#// OOF that shit hurted

[curtain-caller]

Coming in hot with more fight-or-flight content let's fucking go

#hi fi rush #hi-fi rush #rekka hi fi rush #mimosa hi fi rush #fightorflight #there's like. 5 different ways i can take this ship and Mimosa fell first Rekka fell harder is one of them #Mimosa to me is like. pretty experienced in relationships. but also unfortunately experienced in rejection breakups and situationships #she knows when she starts to catch feelings and knows how to mask them well and tries to gauge their interest #and when she thinks Rekka doesn't reciprocate she just goes 'same shit different day. ow oof why does this one hurt' and tries to move on #meanwhile Rekka bolts upright at 3 AM one morning drenched in sweat realizing she likes Mimosa and she is NOT TAKING IT WELL #she takes after QA-1MIL and starts gnawing on defects to let out that stress #also i just imagined them like. physically falling. and it's still very ic for them #Mimosa's graceful with her wings and is slow and precise about floating down into the romance pit #and Rekka comes hurtling down at 500 mph and leaves a crater where she landed and she's fine physically just very dizzy

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

hold on i need to get a thought and emotions out. so with Welcome Home, there seems to be a before and an after. obviously, we're in the after. the website is the after. and if it turns out that the story we see, the one where shit hits the fan and the show is practically erased, then... that already happened. whatever horrors we see, we'll know that there is no saving them. there is no happy ending - it happened, and it's tragic. the show is doomed to end and be scrubbed away. if any of the characters are revealed to be dead/gone by the website, then when/if we see them at an earlier point, we'll Know

and there's a special kind of dread and horror in that for us, the audience.

#im not articulating this the way i want to... #it's like going to see a tragic play. like romeo and juliet for instance. #we go into it knowing the end. they die. no matter what they die. every step they take leads to That End #every happy moment is undercut by the knowledge that it won't last #thinking about this makes me think that at some point learning more about the story/characters is gonna feel like digging up a grave #AGH I LOVE IT THOUGH I LOVE IT. IT HURTS SO MUCH BUT I LOVE IT #its a special feeling of dread/nostalgia/bittersweetness/resignation #and that is sensation in the chest that doesnt feel good but it also does somehow? it hurts but just enough to not be unbearable? #welcome home #welcome home speculation #welcome home puppet show #man i am so so so so scared for the puppets lmfao #i have some theories on the ways shit might go down. like little things. souring relationships and such #i also have a feeling that the story is really gonna hit home (ha) for me in Big Ways #like as soon as i saw clown say that it's kinda about 'when does a home become a house' and stuff #OOF. YIKES. WHEN DOES IT INDEED. i mean i know. ive lived it. im Living it. #this is gonna get unintentionally personal Real Fast in Several Fun And Festive Ways for me huh #i wonder if the story is gonna be uncovered linearly or not... #chewing on it chewing on it chewing on it #i can't wait to Understand the world/characters so that i can write fanfic. i want to so badly. i want to Explore #i want to hop into that grave and keep digging

[finniestoncrane]

i don’t really feel like sharing stuff just now so i’m gonna take a probably teensy little break from posting fics!!

i went on and fuckin on about my pornstar cooper but it’s whatever and i hate to be a fuckin bitch about it but i’ve been crying like a baby for two hours (rejection sensitivity haha) and oof it feels vulnerable and i’d rather not feel like that

#I AM SO DISAPPOINTED I WAS DOING SO WELL #i was feeling pretty proud of my stuff!! and my smut #and i never want to put another fuckin thing out there and it’s such a stupid reaction to have but oof hurts #wish i could not be a whiny baby about it BUT ALAS #I ain’t sleeping tonight I can FEEL IT and I have to go to WORK TOMORROW #at least I don’t need to sweat trying to finish fics aheeeeeem #have i just been shit the whole time? #because i dont do well on ao3 and that's apparently the great fuckin decider #just shit but a people pleaser who'll churn things out #i am so fuckin distraught #finnie shouts into the void

[luescris]

Okay. Look.

