy, or sports, or money, or one on one time, a whole bunch of things are all potential tools and unfortunately, we can't ban everything that could potentially be used to harm someone. and besides, that's overlooking that properly tagged fic (i'm. very pro content warnings in addition to being anti censorship just to be clear) can actually help people realize they're being abused when they see their situations being reflected on the page in front of them that's clearly labeled as abuse.

those aren't my only reasons of course, but this is getting long already, so thank you for sticking with me if you've gotten to the end. if you're uncomfortable with me because of this, i understand, i just ask that you either quietly unfollow or block me, because i'm not afraid to report people for harassment. if you have any good-faith follow up questions, i'm free to answer those as well, i really don't mind.

#i feel like i always take on a different tone when writing about stuff like this #or at least when i need to be more serious #it's like. professional marshy. i guess. academic marshy #why i left the anti cult and decided to just enjoy things: a memoir #<- that's my tag for this sort of thing if you're curious #marshy gets asks #anonymous #also anon if you're the person i think you are then.....idk. i'm sorry. i hope you don't feel like i was trying to deceive you or anything #like i said i generally assume people read my bio and are okay with it #or at least understand what i mean #it's kinda nerve wracking to be open about this sort of thing because of the amount of harassment that goes on but i don't like hiding it #maybe i should be more clear though idk. shrug emoji

[opalsiren]

could you elaborate on the h2o season 3 plot being an oirish colonial trope? (im not doubting you i just wanna hear your perspective) (also i had to google what oirish meant lol)

sure!

i’ll try to keep this as brief as possible since delving into ireland’s entire colonial past would take far too long, but the important bit is as follows: colonial powers seek to other and dehumanize colonized peoples in order to justify colonialism. one way to achieve this is by fixating on the magical and mythological elements of the colonized culture. after all, why should respect be afforded to a primitive and infantile culture? surely cultural imperialism should be enforced in order to civilise the savage barbarians mocked for their preoccupation with ‘leprechauns, rainbows and shillelaghs?’

the way that h2o approaches irish identity and culture is no different. whenever bella discusses the time she spent in ireland as a child, the audience is treated to a twee irish flute motif which evokes pretty much every misrepresentation of irish culture from ‘the quiet man’ to ‘wild mountain thyme.’ the place in which bella transforms is not temporally specific, as ‘the sea caves of ireland’ are about as much of a thing as ‘the tall buildings of ireland.’ we see a younger bella, uninhibited, playing in the green fields and down by the rocky cliffs, lost in a natural, primitive setting and embracing the magic of the noble savages (read with heavy sarcasm)

later, when the girls are trying to solve the mystery of the comet, bella references irish mythology surrounding the first appearance of the comet. the audience is subjected once more to the tired flute music, and we learn of the story of aoibhe eva, a mermaid who saved the irish people using the tower of light and disappeared without a trace

what’s the harm in an innocuous story about an irish mermaid, i hear you ask? against the backdrop of every single representation of irishness as superstitious, traditional, primitive, and backward, the comet plot is a cultural hangover of colonialism. consider the ways in which the h2o writers have approached the mythos of former mermaids prior to the comet: louise, julia, and gracie are alive within the current merms’s lifetimes, and their stories are not temporally nor culturally specific in the same way

the way that the h2o writers chose to represent colonised cultures is entirely bound up in colonialism. if bella had transformed in the english countryside, or if eva had been a mermaid from florida, would the effect have been the same? let us all be wary of representations of irishness—especially those which fixate on magic and folklore—even if such representations may seem ‘positive’ on the surface!

tl;dr: ireland is a real country with real people and big industrialized cities. at the time bella transformed ireland was at the height of an economic boom and is a prosperous, developed nation, not just rural towns where everyone tries to avoid fairy rings and tells tales about mermaids and selkies while playing dodgy irish flute music. jonathan shiff if we ever meet it’s on sight

also while we’re here we should probably talk about the orientalism in h2o and mako mermaids but that might be a conversation for another day

#not gonna put this in the tags for obvious reasons #also please click on the links and read them before you try to argue #colonialism #irishness #irish identity #like this is something that seems relatively innocuous on the surface. but let's talk about the representations of australia in the show #and how there's nothing specific to australian identity within h2o bar the accents and some of the slang (most of which is also heard in #the uk) #irishness is not treated the same. irish culture and identity is something which has to be presented with flute music and bound up in #magic and mysticism. yes this is a show about mermaids but why is eva's story from hundreds of years ago? #why doesn't australia seem to have the same magic aura about it? why does vaguely eastern-souding music play during the scene where #charlotte mentions japanese brush painting? why is everyone obsessed with talking about hozier communing with the fae and becoming one #with the bog when he's literally chilling in greystones aka a very affluent suburb just outside of dublin making music? #ask #answered #'i'll try to keep this as brief as possible' she says while typing out a post that is a mile long #actually no if i had to suffer 800 years of colonial oppression you can read my long post lmaooooo #thank u for the ask also!

