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[littleaquaa]

I was admitted to the hospital last week due to a highly sensitive and triggering situation that I don’t wish to discuss in a public format, which made me hit a personal rock bottom.

While I was there I got lots of advice and am getting treatment for my mental health issues.  Every person I spoke to told me the same piece of advice:

I need to step away from Tumblr and focus on myself.  So that is what I’m doing for the sake of my health, putting myself first.

Mutuals may ask for Discord to stay in touch.  I will only be checking for 24 hours before logging off all my accounts, deleting the app, and blocking the site.

If you are ever in crisis, please reach out to someone and seek help.  There is no shame in it.

<3 Nemo

#self reblog

[littleaquaa]

I was admitted to the hospital last week due to a highly sensitive and triggering situation that I don’t wish to discuss in a public format, which made me hit a personal rock bottom.

While I was there I got lots of advice and am getting treatment for my mental health issues.  Every person I spoke to told me the same piece of advice:

I need to step away from Tumblr and focus on myself.  So that is what I’m doing for the sake of my health, putting myself first.

Mutuals may ask for Discord to stay in touch.  I will only be checking for 24 hours before logging off all my accounts, deleting the app, and blocking the site.

If you are ever in crisis, please reach out to someone and seek help.  There is no shame in it.

<3 Nemo

#ooc #Blog Announcement #i know i haven't been active here in ages but #some peeps only follow this blog so i wanted to post just in case

[littleaquaa]

Aquamarine’s blog will remain on hiatus.

Her muse has been completely absent for a while.  And I’m not sure when, or if it’ll come back????  If anybody wants to stay in touch, I do have Discord (Mutuals only, just dm me here please!)  And I also have my su oc and my multi (only blogs that feature su-relevent muses.)

#ooc #Blog Announcement

[littleaquaa]

do   you   like   steven   universe   ?   do   you   write   any   su   or   su:f   characters   ?   are   you   looking   to   connect   with   others   or   confess   your   deepest   ,   darkest   thoughts   about   the   finale   ?   —-   or   maybe   you’re   just   a   lumpy   ,   clumpy   clod   who   wants   to   send   a   shout   out   to   that   one   excellent   blue   diamond   blog   (   you   know   the   one   )   that   you’ve   been   eyeing   from   afar   .   if   any   of   that   interests   you   ,   let   me   be   the   first   to   say   …

                                                                            𝐖𝐄𝐋𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐄𝐑𝐀 𝟑!

#Variations Specified in a Report By (Promo) #not quite feeling Aqua yet but! wanted to boost this blog <3

[littleaquaa]

I’ve put all of my blogs on hiatus for mental health reasons.  I am getting help and doing a lot of self-help work (thanks to yo//utube, advice from friends, and others.)  I do want to come back to my blogs, but only when I am ready.

During this time I will only be on Di//scord during this time, if anybody wants to stay in touch or continue rps there.

Thank you guys for your support and understanding <3

#ooc #About Mun #Blog Announcement #//No Negativity!

[littleaquaa]

I still can’t get over this scene

#The List Did Come from a Steven Afterall (Steven) #Oh No You Queued Us

[littleaquaa]

What’s this? Some classy murderous aunties doodles I forgot to post?

#Oh No You Queued Us #The Diamonds (Diamond Authority) #WHY IS THIS PERFECT

[littleaquaa]

#The Supposed Perfect Quartz (Jasper) #The List Did Come from a Steven Afterall (Steven) #Oh No You Queued Us

[littleaquaa]

Finally had time to do another one of these Steven Universe x D&D crossovers! This is Rose Quartz, human Cleric (Life Domain) / Druid (Circle of Dreams).

TBH I didn’t even consider Druid at first but healing + plants + lion pal is perfect! Some cleric level dips will make her nice and tanky.

Bonus pink-haired version! I guess she could probably naturally dye her hair with some kind of plant extract?

Steven Universe, Halfling Bard/Cleric Pearl, Elf Paladin Garnet, Half-elf Monk/Wizard Amethyst, Dwarf Barbarian  Connie, Human Rogue

#Traitor to Homeworld (Rose Quartz) #Oh No You Queued Us

[littleaquaa]

The Diamonds being absolute moms and supporting Spinel

#The Diamonds (Diamond Authority) #movie gem tag tbd #Oh No You Queued Us

[littleaquaa]

lifeandliterature

#Aquamarine Likes || Aesthetic #Oh No You Queued Us

[littleaquaa]

IMPORTANT

I never expect a callout post about me to be posted on Tumblr in my 5ish years of roleplaying.  While I will confess, that some things in said post are accurate, there are a few things that are simply false, or misworded to make things sound worse.  (There are some triggering things: mentions of pedohpila, suicidal thoughts, and lesbophilia.)

*Yes, I used to draw that kind of nsfw of other peoples’ furry ocs.  During this time I was also involved with a group of people that fed me the “fiction doesn’t affect reality, they’re lines on paper!!!111!” spheal and I believed it back then (not now), so I saw nothing wrong with it since I’m a very impressionable person (as are many people with my disabilities, not excusing just explanation).  I realized later after a reality check that drawing said content, was a mistake and is not okay.  So I had deleted everything to try and move on from a 4+ year old mistake I’ve since changed and moved on from.  I have not participated in those activities since then (again 4 years ago!) and do not condone those actions.  I AM SORRY.

