sommyspeaks

[sommyspeaks]

i wanna go to heaven some day

everlasting peace

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[sommyspeaks]

when does sadness become anger?

and when does anger become violence

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[sommyspeaks]

time to start restricting even more to become pretty and beautiful.

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[sommyspeaks]

he left.

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[sommyspeaks]

you are never going to have today again

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[sommyspeaks]

i don’t feel like every other adult. i feel like my mindset is younger, my intelligence is younger, and i don’t like it.

[sommyspeaks]

heaven or hell. both would be better than this shit hole.

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[sommyspeaks]

the frustrating urge to go back to that person who abused you :((

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[sommyspeaks]

he’s too focused on work, he admitted he doesn’t have time for me. whatever

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[sommyspeaks]

I suck at this disorder

[sommyspeaks]

• Reasons to not b1nge :

🌸 eating only ever makes you feel worse

🌸 bloatings gonna hit like a b1tch tomorrow

🌸 the cravings WILL go away

🌸 you dont deserve it, you need to study more

🌸 youre going to regret it one bite in

🌸 you've been so good dont let this set you back

🌸 one binge could lead to a series of binges

🌸 wait for a meta day

🌸 YOU decide what goes in ur body

🌸 the numbers on the scale aren't an accident

🌸 an empty stomach feels better than regret

🌸 you're serious about this right? act serious

🌸 dont lose control.

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(this is totally directed at myself im writing this to take up time,,, my period started mid fast and im wearing this cute tight affliction shirt tomorrow but i get bloated so easily. also, how do yall sleep i love the feeling of an empty stomach but god forbid i sleep on it..)

[sommyspeaks]

[sommyspeaks]

i feel like the next step for me is d3ath. that is the only option where it feels as though progress will be made.

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[sommyspeaks]

skin is the best snack. it’s low calorie, and you can eat as much as you want! it’s unlimited.

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[sommyspeaks]

god, i’m so fat and disgusting

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[sommyspeaks]

pro@na tip #2.

if you aren't hungry enough to eat a food you don't like, you aren't hungry enough to eat period.

[sommyspeaks]

Every time you say fuck it, I don’t care and eat.

There’s a 100% chance you’ll care later. Trust