[jayflrt]

burn for you

❝ if it were me courting you, all i would need is five minutes with you in a drawing room. ❞

PAIRING ▸ sim jaeyun x fem!reader

GENRES ▸ smut (minors dni), some fluff, regency (bridgerton) au, best friends to lovers

WARNINGS ▸ profanity, reader is a catch !! and jake is a rake (i thought i was so funny for that bye), bridgerton references, mutual pining, pure self-indulgence for my self-indulgent queen, sexual tension, corruption kink !!!! (your fav), oral (f. receiving), fingering, public sex, unprotected sex (bc i looked up what they used for birth control in the regency era and it was not sexy...... but pls wrap before u tap)

SUMMARY ▸ regency london’s competitive marriage market is no match for you, who brings suitors to their knees with a simple bat of your eyelashes. however, the issue is that you only care for your best friend, sim jaeyun, and your competition is a princess.

WORD COUNT ▸ 4015 words

PLAYLIST ▸ wildest dreams by duomo • vienna blood, op. 354 by johann strauss ii, eugene ormandy • young and beautiful - dh orchestral version by lana del rey

TAG LIST ▸ @msxflower​ @fiantomartell​ @baekhyunstruly​ @mykalon​ @heelariously​ @hobistigma​ @simplyxlea​ @wntrsgf​ @person-standing​ @ja4hyvn​ @dnyamight​ @candidupped​ @shmooooo​

AUTHOR’S NOTE ▸ hello !! this fic is a present for @heetendo​ happy birthday fia ♡ ik ur a whore for jake and the regency era so i put them together for u in this little oneshot !! btw this was difficult to write bc i couldn’t consult my historical au expert :/

IT PISSED YOU OFF—THE WAY JAEYUN WAS BEING FUSSED OVER BY YOUR OWN MOTHER.

“A princess!” she gushed, hands pressed to her chest as if she was trying to calm her heartbeat. “Why, you would become a prince, then! Whatever was the reason for the princess deciding to marry down?”

You were sick of hearing the news over and over again. The Duke of Richmond, Sim Jaeyun, was being pursued by a princess—something that was absolutely bizarre and had the town buzzing with gossip. You were sure your best friend enjoyed being the talk of the town, however, and he indulged in how heads turned with both admiration and jealousy whenever he walked past.

You, on the other hand, were finding it hard to push down the jealousy you felt. All was fair in love and war, and especially during the season of courtship, but you found yourself outmatched once the princess made her appearance. Although, that didn’t mean that you were lacking this season; in fact, you had suitors lined up down the block.

Your mother was overjoyed by the amount of attention you had gotten, and she would spend her mornings answering calls and receiving flowers and gifts from the men who were trying to court you. You should’ve been happy; your future was secured with this. Even with the affections from the Duke of Bedford, Lee Heeseung, and the compliments from the Earl of Berkshire, Park Sunghoon, you still found yourself unsatisfied.

You didn’t want to get married if it wasn’t with Jaeyun.

Despite the both of you being from different social strata, you and Jaeyun had been best friends for most of your life. For you, your fondness for him had morphed into something deeper—something you read about once in a book.

They called it love. A drive so powerful and uncontrollable that you couldn’t even take hold of its reins. It wasn’t a choice you could make, because if it was, you never would’ve chosen someone you couldn’t have.

“I’m not sure,” Jaeyun answered your mother with a lighthearted laugh, adjusting the lapels of his coat as he checked himself out in your full-length mirror. “She’s quite lovely, though, isn’t she?” His eyes met yours for a brief moment before clarifying, “The princess, of course.”

You scoffed. “Mother, it’s obvious that the princess is only lusting after him because he’s a rake,” you said haughtily, turning your eyes away from your friend. “Also, isn’t it unbecoming for Jaeyun to be in my drawing room when a suitor could walk in at any moment?”

“I’m not a rake!” Jaeyun argued, though you caught the amused tug of his lips just in time.

“Y/N,” your mother chided, coming to your friend’s defense far too quickly, “you shouldn’t be calling Duke Sim such disparaging words.” She turned on her heel to walk out of the drawing room, sending you one last sharp look over her shoulder. “Please be courteous at the very least when he’s to become a prince.”

You let out a reserved sigh, resting your head on the arm of your loveseat. You felt so high-strung lately, and while part of it had to do with the stress of looking exquisite at the ball, another part was because you were dreading to see Jaeyun with the princess tonight. No matter whose arm you were holding onto, you longed for your best friend.

“Y/N,” Jaeyun called, that authoritative voice of his taking over. He tugged his cuffs over his wrists and took a seat right next to you. “What’s bothering you?”

You supposed you could get over Jaeyun eventually, but moments like these made it hard. He was so receptive of your emotions—so doting on your actions—that it made it hard for you to distance yourself from him. However, for the sake of your friendship, you would eventually have to let go so that you wouldn’t ruin his future with the princess.

“Nothing,” you lied smoothly. “I just need to look exquisite for the ball.” You stood up without sparing him a glance, walking over to your full-length mirror so that you could tighten the strings on the back of your emerald dress. “And you are a rake, by the way. No man in their right mind would sit around in a lady’s dressing room like this, especially when they have a princess trying to win their affections.”

