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i can't be the only one who felt EMOTIONS when i heard johnny and v speak again during the phantom liberty trailer right

i just missed johnny and v so much and it made me FEEL THINGS to finally hear them again and know our time with them ain't quite over yet

I AM TOO INVESTED IN CHARACTERS DOOMED BY THE NARRATIVE SOMEONE HELP ME

#cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk2077 #johnny silverhand #v #just v #phantom liberty #cyberpunk #cyberpunk shitpost #crying #i’m excited #very excited #and scared #cyberpunk 2077 phantom liberty

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I hear you, Upsilon. What’s going on?

#soma #soma game #frictional games #simon jarrett #carl semken #amy azzaro #catherine chun #upsilon #mine #screenshots

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you tell ‘em, BD-1

#star wars jedi: survivor #jedi survivor #jedi: survivor #Jedi: Fallen Order #jedi fallen order #star wars: jedi fallen order #cal kestis #bd-1 #bd1 #bd 1 #rayvis #i fucking love bd so much #cameron monaghan #also look at cal #he is flawless #best hair by far #my screenshots #bd is ride or die #he will fuck you up #in fact he does #he bodies rayvis lmao

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playing jedi: survivor makes me feel so dumb. i’ll spend 15 minutes in one spot, desperately trying to figure out how i’m supposed to progress: where do i go?? can i jump on that? no. should i jump here? oh no i’m fucking falling to my death again. ok. BD help me. someone help me. where do i go?? WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? I’M TRAPPED???

and then i notice a ledge that i was just supposed to hop up to. don’t even need jedi gymnastics. or i end up just massively overthinking something that has a very simple and direct solution.

love this game but holy fuck it makes me realize what an oblivious idiot i am

#jedi: survivor #star wars jedi: survivor #jedi survivor #Jedi: Fallen Order #jedi fallen order #cal kestis #i am bad at platformers #rip #bd 1 #bd #bd1

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my heart is occupied just totally enamored i am obsessed

#star wars jedi: survivor #jedi survivor #cal kestis #Jedi: Fallen Order #jedi fallen order #jedi: survivor #bd 1 #bd1 #look at him #JUST LOOK AT HIM #BEHOLD #HEART EYES #I CANNOT STOP #cameron monaghan

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i’m cal, and this is BD-1

cal always introduces BD when he introduces himself and i will never get over how much i fucking love these two lovable puppies. their bond is one of my favorite things about the games. THEY BUDDIES FOR LIFE ALWAYS AND FOREVER

#jedi: survivor #jedi survivor #star wars jedi: survivor #cal kestis #bd 1 #bd-1 #i would die for both of them #jedi fallen order #Jedi: Fallen Order #star wars: jedi fallen order

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can i just say how much i love that cal kestis is a redhead

i just fucking love playing this game and he has this pretty bright red hair because i also have bright red hair and i dunno it just gives me deep satisfaction like THAT'S ME

i love him

#jedi: survivor #jedi survivor #cal kestis #bd 1 #star wars jedi: survivor #jedi fallen order #fallen order #jedi: fallen order #gingers have to stick together #cameron monaghan

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blue reflection: second light is legitimately one of the most endearing and sweetest jrpgs i've ever played

it's just so fucking cute and adorable and UGH i love the depth they put into each character and my heart can't take it

also the ost is stellar

#blue reflection second light #blue reflection #gust #koei tecmo #rip my heart

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SPOILER WARNINGS FOR THE LAST OF US

watching the hospital scene in the hbo show for the last of us just... it floored me. i mean, it really made me appreciate the differences in the way a show can tell a narrative versus the way a video game can.

video game story-telling is so unique. there’s nothing else like it, you know? you put the player IN the world. you make the player interact with it, and it’s fucking personal. it’s not just watching actors on a screen, it’s YOU doing it. it’s immersive and engrossing, and i think that’s absolutely amazing. especially when it comes to the last of us. it’s brutal in such a unique way. all the different sequences, and the position the game puts the player in. the things we gotta do to survive. the way it makes us invest emotionally, and deeply, in subtle ways. and it comes together in that last portion and it’s really well done.

but that hospital scene in the show just fuckin’ hit different. completely.

in the game, i think the majority of players felt the same way. they were gonna save ellie. there were no qualms about it. we spent the whole game killing npc’s to protect her, and this was no different. and it’s a challenging level, you know? we’re not really thinking about what we’re actually doing in terms of weight and the possible consequences. we’re just saving ellie. just mowing down these npc’s like we have been. it requires some concentration, and that can kinda take away from the emotional weight of what’s going on due to the action and having to focus on the gameplay.

but in the show... that scene is fucking haunting. pedro pascal’s performance was so compelling. the way his facial expression is just... blank. he’s not panicked. he’s not angry. he’s just... on auto-pilot. there’s no reaction from him as he kills all of those fireflies. and us, as the viewers, are just that: viewers. we’re not doing it. we’re just watching. and it’s hard to watch. it’s brutal. and it really drives home how, uh, deranged joel looks. like. holy shit man. this is fucked. this is INTENSE. and the way he does the killing. there’s no hesitation. there’s no emotion at all. even with the firefly who set down his weapon and surrendered. joel just fucking shoots him anyway. and the way he’s just picking up different guns as his runs out of ammo. the way he uses a knife instead to finish the job. when we’re playing it, it feels practical, you know, looting the dead npc’s like we have been. but in the show it’s just like, holy fuck, man. it’s just haunting.

don’t get me wrong, it’s intense in the game, too. but there’s something about seeing it the way the show is able to portray it. with real people. real human beings. the killing and the blood just feels heavier. it’s so visceral. and again, we’re not the ones doing it. we’re not feeling justified or vindicated. we don’t have to defend our actions. it just is what it is. a man killing an entire hospital full of people who could potentially find a cure to save one little girl he’s forged an unbreakable bond with. it gives a different perspective.

tldr: shit is good.

