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Went scoobing and swam into some meese these are dangerous waters

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the archons watch over

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SVSSS vol 2 illustrations 

#svsss

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Jiang Cheng holding various babies!

#jiang cheng #crying #I love this so much it hurts

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The true enemies to lovers

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『The No Peak Clan』

I started this series last week and couldn't wait to draw something for it! standalone versions here

#jade city #green bone saga

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Learning that r/aita officially views navani as an asshole who harasses her bil is the best thing ever

The defense for gavilar is horrendous tho

#stormlight archive

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idk i can’t decide on color makix2

full ↓↓↓

Keep reading

#AGHHH

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i like to imagine that clark kent’s search history is mostly normal but then there’s stuff like “improved superman costume concept art” because he wanted ideas

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side-eye your travel companion and contemplate spending an eternity together / INPRNT

#lotr #legolas #gimli

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beach trip on their day off (nanami’s idea) and tacky matching shirts (gojo’s idea) + extra doodles

#SO CUTE #jujutsu kaisen

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Eris is Rhys if Rhys did not have the privacy of the Night Court being closed to outsiders and an unconditionally loyal friend group.

Rhys could relax and turn off being High Lord, and before that turn off being the High Lord’s Heir. Eris doesn’t get to do that and he can’t trust anyone because real loyalty isn’t valued and probably isn’t worth it.

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lucien says to f/eyre that she was a better friend to him than he ever was to her but like…where? he shielded her from r/hys in acotar, he kept sneaking to the prison utm to help her, and even if you want to argue that his behavior in acomaf wasn’t enough (which, like, i’m truly sorry f/eyre was in an abusive relationship but it’s not like that was lucien’s fault or his enabling). the only “friendly” thing we ever see f/eyre do for lucien is smashing ianthe’s hand, but that was still after months of ~letting her taunt him (because if feylin was lucien’s fault, then ianthe/lucien was f/eyre’s fault). and that’s on top of f/eyre dangling elain’s safety and wellbeing over his head for months.

and invading his mind and then excusing it but who’s counting

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reason #30 why i’m annoyed today... how did we go from this:

to THIS

i just— if this was for nesta’s benefit, you (feyre) wouldn’t have let the two people who are so vocal about their disdain of nesta highlight her failings in front of everyone. when you know she’s a private person!!!!!!

LIKE YOU WERE ALMOST UNDERSTANDING HER FEYRE... WHAT HAPPENED!! one step forward ten thousand steps backward🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️

it gets WORSE!!!

so why wouldn’t she see this as an attack?? you pick at her “failings” like she’s on trial. you speak to her like she’s some feral animal who forgot where her cage is. and then right after when nesta wanted to speak to her sister alone (which is how the intervention should’ve gone) rice man makes it very clear they don’t trust her and wait in the hall.

but what does feyre do???? uses it as some kinky foreplay for the wild sex they’ll be having that’ll shake the mountains....

again no is saying nesta didn’t need help. but can we admit they were wrong here?? that the IC lives in some weird bubble if they fake their happiness that’s the epitome of self-care?? the fact that sjm didn’t even point out the faults in their plan shows what this books purpose was for. the court of dreams is where you want to be, anyone threatens their comfort— boom you become enemy #1. i hope lucien doesn’t cave and stays with his band of exiles

i don’t even have time or the ✨interest✨ to discuss elain. cause babyyyyyyy nesta said it best in chapter 35💆🏾‍♀️

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Reverse Unpopular Opinion: headcanons (and any textual evidence I may be unaware of) about Feanor being a good dad. Don't know if that exactly counts as unpopular, but a lot of people just default him as a bad father figure because of the oath etc.

I think the fandom is fairly divided on Fëanor being a good dad or not. Myself, I prefer that interpretation because it makes everything so much more beautifully tragic. What is the point of the Fall if the fallen one was not good before he fell?