“Consider me mad, then,” Jaeyun replied with a chuckle, walking over to you. You stilled when his hands brushed against yours, taking the strings from your fingers so he could tighten the strings for you. Your best friend sucked in a shallow breath. “And about the ball—you look beautiful.”

“You always say so,” you replied, “but I’d much prefer to hear that from someone actually courting me.” You fought down the urge to roll your eyes. “You don’t even dance with me at the balls.”

“You know I’ve always found you absolutely irresistible,” he muttered.

“Jaeyun—”

“Your suitors have been vying for your affections for months.” Vain as ever, the duke let out a scoff. “If it were me courting you, all I would need is five minutes with you in a drawing room.”

Your cheeks felt hot when you realized the implication of his words. The sexual undertones left you hyperaware of Jaeyun’s hands at your waist, pulling at your strings the same way he was tugging at your heart. You wondered if he could feel the tension that was making your head feel foggy, but Jaeyun just wore that sickeningly cocky smile on his face.

“Then what’s stopping you, Your Grace?” you whispered.

Your Grace. You had always called him by his name—Jaeyun. Never the formality.

The drawing room was completely silent, and you couldn’t even focus on whether you were breathing or not. Now, you were sure that he had felt the same tension you were feeling. Jaeyun’s hands were still for a moment before tying the back of your dress securely.

You couldn’t bring yourself to look into the mirror, to look at what expression was clouding over his face. Instead, your shyness was making you twiddle your fingers and find an interest in the color of the marble flooring.

A lightest gasp escaped your lips when you felt Jaeyun’s large hand slide across your waist, to your stomach, and then lower. Before you could find out what he’d do next, though, your mother knocked at the door and Jaeyun pulled away too quickly. Faster than it had happened.

“Y/N! Are you ready yet?” your mother called.

Trying to swallow down your strangled voice in exchange for a bolder one, you cried, “Yes, mother! I-I’ll be there in a second!”

You weren’t sure what you expected, but your best friend cleared his throat as you turned to face him. Without meeting your eyes, as if he was ashamed, Jaeyun bowed courteously. You were distraught by his sudden etiquette, feeling as if he was forcing some distance between you.

“I apologize,” he murmured, and when straightened, he headed for the door. “I’ll see you at the ball, Y/N.”

You just stared at the space where he once stood, hardly flinching when the door shut behind you. The ball. That sick feeling of jealousy twisted in your gut again; you had no idea how you would be able to withstand seeing Jaeyun and the princess tonight.

The queen’s ball was on a much grander scale compared to the other events you had been to. As you expected, the ballroom was the pinnacle of extravagance, extending its facilities into the royal gardens. You were caught up eyeing the pieces of artwork on the walls when your mother nudged your side, gesturing to the center of the room.

There you saw Jaeyun with the princess.

It was funny how seeing them together chipped at your heart, but you still felt butterflies whenever you saw that smile on your best friend’s face.

“Isn’t she beautiful?” your mother gushed. “You keep your chin up, though, my dear. Your beauty is unmatched tonight.”

You swallowed thickly and nodded. You did look rather divine tonight, especially with your family’s diamonds glittering on your neck for everyone to see. From where you were standing on the staircase, you could see several of your suitors with a competitive fire in their eyes, determined to be the first to dance with you.

However, all that attention dissipated when a chorus of gasps rose from the crowd. Your gaze flitted back to Jaeyun, who had rejected a dance from Your Highness herself. Although the princess took it gracefully, moving onto the next suitor who had eyes for her, Jaeyun’s unexpected refusal would be the talk of the town for months.

With a courteous bow, Jaeyun excused himself from the floor, retreating to the royal gardens. You wondered what had come upon him to act out in such a defamatory way.

You weren’t sure if there were people talking to you with your focus zeroed in on Jaeyun, but you glanced at your mother and said, “I’ll be right back, mother. I’m going to check on something.”

That something was your best friend, but you couldn’t tell anyone that you were sneaking into the gardens to see the duke. If anyone caught word of you both meeting privately, they would twist the affair into something scandalous and damage your family name.

The crowd had gone back to courting and dancing while you were sneaking away from your suitors and everyone else. You knew that things would turn sour if you were caught, but that didn’t stop you from looking for Jaeyun. The cool bite of the wind prickled goosebumps along your arms, but you walked through the gardens, trying to see if Jaeyun was hiding amongst the hedges.

“Jaeyun?” you called when you heard rustling along the path. “Your Grace?”

His sudden appearance from behind one of the arches got a yelp out of you, and you pressed a hand over your chest to ease your racing heart. While you were coming down from your shock, however, Jaeyun merely chuckled, amused.

“Since when did you start using ‘Your Grace’ for me, Y/N? I thought we had dropped such formalities,” he replied. Jaeyun let his gaze rack over your body, and you immediately felt self-conscious. “What are you doing out here? It’s dangerous for a lady to be caught like this with a suitor.”

