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I'm a drag artists and this is my insta: @tribadours_.

#drag #drag queen #drag queer

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Les lacs du Connemara is sacred

French people:

French people when you play that one song about lakes in Ireland:

#true #it’s a good song though #french

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I will never be over the fact that we didn’t get to see Mildred and Gwen’s first time, and here’s why:

This entire series, we have been building to this moment, and they didn’t show us??

I know it’s not /about/ her budding lesbianism. I KNOW it’s not. However. It kind of really is?? We’re in the room when she tries to shove it down by having sex with a man. We’re in the room when she is battling with the treatment she’s giving those women. We are in the room when she tells Gwen that she has feelings for her. We are in the room when she confesses that she is a lesbian to Huck. We are in the room when she tells Gwen that she loves her. For their first kiss. And then it just magically hops forward a month and they’re casually making out in bed and that’s great. Don’t get me wrong. That’s /great/ and I will never complain about lesbian content. But this entire show we have been following this journey. And while it isn’t the main plot of the show, it is ONE of the main plots. And it runs under EVERYTHING, constantly. So to time jump right over this huge moment?? Everything was building to /this/ and they cut it right out. See, here’s the thing— If you’re not going to show me the first time she has sex with a woman, don’t show me the two sex scenes she has with a man. I don’t need something explicit (although if I have to watch her lower herself down on a man I feel like it’s only fair) but I just need that MOMENT. The one where she decides that she is ready. Because she tells Gwen, plain and simple, I have feelings for you but I need to take this at my own pace. So SHOW ME her pace. Because now I have too many questions. Did they fuck right after their first kiss?? They had the whole house to themselves. Or did they wait? Did Mildred say she wasn’t ready? Or did Gwen make them stop so that she didn’t push her? To me, that first time is a CRUCIAL point in their relationship. Show me Gwen trying to slow her down. Show me Mildred saying no, pulling Gwen’s fingers to her mouth, sliding them down between her legs. Show me that glorious moment of consent when Gwen’s brow pushes up and she whispers “Millie...” and Mildred NODS and Gwen absolutely devours her. I want to see all of it. I want closure to their story. Something that leads me along the path /the creators/ set out and doesn’t pull giant pieces of the road out from under me on the way. Again, they don’t even have to be explicit. Just them making their way to the bedroom and Gwen pushing Mildred down on the bed and crawling over her while they kiss. Or Mildred slowly unbuttoning her shirt while Gwen sits on the bed. Or ANYTHING. Just show me the INTENT to sleep together that first time. I just need to know when it happened and who cut that final line and said it was okay, and what actually happened in Mildred’s mind. Was it too much too fast? Was it like the puppet show where she pushed herself to make Gwendolyn happy? I want that moment when she realizes that being with a man was just as wrong as she always felt it was, where Gwendolyn spoils her and pampers her and makes her feel safe and warm and loved. I mean— we had some pretty harsh sex scenes with her and a man. Show me her realizing how different it could be. How incredible it is supposed to be. How loved she feels. I WANT TO WEEP, OKAY? Don’t get me wrong, they’ve given us great opportunity to write fanfiction and take it in our own directions, but I finished the show and there was still this... hollow space in me that felt incomplete. I followed this woman’s journey for eight episodes, the back and forth, the on and off, the struggling... and I had better not be missing this crucial moment because someone somewhere thought it would hurt their ratings, because so help me. I am so sick. And tired. Of lesbians being cropped out of media to make straight people comfortable. If this sex scene is on the cutting room floor, I request it kindly at my doorstep by tomorrow morning, Mr. Murphy. And if not... well then shame on the writers for not understanding the importance of THIS moment for THESE characters. Because then that means that they don’t understand or care about the characters like they should, and that absolutely breaks my heart.

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Strawberry blonde

Chapter 3: date night

Ch2

Warning: Smut

It had been about a few weeks since she ended up at your doorstep, you had both talked and grew closer by each day.

"Why are you so sweet to me ?"

"What ?"

"You asked me out, do you know how many people have in the last 15 years ?"

Karen was seating on the sofa, takeout noodles still in her hands, still shook that you had made such a request.

"Is that a no ?"

You spoke after she realized she'd kept quiet for too long now.

"NO ! Yes, well no it's not a no, I wanna go out with you but where ?"

"I don't know what do you like ?"

"I have no idea"

"Cinema ? Museum ? Restaurant ? Hiking ?"

"Yeah I'd like that"

"Which ?"

"All of them"

"That's not a date sugar that's a whole life plan"

"I can work with that"

You smiled as she took your hand and kissed it. You smiled before asking

"Dinner and a museum is fine though right"

"Absolutely"

"Tomorrow night ?"

She heavily nodded making you giggle at her exaltation.

The next morning Karen woke up and it was all she could think about, you, asking her out on a date. What was she even supposed to do ? Wear ? Say ? She kept thinking about your eyes, and how she'd be a blubbering mess before you'd even get to dinner if you kept looking right through her.

She was very impatient about the night, she took a shower and scrubbed herself raw, claiming she couldn't let one ounce of dirt on her if she was to go out with you. Even after weeks of not being out on the streets she still somehow felt the dirtiness cling to her.

Three hours before it was time to go she realized she had nothing to wear, all of her clothes where practical ones or borrowed yours.she couldn't wear that for tonight ?! Karen began to feel anxious about not being able to look nice for you, trying desperately to figure out how she could find a good fit. Making it ? Buying it ? But she had not enough money. Stealing ? No she couldn't do that to you.

Pacing around the room she noticed an envelope, siting on the middle of the table, addressed to her. Carefully she opened it a d found about 30bucks and a note 'figured you didn't have much to wear, there's 40 $ to get something nice for tonight'. Her eyes watered at the gentleness of your action, always so careful about her. You knew her, so well, every bit of her unwind.

She got ready and headed out to the store, glancing around ever piece of clothing hanging from the corners of walls, middle of Ilses. Her hands skimming over fabrics softer than dreams, and more delicate than touch. She didn't know what to buy, for she hadn't been trying to be pretty for anyone or anything in forever. Didn't understand what velvet to get for it to glide against her skin, perhaps you wouldn't care ? No she had to do things right, to make that sparkle in your eye shine brighter than it ever did watching her. The dress needed to be feminine, Revieling but not to much, she wanted to keep part of her body as a surprise for your gaze in case you even desired to see it. She wanted something that would fit her curves nicely. She noticed the employees staring at her, they had probably seen her before, in much less acceptable attire. Perhaps she had hoped, and longed for the opportunity to one day finally wear the dresses displayed behind the glasses she had never dared to cross.

Her eyes found a red silk dress that seamed to kiss the manikin perfectly, her fingers draped against the fabric before she found one her size and held it, she took a bunch of other dresses, some shorter than others, a black V necked one, a blue sort of velvet one.

Ones her hands were full she skimmed over to the changing rooms. She tried all of them on, looking at her body in different cuts and colors. And, as she wore the deep red dress, the VENDEUSE couldn't hold back what she had to say "are ya even going to be able to afford that ? Since when do ya have money karen"

She was astonished by her phrase, Karen had begun to feel better about herself, and to be frank she loved herself in this dress, but maybe she was right ? She would never be able to be enough for you, who was she kidding, her Status wouldn't change, people would still see her as the homeless junkie and you wouldn't ever want her. Just as she started spiraling into her self loathing thoughts her phone buzzed on the stool. She picked it up before she could even reply to the blond. There was a text message from you.

*Hey sweetie, did you find the money to go shopping? How's it going? Found anything yet princess? Red will probs look good on you just saying, I'll be done with work in about an hour to pick you up ? I bet you'll look beautiful tonight. Looking forward to dinner, se ya :)*

She smiled stupidly at her phone, read your delicate words as it brought her some comfort.

"Whatchu smilin' about huh ? Something funny ? I don't think you should be in this store"

"I'll be taking this one."

"What ?"

"I'll be buying it you stupid bitch"

"With what ?"

"This" she pulled out the bills you gave her proudly shutting up the rude employee.

"Do you talk to all of your clients that way ? I'm sure your manager wouldn't like that wouldn't they ?" The girl walked away quietly while Karen smirked. She changed back to her clothes and paid for the clothing item before leaving, as she was walking back home she thought about makeup for a second. She didn't have any and hadn't worn any in years. So before going back home she stopped by a store to buy some. She know she had that 30 minutes to get ready so she took a quick shower and did her hair and make-up put on on the lovely dress that she had bought previously. She loves herself in the mirror all dolled up and found herself beautiful which she hadn't done in a long time.

She had your car pull up in the driveway and as you were coming in you said you needed a few minutes to get ready before you could both head out. She stayed in the bathroom and still hadn't revealed her outfit.

About 10 minutes later you said you were ready to go and grab your jacket and waited at the porch for Karen.

She arrived shortly and you stood there mouth gapping at her beauty which made her blush a little unused to this kind of look. After taking a few breaths you finally commented.

"You look very lovely darling"

"So do you if I must say so myself"

"Let's go shall we ?" You offered your arm before leading her to the car and opening the door. You wearing dark green suit, and your hair was down and pulled back by some gel.

You arrived at the restaurant quickly, Karen began fidgeting slightly which didn't go unnoticed by you.

"Darling relax, it's going to be fun"

"I know, but all these people are going to think I'm a clown, I mean I have no idea how to behave so classy"

"Don't worry, they'll forget about all of it once they see you in that dress, and as long as you don't burp and pick your nose in sure you'll be okay, besides I have no idea what fork is for what so we'll both look stupid and hot."

She giggled and you both entered, you asked for your table and the waitress took you there. Karen didn't miss the way she seemed to try and get your attention, but you never gave in, your eyes securely on her.

You spoke for hours, ordered fancy food and laughed at the ridiculeness of it all, you replaced a hair that fell in front of her face a couple times, you also touched her hand slightly, all of these gestures made her fluttery. She told you about her life before the street, secrets and lovers, dreams and talents, and you about work, and your past. Your fingers stoked her cheek as she spoke.

You left a few hours later, after you paid, and walked around the streets for a bit.

"Are you still hungry?"

"A little why ?"

"Let's go home and have some ice cream then"

You said as you both went back to the car and got home.

There you did her of her jacket and yours too before pulling out some desert from the freezer.

"Do you want to watch a movie while we eat ?"

"Sure" she said before you lit the tv and settled next to her.

You found something you would both enjoy and put it on. During the movie you both snuggled closer. Her head fell on your shoulder as she circled her arms against you and you pulled her in. At one point her eyes found yours, head tipped up in the dark of your living room, the street and tv illuminating her skin, you leaned in and pressed a sweet kiss on her lips. It was heaven, when you both met in the middle, and you pressed her closer to you.

Nothing really needed to be said, you both aknowleged your rising feelings for one another. Karen snuggled into you, her back relaying on your front on the sofa.

When the movie ended you were still both molded together, karen turned back to look into your eyes, something in her snapped, she grabbed your neck and kissed you soundly, clumsily, as someone who craves sweetness drinks lust. She straddled you, your palms immediately finding the fabric on her hips, gripping possessively at the dress bunching up at her thighs. Karen continued to hold your face and neck while you took the lead in kissing her, your teeth biting slightly and her mouth opening for you to explore. It was the heat between you both that made her start to grind down on your lap. "I think we better get to the bed before I have you fuck me right here" she wispered in your ear. You didn't need to be told twice. "fucking you on the sofa didn't sound so bad but hang on" Hands flew underneath her butt and you were up in the second. Stumbling around the house as she kept softly moaning while you pressed your lips to her neck and gently sucked on the spot that made her blush.

You finally made it to your room, her head pulled back while your lips descended further down. Gently you put her down on the bed, her eyes hungry for more, as she looked up at you straddling her. You didn't speak, much less needed to, everything was weeping out both of your eyes. Much less urgently, with the carefulness of someone who unravels a gift, your hands lowered the straps of her dress, lips discovering new hidden places.

For once she was cherished, embraced, touched.

You rid her of her bra, mouths crashing in a passionate kiss, while you pulled her dress further down, little moans filling the air..

