Today's bodycheck... I just noticed I have a muffin top in these jeans and I want to cry.
But my back comforts me... At least my back is ok...I used to have rolls on my back at my high weight... Now I don't. So I am super happy about that.
Also I hate how my abs are not as defined as they used to be despite 3 days and 10h of liquid fasting. I wish I could lose at a faster rate... But I'll be patient because hard work pays off. I already reached 49kg like 5 times already, I reached 48kg 3 times, 45kg once (my ugw) and I reached 35kg once (my low weight at the worst of my anorexia last august). I can do it again. I am not asking to be 35kg again because that was hell and even my dad said I looked ugly in the face at that weight. I want to be "ugly" to most people and hauntingly beautiful and gaunt to my soulmate... I'll be happy with 45kg. That's all I ask for...
♡Tesknie za Ana tesknie za morning motylkami Chce ale to bardzo chce wrócić nich do patrzenia jak moje kilogramy spadają do patrzenia jak ludzie się obżeraja a ja jestem na głodówce.. ♡
♡pragnę any ale matka mnie pilnuje jednak jest plus że nie przytyłam tylko waga ciągle stoi w miejscu bo jest ok 61kg♡