*I did realize some time ago that treblogging trauma-related posts and tagging them as Musings was not okay.  I had nobody to teach me these ‘hidden’ rules of RPC etiquette and was on my own.  In addition, I had seen several of my mutuals reblog said posts themselves (thus how I found them) and assumed it was okay to reblog them.  I should not have assumed reblogging said posts was okay.  It was my mistake.  And for the individual whose ask reply concerning it I posted publicly instead of continuing the conversation privately, I am sorry.

*Yes, I was upset when people I had considered friends, some for a year or long were unfollowing and/or unfriending me because I posted that I liked the Hazbin Hotel pilot.  I did vent about it publicly instead of keeping those feelings to myself.  Over the course of a few days I had lost at least 4 people I had considered friends, so I was very upset by this.  And yes, because of this happening so quickly, I did in fact feel suicidal and want to take my life over it.  It may sound ridiculous to many of you reading, but this did drive me to a dark place mentally.  It was never my intention to come off as guilt-tripping in this vent post. *I have had suicidal thoughts since I was in middle school due to a very traumatic life event that happened to me during that time.  I have 0 reason to lie about my mental health on the internet.  Since I posted said vent post because I needed to get my feelings out instead of penting them up inside.  

*As for guilt tripping claims.  I do not pick up on social cues very well, if at all.  This is made a thousand times worse since online I cannot see your facial expression, nor hear the ‘tone’ used when one is typing their words.  I genuinely had no idea that that was how I was coming off to some individuals.  So to those people, I am very sorry.

*The ‘ic vagueblogging’ claim is false.  That is a roleplay taking place between myself and my good friend, and we were plotting that Black Star would corrupt herself and it would delve into more angst, since Cat and I both enjoy angst with our ship.  Black Star is an S//U oc, and it was revealed by S//U’s creator herself that gems can corrupt themselves if they’ve been through enough trauma.  So I got the idea from that alone to try it with my muse, nothing else transpired me to want to rp that thread.

*I have never once stated anywhere that I ship Aquamarine with male characters.  So the lesbophilia claim is also false.  I only posted in my rules that I would be open to her interacting (as in, having normal rp threads) with male gem muses since some people are not fans of male gem ocs.  So I think this might be where OP of my callout post is mistaken.  I have only ever had her headcanon’d as homoromantic/lesbian and asexual.

*As for not responding to you, (callout post maker).  I had no idea how to respond to your words since I was shocked by what you were saying, nothing more.

For months I have been trying to move on from when another tumblr user put me in their Blocklist.  And I had mostly gotten better.  But seeing your post today (3/27/20) made in a public tumblr post, is extremely hurtful.  I just want to move past this blocklist/callout drama and write with my friends again before all this stuff started.. when.. 3ish months ago?

I just want to be left alone and for the pretty obvious stalking to stop (I mean really, going 4+ years into my internet happenings when I was a younger adult?!)  It’s not only causing me physical pain, but mental and emotional pain as well.  I am a complete wreck, trying to fight off anxiety as I type all of this.  I am not saying this for any kind of sympathy or to change minds, I just want to be honest with everyone with the effects these posts have done.

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Now this, I just want to say to everyone I have hurt in the past.  I don’t want to name names or tag you guys out of respect (and I don’t know if you’d all even be okay with it or not).  But if you are reading this then yes, I am addressing you with this apology (even if you might not be on tumblr anymore).  The posting publicly instead of answering privately, the guilt tripping (that I highly stress I did not realize I was doing this), and the vagueblogging.. I am sorry.  You do not have to acknowledge or even accept this apology, but it is what you guys deserve and I want to make it right.

To close, if anyone, friend, acquaintance, or person I never got to interact with but follow(ed) no longer feels comfortable interacting with me based on this knowledge of me and my past that is okay and I ask you put yourself first.  Unfollow, soft block, hard block, please do whatever you need to do.  Your comfort matters.

#ooc #drama #drama // #negative #negativity #callout mention

[littleaquaa]

Aquamarine seeing Spinel in Blue Diamond’s hair loop and being like “bitch that’s MY SPOT.”

#ic #V: Crack #NON R//P BLOGS DO//NT INTER//ACT #NON R//P BLOGS DON//T REBLOG #lil miss prissy gem #suf spoilers #spoilers #su spoilers #su leaks #my aqua is very devout to BD ok?

[littleaquaa]

“Indeed I am disgusting.  But at least I like the Irish!  They’re the most respectable organics!”

littleaquaa‌:

@saltygempearl​  ||  x

“Oh, you being a wee baby now aren’t yee?  You scared I’ll kick ‘yer bum?”

“…….”

“You disgust me.”

#ic #saltygempearl #V: Crack #always a good time to jab at pearl

[littleaquaa]

@saltygempearl​  ||  x

“Oh, you being a wee baby now aren’t yee?  You scared I’ll kick ‘yer bum?”

#its late.. i know #but i NEEDED.. pearl's hatred of irish accents #ic #saltygempearl #closed rp #V: Crack #cuz i remember it last year and.. riot over it XD

[littleaquaa]

Headcanon

Aquamarine loves to piss off the Crystal Gems whenever she has a chance to.  Just in general be an annoying little bitch.

#sadly i am not back from hiatus #BUT have this thing!!! #Headcanon #swearing

[littleaquaa]

Aqua’s muse is.. non-existent right now unfortunately.  So this blog is going on Hiatus (I did edit my mobile description w/this a bit ago, but thought an official announcement was in order to.)

If you wanna interact with me still I have my SU OC and my Multimuse which has a few SU muses!  (However WD is inactive.)

#self reblog