“I came to look for you,” you explained. “Unbecoming as it is, I had to make sure you were okay.”

Jaeyun’s face turned stony. The piercing look in his eyes bore into you, but you couldn’t turn away, not even when he asked in the softest, most agonizing voice, “Why?”

Your voice was stilted. “Jaeyun?”

“I told the princess I couldn’t marry her,” Jaeyun started firmly, steely eyes never leaving yours. “I couldn’t spend the rest of my life with someone I don’t long to be with.”

“Then who do you long to be with?” you asked in a small voice, as if you were almost scared of the answer.

You took a step back when Jaeyun stepped forward, but then you stopped backing away and allowed him to come closer. His hands barely grazed your forearms, but the lingering warmth left you tingling all over. You looked up at the duke and aching desperation was all over his face.

“I long for you, Y/N,” he answered with fierceness and yearning behind his words. “I burn for you.”

Desire bloomed somewhere deep within you, but you forced yourself to tamp it down. Not here. Not now. Yet, with the way Jaeyun was looking at you, eyes glazing over with something darker, something more passionate, you feared you would succumb to him.  

His voice was cast low when he quickly added, “I wish not to make a public spectacle of this nor distract you from your suitors, so please pardon my words if they make you uncomfortable.”

“Are you stupid?” you asked, incredulous. Jaeyun looked at you, eyes wide with shock, and you continued on in a breathless voice, “Are you a blithering idiot, Sim Jaeyun? You can’t just—just say that and expect me to run back to my suitors.” You grabbed his coat by the lapels, drawing him closer so that the space between you two was rapidly diminishing. “You said that you'd just need five minutes in a drawing room alone to court me, so show me.”

“Y/N,” Jaeyun stuttered, trying to process your words. He let out a sharp exhale when you grabbed hold of him. “This is completely indecent, and you’re too… too pure.”

You frowned. “Pure?”

“You’re untouched—untainted,” Jaeyun explained, and you shivered when his hand brushed your waist. “You don’t know what the touch of a man can do to you.”

“I—I know of some things… such arousal and intimacy—of course, I’ve read and heard of them,” you answered, breath hitching when Jaeyun ran his hand down to your hip. “It’s just that I’ve never partaken in such… illicit activities.”

“Your dress is lovely,” Jaeyun started, and you felt absolutely lost with the sudden topic change, but he continued, “so turn around for me, my love. I don’t want to ruin it.”

“H-huh?” you asked, but nevertheless, you turned around.

You were immediately met with Jaeyun’s hands grabbing your hips, pulling your back flush against his body. Carefully, he slipped off his silk gloves and tucked them into the pocket of his waistcoat while you admired how long and pretty his fingers were. He gathered the fabric of your dress, sliding his hand under your skirt so that he could run his hand up your bare thigh.

Words were no longer something you could string together as Jaeyun slipped his hand into your underwear. All you could do was lean back against him and whimper as his fingers rubbed your clit in precise, deliberate circles. Pinpricks of pleasure burst across your skin as Jaeyun fingered that perfect spot.

“You’re soaked, my lady,” he almost growled, attacking your neck with love bites and kisses.

“Yes,” you croaked out, voice trembling with excitement. “God—Jaeyun, it feels so good.”

The pleasure was almost blinding. You still had a wisp of fear pitted deep in your gut, knowing that anyone could walk in on you two at any time. However, as Jaeyun’s motions became faster and more intense, the knot in your lower stomach was starting to build. You gasped softly when you felt the strong urgency for it to unravel.

“J-Jaeyun,” you stuttered, eyes half-lidded and heavy with lust. “Oh, something is happening—”

“Let it happen, my love,” he cut you off, sensing exactly what you were feeling. “I promise it will feel divine.”

The feeling surged forward, relentless as Jaeyun pushed you closer to the edge. It kept building, rising higher and higher in your throat. You were so overcome with pleasure, but it was the fear of being so exposed that was holding you back from letting go.

Jaeyun used his free hand to tilt your chin to look up at him, whispering, “I told you all I needed was five minutes with you alone.”

There.

You reached your breaking point then and there, hips stuttering as you felt waves of pleasure crash over you. Your arousal spilled all over Jaeyun’s fingers, but before you could cry out, he sealed his lips over yours and muffled your sweet moans.

The feeling subsided once Jaeyun pulled away to look at you, but you still felt the aftershocks of your orgasm like jolts. The duke spent a long, lingering moment taking in the way you looked, and he realized he wanted more. He wanted to how much more he could do if just his fingering brought upon that delectable, fucked-out expression on your face.

You didn’t need any verbal prompting when Jaeyun switched positions, getting in front of you and pushing you back against the stone arch. You were lost as Jaeyun knelt down in front of you, lifting up your skirt and tugging your underwear down. It all became so clear when he dragged his tongue along your folds, though.

You halted your whimpers by clamping a hand over your mouth. Jaeyun knew the consequences of being caught, but a twisted side of him wanted the castle to hear the sweet music that only he could get out of you. Each string he tugged of yours roused the most harmonious moans from your pretty lips.

