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thank you <3

thank you for letting me love you.

thank you for letting me be able to take care of you when you felt like you didn’t need taking care of.

thank you for the smiles, the laughter, the joy, and the love.

thank you for letting me be proud of you. Thank you for allowing me to support you like you were the only person in the room.

thank you, from the bottom of my heart. Thank you for letting me love you.

🫶

it’s hard for me to understand how you became the person you are today. Or maybe, it’s hard for me to understand how people treated you in order for you to get this way.

I can’t believe that people couldn’t love you. I can’t believe they couldn’t treat you with respect, and kindness, and love.

I can’t believe they couldn’t be proud of you and love you.

it’s hard for me to understand how I made you feel so comfortable.

how such little words such as “we” and the smallest reminders could make you so comfortable with me.

I think, the only reason why I can love you so much. Is because I can’t love myself that much. I think I was able to pour all of my love for myself into you.

you are the person I want to be. I want to be able to show that laughter and excitement and childishness with everyone that I meet.

but maybe it’s the way that people treated me, that I can’t be like you.

thank you for letting me love you. Thank you for letting me be able to live my dream through your eyes.

thank you 🫶

#<3 #mom friend #my love #my doves #Mine #thank you #i love them so much

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I have given them the childhood that they were robbed of.

But in the process of giving them the childhood they were robbed of, I have robbed myself of my teenage years.

Always the giver, never the receiver.

Always the writer, never written.

Always the poet, never the poem.

Always an angel, never a god.

Always the helper, never helped

Always depended on, never not independent.

Always the photographer, never in the photo

Always good, never enough

Always smart, never the smartest

Always the artist, never the muse.

Always the healer, never the healed.

Always the admirer, never admired.

Always the protector, never protected.

Always an option, never chosen.

Always understanding, never understood.

Always okay, never the best.

Always a friend, never the best friend.

Always hyping up, never getting hyped up.

Always the supporter, never supported.

Always there for them, never there for me.

Always for them, never for me.

#Always #Never #Love #My friends<3 #Friends #<3 #poetry

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Everything for them, one thing for me

Everything for them. I will give this everything and anything they ask for. They deserve the entire world <3 They deserve all the beautiful, peaceful, happy, and exciting things that this world has to offer because they absolutely deserve it all so much. The deserve every bit and piece of joy that comes their way. I hope they achieve every great thing in life because they are my greatest things ever.

I hope they can forgive this one thing that I cannot give them. I hope they can understand why I cannot give them this one thing that we have all wished and thought of and for. I hope they can forgive the one thing that I had decided I need to do for myself.

I love them, I love them, I love them, I love them. I love them so much and I wish for the greatest most best things for them. I hope they all can make the best most greatest things out of their selves and get out of the situations they're in. I hope to hear and see their names on billboards, their names becoming a household names as young kids look up to them in amazement.

I hope that one day, I can tell everyone that I know. That I used to know them. That I would give everything to them.

Everything for them. One thing for me.

#my heart full of love #mom friend #rant #<3 #Everythingforthem #Happiness

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He’s so cute omfg 😭🤭💕

I just wanted to rant for a little bit but like before that:

Guys- I got me a boyfriend 😭😋👍

I haven’t talked about him on here and it was actually like a kinda whole thing but like I just wanted to rant about him rq cause he was hella cute today 😭

So we’re kinda like long distance kinda thing (I won’t get into it lol) but like basically we haven’t seen each other in a while and he’s gonna come to my volleyball game so we’re both kinda excited cause we’ll see each other after so long

and he was just so impatient about waiting 2 days to see me 😭 and it was so cute cause he was like admitting he was hella impatient too

anyways he’s just a cute adorable sweetheart and I posted a story of like a photo dump of me in makeup and like doing my hair and he kept on replying to it hella cute 🤭

he literally makes my heart melt, like dude really makes me feel like a little girl (I fr be kicking my feet back and forth when we message and like my face hurts from smiling so much 😋🤭🤭)

But that was it 😋 just wanted to rant about my little cutie cause I gotta tell someone abt him :)))

#crushing #Little cutie #i love him sm omg #my boyfriend #<3333

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Pov: You love them so much that your heart aches because of them <3

I think I love my friends too much. Like, wayyyy too much. I love my girls, I love my boys, I love them all so much it's insane. Like I would literally walk through the entirety of hell just for them all to be happy. Because they all literally deserve the entire world. They deserve the universe. I would give them all a universe if they wanted.

But I think the ones that I love the most have nicknames. Like a little simple nickname that I think fits them perfectly and reminds me of them so much.

