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everything is SO good right now, praying that everyone else heals bc this happiness shit feels amazing and needs to be shared

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any time

REBLOG IF ITS OKAY TO TALK TO YOU.

Please.

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i just payed £9.99 for literal tampons what the fuck is wrong with this world

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pls i’m so bored

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hey, so i have to isolate (on my birthday) and i was wondering if u guys had any ideas of stuff i could do? i’m so bored already

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What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go.

You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to  her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all  busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself

but you killed everyone else around you too. 

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Hi I need an outsider’s perspective, the other day I had a panic attack in front of my Nan, and my mum got really angry at me and said I need to apologise to her for it but i don’t feel like i should apologise for something that i can’t control, am i just being selfish?she also always tells me that my mental health is a big inconvenience for her and everyone around me, I tried to talk to her about it but she never listens to me and only think she’s right, she also has an INSANE victim complex so I can never call her out, she also used to have anxiety herself so it’s really frustrating to me how she doesn’t understand that what she’s saying upsets me, please help me

#anxiety #mentalhealth #pls help #toxic mom #parents #advice #i need advice #panic attack #victimcomplex

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You cracked the codes and guessed all the From The Vault titles. 👏👏👏

Here’s the full track list, my friends. I’m really honored that Keith Urban is a part of this project, duetting on That’s When and singing harmonies on We Were Happy. I was his opening act during the Fearless album era and his music has inspired me endlessly. I’m counting down the minutes til we can all jump into this brave world together, filled with equal parts nostalgia and brand newness. 

Head first, Fearless 💛

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let’s go more into detail about what misogynoir is so it will be a bit easier for you guys to notice it. on my youtube channel i talk about this subject a lot. if you guys are interested in learning more, please check it out.

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I woke up this morning, watched two (2) videos of Harry Styles' interviews and spent 3 hours a sobbing mess on my bed because 'I'll never get to be friends with him.' and if that doesn't accurately describe my mental state during quarantine, nothing does.

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I feel called out 😅

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I’ve never been enough.

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Being in lockdown just makes you feel so alone and all those things you thought you could handle you suddenly can't

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MeIRL