You cried out when you felt his lips over your already-sore clit, sucking harshly on the ball of nerves. Your next bout of pleasure was coming fast due to his overstimulation, and your head was spinning when he snaked his tongue in your cunt.

His fingers replaced where his lips once were, rubbing your clit again as his tongue slid past your clenching walls. The feeling inside you was foreign, but your arousal was unmistakable. You felt yourself squirming as you were reaching your high once again.

You keened, back arching against the cool stone as Jaeyun brought you closer to the feeling from before. This time, you anticipated the tug, but when Jaeyun slipped his tongue out of you and stopped his motions, the promise of an orgasm slipped away.

You gawked at your best friend, but he just smirked.

“I want to take you, Y/N,” the duke explained in a husky voice, raising to his feet. “I want to show you how much I care for you.”

You had never felt this way. Your carnal needs had never been so strong, so urgent, and it horrified you that you wanted nothing more than for Jaeyun to take your virginity. It was outright indecent to do so in the Queen’s gardens, but you, too, burned for the duke.

“Take all of me,” you begged, shuddering when his hands came to caress your body. “Please, Your Grace.”

“My dear, you do not know the extent of my hunger for you,” he warned.

You took his hand and placed it over your breast, right where your heart was. “Do you understand now? Jaeyun, I am all yours.”

Jaeyun swooped in to kiss you again, this time with more intensity and lust overtaking his senses. With careful fingers, he tugged the strings from your corset and undid them just enough to reveal the cream chemise underneath. From there, he lowered his head to press hot, open-mouthed kisses across your chest.

The duke undid the buckle of his pants, tugging it down as he positioned himself between your legs. The skirt of your gown hid the indecency of your affair. Heat rose to your cheeks when you felt the hard length of his cock against your bare cunt.

“Are you sure about this?” he asked you, thumb stroking your cheek in a comforting manner.

You nodded and placed your hand over his. “Yes,” you whispered, “I need you.”

You supposed there was never hope for you to keep your moans in as Jaeyun slid into you. You could hardly hear his own groans as your walls hugged his cock, only focused on the way he felt inside of you. The stretch was uncomfortable at first, but when you adjusted to his size, the feeling morphed into something incredible.

The duke started with slow, shallow thrusts—something purely experimental to test the waters with you. All coherent thoughts vacated your mind, and you were left drowning in a molten sea as Jaeyun quickened his pace. Broken moans fell from your lips, but Jaeyun didn’t bother sealing your mouth with his. He loved the way you sang for him, encouraging more with gentle pecks to your neck.

You both were sweaty and spent, but neither of you could break your gaze as you brought each other closer and closer. The cool chill of the evening was the only thing keeping you two grounded.

“God, Jaeyun!” you cried, hips bucking as he pounded into you mercilessly, inciting a lewd fuck from the duke’s mouth.

Jaeyun’s eyes, clouded over with lust, cleared for a moment and caught you by surprise. Despite his relentless thrusts, there was so much care and sentiment in his eyes.

“I love you, Y/N.”

You sobbed out as your orgasm crept up on you by surprise, overtaking your senses and making the world blur into nothing but Jaeyun. He continued his thrusts until he, too, was cumming, and aided you by working you all the way through your orgasm. The weight of his confession settled as you came down from your high, and it was a comfortable reassurance that whatever you felt for him was real.

It was silent as Jaeyun tied your corset again and fixed his pants. You helped him slip his gloves back on. Like this was your own private dance, he bowed courteously before slipping away before anyone could see you two alone in the gardens.

You heard the toll of a bell from the castle, but all that rang in your head was that Sim Jaeyun loved you.

Something plagued you days after the ball.

It was eating at you, consuming your every thought as you spoke listlessly to your suitors and entertained their affections. Your mother didn’t ask what happened when you went to find Jaeyun, but made up the excuse that you were feeling ill when you were bombarded with questions from several men.

All you could think about, though, was that you never said those three words back to Jaeyun.

You didn’t realize how wounded you felt over it until you were laying in bed, thinking how you might have possibly ruined your chance with the duke because he thought his affections weren’t returned. You moped around for days, wondering if you had ruined things between you and Jaeyun, if he thought you had taken his words for granted.

You didn’t grasp the impact of Jaeyun’s words when he said he burned for you, but now, you were starting to understand it for yourself. It wasn’t like you had seen him every day before, but not seeing him for days had you longing for him.

You hadn’t seen him since the ball, actually, until he was knocking at the door of your drawing room, a bouquet of flowers in hand.

“Ah, Your Grace,” your mother greeted cordially. The look in her eyes showed that she was concerned about what happened between him and the princess. “Are you here to see Y/N?”

“I’m here to court her, madam,” Jaeyun clarified, and you heard several gasps in the room, noticeably from your mother and the maids. “If you don’t mind.”

“Oh… oh, yes—of course,” your mother simpered, urging the maids to leave you two alone in the drawing room. She sent you a coy smile as she left; meanwhile, you were trying to calm your racing heartbeat.