"I haven't been touched like this since forever"

She wispered like a secret in your ear, "well that's gonna change for good"

You replied before pressing kissed and bites lower and lower still. She groaned and pushed her hips off of the bed as you played tenderly with her breasts, every now and then getting attention to her nipples.

"Fuck..y/n.." you heard as you gently pulled on it with you teeth. Her fingers gripping alternatively the sheets and your hair.

After a while you left her chest and went on discovering her abdomen, your fingertips grazing the skin. You kissed her one last time before caressing her mound through her panties, making sure to tease her enough before taking off her last undergarments.

"Baby, you look so pretty like this"

Your hands played with her for a little bit, smearing her arousal all over the place, hearing the erotic sounds coming from her as she pleaded you to stop messing around.

"Oh..Would you like something lovely ?"

"...y/n..please .."

"Do you want my fingers or my mouth sweet thing"

The praising did something interesting to her and you evidently noticed.

"..I don't care...just... fuck..."

Your fingers slammed into her easily and she didn't complain, quite the opposite the moans that left her mouth were quite obscene.

You pulled into her steadily making sure to avoid her clit, reserving it for after some teasing. Her pelvis was throwing itself at you, and you took the opportunity to lay down on top of her, making sure not to crush her but placing kisses on her throat. "..y/n..! Ah.. It's been...so long... I won't last ...forever"

Finally you decided to end her suffering and your thumb found her clit, it only took her a few strokes to come undone in your arms. She was surprisingly silent as she came, her body rigid and her breath shallow. Your fingers stilled inside her but didn't pull out, as you wanted to give her a little more of that bliss, also selfishly you wished to see her cum again, finding her desperately hot. When she calmed down, you gently lowered yourself and your mouth, kissed her clit before sucking softly. Her hips canted upwards, and it took the curling of your fingers inside that sweet spot in her to come again, louder this time.

A little while later, you were both laying in bed, Karen curled up against you.

"Thank you"

You heard her mumble from her place in your neck. "What for K ?"

"Everything"

"You don't have to darling"

"Also the sex was amazing"

"Karen !" You playfully dogged her. "You still don't have to thank me for that"

"I know, but I wanted to... Also I haven't really return the favor yet so.." she climbed on you before kissing your neck sweetly. You caressed her cheek before parting away from her.

"Let's sleep for now it's late, you can return the favor later on baby.."

#sarah paulson fanfiction #sarah paulson characters #tb karen x reader #tbkarenxreader #tbkaren

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Write more Mina fics and Tag me in all of them. Thanks.

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Wilhemina Venable in lingerie. would she ever wear this? absolutely not BUT I digress 😅😅😅

Wilhemina hugging herself in the mirror is a tribute to @lucyintheskywithxanax’s fanfic “Different Kinds of Falls” it is SO BEAUTIFUL

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Oh, for you to kiss me on the ice

Wilhemina venable x reader

Warning: angst with an happy ending + body issues just overall the usual stuff

1650+ words

Her stomach was soft, the skin there delicate like cream, and your fingers danced on it while she read her book sitting between your legs. She had noticed that molded against your front her back ached less, and it gave her a space to rest. You were nuzzling her neck peppering kisses on her skin, when your arms circles her and held her tighter before you started playing with her hair.

"Wilhemina ?"

"Mm?" She pressed her head back against your shoulder as she looked up.

"I wanna take you out ice skating tomorrow"

"...I don't see why you would want to do such a thing"

she gripped her book even tighter, and adjusted her glasses a little. "Sweetheart"

The term of endearment sounded almost like a mockery with her tone.

"It's a very lame thing to do"

Your fingertips found her bare sides underneath her nightshirt to bring her comfort. She relaxed a bit, but didn't let down the vicious grip she had on the pages. They shook slightly, reminding you that her hanger was always fear in disguise, or was it shame ?

It was a miracle how you'd ended up knowing her in that way, every sign, breath she took and even subtle glances was an opportunity for you to take a look into her mind.

"Hey.. baby it'll be a sweet moment to spend together on your day off."

"I do not want to go skating, we aren't in the north pole"

"I know but I think it could be a romantic date to go on together and then get home and have fun" you said while softly biting her neck and soothing it with kisses. She moved away from your embrace, starting to lay down facing the wall. "I'll kiss you on the ice darling"

You tried to rest your hand on her hip but she dogged it.

"Don't. I'm having enough of you"

Wilhemina wanted so badly to be kissed on ice, in the air, wherever your lips would find hers. Of course she would never say that, because on top of not being good enough for you, and incapable of skating normally she would rather die than admit how much she longs for your touch. And god knows how much you like to touch her skin, fingers never far from her, always ready to display tenderness and care on her body.

You tried to speak but she moved further away on the bed.

"Mina ..what's going on ?"

"You say that like it isn't obvious"

"Well it's not, I don't understand why you're so mad all of a sudden"

"You're such an obnoxious idiot y/n"

"Oh really ? Well then why do you put up with me huh ?

"I really don't know how, you're such a stupid whore"

"Then How come do you stay ?"

"I said I DON'T even know why"

"Well I do, You stay because I love you, and you love me, and despite how fucking exhausting your grumpiness is, I still love you more each minute of each day. So excuse le if I thought we could go out and have fun like a normal couple !"

"We're not a normal couple !"

"Why cause we're women ? Oh grow up now come on ! We've been over this already."

"No ! What are you blind ? What kind of normal couple is formed by a cripple like me ?!"

"So this is about your back ?"

"Obviously"

"I'll say this one last time you are not a cripple ! You have a disability yes. But it's time you realize that you've been the meanest person to yourself."

"If you did know why even suggest it ?"

"Because you seem to think that everything that somehow involves your body is an immediate failure. I've seen people skate with even less mobility range. And if you had asked I would have told you I came prepared."

She looked at you in confusion before her lips trembled and you placed your hand on her cheek.

"Yes, i looked it up it's accessible, and there's an option for you to use a skating cane or a chair. That way we can skate together without being at risk of hurting your back."

You felt a tear rolling on the pad of your thumb, and understood, wilhemina didn't want to get angry for no reason, she simply expected you to not care about her pain, or be angry at her for not being able to 'perform' like she was asked to as a kid, somehow having to compensate what was seen as a failure by excelling in every other domain.

It wasn't that she didn't want to go, but rather she worried it wouldn't go well, of course she made sure you would never know that. Her eyes held everything she tried to tell you as her words failed her. She opened and closed her mouth, trying to find something to say but couldn't form a coherent sentence.

"Baby ... I know...I know what you can't say out loud."

So then she cried quietly before she went into your arms and you held her tightly while playing with the soft hairs on her neck.

Your fingers tracing patterns on her skin in a sweet promise that you would always be the one to hold her and love her intently.

After a few minutes she was able to call down because of your soothing touch and sweet word. She took a deep breath her body trembling in tremors.

"Surely you're not going to want to do anything with me anymore now..."

"What do you mean ?"

"Well you wanted to do something nice with me and I snapped at you... I called you names...i said awful things to you... why would you still want to be nice to me."

"Because I know why you did that, and I trust you to make an effort and try to see that I won't hurt you, and we'll do stuff like that together"

She settled back on top of you, this time her front pressed against your pelvis, and her cheek resting on your chest, fingers lacing with yours.

Wilhelmina was like that sometimes, she couldn't contain the need to feel you anymore, you had started noticing it while you had been going together to the cinema once, there the lights had been off. And in the darkness she found your skin, her body pulled into you, the touch of her hair in your neck as she rested to enjoy the movie. Honestly you probably wouldn't even remember what fill it was, you spend your time teary eyed as she giggled on your shoulder and circled her arms between yours to snuggle.

You swore you saw her soul dance like a child who first gets gifted candy. You think somehow she felt less tense than any other time, even in your bed somehow she found the need to cover herself. You remembered when the movie ended both of you parted away and it somehow felt painful. The ride home had been calm yet she didn't have the strength to reach out for your skin, maybe afraid in the dim light you wouldn't allow her to, and she would feel rejection again. So you had done it, had placed a hand on her thigh, slowly tracing your fingers around the hem of her dress, a beautiful deep purple turtleneck that hugged her curves and hung mid-thigh.

You had bought it for her thinking she would never want to put it on but that evening when you were getting ready she climbed down the stairs in it. A little shyly at first before you told her she looked beautiful and you had made the right choice. 'about the dress ? the dress ?' she had asked 'yeah, that too'. , that too'.

And then there was that day during autumn, she had complained about not being able to go on walks because the wet leaves were slippery, and you had said it was disappointing because the trees harboured the color of her hair and celebrated her with hot chocolate and sweet pumpkins.

She hadn't said much then clearly upset that she was holding you from doing things again, had almost gave in and screw the risk but you had refused, her wellbeing mattering more than a stupid season. But you had waited. Had called the Citysoffice to tell them how their invigilence could cause grave things and they would get sued for it.

You found out the date of the day they would blow out the leaves and decided to take mina out on that day. She was reluctant at first and then she noticed the streets were clear. Wondered how you could have known, if this ,as even your doing. You said you'd pulled some small strings because nothing would ever be to big for her.

She wondered if this day would be like now. Because you looked at her with such care and devotion she figured you would keep her safe on both feet. And what ? A little skating couldn't hurt especially when you promised to keep her in you arms safely.

"I will go with you"

"You know I'm never going to let you get hurt, I simply thought we'd have a little f- wait... Really?"

"Yes, you're right it'll be fun."

Suddenly wilhemina found your arms against her body tightly hugging her and your lips peppering kisses all over her face whispering 'thank you thank you thank you' over and over again in between.

"Oh god it'll be so great ! I'll make you spin and dance ! And we can get those delicious pastries you like so much and I'll kiss you on the Ice, like we're the only ones there."

"I hope you will" Wilhelmina whispered after kissing your cheek and turning around to let sleep hold her finally. Of course she will never tell you how much she's always wanted to be kissed on the ice.

A/n: I'm so sorry for being so inactive I'm trying to find time to write I swear I just never do

#sarah paulson fanfiction #sarah paulson characters #fanfic #wilhemina venable x reader #wilhelmina venable #soft!mina #angst with a happy ending

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lesbian appreciation post

POC Lesbians, your cultures are wonderful and beautiful. We’d love it if you could tell us about your culture.

Chubby / Plus Sized Lesbians, your body is alluring, and your stretch marks show that you are a child of Thor (lightning).

Neurodivergent Lesbians, your minds are a wonder and do not let anyone invalidate you.

Traumatized Lesbians, keep on fighting, whoever hurt you deserves to rot and you will grow to live a wonderful life.

Old Lesbians, you have blazed a wonderful trail for the lesbians of this generation.

Young Lesbians, you are a part of an amazing generation of lesbians, do not let people invalidate your romantic orientation due to your age.

Closeted Lesbians, this isn’t easy. It’s a huge secret to keep. do not force yourself to come out and only do it if you are ready. I hope it goes well.

Transgender Lesbians, you are beautiful and hold so much power.

Veteran Lesbians, thank you for protecting us, we admire your strength.

ill lesbians, keep on fighting and going strong, this world needs you.

Lesbians with scars, your scars are signs of battles and challenges and show how much you’ve endured. Do not feel pressured to hide them. They will heal if possible. 

Burn survivor lesbians, your scars are a part of your beauty and show how you fought this world’s most damaging element.

Amputee lesbians, you are absolutely delightful and strong. Do not let people tell you otherwise.

Lesbians who wear hijabs, do not let people make fun of you. Your hijabs are beautiful and are a lovely piece of your culture.

Comphet / Internalized homophobia lesbians, this isn’t an easy thing to accept, I understand. Let yourself be you and do not be ashamed or beat up yourself for who you are.

Blind Lesbians, you are incredibly strong for living in this world, it must not be easy living like this.

Deaf Lesbians, do not let your disability hold you back from your goals, you have fought so much living without being able to hear.