I love my girls <3

I love my boys <3

I love my little one <3

I love my star <3

I love my dark ball of sunshine <3

I love my heart that's full of love <3

I love my sweetheart <3

I love my love <3

And I "like-like" my pretty boy <3

I hope they find their way to a big and prospect future that they deserve. They all deserve everything. Absolutely everything.

Like I didn't know how much I would love these people until I met them. I think I like one of them a little too much tho- ;-;

#i love them #my girls #my boys #my little one #my star #my dark ball of sunshine #my heart full of love #my sweetheart #my love #my pretty boy <3 #crushing #heart ache

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"I was talking with the moon last night, the moon told me something about the sun, and I told something about you."

(It's a rant, but about best friend, my bestie, I love you babes)

I suppose there are a couple of talking stages that best friends go through. But currently I only know of two. And those two, have already been talked through and about.

It feels like were always in the same place, the same house, the same bedroom, and talking. Talking about whatever came to our little yet too grown minds.

The first time we were in that room, we were about nine and ten. Talking about how we were to never like, date, and marry a real boy and would live together in a two story house. How little us would be so confused how we got off track from that. We even told our parents, aunties, uncles, brothers that never cared, and cousins who were too young to understand.

I think that room held a lot of memories to us. Both of us practicing for a concert that would last only one song, the only song that both of us would sing. The talking about anime characters and who we shipped them with. That room was there for it all.

But I think last night was the night that we realized just how many conversations we had in that room. All the talks we had when we were still in elementary, thinking we were mature when we sounded like complete dumbasses.

And I suppose we realized the amount of conversations that room held when we were talking about them last night.

"I was talking with the moon last night," Bestie, you're the moon. Pale as a ghost, but brightened the darkly lit up room we were sitting in. You've always been the moon. A moon that you can see even in the brightest of days.

"the moon told me something about the sun," And bestie, I can't believe you didn't tell me all this about your sun till now. A story book not worth for everyone worldwide to read, but a storybook worthy of being a fanfiction plot.

"and I told something about you." But you isn't just one person, but two. One that I've started falling out of love with, and one that I'm just now realizing.

Last night was the night that we had our second best friend conversation. Something about it, makes me wonder. What our younger selves would think about all this.

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“To that girl, who I’ve been in love with since November of 2021” - Love, me from 2023

So like Uhmm- I don’t even know my sexuality anymore because for the past like decade of my life I’ve been aroace but since like November 2021 I’ve started liking this girl and I just- I don’t know. And I think that lately I’ve been like drifting away from this crush that I’ve been having for a like long long time and so I think just plainly admitting it is like the best course of action. I also think that I’m starting to like some guys too so maybe bi or pan but idk anymore. Cause like I still feel like Im aroace but all of these feelings I’ve been having for people just seem to be hitting me like now and I just- 😩 don’t even know anymore.

Anyways- little rant, love y’all 🫶

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Fanfiction Writing Problems :D

I'm so stuck on writing this one-shot for my bestie and it's literally stressing me out lowkey but I still wanna write it because it's one of my favorite pairs but I don't know how it became my favorite pair because it's considered a rare pair or a crack pair but I love it sm and it literally became like my all across the board otp.

Anyways yeah- fanfiction writer struggles be real asf 😭

#fanfiction #archieve of our own #wattpad #fanfiction writter

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I have found the reason for my back problems :D

I think I have found the reason for why I have back problems.

My back problems is that my back constantly hurts but at the same time needs a lot of pressure or my back does not feel right. And I think I've just found the reason.

My back hurts because of the amount of stress, responsibility, and tasks that I constantly take on that I can't take on anymore.

But the only reason I take on those task is so that I can feel like I'm actually doing something, thus, the pressure on my back that I need.

I feel like I just found the solution to life lmao.

How'd I found this out?

I'm a burnout gifted kid :P

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Hellyoh!!

Helloooo... I've decided to start writing here on Tumblr as kind of a blog? My mom suggested that I do it since I like writing so here it is I guess?

A lil bit about me:

+ I'm a student (guess my age range lmao) + I'm Asian (Hmong to be specific) + My favorite animals are Snakes and Octopuses + I'm the mom friend of my rowdy group of friends (Children) + I write fanfiction :D + I watch Anime (Not a lot tho- I have issues of wanting to start an anime but not because I'm attached to another one) + I like writing, reading fanfics, baking, and doing origami + I play volleyball (#4 <333) + I'm AroAce (Aromantic & Asexual) + I use They/Them pronouns +I play the sims 4, roblox, and minecraft

Here's some of my socials: Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCtdDliHULa-O4nLhxPN-NKw/featured Archive of Our Own (AO3): https://archiveofourown.org/users/DevilsTrashCan24/profile Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/user/devilstrashcan24

I have no clue what I want to post on here but I know that I must just write whatever I feel at the moment!!