Jaeyun set the flowers on your table, walking closer to you. Memories of the previous night flooded your head, and you felt hot just thinking about Jaeyun close to you again. However, the look in his eyes showed utmost sincerity.

“Do you love me, Y/N?” the duke asked.

“I do not know what love is,” you answered truthfully, but for someone so unsure, you felt like everything had clicked in the moment, “yet, if what I feel for you right now is love, then I must love you deeply, Jaeyun.”

A heartstopping smile broke across his face, and your heart swelled with admiration. Your best friend came even closer, hands coming up to hold your arms.

“Then let me court you properly,” he insisted, “and dance with you at every ball.”

And he danced with you at the next ball. And the one after that. Each one until he puts a ring on your finger.

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[moro-nokimi]

rewatch part 2

YEAAA THE EPISODE

THIS IS WHERE IT HAPPENSSSS

oh creepy. you look at someone and they’re just writing names down. grody

ah what the fuck ryuk

ryuk and light is me with my friends

HE JUST IGNORES THEM?

where is yamamoto you bitch

light yagami at home depot what will he do

draw him like one of ya french girls

chillax dawg you can totally sleep in class

SAYU?!?!?

CUTIE

what that’s so easy! 

stereotypical younger sister

LOL

COULDN’T YOU HAVE FIGURED IT OUT YOURSELF? MR TOP STUDENT IN JAPAN?

YAAAAAA

matsuda!

dad!

gross

okay king

PREACH

LOLLLL no one is woke but that dude who calls out US federal law enforcement

BUT IT’S NOT A JOOOOOKE

isn’t soichiro a deputy director? is he in uhhhh takimura or kobayashi’s absence?

YEAH HE IS

he’s so fucking funny

oh that framing

(insert windows start up theme)

oh did they just layer shit over AJ’s voice? u can still parse it smh

OH THE MINOR KEY VERSION OF L’S THEME

oh how the mighty fall

no fucking kidding

sure it can

OPE

midwestern border on main

he’s just grasping at straws it’s so fucking funny

L is out here saying that ppl’s vibes are rancid and then he just ends up right

the gasoline should’ve dissolved the plastic. ah, artistic license

uh huh. that’s me rolling my eyes many years in the future

NO ONE STARTS A FIRE BECAUSE THEY WANT THEIR DIARY TO NOT BE SEEN oh my god the common sense in this guy is so lacking

i bet he asks if there’s calories in a bar of soap absorbed thru the skin

ah, a police state

CREEPY

i can hear the dial up tone

what do you want as a pseudonym light, countess boochie flagrante? 

stick with kira you little priss

ah, the prediction that lines up with the 2020 oneshot

hehe i’ve got flippy buffy season one bangs

oh, so you enjoy a police state you fucking piggy?

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

NOW WE’RE COOKING WITH GAS

YAAAAAAAAAAAA

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO

(evil cackle)

this voice actor is nailing it

dawg

“i anticipated this” (was visibly shocked when the broadcast went on)

MOOOOM LIGHT’S YELLING AT THE TV AGAIN

HAHA

BITCH

for the brightest student in japan u sure do lack common sense

isn’t it so fucked up that L just chose a simple dude on death row to die. gross

YIKES

shudders

HE STARTS TAUNTING HIMA.SDKLFNLAKJSDFHLKAJSBH

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

NOW WE’RE TALKINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

i’m gonna cry this is so fucking cool

oh my god i’m shaking so hard

oh my god

BRUH?

DO YOU REALLY THINK SOME JAWN WHO DOESN’T EVEN TALK WITHOUT A PROXY AND SCRAMBLING HIS VOICE WOULD GO ON TV AND REVEAL HIS WHOLE NAME? HOW DO YOU FUCK UP THAT BAD

YAAAAAA THE BATMAN GAMBIT

OH MY GOD

BYE I NEED CPR

yikes

LOL

THE BALLS

THE BRASS NUTS ON THIS FUCKING DUDE

ALESSANDRO JULIANI

OH MYH GOD THE TENSION

THE HOMOEROTICISM

fellas is it gay to be locked in a rivalry with another guy who’s trying to bring you down and also have you executed/put in jail

SCREAMING

the nuts. oh my god

bye i need an inhaler /hyp

KING?

had to scream

lol ryuk is so amused. chaotic neutral

fellas is it homoerotic to be saying the same things your rival is while you’re on different sides of the planet

but now i’m thinking about how light and L are just different sides of the same coin

#long post #vd.liveblogging #genitalia ment #<- tagging this for reasons that will become obvious if u read it

[captnjacksparrow]

not this sasunaru stan saying sasuke is possessive towards naruto.. this aloof boy who just wants everyone including naruto to leave him alone so that he could pursue his goals. what do u think? is sasuke really this obsessive possessive type towards naruto or is it a fanon thing where sasunaru fans are keen to enforce naruto’s canon behavior on sasuke to push their own personal agenda 🤣 man sns stans irk me sometimes. love the ship but the shippers getting sasuke’s character all wrong is just… no no no no NO pls stop butchering him and read the manga properly without wearing shipper lenses

is it a fanon thing where sasunaru fans are keen to enforce naruto’s canon behavior on sasuke to push their own personal agenda...

this aloof boy who just wants everyone including naruto to leave him alone so that he could pursue his goals. what do u think?

