lonesomebigmike

[lonesomebigmike]

Spare me

For you have killed me twice already

The boy I was

The man I couldve been

Thrown down to doom for a taste of your ecstacy

A moonlit sky and a promise of another

A crooning frog and the hospice of a third me

Painting candlelight with a thousand different gothic inks

A thousand links to sunflowers and weeds

To the cold showers and needs

To the musty pages and storyfueled rages

I would know your silence in a city street

I can hear your heartbeat in the busstop

Taste your succor in the locked archive

Every shade of black another adventure

I can feel the keys in my sleep

The jingles fading as my eyes break their fast

Our lips have locked for minutes

Not lifetimes across the stars

But I would give you every single minute I have left

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[lonesomebigmike]

What provokes you to change your styles and schemes constantly? If I did not know your voice I might get lost😉.

The truth is not glamorous or mysterious or shrouded in talent. I'm that dual diagnoses adhd/aspergers kid that ruined every class you had. My inability to settle down into something is nearly synonymous with my face at this point.

[lonesomebigmike]

Single again? Or writing just to write?🤔🤔🤔

Writing to love instead of just to grieve

Is not my forte, but is worth it to achieve

[lonesomebigmike]

Why did you stop the Daily Dose of the Boys pics?

The other boy died. 🥹

[lonesomebigmike]

If forced to pick or to play

Where our love should stop its roam

Of course the trick is to say

Anywhere that I can follow you, Home

Home is a noun for a place

In the town, that takes the space

To wind down, and makes it race

Home is your eyes an inch from mine

Home is your name, carved on the key

It's is your lips, starved of our "we"

Home is anywhere you happen to be

From the valleys to the pines

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[lonesomebigmike]

Sleepless

Dreamless of Texas,

Taxes,Laundry Lists

Of the things we've got to do

To get to a first kiss

Shared under a roof

One of us doesn't need to miss

[lonesomebigmike]

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[lonesomebigmike]

They found our bones together

Hands clasped a final time

They dug for gold and diamonds

The worlds least honest mine

Then to take the rings

They broke our fingers to dust

Our dead bones refused to sing

Of anything save love and trust

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[lonesomebigmike]

To my dead Grandparents, and Grief, and Shame

Joyce, I'm so sorry

I have not played yahtzee in 15 years

Smoking and drinking my young self into oblivion to avoid your voice

To avoid thinking about the way my life would upset you

The ways I failed myself then

The ways I fail you now

And here I sit, now unable to remember your sound

Preparing for the funerals, third and fourth

High again, for fear of grief

Low again, some tears, though brief

I have yet to mourn the first two

I have yet to mourn you

I hide from peppermint and cheap noodles

But I do like burnt burgers

I have yet to feel I am anything like

The boy you were proud of

I have yet to hunt down the good man

You swore I would become

Claude, I cannot bear your absence

The family is not the same

The name rings hollow

The hollowed-out cheeks of your hospice

Wallow in my mind endlessly

I cannot lift the mantle of manhood

My ribs are yours, and my honor too

But my mettle is weak, unlike you

The boy in me is still in that field

Wondering if someday I'll be strong enough to be like you

He doesn't know that a ton of hay bales weighs so much less than a family

Ed, I miss you

I miss paper airplanes and pachenko machines

I miss the world feeling normal

A stretched, thin leather belt

And Nintendo in the spare room

And the acres you kept clean for me to play in

I ruined your golf clubs for no reason

Years before I knew

I'd kill for one season

One game

One round of advice

You were gone before I knew the price of a man

Maryann, I barely knew you

And that's my fault

I hope you are well

I will be there

I will hold them.

I will never forget being

A lost little boy in your kitchen

A mouthful of midnight peaches

And an omelette to reward them

You welcomed me into your family

Compelled by love and Lord

And you are the reason I stayed

Rest easy,

Love Mike

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[lonesomebigmike]

And he is

Tired again

He tells me of the fires in his

Loves and friends

And how they sit beside him

Theyre his

Only kin

They maintain and sustain his

Will to live

He is so tired, hes come so far he

Wont give in

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[lonesomebigmike]

Sweet lover

Tastes of home cooked

Oh honey

Smells like lovers abuzz

And

A fine man

My flesh, my heart, my ribs

For the breeze of your laugh

Tickles across my throat

Oh dear

Looks like we can rest here

Share our books and let the world atone

Feels in my oversized bones

Like we made or are

A little bit, maybe, home

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[lonesomebigmike]

Hello false spring

Hello ruiner of ivory

Lover of mud, and muck and mid march melancholy

I am glad you are here

You spell doom for depression

Your siblings killed my friends

And you are so so welcome here

[lonesomebigmike]

I must confess, dear reader

My art comes from an aching heart

When I am well it is hard to write

I bid you not to miss it too

And be happy for our plight

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[lonesomebigmike]

Fuck it. We play the tumblr old games. We are the old games.

Tagged by @madworlddiary for my 5 favorite comfort movies. Let it sit in my drafts for a momth cause I'm more of a shows songs and games guy.

1. 7 brides for 7 brothers

2. Catch me if you can

3. Pokemon 2000

4. The lord of the rings

5. Finding nemo

I am tagging @z-is-very-tired

[lonesomebigmike]

I

Am only afraid of a world where

My warm heart quits or the cool bombs start

Where the winter or the world kill me

If it is a world before we were wed

Would there ever be a tragedy

So sickly to walk this earth

If we do not spend our days

Dying together

I beg the sky they do not end

If I do still wait to live beside you

[lonesomebigmike]

#Spotify

[lonesomebigmike]

I have sent you to bed ahead of me

Crying once again

About the things that differentiate

The lovers and the friends

And I know that nothing matters

Save the peace that we can make

But why when you have the least to give

Do I have the most to take