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Ariana Papademetropoulos

Phases of Venus, 2022

Oil on canvas

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“Stay with me tonight, whispered the Moon. The Sun will walk you home in the morning.”

— author unknown

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Lost in Your Youth

I sit and ponder right now. I think about the weekend I just spent with my not so baby girl anymore. It brings tears of joy, sadness and pain. It brings memories of my youth. the good and the bad of it.

Almost makes me yearn it again. Then again it reminds me of the things I went through and the pain of heartache. I hate that you, baby girl, are going through the same.

Finding your way through your own mistakes. Learning love by loving. Learning heartache through love. Losing the moment by going too far and then regretting the action.

I remember those times very well. I wished I could say the right things or do the right things to make it different for you. I know that your heart yearns to have it like it once was. Just one more one last time.

I wished I could hold your heart and take the misery and the want to go away. The desire that once was now gone and so fast. So unexpected. Leaving you to sit there and wonder. What? Why? Me? You? Mystery. Mystery of what makes people do the things that we do.

What makes one person turn and run away and another one turn and run towards. What takes the magic away? Leaving one to wonder. What did happen. What will happen. What to expect. Such an unfair torture of the heart and the mind.

The mind that gets us in trouble. Think. Think. Think. Thats all it will do. Twisting the thoughts into more thoughts into more thoughts. Making sleepless nights. Thinking. Love that. Your mind conjuring up every what if, what will be and what will not. Why does it torture us so badly.

Leaving you in the same desperate thought you were when you first started thinking. Nowhere. knowing nothing more than what you knew when you started thinking about the whole damn thing

The mind making you crazy. Crazy and still unknowing. What made you turn your back and stop being you. Why does the heart hurt, and the head just make it worse.

I see you as me. I pray that you can be smart and not hurt too many more times. Live it. Love it. Don't forget it. Take each lesson of life and remember. remember that terrible desire, questions of the confusion only to be more confused when the whole fucking thought process is over.

The bittersweet memories I have through you, and I so don't want you to hurt. I don't want you to be sad. I want to see you smile and love. Love without ties. He has made sure now that you will never want another like him. He is the first. The last. The one who turned and walked away leaving you to stand alone and wonder.

I love you so much and I pray that the angels take your pain away and guide you in the right directions. Be the strong. Be the loving. But always remember the one. The one who took you and your heart only to leave it broken and wondering.

I hope you walk through it sooner than later. Till you do, it will torture you. Make your heart hurt and the tears fall. My memories of those times. Many times, for me unfortunately, I never learned the lesson the first time.

I hope it falls into place and if it doesn't, I hope it subsides and lets your mind rest and your heart heal. I love you. I wished I could hold your heart in my hands, but I cannot. I can only be there and love you and listen. Absorbing the feelings as my own. I can only be here for you as I always will be.

I pray that my little "grown up" baby girl takes her time. Enjoy, learn live and love. Love it all .... even if it hurts sometimes. Because maybe you smile when you look back.

I was lost in your youth this weekend. I was intrigued to know that I was once 18 years old. I once lived that life you are now. Becoming my own person as you are yours. Learning the road of life. One mistake at a time yet one enticing, exciting moment at a time too.

The good times, friends, people, places and things makes it all worth the while. The mistakes just teach us some steppingstones to the better. Leaving the bad behind and going back out for more.

I never thought i would be on this end of the spectrum. Watching the child that I taught go out in the world and dive right in. Just like I did. I am excited for you. It does feel surreal. Like a dream that I will awake any moment on, and I love the opportunity I gave myself having you and your brother.

You all were the best thing in life. No mistakes to learn from there. I love you both more than words could ever express. Unconditional. To the moon and back. infinity and beyond. I love you.

Mom

Live , Let Live. I pray for the highest good for all.

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THESE FUCKING BLUBBERING THOUGHTS OF MINIE

It's Friday morning at 4:09 a.m. It has become a habit to stay up every night until 3 or 4 a.m. It's almost a stress if I don't go to bed or sleep till then or if I go before then. Who knows what that is about.