Asexual Spectrum Lesbians, don’t let people make you feel bad for not wanting intimacy. You are not something to be fixed and you are valid

ILY LESBIANS <3333

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a day in the life of a procrastinator with major writers block (also idk if anyone did this before. I just got bored)

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GET ME THROUGH THE PAIN, GET ME THOUGH THE TEARS

Wilhemina x reader

Warning ⚠️: mention of chronic pain and medical terms

She always woke up before you, you had always been a late sleeper and definitely not a morning person, your lover always made jokes about how you were absolutely insufferable early in the day.

So when you woke up and didn't feel her warmth next to you, at first you were not exactly worried.

However when you heard something crashing downstairs and whipped your head up to see what the time was, anxiety build up inside of you. "Honey ?..are you okay ?.."

When no reply came you decided to run downstairs to check, you wrapped your robe around you hurriedly. When you opened the door to your kitchen you found wilhemina standing barefoot next to a broken up plate with It's food all littered on the tiles.

"Baby are you okay ?" You spoke up and she finally noticed you.

"Shit y/n... You should've stayed in bed"

"What happened Mina I heard crushing noise ? Are you hurt ?"

"I'm fine. Just get out and let me clean up"

"No.. you're barefoot, don't move I'll get you some shoes and pick up the glass"

"I'M FINE. I said out"

"And I told you I'm going to give you shoes so you don't get yourself cut"

"I DON'T CARE ! LEAVE ME...I mean.. LEAVE ME ALONE" you took a step towards her, not caring about the cracking sounds of glass underneath your slippers.

"..oh, so this isn't really about wanting to clean up by yourself isn't it ?"

"..I..I do not know what you're talking about"

You raised your hand to caress her cheek now that you were in front of her, and saw her lip quiver, as she tried to compose herself.

"What's wrong sweetheart ?" She came back to herself and swatted your hand.

"Nothing. I am simply amazed at your incapacity to listen to a simple order."

Rage bubbled inside you, you swore you could have just yelled and screamed at her how tired you were of her games, how exhausted you were that she still let her walls up around you. But you knew better, anger would only scare her further away, you had to be smarter and show her you were not going to be fooled. So you raised your hand again, this time you caressed her neck before landing your fingers on her face.

"Mina, I know you, I know when you're upset... You can talk to me"

You saw her hesitate, the flicker of doubt in her eyes. That moment were the battle in her head tries to let her trust you, she loves me, she tries to say to her troubled mind, it's her I'm safe here she won't hurt me. Silly girl, she's probably playing a part waiting for the moment to strike. No, y/n isn't like that !.

"Baby...I promise I'm not here to hurt you .. I simply want to make you feel better"

It was as if you had read her mind, it was so easy when her eyes just shouted her emotions all the time, her mind got quiet as you peppered kisses on her cheeks, and found her mouth before breathing out 'I love you so much' love you so much' She visibly relaxed, like the combat ceased, leaned into your touch, her body giving out as you reached to hold her.

"There you are my sweet girl" You whispered into her ear as you ran your hands through her hair. "Come on we'll sit down wilhemina...here" you settled her on the stool in front of you before you got her shoes and cleaned the broken shards off of the floor, wilhemina watching silently as you did.

"You should have let me do that"

"Oh..no worries love, I'm practically done"

"That's not the point this should be me bending over and throwing these damn things away" She confessed while waving some glass over.

"I told you, I don't mind. You're safety is more important to me than any of that"

"It shouldn't be a problem, I should be able to do things on my own"

"And you are, to some extent just like everyone, there are some things you can do, some you can't" she send you one of her death glare

"You know it's not the same"

"What, because you're disabled ? Because that difference makes what you can and cannot do a certain way ?"

"YES." She replied angrily, her insecurities facing the surface. It was like a boat sailing on its trip except there was no map, no captain, and no crew on board, just a prisoner who's hatred grows without end. Wilhemina was and is still a woman of misery. She wears her pain like a skin, crawling her way out of there, towards that softness, that passion, that care. Your love, your acceptance, your name on her lips had sounded so right the first time she moaned it.

"I still don't get it, you know, i don't believe anyone's been harder on yourself than you. You. Ms venable. You are able of such kindness yet so much cruelty."

She was a bit straddled by the comment, but regained composure and asked "and why is that mm?"

"Well, when I catch you at the right moment, you are surprisingly sweet, when in the morning you kiss me and touch my cheek before I wake up, the small faces on pancakes you make. You don't do that for you, but somehow, love's found a way through the cracks of your heart to make it's ness. But if you let yourself be free for to long, it's like that leach of shame and bargaining yanks you away and makes you hurl."

She straighten up her back as you spoke, obviously she knew you were right, but the words of her mother, family, friends, collegues resonated through her head in an attempt to draw her away from you and into more loathing.

"I am quite amazed at your ability to annoy me to the bone."

"Sweetheart stop that"

"Frankly you should stop with all this sugarcoating nonsense"

Wilhemina gained a higher posture and raised her hair up, grimacing slightly before completely blocking the pain from being visible on her face, something she had a bad habit of doing. Even though it would have been unoticable to everyone else you on the other hand had learned to recognize her soul within the protective layers she put up ever since she was a child.

"Where does it hurt Mina"

"I don't know what you're talking about."

She had learned that denial made it easier to hide. And still sometimes those instincts would kick in, even though she loved you, and knew you wouldn't judge, or hurt, or mock her.

"You don't have to suffer on your own"

"I am perfectly fine. Go back upstairs and mind your business"

"You know what Alright, deal with this alone"

You were furious, Everytime you though you were progressing somehow she distanced herself.

"I'm going to bed. Don't wake me up I'm doing nightshifts this week" you were about to leave when she grabbed your arm

"Wait...p..please don't g.. stay"

"You can't keep doing this... Wilhemina."

She couldn't oscillate between reaching for you and pulling you away like this, it was exhausting for you, to love someone who so easily pretended you hated her.

".. I..I know"

"I love you"

"I..know"

"So let me"

Her lip wavered and she buried her face in her hands. Before whimpering

"I'm so tiered"

"Of what sweetheart ?"

"It hurts"

"Your back ?"

She nodded heavily, her eyes Beginning for something you couldn't give her.

"Did you take your analgesics ?"

"Yes but it barely does anything"

"Your doctor didn't proscribe you anything else ?"

"No. That incompetent doesn't bother"

"Do you tell him the painkillers don't work ?"

"...no"

"WILHEMINA !"

"What ?! I can't have him think I'm weak. Even with you it's hard"

"He's YOUR DOCTOR ! "

"So what ?"

"He sees patients like you all the time."

"Like me?"

"Yes people who are struggling in pain because of their conditions. Being in pain isn't going to scare him or make him judge you !"

Wilhemina always proud herself with being strong, and never needing anyone. She had been taught that her emotions were weaknesses, and hurt so many times by having them uncontrollably flowing that she now kept them in a box, even if it meant going through immense pain without notifying it.

"How long ?"

"What ?"

"How long did you lay with me suffering in our bed ?"

"..I..I don't understand"

"I think you do. How much fucking time has passed before you went downstairs, how many hours did you spend cuddling with me after you realized you were in pain ?! "

"I'm... I.. don't..I'm"

"Did you even think about waking me up ? Were you going to leave for work feeling like that all day and then proceed to lie to me about how was your day ?"

"..n..no..I don't..know.."

"I need to be able to trust you mina... To trust that you'll tell me the important stuff, what if we had had sex this morning before you had gone to work ? Would you have told me then that you ached ?"

"..no I...I guess.."

"Would you have let me touch you even if you felt like this ?"

Silence fell from her lips as guilt flashed through her eyes.

"...baby.. you ..I need you to tell me those things...you can't let me have you when you clearly aren't up for it."

"Up for it ?! I'm perfectly able to handle sex thank you"

"Wilhemina.. I meant when your not okay.

You need to talk to your doctor about reevaluating your prescription, you can't keep having meds that don't help you"

"I wish he could just get me rid of this already"

She spoke with fire, as she gestured to her back.

"If he was any good maybe he'd find me a solution"

"Hey ...he's a doctor, if he judges that the risk is to high he's right, especially when HE Believes that you're not in a huge amount of pain." She took a step forward to reach your offering hands and suddenly she gasped bending in half as her face contorted in pain. You immediately supported her and held her bday in your arms

"BABY ?! oh god..did I hurt you ? Where and how does it hurt ? Can you stand ? Do you want to go lay down ?"

"I need another nefopam please"

"How many did you take already ?"

"I don't know... about three..maybe more"

"I can't give you any baby...I'm sorry"

"Please..."

"I can't it's dangerous"

"Why wouldn't you try to fix me ?"

"What ?"

"Isn't there anything you can think of ? Please y/n you're a doctor"

"I'm an traumatologist not an orthopedic surgeon...right now let's just focus on making you feel better darling. Let's get you out of the kitchen"

You slowly went to the couch and laid her down on it, she seemed slightly accommodated, "baby ? Look at me darling...do you want some water ? Is this position okay ?"

She nodded to both before you got up to get her water and fumble through your pharmacy, finding some nalbuphine, and preparing your material.

"All I can give you is this .. it should ease a little bit of it, but I need to inject it" mina was now curled into a ball on the floor, you didn't ask how she got here, she had once told you as a kid laying on the cold tiles was the only thing that brought her comfort or peace when she ached to much.

"It hurts ..." you sat next to her, and ran your hand up her hair as you were preparing the medicine,

"I know sweetie"

"I want my mommy"

Immediately she whipped her hand on her mouth, Her tears were now forming a small puddle and your heart stained at how suddenly pure and almost childish she had become "honey can you tell me where precisely does it hurt ?"

"Upper back" you put some hydroalchoolic solution on your hands before puting on some gloves.

"Alright, can you lay on your stomach for me ?"

She moved slowly before asking "will it hurt ?"

"No..darling I'll be gentle, you'll feel a small pinch"

You folded her skin gently and injected the medicine slowly to make sure it didn't form an edema.

"It'll kick in in about ten minutes sweetheart"

You disposed of everything before going back and cuddling her to make time fly by faster.

After half an hour mina finally spoke.

"I'm sorry about the mess in the kitchen"

"This isn't what you should be sorry about wilhemina"

"I know.. I'm sorry...I'm sorry I didn't tell you I was in pain"

"I know it's scary, but I'll always be here no matter what, you're not scaring me away any time soon" you finished by placing a kiss to her forehead. Wilhemina relaxing in your arms.

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Au reflet D'or et d'argent

Mildred x reader

Smut

Mention of abuse

A little short/

This this evening Mildred hadn't heard you fumble with the lock she didn't even hear the foot stops through the entrance of your home. The one that you now shared with Mildred since January. This morning she hadn't had a chance to kiss you goodbye because she worked very early and you were still sleeping when she left.

"Hey Millie I'm home "

Mildred was lost in thought, she had put some type of medical glue in her hair today at work, it was a innocent mistake but nevertheless she had to cut her hair short. Mildred had never changed haircut like this, as a kid her foster parents didn't pay much attention to her hair. So she had to do it by herself but anytime she would change or try something new she would get beaten up. As an adult she never really went to the hairdresser to get her hair done she always worked that hairdo, pined up  or  hair down but still on top of her head some type of curl pattern.

So when she was in front of the mirror today trying to get the glue out and noticed it wasn't going to work she panicked. Tried cutting strands of hair without too much damage. But she ended up with a side shorter than the other and a big hole in it and was forced to cut it. She had now a short cut. Even if Hank told her that she looked great like this that it was nice and lightened her figure, Mildred couldn't help but fear the resentment that came from unexpectedly changing haircut.

So when she came home she did her best to try and pin it but it wouldn't work and she couldn't hide her haircut. Which ultimately meant one thing : you were going to be aware of it.

And you'd probably be mad at her for having cut her long and flowy hair, the one you always complimented, because you said she had the most beautiful curls you'd ever seen. Maybe you wouldn't even want to be with her anymore maybe you wouldn't even want to touch her or love her this way If she had changed something so characteristic about herself. And then she reminded herself of her past, of how the people who were supposed to love her as a kid hurt her really bad for doing such a thing, she wouldn't even think about changing her hair or do try new things, and if she did she was going to be starved or worse.

