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I cried in my dreams then I woke up crying.

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Having a hard time expressing my feelings because of overthinking

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Is it normal to hate your family?

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All I need is a good cry

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Readers' block sucks ughhh

#reading #readers block #books #book recommendations

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i will never get over these tfota parallels

jude at the beginning of tcp:

jude at the end of tqon:

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“The only lover she had ever wanted was the one who existed in her dreams, the novels she read, and her imagination.”

— Hermann Sudermann, The Song of Songs (1908)

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*saves my inner child* *saves my inner teen through my inner child* *saves my present self through my inner child*

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Just finished reading all the Grishaverse books and I was like - "speechless, over the edge, I'm just breathless".

My to be read list is so long but I don't know what to pick up after grishaverse put me on chokehold 🤧

#shadow and bone #siege and storm #ruin and rising #the grisha trilogy #six of crows #crooked kingdom #king of scars #rule of wolves #grishaverse #leigh bardugo #books #screaming crying rolling on the floor #malina #darkling x reader #zoyalai #kanej #wesper #helnik #hanina #danya

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on point!!

#wesper #kanej #helnik #danya #tamardia #zoyalai #malina #grishaverse

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And they didn't until ... but it's okay, they don't need to but I guess they have to

Grishaverse fandom at the moment

#shadow and bone #six of crows #king of scars #grishaverse #leigh bardugo #books #the grisha trilogy #soc duology #kos duology

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Sometimes you don’t NEED skin on skin

Just to really bring the point home for those who have not read the Six of Crows duology and think that Inej deserves to “have some fun before she finds her way back to her true love”, or who perhaps think that a love triangle/jealousy drama would somehow spur Kaz into action (do you even know Kaz Brekker?):

For someone connected to the production to caption a photo of the actors with the (crack) ship name of their characters (“Tolnej”) and talk about “skin on skin” might seem innocent (”it’s just an Insta post”), but let’s look at the context for those who are upset by this – some of whom have suffered similar traumas and find comfort/inspiration in Inej’s character.

Here is a sample of Inej’s previous experience of skin on skin:

There were young men, old men, handsome men, ugly men. There was the man who cried and struck her when he could not perform. The man who wanted her to pretend it was their wedding night and tell him that she loved him. The man with sharp teeth like a kitten who had bitten at her breasts until she’d bled. Crooked Kingdom p. 274 Kindle version

And these are the men she remembers; mostly she forced herself to go numb, while making all the right noises and moves so Tante Heleen would not abuse her further.

Because she loves Kaz, she tells him she is willing to work on that trauma IF HE WORKS ON HIS. This does not mean that she is itching for skin on skin action there and then, it means she wants to be ready for it if they are to have a future together. 

What if he had come to her, laid his gloves aside, drawn her to him, kissed her mouth? Would she have pulled him closer? Kissed him back? Could she have been herself in such a moment or would she have broken apart and vanished, a doll in his arms, a girl who could never quite be whole? Crooked Kingdom, p. 275 Kindle version

This is her mindset as she boards that ship in S2E8. She does not need a man who is basically a stranger to be her ticket out of trauma – not even a lovely one like Tolya (who in turn does not need romance in his life to be fulfilled). She needs healing, a purpose and – as a character – not to be reduced to half a ship in a fling which would be nothing but a waste of precious screentime. 

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It's me losing sanity because of the whole grishaverse - dreamt about all the characters from Shadow and Bone to Six of Crows to King of Scars - against the real world and I'm not even done yet with King of Scars duology. Grishaverse slowly eating me alive. Need some help here, yes.

#shadow and bone #siege and storm #ruin and rising #six of crows #crooked kingdom #king of scars #rule of wolves #grishaverse #leigh bardugo #books

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Today was very productive (I drank water)

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Actually, same thoughts 🤧

i’m so pissed cause all the actors did a great job and portrayed the characters well but the storyline was just garbage

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Kaz "Please, my darling Inej" Brekker

#six of crows #kanej x reader #kaz brekker #inej ghafa #soc spoilers #books #grishaverse