I don't know about fanon... Because I don't read fan fictions (except for a few one-chaptered Angsty ones)... Also, I am not following SNS or any Naruto related tags these days.... So, I don't know about these personal Agenda...

And it seems you picture Sasuke to be this aloof, cold boy who wants to be alone, run/shudder away from ‘relationships’, always focused on his personal goals.... Well, all these things are applicable to other people.... But for Naruto???

He was never aloof, never rude or cold, he was the first one to initiate friendship, he always (ALWAYS) puts away his personal goals..... ONLY FOR NARUTO......

He was never rude or cold... he did a gesture of initiating a Bond... Contrary to what you said about “Sasuke runs away from ‘relationships’”..... 

He puts away his own personal Goal of becoming a Ninja in order to kill Itachi.... All for just to give his Bento to this boy whom he never had any Obligation or Bond to start with. Contrary to what you said about, “He is focused on his own personal goals”

Even Naruto himself was extremely shocked. 

All these are from as early as Chapter 7 & 8.... Inside 10 Chapters, Sasuke proved that your views about him are wrong... (In Naruto’s case)

He is a person who Initiates stuffs with Naruto... Which I have clearly mentioned here in this post... [Link].... So... Saying Sasuke was aloof towards Naruto is plain wrong...

is sasuke really this obsessive possessive type towards naruto

Possessive

Let's see...

"Wanting to have all of that person's love and attention and will not share it with anyone else"

These are not some random definition.... I took this from Cambridge Dictionary.

Sasuke was possessive towards Itachi..... He wanted his Attention... A Lot. It's because of Itachi's Lack of Attention towards Sasuke, he started to feel Inferior in Part 1 which led him to invite Naruto to a Rivalry match.

Sasuke was very possessive about Itachi's Life too. For very obvious reason... That he should be the only one to kill him...

Sasuke was possessive about Naruto’s place in his own heart.... He won’t share it with anyone else...

Here Sai is saying that “I’ll be able to get along better with you compared to Naruto”...  Immediately Sasuke puts Sai in a Genjutsu.... Which shows Sasuke still has a place for Naruto in his heart and mind and doesn’t want to be replaced by some stranger... 

Talk about replacing or badmouth about Naruto in front of Sasuke... You will face his Wrath.... Because, according to Sasuke, Naruto is His Person....

That brings me to...

This is just Chapter 3... and Sasuke was already seen pissed off about Sakura badmouthing Naruto in front of him... 

Same with Itachi.... He doesn’t tolerate anyone badmouthing his Brother. 

Sasuke was possessive about Naruto's Life as well...

If Sasuke was that Aloof person who wants to be left alone... Why the hell Sasuke block Obito who wants to kill Naruto... He could've easily just let Obito do the Job and it would be easier for Sasuke to bring his Revolution...

Where is this so-called.... "I am the only one to Kill him" comes from??? He is not even related to Naruto in anyway... 

I would call this as Possessive behaviour. But this is not in a Romantic light though. And Sasuke has no need to be. Because the moment Sasuke comes into the picture, Naruto's 100% attention will be on him.... He wouldn't give a damn about any other girl or boy.

So, Sasuke is Possessive about Naruto... but not in a romantic sense.

Obsessive

"Unable to stop thinking about something...

too interested in something or

worried about something"

"Every time I would see you, I would worry about you more and more"

Worry About is the right translation.... But still, Getting to him more and more is also an Obsession... And this is Sasuke at Age 8....

"Somehow, I would start to be worried about you"

This also qualifies under Obsession. In a Single chapter, 2 mentions about being Obsessed about Naruto....

Sasuke didn't have to lie about going for a Walk and train with Naruto which shows he was interested to spend his time with him... 

"too interested in someone"

And before this training..

Sasuke was "Not-So Subtle" about being Worried to leave Naruto alone. Even Kakashi was peeking in this panel to indirectly say, "Oh!! I see what you did there"....

"Worried about someone"

Nothing to say here... Sasuke genuinely wants to walk side by side with Naruto here... Even Naruto was totally throwing visual daggers here.... 

“too interested in someone”

You can't tell me this is not an Obsession... This Dude is Brainrotting about every worthless incidents he Observed and Shared with Naruto, in his supposed final moments of his death... Which shows Sasuke was constantly thinking about him...

And why is he thinking about that Kiss anyway???

"Unable to stop thinking about someone" ...

Why is he not focusing on his Dream of chasing and killing Itachi... but some stupid Teammate called Naruto....????

“Worried about someone”

This is the only genuine smile Sasuke had throughout Part 2 until Chapter 698. All other times he had only a kind of smug smirk.... 

“Unable to stop thinking about someone”

Why the hell he cares about Naruto's Chakra anyway???