She was lost in thoughts cutting vegetables to prepare both of your dinners since you had an evening shift and her a morning one, that she didn't even hear you coming through the door and so when you came up behind her and place to kiss on her exposed neck she flinched. She hadn't flinch like this in a very long time. In the beginning of your relationship she would sometimes straddle when you unexpectedly showed her affection and you always reassured that you wouldn't do it if it was too scary or to unusual for her, but that it made you feel closer to her when you knew your able to just pay affection without having to ask for it. And slowly she had a customized to the gentle care that you showed her. No longer  getting surprised by soft curses or slight touches and you were very thankful for that. So it sort of weird that she would now, you tried reassuring her "Oh love it's just me"

She turned around and started backing away a little knife still in her hands. "Baby can you Put that down please"

She did after a short pause, "you are home early !" She said in hurry "Oh my God I'm sorry"

"What about ?" She kept getting a little further away from you, and you held up your hands to show her she was okay.

"Please don't leave, please don't hurt me".

-"You know I would never do that to you sweetheart, Talk to me, where are you now what's going on ?"

Mildred was starting to shake, her hands were trembling, she tried hiding her hair in her hands so you wouldn't see what she had done to herself. Still she waited and the lash out didn't come, you were still standing and very much showing her love. "Did you get a new haircut ?" That phrase send her into a panic state again "I'm so sorry y/n I didn't mean to ! Please don't be mad at me it's just ..I... I got glue in my hair and and it wouldn't leave and...I had to cut it"

"Mildred why would I be mad ?"

Mildred didn't understand, she didn't comprehend how you could look so confused about that, which confused her too. "I didn't ask you I'm sorry, I should have asked you, you should have been the one to tell me how to cut it"

"Why ? We can't get married but I would  certainly not be one of these husbands who would do that to their wives. Besides darling your body is yours you're allowed to change your hair"

"You're just saying this now you're still going to be mad and hurt me"

"Love what makes you think that ?"

"Because I'm not allowed to get a haircut without you knowing or having a say in it"

"Of course you are besides I think it looks great you look cute like this"

Mildred was certainly straddled at the thought that all her life she had been trying to please someone who didn't exist anymore. You went up to her again this time she didn't back away and you placed her hands on the sides of her face and kissed her. "Baby you look absolutely perfect and a haircut is not going to make me change my mind about you"

You ran your hands in her hair before attaching them to her hips and bending down slightly to place kisses at the top of her neck. Going around until you reached her mouth. "I like the fact that it's a little shorter now, it exposes your neck well that way I can give it kisses whenever I want"

Mildred felt tears starting to form and our eyes from the emotion. "So you're okay with it ?"

"Obviously, You're still so so beautiful, If you decided to shave it off one day you would still be beautiful because your beauty and your femininity doesn't revolve around your long and flowy hair, but I still want to talk about why you thought I was going to hurt you for any of that"

" I thought..I don't know why...It's just.. I ..it it's what happened when I was a kid"

"Oh baby..."

"No.. I...just The way I handled my hair was always controlled by whoever was supposed to take care of me back then and often times..they would be neglectful about it but if I changed something or tried the new style they would just be mad at me and almost always beat me up or lock me in a cabinet"

It took Mildred in your arms one in her hair the other one circling her body and she put hers on top of your chest and it converting better as she nuzzled your neck.

"I know you're not like them... It's just taking me a little time to adjust"

"I'm sorry you have to adjust in the first place... It Should be something that you were always familiar with"

"I'm starting to understand that because of you. And how well do you love me"

"I do love you. A lot actually"

"Oh I didn't know" you could tell Mildred was back to her normal self she's been starting to light up and use sarcasm.

"So..what were you making sweetheart ?"

"Well I was trying to cook some pasta but you stopped me midway and now they're probably too heated up."

"Okay first thing Millie, pasta can not be too heated up and I appreciate you trying to make me food but darling I could have cooked us both something at the end of my shift"

"Yeah but I didn't know at what time you would come back and you know sometimes how work is"

"I do"

"So are you going to cook us something then ?"

"Well I can see you were starting to cut vegetables maybe I can make us grilled zucchini and mushrooms with pasta"

"God I can't wait to eat that"

"Well I can definitely think about a few things that I'd like to eat now"

You said to her with a flirty tone, she's squealed joyfully when you picked her up and lifted her on the counter.

"Y/n ! What are you doing ! I thought you were going to cook"

"I got distracted besides I'm a little early right ?"

Mildred started laughing, has your hands quickly worked the buttons of her dress.

She helped you take the fabric off and moaned when you kissed her neck. Your hands caressed her skin, Up and down her sides and rested on her thighs as as she pushed her top off of her shoulders quickly.

"In a hurry baby ?"

"Says the one who couldn't wait after dinner"

"What are you talking about this is going to be my dinner"

"Well then get going we wouldn't want it to cool off"

You jiggled as you got back to working up and kissing her newly discovered skin.

"No bra ?"

"I knew that it would be just us tonight"

You took the opportunity to put your lips around her nipple and slightly suck and she groaned again, this time first thing for pelvis towards you which almost made her fall off the counter.

You took her ass and gently sat her on the edge of it so she could lean into the counter.

You took your time exploring and nibbling boobs. Your hand rubbing circles on her inner thighs Well the other played with her delicate nub. You put your leg between hers and immediately her hips started grinding down on it. She couldn't help but think about the fact that before that relationship she had never really want anything like this, she hadn't ever experienced such neediness. In the beginning she would feel ashamed of her arousal, telling you that she looked like a dog and heat and that it was wrong. You told her that she just looked like a woman who enjoyed herself and she was surprised to discover that woman could enjoy sex.

Sex with men had always been about them their needs what they wanted from her they always used her body as a way to feel good and never cared about her doing so too.

She felt you going lower until you reached between her legs and placed kisses on her thighs your hands holding her pelvic bones.

You quickly got rid of her underwear making sure to see if it okay. She heavily nodded to which you responded "use your words sweetheart"

"Yes... I want to... please... don't make me wait any longer". You dived in, inhaling her sent and enjoying her taste. She immediately bucked her hips towards your face and you kept licking her clit directly wanting her to come quickly. Her hands found your head as she threw her head back in pleasure, your lips closing around her clit and slightly sucking before continuing the same movements.

You ate her out for a few minutes before her body started to shake, her hands gripping as she rode your face.

She looked down for approval, your mouth attached to her "pleas..please ...I'm so close...may I ?"  There was sweat Beginning to form on her forehead and her limbs were starting to wobble.

"You want to come this early and I haven't even put my fingers inside of you yet ?"

She nodded again "yes yes !"

"Go ahead baby let it out" it was all she needed to scream as her climax washed over her, seeing stars as she grinded on you and you helped her rude her orgasm out. Before she had time to come down from it you pushed two fingers inside her and curled your digits, quickly getting her over the edge a second time

"OH SWEET LORD YES ! please....UHhhh YES !"

after a few minutes she came down from her high, you held her against the counter peppering kisses on her skin softly, she rubbed your hair to soothe herself back to reality.

"That was...wow"

"You were so hot cumming against the counter like that"

She jabbed your shoulder

"Stop that"

"What ?"

"Making me blush !"

"But your cute when you do so"

"I said stop it"

"Make me"

You said before picking her up and bringing her to your shared bedroom as she giggled.

A/n: I'm sorry for the inactivity my fish drowned and I was eating my car.

Also I wrote this with the audio typing so any mistakes is my phone fucking up

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"YOU ARE THE START OF SOMETHING NEW."

Mildred x reader

Straight up smut bitches

⚠️Mention of sexual trauma

Mildred seductively sank to her knees while she reached for the treasure you were hiding in your trousers. Hands fumbling with the fabric trying to get her fingers to unbuckle your belt, her eyes fixated on her goal.

"You know you could just ask darling"

You said as your hands found hers to calm her movements, "I'm sorry... I thought.. I was sure I'd get it but I'm not too familiar with this mechanism"

"It's okay Mildred"

You stroked the space underneath her wrist and began to open your belt for her, the second she heard that familiar click her Fingers were on your buttons, back to her urging ministrations.

As soon as she was done the pants fell and her hand reached out to hold the strap-on you were wearing on top of your underwear.

She had been sensitive to how you always seemed to balance an over masculine act by a sort of feminine thing, like a reminder that what she was doing was still with a woman. A gentle caress, a soft word, a high pitched moan, or even just the way your eyes seemed to shine with pride and admiration when she was underneath you taking the rubber length, or sitting on your lap while you guided your strap inside her, never fast and dry like some other men had done in the

Somehow you were mindful of what she had experience with men. Today, the softness of the laced panties you were wearing was enough to ground her, telling her that although there was a dick attached to you it was still yours to control.

There had been time when this intimacy would have been rejected, before when you were both exploring with these aspects of your sexuality, Mildred had laughed and hurled at the own thought of you taking her the way a men would, she had mumbled something about not going to go back to having sex like she did with men now that she was coming to terms with her lesbianism.

But eventually, your patience and love showed her that she was safe, that the way you wanted to dominate her was nothing vile, non-consentiual, or predatorus. That you would only ever explore that if being submissive was something she would want, and that you would never press for anything like men had before, when they shoved themselves inside her, their calloused, and tough hands, handling her like she was nothing but a sac of potatoes, only ever needing her body and barely interested in anything else then emptying their balls.

She still tastes them on her tongue, fells them inside her body, stretching and breaking her. She remembers their faces and voices too well, the images vivid in her mind, at night she'll have the same nightmares.

Sometimes when she gains back her consciousness, she'll find herself curled up in your arms, seeking your warmth, your safety, the way your hands never feel  dangerous rough, or careless, the way they always seem to touch her skin with the most tenderness.

She discovered touch when she met you, startling at first when she didn't know it could be harmless, and even sweetz but eventually the more your gentle caresses fell upon her skin the more she grew thirsty for that affection. And when the grip of her darkness wouldn't completely let go of her in the morning, her body sweaty and her nightgown riddled up, you would always sooth her back to calmness, rubbing her back, gently easing down the hem of the fabric to cover her again completely, your soft words making her forget about the sharp insults and harsh slaps she received, the men who threw her on their bed and tore her underwear, how their fingers seemed to burn her skin when they gripped and touched at her skin.

She was barely 11 when her body started appealing obscene men, her foster father had commented on how her breasts were slowly growing, and had kneaded her thigh with his hand.

there was also Edmund, and what they were forced to do in front of these people.

Oh how she despised them, their prying eyes on her young figure, laughing and clapping as the layer of clothes fell on the floor, grunting while Edmund used his mouth on her, or she on him.

Surely if you knew were hers had been you'd never kiss it again, look at her like the dirty thing she is.

And then there was all the horrible sex she had with men, when she was convincing herself this is how being intimate was supposed to feel. Like when she was with that oskshdke he had slammed her against the door before even asking what was her name, she'd tell him to wait a little but he was to quick at removing her nurse uniform and sinking her to the floor, 'you know what to do nurse bitch' unfortunately for her she did know, how every men that had come across her had had the same behavior. So just like she had been taught she swallowed her pride, shut the voices in her head telling her to get away from this, no Mildred, this is how women and men have sex, you're supposed to enjoy how he wants it, he is, it's the way it has to be. Stay on your knees and be the slut you always are.

Her mind had been reckless and cruel to her since she was little, it was the only right way to protect herself, and she knew it.

"Honey ?... Where are you right now ?" She felt your hand on her cheek, lifting her head just to look into your eyes, always so warm, waiting for her to come back to you.

"I..I sorry .. I'm...I"

"It's okay sweetheart, take your time, I'm right here with you"

You didn't move in fear of straddling her, so instead you bent down and placed a kiss on her forehead, "whenever you're ready"

"I am...i just got lost in my thoughts for a minute"

"Okay baby...good or bad ones ?"