As much as I love 2012. And Rise. And 2003. I have a bone to pick with this franchise.

If anything. And I mean ANYTHING. Bad happens to these new turtle boys. And I mean in this specific movie, like 2012 bad, I WILL start rioting./hj

Like I get it. Angst is fun. But these are, quite literally, children. Who literally just started. Sure it took a few seasons for 2012/Rise to go through some shit but like. It is a lot to process on a daily basis and I would quite literally not be able to survive if I saw, as an example, MM!Leo being thrown out of a window/ambushed/sacrificed on his first freaking movie.

That being said. I doubt anything truly awful would happen since it is their first movie (and I have a feeling that if this goes down well they'll add/do more with this iteration which makes me SUPER stoked :D), just maybe something meant to invoke a normal amount of emotion. And then maybe later things pick up afterwards. But only. Afterwards.

I will admit that I am starting to get genuinely upset that they put 2012 through so much and did nothing with it, leaving us with crumbs. Should I be? I honestly don't know, but no one is telling me not to be, so yeah

I meant what I said though. Let these Mutant Mayhem boys be boys. Through our most, if not all of, the movie. Anyway yeah thanks for coming to my insane rambling

*runs and crashes through a window*

#does anyone else get uncomfortable with the thought of these boys being really hurt in the same way as 2012/2003/rise or is that just me #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt 2023 #ninja turtles #tmnt mutant mayhem #mutant mayhem #nick #nickelodeon #nickalodeon #like i get it. its just a cartoon. but a cartoon about teens. voices by teens. and itd be a little bit of an oof #if they went through dark shit 😬😬 #is that just me?? do i sound crazy??? do i care if i do?????? maybe not who knows HDHDH #my stuff #luescris

[willel]

"Tricked you? No, I saved you."

#stranger things #el hopper #will byers #willel #my content #more thoughts about these two scenes #you remember how will was like #'you hurt me' #and he clarified that soldiers hurt him and how PISSED he clearly was about it #I mean obviously it wasn't just Will #it was Vecna overwhelming him but still #made me think in a twisted way Vecna was getting revenge AND 'saving' Will from the lab #by killing everyone of course #that'll totally save a little kid #poor 8 year old El having to see all that shit #and feeling responsible that she freed him #oof

[laniidae-passerine]

sorry for loving Ed and Izzy more than Stede but maybe they shouldn’t have made Ed like that (a fellow mixed race babygirl suffering under her mental illnesses with a sadistic streak that is both informed by and independent of her childhood traumas) and Izzy like that (absurdly pathetic but in need of help and trying to get better)

#and Stede is also there!! #No I get why people love him but like wow #Ed is so real for the mixed girls. it’s so very specifically mixed race experience his character is informed by that in many ways #and Izzy is a loser!!! and I love a good loser!!!! Ed coded girl for real!! #btw regarding the sadism I think there is an enjoyment of causing pain. love a good maim!!! #I think hot girls can enjoy being sadistic sometimes I don’t think it’s a huge moral failing lmao. quirky girl shit #and I don’t think that sadism is because of the abuse sorry some of us are born freaks. and that’s not bad. #if white girls get to be cruel and crazy mean and love it then we do too that’s not racist to feel or acknowledge #but the wild lashing out and genuinely hurting the people you love part… oof. not intentional. but real #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd spoilers #izzy hands #edward teach #ed teach #blackbeard

[kamwashere]

when ava said that her greatest fear is being alone and abandoned, that the thing that scares her is having no one by her side when she gets paralyzed again. and her dying all alone in a strange, unfamiliar land.