The Silmarillion doesn’t give us a whole lot of insight into the relationship between Fëanor and his sons, but it mentions that

Fëanor and his sons abode seldom in one place for long, but travelled far and wide upon the confines of Valinor, going even to the borders of the Dark and the cold shores of the Outer Sea, seeking the unknown. (Chapter 5)

and

with him into banishment [to Formenos] went his seven sons (Chapter 7)

and

Then Fëanor swore a terrible oath. His seven sons leapt straightaway to his side and took the selfsame vow together (Chapter 9)

Now, to me these quotes seem to illustrate that Fëanor managed to inspire a great deal of loyalty in his sons. Admittedly, loyalty is not the same as love. Even children of abusive parents can show loyalty towards those same parents, but I don’t really think that’s what’s happening here. All seven sons are eager to follow their father, even when there are perfectly viable alternatives if they really didn’t want to go with him. They could have stayed with Nerdanel, they could have remained in Tirion with their cousins during Fëanor’s banishment, they could have chosen to remain behind during the Rebellion. Portraying their choices as solely a result of manipulation on Fëanor’s side takes away all their agency and only serves to infantilise them, in my opinion. The sons of Fëanor are all adults by the time of Fëanor’s exile to Formenos, their ages being somewhere between 150 and 250 years if we’re going by estimates based on the Tolkien Gateway timeline. They are responsible for their own decisions, and time and time again they choose their father.

Then we move on to the events following the First Kinslaying:

But Fëanor [...] took counsel with his sons; and two courses only they saw to escape from Araman and come into Endor: by the straits or by ship. [...] Therefore it came into the hearts of Fëanor and his sons to seize all the ships and depart suddenly ( Chapter 9, emphasis added by me)

This is not Fëanor forcing everyone to go along with his solo mission. This is him listening to his sons and all of them together making plans for the journey. Maedhros, as the only one, disagrees with his father specifically about the burning of the ships, but apart from that they seem to be in agreement about what to do. Note that at this point pretty much everyone is making morally questionable decisions. This is after Alqualondë, after the Doom of Mandos, after the Fall. Arguing that Fëanor is acting like a bad father during these events is a bit irrelevant because he’s generally not acting like a terribly good person. But his sons aren’t acting like good people either. They all seem to be willingly complicit in their father’s actions, apart from Maedhros’ aforementioned refusal to join in the ship burning.

Then Fëanor dies in battle and

knew with the foreknowledge of death that no power of the Noldor would ever overthrow [the peaks of Thangorodrim], but he [...] laid it upon his sons to hold to their oath, and to avenge their father (Chapter 13)

This one is more questionable, Fëanor is certainly not giving his sons an easy way out here when he makes them promise to complete a task he himself believes to be impossible. However, bear in mind that a) Fëanor is literally dying here, he’s not really considering consequences or thinking rationally, and b) would it even have changed anything if he had tried to release his sons from the oath at this point?

If we go with the oath as an actual force/entity, the wording of it makes it unclear whether Fëanor would even have had the authority to release anyone from it, and if the driving force behind the oath was not an external force, but simply the seven sons’ love for and loyalty to their father, they would most likely have sought to avenge him and reclaim the silmarils anyway. There would have been no way back to Valinor, no way to undo the kinslaying or the ship burning. The only way for them would still have been forward into the unknown.

The exact nature of the oath is an interesting topic for discussion, and I’m not going to dig up all the textual evidence for one view or the other, but I’ve always preferred the interpretation where the sons of Fëanor could technically have chosen to break their oath, and that the torment is not from any external force but from the feeling that they are dishonouring Fëanor’s memory by doing so. By making it an active choice to continue their pursuit of the silmarils, the sons of Fëanor become much more morally complex as characters, which I’ve always enjoyed.

Another discussion that touches upon the same themes is the question of whether Fëanor’s rebellion was only motivated by his love for the silmarils, or if he also wanted to avenge Finwë. I like to think that Fëanor genuinely loved his father and that his grief and rage in the wake of the Darkening was just as much for Finwë as for the loss of the silmarils.

Would it not be sublimely tragic if all of this was caused by a son’s love for his father, and his sons’ love for their father in turn? Would it not be a much better story if everything from the swearing of the oath, via war, betrayal and kinslayings, to Maedhros’ last plunge into the fiery chasm, was an act of love?

#Silmarillion #jrrt #yes #Fëanor #Tolkien

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SO I was flipping through an old notebook and I came across some notes I took while attending a lecture on heart transplants maybe two years ago (this was part of a series of science lectures that were taking place in the city I live in) AND OMG.

I’d written down all the hilarious things the guy who was speaking said, like DIRECT QUOTES, and it’s WILD. I was crying while reading them.

