god today was supposed to be a good day. i was about to eat tacos from my favorite taco place n my sister got me fucking soft tacos. i fucking hate soft tacos. she knows i hate soft tacos. i’m so unbelievably pissed off bro. this was supposed to be what i eat today what the fuck. i’m so fucking mad. i don’t even want to make any food either bc by the time i finish making the food i know i won’t want it.
god today was supposed to be a good day. i was about to eat tacos from my favorite taco place n my sister got me fucking soft tacos. i fucking hate soft tacos. she knows i hate soft tacos. i’m so unbelievably pissed off bro. this was supposed to be what i eat today what the fuck. i’m so fucking mad. i don’t even want to make any food either bc by the time i finish making the food i know i won’t want it.
i’m so excited bro, i’m gonna start going to the gym after my quarantine is over and volleyball season is starting so i’m gonna be in the gym at least 4/5 days a week !!
my friend overdosed today. it didn’t really hit me till a couple hours ago. she had ODed last month and had a feeding tube and today she did it again. i wish i could have been there for her more. we weren’t very close but she was still important to me as i saw a lot of myself in her. once her death finally hit me i just absolutely destroyed my legs. there’s just something about the pain that gives me a sense of release and relief, like a dopamine rush. i also have this build a bear that me her n my cousin went and got together. the lady gave us all a little heart to put inside of it and she has a heart inside the bear and i’ll never let it go now.
anyways that’s it have a good night (side note i only ate like 800 calories today :)