"..not...I.. "

"Alright I got it"

You slowly tries pulling her back up.

"no wait ?!"

"What is it baby ? What do you need"

"Can we.. can you just kiss me ?"

"From here ?"

"Yes...please"

You captured her lips with yours, at first feather light, not wanting to add any toughness, but your hands lacing the back of her neck and cradling her shoulders, while hers held onto your forearms sweetly. You pulled back when air became rare.

"I love you Mildred with all my soul"

"I love you too y/n, with what's left of it"

You continues making out passionately, Mildred getting bolder with each passing seconds until she urged you to take off your top, and was met yet again by a lacy green bra that covered your chest.

"...oh...It's my favorite"

"I know that's exactly why I put it on baby.."

Your fingers laced her dress straps, gently pulling them down her shoulders

"Can I take this off ?"

She nodded before breathing out a delicate yet eager 'yes'.

You took your time uncovering her breasts from the sweet orange dress she was in, delighted to see the braless milky skin as you went down, her boobs bouncing a little as it passed upon them.

"You look so amazing my darling, you make me..goodness...so aroused right now"

You captured her mouth in a kiss again, steady and slow first. To show her this love was genuine. Then a little bit hungrier, she moaned against your palms when you kneaded her chest. And then again as you dragged your finger around her skin, completely missing her nipple on cue, the feather light touch making her whine and plead for more. She rubbed her thighs together at the lack of attention, the movement not going unoticed by you, the way her pale legs peeked from underneath her dress, how she sat on her heals naked from except for where her discarded dress bunched up at her hips.

Her hands found the forgotten member between your legs, one look into her eyes and you're doubts fell, she still reassured " I'm okay. I want to do this..."

"Just know it's okay if you don't... I won't be disappointed or anything, I love you"

"I know but it's turning me on to think about you wanting to have me like that, you do right ?"

"Oh god yes... You have no idea how much I wanna fuck your mouth when you look so hot right now" she felt her own clit throbbing at your words.

She began licking the strap sensually, her hand pushing and pulling it against you, you gathered her hair in your hands, fingers rubbing her scalp, the mix of gentle touch and dominanting grip made her body vibrate with want. When you had started to do this you had insisted Mildred let you wear a smaller one, so it would be more comfortable for her "I don't care about the size it's what I have you do that turns me on" you had said. She knows that even now she could ask for a smaller one if she needed it, but with time came practice and eventually you grew sizes.

As she got the toy more wet she started gently easing it into her mouth, this process wasn't necessarily hard because she knew you wouldn't push it further, that you would wait patiently for her to accommodate to you. She got more confident and began bobbing her head on the toy, "you look so hot like this princess". Her saliva was dripping down and coaxing the strap as your hand guided her movements, your eyes fixated on it disappearing and reappearing from her mouth, moaning at the sight. You noticed her eyes were closed as she sucked off the strap her hands at the base of it pushing it towards your hips.

"Look at me when you do that"

Her eyes opened and found yours, looking up slightly shy. "Oh don't... Like you're any inocent here sucking my dick"

As things progressed she went a bit harder and faster. Your grip tightening in her hair, and your hips slightly jerking forward,

After a while you pulled out of her mouth while you held her hair back  "such a good girl for me" your other hand wondered down to grab her boobs. She moaned as you finally rolled her nipples between your fingers, slowly making your way down to kiss her, and playfully nibble her earlobe.  You whispered "You really should suck me off more often" she moaned again, her arousal could be smelled from where you were standing.

You took of the wet toy  before finding a vibrator for Mildred who was begging to make a move "don't move Mildred I want you spread out on your knees for me"

She heavily nodded before she heard you "you have words speak up darling"

"Yes please y/n"

"There you go sweet thing"

You went back to her and attached the device to her hips, not yet angling it to her clit but just on the side of her inner thigh, her hips bucked in search of more friction.

"P..Please....I'm so wet fuck me"

It slipped out of her and she immediately regretted it, worried she had scared you, you read her face and reassured her.

"It's okay baby, you're not gonna scare me so easily, is that what you call me when you think about me fucking you hard ?"

Her head went up and down in agreement

"Speak up Mildred"

"Yes"

"Be patient will you, I'll give you what you want soon"

Your hands spread her thighs wider, and your fingers played with her folds.

You circled her bundle before while you kissed her neck, and set the toy to a high frequency on her clit.

Your hands squeezed her hips while you got back on your feet in front of her.

Your palm found her chin and you held her face while she grinded on the toy, "I want you to look at me when you cum"

She kept rocking her hips as waves of pleasure hit her. Her moans filling the room,

Your name falling from her lips, as she was getting closer to release. Your fingers caressing her skin as you looked down on her "F..FUCK! Y/n...I I'm gonna...C..cum"

"Go ahead darling"

"Oh god ! Huuhh y/n !" She screamed as she tumbled over the edge, her body tensing, back arch before she started convulsing in pleasure, the afterwaves of her pleasure hitting her.

"There you are my sweet girl"

You detached the toy, and cradled Mildred in your arms, resting her against the mattress.

When you got up to get some wipes to clean her up she tensed, thinking maybe you were leaving her right after sex like many people had done to her.

"Don't worry baby I'm just getting something to clean you up before bed"

You spoke knowing she was beginning to worry.

You retrieved back to the room, gently tapping her legs to signal her that she could open her legs which she did, she gently shuddered, still sensitive after her recent orgasm.

You got ready for bed and joined Mildred, cuddled with her, your fingers playing with her hair and hand resting on her hipbone whispering sweet words to one another.

#sarah paulson fanfiction #mildred x reader #mildred ratched #nurse ratched #ratched #you can imagine this is gwenxmildred #i have no idea where i went woth this

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Strawberry blonde

Ch2: That funny feeling

TB karen x you

Ch1

The morning arrived soon, Karen had never slept so good in her entire life, she couldn't remember the last time she's felt the sweet caress of a heavy cover, or the comfortable embrace of a good mattress. when she awoke she didn't want to leave that ness, part of her felt like she needed to stay longer in bed, the other one was considering asking you for a few more nights. Her mind was telling it was too selfish of her, and she'd never dare to. She glanced at the clock, didn't realize it was this late in the morning, usually she'd wake up before 7, probably because sleeping was to uncomfortable.

"Oh god..." She got up and tried to find her clothes in the room where she had left them sitting on the chair, but failed, instead there was a pair of pants and a very warm pull displayed there.

She was begging to freak out about where her usual outfit was. There was a note on the chair, she tried not to panick to hard so she could read it.

" Good morning Karen,

I took your clothes this morning to get them washed, don't worry everything that was in your pockets is safe in the little bag on your left,

I'm sorry for not telling you but when I wanted to you were soundly asleep,

You probably don't usually get to rest, I didn't want to wake you.

Breakfast's on the table

Gone to work

Make yourself at home dear

:) Y"

Karen felt her cheeks flushing red, she hadn't been called darling since forever, but she'd be lying if she said it didn't feel sweet coming from you.

She wasn't used to softness either, the one you continuesly showed her, even in the soft touches she'd never noticed anyone daring to do. You didn't know her, and yet, you had welcomed her in your home, talked to her with a rare kindness.

She finally settled in your clothes, found the new sensation endearing.

Karen used to take proud in her appearance, but once she was forced to live on the streets she found out that it was no longer possible to. When feminity was dangerous for her, much so she had to make herself less and less appealing.

She went downstairs, found the food on the table, bread cereal and a bunch of other things, a plate set out, the attention almost brought tears to her eyes.

She started eating in silence, realized she didn't know, when you'd come back from work. Fifteen minutes later she found herself in front of an almost empty table, guilt started bubbling up inside her, oh god, she'd hate to much. You offered her hospitality and this is how she repays you ? Karen's mind was running, she was beginning to panic, though about what could happen if you found out and got mad. But she couldn't go right ? You had her clothes and she...well... something inside her was telling her that this growing feeling was mutual.

She was so deep in her thoughts that an hour later when she heard someone wrestle with the lock and footsteps coming in.

She made to hide and tackle the person who would dare to break into your house, house that you had left to her guarding.

As soon as the body came to view Karen jumped for the bust and when she realized you were the 'criminal' intruder it was already to late. You both were about to hit the ground, Karen landing on top of you arms draped around your waist. "Sorry !"

As soon as she realized she tried pulling back grabbing onto something to pull herself upwards and off of you, but her grip only ended up on your chest, palms against your breasts.

"Well happy to see you too Karen"

"Oh god i'm sorry y/n !"

She kept fumbling around you to try and get up but she only

Seeing Karen struggling to pull away due to the awkward position she was in you decided to speak up.

"Chill okay ? Stop Karen" you took her hands to stop her from wondering around "I'll pull us up if you could just...yeah like that"

In one swift movement you lifted her hips and she was know straddling yours, for a minute none of you moved, none of you felt like doing so. You just stared at each other, until she finally pulled herself up and smoothed her pants before offering you her hand. When you had both gotten back on your feet you picked up your bag before setting your coat on the hanger.

"I wouldn't have guessed you'd have missed me so much, I mean part of me didn't even know if you'd be here when I came back"

"...but it's so early too ?..I...I guess...Well I just wasn't expecting you so soon..."

"Is that why you tackled me like we were in some sort of rugby field ?"

"I'm so sorry about that"

"It's okay dear, the only important thing is that we're both alright"

You walked in further into the house and she started to slightly panic, trying to get you away from the empty table.

"Okay hey ?...did you burn down my kitchen ?"

"No..no I don't see why you're saying that"

"Let's say you're not very subtle about making me avoid it.. let me see"

Despite her attempts you finally went in the kitchen and she started rambling apologies and trying to get you to forgive her for something you had no idea about.

"Hey...hey...why ? What's wrong the kitchens fine ?"

"...don't you see ?"

"No... Did you steal all the crockery"

You tried joking but she looked sad,

"I...I a...ate all the...the food you put out"

"And that's what you were worries about ??"

"...i...i don't understand"

"Oh dear I put it there for you to eat, of course it's okay if you did, I'm not mad" you said as your hands took her shaking ones.

"R..really ?.."

"Absolutely Karen"

"Oh..."

"It's okay how long have you been stressing about this ?"

Karen looked embarrassed, she was turning slightly red.

"..a..an hour ?"

"Oh god Karen, you didn't...well at least now you know that's okay, and it's a good thing I came home early"

"I don't want to be a burden.."

"You're not. Trust me I'm more than happy to help you."

"Well thank you" you smiled at her words and asked

"Hey do you have anywhere to sleep in Tonight?"

"The usual pavement haha.. I'll probably crash by the supermarket they have really good beens"

"Oh no..no no no. I mean you'll stay here until you find somewhere appropriate to stay"

"..y/n come on you know you can't welcome me here for this long...I'll be gone soon"

"Karen listen, I know it'll take time, i know we met yesterday but there's something I can do for you so I'm gonna do it, so in all seriousness, You are not leaving my house if you're gonna be sleeping in the streets"

"Why ?"

"Because I know what it's like okay ?!

And I really wish someone would've done this for me then, so I'm going to do it for you now. Just let me help you"

"I'm..not sure that's a good idea"

"I'm not asking you to trust me right now, I know it's way to soon, but what do you have to loose Huh? At best you stay here and actually get a better situation, at worst you stay here a few weeks then what ? You go back there ? Well that's still a few weeks you didn't spend out there right ?" Karen looked up with her shining eyes, met your beautiful smile and decided you were probably right

"I suppose so.."

"Come on let's go shopping for new stuff"

"What ? Oh no you don't need to"

"Absolutely I do, also you look cute in that outfit, let's get you some more clothes and meds"

"..Meds ?"

"Yeah that coughs pretty bad, I'm getting you some Sirup and cream for the irritated skin, also I'd like to get you a medical appointment"

"I don't have any insurance and there's no hospital here"

Karen was confused and a little stressed about doctors since she hadn't gone to one in forever

"Don't worry about that I could get you one for free"

"..how ?"

"My good colleague owes me a favor"

"Colleague ?"