#rewatching wn (for the nth time) and oof ouchie #that shit hurted #ava silva #warrior nun #wn #kamwashere

[hijackalx]

something that makes me sad about dark urge is when ur in the blighted village and u come across the hopscotch thing and dark urge is like “did i play games like this when i was young too? was i sweet once?” and they sound so hopeful but then u find out later that the answer is absolutely fucking not

#like something abt that be hurting me ough ugh oof *minecraft steve getting punched noises* #especially with redemption arc durge imagine finding out that ur past self was literally a monster and did horrible shit how do u continue #to live after that me personally im killing myself but thats prolly just me #the dark urge #dark urge

[gleesongtournament]

#glee #glee song tournament #glee polls #rachel berry #blaine anderson #santana lopez #pezberry #kitty wilde #sam evans #tina cohen chang #group: new directions #song: every breath you take #song: hey jude #season 5 #5x09 #5x02 #episode: frenemies #episode: tina in the sky with diamonds #round 3 #oof this shit hurted

[ssaalexblake]

Out of curiosity, do you think anything in particular will cause people to come around on 13, or it’ll just be that their perspectives kinda soften with time?

Hm. I don't really think there will be a particular event that'll cause people to suddenly change their perspective, the only way I see any kind of ~catalyst to changing opinions on 13 in a dramatic way is if RTD really does Whedon himself, and to be fair even thought I said i doubt there will be a catalyst, I genuinely think there's at least a chance he will actually do this because fandom is a fickle beast that will turn on people as if a bird on the wind. The fatal mix of hero worship and nostalgia, the time gap where fandom has had More than enough time to become attached to their own view of things were back in the day even if that view doesn't entirely mesh with what actually transpired. The passage of time leaving viewers nowadays far less forgiving of the type of things rife in his work that can be written off on 'product of its time' for 2006 but will not be if they show up again in 2023. The expectations being So high. People only have So much ability to write things off before the straw breaks the camel's back.

I have seen this pattern in fandom before, and yeah it might not happen, but this is also potentially whedon after the first avengers movie being everybody's best buddy straight to being their most disdained after aou.

Generally speaking, when shit like that happens, people tend to reassess preconceived notions. a 'why did we think that one was ever bad?' as a result of the above eventuality is the only way i see some kind of Thing happening that softens people on 13.

But, also, those tags was me kind of responding to the op's tags on their gifset, because despite the fact that the people on the internet have been sipping the nmd's misogynistic koolaid light without even realising it for years, the vast majority of viewers Not being chronically online haven't been doing that and were fine with her era. Judging her popularity only from the people obsessed with the show on the internet is absurd, and i include my positive views in that. I am not the average viewer lol, neither are the weirdos being hateful, no matter How much it benefits them to make people think Everybody hates it and that they're peddling the Bestest Opinion and that it's not cool to like the girl doctor.

So with the caveat that I do not think she's actually unpopular (radiotimes favourite doctor poll my beloved. 10 & 13 coming in highest with 21% of the vote each. Over 50,000 votes in total and he received only abt 90 more than her. There was no way to victimise anybody on this poll with strategic voting, no amount of block voting to support one doctor could dent her total and she came second out of all the doctors by a few measly votes. The general public Like Her.)

In time, it will soften. The misogynists will stop spending all their time talking about how uncool it is to like her to peer pressure people and the ones who don't eventually stop will be marked as losers obsessed with insulting her not worth listening to, so people will just watch it with no one sitting on their shoulder telling them it's bad. People will rewatch it with an open mind instead. I literally have had (multiple times) people in my activity page saying once they stopped listening to people saying how bad 13's era was and went back to it with an open mind it was good! This was a few different people! This has already happened and will continue to.

The nmd squad, quite successfully, were allowed to make it uncool to like her. They were open that their reasoning was misogynistic and even if they didn't use the word, anybody who knows what that means knows they are, but it was not called out as such and it poisoned the well because it gave them legitimacy they did not deserve. It won't stay that way forever, though. People will watch it and judge it Fairly without their influence. Let it have flaws without using them as an excuse to express hatred they already felt for no reason. Let it shine where it shines. Discuss its issues analytically instead of as a gotcha. Talk about themes. Discuss the characters.

This bullshit shall pass, basically.

idk how long we'll have to wait, but i'm willing. I got through being in the fandom and open about my love for it when it aired, and i sure as hell am not missing the moment when people stop being weird and can just be normal about it. I earned that sense of peace through suffering and i intend to collect. I'm not letting it go though. Being an active fan Really Really Sucked.

