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063021. journaling + getting into some small embroidery projects, maybe?

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Here comes the Study Season.

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Current desk set-up. Been keeping myself entertained with gaming and journaling. My acads is still a mess. I recently bought GTA V and 10 year old me playing GTA San Andreas on computer shops is very happy. My thoughts are mostly a mess too. It’s a meh phase now that my 2nd Sem is here already.

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I felt that. And I am not sure if I should be relieved or terrified about the fact that people like me exist.

I think one problem of romanticizing everything in life is that it leaves you very indecisive and not knowing what to do with your life.

Because now I want to study history and languages and mathematics and physics and philosophy and engineering and I want to be everything and that desire is so overwhelming that it leaves me unable to do anything at all.

So I just sit there on the floor with my abundance of dreams and my third existential crisis this month bot not knowing what to do.

#it is like 5am here #and i have been trying to learn last year's biology for hours #but only made it to page three #so! #life is fun! #studying #studyblr

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tw warning: existential crisis

wanting to study while having an existential crisis is so fucking hard like,

I want to catch up with things but all of a sudden my brain is like ‘’what if you die tomorrow? maybe you won’t even get to see your twenties? who  knows?? not me lol.’’ so I just sit there, think about nothing but piano melodies for hours.

#existential crisis #studying #I wanna study #but my brain says no #in a way i guess

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me:I should take notes on biology

also me:but,, I am pretty behind on physics

still me:I will fucking fail chemistry if I don’t start right now

me:oh, I just remembered that I still didn’t start subjects from last year (that I missed because of covid)

still me: the exams are coming I should do history

me: but what about-

also me: SHUT UP AND GO TO SLEEP. You have to go to work in a few hours what the fuck do you think you are doing.

#but if you ask me #i will say #everything is okay #life is great #i am a perfectly organized student #haha oops #fuck this shit im out #this is fine #*chuckles nervously* #*chuckles* im in danger #studying #student

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Twilight and Shadow

April 10th 2021

#oh my gosh #sky #clouds

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‘’But it’s a monstrous thing to live in fantasy.’‘

I lay down and think.

Think of all the characters i’ve created.

Think of all the stories i’ve imagined.

An entire universe i’ve created.

I did that.

I made that.

I fantasize about being a famous author.

That one day people will read and listen to the stories I have to tell.

It’s a wonderous thing to imagine. To fantasize. To believe.

But it’s a monstrous thing to live in fantasy.

#i felt this #dark academia

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#that's a ton of butterflies #dark academia

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fuck this shit, let's learn Latin and summon demons

#dark academia #chaotic academia #chatoic academia #dark academia aesthetic #aesthetic #chaotic energy #chaotic #summoning demons #latin #i love this #let me join #i wanna help #let me JOIINNN #JSDNJH

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“Success doesn’t happen overnight. Keep your eyes on the prize and don’t look back”

—Erin Andrews

#studyblr #studystudystudy #inspiration

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Day ??/100

A beautiful playlist 

How long it has been? A week or something? I am dropping this challenge!! And I am pretty happy about it. 

Because people in this challenge study a lot and I don’t. I work at a part-time job, I do all the house chores, I go to school and study one (1) subject for at least three (3) days. But I didn’t really include half of those in my ‘productivity challenge’ posts because they are just a part of my every-day life, and I am pretty used to them.

And this makes me feel bad, so I am dropping this challenge but will try to be more active! 

#100 days of productivity #day ??? #studyblr #studying #productivity #and stuff

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my coffee isn’t workiinnngggggggggggg   aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i wanna sleeep but i wanna studyyyy ughhghghghghghghgg

#uuuurgh #i am gonna die as a touch-starved sleeples kid #i just want to cuddle #uuuggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #okay imma sleep #g-bye #g-night #and stuff #yup

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 Day 6/100

Just wanted to share my favorite Tsukishima photo. XD

So today (Actually yesterday, It’s currently 6AM here) I have done:

Reviewed biology 

Took Religion Culture notes (it’s literally half of the book wtf..) 

Researched the Ulnar Nerve ‘cause I was bored

#i know it is not much #but #actually #forget about it #i slept through the day #so yeehaw #studyblr #100 days of productivity #day 6

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I felt that

GODDAMMIT WHY CAN I NOT JUST FALL IN LOVE AND STUDY WITH YOU IN A SUNLIT CORNER OF THE CAMPUS LIBRARY WHY CAN I NOT BUY U COFFEE WHY CAN I NOT PEPPER UR FACE IN KISSES WHY CAN WE NOT GAZE AT THE STARS AND TELL THE MOON SHE’S PRETTY WHAT THE FUCK

#:( im sad #i want that too #please </3 #romantic academia #dark academia #studyblr

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I do this too! 

When I am doing something important to me (studying, languages, politics, mental health & pretty much everything), I pretend I am in a YouTube video. 

I even talk aloud and look at random places that I imagine the camera would be. 

It is like talking to myself but when that random thoughts/questions pop in my head I pretend like it is a subscriber and try to explain it w/my best. Or make a note about researching it ‘cause my subscribers are important to me. :’)

And the best thing about this is, it actually works! (for me, at least)

I am;

Feeling so much more confident with what I wear because of my ‘Video’ about ‘’Clothes, Body Types, Beauty and some more Crap’’

Talking more because ‘’Allowing yourself to get rejected is so fun, pal’’

Actually Studying because ‘’Pomodoro, Feynman, Space Repetition and some more stuff’’ & ‘’That's a shit ton of work, but well you gotta start from somewhere, right?’’

And moree, so I love this.

I don’t know if anyone else does this but...

Sometimes when I’m unmotivated, I imagine I’m in a productivity YouTube video...

“And then I turn off my phone and put it across the room so I won’t get distracted”

“And then I open my textbook and start reading the chapter and taking notes”

Which is really just me trying to get myself to do the things I need to.

And then I get into the tips...

“And remember, it’s okay if your notes don’t look pretty, what matters is that they work for you”

“And even if you get overwhelmed, just take a breath and center yourself”

Which is really just me trying to calm myself down and focus.

And I’ll do this for anything and everything, not just studying. Like cleaning, getting ready, my morning and night routines, cooking, etc.

I always feel kinda wierd about it after the fact, but I mean it helps...

Im just wondering if anyone else does this?

#studyblr #studying #study motivation #student #i am the main character #of my very own show #i like this #because it makes me feel loved & accapted #by myself #and i am important for myself

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Day 3,4,5/100

I love him. <3

Heyyo! I don’t know what to say about not posting for three days (about this challenge), but I was being productive!! The reason why I wasn’t posting was because I was studying around 00.00-07.00 AM and I didn’t know how to say what I have done/studied. But I can’t continue this study ‘cause I have school tomorrow. (-,-)

Yeah, whatever. Here are the things I did in the last three days:

Took almost all of my biology notes (from 79 pages & 5 and half an hour of videos)

Did some Gothic Calligraphy for fun

Did my English homework

Breathe?? Got some sleep???

Yup, I didn’t do much, but I swear I am trying. And I will work harder. But right now I just need to finish my bio notes and sleep.

Have a great day/night!

#studyblr #studying #student #biology #i have been taking notes for D A Y S #but i am doing good #im happy #:) <3 #cats #cute cats #cat #baby cat #uwu #midnight study #100 days of productivity #day 3 #day 4 #day 5