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Life is short, and it’s hard, so remember to treat yourself!

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #self love #treat yourself #i love cake #also frosting #yumyum

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Stop telling me how to fix MY disorder! It can’t be cured, I have this for life. I can manage it but it will never go so stop telling me it will!

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #anxiety #mixed episode #depressive episode #manic episode #apathy #disasociation #self harm #suicidal ideation #i hate it all #i have it all

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And the cycle repeats.

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #anxiety #depressive episode #manic episode #mixed episode

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It’s like I can just disappear into my bipolar and never resurface.

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #anxiety #invisible #disappear #i'll never resurface

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I’m not crazy though - I swear! Though most people would disagree.

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #anxiety #mixed episode #apathy #disassociation #passenger

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I always wonder why they insist I explain myself to them, then. If you don’t want to know, just don’t ask. I hate stumbling over myself trying to explain it as simply as possible.

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #anxiety #disappointed #upset #frustrating #i hate people sometimes

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Too many times I’ve gotten caught up in my mind.

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #anxiety #depressive episode #manic episode #mixed episode #apathy #disassociation #racing thoughts #don't believe everything you think

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The only self care I care about is a cold dark room and a comfy bed.

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #depression #depressive episode #anxiety #agoraphobia #darkness #cold #my home

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It’s like I just shut down. Is it apathy? Or is it disassociation? I’ll probably never figure it out.

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolardepression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #anxiety #apathy #disassociation #mixed episode

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All it takes is a single moment to shatter me into a million pieces.

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #anxiety #shattered #outside and inside #broken #help me

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As one of my Instagram followers said, we only want to be found by someone who is just there, not asking, not judging, just keeping their arms open for us when we are in the mood for it. I always feel like a contradiction though.

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #anxiety #we want to disappear #but we want to be found

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But it’s mostly annoying.

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #anxiety #medication #pills #meds #drugs #ugh ugh ugh

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No matter what we do, our lives are as fleeting as a dandelion in the wind.

#memento mori #bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #anxiety #depressive episode #manic episode

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I think my soul is just over all of this shit.

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #depressive episode #anxiety #i'm so fucking exhausted #i'm so tired

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Most days I’m adrift, but I know my friends and my family have my back. For the most part anyway.

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #depressive episode #mania #manic episode #lost at sea #support network

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I just can’t help myself. It’s too easy to look back and see how far I’ve fallen.

#bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #anxiety #what is my life #what is my problem #i can't stop myself

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D’you ever think about how easy it’d be, to turn the steering wheel an inch or two and meet the sea. Oh, I never would, though it may be fun to believe, it’s just a sick little daydream. - Where The Mind Wants To Go - I The Mighty

#i the mighty #where the mind wants to go #bipolar #bipolar disorder #bipolar depression #bipolar mania #depression #mania #anxiety #suicidal ideation #call of the void