Woah, I’ve been gone for SOOOO long. But I’m tired of being fat and out of control. Time to get back, even if the fear of failing makes me want to binge more.
Fun fact, I’ve been back and forth on my ed. ana started to disappear after I started taking meds. I’ve been off of them for about 4-5 days now, and ana is coming back with a bang, but so is my depression. Soooo, depression and ana, or stabilized mood and getting fat? Either way I’m not going to be completely happy. Please help
So!! I know it’s not the healthiest, BUT, we’ve gotta get that protein in somehow cause otherwise you’ll lose muscle and gain fat :// so the number on the scale will go down but you’ll look all loose and flabby :( so!! I like to go to Starbucks as a reward and incentive to starve the day before and day of(aside from protein shakes). I get the GRANDE iced chai tea latte with almond milk instead of 2% in a VENTI cup. Add a premier protein shake to it and you have a tasty treat with high protein and relatively low calories. And!! Depending on your bmi, you’re already halfway through all the protein you’ll need for the day and then you don’t have to eat anything else! For reference, I have my macronutrients below:
Stats:
340cal drink
32g protein
95mg caffeine
*not the healthiest or most low cal, but I prefer to drink my protein rather than eat steak/other heavy meats and it’s nice to switch it up from the plain nasty shakes every once in awhile
Update: I feel it’s pretty obvious with the stat changes/recent pic posts that I fucked up. I hit 102lb, did great that day with not eating, and then friends came over and it was all downhill from there. BUT, I wanna get back to at least 112lb, so I wanna share some HAWT photos from when I was skinny. Blow these up so I have motivation knowing I’m only attractive when I’m super thin??
Jesus fucking Christ. For some dumbass reason I thought getting “better” would be smart. Time to restart this whole process and tarnish my image on here of a hardworking ana stan. (I say as I fill out a food journal showing a complete lack of control) —————————————————————-