"Worried about someone"

Hmmm.... Corporate want you to find the difference between two picture... But it’s the same picture...

“Worried about someone”

“I’ll take you and Naruto with me”.... Dude... Seriously??? Just let that Idiot Naruto die along with everyone and save you own ass. 

“Unable to stop thinking about someone”

If this is the version of Sasuke you mentioned in this Ask.... He shouldn’t have reacted this way.... Instead...

He should have asked this to Naruto... “Hey Naruto... You can heal the scars yourself after, eh??”.... Instead he was worrying about him UNNECESSARILY... Especially Sasuke knew that Naruto has healing abilities when he fought with Naruto in VoTE1. And this is Sasuke at age 32...

“Worrying about someone”

Where is that aloof Sasuke you spoke of, Anon????

So.... You said he was Aloof who wants everyone including Naruto to leave him alone, he focuses only on his personal Goals.... I’ve showed you 12 panels where Sasuke was shown to Worry about him/ can’t stop thinking about him/ interested in him (as described in Cambridge dictionary).... And Naruto was not around in any of the above panels (except for the one where he speed-walked to walk beside Naruto for no reason)... Why is Sasuke Obsessing about him????? [[I didn’t even add all the Panels... But still]]

The point is... Remove all the above panels under Obsession & Possessiveness section from the Manga... Still the story wouldn’t change... Sasuke planning to save Naruto from the Chakra Bombs served nothing to the plot. Because N ended up saving everyone with Minato’s Jutsu anyway.... 

If he truly wanted to be alone.... Why is he saving Naruto like he was something precious???? Why is he unnecessarily being possessive about Naruto’s life????

He wanted to be alone... He was indeed alone in Orochimaru Lair.... Why put Sai in a Genjutsu????

All the above panels proves that.... Sasuke want to be left alone.... but that doesn’t apply for Naruto.... He really wants to be around N but he was forcing himself to not be.... 

So, Yes... Sasuke was possessive about Naruto.... but not in a Romantic Sense..... For Example, If Naruto talks to Gaara in front of him, he won’t be behaving like that jealous possessive boyfriend and throws daggers towards Gaara....

But Sasuke is equally Obsessed about Naruto just as much as Naruto is Obsessed with Sasuke... It’s just that Naruto was very open about it and Sasuke was being very subtle...  

anon.. unfortunately sasuke is not the jealous/possessive/clingy/initiative type. he generally doesn’t care about things like that, he’s very focused on his own personal goals, if anything he’d be the one to shudder/run away from ‘relationships’. what you’re hoping he is, that’s all naruto. you’re describing naruto’s behavior. in canon. Lol

not this sasunaru stan saying sasuke is possessive towards naruto.. this aloof boy who just wants everyone including naruto to leave him alone so that he could pursue his goals. what do u think? is sasuke really this obsessive possessive type towards naruto or is it a fanon thing where sasunaru fans are keen to enforce naruto’s canon behavior on sasuke to push their own personal agenda 🤣 man sns stans irk me sometimes. love the ship but the shippers getting sasuke’s character all wrong is just… no no no no NO pls stop butchering him and read the manga properly without wearing shipper lenses

I think these are all your words from previous ask and this ask...... Let’s break it down.... 

Sasuke is not Jealous......

Sasuke is Possessive (not in a romantic way)... (With Itachi and Naruto)

Sasuke is not Clingy....

Sasuke is Initative.... 

Sasuke does care about things ‘like that’... Otherwise he wouldn’t be thinking about that Kiss fondly in his dying moments.... But that’s not his primary focus like Sakura or Hinata... It’s just that if it is from Naruto, he would accept it rather than rejecting it like he pushes away Sakura and Karin. 

Sasuke was the one to run away from ‘relationships’.... In Part 1, he was the one to initiate a relationship with Naruto..... In Part 2 War Arc, he was the one who refused to let go of Naruto by saving him many times.... It looks like he doesn’t want to run away from Naruto but instead forcing himself very hard to run away.... There is a major difference between what you said and what Sasuke was trying to do in the Manga...

Sasuke is Subtly but Equally Obsessive as Naruto..... And that too starting from Age 8 to 32... (Only with Naruto)

Sasuke is not Cold & Aloof (Only with Naruto)......

Sasuke is very focused on his own personal goals.... But always keeps his goals aside for Naruto.... (Only for Naruto)

Like I said in many posts before, I am not interested in this SasuNaru/NaruSasu business... All my write-ups are mostly based on Manga Panels and from a Logical Point of View rather than a Shipping Point of View. And I don’t know anything about this Fanon stuffs or Fan Arts or Fan Fiction portrayal.... 

So, In my opinion... You have a version of Sasuke and I feel like you are the one who is pushing your own personal Agenda whereas I’ve proved 7 out of 9 views about your version of Sasuke is wrong by citing all the Manga Panels related to it.... And you also seems to get Sasuke wrong too... Except for him not getting Jealous and not being Clingy....  

#sns #sasunaru #narusasu #sasunarusasu