(shout out to my man colin baker who told the misogynists to get over it from points A to Z. Had everybody had the balls to do what he did they'd never have gotten a foothold and would have been booed out of the room as they should have been.)

#gwengoodrich #dw shit #this is not a comment on if rtd would theoretically deserve it #i honestly cba to have That discussion #but fandom Is Like That and imo #he's shoved himself in an awkward spot #it's a gamble what he's done here #might pay off but oof if it does not it's gonna hurt #dw meta

[boxwinebaddie]

nina do you ever plan on posting the remainder of pep?

this is nonsensical but this is how i feel ig

#i'll edit this later idk i just wanted to get this out #but idk pep like triggers the shit out of me if im real #i loved peppermint but i got very sick writing it #i was not treated kindly all the time it was v stressful #the formatting is hideous #i want to private it but i wont #im also an adult lady i dont want to write about my high school style anymore like i just really dont #like its not totally finished its mostly just dialogue and id have to fill in the gaps and think a lot idk #thinking about peppermint gives me hives #im sorry i know we loved that fanfic #and ill think about just spoiling it in one go at some point MAYBE but i just want to move on #like i seriously just want to be free of peppermint like thank you for getting me here but i have so much more i wanna do #theres so much au style i wanna flesh out ( which tbh my tfbw s+k are the most similar to pep style just Super and Villian ) #new stuff i want to explore i just...i can talk about pep every once and a while but i dont really like doing it all the time #its just very overwhelming for me and i really have just moved past it so idk its ok if u dont want to stay for #my rm stuff or my other ncu stuff like if u are only here for peppermint i will not be hurt if u dont wanna stay #but im not really in the headspace to talk about it and dont really want to rip that wound open anymore im trying to heal #im glad that that fanfic brought me all of you #you were the best part of writing peppermint #thank you and i'm sorry #edit: oof u can tell where i started to have a panic attack #but feel free to ask me about tkak or the tfbw style #i can link you the references and the pinterest boards are fire i promise i am cooking a lot i feel a lot abt those

[kaleeshbled]

𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐞 𝐤𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 ?

knuckles it feels as though you have fought every day of your life. sometimes, you cannot even tell how much of the blood on your hands is your own... and how much comes from those who've tried to hurt those you defend. you deserve the gentleness of a kiss to your bruised knuckles and broken skin, a reminder that you are not only made of violence.

#★ 「​🇬​​🇦​​🇲​​🇪​ ​🇹​​🇮​​🇲​​🇪​」 ★ dash game #(I did this for shits and giggles and now I hurt) #(because yeah Grievous needs that exactly) #(especially that last part is oof) #(he's known nothing but violence his entire existence)

[hauntingblue]

Why do they say dragon is luffy's father but doesn't look much like him... I mean it is true but why point it out... in that way he doesn't look like garp either