(For most of them, even I don’t remember the context so it’s even funnier)

“He had a tremendous passion for heart failure”

“Organs are wasted when Neurosurgeons sleep”

“It’s the difference between definite death and not so defined death”

“APPARENTLY everyone wants to donate”

“I had a serious chat with Kumaraswamy (former chief minister of Karnataka) and he’s very wise but still no government funding so I don’t know”

“Bala... Bala... Bala” (okay I seriously have NO idea what this is😂)

“We guys (heart surgeons) are adjust-madkoli guys”

“He did medicine, then randomly joined a software company for two years before getting bored and coming back”

“He (a colleague) is the same age, but looks older as he’s greying quite a lot”

“The heart is treated bigger than PM Modi”

“They (the patients) went on Antarctica tours”

#I hope I find more hilarious things like this #what a talk though #heart transplant #funny #story #science lectures

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I probably want to articulate some more thorough thoughts once I’m done rereading svsss, but I definitely think that the emotional thread that draws me the hardest into the book is like… Luo Binghe keeps hurting Shen Qingqiu, or being semi-responsible for the ways Shen Qingqiu gets hurt. It starts as early as their field trip to find the Skinner, where Ning Yingying gets captured while Luo Binghe was supposed to be looking out for her, and it results in Shen Qingqiu getting knocked out and stripped and tied up and almost skinned.

And it continues with moments like Shen Qingqiu being poisoned by Without A Cure, or Shen Qingqiu jumping in front of Binghe’s attack in his dream realm, rather than letting Binghe inadvertently damage his own mind. And of course, there’s a lot happening on Shen Qingqiu’s side too, where both for story-ordained reasons and personal-strategizing reasons, he puts Luo Binghe in danger or lets him get hurt, and he will eventually be responsible for throwing Luo Binghe into the Abyss, but Binghe doesn’t know that.

And what really, really draws me in is the escalation of guilt and grief on Luo Binghe’s part over time, especially when it eventually means that Shen Qingqiu dies…. because of him. Was it voluntary/deliberate on Shen Qingqiu’s part? Sure. Is it still perfectly crafted for Luo Binghe to blame himself? Oh my goodness, yes. I live for the ways he lashes out and acts poorly after the Abyss, but I absolutely adore the way things go after the five year timeskip, where he’s at his lowest emotional point, and has been stewing in a mixture of grief/guilt and bitterness/resentment without being able to speak to Shen Qingqiu to resolve any of those issue.

Because! By the time we get to the climactic scene, with its deliberately-terrible sex scene, Luo Binghe sees that he’s hurt Shen Qingqiu, again, and in such a way– And it’s crushing! It’s awful! Shen Qingqiu is thinking ‘oh my god, i’m the one who just dealt with this, can’t I be the one to start crying???’ which, super fair. But the whole middle of the story has been about how these two are not naturals at clear communication, and it makes such a perfect point for Luo Binghe’s emotions to go.

As far as he’s concerned, Shen Qingqiu is the most important person in the entire world to him, the only person in the world who really matters– And Luo Binghe is apparently completely incapable of not-hurting him. The times when he’s failed to protect Shen Qingqiu are bad enough, but since he was a child, he’s watched Shen Qingqiu get hurt because of him, or even worse, by him, and even now, he’s looking at what he just did to Shen Qingqiu, what should have been an intimate, tender act, where instead Shen Qingqiu is… more dazed and bleeding, and also dying just a little bit. And Shen Qingqiu again chose to let this happen, he knew what he was getting into, but that doesn’t make it any less devastating for Luo Binghe when he thinks, I did this to Shizun.

There’s something about that scene that I just can’t get enough of. The dull, miserable unhappiness that Luo Binghe brings into the early part of the scene is wonderful, especially since he’s made a really serious effort to express that this has been a long-building breakdown about how nobody, ever, is willing to choose him. But then, after it’s all said and done, and he sees what he’s done to Shen Qingqiu, no matter how consensual it was, it’s even worse. He’s panicking, he’s horrified, he asks Shen Qingqiu why he didn’t just kill him. 

It’s all so compelling to me! I can’t think of many relationships I’ve read that have that particular panicked, unhappy edge to them, especially ones that do wind up happy in the end. All of the mxtx romances have a very different flavor to them, and I think her writing advances in leaps and bounds between her first book and her third. But there’s just something about this that always, always gets me so good. I can see that the book is weaker in ways that her later books aren’t, but I still love it so very much. The leads of her other books have their own deep emotions and moments of intense unhappiness, of course, but there’s something about Luo Binghe’s emotions, and how strongly they come through even when he’s not the pov character, that I just… I love him, your honor

#svsss #I never thought about it this way! #shen qingqiu #luo binghe