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hello gay people

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couldn't decide on both ends of the girlhood spec so i just put all of it because thats my girl right here !!

#crowley #good omens 2 #anthony j crowley #crowley my girly #thats literally me #bildad the shuhite #she her crowley #good omens #go2

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that's exactly what i've been saying for AGES !!!

Crowley’s “And I would like to spend -hmm.” and Knightley’s “If I loved you less, I might be able to talk about it more.” twirling in my head…. they’re putting me down tomorrow, lads

#crowley as knightley #only crowley dared to point god's flaws to az #same way that only knightley dared to point perfect emma flaws

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anya taylor-joy for harper’s bazaar, february 2020

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to the world, angel. ଘ(੭`-´)੭* ੈ

#crowley #good omens #she her crowley #that's literally ME

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linking my religious trauma to the go2 finale

! ! ! spoilers ahead and also a very confusing rant ! ! !

this finale made me realise some things abou how the religious trauma stills impacts me in such a hard way . . .

like, i really like to think in myself as crowley, not because i've painted my hair red to be more like her, but because i was raised deeply into the catholicism but slowly i started to question and to question to the point that i do not believe in the religion (or the great plan) anymore.

i thought i was 100% sure of things and that the religious trauma did not affect me at all. i was completely over it and okay.

but the season 2 made me realize that it was lonely and that i lied.

if i was in crowley's place, i would've totally acepted to go back to haeven and to going back to being an angel just to stay by the side of the person i love the most ardently and that i've wished to never be parted away from.

it's a stupid take? hell yeah.

but oh boy, it's literally the thing that i do everyday in here. i choose to still go to the church, to act invested in the religion and to help in the altar just so i don't get separeted from the people that i love the most, my parents.

it pains me just to be there, to hear god's words and not believing in them. like, i get so unconfortable there, to the point that it makes me want to peel off all my skin from my body, and i know that i don't belong in there and i don't want to belong.

but just the though of my parents not loving me anymore, of them being desapointed if i tell them the truth, makes me want to kill myself. i'd rather die than not being with them . . . oh just imagine oh desapointed victorian crowley is on me for this thoughs . .

but like . . . at the end of the day that's all the catholicism is about right ?? this toxic kinky behavior that encorages you to think that all of your sufferings and pains will be rewarded with inconditional love .

i'm not the crowley that i though i was. but one that i just wish to do it just like her and be able to firmly speak about my boundaries so i dont get hurt by being in a heaven that forces me to act that all my kindness and goodness was a gift of god.

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #go2 spoilers #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #michael sheen #religious trauma #metatron #good omens season 2 #good omens review #review #rant post #david tennant #anthony j crowley

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religious trauma & the good omens 2 finale

! ! ! spoilers ahead and also a very confusing rant bc this finale made me think about my religious trauma and how it stills affects me ! ! !

i'm a firm believer that azi just made the most terrible decision ever seen on earth instead that the fuckass metraton drugged his coffe or miracled a change in his heart . . . because religious trauma can just get into your head in a way that really fucks u up . . .

like what comming from and being in the "good" side does to aziraphale is pretty well developed and showed across the episodes from both seasons. even that now he's together with crowley in their own side, he stills firmly believes in heaven = good, hell = bad.

and because of this belief that is deeply rooted into him, he can't help but associate all the things that made him love crowley to little remaining pieces of heaven inside her. for aziraphale, what makes crowley stand apart from other fallen angles angels is that she saw the flaws in the great plan and choose to fight it.

but i don't think that aziraphale believes that it was crowley's free will to go against the great plan, but the remaining bits of heaven inside her fighting the bad demonic side and making her fight for the right things, the way god planned it all.

he mistook crowley's kindness and goodness with humanity because he's blinded by the perception that all good things and influences belong to god and to heaven.

the heaven that aziraphale chose to return stills the same heaven that hunted him and almost burned him to non-existence simply because he did what his heart told him to do, because he saw the flaws in the great plan and choose to fight it, even if his morals constantly made him think that he was doing wrong by being against god's wishes.

and we can't deny that he tricks himself away from guilt by believing that's all part of a bigger god's plan, that all he did was right and god proudly agrees with it even if the entirety of heaven does not to.

when this is the aziraphale we know, is not hard to believe that the metraton would not have much work to do in convincing him to going back to heaven.

and the metraton is said to be the voice of god herself ... this is such an important detail to remember, because aziraphale can deal with being rejected by heaven by reling in the omnipotent & silent presence of god silently telling him that he did no wrong. but when the voice of god speaks, how can he not hear it ??

like,, do you guys have the slightest ideia of how many times church people say the most evil and hurtfull things in the name of god, just like the metraton, to manipulate and trick people into staying into religion ???

and one of the main points of churches that make people stay, is the feeling of belonging, even that they are saying things that hurt you deeply inside using god's voice, they also make you feel loved and seem.

even after being kicked out of heaven to their own side, aziraphale stills deeply believes that heaven is the only right choice, in his heart he knows that he is a good being, and so is crowley . . . he feels that they belong to heaven, like all good things.

he can recognize all heavens wrongs such as killing job's kids for a fun bet or drowning everybody else but noah's family and some pair of animals, or to end the entire world just for a war between heaven and hell. and he desaproves it all, to the point of going against it because he choses the good side and all goodness belongs to god (even if god's wishes for all this harm to happen anyway)

and you guys realize how tempting it is to go back to the good and right side but also to a position that offers you the power of changing all the institutional failures of heaven ?? not only that but also allows him to still being by crowley's side ??

his angelic brain got corrupted to the point that he can't see that all heaven (him included) do is to hurt people but geting away with it by using god's name and goodness.

he can't see that being back in heaven would hurt crowley more than leaving him behind. because he believes that she deserves forgiveness and deserves heaven.

he got heartbroken after she refused his proposal but he didn't run back to her (even if crowley stayed there and waited and hoped for it to happen) because aziraphale is certain about his beliefs and if he cannot change heaven with crowley, he can change heaven for her.

that's why aziraphale smiles in that lift ride.

he thinks he will comeback to get crowley to heaven and finally be able to be toghether with the love of his life after he changes heaven for even better . . .

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #go2 spoilers #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #michael sheen #religious trauma #metatron #good omens season 2 #good omens review #review #rant post #coffee theory

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doom patrol getting cancelled is my villain origin story

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it was really sweet of him i think ...

Everyone handles grief differently but Larry deciding to mummify all his friends and sit them at the dining room table is um. Something else

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that one scene in nostalgia patrol where larry instantly recognizes the movie playing at the rita farr retrospective and shushing everyone and its like awww hes such a supportive friend. and then he starts excitedly explaining the plot of a woman being pushed into a marriage that her mother keeps telling her will give her everything she ever wanted, but the woman has a secret lover she has to keep hidden and its like oh. oh.

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Um cara fofo cuidando das suas plantinhas

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LARRY TRAINOR ALWAYS SITS SO BABYGIRLELY BECAUSE HES A FUCKING PILOT.

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stayc girls , it’s going down

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yoon ♡ after breaking up (kbs song festival 2022) 

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elizabeth bennet said "i can't fix him nor would I for a million dollars" and fitzwilliam darcy said "wait she thinks I need to be fixed? .... she's right, I've gotta work on myself and learn how to be more understanding and generous" and then he did. and elizabeth was like "shit.... he's so understanding and generous now.... makes me realize that my stubbornness and pride in my discernment are obstacles in the lives of myself and others" and then they got married and that's why pride and prejudice has been a bestseller for two hundred years

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my chemical romance and “angels”

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