"I'm a advanced practicing nurse"

"Oh.."

"I'll call her today to see if she can see you soon"

"Thank you...I guess, I don't know when's the last time I saw a doctor anyway"

"Yes it'll be a good thing to have you checked up, do you have anything else to do or can we get going now ?"

"No I'm all ready I just need my shoes"

"They're drying take these and let's go dear"

You offered her some shoes before you both were out the door, you passed by one of the creatures and she subconsciously reached for your hand, you took it, squeezed gently to make her know she was safe, you walked like this for some time; almost arriving to the supermarket, still hand in hand, getting used to the contact Karen began to feel her cheeks redden, this time not from the cold.

#tbkaren #sarah paulson fanfiction #sarah paulson characters #tbkarenxreader

[ecclais-fouoras]

Strawberry blonde

Chapter one: "pull me away at our doorstep"

Warning ⚠️ ahs 10 spoiler

⚠️ ahs 10 spoiler

"NO PLEASE I DON'T WANNA DIE ! MICKYYYY"

Karen had backed away as much as she had been able to into the door, pill in her hand she was acting on pure instinct, the desision was meer seconds to be made when she felt something pull her backwards and a loud slam, in panic she didn't even know if she was already dead. "WHAT TH- ?!"  "Shh" she was met by a hand on her mouth but somehow something in her told her that it was not a threat, she took some time to examine it, the hand was soft yet strong, masculine but in a woman's way.

"If you're quiet these dumbasses will forget you're there." She said as you let her face go.

A while passed before the woman made sure they were no longer on wondering around at your porch.

"Come on, let's get you up" Karen was pulled up to her feet by the strangers arm. "What were you doing out there I'm sure you know it's dangerous to be out with these creatures."

"Who...who are you ??"

"Oh right ! I'm y/n, y/l/n. What about you ?"

"Y..you want to know ?"

"Well sure ! I had you pined against my door usually I know the girl's name before I do that."

Karen was absolutely speechless, and even started blushing at your words.

"Relax that was a joke, you look like you just had the worst night of your life I thought it might cheer you up"

"Why would you want that ?"

"Why wouldn't I ?"

"Well look at me do you know how many people care about a homeless junky ? That's right zero"

"Well you can count one now"

"Oh please like that's true"

"Believe me or don't then but I'd still like to know who I'm talking to"

"I'm Karen, but everyone calls me TB karen"

You said as you went further in your kitchen.

"Would you like some tea ? Or coffee ?"

"No please don't waist your drinks on me"

"Water ? Juice ? I think I might even have a beer"

"But it's very late, I should just go find mickey"

"You mean the guy who left you to die on the porch ?"

"..H..he didn't...he gave...gave me this"

Karen showed you the little brown crumpled up in her hand. Suddenly you backed away and took the pill before throwing it in your fireplace.

"Have you ever taken one of these ??"

"No..I always refused who do you think I am ?!"

"Well I just know there are tones of people who get started with it now"

"I'm not like them, I don't wanna be like them"

"Good"

"I should really get going then"

"...oh absolutely not, you'll sleep here for the night don't worry"

".. I really shouldn't"

"Don't be silly I'm not going to send you outside with these monsters"

You walked in your house and opened a door before turning the lights on

"Here, you can set your things and take a shower. You're probably hungry I'll make you something real quick anything you'd like ?"

"I don't know when's the last time I had a shower honestly, I don't want to stain you're furniture."

"Come on it's a shower the whole point is to get in dirty and end up clean. Stay here I'll hand you a towel real quick"

"..well...thank you"

"No problem sweetie"

You came back with a few things, fresh underwear, a set of pijamas, a brush and toothbrush.

"Here, I'll get started on the food you must be starving"

"You didn't have to give me nightwear, I'm used to sleeping in this, it's good for the cold"

"Don't worry you won't need that here we have covers, and I'll wash your clothes too"

"You don't need to do that"

"I know but it's counterproductive to wear dirty clothes if you just took a shower don't you agree ?"

Karen nodded and slightly blushed.

"Come on, hop in the shower, oh also to get warmer water turn left, and colder one the other side."

She did what you suggested, taken the items from you hands, while you went back and started cooking, about half and hour later you heard Karen push the door to the kitchen, in the nightgown and pants you'd gave her, her hair was brushed, her face looked less pale than when she arrived, her red marks had faded a little, and only then did you notice how beautiful she was.

"Hey there, you can sit at the table I'll bring you your plate in a minute.

"Thanks again Ms y/l/n"

"Oh no honey call me y/n"

You come back with her meal, getting her a glass of water.

Immediately after Karen started eating, "oh...y/n you're a wonderful cook this is so good.."

"It's not much Karen but I'm glad you're enjoying it"

After ten minutes she was done eating, and offered to wash the dishes in return for your kindness, you said there she didn't own you anything and hospitality and care s was important to you. She nodded acknowledging your words.

When it was finally time to go to sleep you told her you were in your room if she needed anything and tl have a good night.

You laid in bed and couldn't stop thinking about the strawberry blonde head.

God what was happening to you ?

#sarah paulson fanfiction #sarah paulson characters #tb karen #tb karen x reader #Youtube

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I KNOW YOU'D KISS ME IF YOU COULD STAND THE TASTE OF BLOOD

Wilhemina x reader

Smut and overall mina being mina

+3000 words

"Wilhemina ? Mina baby ? Babe are you in there ?"

There was no response from behind the door you were gently knocking on. You had met wilhemina venable over a year ago, but it was only the first few times she let you stay at her house for more than a few nights, you had been dating for a couple weeks, and she had agreed to being your 'girlfriend' -despite saying it was a childish thing to say and how it felt mostly ridiculous to agree verbally- a week before now.

"Wilhemina you've been in here for awhile now and I'm getting worried...just..are you safe ?" After a shirt moment of silence you heard her speak.

"Of course I am y/n. How could I not be in my own bathroom ?! Now. Do you even have a sense of privacy ?"

"Lost of reasons actually..I'm sorry I was just concerned about you, join me when you're done sweetie"

You went back to bed and laid in a sexy manner over the sheets, you had gotten into a black bra with leather straps, the outfit was really working and you looked dominant and hot. You waited patiently for her to come out of the bathroom and surprise her with this little gift. You wanted to thank her for getting out of her comfort zone, letting her have you like she did the first few times you'd made love

"..y/n...i..i don't...'know' how to do this"

"That's okay baby just trust me I'll show you how"

You gently laid her on her back, all soft against the mattress, she hadn't taken off her clothes, but slowly you unfastened her nightgown, giving her hungry eyes while doing so. She looked at you a little scared, tying to cover the newly discovered skin.

You took her hands and kissed them

"None of that...you are beautiful, inside and out"

You had continued your trip to the valley of her breasts, down her sternum, bit and nibbled her body eliciting whimpers from her, startling herself slightly unaware that these sounds were able to come out of her, and shamefully biting her lip.

"None of that darling, absolutely none of that...let me hear your pretty sounds baby"

She gasped when you lifted at the fabric to make it lift above her breasts, and finally kiss the skin directly. She moaned heavily when you took her nipples in your mouth.

"OH god...y/n..i didn't know this could feel good"

"When it's done rightfully it does"

"No o.. one's ever.. you..know"

"I remembered don't worry, you've got nothing to be ashamed of"

You continued to go further down and she relaxed against you with your praises and sweet words.

You had only ever caressed her over clothes before, spooned her while you both went to bed, gently kissed down the column of her neck, but never quite reaching further the skin bellow her bellybutton or getting very intense.

"Well, well, well, someone's got quite dressed up for me"

"..I..I...well I just guessed if something was bound to happen.... it would tonight" she replied blushing. You pulled away to look into her eyes

"Hey...nothing has to happen tonight...we can just...cuddle like we usually do"

"Really ?" You climbed off of her to cradle her into your arms.

"Baby...I don't ever want you to feel like you're bound to do anything like that with me... I just guessed it was the good timing, we've been together for long enough to be more trustful...did you not want that.. to happen ?"

"Oh no...no..I did, it's just, I'm anxious... you are..th..my first"

"Honey... It's okay, I'm a little anxious myself, but eventually sex, making love is about letting go, and being your first, is an honor, but it's not as big of a deal as people make it out to be"

"But... it's still important"

"Yes...but only if you make it out to be"

"I'm just scared it'll hurt"

"What would hurt honey ?"

"Well...you know.. the penetration..."

You were slightly straddled by her reply, pulling away from her little you kissed her cheek before explaining back

"Oh mina.. none of that is supposed to hurt.. and it's also something that doesn't need to happen"

"But then ? That's not Sex isn't it ?"

"It is..just because society convinces you that penetration is the needed component of having sex it doesn't mean it's true...there are tons of people who make love without it"

".. really ?"

"Mmm" you nodded in the silence.

After a short time you felt Wilhemina press her lips to your neck, and eventually starting to kiss her path over your pulse, her fingers starting to wonder around your hips, sides and funding the back of your head, she pressed you against her and took you in for a a kiss, that rapidly grew to her beginning to make out with you and rolling on top of you

"Mmfhey...mina..mwait..i thought you mm didn't...want to ?"

"Oh...believe me I do..."

She rolled her hips against yours and you could almost feel the heat from between her legs, your hands found her waist and you gripped the skin making her moan.

Before you rolled her onto her back,

"Well I'll be very happy to oblige then"

Your hands wondered around her body, groping her underneath her clothes, rolling her nipple between two fingers, making her hips buck involuntarily. Her body felt electric, she had never felt anything so intense. You had never expected her to be so vocal, but she made sounds you ever even expected to ever hear, let alone out of her mouth. You looked down where her shorts were, and asked her if you could take them off.

"..y/n.. I need to say, It's embarrassing, but..i don't know...if I've had my period, spotting, because I...well.."

"Well that's not anything I haven't seen or been through, there's no shame to have, do you want to check it in the bathroom ? Or I can ?"

"I don't think it's much... it's really weird I'm planning to ask my doctor, because it only happens when...well when...I'm with you...?,"

You finally put the pieces together and let out a giggle, making her brows push up in defense, she was about to push you off of her thinking you were mocking her but you found her hands before she could and kissed her knuckles.

"Oh..no baby...I'm not laughing at you mina, it's just.. have you ever been aroused ?"

".. I'm not sure...i don't know what it feels like...oh god I should leave...I'm making a fool out of myself."

"You're not sweetie I promise"

"Get off me."

"Oh..okay" you pulled away but sat on your heals so she didn't feel threatened but she did have you close..

"Sweetheart ? What wrong"

"Nothing." She sat up slowly and

You suddenly felt her start drifting away, so you took her face between your hands.

"Baby ..look at me...no look at me... I'm not going to hurt you.. it's okay to let you be yourself in front of me"

"And you think I'll trust you to your word ?. Just like that. I barely know you y/n. For all I know you could just be trying to get into my pants, then leave like the fool you are"

"A fool for what ? Wanting you ? Wanting to be with you ? Liking you ?"

"Don't be like that, you know this was going to go like this"

"Why are you pushing me away ? Is it the sex ? I told you I don't need it.. I just wanna hold you close and make you feel good, of that means no sex than damn it ! I'll be the virgin Mary for 30 years but...please don't push me away like that"

"I am well aware that there are things to be expected from a relationship. I am not stupid y/n, as your girlfriend it's something I owe you, to give you pleasure like that"

You caressed her cheek and she made to bury her head in your neck but stopped herself

"..Mina..this isn't...oh god..you are not an object... A tool for someone's pleasure. It's something you have to wanna give..or receive. It's...i can't believe I'm saying this...sex isn't a requirement someone can make from you. Babe...you don't owe me any part of your body ever ..it has to be something you choose to give to me.. when you want to, not because of some obligation"

"Don't be silly y/n this isn't how any of this works."

"This is how anything should work"

"Y/n..."

"It is, but it's not the problem here isn't it ?"

There was a moment of silence before she finally leaned into your neck nuzzling the skin there.

"I'm growing soft."

" What baby ?"

