Hello everyone. It’s been an awful long time since I was active here. I have to say it that even though hosie wasn’t endgame, they will always be special and important for me. They will always mean a lot to me. Hosie gave me the strength and the courage to be who I am and fight through. I miss being active here. I hope that, maybe one day I get the time to watch another show. But there’s one thing for sure, there’s gonna be no other couple like hosie at least for me.
i haven’t watched the finale and i don’t plan to do so anytime soon. i am happy that josie was given the importance that she deserves and i got my endgame. if it’s not an endgame for anyone else. for me it is. i am not exactly happy with it, but i can make my peace with it. this account will always be reminder of a person who loved a ship boundlessly and cried…wept their heart out. thank you hosie for making me feel something.
It’s been three months and three days (as per my timezone) since Kaylee Bryant left Legacies.
And if I could, I’d have made a documentary about how this journey has been for me. As a Kaylee stan and as a frequent hosie lover. The experience would be one I’d never be able to forget. I was about to reach my exam centre and it’s two minutes before the exam I see Kaylee’s post. I read it thinking is something wrong? And I go to my insta page. And that’s where I found out from an account that Kaylee Bryant has left legacies. My heart. Shattered to pieces. I was supposed to give a paper for around 2 hours, it was objective but required reasoning. I tried my best to not think about it. But every time I solved a question all I could hear were Josie’s dialogues ringing in my ear.
During the car ride, I called up my other bestie (we were supposed to go for a celebratory party) and she’d obviously seen my Instagram stories. She asked me what will happen to her character now? I told her that maybe…the same thing that happened to Elena in s6? I reached home, literally didn’t want to go to my room as there was a hosie poster there. RIGHT THERE. Along with hosie endgame written on the top of my whiteboard. I went to the party. I had dinner, helped my sister for her wedding prep. And when I came back to my room. I played my hindi playlist. My hosie playlist. And the tears wouldn’t stop.
I kept crying. And crying. And crying. I just remembered how much they loved Josie. How they gave their all to Josie. How Kaylee would do lives, how she knew what Josie felt at all times. How she made playlists. How they campaigned for hosie throughout. Never letting me feel alone. I talked to a friend over the phone. Vented. Again I cried from 18th-20th.
21st morning we (my parents and I) left for sister’s wedding. When we came back from the wedding I still felt that emptiness in my heart and it carried on till New Year’s and even after that. I remember sending my friends snap of me zooming into their pictures while playing sad songs in the background. Countless nights before I slept I’d cried. Literally cried. I wasn’t happy on my birthday. I was just….not feeling it. And I missed them.
Up until recently I decided to take a bold step. To honour hosie. To honour Josie. I decided to watch the last episode. And it’s been an hour since I watched it. Truth be told. I didn’t cry. I actually didn’t cry. People have their own ways of expressing their emotions and I didn’t cry because I was happy for kaylee. They left because it was important for them to leave. Had I gotten my endgame, what would have the cost been? Kaylee’s mental health? No.
I want to start watching the show again and give it a chance. And I hope it’s a good thing. I think.
Rules: In a text post, list ten books that have stayed with you in some way. Don’t take but a few minutes, and don’t think too hard — they don’t have to be the “right” or “great” works, just the ones that have touched you. Tag ten friends, including me, so I’ll see your list. Make sure you let your friends know you’ve tagged them. (yes, i totally stole this challenge from an inactive blog i comb for content on a regular basis)
My favourite singer Taylor Swift has had eras where she derives inspiration from something and it helps her go through. So I’ve decided to welcome a new era. An era where I’m going to celebrate other fandoms that I’m a part of. The name of the blog with remain hosiesmunchkins because well, i can’t let that go.
So this time, it’s me. And I’m here to stay. And say.