p0pefrancis

[p0pefrancis]

Have you ever been told to never let go of what you love? I have. I'm stuck somewhere in between this and letting you go for your own happiness. I want you, I only want you, and I don't want to let go of you, but do you want me? Would you fight for me? Do you care that much anymore? You never let go of what you love, but what if what you love wants to leave? Do you say no? Do you tell them to stay? This is where I'm stuck: wanting to move on and let you go, let us go, let it be over, and wanting to hold on, keep you, keep us. I wish I knew how you felt, that would help, but it's not my place to ask. I love you, I'll always be yours, as often as I say it. I don't think I can let you go, I don't think I want to, maybe I can find comfort in the uncertainty, with it comes no change. I think I can live with that. Maybe you'll leave, maybe I'll let go then, maybe I won't, but right now you're here, even if only a little, and I'll happily hold onto what I have as long as I have it.

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[p0pefrancis]

I like to believe you miss me. Part of me wants you to wake up at night and wish I was there. Part of me hopes the blanket I bought you makes you miss me, I question why you still sleep with it. Part of me wonders if there's anything that reminds you of me. Do you remember when I sat in your passenger seat? Do you ever come across the playlist I made for your car? Do you think about me then? Part of me thinks we could be okay again, maybe if we give it time. Part of me hopes for a day we can talk about it. Talk about what happened and how it can be solved, if it can be solved, all of me hopes it can. Part of me thinks you'd rather I disappear, part of me hopes that's not the case. The things I hear hurt that part of me. Though the other part is left to hope you move on. To hope you find someone better, someone that makes you happy, even if that's not me. It hurts you know, to know you love someone so much you'd let them go? You never really think it's possible until it happens. I'll always be yours though, I'll always wait on you to come back, even if you never do. That's what all of me is honestly worth, the entirety of me amounts to my love for you. And truthfully, that's okay with me.

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[p0pefrancis]

I never want to be touched again the way I was touched by you. Never will I say I didn't enjoy it then, nor will I say I wouldn't let it happen again, but it'd have to be you. I wish for the nights we had our hands on each other in your car or in my bed, not knowing the world outside of the other person. I loved you, I love you, I loved when we were us. I still need you, I wish you needed me, but I understand why you don't. I hate to say I hope you still need me, but something in me wants to believe you do, wants to hope, wants to hold onto you. Maybe one day we'll be us, even if that's not today, even if it has to be in another lifetime. I'll always wait on you, no one means what you mean to me, I'll always be yours, even if you're not mine. I love you, more than yesterday, more than ever. I'm yours. Always.

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