It's August and It is between being end of summer, beginning of Indian summer or a quick fall. It's Maine and it's so unpredictable it could be fucking snowing tomorrow. Baha.

My life is mostly full of work, tears, work, more tears. I have a son going to be 16 and a daughter leaving for college next week and a husband that is working on the road and having an affair with my x friend. Did I mention she was a cunt. Who could possibly ask for anything more in life.

Although, I do have several things to be grateful for I have several things to be sad and angry about as well. Do I just settle and deal with the husband situation. Yes, probably so. Although the thoughts of them and even just her period make me squirm. Make me pissy and angry. GRRRR. I may deal but I will not be quiet about it.

The children leaving and starting their adulthood.... not so much. I mean I can deal, and I want them to grow and come into their own person, but I can be sad that my little ones are growing up. I can be pissed and sad about my husband and my friend, who i fucking hate more than anything.

I cannot describe the anger and the feeling that wells up inside of me when I think about that two faced, lying cunt. Anyways...don't get me started because that will be the only thing I will think about. Not that I don't have enough of her on my mind or in my head. Fuck I just really want to rip her head right off her fucking shoulders.

Moving on.... I am going through another phase of my life. Learning to let go and then I guess I find out the next steps, the next plan the universe has in store for me. Yet, for now, I will deal with the circumstances with as much patience as I can muster and pray that she has some mercy, the universe that is, to get me through each day of bad to the good that I know will be at the end of this chapter of my life.

All in all, life hasn't been too bad. I've made it through all the heartbreaks thus far. This one more intense than most considering I have been with him 24 years of my 55 years. I will win. I will be the one who comes out on top both in the relationship and in life. I just know cause that's what the universe has done for me, and I manifest that shit if I can.

Till the next time I need to pour out these fucking thoughts.....may you all have a blessed weekend and your man not be fucking another.

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by blueming_soo

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When your Sun sign and Moon sign don't cooperate.

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Witchy trees

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Water Energies

Moon Water

It could energize crystals

Perfect for a magical bath

For bless yourself, your home or magical tools

Spring Water

Good for Fae work

Excellent for abundance

Used in love or fertility spell

Used in subtle magick

Snow Water

Recommended for spells that focus on purity endings and change

For slow working spells

Rain Water

Multi-purpose

Excellent for growth and rebirth spells

Good for spells that you want to keep gaining power over time

River Water

Recommended for rituals and spells that has to do with moving on.

Focusing energy

Breaking through rough times

Warding

Good for activating tools

Ocean Water

Good for cleansing

Healing

Banishing

Used for protection rituals and spells

Cleansing crystals

Thunderstorm Water

Add a magical boost to any work

Good for spells and rituals that has to do with emotional strengthening, confidence and motivation

Virtuous for hexes and curses

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If I listen I learn. If I talk I share my knowledge if I whisper I blow a soft breath upon your neck.buoy will feel my presence

When I cry you will feel the sting of my tears. When I hurt you will hurt as well. When I scream you will feel the pain that I feel deep inside .

With each day i will become stronger and you weaker. Had you stayed true and been who you acted like you were maybe you wouldn’t be in the situation you are.

How does the slap of Karma feel on your soal. The deep aching desire and need ? Never good. Yea, when you lay weak and miserable you will think of me.

You will remember our friendship and you will cringe at the horrid things you have done to my soal, the ripping of my heart that you intentionally did to me or did you?

Were you aware of the ache that was in my heart , The pain that took my breath away and made me ache and wallow in my desperation s crying endless tears .

Ripping my heart into pieces and making my mind go crazy and my heart shatter .

Now the burden comes back around. May your nights be scary and full of bad things and may you walk in your misery.

Thinking of me every time you hurt, which will be plenty just like me.

It will weaken you and bring you to your knees making you wished you were gone . Free from your thought.

To be or not to be . May everything Then turn black and sour before your harvest.

Then you will know what the consequences are of being a heartless bitch. Then you will be a heartless bitch full of pain , misery and insecurities.

You will know that no good comes out of being no good.

Have a miserable, horrid day /night bitch.

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All about the sky

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