#i thot we were gonna get baby luffy but no.... old man luffy..... #also the opening is so intense 'dreams save all of us' and the arc starts with luffys dream i might throw up #zoro and brook staying behind to protect them from the government.... yeah.... VEGAPUNK AND DRAGON??? ACTUALLY FLABBERGASTED #maybe vegapunk is part of the rev army but then he modified kuma on the behalf of the gov??? thats so cruel..... #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 1094 #the fucking opening..... dream save all of us like okay damn it goes hard #incredible how they just take the hit from the laser.... minor injuries that's all... seraphim jinbe has mr pink's power??? #how come sanji hasnt immediately jumped on the seraphim like god. and nami not being able to hurt children yeaaahhhh ROBIN GO OFF!!! #zoro conveniently being the only one who doesnt see the seraphim..... come on.... #york what an icon i wish thay were my job too. eat shit sleep amazing #900 YEARS AGO???? EMPTY CENTURY TIME!!!!!!!! LETSGOOOOO D LORE D LORE D LORE #episode 1095 #and that is IT for today. yesterday i watched like 5 today we are measured. #<- this is when you find out i stack episodes on my posts even if i dont watch them one after the other... #i am sensitive rn and the preview has ohara and robin crying i am not making it out of this one folks #YEAH YEHA THE KINGDOM (OF THE D I AM SURE) VS THE WORLD GOV usopp hitting his head against the floor akdjka #clover and noland have to be related the flora on head has to be genetic or smth #also now they showed lulusiq being obliterated we can assume imu was responsible for destroying this advanced kingdom right #THE BOOKS FROM OHARA MADE IT????!!!!! DRAGON IN OHARA??? THEY HAVE THEM??? BUT THEIR BASE BURNED???? #luffy calling the robot robo ace. should i end it all rn be honest. and the robot turned on. nvm someone was in there #vegapunk meeting with luffy knowing dragon oof also ohara was in the west blue???? wow #episode 1096 #that giant was the one in dressrosa??? hierjudin??? omg dragon without his tattoo... 33?? damn he is 55 now... #OMG JAGUAR D SAUL GIANT FROM ELBAF????? VEGAPUNK DIDNT JOIN THE REVILUTIONARIES??? SELL OUT!!! #dragon pacifist???? god this lore. sanji didnt know about ivasan??? the books are in elbaf... with saul.... omg.....robin ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ #jinbes face reacting to vegapunks fruit ajdjsjs did vegapunk cut off his head? is he stupid?? -luffy #vegapunk wants to make wikipedia.... omg lucci already too... the robot attacked marie geoise ✍️✍️✍️ #episode 1097

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’ #which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16! #he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’ #so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident! #so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired

[daz4i]

i know aging isn't the end of the world and 24 isn't that old and life isn't a race etc etc etc. however,

#i think a big reason i feel so bad abt being this age is ppl told me this is when things start to get better #and i still feel the same way i did as a teenager so. well. is it really 😐 #(being on t probably isn't helping but it's been over 3 years already so... not an excuse i think) #but I'm also physically aging like the reason i barely upload selfies anymore is i see myself getting uglier every day #despite fighting for my life to at least take care of my face and hair...... can't fight the passage of time 😔 #+ ofc. my (younger) friends being way more sorted out than i am on every level #again ik life isn't a race but. it can't help but hurt to know I'm still behind literally everyone i know #and my excuses for that aren't even good. bc other disabled ppl my age are also more sorted out than i am #other depressed ppl other borderlines other autistics etc etc. hell these are also my irl friends 😭 #and it's dumb. bc feeling like i wasted my life isn't really pushing me to change that now. just makes me want to die even more #(bc i mean what's the point. i will never catch up. I'm still at the starting line AND i move so slow it doesn't even count) #(i don't have a single milestone ppl my age have not even finishing high school which is like. the bare minimum) #(and it sucks bc i also know i have potential i KNOW i can do shit in theory i know I'm smart and got skills. but i can't put it to use) #(and now this is turning into less of a thing abt age and just generally me talking abt how i wasted the last 24 years) #this was more of a stressed rant abt how I'm turning ugly and feeling super old but well. it all boils down to self loathing at the end 👍 #vent #negative // #ask to tag #sorry for being so depressing all day oof ik i already said it before but it's been a rough couple of months #(nothing happened my brain just needs to get flushed down the toilet ^_^) #edit: i think. part of my panic about aging. is bc as a kid i was used to being the youngest everywhere #i was the youngest in my class bc i started school a year early. i was the youngest in acting school bc they don't normally accept teenagers #and in addition to that as an adult but before starting t i was always told that i LOOK young too #but now ik i look like I'm in my 20s. and it's killing me that i aged this much in so little #i wonder if shaving my beard will help but i don't wanna get misgendered 😐😐😐 and rn it's the only thing guarding me from that

[tinylilvalery]

Everyone ran a train on my boy Tom this episode

#tom wambsgans #succession HBO #i don't feel so good oof #that shit hurt to witness