"You're making me soft and it's scary"

"..you know it's okay to be soft sometimes"

"I'm starting to..but it's out of my comfort zone"

"Oh...honey .. I'm so proud of you"

"I don't want you to wake up tomorrow and realize how ridiculous I am, or se me as weak"

"I would never...honey you are the strongest person I know, just because you can't be strong all the time for no reason it doesn't mean your weak."

".. I'm beginning to know that"

You held her neck and caressed the soft hair on her neck.

"I just...I'm sorry I ruined it... I realized how easy it would've been for you to hurt me when you laughed...and it...I."

"Hey....hey no...you didn't ruin anything, and I would never laugh at you darling"

You kissed her mouth again, pressing your body close to hers, claiming your adoration for this woman, after a while she pulled you on top of her again, grinding herself on your thigh subconsciously

"Baby...as much as this is great for me are you sure you wanna keep going ?"

You pulled away and She nodded your face between her hands

"I need to hear you."

"Yes...please..it's just..you know ..my little problem is back.. I just don't understand why it's always random..."

You decided it was better to just show her it was normal, so you put your hand inside her shorts and cupped her, finding what you already knew of, Wilhemina venable laying beneath you wet as you would have never guessed. She gasped at the contact, her hand gripping your wrist and pushing her hips against it in search of more friction.

"Oh god...what..I...sorry I'm...I'm dirty"

You pulled your fingers out of her clothes and showed her her own juices dropping from them.

"Mina...this..isn't anything dirty" you said as you licked and sucked your fingers clean

"You never answered my question, have you ever really been aroused before ,?"

"I don't know .."

"Well, when women are sexually aroused they usually produce something to lubricate their sex, this is called 'being wet', it's a reaction to being turned on"

" ..wait...so what does that mean ?"

"That you are so wet right now it's almost honoring"

"..sorry"

"Don't apologize for that, it's hot, and at last i know I'm not doing to bad"

She giggled and pushed your head back down to her breasts and started to take off her own shorts.

Your fingers started playing with her as your mouth attached to her nipples, making her moan and buck against you, you continued to work her up until she came, moaning loudly and shaking on the mattress you were a little worried she'd get hurt, when she came down from her high you went behind her legs to clean her up, she looked down confused.

"I'm just finishing my job darling"

"What are you going to do down there ? You can use your fingers from here too ?"

"Oh I'm not going to use my fingers darling"

"...wh..well then how ?"

You pointed at your mouth before saying "this darling"

"Oh...I.. isn't it dirty ? And something people don't enjoy doing ?.."

"Not as a woman, baby ... I would love to taste you but if you're uncomfortable I won't you know"

"I'm not I'm just..what if you don't like how I taste ?"

"Your pussy is going to taste like a pussy...I'm not expecting cherry flavored icing cake"

"Good point"

"Also I tasted you off of my fingers before and you have nothing to be anxious about"

-good soup-

You kissed her belly silently asking for permission, when she pushed her pelvis towards your face and wined on the bed as your fingers grazed her you parted her folds and dived in. Your hands playing with her nipples as you were Licking her up and down and in circles to figure out which one she liked best, her body moving in pleasure as your tongue worked wonders on her, she groaned and held your hair with her nails digging in your scalped in hopes to ground herself, when she came it was quieter this time, just letting out a series of strangled moans and crying out your name.

When she came down from her high you pulled back a little your fingers fooling around and caressing her lips, up her clit and her other hand parting her legs a little, Digits grazing her thighs, you asked her if she was okay with your fingers going inside her and she agreed in between pleases of pleasure, you rubbed her faster to get her closer to cumming as your other hand tried to find it's way inside her, barely able to get past the tip of it. After making small to no progress

You figured it would just be painful if you tried any further and focused back on her little bundle of nerves

"Baby...you look so pretty laying like this for me... I bet you want to cum huh ?"

The praise and sudden suction of your lips on her brought her to the edge again and she came one last time her legs trembling at the side of you. You laid back next to her, cleaning your hands before running your fingers on her stomach, waiting for her to catch her breath and come back to you.

"Hello there"

"Mm hello"

"Well how was it ?"

"..is it over ? You don't need me to make you feel good ?"

"Well it's getting late, and no I don't 'need' you to do that, I had plenty of fun watching you cum three times for me"

She blushed and hid in your neck.

"No need to get all shy darling"

"I'm not shy"

"Sure thing"

She nuzzled you and breathed in your sent, immediately relaxing even more.

"Y/n You didn't finger me even though I told you it was okay why baby ?"

"Well, I tried but somehow I couldn't get past one knuckle, and I didn't think it was that important since you had your fun without it anyway, but maybe we'll have to dig into why I couldn't tonight one day ?"

".sure thing hhha" she yawned before finishing her sentence and you told her it was time to fall asleep.

That was one of the most special nights of your relationship, limbs laced together as one, walls down and so utterly beautiful without them.

You were still laying on your sides as your mind came to wonder at what was taking so long ? So you got off the bed quietly and knocked a little on the door.

"Mina baby ? Are you sure you're okay ?"

There was a moment of silence to long for your liking so before mina could even answer she heard.

"Baby I'm worried, I'm going to come in okay ?" You pried the door slightly open before she could answer

"NO ! Get out !"

"Hone...HEY ! No. Stop that ba..." You replied as you avoided the hard soaps she threw at you in fury.

"I said. Get. Out."

"Can't we talk like adults ?! Stop throwing shit at me right now !"

She eventually ran out of things to trow and you went inside, you found her still dressed sitting on the side of the bathtub a broken hanger in her hand.

"Is this a diy homemade abortion ? You know women can get it done by a doctor ?"

"If you came here to mock me you might as well leave. And what are you doing in this accoutrement ? Are you planning to prostitute yourself tonight ?"

"Okay wow.. first of all rude. Second of all I came here because I was worried you've been in here for almost two hours"

"I don't want your pity"

"I'm not pitying you mina god-damnit !"

She flinched at your outburst and looked down.

"Hey..sorry it just upsets me when you talk like that...I'm not pitying you darling...I swear.. I just want you not be in pain or discomfort"

"Why ?"

"Because it's called empathy"

"Don't act like I'm not capable of feeling that"

"Are you ? Because sometimes I genuinely wonder sometimes ! Like when you insult everyone and decide to be nice to me like a fucking whethercock, or you SUDDENLY become a bitch right after we have sex"

"I... I'm..sorry..I just.. it's..." She burst into tears and you immediately regretted the words that fell from your mouth, you went to her as she sank down her legs to cradle herself on the floor.

"I know...I'm sorry...I wasn't thinking, I know why you do tha...no please don't cry baby"

"I...know..I'm ..not..p..perfect...I...I just ..."

"Shhhh baby...it's okay...breathe with me"

You put her hand on your chest.

"... I can't believe I'm letting you see me like that.. I'm making such a fool of myself" she made to stand but you stopped her midway and pulled her on your lap.

"What. !? Are you doing let me stand.."

"No.. you're staying right here, just like I am. It's okay you're not making 'a fool out of yourself' you're human, we freak out sometimes and it's okay... Now what happened ? What were you doing here before I arrived."

"Nothing"

"People don't get upset over nothing without having bubbled up everything, what happened ?"

".it's stupid."

"It's not if it upsets you"

"I can't take of my clothes by myself. I usually have a metal disposal that i use but I broke it a few days ago and was going to order one but they don't make them anymore"

"Oh...Mina...that's nothing stupid...why didn't you ask me ?"

"You're not going to help me dress and undress everyday"

"I can if you'd let me"

"Don't be silly. You're not some sort of homeaid. Besides I would never let you do that for me"

"If it doesn't bother me ?"

"I don't care, I'm not going to be some incapacitated cripple"

"Dont talk like that about yourself, needing help isn't necessarily a bad thing. Everyone does sometimes. Your disability doesn't make you weak Wilhemina, it's your greatest strength"

".. I don't believe that"

"It doesn't matter I do anyway, until you can. Now as for tonight you're going to let me take these off because it's getting late and you're not sleeping in that" you lifted her to her feet and followed her, before you took of her skirt and undergarments, hands resting on her hips and soothing the skin.

"Wait ..you don't have to..."

"Shh wait here I'll get you some panties and a nightgown" you said as you pressed a kiss on her cheek to assure her you were not leaving her side. You came back and asked

"Were you going to take a shower today ?"

She nodded and you found her a wet cloth

"Can I wash you too ?" Everything in her was screaming to get away from you, from your kindness, from your affection, but she saw the admiration in your eyes and took a leap of faith, decided to trust you.

"...yes"

You took the cloth and gently wiped her legs and thighs before going between her legs, she shook a little because she was sensitive but when you were done you rinsed it again, and placed your hands on her shoulders, gently tapped your fingers on her zipped dress and dragged the zipper down before the fabric pealing off of her.

"Are you cold ? You're shivering"

"...I'm not"

Her top pooled around her ankle, and you took her hands to get her out of it.

You found her eyes on her mirror, a bit anxious so you pulled her hair out of her ponytail, watching it cascading down her neck. You moved it out of the way, kissed her skin, up and down her throat, shoulders and back, dragging your lips across her spine, arms holding her tight as you saw her fight her own tears, her chin trembled and you took her jaw in your hand, caressed her lips and cheek before she sobbed in your arms,

"You're beautiful, so so beautiful my dear"

Her body shook before you got her ready fo bed. Taking her hands and leading her under the covers, rubbing your hands against her thigh as she cuddle you.

"You didn't tell me why you were wearing that"

"Because I wanted to surprise you tonight"

"..oh"

You kissed her neck and squeezed her hips.

"But it's okay darling I'll surprise you another day...I bet you'll have a wonderful time"

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Sometimes moving on is good

" ...to be a part of your family"

Previous chapter here

Warnings ⚠️ mention of abuse, non major character death

the weather was perfect the next day, bright and Sunny which was a little unusual for that time of the year. But you were convinced that somehow your love had scared away the clouds. Diane had been a little self conscious about the beach, she hadn't gone since.. well since she could remember. her body had been different then, and she was getting more and more worried that she wouldn't look as pleasant as she'd like. she had been staring at her reflexion for too long to your liking, so you decided to figure out what was going through her head.

"honey ? what's wrong baby ? you've been staring for the last half an hour.."

your words made her snap out of her trance, you put your arms against her waist, resting on her neck with your chin.

"..I should have bought another bathing suit"

"what are you talking about ? this one looks great"

"it makes me look old"

"no it doesn't, if anything it makes you look cute"

"you're not supposed to look cute at the beach"

"then how are you supposed to look like there ?"

"hot" her answer took you by surprise, it was odd for her to suddenly care about that.

"baby you look hot"

"just be honest, I can go buy another one, besides it's way to short on that part"

"well I like that it is" You said as your hand found the cute little bow attached right at her hip, and you made to untie it, but her hands gripped yours before you could get any lower.

"not now y/n" she raised her head to meat your eyes worriedly. your hands patted her skin as you went to hug her from behind, fingers abandoning their course.

"alright love, listen up. You Don't need a bathing suit to make you look hot, also it's a family beach day, not a 'trynna catch cute girls' day"

"maybe that's why I shouldn't come"

"What ?"

"I'm not a part of their family"

"But you're a part of mine, besides they wouldn't have asked you to come if they didn't agree that you were"

"Or they invited me because they had too, if they wanted you to come"

"I already knew about the beach day thing, it's a tradition"

"So even if they hadn't had asked me you would've went ?"

"I knew they were going to."

"..."

you kissed her cheek, running your hands lovingly up and down her sides

"I did, my grandma asked if you could be there two days, she didn't say exactly that you were coming to beach day, but if was pretty obvious, even if she ment it as a surprise for me"

"Okay but I still Don't want to make a fool of myself by looking like this"

"You don' need to be so anxious you know I love your body"

"But what if they Don't ?"

"Well then they can get fucked, I'm not interested at all in the opinions they would only form of you based off of your body. Besides they won't judge you, and if they do I'll just tell them off"

you turned her around in your arms to press your lips against hers. She groaned into the kiss, "Now get that cute ass in some pants." You saw her leave and then Something flashed in her eyes as she realized...

