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There’s a recent thing with places of harassment demanding shame. To them, if you share at all that you have DID, you’re clearly faking. If you change your appearance when you switch, you’re clearly a faker. If you’re not the perfect image of childhood abuse, you’re clearly a faker. They move the goalpost. Even if you’re perfect to them in every way, well DID is just a super rare disorder so of course you’re faking.

To all of this, I say no. No more. It’s not fair to police survivors on what they can and can’t do with their life or disorders or whatever whatever whatever. It’s not fair to force everyone into this one little box where no matter how perfect you are to them, you’re STILL not valid in their eyes. The box is impossible to fit into.

No amount of potential fakers can justify this harassment, which sure. Fine. There are fakers. But that doesn’t matter and its not for you to decide. That’s a doctor and patient discussion. However, I can only think this: even if no one was faking, like ever in the history of the world, they would still be do this. It’s a shitty excuse for bad behavior that they should have grown out of in high school. No amount of “I’m diagnosed with DID” can justify being a dick to others with it.

You also have to wonder why this sort of bullying doesn’t happen in other communities? I’m sure it does, but it’s not like this. The point is: we should not tolerate the shit fit throwing, angry toddler acting grown adults in this community.

Then again, I don’t have to worry about what people on the internet say. Realistically, I don’t care if you think I’m faking, since that is not my problem. What? You know better than the professionals who diagnosed me? Fucking hilarious. However, I get upset on behalf of others in this community. It’s not fair to be existing in your space and then be told you’re worthless and dragging down the reputation of “real people with DID”.

So, no. I will not bow to your bad behavior. I will continue to do my thing, live my life, and educate those in my communities. I will not stifle those in my system for validity points that never existed to begin with. I will not quiet my voice, I will not be forced into submission, and I will not be ashamed of a disorder I never chose to have. That phase of my life ended years ago.

You deserve better, you deserve healing, you deserve to not be ashamed of your life.

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To the people who decided to obey a content creator and put rude/hateful messages in tags a group is specifically using to prevent those who dislike and are uncomfortable with them having to see their posts in the more general tags.

When someone has convinced you to go out of your way to troll, harass, and raid people based solely on a difference of opinion it is probably time to reconsider how you interact with their content.

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i am so tired of anti endogenic blogs co-opting plural spaces that have always been inclusive. i scrolled the plural tag and have found several blogs cross tagging their shit when theyre anti endogenic. screenshots below are posted by the same blog, one is intro post and the other was cross tagged to shit.

at this point i dont fucking care that these people are against endogenic systems existence. but it is basic tumblr ettiequte to not fucking crosstag shit. its double basic tumblr ettiequte to not tag your hate.

the syscoursers who are anti-endogenic only to go on endogenic blogs to comment hate or cross tag their posts with obviously pro endo tags: why do you fucking do this. if you hate endogenics so much why are you willingly entering their spaces.

are you actively looking at things that upset you for the sake of being upset? because thats self harm. stop exposing yourself to things that upset and hurt you.

it doesnt make any sense and im genuinely angry about it. the tags i use for pro endo content are unusable because of this.

#plural #system #multiplicity #sysblr #pro endo #syscourse #pluralgang #i fucking hate it here #sadie adjacent

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hey so like. idk really what the radqueer community is but im seeing some people who are mega radqueer interacting with my post and you guys are on thin ice

#anti rq #anti radqueer #like do what you want forever but please do it away from me thanks

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just got vivid memories to being in a psych hospital stay and getting to have 3 meals a day + 3 sandwiches a day because of my eating disorder. all of the other patients were so pissed everytime i got a sandwich between meals

#hospital cw #eating disorder cw #idk i think it was funny #we got 3 meals + 3 snacks #but the snacks were usually like bags of chips or crackers #so i would get a sandwich + crackers #it was awful though bc the kitchen NEVER MADE THEM RIGHT.

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this is even funnier upon remembering that oakley was the first alter to have a crush on gf and start flirting with her. oakley ‘hasnt fronted alone in almost 2yrs’ cavity threw herself into front upon finding out her girlfriend was sad. marvelous. i love lesbians

girlfriend: is upset and sad

oakley: ON MY FUCKING WAY

#oakley #oakley has been cocon recently but hasnt actually fronted in a while #so mfin funny that this is what brought them back

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We ask your questions so you don’t have to! Submit your questions to have them posted anonymously as polls.

#too many lol #adhd + cptsd/DID + anxiety most of the time #a lot of the others have been more managable recently

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girlfriend: is upset and sad

oakley: ON MY FUCKING WAY

#like seriously she jumped into front SO FAST #and then half wrote an email about herself to the therapist #and as soon as she started feeling better #oakley left again #like damn okay #oakley

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they should invent a brain that doesn’t whisper bad things to you

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anyone else ever wish they could lie down harder? Like, I'm already horizonal, but I need more horizonal. I need to be absorbed by the floor. I think that would fix me

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healthy communication is so mfing hard so i have started imagining the thing that pops up on your screen when you gain xp in fallout 4 every time i have a hard convo.

have a difficult convo with girlfriend abt moving out? 7xp

establish a boundary with someone? 10xp

firmly hold my boundaries and say no to someone? 20xp

#shes avoidant and im anxious attachment so difficult convos can be hard #but everytime we communicate we are better for having done it than not #and we gotta level up our skill tree by doing the things #passive skill multiplier #communication

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emdr therapy is crazy, ive done it for two different things and it still blows my mind how much it helps me with PTSD-like symptoms i get over events

#i did it when i got in my car crash #i stopped having nightmares and flashbacks practically overnight #and now im doing flash emdr with my therapist and its helping with my anxieties over homelessness #i still have more sessions of it to go #but already it has helped massively

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the anti endos found my post and are hating me, meanwhile im sitting there like

#me when minors are telling me to kill myself LOL #like honey i’ve already tried #sadie adjacent #suicide cw

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I'm new enough to both this space and this... Aspect of our lives that I'm genuinely not sure what people here use "endogenic" to even mean system wise- I just hear people not liking endos?

apologies if this is something I could've just looked up, I just am worried about stepping into a space that doesn't actually welcome me.

hi anon. endogenic is an umbrella term meaning formed from (genic) within (endo). basically a system that was not formed by trauma. under the endogenic umbrella are a lot more labels that i dont think i could name off the top of my head correctly, so i’ll leave that an open question for others to answer if they want.

people saying they dont like endogenic systems are generally trying to make the argument that plurality can only happen due to trauma and result in a diagnosis of DID/OSDD. the word to refer to a system formed from trauma is traumagenic.

welcome to plural community anon, hope you enjoy your stay :)

#anon #ask