#the last of us #the last of us hbo #the last of us part 1 #joel miller #ellie williams #pedro pascal #bella ramsey #naughty dog #sorry i just have a lot of thoughts #it's so good #i love this story #the different modes of story telling are so good #i appreciate em both for different reasons

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i said it once and i'll say it again

THE REBEL PATH FUCKING SLAPS. ONE OF THE BEST TRACKS TO GRACE VIDEO GAMES AND I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL

especially the cello version. IT'S SO GOOD MAKES ME WANNA NUKE A CORRUPT CORP I LOVE IT

tbh the whole ost for cyberpunk 2077 is a fuckin gem

#cyberpunk 2077 #cyberpunk2077 #johnny silverhand #the rebel path #v #just v #arasaka #cp2077

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you know i really relate to cloud in the ff7 remake. every time he realizes he's being affable or displaying any emotion that isn't apathy, he immediately looks horrified and distressed and then runs away while avoiding eye contact

the man RECOILS at any and all social interaction and tries to avoid it at any cost necessary. but it's not because he thinks he's better than everyone else. it's because he's awkward as fuck and doesn't want to make himself look stupid or vulnerable so he takes the aloof route to the extreme

i..... love him he is my spirit animal

#cloud strife #final fantasy vii #final fantasy vii remake #ff7 #final fantasy 7 #final fantasy 7 remake #ff7 remake #i love him so much #i relate deeply #also everyone won't stop harassing him #poor boy #he is a cat

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listen it’s just fucking adorable in the intro sequence of cyberpunk 2077, jackie notices how absolutely bummed out and lost V looks and immediately comes up to them and gives ‘em an encouraging pat like the goofy adorable teddy bear he is ugh HE DESERVED BETTER

#cyberpunk 2077 #Cyberpunk2077 #jackie welles #v #just v #johnny silverhand #my v #male v #fem v #i love jackie... #i miss him #sweet prince #also i love that street v wears a mox tank top #streetkid #he's so real for that

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bro i've only seen captioned gifs of frank and bill from the hbo series and i'm fucking crying and devastated there is no fucking way i'll survive actually watching it what the fuck

#the last of us hbo #the last of us #frank and bill #bill and frank #joel miller #ellie williams #nick offerman #murray bartlett #pedro pascal #bella ramsey #seriously #what the fuck #SHIT IS HEARTBREAKING #I CANNOT HANDLE SUCH EMOTIONAL TURMOIL

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it’s absolutely hilarious that in halcyon, the shady back alley drug deals are for fucking vitamins and shit meanwhile you can buy cocaine and guns from a vending machine i love this game

#the outer worlds #orick west #murder on eridanos #obsidian #vitamins like you wouldn't believe #lmfao

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honestly the people being unnecessarily fucking rude about bella ramsey playing ellie in the hbo show need to go jump in a ditch. like there is no need to be such an asshole about her just because you're upset she's not a carbon copy of the character model from the game. like jesus christ, get over it. ashley johnson (the actress who plays ellie in the games) herself wanted bella to play ellie in the show. i mean, we've hardly even gotten to see her on-screen, considering the first episode was focused on setting up the in-world lore.

i just don't get why the fuck some people in this fandom are so fuckin' toxic and rude. people are really out here blasting this girl because she doesn't fit absurd standards that, frankly, no one could possibly meet due to how rigid and unforgiving this part of the fandom is. if you don't like the casting, that's fine. your opinion, whatever. but there's absolutely no need to attack her and her appearance so viciously. she's a human being. the bratty entitlement is insane lmao

#the last of us #the last of us hbo #bella ramsey #naughty dog #hbo series #absolute pricks out here #be more chill #calm the fuck down lmao #she's doing fine

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the archon is such a goofy looking motherfucker like you expect me to be afraid of this dumbass guy with a small fuckin' face and a weird spaghettio skull like COME ON

LOOK AT THIS STUPID ASSHOLE LMAO EUGENICS WHO???

#mass effect andromeda #mass effect: andromeda #mass effect #the archon #scott ryder #pathfinder ryder #alec ryder #sara ryder #cora harper #lmfao #i do love this game though #i really do #liam kosta

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saw this on the cyberpunk subreddit and it’s so true i love it. just a couple of chooms hanging out on a rooftop, staring at each other while actively dying in silence

#cyberpunk 2077 #Cyberpunk2077 #v #just v #johnny silverhand #(don't fear) the reaper #secret ending #don't fear the reaper #i love them #it was great just staring at each other #bonding #cyberpunk memes #shitpost #johnny is the dog