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I don't have many followers, so it is safe to post...

And even so, I don't mind, may make some people not feel as alone as they think they are.

I feel lonely, very lonely. I do have friends, a career, a job, and several hobbies. It's the intimacy that makes you feel alone. And no, fwb or hookups are not the solution either, because it makes you feel lonelier, I had a lover, and felt even worse after doing it.

I'm kind of in love with a woman from Germany, but she doesn't feel anything that way it appears. On the other hand, we're close... And I'm okay with it, a new friend, yay. But still feels lonely.

Being lonely goes beyond self-love and improvement, it's a deeper issue.

#lonelly #love #sad thoughts

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2024

This year I'll work my ass off to finish uni, and work in a LOT of commissions. I know it's not a lot, but I need to raise 5000 in 12 months. So say it to your friends, family, guys, girls, that rainbow in between, EVERYONE. Want something ala 90s? let's go, want something colourful? Let's go. Want something macabre and cute? I'M YOUR MAN Sexy? Always welcome

BL? Hell yeah

Sci-fi cyberpunk? UNDOUBTEDLY.

I'll do my best to stay motivated and work, it's something VERY important to me to get the money.

#art #fanart #commissions #goals #art goals #work #job #art requests #sci-fi art #morbid art #dark art #comic art #webtoon

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You don't look sleepy at all

can u tell how sleepy i am

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common excuses for centering men in fandom and why they don’t work

disclaimer: i am not trying to start a fight, or call out anyone personally. the goal is to encourage critical thinking and self-examination. also, this is a tma blog so a couple things will be tma-specific, but the general principles apply to all fandom.

definitions: “centering men” is a concept i learned from black lesbians, and it means “to prioritize men, to pay more attention to them, to make discussions about them, essentially to place/keep them at the center of whatever is happening.” centering men =/= liking or being attracted to them, because you can do both those things without centering them.

why we all center men at first: in a patriarchal society, we are all conditioned to center men at all times. a lot of us don’t even realize we’re doing it. men comprise most ceos, politicians, legendary heroes, main characters, folks taking up space in discussions, etc. so a lot of us don’t even question men’s right to be at the center of fandom matters too. that’s perfectly normal, but it is all of our responsibility to question it and do something about it.

what to do about that: very few people center men on purpose, because it is the default for all of us, but unlearning that patriarchal conditioning has to be on purpose. that is a choice you need to make if you want the world to be more equitable for women and other non-men, and i cannot make that choice for you, but i strongly encourage you to make it and continue making it every single day.

what centering men looks like in a fandom context: prioritizing making art of male characters. prioritizing writing meta about male characters. prioritizing writing fic about m/m ships. mostly reading/seeking out/sharing fan content about male characters. having lots of complex, in-depth meta and headcanons about male characters, but flattening the female characters to “badass” or “soft cinnamon roll” or “evil.” condemning evil or morally grey female characters for the bad stuff they do, and then turning around and stanning male characters who are equally evil or morally grey. inventing detailed personalities and storylines for background male characters, while ignoring main female characters who already have detailed personalities and storylines.

common excuses for centering men in a fandom context:

“female characters(/wlw ships) just aren’t that compelling or well-written” this excuse may work in some fandoms, but in tma and other pieces of media with complex, well-written female characters, this doesn’t work. the female characters are compelling, the wlw ships have depth, and the only reason that you don’t find them interesting is because you have a subconscious bias towards men. i’m not saying you have to like every character or ship, but if you categorically ignore all the women, there is a problem and it is not with the media.

“i am a gay/trans man so i relate to male characters more” cool, good for you. but just because you relate to men more, doesn’t mean that women don’t exist or are unworthy of attention. make an effort. you are still a man, and thus still capable of perpetuating misogyny. you’re allowed to relate to the men more, but it is your responsibility to unlearn patriarchal tendencies and make fandom a welcoming space for women & female characters.

“i just like/relate to male characters more” hmm, and why is that? no really, why do you think it is? could it have anything to do with the patriarchy that tells us in a million ways every day that men are better, worthier, more interesting than women? your preferences don’t come from nowhere. examine them, unlearn them. 

how to unlearn patriarchal conditioning and start de-centering men in fandom: seek out media with complex women in it. pay attention to them, their backstories, their motivations, their opinions. create & seek out fan content about them, whether that be fic, art, meta, jokes, whatever. pay attention to your reactions (i.e. if a scene is primarily about a female character, ask yourself, “why am i focusing more on how a male character is reacting?”) and then shift your focus accordingly. it will be difficult, it will be uncomfortable, it will be hard work. but don’t take that as an excuse to be like “oh well i just wasn’t meant to enjoy female characters in fandom” and go back into your men-centric comfort zone. no. the discomfort means you’re going against the flow of the patriarchy, which is a good thing. the more effort you make to center women in fandom, the easier it will get, and you’ll be so glad you did.

conclusion: no one is telling you you can’t like male characters (and if that’s your main takeaway from this post, you need to learn better reading comprehension). what we are telling you is that you need to examine your internal biases and stop making men the be-all end-all of your fandom experience. not only is it the right thing to do, but you will experience media in a richer way than ever before. make an effort, and try it out.

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Walker in the sea of photobashing

Fine art parody, ofc, nothing much to add, did it for class, took me not much

#fine art parody #caspar david friedrich #digital painting #digital art

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"Nazeem cradled the stream laser in his arms like a babe, and waited until the convoy's flank was exposed to him. The eighteen-wheeler with two silos of fuel seemed particularly susceptible to a beam of searing light."

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Fire Punch is great

I've been reading it for inspiration... And it's pretty cool, dystopian af, reminds me to Nihei's more cynic works

#manga #fire punch #tsutomu nihei #shonen #seinen #tatsuki fujimoto

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One of the overs I did for my comic

I like drawing motorcycles, rock, and stuff... So I'll probably upload them alongside the commissions I work from time to time

You can read the comic in here, have fun! it's 18+ tho, so trigger warning.

#watercolor #art #biker art #motorcycle #bmw mot #cyberpunk #mixed media #bmw r100 #aesthetic #manga #anime art #aqua regia #comic art #rock art #webtoon #webcomic

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Hell yeah Dance With The Dead

ATTENTION

If you see this you are OBLIGATED to reblog w/ the song currently stuck in your head :)

#Dance with the dead #heavy metal #synthwave #Youtube

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Art by Tim Kirk for The Suns of Scorpio (book by Alan Burt Akers aka Kenneth Bulmer, 1973)

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Regina by Magion LoVun@magion02

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@tirotiromaru

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Lisa Fanart

I'll start sketching Lisa fanart soon, as a promise for a dear friend of mine, I barely know anything from Lisa the joyful series, besides Buddy, Brad, Rando and Lisa herself.

So... Anywhere where should I look?

#art #request #lisa the painful #lisa the joyful #lisa the rpg

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priština 2019

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