"wait...babe ? why didn't you tell me that it showed my scars ??!"

"huh ?" you replied straddled at her sudden turn

"Come on you're not blind y/n, why didn't you say anything"

"Because I just thought.. you knew"

"why would I wear that then ?"

"Because scars aren't supposed to be shamefull, especially these.." you said as you ran your finger on her back softly. "they show the world that you're strong, that your still fighting Everyday"

"They're disgusting they'll scare your cousins"

"No they aren't and if kids are scared it's because of what they don't know, it's okay, they won't, they've seen mine"

Her eyes were shining with tears threatening to spill, "baby.. I love you"

"...I just Don't want them to ask questions"

"they won't, You Don't have to worry about this"

"how can you be so sure ?"

"because they know better than that"

"why would they be any different ?"

"because they know what these scars are, they won't need to ask"

"...what ?"

"babe, just trust me, that swimsuit is perfect for you, now we have to leave in about 30 minutes so you better get ready"

after that you both put on your outfit for the day, her in a long flowy Brown floral dress, and you in some cargo pants and a button up fun shirt. she put on slight makeup, you both got in a the car and started Driving towards your grandma's house, her leg bounced up and down on her seat so you placed your hand on her leg and stroked the skin there, "Diane honey, I promise you everything will be fine", she somewhat calmed down a little and you finally pulled over in the lovely cottage's front ally"

soon you were ringing the doorbell, and your family was greeting the both of you, "hello darling" you heard your grandma tell diane, "did you both sleep well ?"

You remembered the last night you spent, yes, you had definitely slept perfectly, especially after making Diane come and having made love. but you didn't say anything and just replied while looking at diane who was blushing heavily, probably because the same thoughts ran through her mind.

"yes we slept perfectly ma'am"

"oh please darling call me mamie"

"..h..okay"

You both entered the living room, smiling and greeting everyone. "we're going to put everything in the cars and then get going"

as they started to get everything suddenly melina arrived from downstairs

"hey y/n, oh didn't think you were bringing the elderly"

your anger bubbled up Inside you,and you just replied

"hey what's behind you ? I think you left the stick up your ass"

diane pulled you away by your arm slightly "come on, she's just trying to be provocative.

"oh and it's working, wait till I show that bitch how to respec"

"stop it." she took your hand and led you outside

"She can't disrespect you like that.

"Can't she ? or Can't you let her ?"

"Both, I can't let her talk like that, just because she's older doesn't mean that she has every right to be a bitter cunt"

"I'm not going to fight with her."

"babe..that's exactly why she'll keep being like that, you need to tell her she can't get away with that"

she nodded and you all got going, unfortunately you both had to take her in your car. the drive to the beach was silent, you had your hand laced with diane's.

"do you really have to do this ? like now, where I can Watch"

"I Don't understand what's your deal mel ? you've never been mad about any of my girlfriends, so why now ?"

"it's none of your business"

"it is, you can't treat the woman I love like that"

"Oh please Don't act like you won't leave her as soon as she gets older"

"Fuck off mel, What is wrong with you ?"*

"What's wrong with me ?? What is wrong with you ?? she could be your mother"

".. okay.. I got it, that's your problem, you wanna talk about mom ? what's really bothering you isn't how old Diane is, but how old mom would be right ?"

"Stop pretending you that know what I think"

"well than tell me ? what is so wrong about my Relationship ? Is it her a..."

"-SHE LOOKS LIKE MOM OKAY ?" You were both straddled by the outburst, and Diane wanted to disappear in her seat.

"I...What are you talking about ?"

"Well SHE looks like what I REMEMBER from her"

"mom was a tall, blond, green eyed women ? Diane is red haired and has deep Brown eyes, they look Nothing alike"

"except they would have if you had known mom before she was held by your father"

"Oh you Don't get to be bothered by that, you had a whole damn family waiting for you when you came back from school"

"BUT I WANTED MY MOTHER"

"AND I WOULD HAVE APPRECIATED THAT SHE DIDN'T DIE RIGHT NEXT TO ME BUT GUESS WHAT WE DON'T ALWAYS GET WHAT WE WANT"

"YOU ARE REALLY GOING TO PLAY THAT CARD AGAIN ?"

"WELL SINCE YOU KEEP FORGETTING THAT IT WAS BETTER THAN TO GROW UP WITH A LOVING FAMILY INSTEAD OF ENDURING WHAT YOU KNOW I'VE BEEN THROUGH"

"OH STOP ACTING LIKE YOU WERE THAT IMPORTANT TO HER, IF YOU WERE WE WOULD HAVE KNOWN ABOUT ALL OF YOU ALL ALONG" You were so mad at her you found a spot and pulled over. "That's it, get out"

"WHAT ?"

"This is my car. I said get out, you can find your way to the beach I'm sure"

"IT'S 25 KILOMETERS AWAY"

"Then you better start Walking if you want to arrive before dawn, I walked longer when I escaped, now go"

you were about to leave but diane stopped you, "y/n Don't be stupid, you're not going to let her walk like that Melina get back in the car"

"no, diane, she crossed the line she needs to know it"

"You both are angry, but punishing her like that isn't the right way to go. this is our. car. Get in"

"Why are you being nice to her ? She's been nothing but an ass to you ?"

"I'm not being nice, I'm just not being a bitch in return"

"Oh no now I'm a bitch for trying to defend you ?"

"I don't need to be defended, you think I haven't heard worst ? You think I haven't been treated worst than just a woman calling me old ?"

"Fine suit yourself. But don't come crying to me tonight when you feel bad about it"

The rest of the time went quietly, until you heard Melina start to speak.

"Look y/n, I'm sorry, It's just hard for me to see someone that resembles her, even if she didn't really look like that anymore, I was young, Young when she left me with mamie so she could do god knows what god knows where."

"I know. But it's weird for me when you say that, it's just like we had two completely different version of her. She told us about you, you know ?"

".. really ?"

"Yes. She said that we all had a big sister, that was going to be a great french comedian. I remember being so impressed at somebody that I didn't even know. And then I remember being so jealous, so so jealous that you were over there safe, and we were all in this shit hole with him. I don't know what it would have been like to have my mom disappear one day, and learn years later that her and her other daughters were dead and that they would never find our bodies. But I cannot count the number of times I prayed to God that I could be i. Your shoes rather than in mine.

I thought you know what ? it's not fair, it wasn't fair that we had been taken away after the man we considered to be our dad was killed, it wasn't fair that you were at home while I had to be...you know what, I just thought I'd rather be you"

"And when you came back..you know...after everything that day at first...since I didn't know anything I just didn't want to believe mom had left to have other kids, and I was too young when mamie learned about your death to actually understand what the adults were saying.

You felt like a stranger, a very ugly and dirty homeless stranger, and then mamie hugged you, I just.... I didn't understand what you had done to deserve being a part of this family"

"And I didn't understand why I wanted to be a part of the people who left me for dead when instead I was sleeping in a 4×3 m^2 basement." Diane barely understood anything, she sort of felt like you never actually trusted her enough to tell her any of this despite how much she was honest with you. You noticed this by the look on her face, you reached for her hand and squeezed it, a silent Way of telling her you'd explain later.

"I'm sorry that you felt that way Mel, i really never wanted to make it seem like I would remplace anyone or make you feel like you weren't my sister enough because you haven't been hurt."

"And I'm sorry I was mean to you also I'm sorry I treated you like shit Diane, you're actually pretty cool"

"Apologies more than accepted Melina"

"Come on call me Mel"

When you all arrived at the beach, everybody else was already set in a good place on the sand, towels and everything while some of the kids were already in the sea playing.

You all settled together, some building sand castle, your grandpa, uncles and a bunch of your cousins went to fish some shrimps.

Diane read while chatting with your sister and grandma, you were amazed at how well she fitted, by your side and mostly in the middle of this picture, her hair down, dress riddling up with the soft caress of the wind.

You decided to get closer "hey sweetie keep guarding that castle while I see something quickly"

You went up to Diane shortly "hey sorry to interrupt ladies but can I steal her real quick ?"

They nodded and you helped your lover get on her feet before you took her a bit further, suddenly Diane realized what you were going to do but it was to quick and she was sent off balance right when the new wave arrived and your hands guided her down with you.

"BABE IM STILL DRESSED"

"Guess you don't have to worry about the bikini then"

"YOU ! I WILL.."

You took off and started swimming further away from her, Diane trying to run up to you.

"GET BACK HERE"

"Try and catch me then"

You dived in already to far from her reach and she heard you say.

"I think it's the clothes weigh-in you down darling"

She was offended as you expected but what you didn't was that she suddenly took of her clothes revealing her yellow bikini she had been so afraid of showing.

"That's going to be better huh ?!"

She now was getting dangerously close and you decided to be the smarter one

"Look. Let's put this all in the past okay ? What do you say we bury the hatchet ?"

"Oh really ?"

"Yes.. i mean this is clearly childish we're both adults let's solve this like adults"

"You're right"

"Really?" And as you weren't paying much attention she threw a whole bunch of salty water at you.

"OH YOU WANNA PLAY THIS GAME ?"

"I'M SORRY I...S..SHIT" You rapidly picked her up above you and let her fall making a huge splash and giggling.

Quickly after the kids joined you and at one point your sister did too, throwing Diane off balance while you took the opportunity to attack her with kisses.

Then everyone started cheering up and playing in the water, some kids going up to Diane and showing her rocks that she gladly accepted, they somehow signified that she was becoming a part of this. You started to get a ball to play some sort of water-polo except nobody played by the rules, it seemed like you all had invented your own, but she got on with it, your relatives passing her the ball and having fun together meant the world , she, who had been so worried about not being able to have a family with yours was finally finding her place, slowly, but surely. You went up to her, pressed kisses on her neck as your legs worked together at keeping you above the surface. "Hey sexy"

"Really y/n"

"Well that bikini is working for you"

"You can't even see it"

"Right maybe you should go dry or something, that way I can watch you walk"

"You're insufferable"

"I know"

You pecked her lips before going back in the game noticing your grandma growing towards Diane.

"Hello honey"

"Hi m'a..sorry mamie"

"How are you enjoying today ?"

"Very well thank you, it's really amazing how you are all close to eachother"

"We darling..we. you are now also a part of this family. I'm not saying that you have to get married soon darling but I will assure you I'd like to be there to see it. So don't wait up"

"Wait..what ? Marriage ? We've barely talked about diner I'm..I'm not quite sure she'd be interested in Getting married besides...it seems soon, I don't know .."

"Believe me, despite being strong and independent and everything she will try to convince you she is, and how fierce she looks on the outside, had always craved to call someone their wife, to have the woman she loved waiting for her at home. Since I've known her that's all she ever wanted. And I can tell she truly loves you, I've seen her love before, but nothing has ever come close to that"

"..Well I love her so much too, she's everything I have, she's my whole world"

"Not anymore, now you also have us, my darling child"

Diane almost teared up as the older woman hugged her tightly and rubbed her back.

"I also heard that Mel has not been kind to you, don't hold it against her, she's always had trouble with new people, she'll come around soon if she hasn't already. Despite everything she loves you and what you are to her sister.

I'm also guessing one or both of your parents weren't nice people, it's okay for we are your knew family now"

"..h..how.. do y..you kn...."

"Shhhh... you don't have to say anything darling, I just know"

The two women parted slightly before your grandma left Diane, and as you came back to her, kissing her soundly before asking what she'd told her. Diane answered just mother in-law-daughter in law stuff.

You laughed a little before telling her that it was more grandma in law.

"Well she is young enough to be my mother, and since mine wasn't really as kind...you know"

"I know.. even though my mother's gone, i find myself calling her mom sometimes, she took care of me a long time after I had no mom left for that anymore"

Eventually your hand fell on her back, the anxiety of having her scars showing long gone as you both cuddled while everyone else threw water at you both.

"I love you baby"

"I love you too Diane...welcome to the family"

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